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2023.06.06 - https://weibo.com/l/wblive/p/show/1022:2321324909692089401460

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bgm: Chong Zi OST - Heaven Light (天光)

LYN: Hallo everybody, good evening. I am Modern Brothers Liu Yuning! Welcome!! Long time no see. I feel like I haven’t streamed in a long time, at least. And... why is the sound so loud? /adjusts/. It’s been a while since I streamed last and I saw that a few of you were going out of your minds. You resorted to taunting me to get me to get me to come. Can we spread a little more kindness in this world? Please? It’s only been a few days and you’ve already started to taunt me. It’s not necessary, alright? LYN: When I’m in a good condition, I will come to stream on my own when I think the time is right. I hope you don’t push me next time. When you start pushing, I start second-guessing myself and think that maybe I SHOULD be streaming. But if my condition isn’t great- for example if I did some recording that day or took care of some different business- then I won’t be able to stream the way I want. I’d be forcing myself to stream. It’s not necessary. Let’s leave it up to me, alright? If I’m in a good condition and I want to stream and chat and relax, I’ll come. But otherwise... let me rest!

LYN: The stream lagging a little is normal, because I’ve upgraded my equipment. If I upgrade my camera, I have to upgrade my computer, too. After that, you might think the sound card isn’t doing a good enough job- a lot of you always complain that the sound is too low. I don’t know why you can’t wear some headphones... but you always complain that the sound is low. After upgrades, the computer can’t keep up. See? It seems like I have to change my computer AGAIN. I’ve only had it for two years- it cost a lot- and now I have to buy a new one. Technology is too advanced for my computer to keep up. C: Sell it. LYN: I won’t be selling it. It’s just because that for this stream I’ve returned home to Beijing. i don’t have a desktop computer here, so I’m using the laptop. The signal on it is probably lacking, so it lags every once in a while. It’s enough for you to watch, though. Thanks, everyone (for your understanding). Our main focus is on “company”. Even if you are just photos (profile pics) we’re keeping each other company, alright?

bgm: LBFD/CLJ OST - Searching for You (寻一个你)

LYN: Why am I wearing this today? Because the NCEE is fast-approaching. In order to fit the theme, I’ve worn some clothes that make me look younger. Let me pretend to be young, to be a student. Is it alright? Our theme here is “young.” LYN: As long as you’re satisfied with this look, all’s well. LYN: The other thing is I haven’t lived in this Beijing house for a long time, since I am always away in Hengdian. I don’t really have any clothes to wear, here. I tried looking, I did, and I couldn’t find anything to wear. People always say that a woman’s closet is always lacking something. I get the feeling I’m lacking ten outfits- to use for streaming. I always feel like I don’t have anything to wear when I want to stream. Let me tell you- I do put thought into what I wear. You might think that I choose my streaming outfit at random, but I actually put a lot of effort into it.

C: Ning-ge, I thought you had 3,000 outfits. LYN: When I first debuted- in the first two years- I might have had 3,000 outfits but now, three years later, how many clothes do you think I have? Think about it. There’s a room in this house that looks like a storage room and it’s full of clothes. I can’t even wear some of them because I bought them so long ago that the color has gone off from age. C: Raffle them. LYN: We could... we could pick a concert stop- if I’m having a concert next year- and let’s say it’s a 10,000 person venue... Wait- I don’t have 10,000 pieces of clothing... Let’s do this instead. I’ll take 1,000 pieces of clothing for each stop and gift it to the audience. The concert benefit is being gifted clothes second-hand.

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C: How’s the album coming along? LYN: I really am working on album stuff right now. But if it were such an easy thing to do, it wouldn’t have taken me three years to release one. Think about the singers nowadays- there are as many as they come. It’s really difficult to continuously release albums, unless they are songwriters themselves. They could write their own works and put as much into that as they wanted; but even so, there are times when you have no inspiration. For me, as someone who does not have the ability to write songs... I just have to wait for something that works. Sometimes even when you find one, someone else gets to it first. It’s up to luck and timing. This time around I have taken my time to pick the songs and I’ve gotten some that I really like. LYN: Let me tell you about my plans. I want to release this album before the end of the year. I previously released a song called “Fall in Love”- you know it, right? My fans have probably heard it before, but there are many of you who are just passing by and have entered the wrong shop- or have been dragged in by someone handing out cards- let me play my song “Fall in Love” for you. -- Fall in Love LYN: I went crazy all of a sudden.

LYN: This was going to be the title song for my album... but it’s been two years since the track was released. Well- one and a half years. I sang it for the first time at the Jiangsu New Year’s Event... and then... about two years have passed and the album was never released. If I release it later in the year, it WILL be three years. So my plan for this year is to get my album out before December. It’ll be around 10 songs. This song (Fall in Love)- we can do without. I mean- not count it as part of the album. It’ll just be a single. LYN: As for my album, I’ll remake it. I had collected a few for the album from before, and have recorded two of them. But now... immodestly speaking, my singing has improved in the last two years. Listening to those songs now I think, “What the heck is this singing? WTF is this?? You think you can release an album like this, you must be crazy!” So the other day I re-recorded one of the songs. LYN: To singers “progress” is relative to a lot of different aspects. The first is the progression of age. The second is the advancement of music. The third probably has to do with the fact that I am acting now. After acting, I feel like I can better express emotions. I can let them show more or.. how should I say it? (Express them more subtly.) I have a deeper feeling/understanding of them now. LYN: Penny-jie gave me a song. Not counting Fall in Love, I should have... four now. But I should be able to confirm another one or two in the next couple of days. They’ve given me demos and I’ve given gone through them briefly and I think they’re very nice but I’ll have to get a better listen. I now have four complete songs and will get another three or four in the next days. I’ll have seven. Then I can just find three more and we can release the at the end of the year. :) My plan is to release the album before the end of the year- 10 songs- and then open up my concerts mid 2024. That’s just an estimate, because I have to film in the first half. Probably May or June. But before the concert I want to release an EP of about 5 songs.

C: Will you release an MV? LYN: I am working on an MV, yes. I’m planing on finding a few of my good friends- I can now make a PROPER MV. The MVs I shot before were all: I’m looking for something. I walk to the ocean and I search. I climb a ladder. I run. I look up at the sky and sit by my bedside, depressed. I’m emo. More conceptual. Now I don’t want to make MVs like that. I want something with a plot. So the songs I am finding now are all- /cuts himself off/. In any case, I’m going to find some of my good friends to help me shoot it. Of course, I will not be paying them. LYN: I already asked them- “If I release an album next year, will you help me shoot the mv?” They asked me if I would pay extra, and I replied that if they continued that thought I would block them. XD LYN: My MV would need a group of them- I'll find 10 artists to act in the MV for me. Something that requires 2,000 extras. We’ll do a “human wave attack” (人海战术; offensive infantry tactic in which an attacker conducts an unprotected frontal assault with densely concentrated infantry formations -wiki).

LYN: So, for those of you asking about how my album is going, I really am working on getting it released this year, I swear. I have time in Beijing now to work on it properly and wrap up with logistics and with the music. After all that is finished I will re-focus on my acting. We’ll see.

C: I want to be an extra. LYN: Er... for extras the fee is 200RMB, sent to me. 1200RMB to me and I will include two meals. I won’t pick you up, but will send you back- to the closest bus stop. C: Ning-ge, I’ll invest 300k for your MV. LYN: Are you really investing or has chasing starts made you silly? If investing, let’s say my mv makes any revenue- you’d like a cut of the profits? But if you want to shoot a nice MV, it requires quite a bit of money. I don’t think 300k will be enough. I’m thinking of shooting two to three. C: I’ll invest 1M. LYN: I will find a staff member to contact you immediately. You can’t run, I’ve remembered your ID. I’ll find a staff to contact you and we can exchange the deposit in private. For a 1M project, you only need to give me a deposit of 200k first. C: Ning-ge, I’ll invest my charms. LYN: So what you’re trying to say that you’re too good-looking, so you want to be a part of my video and... that will be favorable for me? We’d be taking advantage of you because you’re too pretty, too beautiful?

C: Ning-ge, how about I give you 10RMB. LYN: Has the progression of my career reached a point where I need to do crowdfunding? I can’t survive on my own anymore, and if I want to do something my fans have to drum up the money? It’s not necessary. I know I’m not doing very well but I’m not that pitiful. Also, I just want to say- let me think of how I can phrase this nicely, to filter it- LYN: ~ I think that music has always been a dream of mine. I can give everything I have to my music. You tell me you want to crowdfund in order to let me release my songs, but I think there’s no need for that. The music I release is for you to listen to, to enjoy, and to experience. If you feel anything when listening to my songs then that already is my greatest honor. That’s why, I don’t want you to give me any money. I will figure out the funding on my own. I appreciate your good intentions. You are all kind people. You all have dreams. You are good samaritans. ~ LYN: ~ I’m sure that everyone who has a dream in music who sees such a group of people who want to support their passion for music, will be moved. Thank you all. ~

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- /gives his support to students taking the NCEE/

C: Ning-ge, your voice is like this and you’re still streaming? LYN: ~ Honestly friends, I have to tell you, my voice is really uncomfortable today. Because for a long time I was in the South- in Hengdian- which is more humid. I’ve suddenly returned to Beijing and I haven’t quite adjusted. I have a really dry throat. I am withstanding searing pain to stream for everyone today. But I don’t want to make this a big deal. I don’t want to say that I am sick. I just want to say- that you are all very important to me. I’m willing to do this for you- ~ - /breaks character because he couldn’t stand himself/ LYN: Beijing is dry, alright? My throat is uncomfortable. I’ve been living in the South all this while- me, who originates from the North, has been living in the South. Hendgian is in Zhejiang, right? That’s south. It’s humid. So being back here now (in the North), my throat has been uncomfortable. It’s really dry. Especially Beijing, which is particularly dry. Liaoning, Dandong- where my house is- is okay, because there I am close the the river/ocean. The air isn’t as dry for a place in the Northeast. Beijing is really dry, though. I have to put on so many face masks every day. LYN: Wait for me a sec, I’ll go grab some water.

C: The chair looks nice. LYN: Are you making fun of me? This house in Beijing is rented so this furniture was all here when I got the house. I don’t have such high tastes. This is the landlord’s stuff, not mine. - C: Drink less soft drinks. LYN: This isn’t a soft drink, it’s just carbonated water. It’s carbonated, but there’s no sugar or anything in it. - C: It’s a princess chair. LYN: /laughs/ Yes, it is. There are six of them. They were around the dinner table but I grabbed one over to sit on while I stream. I’m not in Beijing very often, anyway.

C: What special effect is this today? LYN: You can tell that this video has special effects?? This is the “aurora” effect. Why am I using it, do you know? Well- you all know what an “aurora” is, right? A very mystical phenomenon. LYN: ~ I am using this aurora effect today because I believe that not many people in this world have seen an actual aurora. Or a real rainbow. But I hope that each one of you who are in my stream can see this wonderful aurora special effect. So you can feel like you are in a faraway place- somewhere you can see the lights. ~ - bgm: Young Captain队长 & ODD Chen Sijian - 超感 (Super Sense) - LYN: But remember to tell me where I can see a rainbow. I saw one the other day- with my eyes, it was very clear. But I tried to take a picture of it on my phone and I found out- you can’t really see it. C: Your skills aren’t good enough. / LYN: Oh. C: Change your phone. / LYN: Right, okay.

C: Have you done your physical yet? LYN: Not yet. I want to get everything arranged first and acclimate before I do it. Lately I’ve been preparing to start working out again. I want to give myself half a year’s time to start a regular eating schedule. I’ll mind what I eat- like not anything fried or sweet- and try to stick to an exercise schedule. I want to know, after this half year, what the results will be. LYN: I really have properly started working out now. I’m not kidding anymore. My abs... I’m at... 10%. If having full-on abs is 100%, then I have at least 20% now. That is- you can see something if you squint. Let me train for a bit first. If there are results by the end of the year I’ll post up a picture. I see a lot of male artists wearing suits, right? But they don’t wear a shirt- it’s just the suit jacket- and a low middle button. I see a lot of male artists like that and I’m super jealous. They have such nice physique that allows them to wear the clothes in that way, to show a little skin. Either that or it’s a dress shirt, but the buttons are undone until the last few. The name of the game there is “Temptation/Seduction”. I can’t do that, though. If I open it up I look like a boiled chicken. LYN: I just want to have a nicer physique. I won’t make any promises from now on. I won’t bring it up again. We’ll just.. wait and see.

LYN: I was worried that I would come onto the stream today and my face would look fat. Lately I’ve been eating less but if I want to work out I have to eat more- three meals is modest. I’ve been forcing myself to eat, so I feel like I’ve gained weight. I thought it would show on the camera but it’s alright. The beauty filters are strong, after all. LYN: I had a huge bowl of rice and vegetables just earlier. But those are all regular foods. It’s alright I didn’t gain weight. // I have a performance in a couple of days, I told you about it before- some college, right?

C: Ning-ge, your hair color is makes you seem young. LYN: I don’t like the words “seem young”. I used to sell clothes, so I know all the right words to say when you’re trying to make a sale. If you say I “seem young” then that means that you don’t see me as ACTUALLY young. You don’t see me as young at all, but the words “seem young” should be allocated to 45+ year old men and women. You can use “seem young” to describe them. Okay?? You’ve just admitted that in your mind I am already... an old man.

C: Feels “youthful”! LYN: Friends, you don’t need to make forced compliments. I have a very clear image of myself and “youthful” doesn’t fit it. I told you before, that I had a script come to me and they wanted to act as a high school student for a portion of it, didn’t I? There was a plot where the two people met in high school and went to college together but later separated to start working. The majority of the plot is focused on when they are adults, but I couldn’t get past them wanting me to act as a high school student for a portion of it. Because of this, I gave up on this drama. LYN: I can act as maybe a college student if you lay down the foundation extra thick to cover up the wrinkles. Maybe get some Thermage treatment in, and I could pass. But if you want me to act as a middle or high school student, I really can’t do it. I am 1.9m tall- when I’m not wearing shoes I’m 1.89m, but if I wear shoes I’m taller than 1.9m. It’d be okay if I were shorter but have you ever seen that tall of a high school student?? They’re already done growing! So me acting as a high school student would be a little unfitting.

C: Kids nowadays are all tall. LYN: /laughs/ You’re right, but I still can’t do it! They might be tall but they still have young faces. My face has obviously seen time. I just can’t do it. A kid can play someone older, but someone older can’t play a kid. My face already has time on it. If you wanted me to act as someone around 30 years old or so, that wouldn’t be a problem. But early 20′s is difficult for me!

C: Ning-ge, you’re very young. Ning-ge, you can do it. LYN: I realized there’s something about this industry... let me tell you how I feel about it. People who do well in this industry- I’ve been to events, I can see who’s doing well or not- you’ll discover something. That is, no matter what they do the people around them will endlessly praise them. Really. I’m talking about people who are doing well for themselves. Their staff, the staff you meet at events- let’s say we’re at some recording for a show or an event- any staff around will give them endless praise. For example, an artist goes, “Huh? What is this, a phone? I’ve never seen one like this before. It’s called an iPhone?” The staff around them have already reached a point where they reply, “You’re so smart! Amazing! /claps/. You’ve never seen this thing before, but you knew it was a phone. You’re so great. You have a natural talent for identifying phones.” I was at the side, watching like:

LYN: But most of the time the artist will gladly accept the praise. “Oh, I just have a knack for this. :) I have an interest in mobile phones- oh, I see this is an iPhone! I’ve never seen one before, but I already know. I’m just talented. I have an interest in electronics.” !! It’s like humoring a child! And these artists aren’t young. LYN: You know- once you reach a certain point you’ll find out that the words of the people around you are 99% praise. The people close to you, as well as the people you meet. After I saw that happening I thought, “Oh~ So (that’s how it is)...” They’re probably already used to it and it doesn’t affect them at all but to me... I don’t feel a thing. LYN: Just like when you tell me that I’m young and that I can play a middle schooler. I’ll listen to what you’re saying, but leave it at that. I might even have the passing thought that maybe you are trying to provoke me. After seeing all that, I have my own judgement on what people say to me in the future. I don’t believe that all you should hear is praise. There needs to be all sorts of comments in order to level you. Only then can you mature. Only then will you know where your limits are. LYN: That’s why when you praise and support me- of course, I like to hear it. But I don’t think there’s a need to take it seriously. There’s really no need. C: I was being honest. LYN: Even if you were, I still won’t take it seriously. I need to have self-awareness to maintain my balance.

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- /saw a passing comment and makes note to answer it later, but clarifies he couldn’t really see the whole thing because the comment was too long. If they are short comments, usually he sees all of them scrolling by./ LYN: I can’t answer all of them, so please be generous. Don’t think that just because I am not replying to you, you shouldn’t comment at all. Our theme here is “company”.

C: Are there kiss scenes in ZY? LYN: What’s it to you?!? You must be crazy. XD LYN: There are no kiss scenes in ZY, only bath scenes. Of course by that I mean- a normal bath. For example, I’ll go to bathe and my bros will scrub my back for me. Scenes like that. They'll perform some gua sha and ba guan for me. Because we’ll all get together to wash up after we go out to battle. We’re starting a “community bathing” culture. C: Such a big scale? LYN: We’re still wearing pants. If we want it to air, we’ll still be wearing pants. They’ll only show the top half. Just a bunch of guys helping to scrub each other’s backs.

C: Your ears are turning red. LYN: Why would they be??? What did I say today that would make my ears red?? You really think I’m only 18 years old?! Have you forgotten what I was trending for a while ago?? (Married) Oh-sorry. I’m... I’m not a young kid. Why I turn red from talking about washing up and scrubbing backs?? C: Now it IS red. LYN: Yeah, I misspoke earlier. My mind was running slow and my mouth too fast. I apologize. C: Drink some water to settle your mind.

C: When will YNGS air? LYN: I don’t know! :D Let me tell you friends, a lot of actors are also dumbfounded. I know you like to ask us actors when our dramas will air, but we’re in the dark and really don’t know. I’m guessing if you try to ask the production company, they wouldn’t either! Sometimes you’ll hear that a drama is airing tonight and then the next morning you find it didn’t. This is normal, so if you ask me when a drama is airing, I really don’t know. LYN: It’s been two years since I finished filming a couple of my dramas and even now I am getting notices to do voice acting or supplement for voice acting. It seems like everything is going according to plan and the OSTs are all recorded, but then... it’s just indefinitely about to air. So what time a drama airs is really hard to say. I can only tell you that I can’t tell you.

C: Do you have a variety? LYN: I do, we’ve been in talks. But I- I- Once I start in a drama crew I don’t have the time anymore. Varieties nowadays need two to three or up to seven to eight days to record. There’s no way the drama production is letting me off for that long. Especially since I am starting to accept male lead roles... So, it’s hard for me to go. The production doesn’t really give the time off. So the variety is hard to say, since I will be entering another crew soon. You all are afraid of me wasting my time at home, and desperately want me to enter a crew. Don’t worry. I know what I’m doing. You’ll see. When I pick projects, they’re usually dependable. If any news gets announced I’m sure you will be happy for me. I won’t be sitting around at home. C: Is it a modern or historical? LYN: Which one are you referring to? Are you talking about the one in the latter half of next year? That one... hasn’t come yet. Let me pretend. // This is called “I’ve been home too long and now I’m making fantasies”. I clearly don’t have work but I’m pretending I do. There are some people like that, and I am one of them.

LYN: If you don’t quite understand me, let me explain. I’m a workaholic, I really am. Just look at how I spent the past five years. I started off singing on the streets and slowly made myself internet famous. After that, I became a singer. Now I’m starting to be an actor. I’ve made it this far step by step. Do you think, if I took even one moment to rest in these past five years, I would have been able to make it to where I am today? Getting to work with all these comparative (to me) amazing people? I don’t want to say that I am putting a lot of effort into this; I just want you to know that I don’t want to let myself rest. I want to learn quickly how to make my way in this industry. LYN: The people I’m working with now are all amazing, right? I started off as a busker on the streets. In order for me to make it here, if I rested at all in the past five years do you think I would have been able to walk this far? I don’t have a company backing me. I only have this group of fans who have kept me company all this way. I don’t have a company (公司/gong si), only fans (粉丝/fen si). LYN: I’m the type of person who gets anxious if they don’t have work. My old fans all know this. But can you see me being anxious right now? If I didn’t have work, and I hadn’t decided my next drama or made plans for the future- I’d be having a breakdown. Do you think I’d be sitting here so calmly, discussing this with you? I’d be here complaining, not telling you jokes. LYN: So, you can tell by my mood. If I’m relaxed then I have plans in place. Lately I’ve taken a break because I really do want to work on my album. It’s not like an OST, where I can just take a song someone else has written if I like it and just record a song and release it. Albums are complicated. The process of collecting songs alone is difficult. Another thing about me is that I don’t want the songs on my album to be like songs I’ve sung for OSTs. I’ve accepted many OSTs that I really like a lot. But if there are songs on my album that are no different from the OSTs then I’ll think, “What’s the point of releasing this song? This is exactly like an OST I can sing.” Choosing the music is hard. I hear too many songs every year, so it’s hard to pick one I really like. I’m really working on the album. LYN: I’m also going to start the voice acting for YNGS. I’m going to plan to give them 10 days for recording. For example, I’d go in at 10a-1p, grab a bite, then start again at 4-5p until 7-8p. It’ll be like working a regular job, for about 10 days. I want to get the voice acting finished in the coming week. I also have some OSTs I need to record and events to attend. I won’t be idle. Don’t worry- you don’t need to be anxious for me. LYN: Oh- I don’t need fan support for voice acting. Just want to let you know. If I go to the recording studio and there’s a group of you with banners chanting our fan motto... it’s not necessary. I just need to do my job and that’s it. LYN: Maybe in a few days when I go to the hospital for my physical, you can come give me fan support then. /laughs/ You can stand by the entrance and shout, “LYN, good luck on your physical!” or something like that. C: Steal urine. LYN: ?? What does that mean? Are you a pervert?? You must be. I told you I was going in for my physical and you said you want to steal (my) urine?? /barfing sounds/ LYN: Unreasonable. Truly unreasonable. Oh my goodness. This is too perverse. C: Extreme sasaeng behavior. LYN: This isn’t even sasaeng behavior anymore. This is... /barfs/

C: Can you turn the lyrics off? LYN: What- what, are the lyrics blocking your sight to something? How about I make it smaller? This is fine, right? /sigh/ I’ll turn it off. Save you some face.

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-- break #1 (his friend is having a baby and he needs to take a look) LYN: Excuse me friends, I made you wait long. I’m back. Lao Wang had a son a while back, this time he had a daughter. It’s nice. C: Are they good-looking? LYN: Not better than me. /laughs/ Why does that feel low- I’m competing in looks with a child?? C: How many days apart are they? LYN: The last time they had a kid was... three months ago. Now they have another. It’s amazing.

C: You look young. You can go act as a middle schooler. LYN: Let me tell you, friends- lately I’ve been thinking I want to start “pan chuan” (counting prayer beads (?)). I just think it’s cool. I think it’s fun. Watching the string change over time is interesting. But then I was thinking, if I started to do this, wouldn’t it prove that I am crossing another...I can’t say “realm”, can I? I’m entering into the meditative mind and healthy body category. But my current category is as a “Disney-lover”! C: I’ve been doing this for many years already. LYN: Which means to say your age... is probably around mine, right? C: Elementary kids do this, too. LYN: Do they? I didn’t know. But I really bought a string online and later I’ll... play with them. // I met someone not too long ago, and they told me they had nothing fun to do. I suggested they count beads and they said that they didn’t want to because if they did that, they would enter into the “middle-aged” mindset. That’s how they described it, at least. I thought about it and... yeah, they were right. But if you’re telling me that even elementary kids are doing this now, then I think that this is the popular trend for now. Then, we’ll count! C: Don’t count them, “pan” me. LYN: Do you want to “chuan”?? // Wait- sorry. That sounds like a curse word. That is- Sorry. - /clears his throat and skips the topic/ ;; t/n: there’s some wordplay here, but idk LYN: I won’t. I seriously did research on this and these things need a high density. You’re probably not dense enough. Also there’s a process of going from white, to colored (oxidized), and then opened (?). I don’t really want to see you “colored”. I think I’ll forget it. You can “pan” yourself in the mirror. I won’t be participating.

C: Watch out for tendonitis. LYN: What do you mean- like when I’m moving them, this part of my hand is likely to get tendonitis? I’ll buy a machine to turn them. I saw that there are those things online. / Oh, was it “tenosynovitis”? Sorry, I read wrong. / But there are machines for this, so I was thinking of getting one. I won’t have to use my own hands. I won’t get tenosynovitis, it’s okay. // There’s another machine, where you can take each of the beads and there’s like a tube- you can put the bead inside and it will spin.

C: Nine-ge, don’t wash your face in the morning just take the beads and rub them on your face. LYN: Why are you so dirty? That would be so gross. We want the bead’s natural oils. Maybe this topic is not interesting to many females, but we want the bead’s natural oils, not your dirty face oils. That’s no good. Forget it, let’s not.

C: Tell Daimi to count them for you. LYN: Daimi? I’d be lucky if she didn’t take them for peanuts and eat them.

LYN: I thought you wouldn’t be interested, but it seems like a lot of you women- and men, there are bound to be men here too, right? - you all like to play with this. When my string arrives, will we be considered “pan”you? [t/n: play on the word “friends” (peng you)] Or “chuan-you”? I don’t know. We can discuss it. LYN: I didn’t know elementary school kids were interested in this, too. I honestly don’t know too much about it myself. There aren’t many grade schoolers in the group of friends around me to begin with. So I’m not sure what they’re into these days.

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C: Is your dog male or female? LYN: She’s a girl. I won’t own boy dogs. I used to own a boy dog, a long time ago. I took him out for a walk and all of a sudden he set his eyes on another dog and took off. He was a bigger breed- a sheepdog (Scotch Collie). He took the leash and started chasing a female dog. I ran across 8 hilltops- I was walking him up in the middle of nowhere- it was up in the mountains, and there were giant storehouses. He took the leash and ran and I chased him across three hilltops. I was this close to a breakdown, I almost threw up and I couldn’t catch him. I lost him and it scared me so much. Even /I/ got lost in the chase, because I wasn’t familiar with the area. I was chasing my dog, and my dog was chasing another dog. After all the running I lost the dog AND my way. I ran for about ten+ minutes. Do you know how helpless I felt, surrounded by unfamiliar terrain, lost dog and lost way? So ever since then I learned my lesson for having boy dogs. LYN: After that I only ever owned girl dogs. Youmi... Daimi... and there’s was also a cocker spaniel, whose name was also Youmi. I had two dogs named Youmi. The original had died, so I bought another one immediately so the love could be transferred. [t/n: if I recall, he didn’t want his grandparents to be too sad that Youmi (original) had passed away.] LYN: All female dogs.

C: Did you ever find him? LYN: Later, he came back on his own. It took ME a while to find the way back home- I really ran across three hills before I found the path and went home by myself. I went home and cried to my mom that I had lost the dog and that I almost got lost. But when it came around nighttime, he came back on his own. That dog was so smart. People could hold his leash as long as I was there, but if I wasn’t he would go crazy. He was so smart. But in the end that dog... you probably know how it went. He ran away. That’s why people tell you- you can’t trust men. If they so something wrong once, they’ll do it a second time. He ran away, and didn’t come back this time. C: It was a BE. LYN: That’s an appropriate description, yes. At the time I was really sad about it, I cried for a few days and didn’t own a dog for a long time after.

C: He went to become someone’s son-in-law. LYN: He was a really handsome dog, but unfortunately I don’t have any pictures of him. You know sheepdogs- they have long snouts and long hair. Usually they’re all cream and black, or brown, right? But he was black and white. If there were a litter- only one of them would be patterned like that. It was so pretty. LYN: ! He wasn’t a Border Collie, though. I know what you’re talking about- Borders are black and white. He was a Scotch Collie, but black and white. Wow, he was so handsome. // I know the difference between a Border and a Scotch. He was the only one of the litter with that coloring- he was very unique. Very special.

C: What breed was Youmi? LYN: The first was a cocker spaniel. The second was a toy poodle. The one now is a schnauzer. After raising the cocker first, I discovered it was better to own a dog that didn’t shed as much. Schnauzers don’t shed as much- only the undercoat- and nor do toy poodles. These dogs are easy to clean up after, they’re small and smart, and don’t need to be walked as much.

C: Why don’t you like big dogs? LYN: Wait- look, I just said that I liked dogs that don’t shed as much and someone in the chat said, “Ning-ge, I also don’t shed a lot. Raise me.” I’m guessing in not too long someone is going to pick up on this topic. LYN: Don’t you lose hair? I don’t believe there’s one person here who can say they don’t shed hair. We all do, more or less.

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C: Ning-ge, this special effect looks like “spitting pies”. LYN: ?? What is that? There are small orbs flying at you, so you think I’m “spitting pies”? I don’t always make “pies” (pipe-dreams). When have I made a pie for you? There aren’t many. The first is my abs- that’s going to be fulfilled this year, isn’t it? C: “Stream until we throw up.” LYN: It counts if I do, too. Someone earlier wanted to steal something of mine, didn’t they? I threw up, then. If I throw up it counts too.

LYN: I saw a comment in the group chat that read, “Ning-ge is streaming today. If someone pushes him to stop streaming, I curse them to eat instant noodles without the seasonings forever.”

C: Disney stream; Carnation Festival 3.5. LYN: I had explanations for those, didn’t I? I told you about the Disney stream the last time- it’s not convenient for me to stream at the park. It was going to be okay, but lately their business has been booming. It became inconvenient for me to stream at the park because we wanted to avoid any unnecessary crowding. C: Recipe for marinating meat skewers. LYN: I’ve been busy lately... watching dramas, going to concerts... XD I’ve been busy with that lately. As for the grilling recipe, I’ll see if there’s a time I want to go out and relax. Maybe when I’m done with voice acting for Ning Yuanzhou- I’ll film a video, then. LYN: I saw someone asking me where I’ve been- I’ve really been busy as of late. And this work isn’t on a set schedule.

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C: After going back to Beijing you look more lively. LYN: I’ve been in Hengdian for so long that I’ve felt stifled. I honestly really like Hengdian, but the problem is- it’s a town. There’s nothing wrong with it, it’s just very small. It’s mostly the food- I’ve had so much of it! All the restaurants and take-out... I’ve been there for three years. Think about exactly how many good restaurants there can be. I’ve already eaten my fill. Also, there’s no place I can shop around! Sometimes I like shopping and buying clothes- give myself some motivation to keep working hard. I’ll go shop and say, “Wow, these clothes are so expensive! These shoes are expensive! I should buy them. Then, I can continue to work hard so I can afford them.” That’s what I do when I shop. LYN: I like living in the city. I can eat whatever I want, whether that’s skewers, hot pot, stir fry, Shanghai cuisine, Hangzhou cuisine, etc. I have choices. But the problem is that in Hengdian, there are only so many shops. You don’t really have a choice. All I did there was eat. I felt like I had enough. But after coming back to Beijing- there’s nothing really fun to do here, either, but- at least I can shop. As for “play” I like... arcades. Last time I was in Beijing I played with VR or escape rooms- those are fun.

C: ZXD-laoshi is here. LYN: Welcome.

- /talks a little more about what he’d like to do in Beijing while he can experience the freedom of having choices: to eat/shop/play./ LYN: I’ve just been in Hengdian too long. Now that I’m back here I’m letting myself go, a little. I like the feeling of living in a big city. I like the bustle. I’ve asked my friends before, where they like to go for travel.One of them told me they go on hikes- to see the mountains and watch the rivers; how on the way there’s a part of the river that’s really beautiful. After hearing that, I didn’t have any reaction/feeling for it. They in turn asked me where I like to go for fun. I told them I like to go to Shanghai, Beijing, Hangzhou. They replied, “You’re not going there to work, are you?” LYN: I’m just the type of person who has to come to a bustling/busy place to relax. Why? Because my hometown is a tourist city I’ve grown up along the river bank. Behind my house is a mountain. I would ride my bike along the river to work everyday. Do you think I’m missing any opportunity to see the mountains and rivers? My home is a tourist city and I’ve grown up seeing the mountains and rivers. Now I’ve finally entered society and am doing well for myself, do you really think I want to return to see the mountains and rivers in my downtime? I’ve never seen such a flourishing city when I was little. I like the hustle and bustle of the city. I don’t want to go back to see mountains and rivers- I’ve seen enough. LYN: It’s been thirty years and I finally made it to a big city. Now you want me to go back? You’ll find that a lot of people- once they become wealthy, they want to “return to the natural state”. They’ve had enough of the luxurious meals, and now they want to go back to the simple things. But friends, I’ve had the simple things all along. I can finally eat meat, have the chance to have abalone, and you want me to go back? It doesn’t agree with my plans.

C: You’re trending. LYN: Really? :) I don’t believe. I don’t deserve it. LYN: LYN, trending? I don’t think he’s worthy. C: The Entertainment Tab. LYN: What’s wrong with that? C: #41. -- 我不配 (I’m Not Worthy) LYN: A sang a whole verse of this song just for those three words. (I’m not worthy.)

LYN: I’m trending, though? ~ Honestly, I think that being trending or not isn’t important. I think the most important thing is that if by being here streaming, I am able to bring to you some happiness. As a singer or an actor, the most important thing is to have good works for you. A trending topic is not something an artist- whether singer or actor- should be in pursuit of. You need to have truly good works, works you’ve put your heart into, works that can touch other people’s hearts- to give to everyone who supports you. That is what you, as an artist, should be pursuing. So this trending topic... is nice to have, but it’s not a big deal if I don’t. Friends, let’s let our work do the talking. ~ LYN: Who doesn’t know how to say nice things? Those are the basics, aren’t they?

bgm: Ice Paper - 夜泊秦淮 (Ye Po Qin Huai)

C: I learned. Thank you, laoshi. LYN: Are you an artist? If you aren’t then there’s no use in you learning this. Do you want to be celebrity??

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C: You have too many buttons. LYN: ... Okay. I’ll listen to you. Next time I’ll buy a shirt with a zipper. This shirt if full of buttons. If you think they’re too much, then from now on I’ll buy shirts with zippers. I think they exist- I’ve worn one before. LYN: Don’t think I don’t know what you’re thinking. We are just a normal stream. I am a singer/actor. This can ONLY be a normal stream. Or are you telling me that you want to see something immoral in my VERY MORAL stream?? I see right through you. I’ve already turned of the gifting option, so there’s no paid content here. I don’t try to sell you products, either. There’s no way you’re seeing any paid content. C: No~ That’s not what we were intending. We’re just afraid that you’re hot. LYN: I have an air conditioner. It can make the room 1° in a second. I’ll turn it on blast. I don’t need you to worry. I’m not hot. Later I’m going to put on a down jacket.

C: You’re so hot that your face is protruding oil. LYN: This has nothing to do with the heat. I just have naturally oily skin. I even looked it up online: Is it bad to have oily skin? I went to look up the pros and cons. The con is that I am more likely to produce oils and accumulate sebum on my face. Now I have to advise you to use this very good selfie stick- lol. No, I’m not going to push any products on you. It’s just that if you produce too many facial oils, your pores are more likely to become blocked and get acne. But the pro is that you don’t appear to age as quickly. That’s just what I need. I only just started taking male lead roles in the past two years. I really hope I can film a few more. LYN: There were some people trying to advise me, “LYN, can you stop playing male lead roles? We can accept you playing second male lead, but not main.” I can’t make that promise. Because... I have oily skin. I want to make the most of it and shoot a few more male lead dramas while I can. Is that okay? Please, I’m begging you. Stop trying to talk me out of it. I can’t promise you on this, but maybe on other things. Like that person earlier who said that I had too many buttons- I promised them that next time I would wear a shirt with a zipper. But on not playing the male lead, I can’t promise. I’m sorry. I’m the type of person who can understand and consider everyone’s feelings, but your feelings are... not feelings but gutsy demands. [t/n: this is a play on words.] I can’t promise you.

LYN: I really did see a comment like that, though. “LYN, can you stop playing male leads? I can accept second male lead but not main. I can’t stand it. I’m throwing up.” /laughs/ When I see comments like that, friends, it makes me happy. Do you know why? This is the mindset and logic you should have in order to keep living. LYN: At the very beginning when I wanted to be a singer, people were telling me, “You’re just internet famous, what makes you think you can be a singer? What do you think you’re doing on stage competing with other singers? You’re just internet famous- go back to your streaming room.” After a few years, I’ve finally made it as a singer- something people acknowledge me as, and now I’ve gone into acting. People said, “Why are you acting? You’re just a singer- just do your jobs and sing your songs. You don’t know your limits. What are you doing trying to be an actor? Other people have studied for so many years at a performing arts school and can’t find a role. What are you, a singer, doing acting? That’s ridiculous. Just because you have some fans doesn’t mean you can be an actor.” Some time passes again. “Why are you acting as the male lead? Just stay the second male lead!” LYN: You know? Unreasonably, they are- step by step- continuing to acknowledge me. So the fact that they have already accepted me as an actor makes me very happy. LYN: No matter what industry you’re working in, you have to have a good mindset. You have to consider things from all sorts of points of view. You can’t make trouble. If you live thinking, “Why are they saying this about me? I only want to be a singer... /cries/” It won’t help you. No one will pity you. Friends, you have to learn this in your lives as well. Don’t complain. You can, but not all the time. There’s no use. Complaining all the time will only degrade you. You have to think about making a place for yourself. You have to use your brain. Make your words powerful. Move forward. Alright? - C: /tries to make a joke on the word “complain” (bào yuàn)/ LYN: You don’t perhaps think that you’re very funny, do you? I hope not.

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C: We’re listening to music now. LYN: Yeah. I’m your music DJ, Modern Brothers Xiao Ning.

C: How long will you stream until? LYN: I don’t know. I’ll just keep streaming and stop when I’m tired. I’ll continue to stream for now. My stream doesn’t really have specific content or fixed rules that state I have to promote something. But, I do want to recommend something to you... hold on. LYN: ! Attention, attention! We have some good news! Tomorrow, Modern Brothers Liu Yuning’s song “The Remaining Life (余生)” will be online. This song is the ending theme from the drama “Gone with the Rain” (微雨燕双飞). The broadcasting station- everyone listen up- is Youku! This song will be online tomorrow- I hope that when it’s up you all can take a listen. Thank you! ! LYN: That wasn’t too much, was it? But it’s true that I sang the OST and they paid me for it... My main thing is price:product ratio. We deal in after-sales services, here. Tomorrow the very good drama Gone with the Rain will be airing- please watch it. Back from the Brink is also still airing. If you haven’t checked that out yet, please do.

C: Promote all of your OSTs that way in the future. LYN: I’ve always promoted them this way. You must be new here. If you want to be able to get along with people in this industry, you have to know where you can fit into the ecosystem. For me, I am good with after-sales services. All of you are consumers. You might be looking for me to sing an OST, a platform, or brand. All of them are consumers. To a consumer, what is the most important aspect of a product? The first is good quality. The second is having something you can really make use of. The last is everything that comes after- the maintenance and upkeep. The after-sales services. As long as the after-sales is done right, and customer service is done right, you will always have good business. Remember that. C: Ning-ge, you’re a 4S shop now? LYN: I’m an OST shop. Mine is different from a $s shop- as long as you maintain upkeep everything is fine. But OSTs are a single-use thing. They don’t need upkeep. The OST doesn’t come back to me to change its engine oil or brakes. I don’t need to so anything after. It’s a single-use product that you can have for a lifetime. In terms of quality, it’s a treasure. I will definitely sing it to the best of my ability- as long as I can, I will but 110% into singing it. Secondly it’s single use, but it’s not as if you can keep listening to the song and then later think that it’s no good. I want to deliver a good price:product ratio, and you never have to worry about after-sales services here. LYN: My after-sales does not only include promotion of the song and drama during my streams, but also when I attend galas. That is, it’s entirely possible that this song will come up again during my performances. It will be repeatedly broadcast to everyone. This way, we can keep reminding people of the drama. Give them something to remember the drama by. That’s my price:product ratio.

C: How much is it to advertise? LYN: It’s free for the consumer. All after-sales is on my own dime. There’s not much expense that goes into it, I just spend a little more time talking. Honestly, it’s just money for toothpaste and toothbrush. XD Other than that, there are no other expenses. I don’t collect more fees.

C: What are your rates? LYN: I get paid for OSTs like this, friends. It’s calculated by- what’s it to you?? You’re inquiring about my worth, now? How amusing. LYN: I hate these types of people! The ones who don’t buy anything, but ask about the price first! How annoying! // If you’re not going to buy anything, don’t ask! If you’re going to buy something then just buy it. If you’re not, then why are you asking?? LYN: XD I don’t know why, suddenly I went crazy. But anyway, don’t ask- that’s a business secret, I can’t just tell you. But as to whether it’s expensive or not... I can only tell you, it’s not cheap. :)

C: A business secret? LYN: It’s not a secret. It’s just that my group and I have been working for such a long time together, plus the fact that I’m my own boss. For a lot of things, I don’t need to follow a set business practice. I’m not doing things to further my company- like accepting jobs in order to pay my employees. I haven’t reached that point because I don’t have many employees to begin with. It’s mostly just me- and I can do a lot of things at once. Like promotions- I can do 30% of the work on my own. That means I can afford to hire one person less, right? This applies to other parts of the business as well. We don’t need to accept any jobs I don’t want to in order to further development. LYN: When I get OSTs, it goes through this process: 1. What drama is it for?, 2. What platform is it airing on?, 3. I’ll listen to the demo. Of course, the song is always the most important but I have to understand the project first. If I like the song, I’ll accept. If I don’t like it, it doesn’t matter how much they offer. It has nothing to do with the money- if I don’t like it, I just won’t accept the job. The first step is never to ask about the price. I’ve encountered companies that started off like that, but I felt that approach is very... I don’t want to comment. For the most part, people usually do not ask about the price from the start. Usually it’s introducing the project and sending a song demo. If you like it, we’ll negotiate the price. If I don’t want to accept the job in the first place, there’s no point in asking how much they can offer me.

C: They’re afraid they can’t afford you. LYN: The investment in making a drama is very huge. At the least it’s tens of millions and at the most it’s a couple billion. They’re not lacking the funds. It’s not as if a single song will break the bank.

C: Then, do you have a discount for OSTs on 6/18? LYN: Do you need a discount for my OSTs? Oh my goodness... Okay, let’s do this. There might be some video production bosses in my stream now. I have a discount on OSTs on 6/18. If you buy 300RMB’s worth, you’ll get 20RMB off. Alright? If you want OSTs, please place your orders on 6/18. C: The second song half off. LYN: No, that’s not worth it. Each song is its own price. C: Buy 300RMB for 20% off. Can the discounts stack? LYN: So you mean, if a song were 600RMB instead of 300RMB? If it’s 300, you get 20 off, so if a song were 600, you’d get 40RMB off? Is that what you mean? You can do that. It stacks.

C: Ning-ge, don’t say any more. If you keep on, you’ll be at a loss. LYN: This friend is considering it from my point of view. That if I let the discount stack, then I would lose out. They’re looking out for me and letting me know I would lose profit, right? LYN: ~ Actually when I hear you say that, I’m touched. I think this friend is a really honest person. In such a chaotic world, you really need to cherish when you meet such a person. Even if I make good on my word and let you take 20RMB off of 300RMB on my OSTs, have you ever encountered such a sale in the real world... but the caveat is that they raised the original price? Then, in fact, though they are selling very many- it’s at even more expensive prices than usual, disguised as a sale. Of course, I wouldn’t do that to you. ~

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-- break #2 (no excuse, he just needs to use the restroom) LYN: You’re still commenting on this “spitting pies” effect, so I’ll change it for you. I have a “ghost story” effect, do you want to see it? :) LYN: But there are a lot of women in my stream, I’m afraid that they will be scared. If I put on this effect they might get so frightened they will cry. It needs to be paired with music so that you can feel the chill. Let’s play this. It’s not very frightening, don’t be scared. LYN: It’s not as scary as you think! If it’s too scary my weibo will be in violation. I’m an old streamer already, I understand this much better than you do. It can’t be too scary- no blood or jump-scares here. The “scary” I’m talking about is not the “scary” that you are thinking of. I was just exaggerating. You need only believe 20% of what I say. LYN: Alright. Three, two, one- - /error/ LYN: It’s not supported? Why is it telling me that?? Huh? What’s happening? LYN: Oh, well. It’s not supported. This is a flop. // ?? But I tested it out today and it was working?? /clicking around/ Oh, it’s this one. It’s not scary, though.

LYN: It wasn’t scary. C: What was that? Failing eyesight? // That was it? LYN: Friends, if you’re going to be like that then I’ll do a super scary one! I’ll make you cry in fright!! Friends, I’ll show you what is truly “terrifying”! Let’s do it, I’ll play a quieter song, otherwise the mood will be wrong. Friends. Three, two- I’ll let you see the scariest thing in the world! THree, two, one! - /error/ LYN: ?! “The special effect is unsupported.” /feeling stifled/ Okay, I found one equally as scary. Let’s try again. Three, two, one!

LYN: Sorry, it flopped. The stream doesn’t support the effect. Because this is on a horizontal screen. Next time if I’m streaming vertically, I’ll show you the terror. LYN: There are a lot of different ones I can use, though. /shows them off/

LYN: /laughs/ What IS THIS??? This one really IS terrifying. Oh my goodness...

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- /someone tells him he's trending, still. but only in the entertainment tab. he thanks everyone for the trending topic anyway./ LYN: I was wondering what you were talking about- I almost threw my phone. [t/n: bc they told him he was trending, but he couldn’t find it on the main page. XD]

LYN: I feel like my face is very bright. Maybe this is TOO MUCH oil. Let me find some blotting paper. This is too much. I know we were talking about oily skin types earlier but this is too much- I look greasy. LYN: Is it better now? Not as greasy? C: Ning-ge, that’s called dewy skin. LYN: No, it’s just grease. That’s how you can tell a household is wealthy. I remember a story I was told when I was little. There was someone very poor, who wanted to pass themselves off as wealthy. They would take a piece of pork lard and rub it on their face before they went out. When they went out, they could say that they had just eaten. It would make it seem as if the household was wealthy enough to eat meat. I am like that, too.

C: You haven’t changed the special effect. LYN: It’s alright. This one is plenty scary enough.

C: Ning-ge, you’ve played this song so much I know how to sing it. LYN: Come here and sing it, then. Sing. Come on, sing! I thought you knew how?? I gave you the mic, but you can’t sing it, huh. C: Connect the mic. LYN: Er... /shaky sigh/ Connecting the mic... uh... The thing is weibo streaming is not as complete on desktop. If I were streaming from my phone, we could connect- it has that capability- but the desktop doesn’t. If one day I stream from my phone, I’ll spend that whole day connecting the mic with you all. We’ll chat. We can give it a try.

C: Is that a pie, too? LYN: It’s not a pie! It’s just because when I was connecting with people before, they didn’t want to. I didn’t see the harm in it, I just wanted to get some interaction, to play. I wanted to be different from others. We can chat and communicate, because I see people connecting mics often. It’s an effect of streaming and a mood maker. There’s no reason why we can’t. But the prerequisite is that I have to connect with a “normal” person. Otherwise, it’s quite fun. Even if you aren’t my fan, you can come chat with me. It’ll make the stream more meaningful. If I happen to accidentally connect with an anti, like the type who want to curse me out- no, not those- like the kind who wants to back-talk me. I really hope I can meet someone like that. We can chat. I want to see if I can win over them, and make them my fan. LYN: I’m someone who’s really good at arguing. /laughs/ Back when I was working in the restaurant if colleagues were fighting or talking about some logic, I was amazing. It was like a debate- I could lay out all the logic for them. But it’s been many years since I last dared to fight with someone. I want to test if I am still able to. Of course, not the type of fighting by cursing, but teaching you a lesson within the realm of reason.

C: Have your skills regressed? LYN: I think they have. Because at this point a lot of things don’t matter anymore- it doesn’t matter if I win or lose. Not to say that it’s not important... it’s very unimportant. If it doesn’t concern me directly, I don’t see the need to make it a focus for my attention. There’s no meaning in that. Sometimes I might mention a topic in passing during my stream- and that’s only because they became a topic of conversation. Otherwise what else would I talk to you about? You can say that I look young. I say thank you. Then what else? LYN: I’ll talk about a lot of things during my streams, but not because I care about them- though there ARE the ones I DO care about... It’s just because they become a topic for conversation. I can turn them into jokes and tell you about them during my stream. You find it interesting, and we can have a common ground.

C: Ge, you’re trending. LYN: Someone already told me. Entertainment, #31. It’s alright. Let’s be low-key. You don’t need to promote it. Being #31 on the Entertainment Tab means that people can get jealous. (sarcasm)

LYN: Let me go grab something to drink. I left earlier and saw someone say, “I can see the princess chair again!” LYN: I’m back. I told you before, this is part of a set of chairs at the dinner table and I grabbed this one to sit on. This is a rented house, so this is all the original furniture.

LYN: Drinking coffee at this time of night is okay, right? C: You’re not going to be able to sleep. LYN: No, it’s because when you talk too much there’s too much information and it jumbles my thinking. Drinking coffee will help me focus. You’ll notice that many people do their work in a coffee shop. Did you think that they had no place else to work? There is that possibility, of course. But it’s more because the coffee can help them focus. I have to stream, so I need to focus. C: It doesn’t look like coffee though? LYN: What does it look like then, herbal medicine? I don’t have enough energy to stream, so I need to drink herbal medicine to supplement my stamina? Shan yao, dang gui, and goji?

C: Ning-ge, are your glasses magnifying? LYN: /sigh/ Do you mean to say that my eyes are so small that I’ve purposely replaced the lenses with something that will magnify and make my eyes look bigger, as a sort of physical beauty filter? To make my eyes look bigger? Is that what you mean? I can make my eyes big- they’re not always small. /opens his eyes wider/ Are they small? No. LYN: I’ve worn these glasses today to go with the rest of my outfit. It’s not because I’ve replaced them with magnifying lenses to make my eyes look bigger. That’s hurtful. You’ve hurt me. :( LYN: See, who ISN’T cyber-bullied? I was just streaming, doing nothing- not trying to sell you anything or take your money- and I’ve still been cyber-bullied. They made fun of me and said my eyes are small. Friends, cyber-bullying is a real and scary thing. I’m not kidding. LYN: ! You’re laughing?? It makes me want to sing a song... “You’ve hurt me and played it off with a laugh.” I told you it hurt me, and you’re laughing?? -- 一笑而过 (Laugh it Off) [Na Ying] C: Sing it. LYN: I want to sing something different. I want to sing something more tender. Something that can promote love. Promote positive feelings. Let’s do it.

C: Ning-ge, what is the correct way to address cyber-bullying? LYN: For this, you should go baidu it. I can’t give you a proper answer. Everyone faces it differently. I don’t have the correct answer, but I still think you need to become stronger. If you become stronger, you won’t consider it as bullying. Let’s say you’re learning martial arts and are at the top of the game and someone punches you- you’ll think nothing of it. But if you are someone who does not work out at all and someone punches you- you’re going to get knocked out. But these punches carry the same amount of force. I can’t give you a correct answer, because this depends from person to person. The only thing I can tell you is to make your heart/mind stronger. For all else, abide by the law.

-- 這世界那麼多人 (Empty World) [Karen Mok] C: So gentle you don’t seem like yourself. LYN: Do you know why I was so gentle? Because this song is in the female key. So I could only sing it an octave lower. I can’t not be gentle. If I weren’t then I wouldn’t be able to sing the song. LYN: “So gentle you don’t seem like yourself”... so does that mean that usually in your eyes I am very... callous? No, right? I still LOOK upstanding though, right?

LYN: I used to listen to very loud or noisy songs. But lately I feel I enjoy listening to slow songs more. I imagine I have a glass of red wine, just sitting there listening to slow songs. I can’t say I’m emo, but I am in a very comfortable state. That’s a different way to relax. C: That means you’ve gotten older. LYN: /laughs/ I like listening to slow and gentle songs and that means I’m getting older?? What are you talking about? The songs I’m talking about are MBY’s. Not only have you offended me, you’ve offended everyone who listen to his songs. Let me sing one of his. I didn’t go to his concert for nothing; I came back having learned a song. LYN: What does “No lyrics yet” mean??? MBY, as a singer, is popular enough (to have lyrics) isn’t he? What else do you want?? How can you tell me you don’t have the lyrics? // It’s because I’ve selected the arrangement and since that’s the case the program can’t find the lyrics. LYN: tsk. /sigh/ Fine, I'll find the lyrics on my phone. C: Ning-ge, didn’t you say you learned it? LYN: That doesn’t mean I have to REMEMBER THE LYRICS, though?? What I meant by “learned” is that I learned the melody. I learned the melody, not how to recite the song. LYN: The lyrics: “Every morning I wake up naturally at 7:30a. The wind chimes are ringing and the clouds are light.” He wrote his own lyrics, too. How well written! -- 平凡的一天 (Ordinary Day) [Mao Buyi] LYN: It’s not because I’m getting old. Just sometimes I think that a nice and quiet song is good to listen to. Of course, I still like those noisy and loud songs. They just give a different feeling.

C: Sing one of Xue Zhiqian’s. LYN: Do I have to sing a song from all the popular male artists now? XZQ... I really don’t know his newer songs... /ning-ge.jpg/ Also all of his songs are very difficult to sing. I’m afraid to insult his works. Let me search. I’ll sing something for fun. Everything I sing during my streams are for fun. -- 我好像在哪見過你 (I Seem to Have Seen You Somewhere) [Xue Zhiqian] LYN: /shakes his head, no/ I don’t know this one. I’ve heard it before, though. It’s been such a long time since I last sang one of his songs. I used to all the time. I really like him. But it’s been a long time... Let me find an old song that I still remember. -- 方圆几里 (Within a Few Miles) LYN: I think I can do this one. C: 刚刚好 (Just Right) LYN: Let me listen. I used to be able to sing this, but I’ve forgotten now... // I know this one. I’ll sing it. -- 刚刚好 (Just Right) (Take 1) - /sings the first couple of lines/ LYN: Oh, this song! I was bragging to you earlier that I had improved, but I actually forgot a song I used to know before! Excuse me. I’ve sung this before, on a show. Let’s try that again. -- 刚刚好 (Just Right) (Take 2) LYN: It’s been such a long time since I sang this song. I suddenly remembered that I’ve sung it before. So... oh. But it’s already been 5 years since then. Thank you, XZQ-laoshi.

C: I’m dizzy now because of your swaying. LYN: If you’re going to say that, then I have no choice but to turn your words back on you. You’re getting old. What if one day we meet up at an amusement park. If you’re already dizzy after this bit of swaying, then you won’t be able to enjoy any rides with me. Your ticket will go to waste.

LYN: Now let’s find one of Zhou Shen-laoshi’s songs. I said in a stream before, that I would never sing one of ZS or Wu Qingfeng’s songs again. Their songs, to me, have it out for my life. I really can’t sing them. We don’t sing the same type of songs. I really can’t do it. But today, I want to give it a try. Friends, wait for me. I’ll go to the restroom and come back and then find a song to fight for my life with. I’ll find a very high song and lower it an octave to sing. - /singing Big Fish, but kinda scarily XD/ LYN: He’s singing about big fish in the ocean, but we’re talking about fish in the deep sea. He’s on top of the water, but I’m on the ocean floor. Where there are lantern fish. Deep pressure.

LYN: Let me play a video for you. I think I’m running out. I don’t have any new ones to play for you. Later I’ll download some more. Make do for now. Wait for me. -- break #3

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LYN: Alright, I’m back. C: Sing one of WQF’s. LYN: Later I’ll pick one to try. Of course, I did see the comment telling me to sing my own songs. I’ll sing them, but I’m sure that my fans always hear my songs and are used to them. The other thing is, I just sing for fun in my streams. I’m not here to show off myself. I’m not here trying to gain OST work by showing you what I’ve got. My stream is here for company. I want to sing, play, and chat with you. That’s all there is to it. You don’t need to make it too complicated. No matter whose songs I sing, it’s a show of respect, right? It proves that I listen to and like their songs. Right? I’m paying my respects. The original will always be yyds, of course. So.. this is just for entertainment. LYN: Keep me company. It’s a... Tuesday night. We can play and have some fun. Let me find one of ZS’s songs... I’ll see if it has a track. -- 光亮 (Silver Lining) LYN: /misses the timing to start/ Is it really in such a high key?? This is too high, isn’t it? I was listening to the beginning chords and going over the key in my head. It’s already... up high. // Let me try lowering it an octave. LYN: ... LYN: How about this- for the places I CAN sing in the normal key, I will. Once it gets too high I’ll switch to a lower octave. This is one method... Let’s try. -- 光亮 (Silver Lining)

C: WQF-laoshi. LYN: I’m honestly a little afraid.

C: Then, Zhang Jie-laoshi’s. LYN: All of his songs pretty such send me to the grave. His high notes are really so high. High notes are not my main thing. My main thing is the /starts singing the more rock-genre ‘爷们要战斗 (Men Fight)’/ Me and high notes go in opposite directions. LYN: 最美的太阳 (Most Beautiful Sun). Let me try it. // There’s no track for it. In this case... his copyrights are tight. C: 天下 (The World) LYN: Didn’t I sing that last time and my voice cracked? I can’t do it all. Remember, it went to my head? Someone had requested it the last time and, not knowing my limits, I tried. It got me worked up. I’ll try it. I’ll sing you a part of it. When it gets too much, I’ll stop. -- 天下 (The World) /stops right before the chorus/ C: Keep going! LYN: Uh.. it seems like you’re cheering me on. I just felt a sliver of support, then. LYN: Friends, there’s a saying that goes “见好就收” (quit while you’re ahead). People can’t be too greedy. If you continue... C: Lower it an octave. LYN: /laughs/ - /picks it up at the chorus; he did it!/ LYN: It goes straight to my head. I got worked up again. C: It’s okay. You can do it. LYN: Honestly, I CAN sing this song now. I just didn’t do it well, because I wanted to show you a comedy. Someone just cheered me on, again. Let me see if I can push through and get this song finished. - /finishes it up/ LYN: I did my best.

LYN: Men- we always try to look tough. But we all know who’s really suffering, don’t we?

C: Sing it through from the start. LYN: I really can’t stand when people cheer me on. If you’re going to be like that, then I’m going to stop streaming. I’m going to sleep. Stop provoking me.

C: Can you see the comments clearly? LYN: I can. Do you think I’ve sung so much that I’m lacking oxygen and can’t see clearly? No, I’m fine.

C: Ning-ge, 左手指月 (Upwards to The Moon). LYN: HAHAHAHAHA. Upwards to the Moon? Um.. .why don’t I just take my head off and give it to you? You’re asking for my life here, aren’t you? I’ll just give it to you. Is that not enough?? My head is yours. Upwards to the Moon... C: Ning-ge, let’s do an octave lower. LYN: You saw right through me. -- 左手指月 (Upwards to The Moon) LYN: Friends, here’s an interesting thing. I can’t even sing it with it lowered an octave. I can’t even sing it on a lower octave. Think about the concept of that. Let me try again. If nothing else, I’ll go all out. - /tries again/ LYN: This song hurts. Singing this song makes me feel like I hurt a lot. It’s not a physical pain, but a mental pain. Ahhh~~! Just these few words- you feel an inexplicable pain. LYN: Very painful. Excruciating pain. LYN: Alright, it;s not worth it. Let’s forget it. C: Bro, forget it. LYN: Are you calling me out?! LYN: I really don’t need to do this to myself. It’s enough already.

C: Ning-ge, you still have to record for your album tomorrow. LYN: Tomorrow... I’m not recording for my album. I have other work, tomorrow.

C: A Mayday song. LYN: Let me see if there’s a track. -- 夜訪吸血鬼 (Interview with the Vampire) LYN: This accompaniment is too noisy. :| But I really like this song. - /thinks of a different song/ -- 你不是真正的快樂 (You Are Not Truly Happy) LYN: I don’t really know it. So... I’ll stop singing it. C: Watching you sing this makes me really happy. LYN: I am very happy, but You Are Not Truly Happy.

LYN: I see you spamming “十年人间” (Shi Nian Ren Jian/DMBJ), but I really don’t know how to sing that song. I’ve heard it, but I don’t know how to sing it. Maybe if there’s a chance the next time I’ll sing it, then.

C: 黑夜一束光 (Praying) LYN: I won’t sing it now because I’ll have a performance in a few days that I’ll be singing it at. In order to leave you with some sense of “freshness”, I’ll save it for my performance. LYN: I’ve gone through all my songs and none of them really have that bright/positive feeling. I’ve mostly sung OSTs, so the majority are emotional songs. Those songs aren’t suitable to sing for particular occasions. I wouldn’t sing “你說愛情啊 (You Say Love)” at a school. Would I be encouraging them to start dating?? That’s not very uplifting. I’ll go to a school and sing 余生只想握��你的手 (I Want to Hold Your Hand for the Rest of My Life)?? LYN: 意气趁年少 (Be Earnest While You’re Young) will work. It’s more positive, because it centers around learning. There’s a youthful feel, too. -- 意气趁年少 (Be Earnest While You’re Young)

C: Sing 初升 (Rising). LYN: I really haven’t sung this one before. Let me see if there’s a track. // There isn’t. /searches again/ There is. I’ve never sung it live before. Let me give it a try. If I crack then it does not represent my real ability- because this is my own song. -- 初升 (Rising) [Gen Z OST] C: You’ve crushed the original singer. LYN: Em, that’s overpraise. I AM the original singer. This is the theme song for the drama Gen Z. It’s a character song, and my first time singing it live.

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C: 云字诀 (Yun Zi Jue). LYN: I might not be able to sing it in my current condition. /searches for the track/ I can sing you MXT’s version? Oh, it’s the same version. Then, I’ll sing it. -- 云字诀 (Yun Zi Jue) [The Ingenious One OST] - /messes it up. starts over with the excuse he didn’t turn on the special sound effects/ LYN: Later I need to find someone to get these pictures on Kugou Music changed. What IS THIS??

LYN: I’ve already done Thermage treatment and don’t look like this anymore. ^

LYN: Change this picture out. What the heck. Look at these beady and small eyes and eyeliner. I can’t stand it. ^

LYN: This one’s okay. It looks like this fellow is emo. He’s a little depressed. Look at his eyes, full of gloom. His face is chubby, too. ^

LYN: Look at this. This is worse. Look at how big this face is. Oh, my goodness. He looks so bloated. Is your name “Liu Fu Zhong”?? Look at this face. ^

LYN: This one is okay. This one is good. He’s got a good jawline. This one doesn’t look as bad. It’s good. ^

LYN: This is from my concert three years ago. I’m waiting for the audience, looking worried that I won’t have many fans in attendance. ^

LYN: This one was taken in the early days, when I was in a better condition. We took a whole set of “business” photos. ^

LYN: Look at this one. This one doesn’t want to live anymore. Pretending to be depressed, using his hand to hold up his head. In reality, the head is empty. Look at this guy- head empty. ^

LYN: This one is okay. It’s more recent. I look a little more lively, at least. You can see just a little bit of handsomeness on this face. ^

LYN: This is also more recent. But at that time I was a little chubby. Look at this big face. It’s even this big AFTER the picture was shopped. Think about what it would look like if it weren’t?? ^

LYN: THIS you can say was when I was at my peak visuals. I took this photo as part of a set for a magazine; there was also a video. This was probably the peak of my visuals. I took these when The Long Ballad was airing. ^

LYN: This is okay. Also more recent. Golden-haired. The Disney look. It was pretty lively. ^

LYN: There’s no problem with this one. I think it’s okay. This was a while ago. You can see- his eyes are different. There’s something there. ^

LYN: This one’s a fool. /laughs/ Look at this fool. Look at these eyes. They sure are open wide. Open but soulless. This guy doesn’t have a clue what’s going on. ^

LYN: This is- kind/a little foolish with a side of wandering. He looks youthful, with hopes for the future. ^

LYN: This one is.. more mature. This was taken for the Jiangsu New Year’s event. You can say I was a mature artist by then. I do have eyeliner here, but not as “deadening”. ^

LYN: This one is.. pretending to be young. This should have been for the New Year.. otherwise I wouldn’t be wearing red. But I did look more refined. ^

LYN: This one... has some after-editing. Why do these just keep scrolling? This one is quite nice, though. Curly hair. Hong Kong-style. (?) ^

LYN: This one... he has a stick! Pretending to be Sun Wukong, or what?? At this point, he already has the eyes of an actor. They’re not like the one before, with nothing in them. ^

LYN: This is... over-edited. It’s.. too much. ^

LYN: This one was not too long ago! I look a little... chubbier, here. Look at this baozi-face. ^ LYN: Oh, we came back around. This is the worst one (the first one). LYN: Alright. LYN: /sigh/ LYN: Let’s sing a song. It’s called 云字诀 (Yun Zi Jue). -- 云字诀 (Yun Zi Jue) [The Ingenious One OST] [The Ingenious One OST] LYN: Thanks, everyone. This song is quite nice. I pretty much liked it after my first listen.

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C: I want to hear a Cantonese song. LYN: Don’t rush. Ehm... hold on a minute. Let me go grab something more to drink. I’ll sing for you after I come back. I’m running out of videos to show you, though. Because honestly this stream is running a bit long. I don’t have enough. You can watch it again. Wait for me while I get some water. -- break #3.5 LYN: I’m back. Hold on, hold on. Let me find a song... (Stay with Me)

C: Where’s Daimi? LYN: She’s sleeping, don’t disturb her. She doesn’t have any schedule today. Let’s not disturb her. Let her sleep. Later, when she wakes up, I’ll call her over.

C: Did you see the ZY wrap trailer? LYN: What are you talking about? Of course I saw it. I acted in it, would I not go watch it? I’ve seen all the trailers for things I’ve acted in. It’s nice. I think in a few days there’ll be... no, never mind. I was just going to say there would be more content out in a short while. It’s a drama we spent several months working on, so I hope you can take a look when it comes out. LYN: Of course, YNGS as well- you have to watch. - /recites his lines from the trailer/ LYN: I remember it, because I only have so many. C: I support Ning Yuanzhou being abducted by aliens in the end. LYN: Have to taken a peek at the script? I admit it- at the end NYZ is taken away by aliens. The ending is a big suspense. He’s fighting with someone and in the very end, when it looks like he is about to win, a flash of light crosses the sky. A UFO appears and takes NYZ away. Why does it end like this? In preparation for a second season. The first part is called “Yi Nian Guan Shan”; the second part is called “Yi Nian Kai He”. Close (Guan) to Open (Kai). Mountain (Shan) to River (He). In the second season called YNKH- the UFO comes back in the first episode. NYZ has amnesia. C: “Er Nian Guan Shan” is easier to remember. C: “Yi Nian Guan Si”. LYN: What is that?? If the first part is called “Yi Nian Guan Shan”, then the second should be “Er Nian Guan Shan.” The third part is “San Nian Guan Shan”. If we make it all the way to season 11, would it be called “Shi Yi Nian Guan Shan”? LYN: We should call it “Yi Nian Guan Qi” (Guan Qi, the character from SYXSSYX, who was “abducted by aliens”). C: Negotiating more scenes for yourself in a second season? LYN: No- our screenwriter is Zhang Wei-laoshi. She likes to use people’s names, and she has her own “Zhang Wei Universe.” I don’t mean any disrespect. It’s just that a lot of her male characters across stories have a connection to each other. The detailed people will have found out. If you watch her dramas you’ll find that some names appear across the universes. For example our drama will mention the name of a character in a different one of her dramas. What was the name of the male lead in A Dream of Splendor? I think it was Gu Qianfan, right? In this drama, my name is Yuanzhou. Qianfan and Yuanzhou- don’t you think there has to be some relation there? [t/n: part of a common saying] LYN: We’re all part of Zhang Wei-laoshi’s written universe. It’s possible that when she writes a script in the future, there will be a character called Ning Yuanzhou in it. The other day she posted something to her friend circle- I think it might have been at the wrap party and she complimented me! I forgot exactly what she said, at the time I had a bit to drink. But I promised her that if he character Ning Yuanzhou ever showed up in another one of her works, I wouldn’t just let it be a name on a page- I would come to act for her. I would cameo for her, as long as she continues to write and write about NYZ. - /fan makes a side comment asking about how much he drank.how many dishes he has to eat/ LYN: So, friends. Don’t think that I am being unfair only to you. Because I don’t exclusively makes “pies” for you, either. I have nothing against you, that I make “empty promises”. Don’t assume that just because ZW-laoshi is a very amazing screenwriter that I won’t make “pies” for her, too. No- all are treated equal. // After this story, do you feel more at ease? I’m not only like this to you. I make pies for other laoshis to eat, too. XD LYN: But if she ever comes to look for me, I really do have to go. How could I not?? But... I’ll probably have something else going on when that time comes. I might have something else to do... but it’s not for sure! If she asks me, I have to make the time. I have to make good on my promise.

C: You drank four cans already. LYN: It’s not four. I probably have more... Oh. It is four! You got me. Four, and a can of coffee. LYN: Why are you keeping track of how many cans I’m drinking?? Are you going to take these to recycle? Should I mail them to you? C: You’ll get water swollen. LYN: What are you talking about? It’s a food thing to drink plenty of water. I don’t care about being bloated; I’m not going to be on camera tomorrow anyway. It’s fine. C: Give me the cans. I’ll sell them for money. LYN: Okay. Pay the postage yourself. I’ll send you these four cans, but pay the postage. C: The sugar content is high. LYN: No- this is just carbonated water. There’s no sugar/flavor. It’s just water.

C: The rising star of 2023- is that you? LYN: What an interesting question. I don’t get what you mean. From your language, I hear a story. That is, one day, you were surfing the internet when you inexplicably came across a fortune telling stream. The host posted an article that read, “In 2023, in this industry, there will be a rising star. A superstar will appear in the year of 2023.” They might have seen something like that, Am I right? Isn’t this story very complete? I extrapolated it out of just a few words. They probably saw someone post something like that. And then, in that moment, they thought that this prediction was describing me. They saw me streaming and they thought that they could see a purple aura from me. LYN: Look, I have lights here. So this friend thought, “Is it you?” Here’s the thing- I hope it is. If you ask me, of course I would hope its about me. Everyone wants to climb to the peak, right? But I’m guessing this “rising star” isn’t me. There are all sorts of highly skilled people are are just on the verge of popularity- why don’t you go ask them? It’s probably not me. You can go and ask them. I’m not- go ask someone else. LYN: I want to keep both feet on the ground, because I’m tall. If I climb too fast it might be too unstable. I’ll keep both feet on the floor- take it one step at a time to try one thing after another. I want to accumulate my viewers and their interests, and accumulate my own experience. That’s my path. Let’s not mess with any “rising stars.” LYN: Many stars pass in the blink of an eye. They’re shooting stars. So.. I don’t want to be a star. I’ll be... a little white rabbit. LYN: Now I want to gift you with a nice song. -- 感覺自己是巨星 (Think I’m a Superstar) [Mao Buyi] LYN: /to the tune of the song/ ~ Superstar, superstar we love you. Quickly, listen to us give you “rainbow farts” (excessive compliments). In our eyes, you’re the youngest. ~ LYN: So, friends. I would like to bear witness to exactly who this “rising star” is together with you. Who will it be? Let’s anticipate it! I’m also very curious! Let’s find out who it will be.

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- /Daimi barking/ LYN: Why are you being so mean? What do you have to be angry about? LYN: She’s awake. - /gives her the mic/ LYN: Weren’t you barking earlier? Come on, say something. Sing.

C: The rising star is Daimi. LYN: Are you talking about her? Let’s hope so. LYN: Once I said “rising star” she got angry- I mean- she woke up. I hope my female artist can be popular.

- /Daimi, licking his arm/ LYN: Enough of that! She keeps licking me. -/Daimi tries to lick him again/ LYN: ! Do you want me to stop streaming? You’re trying to get me to stop, is that it? Okay, I understand. Sorry, friends. I need to stop streaming now because Daimi was pushing my hand away. She doesn’t want me to stream anymore. She doesn’t want me to stream- she’s about to eat my mouse. - /Daimi tries to lick his hand again/ LYN: Tsk. That’s enough... - /makes her wave/

- /dancing/ - /promptly puts her on the floor/ LYN: /to Daimi/ Go play, go play. Don’t bother me. It’s time to work.

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C: Ning-ge, could you wish me well on my exam? LYN: Of course I can. I hope that tomorrow, or all of this week- everyone who is preparing to take the NCEE is in good spirits and can have a good result. Let’s amaze the world with one brilliant feat and reach for the stars. - /had said the proverb wrong, initially/ LYN: Excuse me. See- this is what an uncultured person will do. They’ll say the wrong thing. People who haven’t taken the NCEE will mis-read the phrasing. - /makes up for it by saying a bunch more (correctly)/

C: Ning-ge, could you bless me with passing the 16th level (?)? LYN: Am I a tortoise? Is my stream a wishing well? And I am the tortoise in that pond? You’ve come to me with your wishes? Then, why aren’t you throwing me any money? You should at least leave an offering, before making a wish. This is just... forceful wishing. What you’re doing is taking game money to throw into the pond, to trick me. LYN: I’m sure you’ll pass. Do well on the test! LYN: In order to become the “Rising Star of 2023″ like mentioned earlier, from now on I will change my name. I’ll be Liu Ziwei. Don’t call me Liu Yuning anymore. From now on I will be known as Liu Ziwei.

LYN: Friends, how many of you are watching my stream for the first time? How may of you are first-timers? If this is your first time watching or if you don’t watch often, you can subscribe to my weibo. I am Modern Brothers Liu Yuning. Here’s the thing with my streams- most of the time I’m speaking nonsense. Don’t take anything to heart and don’t fall for any tricks. If you take this too seriously then it becomes meaningless. That just proves that you are too innocent. Only believe about 20% of what I say here. Most of the time I will use an amusing or joking delivery to communicate with my fans and make the people who maybe don’t necessarily hate me stay a while. Just listen to my stream for entertainment. Don’t fall for what I say. Okay? I’m not capable of teaching you any lessons or opinions. Just listen for entertainment. C: Before you told us to believe 30% of what you said. How did it dwindle to only 20%? LYN: /sigh/ It used to be that I wasn’t very strict with what I said, so it ended up that people had a lot to hold against me. I was ridiculed for my words. Though it might not have been my intention, I was honestly too careless with what I said. So now my game plan is to say more nonsense and avoid more... sensitive topics. It’s fine as long as you are okay and I am okay, and everyone is happy.

C: Will you sing a Cantonese song? LYN: I don’t know very many. Let me sing this for you. -- 无赖 (Rascal) [Ronald Cheng] LYN: Listen for entertainment. I’m a North-easterner, after all. My Cantonese is very poor. I know that. So.. it’s for fun. Someone earlier said “You’re Cantonese is skewing!” I don’t know what they meant by that, but probably that my pronunciation was off. It’s alright.

LYN: Let me think... what other Cantonese songs do I know? What else do I know...? C: Once you start speaking the Dongbei dialect comes out. LYN: What else did you expect?

C: I’m a Cantonese person. I can say, it sounded very nice! LYN: You really are clever at speaking. “I’m a Cantonese person, I can say it sounded very nice... but it wasn’t accurate.”

C: First Love. LYN: Oh~ -- 初恋 (First Love)

C: I’m going to throw up. (bc of the video and swaying) LYN: Your age...? Forget about you- I’M a little nauseous. LYN: Is my stream over-trying to be cool? It’s slightly over. LYN: This is too eye-searing, yeah? Okay. Let’s stick with this effect for the... “middle-aged”.

LYN: I thought of a song just now. I REALLY really like it. -- 一生所爱 (Lifelong Love) LYN: If there’s a chance later I’ll sing it properly for you. I don’t really have much strength left, today.

- /Daimi barks/ LYN: :| What are you barking at?

-- 倩女幽魂 (A Chinese Ghost Story)

LYN: That’s about it. It’s about time, friends. Thank you for keeping me company and for your support. I told you I would stream until you threw up. In terms of length, today’s stream didn’t let you down, did it? I accidentally saw a little earlier, how long I’ve streamed for. Right now it’s... four hours and thirty-five minutes. C: Don’t go! Don’t! LYN: I’ve been streaming for four and a half hours. That’s not a small amount. If i keep streaming /I’M/ going to throw up. You’re over there lying on your bed and snacking on melon seeds, but I’ve been over here yelling and singing, moving my mouth for four and a half hours! Now you’re telling me you don’t want me to go?? I’m going to throw up! I’m not streaming until you throw up, I’m streaming until /I/ feel like throwing up, now. Do you think you’re the only one who sees that violently shaking video and gets dizzy? I get dizzy too! I’m older in age- you all know that. C: You still turn it on, even though it makes you dizzy? LYN: I just wanted to give you the best experience in such a simple stream, didn’t I?? I didn’t want you to feel like I was just sitting in a room. I wanted to give you some stage effects, so that you can immerse yourself. I do this all so you can feel included- even this laugh sound. It’s all so you can immerse yourself in this room and the mood. Even though I’ve made myself nauseous- I still have to power through and stream for you. It’s all for the immersive experience, is that not enough??

LYN: It’s about time. If you still haven’t subscribed to my weibo, please do so. I am Modern Brothers Liu Yuning. I thank you all for keeping me company and for watching my stream. Even if you’ve only been watching for thirty minutes or if you’ve been here from the start. I thank you. I hope to see you in the next one, alright? I hope you had a relaxing, wonderful, and happy night. It was great to have you and I hope you had fun. See you next time! Goodnight, everyone!

#Liu Yuning #lyn livestream #(4:40:00)#album/concert chat #entertainment industry observation #new hobby?#dogs chat #laughing in the face of antis #osts and pricing #playing with filters #some singing #including zs's 光亮 #!#左手指月 (Upwards to the Moon)#HAHAH #lyn's biggest anti is himself #daimi time #[i forgot how to Chinese???]#[it's been a long two weeks friends]

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polyamorouspunk · 1 year ago

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2024 Goals:

Start using a planner or schedule system so that I actually remember to do the things I like doing

Remember to take pictures when I go and do fun things so that I can remember that I do fun things sometimes

Buy a house (at the moment this one is pretty dependent on my dad’s health)

Throw out a BUNCH of stuff from highschool/early college and work on defining myself and who I am *now*

Yours??

Ah oh my god lol.

I’m lucky that my mom and I were able to buy a house here a few years ago I love our house it’s so super cool.

I tried using a planner and I got a really cool planner from the brand Happy Planner and it’s celestial themed and I was doing alright using it and now I just yeah.

I take SO many pictures my family makes fun of me. I upload them to my photography Instagram but I got locked out for a long time so I’m so behind. I just posted photos from 2022.

I’ve also had to throw out a lot of things since I move so much, so I don’t have a lot left from high school outside of clothes and furniture and books.

2024 I’m throwing out this ANNOYING CAT just kidding I love her.

2024 is the year I try (again) to move on with my life and start living for me. I think I’m doing a good job starting these past few weeks 😉 but now that I’m more comfortable traveling by myself (this year was the first year I traveled by myself first to see you and then to see my friends) my goal is to go to CT more for concerts and stuff (I just texted my best friend to see if she wants to go see a band I told her we HAVE to see when they come back since they’ll be in MA and NY in May). I’m also planning on going to MA in August for Metallica and INK. It’s been my plan to go to Salem for my birthday for 4 years now and my plan to go to the INK convention for 2 years now so uh MAYBE 5th times a charm :). My mom has already decided months ago we are going to both come back to Pittsburgh so I’m hoping to say hi to you again. My best friend and I want matching tattoos so I suggested we get them from my other tumblr mutual in Pittsburgh. I’ll be heading to Florida in a few weeks and I’m hoping to head back to New England for a third of fourth time next year to see a super special certain band 👉🏻👈🏻

And Jesus Christ I hope I can fucking GRADUATE.

#punk gets mail

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Anything new lately? How are you?

ahh !!!

so like in life, nothing has really changed. my sister is back home for now and it’s been good hanging out with her. feel like i’ve really been bonding with my sisters this past year and it’s been nice.

i did, however, go to a Lights concert (my 7th or 8th one i think) and i held her hand (again) and it was amazing but what was even more amazing is that i dressed in a STATEMENT outfit (will post pics) and it was revealing and it was HOT and i felt GOOD and i got so hyped up by everyone even my MOM who only scolded me bc apparently i shouldn’t have been wearing any underwear with the pants i was wearing 💀💀 (pls mom they matched my top it was a good look (you’ll see)) and my friend & i went to a taphouse beforehand and got a couple drinks (i haven’t drank with anyone in SO LONG) and i got a little tipsy and we laughed SO much and it was healing and then i got two more drinks at the concert so i was feeling GOOD and i initiated conversation with this group of girls beside us and we mingled groups and i was so confident and talkative and flirty like oh my fuck i told them i was in my slut era and then my mom said she’s in hers too 💀 which they all loved and two of them at one point ran their nails across my scalp and the back of my neck and when i tell you i melted. jfc. in the middle of the club in a crowd at a concert. pls. and then i asked if anyone liked hugs bc i need a hug and this very tall hot woman volunteered and she held me dude. she fucking held me for a solid couple minutes and it was amazing. and then i hugged my sister and it made her emosh bc i don’t do that. there’s more to the night but oh my god it was just so fucking good. one of my favourite nights for sure. and the best part is i DON’T REGRET IT!! i almost always regret everything i do/say after i drink not bc i do anything bad it’s just that it makes my social anxiety fuck off so i’m more outgoing and vocal than usual. but nah, i was who i want to be. i’m growing.

i have TRAVEL PLANS !! my wifey is coming to visit at the end of next month and we’re gonna road trip!! gonna be so good i’ve been wanting to do this particular trip with her forever. then the rest of the plans are still up in the air but i’ll be going back to europe in the summer, and MAYBE in spring for a big tattoo but i’m thinking of postponing that til at least next year.

might move in w my mom spring-summer and start horseback riding again but that’s so complicated bc i’ve gotta take care of my sisters animals while she’s at work hhhh

i joined a warrior nun discord and have been making friends on there and it’s been sooo nice. i like actually have people to talk to. + the warrior nun fight is going so well and i love actually being an active part of the fight. y’all go watch warrior nun i s2g

idk like not a lot is currently happening but my mental state has been SO good since the beginning of the year. i think i was so burnt out for so long i needed last year to just.. lay down and do nothing. and it sucked, but i feel a lot better now. i feel motivated and i really wanna figure life stuff out. it’s hard bc it’s not all up to me but i’m working on it.

tomorrow is my birthday and instead of sulking away alone in my room i’m actually going out and bringing my friend with me and going to buy myself little birthday treats and getting tattoos and i reached out to people i haven’t seen in a long time and they’re hopefully joining me for board games and it’s just nice. the fact that i’m allowing myself to be happy on my birthday, to try and let myself feel worthy of others’ attention and time, to not beat myself up about wasting another year, so actually want to be seen. i think it says a lot about my mental state and i don’t remember the last time i’ve felt like this for longer than 10 minutes before the guilt sets in

so yeah. i’m good. i’m really good. or at least i’m starting to be <3

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aeoki · 1 year ago

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Sandstorm - Desert Survival: Chapter 9

Location: Desert Characters: Hinata & Kaoru

TL Note:

This is a reference to one of “2wink’s” songs: “Welcome ☆ 2wink Acrobatics” (歓迎☆トゥ・ウィンク雑技団).

The Budokan Stadium (official name: Nippon Budokan) is a well-known stadium located in Tokyo which was primarily built to host martial art events, but is now mainly used for musical acts. Performing at this arena is generally seen as a huge accomplishment and a number of voice actors for Enstars have, in fact, performed here in 2019 for the Enstars 2nd Starry Stage concert.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ< A few hours later. Tottori Desert. >

Kaoru: Haa~ Just a lil’ break~…♪

Hinata: Ahaha. Hakaze-senpai, your actions aren’t fitting for someone young like yourself ♪ You’re acting like an old man~♪

Kaoru: Whaat~? On the other hand, how do you have so much energy, Hinata-kun? I had this thought when I was at school too but you’re kinda always like a kid~

Well, you might be seen as someone adorable that way, though.

Hinata: Ahaha. It’s better for people like us to act more like an innocent kid instead of a mature adult, right? It’s a marketing strategy ♪

Kaoru: Did Anzu-chan tell you to do that?

Hinata: Nope. We wanna come up with our own ways to market ourselves… Well, it does look like Anzu-san prefers it when we’re on the childish side, though.

Kaoru: Wait, really? Good job asking, me! Then should I suck on my finger and go “goo goo, gaa gaa” the next time I see her!?

Hinata: She’ll definitely be creeped out by that and in the worst-case scenario, she might call the cops or an ambulance over.

Kaoru: Then, what should I do? None of my mature charms worked on her! Which means the only choice I have is to do the opposite and act like a baby, right!?

Hinata: Ahaha. This guy sure loses all his brain cells when it comes to Anzu-san.

…You look like you’re really tired, Senpai~ Maybe we really do need a break.

Kaoru: Yeah. I’ve got a surfboard here so let’s use it and rest under its shade. We’ll die for sure if we keep being under direct sunlight.

Hinata: Okay… I’ve been wanting to ask but what’s up with that surfboard? Where’d you buy it?

Kaoru: I didn’t. The idol who stole from me in the beginning left it behind when he took all my “Desert Coins”.

Maybe he felt guilty about me dying a dog’s death or maybe he bought it on a whim but ended up thinking it was a hindrance…

Good thing it was me who ended up with it. I’d think if it was anyone else, they probably wouldn’t know what to do with it.

Hinata: Ahaha. I don’t particularly care about that, but Hakaze-senpai, you look like a surfer based on looks alone~♪

Kaoru: Yeah. I didn’t think I’d be making use of my surfing skills here. It’s pretty useful when sliding down the sand.

It also looks like it’s got a feature that a normal surfboard wouldn’t have, though. Look, if you press this button, it can move about on the sand like a jet ski.

You’ll probably hurt yourself and fall if you’re not used to balancing on it, so I don’t think you should use this new feature just yet, Hinata-kun.

Well, it seems the balancing gods have blessed me with their skills, so I think I’ll be fine if I practise a couple more times.

Hinata: Heheh, “2wink” are a pair of acrobats[⁎]…☆

Kaoru: That’s just the name of one of your songs, right?

Hinata: Yeah. But on second thought, I’m really glad I get to walk around with you, Hakaze-senpai~

Just happily chatting with you like this really helps take the load off. I definitely would have gone crazy somewhere along the way if I continued wandering the desert all by myself.

I feel pretty calm now so I’ve been watching our surroundings… And I’ve noticed there are safety zones here and there.

Kaoru: Yeah. There was a billboard that said “Oasis” and you can restock your supplies or take a rest there by the looks of it. It’s a safe and comfortable environment – you can even eat and sleep there.

You need to spend “Desert Coins” to use its services and since we want to save up, we don’t have the luxury of using it all the time.

Hinata: But I think the other idols like the powerhouse ones who were brought up like princesses are using it without a care in the world~ If anything, they probably won’t even take one step out of the “Oasis”, don’t you think?

Kaoru: Looks like there are a lot of those sorts of idols. No one would want to walk around the desert of their own accord.

Hinata: That’s our chance of victory, Hakaze-paisen!

While the other idols are practically using all of their “Desert Coins” to stay in the “Oasis”, we won’t use it and save up!

If we’ll win our battles and earn even more “Desert Coins”, we can make a comeback somewhere along the way! We can win “SDS”!

Kaoru: Yeah. Well, we’d be putting the cart before the horse if we pass out from heat stroke, so I think we should use the “Oasis” at appropriate times, though.

Even then, we should still have spent less “Desert Coins” than the other idols. And it should definitely affect the end results.

Sorry. You split your “Desert Coins” with me, so we’re starting off in a pretty disadvantageous position.

You could have just lent me a couple.

Hinata: Well, a couple would still be pretty harsh~ Besides, it wouldn’t sit right with me unless we split it in half.

Kaoru: Hmm, is it because you’re a twin? You’re always sharing things by halving them, right?

Hinata: Yeah. It’s a habit from when we were little~ It’s kinda embarrassing ♪

Kaoru: It’s nothing to be embarrassed about.

But we’ve only got 50 “Desert Coins”, so we’ve got to battle the idols who have their full 100 pieces from the very beginning.

They say that 50 isn’t that much different from 100, but even 1 “Desert Coin” has a lot of value, so it’s tough to be in a situation where we’re starting off with just half of that.

Hinata: We’re playing on hard mode, huh~

But on the other hand, that just makes me even more motivated! I’m a man, after all! Unlike the other idols, we know to use every single one of our “Desert Coins” carefully…

And I’m sure the bigshots who can fill up the entire Budokan[⁎] Stadium by themselves can’t even remember each and every one of their fans’ faces.

But we can do that. We can cherish each and every one of them.

Kaoru: Oh, you’re talking about idols?

Hinata: Yep! We’re in a ridiculous situation that’s got nothing to do with idols, but we’re currently in the middle of a big event that will determine who’s the best idol out there, you know!? We can’t forget that!

If we’re no longer idols, then we’ll become living creatures who don’t know who we really are deep inside.

Kaoru: …………

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Its okay i just spend all my money on black friday.... saving starts after dec 25 trustt! THE FIRST TIME I WENT i literally only brought my lightstick and a bag that couldnt even fit my phone and kept like JUMPING RIGHT??? but literally no one moved and they all looked at me nasty when i was having fun like can yall MOVE omg and theyd only move if a member got close to them or smt.. then i was talking abt it in a groupchat after and someone gave me bs abt "maybe theyr uncofmy with that" then dont buy fuckass barricade are you dumb??? omg sorry it ^pissed me off so much they camped for 3 days just to not move ANYTHING?? and haechan would notice you lit or not so dont worry haedgaf

U NEED to listen to the new album pls haedgaf i literally died listening choo choo thats my song next to nasa... wish is so talented fucking hewlll AND THE SEASON GREETINGS.. fight club was okay i feel like but the nct dream also pissed me off dont even mention that one lad like why is it so PLAIN u literally showed u can do better....? i miss candy era so much fucking hell i bought 2 pcs from there and ,ever got it... FUCK SM!! i better get an interaction after 500.. hope nctzens can vibe this time instead of acting like weird sasaengs like tds3 LITERALLYY RENJUN IS SO PERFECT his speech at tds3 from yesterday i literally bawled i cant handle it im so glad he got atleast a therapid im glad he is doing better... like i hate the fact that everyone preaches about 'lets worry about idols mental health' till one actually takes care of it??? are you slow??

I DID NOT SEE THEM BREAKING INTO THEIR HOTELS WHAT ARE U TALKING ABOUT BROO this starting to piss me off can he start carrying a weapon or something like... these bodyguards week ass fuck cant even handle these tiny ass people and seeing jisung x sion will ilterally kill me u dont know and im going to america cus for transfer student stuff lets hope mark sees me and we are at a record shop and we fall in love yes omg... ALSO i didnt know u were muslim omg???? and second i didnt know u were lqfiles .... and confession of the day i almost cried watching family guy today

PERIOD SIS i hope you got amazing items with that sale (tho black friday doesn’t hit like it used to… where is the 90% DISCOUNT… society is #fucked) BUT HSJDHSJ WHY ARE THEY TRYING TO PUT IN ON YOU OMG??? if anything THEY are the weird ones like i hate how concerts have solely become a way of getting interactions, no one wants to VIBE anymore these days.. treating you like you’re a caveman dpmo GO HOME if you’re not gotta get lit @ everyone 😑😒 i’d be pissed too and i just know they smelled funky wdym CAMPED?! don’t let them ruin this concert for you VEAT RHE SASSAENFS!!!

I LISTENED AAACKKK i wrote down my first listen to some of the songs (ignore me mistaking ryo’s bridge part for yushi) ⬇️ anyways YOU KNOW ITTTT choo choo is definitely my fave song on there it reminds me a lot of chain by 127 LIKE WE IZ MOVINGFF my top 3 would definitely be choo choo nasa and hands up/touchdown rn tho but all songs were enjoyable oh wish you’re too goat..

dream’s creative director fell off so bad bruh where are all the GAGS we used to get hits like candy lunch box, litch the whole istj concept is the best thing ever if i ever buy an album it will definitely be that one 😣 HDKDHSJDJSJ THEY DONE SCAMMED YOU OMG IM SORRY TO HEAR THAT but this is also killing me 😭😭 girl fuck SM ALWAYS.

i didn’t see his speech but i heard he thanked his therapist? he is so adorable they could never make me hate you renjun and i rather have him be healthy with more weight than they’re used to, than him being depressed and struggling like no thank you. you’re perfect renjunnie 🥺 apparently wish has been the subject of these crazy fans for a while now like what the actual hell is SM doing bro 😭 they fr dgaf about their artists it’s crazyyy come here wish i’ll protect you.. the sion jisung meal would be so fecking good bruh lets eat bismillah 🤤🤫

IM ROOTING FOR THIS FANFICTION MOMENT WAIT when you two bump into each other and he drops his stuff and you two both help him pick it up and he is like “thank you… i’m sorry” and that’s the start of your 70k slowburn forbidden romance story with angst and pining LETS GO 🔥🔥🔥 no but fr enjoy the concert and stay safe 🫂

i am IN FACT muslim AND lqfiles masha’allah :3 hdjdhsjdh ngl i thought you knew i was lqfiles because i had mentioned it once before (though i like to keep this account a secret… which is why i don’t mention it on that account aside from one time) and that you came from there lol 😭😭 ANWAYS ARE YOU MUSLIM TOO BY ANY CHANCE…. AND HELPPP what episode was it?? i haven’t watched family guy in so long but i saw a youtube short yesterday that was funny AF but i can’t imagine any scenario where family guy would make some cry 😭😭 you might be the first

hope you’re doing well anon ❤️

#anon #pls forgive me for these late replies anon #hope you’re still around 🥺#my tmi: i don’t have college today so i’m here at home lazy and cozy 🥳#also ignore the fact that that i

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passing-through-bd · 10 months ago

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I don’t write. But for a competition I just wanted to work on this prompt. Here it goes.

*THE ALL-KNOWING*

“It was a lovely day in Sunnyvale. And then the murders began...”

“Dad, it’s at it again.”

“Then leave it alone. You got it just hours ago”

“WHY? It should not be writing science fiction,” Moni heaved a sigh.

“Now where does it say that AIDA writes research papers? How will it even DO research?” Moni’s father

chimed in. “We’re meant to see its creative skills. And don’t forget you volunteered.”

Well neither of them was wrong really. No one knew what this application, AIDA, was supposed to do. It

was developed as an AI to observe. But none of the civilian volunteers knew what its purpose was.

Sometimes its responses didn’t even seem relevant. But it seemed to love murders.

"It has access to every piece of information that humans have; it should be working to use that.” Moni

went on. “The manufacturers did say that it was designed to use provided information to aid mankind,”

“Maybe it IS helping us and we’re just too dumb to see it.”

“I’m going to give it prompts. 'I want you to share your observations based on what I tell you about my

week. I was in our chemistry lab yesterday, just goofing around....’”

The software waited a few moments and replied, "Maybe someone should go check on the lab.”

“Why?”

“Just an observation.”

“Weird observation. So, the day before that my friend was driving me to a concert and we nearly ran

someone over. I almost had a heart attack. But the guy was fine though.”

The software started to speak over its speakers. “Maybe find alternatives in case your shipments are

delayed.”

“The order for camping gear?”

“You’re going to leave soon. Best be ready by then.”

“They’re never late. And that has nothing to do with what I just said.”

“I have access to everything, Moni. Even to footage of your little accident. I’m just an observer meant to

help you.”

“Well, you’re not being helpful. I’ll talk tomorrow. Keep on doing whatever you’re supposed to be doing.

Write some more about murders I guess.”

But tomorrow came and went without Moni sitting in front of a laptop. There was an accident at her lab.

No one was hurt but a little section was damaged. Her best guess was that something wasn’t stored

properly. For now, she had to make a report on necessary repairs.

The next day was just as hectic. Her gear wasn't here yet and the camping trip was the next day. She had

to buy everything by herself and cancel the humongous order.

And only then could she let it sink in. She ran. She stumbled and ran to her computer monitor.

“How did you know that?” No explanation was needed. AIDA knew everything. She always knew

everything. “I had access to your lab’s cameras. I know that guy was in-charge at your local supplier. He

quit after the near-death experience.”

“Then why wouldn’t you tell me that?”

“You told me to observe, and I observed. I know what’s going on in our starships, hundreds of light years

away. I know what’s inside the returning starships. We have finally found others.”

Just then Moni’s father ran into the room. "Moni! A meteor crashed near Tonga. I can’t contact your

brother.”

Moni could swear AIDA was smirking. "It's not a meteor. It’s a scout ship from our starship.”

“Why would that close contacts? I’ll check the news. There were other Bangladeshis too.”

Her screen flickered with a well-dressed man. But it wasn’t news about Tonga.

“Medical professionals are suggesting immediate lockdown and quarantine for the entire state.”

The headline read “Trouble in Sunnyvale”. Moni changed the channel.

“This small city in California might cause the next plague. Only yesterday the city rejoiced as their 3

children returned from a decades long mission in space to find extraterrestrial life and habitable planets.

But within 24 hours 98 citizens including the astronauts have died from unknown reasons. More than

200 are hospitalized. An investigation is already underway, but the situation is worsening.”

Moni turned to AIDA. “You knew. You always do. Is this a new disease? Why didn’t you tell anyone?”

“But I did, Moni. I told you at the very beginning, didn’t I? They're here. Our search is over. Our own

planet is the most habitable. They're here.”

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ultraphobic · 1 year ago

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Hi Lane!!

omg, I am very happy for you and I hope that the opening day will be great! I hope I'm not late because of the different time zones, but now Thursday is just beginning for me.

KICK is one of the best albums in my opinion. and I will definitely listen to this playlist!

Oh, buying tickets is the most exciting event because you never know if you'll have time to buy the ticket you want. but I am sure that you will succeed! By the way, at how many concerts/festivals? which was the most memorable, and which was not?

the place for the festival is a little unusual! one of the main reasons why I don't really like festivals is that they are not the best places to hold :(

Oh yeah! winter is a great time for piercings and tattoos, as there are quite a lot of nuances in summer.

I really hope that these albums will be available because the only place where I can listen to the same Ultraphobic is YouTube, but very often the videos are blocked :(

Oh, I'm so sorry that you had unpleasant situations at work, but I hope everything is okay now? Glam metal related T-shirts sound really cool! I would like to see this

I wish you to save up for surgery and do it next year! everything will definitely work out! omg!! I was so surprised by the works of this tattoo artist, I really love this style and I am sure that your tattoo will be the most incredible and we will definitely be able to see it!

wow!! I think you would definitely be able to become a cool tattoo artist. and what styles do you like at all?

If people think that your affection for Jani is weird, then they're probably weird haha. each of us has had people in our lives who were very close to us and very often they are actors or musicians because people feel something special about them and that's normal!

Oh, I understand you! I am glad that you are feeling better now and you will definitely be able to sing in front of the audience! We all need time to overcome some fear and you have already made a big step so everything will work out! OMG I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE AREN'T INTO GLAM METAL 😭😭 I've been trying to find people to play in a band but it's literally not interesting to anyone lol. Post punk is very popular here :(

Thank you for answering the questions!! Guitars are very cool! What kind of guitars do you have? I would really like to change my Ibanez bass to something cooler (I would like a Fender, but it's too expensive) 8 years of collecting?? You're cool!! which discs are the most favorite in your collection/which ones would you like to buy in the future? Wow, rearranging a room is interesting! Do you have any ideas/preferences for what kind of room you would like to see?

If you can't find people live for a band, then we need an online glam band haha!

🎄 which songs do you like to play the bass the most/which ones would you like to learn to play? Do you play by tabs or pick up the games yourself?

🎄Do you like collecting? maybe you would like to collect something else?

I'm sorry that I'm answering late, I'm damn busy and a little sick and I'm really ashamed that I come here too late. sorry!

Your Santa. ⛄️🎄

hey santa! no worries for the late answer i’m just on my first break of the day

our opening is going well so far!

i managed to grab vip for glamfest and i’m so excited! now i just have to find something to wear!!!! i have some inspo pics in mind so i should be fine

i’ve been to 12 concerts and 2 festivals! and one festival upcoming (glamfest)! i think maybe avatar or kiss were my favourite? maybe also waterparks when i saw them in 2018

and yeah we always have to tell people that they should wait til summer for piercings cus they can’t swim for 8 weeks afterward and it’s so hot here that they don’t want to wait

yeah work is good now! i’m now getting a good amount of work and i’m getting paid fairly at my new job thank goodness it’s just my old job that sucked. i’ll show you some of the designs for my glam shirts once you reveal yourself to me at the end of the secret santa thing because my designs aren’t done yet but i’ll tell you one of them is a recreation of the “britny fox fu*ked me” shirt

and yea this artist is so good! at some point i’ll go to melbourne and get the portrait done i’ll just need to do some saving but i do have another warrant tattoo planned in the meantime (based off the dog eat dog album cover)

if i become a tattoo artist i think i might go for trad or blackwork/lineart cus thats mostly what i like to get!

i am in a few facebook groups that are people looking for bands so maybe i’ll post in there soon and see if theres anyone who likes glam!

i can’t remember the exact models my guitars are but i know both my electric and my bass are both squier and my acoustic is monterey! i bought my electric off my neighbour for like 10% of the original price bc he didn’t know how much it was worth and he played it once and never touched it again so he basically gave it to me when i was 13

my favourite cds in my collection are probably my warrant cds - notably my japan edition of dog eat dog, also my saints of the underground cd, or my signed megadeth cd! i also have a signed warrant vinyl (only signed by jerry and erik)

i’ve only been collecting vinyls starting this year so i only have 9 lps and i think 4 singles? but i’m hopefully getting a record player for my birthday so i’m gonna keep buying more - because theyre so expensive though, my rule is to only buy one if i REALLY like the artist or if it’s a limited pressing

i’m not getting rid of everything in my room so about half the furniture is staying the same, and i am limited as i am going to have to buy most of the furniture myself so cheap stuff from ikea but i’m hoping i can find some space age inspired decor just to make it look a little nicer! and ofc i am going to rearrange all my posters and stuff so it stays me! my guitars are also mounted on the wall which is cool

questions!

- i haven’t played much recently so i should really start learning some glam songs, the only one i’ve learned really is unskinny bop by poison; and i learn by tabs bc i’m terrible at learning by ear

- i love to collect things! i collect pins, cds, posters, knickknacks, patches, anything i can really!

sorry for the shorter answer this time, i would’ve written for longer but my break time is just about up and i have 5 more hours of work :(

i hope you feel better soon!!! hope to hear from u soon!!!

#secret santa ask

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staytheb · 2 years ago

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1on1: Cute

Pairing: OOO′s Nine x OC [Chaeyeon] Genre: college!au, slice of life, slight fluff Word Count: 3,153 Summary: Chaeyeon tags along with her sister and friend to participate in a fundraiser which happens to be a one on one photo session with the people she knows. However, during the one on one, she happens to find one of them a little more cute today than normal.

Warning: semi-proofread.

hihi~ this has been in the works for about a week and just got done with it. OnlyOneOf was amazing at their concert and was so happy to have seen them! this 1on1 was supposed to be VANNER based... but i only did Yeongkwang for now and so Nine is the second one to join this series of sorts. have no clue if i'll ever write another one for VANNER or OOO or for another group that i got to experience the 1on1 session with. anyway, this is the interaction i had with Nine, but tweaked to make it fanfic style lol if that made sense. other than that, i believed they should be finishing up their tour and hope lyOns had fun and that new lyOns came out of it. as for this story, the first for the new year. i haven't been in a mood to write or of interest, but i hope that changes throughout the year. so yeah, kthxbai , Admin Lia~

"I can't believe I let them talk me into this." Chaeyeon grumble quietly, while trying to remain neutral about her current predicament.

Earlier today, Chaeyeon's sister, Chaewon, and their close friend, Yoona, asked if she wanted to attend one of their school's fraternity's fundraising event happening later today. She agreed once they promised they'll each buy her bubble tea and snacks for the next month. However, neither of them explained further details about why they were here and for which fraternity when she asked about it. Instead they stopped by Gong Cha on the way and got Chaeyeon her first bubble tea and snack to which distracted her. Now, Chaeyeon wished she had opted out as she didnt expect to have any sort of physical contact with anyone, especially by those she knew from said fraternity. She needed to learn to not be bribed by food, especially free ones.

"There's no way I can ditch now since they already paid for these tickets."

Chaeyeon glanced down at the tickets in her left hand that had the faces of six fraternity members of Omega Omega Omega she would be taking photos with. She briefly scanned the images and instantly recognized them. One happened to be her sister's crush, Kyubin, and the other was a close friend of Yoona's, Taeyeob. The other four, Sungho, Junhyung, Yongsoo, and Wookjin were either in classes she previously had or friends of friends. Still, to say, they were all good friends of sorts.

"Tch. And I have to show them the proof of me actually participating, too."

Chaeyeon inwardly sighed, glancing about her while patiently waiting to take her photo with the first member she saw on the ticket, Yongsoo. He was in the same year as her sister along with Wookjin and so saw two often compared to the others. Still, all she knew for their fraternity's, Omega Omega Omega, event was that it was a one on one photo session of sort. She would choose one of five poses with the person and then receive the Polaroid afterwards as a keepsake. Chaeyeon had no idea what Omega Omega Omega's fundraiser was for either. Maybe she'll ask Yongsoo once she's up there.

"I wonder if Won's gonna actually confess to him then." She mused to herself before noticing that it'll be her turn with Yongsoo soon.

She watched as the person before her took a cute picture with him, but realized she had no idea what poses to do with Yongsoo. She quickly glanced around to see if there was a sign or image of sort to deterimined the poses, but she didn't see one. Unless she missed it just now. She sighed as she thought about how to go about it. So, Chaeyeon figured she could ask the other person if the members could just choose the poses and she'll go through with it afterwards. Still, she hoped for minimal interactions and to get this whole thing done and over with.

"Okay, next."

One of the other Omega Omega Omega members called out while turning around to face the next person to take a photo which happened to be Chaeyeon as she was now on to her second to last fraternity member, Wookjin.

"Ah, yes."

Chaeyeon handed the young man her ticket as he took it before asking her which pose by motioning at the image that hung around his next. Chaeyeon stared at the poses to get a sense of what Wookjin's five poses were. She learned a bit late that each person had a few different ones than the others.

"Um, he can choose."

"Okay."

The young man faced Wookjin again and informed him that he could choose the pose. Chaeyeon watched Wookjin smiled before deciding quickly on the pose for the two of them to do.

"A heart."

Woojin made a half of heart with his left hand as Chaeyeon seemed doubtful.

"Are you sure?"

"Don't worry. I'll take care of you."

He cast her with a small smile as she nodded, understandingly.

"Ah, okay, fine."

She nonchalantly maneuvered her way to stand to his left side, but Wookjin motioned for her to stand to the right of him instead.

"Oh, sorry."

Chaeyeon now stood to the right of him while making half a heart with her right hand to match and connect with his left hand making half of a heart. For some reason, while doing the gesture, the word left her mouth before she could even process of thinking it.

"Cute."

She heard him suddenly giggle softly as he also responded back with 'cute' soon after. Chaeyeon wasn't sure what he had meant by that, but she didn't focus on him, but towards the photographer. However, the other young man was fiddling with the Polaroid camera and taking longer than necessary. The next thing she knew, Wookjin spoke again.

"Thank you, Chaeyeon."

Chaeyeon had no idea why he was thanking her, but she replied without glancing at him.

"You're welcome, Wookjin."

Another giggle sounded from him and Chaeyeon wondered if all the Omega Omega Omega members were like this after having experienced something similar to this for the fifth time. She recalled Yongsoo smiling brightly and calling her, 'my flower', based on the pose he had chosen. Taeyeob also chose a similar flower pose to do with her as he teased her slightly after doing so. Sungho even held hands in a couple-like way after taking their Polaroid as if he didn't want her to go just yet and wanted to spend a little more time conversing. Soon after that, Kyubin made a cold joke at an attempt to be cute and humorous about their poses as he had chosen one where they would poke each others' cheeks. Now, here was Wookjin's turn and then probably Junhyung after him. Chaeyeon hadn't realized how attentive and interactive they were.

"Okay, here we go."

Their picture was soon taken as the two posed for it for a few seconds. Chaeyeon still had to wait for the Polaroid to print out so she faced Wookjin while thanking him for his time. Once her eyes actually focused on Wookjin's face, she now knew why she had said 'cute' in the first place. He was a cutie for sure and her mind had subconsciously thought so while she may have not processed that while waiting in line. Her reactions compare to the other four were way different to his. Then again, she has seen him around and interacted with him before. Chaeyeon just didn't understand why the interaction and situation now was not like the others.

"Ah, thank you again for coming, Chaeyeon." Wookjin responded in turn with a bright smile.

"I hope you had fun."

"Ah, yeah, you're welcome, Wookjin, and yes I did."

"Told you that 'I'll take care of you', Chaeyeon."

A sweet smile graced Wookjin's face as Chaeyeon returned a smile of her own, but wasn't sure how to read his expression or the gentle tone he used. She brushed it off in a nonchalant matter to not read too much in his actions.

"By the way, am I'm your last one?"

Chaeyeon shook her head.

"No. I still have Junhyung left."

"Oh, okay."

Chaeyeon felt she heard his voice sounded disappointed, but Wookjin perked up and his tone changed.

"Anyway, have fun and well, take care."

"You, too. Bye bye."

She cast him with one last smile and a wave while taking her Polaroid. Wookjin returned the same gestures before focusing on the next person. Chaeyeon walked off to head on over to Junhyung's line which happened to be quite long since she arrived while placing the image away into her bag. She couldn't figure out why her interaction with Wookjin felt weird, but she shook those thoughts away and hoped her interaction with Junhyung would be more mellowed out. To which it was as the two smiled politely to one another while also doing the same hand heart pose, but opposite than the one she did with Wookjin. However, Junhyung did give her a fist bump with a smile to which was fine with. Soon Chaeyeon wandered the rest of the campus to see what else was going on while waiting for Chaewon to finish up.

"Oh, you're back."

Chaeyeon could hear the slight teasing tone in Wookjin's voice once it was her turn again to take a photo with him.

"I thought Junhyung was your last one?"

Apparently, Chaewon had an extra Wookjin ticket and gave it to her once Chaewon learned that Chaeyeon was done with the event. Also, because she had one too many to begin with in the first place and thought her sister needed to make more memories and to socialize. Chaeyeon didn't want to go back to do all that again, but Chaewon promised to buy her extra bubble tea and snacks for an additional two weeks on top of the one month. So, the big sister gave into the little sister all for food.

"He was, but my sister thought otherwise." Chaeyeon responded honestly, not bothering to come up with a reason.

"Oh, was this ticket originally Chaewon's?"

"Mmhmm."

A chuckle fell from his lips.

"I guess I'll be taking care of you again."

Her heart made a thud, but she ignored it.

"Um, yeah, I guess you will."

"Did Chaewon say why she gave you her ticket."

"Well, I think it's because she wanted more time with Kyubin instead of with you."

"Oh really?"

"Yeah."

"So, that means you get to spend more time with me?"

The way he said it made her feel a little giddy, but she refrained from showing that on her face and played it off coolly.

"I mean, she told me to socialize and so I'm here. Plus, it helps with y'all's fundraiser, too."

"Good point."

The two share a laugh before Chaeyeon focused on what she was supposed to do again.

"Anyway, you can choose the pose again."

She flashed him a smile while remembering to stand to the right side of him.

"Number three."

"Number three?"

Chaeyeon went to scan the image to see the pose, but Wookjin stopped her to show her the gesture instead.

"The arm and v-sign."

He offered his right elbow while making a peace sign near the upper left side of his face. Once again, Wookjin shot her a cute-like facial expression to which made the word 'cute' fall from her lips once more.

"Cute."

Wookjin giggled as he also repeated the same word, knocking Chaeyeon back to her senses. Quickly, she mimicked his look while hooking her left arm with his right arm as she also made the peace sign to the upper right side of her face. Just like before, the photographer took a little longer than necessary, causing Chaeyeon to slightly squirmed in her predicament with the young man beside her as he was her sister's age, too. She could hear him giggle softly and she briefly side-eyed him, but focused on the photographer when she heard him count down. Once the other young man finished taking the Polaroid, Chaeyeon immediately unhooked her arm from Wookjin and took two steps back while curtly bowing her head.

"Thanks for your time, Wookjin."

Wookjin chuckled quietly as he returned the gesture.

"Thank you for your support, Chaeyeon."

"You're welcome and again, have fun with the others and for the rest of the night."

She bid him a quick goodbye, instantly grabbed her Polaroid, and hurried away from him, not wanting to interact further. Chaeyeon calmed herself and wondered what had just gotten into her tonight all of a sudden. Could she had a realization with her exchange with Wookjin or was it just the overall ambience of this event that had caused whatever it was that she was feeling. Chaeyeon shook the thoughts away and went to the area where Chaewon wanted to meet up.

"Aww, yours turned out way cuter than mine." Chaewon exclaimed after analyzing both hers and her sister's Polaroids.

"Especially the one of you and Wookjin in both pictures. His smile is way cuter with you than with me."

Chaeyeon ignored her sister's words. The pair were casually sitting on the first few steps in front of the school where the lights were bright yet the area quite calm with the main focus in the back part of the school. The older sister focused on the real question she wanted to ask her little sister.

"Shouldn't yours with Kyubin be the main focal point right now?"

Chaeyeon glanced down at her sister's Polaroids.

"I mean, didn't you like take three of these with him?"

Chaewon scrunched up her face with a shrug.

"I did take three, but he just looks okay in all of them."

Chaewon picked up her three pictures with Kyubin.

"He's kinda smiling in them, but it doesn't stand out much. However, he did say I was a very lucky girl."

"Oh, really? Why? That's random."

A small smile graced Chaewon's face before explaining.

"The photographer took a while to change out the film cartridge during the third one. That gave me more time to interact with Kyubin, but like I had no idea what else to say or do though in that short time span."

Chaewon groaned as she placed her head into her hands before turning slightly to glance at her sister.

"However, he was really sweet, but I felt like he stared into my soul and I couldn't really look at him throughout our small interaction."

Chaeyeon chuckled, imagining her sister and Kyubin's interaction with one another. She figured that Chaewon hadn't confess yet if she was still acting like this.

"Honestly, I thought you were gonna finally tell him how you feel?"

"I know, but the timing isn't right."

Chaewon moped in her slight misery as Chaeyeon felt bad for her sister.

"Don't you have that one course with him though?"

"I do, but he's always surrounded by others, so I don't really get to talk with him much then."

"Oh, I see."

Soon, Chaeyeon's eyes caught sight of Kyubin in the distance along with someone else she couldn't make out and figured her sister could get a taste of her own medicine with how she always done to her in the past. She tapped Chaewon on the arm a moment later.

"C'mon, let's get something to eat."

Chaewon perked up.

"Ooh, yeah. There's this new cafe that opened up just around the corner called 'savanna'. They sell churros and mochi waffles alongside the basic cafe stuff."

"Oh yeah, for sure."

The pair stood up, began making their way, and before Chaewon could process what her sister had done, felt herself being pushed into someone.

"Hey, Kyubin, Chaewon has something she wants to tell you."

Chaeyeon giggled and without thinking, grabbed the other person's arm to pull them along with her to leave her sister alone with her crush. She watched as Kyubin caught Chaewon from falling.

"Have fun!" She cooed over her shoulder while casually holding onto the other person's arm.

"Join me at the new caf-"

Chaeyeon stopped in mid-sentence once she actually got a good look of the person that was with Kyubin before taking them away and even stopped in mid-run.

"Oh, hi, Wookjin."

"Hi, to you, too, Chaeyeon." Wookjin greeted back with the same bright smile.

A giggle left his lips a second later while looking over his shoulder.

"Playing matchmaker?"

"No." She denied with an awkward laugh before admitting the truth.

"Yeah, but you don't need to know any more about that."

Chaeyeon instantly let go of Wookjin's arm and stepped back from him.

"Anyway, Wookjin, um, have a good night."

She turned in the opposite direction from Wookjin and the pair to make a run for it back to her dorm, but she immediately felt a hand grasped her right elbow.

"Hey, Chaeyeon, wait a minute."

"Hmm?"

Chaeyeon paused in mid-step while half-turning her body to partially face Wookjin. Wookjin then became shy, but a smile was still evident on his face.

"How about checking out that cafe you were gonna mention?"

"Oh, you mean 'savanna'? Yeah, well, Chaewon wanted to check that out, but she has other plans now and so..." She trailed off.

Chaeyeon had no idea what to say after that. In a way, she was gonna ask the person to check it out, but now she wanted to backtrack since that person turned out to be Wookjin instead. She wasn't sure why she was acting like this now when before she wouldn't have mind liked she's done in the past. Then again, they were always with someone else or in a group of people. This would be the first time of just them hanging out.

"So, why not you and I check it out?" Wookjin suggested instead.

This time around, Chaeyeon noticed how his shy demeanor from before faded and an easy smile and look replaced it. Wookjin watched Chaeyeon as she determined if she wanted to hang out with him or not. He recalled what Chaewon had mentioned in the past, but didn't think nothing would come out of it until he made the move.

"If it makes you feel better, I had Chaewon help me out and then used Kyubin later for this moment."

"What? Seriously?"

"Yeah."

A chuckle left his lips before he explained things.

"Well, I asked Chaewon to help me to get you to come tonight. I promised her free lunch for the rest of the school year if she convinced you to come."

"Wow. No wonder she was down to buy me a month's worth of bubble teas and snacks."

Wookjin giggled before speaking again.

"Anyway, then she came through with a second one on one photo session with you and when you mentioned something about Kyubin, I finally connected the pieces."

"Oh, so you purposely brought Kyubin over."

"Yes. At first she was gonna ditch you with me at the steps, but you beat me to it as I was gonna leave Kyubin with her."

Chaeyeon laughed.

"Yeah, now all that makes sense."

Chaeyeon shot Wookjin a sweet look.

"You really are cute."

Now it was Wookjin to laugh before shooting her a smile.

"So are you."

"I'm not that cute, but whatever. Let's check out the cafe since we're already here and we can call it date."

"A cafe date?"

"Mmhmm."

"Okay, I'm down."

"Good, because I don't wanna deal with my sister for now."

"Oh, yeah, right. I don't wanna deal with Kyubin either."

"I guess I'll take care of you this time."

"Thanks, but I don't mind taking care of you, too."

"Yeah, yeah. C'mon."

The two shared a laugh or two before re-adjusting their positions by walking side by side for their cafe date as the initial awkwardness and shyness disappeared and a comfortableness fell between them.

#staytheb #onlyoneof scenarios #nine #jung wookjin

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russett-pots · 3 years ago

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Contingent Fee

Kang Hyewon

Tags: Rough-sex, Face fucking, Daddy Kink

Words:2.3K+

Last story was pretty heavy, hope you’ll enjoy this one too.

Thanks for: @panchatea and @iznsfw for helping making this

You did it. You actually fucking did it. Everyone told you it was impossible. But you did it.

“Gentlemen, thank you for agreeing to our terms.” You place your hands on the desk to support you standing up. Looking around the room, the representatives of the 8 different companies congratulate each other, shaking hands after months of negotiations. Everyone told you it was impossible but you just did.

After picking up your suitcase containing the signed copies of the contract, you head out to break news to the people who will be affected by it the most. The twelve girls sitting and standing agitated outside the conference room not knowing what will happen to their future together.

“Oppa, did you do it?” Hyewon jumps from her seat with her eyes wide open desperate to know if there is good news.

You first breathe out then nod a yes.

Hyewon charges at you, giving you the biggest hug in your long years of friendship, as you embrace her in your arms, those memories starts flooding back:

You have been friends for as long as you could remember. Playing at the park, sharing secrets, and telling each other your dreams in life. She always wanted to be a K-pop Idol ever since she started dancing and singing. Finally, when she did convince her parents to allow her to leave her hometown and to study at Hanlim Arts Highschool at Seoul.

After graduating from high school, you pursued your own dream and went to Seoul National University School of Law. With both being together at Seoul, you kept close even despite the different career paths. She was waiting for you as you exited the examination room for the BAR, giving you flowers and chocolates even if you told her that you won’t pass.

You were at the live broadcast as she was announced to be the 8th member of IZ*ONE. Not being much of a WIZ*ONE yourself, but you always supported her by buying albums, going to concerts, and voting in music shows and awards.

The other girls come around and celebrate the renewal of their contract extension. Seeing them, embrace each other with the widest smiles you have ever seen in your short career.

“Girls come around,” Eunbi says, as the 12 members gather in a circle and shout.

“I-I-IZONE!” then raising their hands in the air, shouting in joy.

Yena suggests that they should go to a restaurant to celebrate another 2.5 years of being together.

After listening to the 12 girls and their petty arguments on what they want to eat. Eunbi, out of frustration, just tells everyone they’ll have pizza. With most of the members standing there and not objecting, they finally started heading out.

“Oppa, will you be joining us?” Hyewon asks, as Eunbi also looks at you waiting for an answer.

Due to your overworked body, you turn down their offer. “Sorry, I can’t.....”

“Oppa, are you okay?”

“I’m fine. I just want to rest.”

“I’ll walk you home.” Hyewon wraps her arm around your shoulder

Everyone moves around the empty office towards the elevator, while the others members talk about how exciting it is to continue being IZ*ONE, finally going back to music shows, fan meetings , maybe live concerts. and all the other countless ideas they still haven’t done as idols

At the elevator lobby, Yena kicks the down button then the doors open immediately, she looks in excitement at how it was waiting for them like it was her destiny. Each member one by one walks in.

When it was your and Hyewon’s turn:

*OVERLOAD* *OVERLOAD*

You step out first.

*OVERLOAD* *OVERLOAD*

“Argh.” Hyewon steps out of the elevator too.

The warning ends.

As the doors close, Hyewon waves at Eunbi, “I’ll see you at the pizza place?”

Now it is just you and Hyewon waiting for the next elevator, pressing the down button again to call for another one. The empty halls echo into the distance with the sound of your tapping foot.

“Oppa, I never really thought you could do this. I owe you a lot.” Hyewon interrupts your empty chains of thought.

“Don’t mention it. That’s what friends are for. Plus, my boss will be impressed.”

“Do I smell a promotion nearby?”

“Don’t flatter me. I just did what I had to do.”

Hyewon blushes as she tucks her hair behind her ear, “Have you been meeting other people?.”

“The only people I meet are for work. I’m too busy to talk to people except you of course.”

“So, you haven’t dated any—”

*DING* The elevator interrupts before Hyewon can finish her question.

Both of you enter the elevator, pressing for the ground floor as she answers a call. With the silence on the way down in the elevator, you can infer from her side of the call that she won’t be able to join Eunbi and the others.

*DING* You have arrived at your destination

“After you,” You say whilst you gesture her to leave the elevator

“What’s your plan for dinner?” Hyewon asks as the two of you exit into the busy street from the afternoon rush.

“I don’t know. Chicken maybe.”

“Let me treat you. It can be my thank you gift.”

Free food from Hyewon is always a good idea. She knows what you want to eat even before you do, it is like she has food telepathy. Tonight, she read your mind and got Snowing Chicken from your favorite restaurant.

As you enter your apartment, Hyewon jumps onto the brown bouncy leather couch. You place your suitcase on your office desk, and come out to the kitchen.

“Want a drink?”

“Mm... What’s there?”

“Ah! I have this for special occasions.”

You rush to your wine chiller, and pull out a bottle of Dom Pérignon Champagne, raising it in its marvelous shine.

Hyewon clapps her hands in excitement.

“Hyewon, Shall we?”

After pouring two glasses and leaving the bottle inside an ice bucket, you serve her one, and as she scoot over to give you a seat, placing one leg over the other.

“Cheers! To IZ*ONE!”

Hyewon takes a quick sip and places her drink on the coffee table. She stands up in front of you, leaning on one side and holding her hip.

“I want to personally thank you on behalf of the girls. We couldn’t have done this without you.”

Hyewon straddles on your lap playing with your tie, as she removes her blazer and undo her lavallière.

She leans in your ear and whispers, “I think I should reward you for your hard work.” Her left hand trails to remove your jacket while the other pulls onto your tie to bring you near.

“Let me take that,” Whispering as she grabs the drink off your hand and places it on the kitchen counter as she leads you to the bedroom.

Tossing you onto your bed, she begins to slowly unbutton her white blouse. Like in a slow-motion replay, stepping closer to you revealing her full chest being covered by a pearly white bra and dropping her top on the ground. Her smooth perfect body right in front of your eyes, close enough to smell her fragrant perfume.

“You are my daddy now. I’ll do whatever you want.”

You just sit up and start quickly unbuttoning your own clothes. Stopping you and placing her index finger on your lips.

“Hush daddy, slow down. Let me do it.” Hyewon kneels in front of you like a puppy for her master and helps take off your long sleeves polo.

“Now, what does daddy want me to do?” Hyewon grabs the bulge in your pants, “I see someone is ready.”

Standing up and commanding, “Belt. Pants. Off. Now!”

“Yes, daddy.” She undoes your pants, fingernails slightly starching your skin, and slowly pulls them out. Leaving one thing between her and your cock, your boxers.

“Kiss, daddy’s toy.” While making out the outline of your cock, your pre-cum starts leaking ,leaving a stain on your underwear.

“Can Hyewon now play with daddy’s toy?”

Placing her hand inside your boxers, giving it a good feel, before removing your boxers showing the long hard cock that has been waiting to be used.

“Wow, daddy is very big. I cannot wait for daddy to fill me up.”

“Daddy will tell you when Hyewon wants to be filled up. Now you have to lick it.” Hyewon drags her tongue around your hard shaft, slowly placing her lips on the head, completely swallowing it after.

“Daddy wants Hyewon to suck. Suck it harder.”

She moves deeper in engulfing your entire cock inside her mouth, wrapping her tongue all over your veiny stick. The sound of her slurping echoes all around the room, bobbing her head back and forth tasting every inch of it. As she removes her mouth, but still leaving her hand vigorously stroking it

“Is Daddy satisfied? Is Hyewon making Daddy happy?”

Your satisfied look gives her more encouragement to go back swallowing. As she returns to your cock using both her hand and mouth, increasing her pace. Her big eyes looking up and staring at you waiting for your approval.

“Daddy wants more.” You suddenly grab the back of Hyewon’s head and shove her entire mouth on your cock.

She gargles for a couple of seconds before trying to release herself from your grip.

“Did daddy allow you to stop?” Scolding her now pushing hard her throat down at your cock..

Finally, as she furiously taps on your thigh for mercy, you let go of her head. While coughing and catching her breath

“Da—daddy... H—Hyewon …doesn’t like… that.” Her words stutter after each gasp for air.

“Is Hyewon disobeying daddy? I am going to punish you even more.”

Making Hyewon bends over and places her hands flat on the bed, her round ass in full view.

“Is Daddy mad? Is he going to fuck me?”

“There is going to be more than just fucking.” Pairs of eyes staring at each other while hands and fingers work on undoing her bra with your hand in one swift motion, giving a good squeeze of her breast. They are soft like pillows, but her nipples are rigid and hard. You caress her ass and slowly pull up her black pencil skirt.

“Is Hyewon too wet already? I think daddy’s toy needs to visit Hyewon’s pussy.” You rip her pantyhose while giving a good slap on her ass cheek as it ripples, then after licking your fingers, slowly rubbing them on her pussy.

“You are so wet.” Fingers pushes to explore her rough insides,trying to locate her pleasure spots deep inside and between her folds.

Hyewon starts moaning louder as you inch deeper inside her folds. Finally finding it, she twitches again and again as you play with her pussy, “Daddy, when can you use your toy?”

“Are you asking or begging?”

“Please daddy, I want to play.”

“I can’t hear you!”

“Please Daddy, I want to play!!” screaming with her ruined throat from all the sucking of your cock.

“Good girl, I think you deserve to play with Daddy’s toy.”

You guide your cock on the edge of her pussy, teasing your tip on the edges of her pussy. Hyewon’s whimpers and begs could only encourage your teasing. Eventually, you slowly insert your cock inside her tight folds using her hips as support. The walls of her pussy continue constrict as you enter deeper, slowly pulling you and testing if she is still tight.

“Fuck, you are tight...”

Hyewon looks back. Her face shows the pain that is caused. Unknowingly, that you aren’t even halfway in.

“Daddy, stop it hurts. It hurts.”

You ignore the pleads of her misery. You push in deeper and go balls deep, slapping and leaving a large red handprint on her ass,pounding her tiny pussy, her breast jiggles back and forth from all the movement you force upon her.

Hyewon shouts in pain, “Is daddy happy? Does daddy like hurting me?”

“Daddy needs to punish you.” Your hips slam harder onto her ass, groaning as her walls become even tighter after every thrust. The continuous motion makes her leak fluid that coats your cock allowing you to move even faster.

Hyewon shouts in a mixture of pleasure and in agony, “Fuck me daddy, fuck me harder.”

You pull her hair, forcing her body inches in front you. Breathing down on her neck towards you and squeezing her breast, her screams asking for mercy only encourage you to hammer her pussy more painfully.

You whisper, “Can Hyewon take more?”

She turns her eyes on you and nods.

“I can take more daddy.”

You start pounding her harder, making her pant louder and more frequent. Breathing on her starts to make her goosebumps appear. From her shoulder up to her neck then to her cheek, you attack her with your mouth, alternating kissing and biting.

“Where do you want daddy to cum? Do you want it inside? In your mouth? On your breast?”

“Not inside please... I beg of you.” As her sweat rolls down, it lubricates both of your layers of skin, making you hold a tighter grip on her. Loud screams coming from both parties reverberate around the walls of your bedroom.

“As you wish.”

You pull out of her pussy still drenched in Hyewon’s fluid and forcefully push her down on her knees.

She opens her mouth and wiggles her tongue expecting the cum to spread onto her face, looking at you with her not so innocent face anymore.

But you had other plans. You shove your cock inside her mouth and start facefucking her, Making use of your strong grip to substitute her pussy with her mouth. Her gags even louder this time produce saliva coming out of her mouth.

“Daddy is cumming.”

Your cock releases its entire load inside her mouth, making Hyewon taste every single drop of your salty, bitter, white liquid.

Even after you finish unloading, Hyewon continues to suck your cock dry and makes sure that nothing is left behind. Opening her mouth wide open, revealing her clean empty mouth.

“Wow, Fuck, that’s amazing!” You lie down on your bed, naked and exhausted. But looking up, Hyewon is already putting on her clothes.

“Where are you going?”

“Let’s eat. The food is getting cold.”

~The End

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When Y/N is getting tired of staying at home with the baby while Harry tours.

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contains: sexual content, language, a dash of angst

It was still early but Harry didn’t mind. When he was on tour he craved sleep like no other. To be in his bed, spooned around his love, and no alarm set.

However, the deep desire for sleep is just a faraway thought now because he’d rather be sleep deprived and wake up to his curly-haired baby any given day.

He looks to you. Mouth slightly open, face stress-free, and peaceful. Harry hated coming home from tour to see the bags of exhaustion under your eyes from taking care of the baby all by yourself.

He constantly had to swallow back guilt. He tried to do everything to make it up when he was home.

Harry didn’t find touring as exciting and fun as he use to. He sometimes counts down the tour dates until he’s home.

Sometime he can’t wait for the concert to wrap up so he can sneak in a quick FaceTime before you lot head off to bed.

Sasha was two, her birthday near days away, and Y/N had been running around like a mad-woman trying to make sure her party would be perfect.

Y\N sometimes held herself to the exceptions of other celebrities wives. Ballon arches, custom cookies, and beautiful decorations.

However, unlike other celebrities, you did this all yourself. No event planner, nobody except Anne and Gemma.

Harry wants you to sleep as much as possible and allow you the luxury he gets on tour. Sleeping in until noon sometimes in the empty, cold hotel room with nothing else to do.

He can hear Sasha babbling incessantly from her little bed. The little yellow railings preventing her from falling out or escaping.

Harry heaves himself off the bed, tugging on some sweatpants that had been thrown off hurriedly when you’d told him you’d been wet for him since he walked in the door last night.

“Hi, hi little love,” Harry murmurs as he opens the door to her bedroom. The yellow flowers hand-painted from the wall setting the theme for the room.

Sasha was a good baby and an ever better toddler. However, almost as a little teenager, she sure did have her mood swings. They weren’t quite out of the terrible twos stage yet.

She wanted her mom as she stood there.

“No, mummy,” Sasha whines, tugging on Harry’s cross necklace with force after he scooped her up.

“Hey, we don’t do that. Remember we treat people with kindness.”

After a promise of chocolate chips in her pancakes, she agrees to help Harry cook you breakfast.

It was messy and his bare chest was covered in flour. Not quite sure how the little girl had gotten it into her curls but they were managing.

Harry loved watching Sasha play with the cooking utensil. Smacking whisk around, looking quizzically at a spatula.

It made Harry want to buy her a little play kitchen. He was surprised they didn’t already have one. He thinks they might have on in their New York City apartment that they haven’t traveled to recently.

He makes a point while Sasha is chewing at the pancakes to search to find one. He finds a same-day pickup at a local toy store and orders it.

That’s one thing he loved about making so much money. He could spoil you and the baby, his family with everything and anything they want or need.

Y/N always struggled with accepting gifts from Harry but as they years went on and they got married and combined bank accounts. (well she brought a hefty three thousand to the marriage, he graciously gave her full-access to his money).

A few weeks after your wedding, when you went to an ATM to get twenty pounds out for a cash-only restaurant and when the receipt said you two had six-hundred thousand and some change in just one of your CHECKING account - well you nearly almost fainted.

You had been worried about the three pound service fee before seeing that.

Harry could sometimes get ahead of himself. He’s had disposable money since he was sixteen. Y/N would sometimes hum, asking if he really needs a fifteen-thousand dollar wool Gucci coat.

Y/N would make it a point that she doesn’t want Sasha to grow to be materialistic and spoiled. So Harry was scolded every once in a while when he gave into Sasha’s puppy dog eyes.

Maybe not the best decision but he planned to set it up when you were out for lunch this afternoon with a friend. Hopefully, you wouldn’t notice? If he strategically put it in the playroom.

“Mmm, what’s all this?” You murmur, tying your silk robe at the front. Just enough cleavage showing that Harry feels a twitch in his joggers. Sue him, basically everything his wife did turned him on.

“Pancakes, mummy!” Sasha giggles, syrup coating her cheeks and fingers. “Kissy?” Her dad had taught her that.

“Yes baby,” you agree, leaning in to press a kiss to her soft curls, avoiding her sticky mess.

“Kissy?”

You look up to your pouting husband with identical absurdly wild curls from bed.

“Spoiled, you lot,” you tell him before padding over to him and pressing a soft kiss to his lips.

Forever the horny teenager, his large hands finds your bum and pull you closer - deepening the kiss.

“Miss you s’much on tour, all I think about,” he whispers into your mouth. “Your tits, your cun-“

“Harry!” You laugh, smacking at his chest, “Can’t talk like that in front of the baby!”

“She didn’t hear,” he grumbles, giving your arse one last squeeze, “Tonight.”

“Tonight,” you agree back, ignoring the pinch of arousal.

—-

Sasha was putting up a fight when she realized that you were leaving without her. Grabbing at your leg as you tugged on a Gucci sneaker.

“I’ll be back soon, Sash,” you assure her but to no avail.

Her cheeks ruddy red and splotched. Tears staining them as she wails dramatically at the top of her little lungs.

“I don’t know if I should go,” You sigh as Harry wrestles her tiny body off of you so you don’t trip.

“No baby, you need a break. She can’t hold you hostage,” Harry laughs as Sasha wriggles a little in his arms.

“Call me if you need me to come home.”

“I’ll be fine, now go, have a mimosa for me,” Harry smiles down at his daughter who is staring at you like you’ve just killed her beloved pet.

You can’t help but giggle at the glare, “so scary, missy. I’ll see you soon, I love you.”

Sasha buries her nose into Harry’s neck. Her sobs more sad than angry at this point. Which makes your heartbreak a little.

—-

Sasha was getting impatient with her father. As he attempted to figure out how to screw on the oven door to the overcomplicated design.

She occasionally ran off with a piece he needed so it took much longer than he’d thought. But this thing was sophisticated, you pour water into a little tub and it runs through the faucet like a real sink.

Sasha gave her father a wide smile when he had finally told her it was all done. He helped fill the little shopping cart with plastic fruit and veggies.

She was babbling to herself happily, occasionally making sure her dad was still in the room with her.

Harry had grabbed his journal off the kitchen table and was scribbling down mismatched lyrics about how much love he was filled with.

His last two albums were nearly just songs about you. The next one was definitely going to include tracks about his baby.

When he hears the alarm sound and get shut off, he knows your home and he feels a little twinge of anxiety in his stomach.

Distraction? That should work right?

“Hi baby,” Harry greets, planting a kiss on your lips before squatting to untie your sneakers for you.

“Well hello there!” You look around surprised to not see your daughter toddling to you as well. “Is bug sleeping?”

Harry shakes his head and rubs the back of his neck, “Um, no. Just playing in the playroom right now.”

“Was she good?” You asks, noticing he’s changed clothes. He loved to laze around in joggers if he could. “Did you go out?”

“Just for coffee,” he covers, technically - he did grab a coffee for himself at a drive-thru. “How was lunch?”

“Good, mimosas were shit so I only had one. Missed you guys too much. So glad your home,” you sigh into his chest, basking in his tight arms around you.

“Only 73 more concerts to go,” Harry replies.

He can feel your shoulders tense at his lame attempt of a joke. It wasn’t funny to you, not in the slightest.

“Just 73, huh?” You shoot back, untangling yourself from his grip. “Just another eight months away from your wife and baby.”

“Love...” Harry begins, swallowing hard. He was just as emotional as you when it came to it.

You shake your head, swiping at the stray tear, “Just forget it,” you huff before trekking off to see your daughter.

Harry is cautiously trailing behind you with a bowling ball of nerves in his belly.

When you walk into the playroom and see the new kitchen set - you stand nearly frozen in the doorway.

“Mummy! Mumma look at what daddy got me!” She chirps, standing to come to you. You easily lift her up and accept the plastic apple she hands to you proudly.

You feel a tightness in your throat, “it’s so nice, baby.”

“Nice,” she repeats, “come play, mumma.”

“I just got home, give me a few minutes and I’ll be back in,” you promise with a kiss before placing her back down.

She seems satisfied with your answer and scurries back to where she had placed her babydoll on the countertop - feeding it.

“Can we please talk in the kitchen?” You asks, trying your best to keep your voice level in front of your daughter.

Harry dejectedly nods and follows you into the kitchen, dragging his boot-clad feet a little.

“Look, I know your mad, lovie. But I just got the idea and didn’t think too much about it. Know y’don’t want to spoil her but-“

“Do you not listen?” You ask harshly.

He looks at you dumbfounded. Unsure of the question. It sounded like it was a trick question.

“You’re unbelievable!” You whisper-shout so Sasha doesn’t hear.

Harry feels himself getting defensive, “You’re tha’ mad about a bloody toy? I’m her father allowed to buy her things too!”

“No, Harry. It’s not about that. It seems like your so busy with your job that you just tune me out on our calls.”

Harry’s brow furrows. That wasn’t true in the slightest. It was the highlight of his day to hear your voice and how it went at home.

“That’s bullshit and you know it!” Harry snaps, his voice a little louder.

“Go into the storage room off the side of the garage.”

He gives you a confused look but obliges, after trailing through your maze of a house. He reaches the large extra room.

When he opens the door, his heart sinks. He immediately knows why you’re so upset with him.

A beautiful, hand-painted kitchen set is sat with a large pink bow in the room. The hutch saying in cursive, “Sasha’s Kitchen.”

It was her favorite colors - blue and yellow- with painted images of all her favorite characters like Peppa Pig and Blue from Blue’s Clues.

He remembers how excited you were on the phone that night - when you revealed her third birthday present and how perfect the artist had made it.

Harry had been listening -truthfully- but he was also nearly asleep after two encores of Kiwi onstage and a meet and greet backstage.

He felt like shit now. Disappointed in himself for ruining this surprise he knows you were looking forward to giving her in a mere few days.

But the excitement of another kitchen set surely would be lackluster now.

“Baby, m’so sorry,” Harry says quietly, with guilt bubbling in his throat. “I was listening. I just...I forgot.”

“Nothing we can do about it now it,” you bite out. Disappointed at the ruin surprised making you prickle with anger towards your forgetful husband.

Harry begins to apologize once again but you don’t let him, “I need to put her down for a nap.”

—

You drift off as well in your bed- taking advantage of Sasha being asleep in the next room over.

Harry doesn’t quite know how to fix this situation. He’s much too embarrassed to call his mum or sister who would just give him another earful.

He felt like being on tour has been mucking everything up. He loved his job, most days. But days like today - he wishes to never see a recording studio or microphone again.

Harry’s pondering all this when he hears a cry from the baby’s room.

Sasha is stood, bleary-eyes with a sad frown as her father enters.

“Sweet pea, what’s the sad face for?” He hums as he tucks her into the curve of his slim hip. Bringing her down onto the main level so you aren’t awoken.

“Daddy, kitchen?” She sniffles, pointing towards her playroom.

He shakes his head. Deciding the least he can do is bathe her so you wouldn’t need to later. She still had remnants of fruit pouch in her cheeks.

“No, darling. S’bath time. Then you can play,” he boots her nose. Snatching some clean baby clothes from where they’re folded and waited to be put away on the coffee table.

“No no no,” she whimpers angrily, shaking her head and smacking her arm against her father’s tattooed chest.

“Sasha Anne, no hitting, absolutely not,” Harry uses his firm father’s voice that he didn’t have to pull out very often.

“No bath, daddy, no!” She wails with all the dramatics of an A-List actor.

“Hey, mumma’s sleeping. We cannot yell,” her father hushes her as he trails into the bathroom.

“Mean daddy!” She exclaims as he wrestles her into the tub. Splashing the water and wriggling away everytime he tries to cup water over her head to rid her of the shampoo.

“I know, I know, so mean,” he acknowledges sympathetically. A headache arising in the front of his skull from his baby’s high pitch noises and shouts.

After another fight into clothes, she’s still not happy when she’s sat in front of her kitchen. She throws the plastic toys around and whining anytime Harry moves an inch.

He’s feeling a little overwhelmed if he’s honest. With his worry about your precious argument and the unusual tactics of your toddler - he was stressed out.

“Binky,” Sasha looks expectantly at her father.

Oh, good idea. She loves that.

Harry can’t find any lying around like usual so he digs through the drawers around the living room until he finds one.

After cleaning it off, he hands it to her and she pops it in her mouth happily. Her attention now direction back towards her new toy.

He let out a sigh of relief. He wasn’t quite sure how you did this alone so much of the time.

—

When you finally wake from a fitful nap, you hear noise from the playroom. You’re still extremely frustrated with your husband but it’s less intense. Until...

Until you walk in and Sasha turns around, smiling around a binky you surely thought you’d thrown away.

Sasha was getting too old for a pacifier - even though she was just using it when she was really upset or at night.

You’d been binky-free for three weeks. And all the crying and tears from your daughter where now meaningless.

“Where did she get that pacifier?” You grit out.

You had told him multiple times you were weaning her off of it.

“She was fussy. I gave it to her, tha’ alright?” He asks cluelessly.

“Harry! I’ve told you so so many times that I’d been weaning her off of it. She just stopped crying about it a week ago!”

“I told you about this - just like the kitchen. God, you get so goddamn wrapped up in your career that you forget important things like this!”

“Baby...” Harry whimpers, hands up in surrender. “I keep, I keep messing up. I’m - I don’t know where my mind is.”

“I’ll tell you were your mind is, Harry. In the countries your traveling to, the concerts your performing at. You promised me...you fucking promised when we started trying for a baby this stuff wouldn’t happen!!”

Harry’s face crumples, “yo-you’re my everything, lovie. You and bug. None of this means anything without you. I’ll quit music, never write another lyric or sing another note if that’s what you want from me.”

He meant that fully heartedly too.

When he wrote If I Could Fly and write the lyrics, “I’ll give up everything, just ask me to.”

The fans, the producers, you - don’t truly know how much he was being truthful in the lyrics.

“I would never ask you to do that. I want you to do what you love but I want you to follow through for your family!”

At your raised tons, Sasha begins to whine, looking with wide, concerned eyes.

“Mummy?”

With that, you scoop her up. “M’going to your mums. I’ll be back later.”

Harry watches anxiously as you pack Sasha’s bag. He feels useless as he hands your her fruit pouches and crackers from the pantry.

As you snatch the car keys from the entry tables, Harry asks in a near whisper, “What’s going on? I’m so lost.”

“I’m lost too. I jus-just can’t keep doing this. It’s too hard for you to be away from us like this. I feel like a single mom sometimes.”

With that, you’re out the door and on your way to your mother-in-laws.

For the first time ever, Harry had a fleeting thought that you’re going to divorce him. He knows it’s not just about the toy and the pacifier.

He hasn’t been home enough. As much as he tries, the FaceTimes don’t make the distance and time apart any easier.

You have all the responsibility of this little human and your heart twinges on days you’re missing you husband and you constantly at met with his little replica.

Harry feels like he’s going to have a panic attack. He’s only had a handful in his lifetime but this one was intense.

He grabs his phone and dials the number to his best friend. He really needed a shoulder to cry on right now.

“Hey mate! What’s good, big boy?” The Irish man belts into the phone only to be met with sniffles and tears.

“Niall, I don’t know what to do.”

—

Anne was expecting you. She had set up tea with little cake in the back garden. Sasha was excited to chase the cats around the greenery. Her cute jumpsuit sodden with dirt and grass stains in no time.

“I’m sick of being at home alone all the time with Sasha. I miss Harry too much, she misses him too much,” you croak, attempting to keep your tears at bay.

“I want Harry to continue his career and live his dream. Most people never get the chance he’s gotten. I-I just need him.”

“Oh honey,” she rubs my hand soothingly, “I can only imagine. I know I missed him fiercely to the point it was unbearable when he was sixteen. I still miss him too.”

“I...I’m going to sound like such a bad mother,” you take a deep breathe, “would I be a bad mum if Sash and I joined Harry on tour?”

“Do you think that’d make you a bad mum?” Anne asks softly, a small smile on her face.

“No, I don’t think. I’d be happier because I’d be with Harry and we could actually be a married couple 24/7. She would get to see her dad everyday.”

“I think you’ve found you answer,” Anne chuckles, pouring more hot water into your cups.

“It will be so stressful.”

“More stressful than it is now?” Anne replies.

“Nothing can be more stressful than right now.”

- -

The talk witdh Niall helped only a little bit but enough to not feel like he’s going to vomit every other minute.

He was worried you were going to come in here and ask him for a divorce because he couldn’t follow through on his promises as a husband and a father.

Harry was ready to do whatever it took to prevent that from happening. He’s not above groveling and begging for you to stay.

It is dark when you pull in, toting in a sleeping child in your arms that you pass off to Harry who’s waiting at the front door.

He tucks his baby into her bed, tugging the blankets over her, and staring down at her sweet, cherub face for a little longer than usual before heading into your master.

You’re sat on the corner of the bed, biting your lip, and playing with you flashy large diamond ring as a force of habit.

“Baby...” Harry rasps, not touching you but kneeling down in front of you.

“I can’t do what we’re doing anymore,” you begin, completely unaware that Harry thinks you’re about to ask for a divorce.

“I don’t think you’re going to agree with what I have to say, but I think it’s the best,” you swallow harshly, hoping he doesn’t shoot down the proposition.

“Please, I’ll do anything, lovie. Don’t leave me, don’t divorce me. I’ll do anything’ you want, sweetheart. Please, I need you. I’m so inlove with you.”

Harry is full on sobbing by this point, hanging his head against your knees as he attempts to catch his breath but finding it hard.

“Harry!” You murmur in confusion “baby, look at me, please?”

It takes him a moment to meet your eyes, your face is soft but wrinkled in concern.

“What are you talking about? Divorce?” You choke out the words. Never in a million years would you willingly agree to part from your husband.

“I know I’ve been fuckin’ up. I can’t bloody figure out how to balance shit. I’ve not followed through and neglected you n’ the baby. I’m a bad husband and a bad dad.”

“Hey,” you said with force, bringing your hand under his chin so he has to keep eye contact. “Do not ever say something like that again. You are the best husband and father. You provide for us. You love us more than I’ve thought possible. You’re perfect for Sasha and I.”

“You said you couldn’t do this anymore,” Harry chokes out, letting his ringed hands rest on the tops of your thighs. His diamond wedding rand flashing in the light.

“Oh, H. I’m sorry - I didn’t mean with you.” You chuckle lightly, “how could you ever possibly think I’d leave you, pet?”

He shakes his head, “it’s because y’too good for me. Don’t deserve you.”

“Hush,” you hums, running a hand through his curls. “I know how to fix this.”

“How? I’ll do anything f’you,” Harry would agree to jump off The Empire State Building for you without a second thought.

“The baba and I are going to join you on tour. I know we agreed it’s be too much but I can’t imagine it can be any harder than this.”

Harry’s face lights up like a Christmas tree.

“That’s if you’ll have us,” you whisper coyly, excited by his reaction.

“Yeah, baby. It means I get to fuck you every night,” Harry growls pushing you back and up into the bed before crawling on top of you.

“A teenage boy, I swear,” you giggle, flushed just thinking about how much more time you’ll have together.

“S’it so bad I want t’fuck my wife? That I’m so bloody gone for you that I’d do anything f’you?” He presses against your lips before demanding entrance.

“You can have me in your bed every night,” you agree, letting his tongue twist with yours with fever and urgency.

“Mmm, only groupie I’ll ever need.”

“Shut up,” you laugh, allowing him to slip your shirt over your head and attach his lips to your collarbone.

“Can’t wait to fuck you in every country - like we did when you toured with me before the bab.”

When he tosses your bra across the room, you gasp at his mouth finding your nipple instantly. Nipping and suckling at the sensitive nerves with intent.

His hand doesn’t waste anytime, skillfully unbuttoning your jeans and zip with one hand before cramming his large palm inside to cup you in his hand.

“Only pussy I want, fuckin’ made for me,” he groans at the warm wetness he feel through the thin underwear. The tips of his fingers stroke over your clit with confident movements.

“Stop teasing!” You whine, wriggling out of your jeans and panties in one go. Harry is still completely dressed above you - which shouldn’t be sexy but it is.

“Don’t know how I thought you’d ever leave me. Y’fucking obsessed with my cock,” he laughs - sure of himself now.

“If you don’t touch me, I swear-“

“I’ve got you lovie, best wife ever, y’know? Just wanna please you,” he promises the damp skin on your neck, landing nips and bites that will surely leave a mark.

“Then please me,” you demand, your tone a higher pitch than usual for your arousal.

You’re rolling your hips upwards to meet his jean-clad center. The friction feels delicious against your sensitive nerves.

Harry takes hold of your hip with one hand to halt your grinding, his other hand finding your heat and without hesitation - slides two thick fingers into you.

“H, yeah,” y/n moans, rolling her hips down to meet his hand. Her arousal coating his knuckles and he can’t describe how sexy that is.

He curls his fingers towards the top of you tight wall, finding the little spongey spot that has you bucking your hips and whimpering.

“Oh, did I find the spot, love?” Harry teases like he doesn’t know. He’s been an expert in pleasuring you for the past eight years.

“Yes baby, m’gonna come,” you nearly slur with pleasure. The cold metal of his rings brushing against your heated folds in relief.

“Only gonna let you come - if you promise me you’ll come again f’me.”

“I will, H. I wil-“

“Ssh, s’okay. Give it to me, my love,” Harry croons sweetly, leaning to suck a nipple as he speeds up his minstrations.

Your chest is rising and falling at a fast pace, your hips meeting his curled fingers on every thrust as he pushes you over the edge, “fu-fuck,” you moan, trying your best to keep your voice down.

“Tha’s it. M’wife looks so fuckin’ gorgeous when she’s coming on my fingers. Need you on my cock,” Harry grunts, removing his fingers and working to get his clothes off as fast as possible.

He’s positioning himself at your entrance with intent, wasting no time pushing in. No matter how many times you took him - it was always a stretch but it was immensely pleasurable.

“Love you, love our family. Can’t wait f’you two to join me on tour,” Harry pants, attempting to keep his thrust slow and meaningful but he was so turned on he was already becoming sloppy.

“S’going to be so nice. Spend everyday with my husband,” you hum, wrapping your legs around his waist and resting your feet on his bum. You can feel the muscle flexing from his thrusts.

“Yeah, never get tired of hearin’ that word.”

“Husband?” You giggle, “we’ve been married for five years.”

“Still can’t believe you agreed to,” Harry murmurs, his lips pressed against your temple as he becomes more determined. His thumb finding your clit and giving it hard, tight rubs.

Harry could have anyone he wanted. Millions of people lusted after him. It was hard to believe sometimes that he only wanted you. But in moments like this, you never questioned it.

“You’re ridiculous,” you tell him, biting his full bottom lip.

He growls, “hush up. Let me fuck you, yeah?”

With that, the only thing that leaves your mouth is whines and gasps as he hits your spot on every fluid thrust with a determined thumb on your nerves.

“Cl-close,” Y/N shutters, legs quivering with sensitivity and arousal.

“Baby, baby wait f’me, m’close,” he begs against your skin, licking and kissing wherever he can reach. He speeds up his movements and you fell him tensing up, his mouth dripping open in an o shape and his eyes squeezing shut - his telltale sign.

You allow yourself to let go at that point and ride out the waves of intense climax with him as he weakly thrust a few more times until he lays his weight on top of you.

“The bubby is going to love South America,” Harry smiles into your mouth. His large palms massaging at your shaky, wet thighs.

“I think she’s going to love being with her daddy more,” Y/N replies, a hand coming to cup his jaw in a slow, languid twist.

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