#maybe then I will also have a response ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

[wetbananapeel]

We all want to know.. did you find your journal?

I haven't yet and it's crushing. My chest has been physically hurting today because it is so precious to me.

I've been writing in the same journal since last year, it contains things such as major events, things I want to remember, thoughts after experiences and dates and spending time with friends, and has been a way of processing trauma for things I've been remembering and details regarding sexual abuse and how it's currently been affecting me, but also of how healing has looked throughout the months. I'm incredibly introspective so it feels like a part of me is gone; the book feels like an extension of self. A space I bare my soul's frame.

She has been the only person I've had over lately and I tend to keep the journal in specific places in my small studio (i.e. on the kitchen table, my nightstand, on a record player, or on a stack of books on a chair I have). The last time I remember seeing the journal it was on the chair with other books stacked in the mix. I believe it may have been there when she visited as I also had an art book I had made that I remember her looking at cause we discussed it. The journal looks visually intriguing cause it has crystals in the cover and I can understand why someone would be interested to read what's in it.

However, I want to always assume good intent and perhaps I misplaced it. I'm still looking, but again, I'm only looking over 345 sq ft and I don't take it out of my apartment only seldom for the times I've taken it to the park, which hasn't been recent. I only keep it in the specific spots in my apartment.

Therefore, I have a gut feeling it's been taken. I ended up texting her around 5 pm today. I still didn't accuse, but I asked if she remembered seeing it because I've misplaced it. I wanted to phrase my question in a way that isn't unjustly accusatory, and more so of a "hey, have you seen this anywhere?" She, while typically a prompt responder, has left me on delivered since then. Again, that in of itself isn't inherently something, but with the combo of the other things, makes me feel icky.

I'm still searching my apartment and awaiting a response. I hope that if she had taken it, that I can at least get it back due to its overwhelmingly sentimental nature. The journal is a way of me capturing feeling and without it I have only the reliability of my memory which can be subjective to the passage of time both in deterioration and accuracy.

It's the raw maw of my human experience this past year. This year in particular has been so exponentially transformative and without accurate depictions of those experiences, the depth of how I can reflect and simply accurately remember, falls flat.

The thing is, while I am new to the city I'm living in, I've known her for a few years, but we are not great friends and more acquaintances. However, if it ends up being that she has taken it from my apartment, I don't think I could ever trust her in any capacity. For me, taking and reading my journal is such an egregious breach of trust, the intimacy of the pages is sacred. It would be such a violation that the level of friendship we have would be so shallow in comparison to the boundary it broke.

I'm holding out still that I've misplaced it. Although, if she has it, I pray it weighs heavy on her conscience to the point it is returned.

If I am allotted a resolution, I'll do a follow up. For the time being, the journal remains absent.

For visual reference, it's the one with the crystals in the middle.

[i-am-vero-draw]

I have been thinking a lot about many things, also the occupations in my home do not leave me calm as well as school responsibilities and anxiety too. I will not start my projects very soon but at some point I will start them and I wanted to talk to you about some of these, I need to relieve ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

I'm planning the creation of 9 Undertale AU's, one of them marks the "end" of each one in some way, but it's something I think about and I love how I think about it. I like my work ^^

I also have several original Oc's that I would like to show you, my favorite is a wolf girl with blue fur (maybe it sounds cringe but it's my first Oc, she's been with me since I was 13 years old and since then it's been growing and improving with me, maybe you'll like it :D).

I'm also helping another friend to make designs and bases for her own Sansverse, she doesn't know much about Undertale but she wants to try anyway, the story is going well I think, I trust her ^^.

And to top it off, I plan to make a comic of my Oc from Sky: Children of the Light (I showed a wip earlier, you'll probably find it out there), This includes my best friend from Sky who wants to join me in doing this, I just need to know how to get started somehow...

It doesn't matter! I know I'll find a way to do everything I want to show you >:D

Well, that was it (a lot of text XD), Here I show you some drawings about my work.

[mikka-minns]

Vietnamese mythology is diverse and has many gods, some belong to religions too but here are the Mainstream ones that are told in Myths and ones I know a lot about as a Kid:

_The 2 Creation Gods, the Sea Dragon God and Mountain Fairy, who had 100 children who became the Vietnamese people and technically that's how Vietnam was founded, basically they gave birth to this country mythologically

_The Mountain God who fought with the Water God over a Human Princess for becoming her husband, he's a Himbo, the Hero of the story, well that's it, there isn't much on him I can cover but I'm really cool with him, oh yeah he also owns a huge Mountain Range here, which is called the Ancestor of all Mountains in Vietnam

_The mentioned Water God, a really cool villain, I like him, he's the OG Romance Sad Boy cause he didn't win in that Bride dispute hence he still loves the Human Princess, VERY petty ass bitch if you ask me, well he did almost drown this whole country in the Sea back in the Bride dispute so yeah, who says you can't be both sad and also a bitch? Well I mean I like him but I can't forget this Guy can drown the country cause he didn't get the Girl, still love him though, he's so Babygirl, reminds me of me

_Super cool Heavenly King God of War, he's a National Idol no joke, he's literally the Youth Spirit Symbol here, the Youth sport festivals have his name in it too, he also represents the National Spirit of Protection against Invaders because he's very well known for appearing at the time the Country was ravaged by wars and invaders, got a sick ass Iron Horse that can breath Fire, he uses bamboos as his weapon which is a huge cultural symbol here. He's a Youth Spirit cuz his human age is 3 years old, he's similar to Nezha in a way, they have vastly different tales and personalities ofc. He's also known for being a giant so I think he's physically bigger than the last two gods I mentioned, oh yeah he's WAY MORE OF A BIG SHOT THAN THE LAST TWO, cuz we have statues of him all over the country, I have one at my place too, as well as streets named after him, I mean he and the Mountain God belong to the 4 Immortals, 4 major gods in Vietnamese religions, ofc that Mountain God also has his own temples too (Well I have never seen the Mountain God statue before but considering how ancient he is and how he's very important in the Vietnamese religion, I think he's just as well loved)

_The Marriage God, who's also one of the 4 Immortals and he's Himbo no.2, he and the Mountain God actually married human princesses of the same family so yeah THAT'S SOMETHING HERE, apparently Humans and Gods can just get married and everyone is super cool with it in Vietnam as opposed to how it's mainly forbidden in Chinese myths. Where's my God husband?!!! Maybe it's because I'm just a normal gal, not a Princess so yeah ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ, even though I don't think ranks matter that much, Gods can love anyone they want. Btw he's actually interesting in that he's a Male God and the God of Marriage, I usually think that normally Goddesses are responsible for Marriage but who say a God can't be a God of Marriage

Oh yeah the 4 Immortals are also embodiments of the conceptual values of Vietnamese culture.

The last of the 4 Immortals I didn't talk much of is a Heavenly Princess or a Mother Goddess, she's the only Goddess of the 4 Immortals, she was more recently considered a member of the 4 Immortals as the other three male gods have been there since Ancient times and she was also said to be an actual historical figure too, I'm not very familiar with her since I only talked about Mythical Gods I've been familiar with since I was a kid

These realy are intresting!

And i can see some similarities with mythologies from others countries and cultures(tho mostly all of them do overlap at some point. Seems even myths have cliches)

Im genuenly suprised no one has done anything with it, there's a lot of material

Sidenote: i do think gods not being allowed to marry outside of thier kind is mainly a Chinese thing because in all the other myths that i know gods make kids to animals even😭