#maybe she still tries dating julian and it's not good bc she's using him for company and he's

[kiranerysismyhero]

what if how we could have both ezri and jadzia in s7 went like this:

jadzia is mortally injured, and the destiny is trying to get her/dax back to trill while she's still on life support. ben comes along bc jadzia is not actually dead yet and he has good reason to distrust the symbiosis commission.

things take a turn and it's looking even more urgent for the symbiont. ben doesn't want to let anyone remove dax from jadzia (again) while she's still alive but is overruled by starfleet brass at the behest of the commission. the ship's surgeon joins dax to ezri, who in this version is still just as reluctant but now at least the 15 minutes of improvised lecture substituting for years of preparation comes from ben. like how would he approach that conversation?

ezri wakes up and meets ben this time as dax... but in the next bed over jadzia is still hanging on. an hour, then two pass and the symbiont's vitals are a lot more stable now in ezri while jadzia is not doing well but is still fighting for her life. the destiny's doctor is kind of lost because they tried to contact trill about how they should care for jadzia but all the symbiosis commission wanted to talk about was dax and how soon could they get their hands on ezri

and ben is like 'okay i know you just met me but also you've known me for lifetimes now... hear me out...' and ezri's like 'yup solid plan let's do it but also what if we took even more risk bc dax's got a bit of starfleet medical now too' and ben's gotta be 'oh i had more appeals ready that you didn't even wait to hear, okay'

basically action sequence now– the destiny had slowed down to respond to an emergency signal and pick up some escape pods bc y'know dominion war, and ben and ezri work together to sneak jadzia into a biobed and off the ship in a runabout. and we see some of ezri accessing previous hosts as they hide the runabout in the debris field and get some distance before the destiny realizes they're missing

and just when it seems like the destiny is going to find them as ezri's breaking down a little bit about 'i'm a counselor and i'm still in training and out of all these lifetimes i'm still the one with the most medical knowledge in here??' as she tries to keep this woman that she remembers being stable-ish in stasis... the defiant decloaks! grabs them! re-cloaks! outta there!

julian checks that ezri is really really sure and then does what the symbiosis commission was never going to consider as an option: rejoining dax to jadzia now that the symbiont has been rehabbed/bolstered by ezri

jadzia is able to recover, if slowly. ezri is physically relatively unharmed by the ordeal, but a whole lot of psychological upheaval just happened and this woman is sat here making jokes about remembering being ezri for a hot minute and while ezri no longer remembers being jadzia, she does remember remembering being jadzia... it makes her head hurt. and jadzia's just like 'nah it was still less traumatic than last time when i had to be awake for more of it' and ezri just desperately wishes she could remember what the hell she means by last time

the symbiosis commission is piiiissed. they reallly want to excommunicate dax, jadzia, and/or ezri for all this but ben's like 'i'm adding the viability of respite care for symbionts to the list of info that you don't want me to share with your whole society' aand the symbiosis commission concedes under the condition that ezri is now GOING to be the next dax, WHENEVER that may be, there has been eNOUGH hot potato with this worm already, you two are going to STAY CLOSE so you don't end up pulling anyone else into dax's chaos being another intermediary when the time comes

so now jadzia and ezri are bureaucratically handcuffed to each other and both alive and have fascinating things to talk about :)

[zozophoenixxx]

Friendly reminders about The Flash⚡️

Things I had forgotten or little details I just noticed on my rewatch, maybe even Unpopular Opinions 🤭👀

✨Season 3✨

Flashpoint... oh gosh I used to hate this episode, I literally always skipped it but this time I'm gonna watch it you guys I promise😂

Nvm this episode might not be so bad, we get to see Barry all happy and with his mom and Dad and i-🥺

Omg do y'all remember in season 2 when Barry, Cisco and Harry went to E-2 to stop Zoom and Cisco said that he thought his doppelganger would be like a rich tech genius or sum like that... Not Cisco from flashpoint being a rich tech genius 🤭😃😂

Caitlin... She's a pediatric eye doctor🤭🥲😂 (flashpoint)

Wow wtf I had completely forgotten about Julian 😳

I swear I hate it when they mess so much with the timeline, I just can't keep up

West-Allen kiss count (approximately): 30😘

⬆️ approximately bc I might have messed up 😅

Wow I thought season 3 was all savitar, I did not remember alchemy

Rival, Magenta (portrayed by Joey King, we love her),ɹǝʇsɐɯ ɹoɹɹıɯ and top, monster, shade, plunder, abra cadabra

OK Y'ALL I JUST NOTICED THAT IN THE MAGENTA EPISODE *breathes in* Barry and Iris go on their first date and electric love was playing... The fact that that's the song used in the trend where you kiss your best friend seems rights

Jesse got her powers 😃 we stan Jesse Quick⚡️

CECILE AND JOE I-🥺

Bro HR 🥺

Julian really was a b*tch at the beginning of this season, but his accent tho🥴🤤🥵

That height difference between Cecile and Joe is what I need in life I love them 🥰

Iris is such a badass bro I love her

Savitar is apparently the Hindu god of motion 🤭

Killer frost episode 🤭😃 I love the fact that Caitlin got powers but I still felt so bad for her like she didn't want that, she didn't want to hurt anyone 🥺

She really said some pretty hurtful things to Barry, he messed up everyone makes mistakes 🥺

Barry tricking Killer Frost into turning back into Caitlin was 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and then when she wanted to apologize and Cisco just hugged her and Joe too i- 🥺❤️🥺❤️🥺❤️🥺❤️🥺❤️🥺❤️🥺❤️🥺❤️🥺 I think that was the first time when we saw Joe And Caitlin hug 🥺

Julian's such an ass bro he really forced Barry to quit and he really did just to protect Caitlin

Y'all ever get chills or just overall goosebumps whenever the music from the other shows start playing in the crossovers? No? Just me? Cool just wanted to know 😅

Felicity fangirling is me

Also Diggle throwing up every time Barry takes him from somewhere is hilarious or just him being done with anything that's not normal 😂

Bro supergirl I- 🥴🤩

NO AND THEN SARAH AHDHAHHAHAA she really said "it's kinda hot" (referring to Supergirl being a bad ass) when they were training lmao I cantttt

Cisco was getting visions of Dante, who was actually Savitar, and was manipulated into opening the box which brought Savitar out and really if it hadn't been for Caitlin, Barry and Wally would've been killed

DANG CECILE AND JOE JUST KISSED WOWWW😁

Their apartment i-

HR really got them a turtle named McSnurtle y'all i-

GYPSY

That scene where they told Joe that Iris was meant to die in the future was so🥺😞😩 I don't even know how to describe it

wally and Jesse were cute 🥺🥰🤌

Cisco and Harry were kinda mean to HR🥺

Grodd just tried to kill Joe and Harry and Cisco came up with a way to see into Grodd's memory through Joe and Istg Joe's face lmao, he's just so done with everything 😂

Dang Grodd's plan really was to kill everyone with nuclear missiles by controlling that military guy and Barry had to try every password combination to stop it just like he did in season 1 or 2 (idk lmao) when he was helping Snart and his father with a robbery

Y'ALL BAHSHHHAHAHA I love GYPSY she really just straight up kissed Cisco and went like "even if I did [like you] you couldn't handle me"

AND CISCO was all like "I'll marry that woman"😩😳😂💀

BARRY DID NOT JUST PROPOSE

Y'ALL WHAT I THOUGHT THIS WAS WAY LATER

I love that scene where they tell everyone 🥺

Bro why was Barry always so mean to Wally like I know he was stressed out about Iris but bro it wasn't Wally's fault 🥺

OMG JULIAN JUST KISSED CAITLIN🥺 they're adorable

Wally did watch Iris die

Jesse moved to E-1 when she was dating Wally for a bit and she stayed at Joe's house with the both of them

Savitar used The Greek myth of Atla to explain why he needed Wally to get out of the speed force ➡️ Atla can't let go of the sky without having someone take it from him.

Ok so by taking a part of the philosopher stone before it was thrown into the speed force, Caitlin technically kept Savitar from coming back. So if Wally hadn't had those visions where Savitar manipulated him into throwing that little piece of rock into the speed force... He wouldn't have been able to escape

That was kinda hard to explain. Idek if it made sense I'm sorry y'all I'm not good with words 😂

I love Harry 🥺

NOT EDDIE IN THE SPEED FORCE 😳

Ok y'all but whenever y'all watch it or rewatch it, there's this very cute and funny scene in S3 E16 min 17:00 between Caitlin And HR where she takes away his drumstick and he just takes out another one but it's very adorable because they keep messing around🥺

Bro the speed force was really being b*tch to Barry when he was trying his best to save everyone and change the future 😩😞

And Jesse was so mean to HR on Ep16🥺

Jay saved them 🥺

Ok relationships are so confusing wtf

THE MUSICAL EPISODE, MON-EL, SUPERGIRL OMG ITS BEEN A WHILE WTH!! Imma rewatch supergirl too😃

Melissa Benoist is so gorgeous 🥴🤩

The way Barry looked at her when she was singing I-

I love their friendship but I kinda ship them too🥺

OH I REMEMBER! this guy was trying to teach them a lesson about love, because they were both having relationship problems

He was also on glee. THE 3 OF THEM! I-

Darren Criss, I didn't know his name

I love this episode

Cisco and Winn And Malcolm singing and dancing, this couldn't get better

Omg I would love to see a Winn-Cisco-Felicity trio. I feel like they would work so great together 😁

IRIS AND MON-EL well actually Tommy Moran and Millie

Their fathers being gangsters is hilarious and their accents 😂

Everyone's facial expressions when John revealed that he was also an Alien 😂

Millie having 2 dads and those being Stein and Joe is great lmao although I never knew if it was because they were hay or it was more like Barry's situation 😂

JOE AND STEIN SINGING AND BARRY IN THE BACK Y'ALL IM🤭🤩🥺

I never thought I needed this 🥰

THEIR DUET IS COMING VDXHSBFVDHA

THEY'RE DANCING 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

This is officially one of my favorite episodes 😃

When they got shot they were very worried for each other and I just love their friendship

HE'S ABOUT TO PROPOSE, HE'S SINGING AHHHHH

COME RUNNIN HOME TO YOUUU 🎶🥺

I really liked how in the episode where Caitlin gets hurt when Abra Kadabra throws a bomb, Julian's the one to operate on her and Iris is right there with him trying to help out, even though they weren't truly friends until later on it shows that they're all really a family

And also Wally and Barry carrying her to the room 🥺

Also the fact that it was Caitlin guiding Julian through her own surgery shows how strong and amazing she is I love her 🤩

Caitlin (killer frost actually) is the 1st to know who Savitar is

BRO CECILE JUST TOLD JOE SHE LOVES HIM AND HE DIDNT- this got too ~umconfy~

Bro killer frost's outfit is pretty hot 🤩

Cisco was afraid of killing Caitlin on accident and that's why he didn't shoot her whenever they were trying to get her🥺

"She's my best friend... And I'd rather it be me than her"

I love him. And I love their friendship.🥺😞

BAHSHAHHA do y'all remember when they erased Barry's memories?

He's hilarious

JAHSHAHAJAJ and now they left him alone with Wally who told him they're basically brothers AND BARRY STRAIGHT UP GOT HIS HAND OUT OF HIS POCKET AND LOOKED AT HIS SKIN COLOR I-

Barry loved anime

He's so happy without his memories, he's gone through so much 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Snart prevented Barry from killing King Shark

HR and Tracy 🥺

The way HR blamed himself after he told Savitar where Iris was and the fact that he does end up saving her at the end is...🥺

Bro I felt really bad for Savitar later

But then he betrayed and 🙂

And now Barry just left

I swear I hated this cliffhanger sm

Cause whenever I started watching it this was the last season and I-

Also Iris killed Savitar

[writerlys]

✤ YOU ALREADY KNOW!!! all the ships pls 😌😇

I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE OUR BABS AND THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN!!! cuteness below 🤧

SEND ME ✤ + A SHIP AND I’LL TELL YOU…

aidarah who said i love you first? AIDEN AND WE’LL NEVER LET HIM LIVE IT DOWN!!! CAUSE OF DEATH: BELLA!!!

who laughs when the other trips? sarah because she loves making fun of him KJSDFHKDSFJK.

who pays the bills? sarah because we all know she goes crazy if she is not in control of everything!!!

which one makes a bigger deal around the holidays? SARAH because she loves giving gifts and decorating and all of that 😭

who’s more clumsy? hmmm this is hard. I don’t feel either of them are particularly CLUMSY but I can definitely see both of them tripping over their own feet when they’re drunk LOL.

who checks their daily horoscope? neither!! I don’t think either of them are really into astrology tbh.

who sings louder in the car? SARAH 43985934598349 PERCENT.

who leaves the cap off the toothpaste? I feel like this is aiden and I feel like sarah is the one to close it and then aiden opens it again and it’s just a neverending saga LMAO.

who is more up to date in pop culture? honestly... they’re probably both the same LOL. and that is to say relatively clueless. like sarah isn’t super big on social media and I don’t feel like aiden would be either.

who insists on going to see the newest movies? sarah!!!!

who cries when the abused animal commercials come on? SARAH. she def cries more in general but especially when those commercials come on she’s probably like “aiden can we donate all of our money to the aspca???”

who’s the lighter sleeper? hmmm I think aiden. sarah generally sleeps pretty well ESPECIALLY when it’s with aiden, and I feel like aiden sometimes watches her fall asleep and then falls asleep after 🥺

who believes in ghosts? I would say sarah but I can weirdly see aiden believing in ghosts bc of his fear of haunted houses LMAO.

who does the grocery shopping? both of them!!! though aiden would probably notice she’s stressed out and would go shopping for her if she was having a hard week 😭

who updates their facebook status more often? I feel like neither of them have facebook but sarah probably posts sliiightly more on like, instagram stories.

evelian

who said i love you first? oh god what is the right answer to this. I guess TECHHHHNICALLY julian but it’s only on a technicality bc really eve said it first KSDFHJKS.

who laughs when the other trips? troll eve for sure!!!! and also probably julian at himself tbh LMAO.

who pays the bills? this would for sure be eve because julian is a sweetheart but he also has the attention span of a goldfish and it’s a miracle he can pay his bills by himself tbh.

which one makes a bigger deal around the holidays? hmmmm I feel like both?? they’re both so family oriented and I feel like they both get so excited 😭

who’s more clumsy? JULIAN!!! both of them are dancers but julian is Chaotic so sometimes his grace goes out the window and he’ll trip because he was trying to do a cartwheel in the middle of the street.

who checks their daily horoscope? I can see julian doing this because zoe is super into astrology and he probably tells eve her horoscope every day. like will text her in the morning and be like “have a good day baby. also something good is going to happen to you today because you’re a virgo!”

who sings louder in the car? oh god this is so difficult. both of them LOL. maybe eve by a HAIR.

who leaves the cap off the toothpaste? JULIAN because once again chaotic and attention span of a goldfish. though I don’t think eve minds much bc it’s just a julian-ism.

who is more up to date in pop culture? eve!!! she def always has to teach him slang and julian def still uses it wrong.

who insists on going to see the newest movies? I feel like this is eve too! and julian goes because he loves seeing her reactions (and also listening to the music during the movie).

who cries when the abused animal commercials come on? oh god julian hands down. we all know how much of a sucker he is for animals.

who’s the lighter sleeper? julian on account of the NIGHTMARES and TRAUMA!!!!

who believes in ghosts? I can see both of them believing in ghosts! julian for sure does because he’s big on horror and also because zoe believes in them and he’s like “zoe’s usually right about everything so I’m gonna go with her”.

who does the grocery shopping? they definitely go together!! and they’re both so obsessed with taking care of each other that it stays even.

who updates their facebook status more often? evie!!! julian is so awol on social media and will post one picture of his production setup and then go quiet for six months lmao.

navalerie

who said i love you first? OOOOF this is hard but I feel like it’ll be naveen. he’s such a softie for her and he just loves her SO. MUCH.

who laughs when the other trips? both of them but ESPECIALLY valerie. and naveen definitely trips on purpose to make her laugh.

who pays the bills? valerie for sure, probably because naveen is capable but bills give him anxiety SDKJFHDSKJF.

which one makes a bigger deal around the holidays? hmmm I feel like this would be valerie bc she’s so big on family. naveen’s family is super big on traditional holidays but naveen himself is pretty neutral on them.

who’s more clumsy? naveen!!! valerie walks around flawlessly in her five inch loobooboos and naveen meanwhile is just like yeah I’m wearing sneakers and I will trip anyway. what about it. LOL.

who checks their daily horoscope? valerie!

who sings louder in the car? oh man THIS IS DIFFICULT TOO. if anything I feel like they’d try to out-sing each other HAHAHA.

who leaves the cap off the toothpaste? naveen and he probably has notes everywhere in the bathroom to put the cap back on but then forgets it EVERY time.

who is more up to date in pop culture? VALERIE. IS THIS EVEN A QUESTION.

who insists on going to see the newest movies? naveen!!! especially documentaries but he’s also def a bit of an oscar snob and probably drags val to all the artsy fartsy movies that have no plot LOL.

who cries when the abused animal commercials come on? probably valerie but only if she’s like... feeling sensitive and in her pajamas and a face mask LOL.

who’s the lighter sleeper? naveen!! I think his anxiety sometimes makes it hard for him to sleep so he’s just like 👁👄👁 at night.

who believes in ghosts? valerie and naveen definitely tries to trick her into believing there are ghosts in their house when it’s really just him trying to prank her 🤧

who does the grocery shopping? oh this would totally be naveen. valerie could wake him up at like 3 am and be like “I want pasta imported from the foothills of italy” and naveen would be like “say no more queen”!!!

who updates their facebook status more often? OOH this is actually tough. valerie more organically, naveen bc he’s ~le famous~ and has to keep up an image lmao.

leeluke

who said i love you first? THIS IS SO DIFFICULT TOO UGH. I can honestly see it going either way!!! like maybe leela says I love you to ellie and luke is just like “!!! holy shit I’m in love with her”? so maybe leela but honestly I am not sure LOL.

who laughs when the other trips? leela LMAO. I don’t think luke trips much but when he does she probably has to hide her laughter.

who pays the bills? luke bc he’s ~mr. fancy pants money bags~ LOL.

which one makes a bigger deal around the holidays? luke bc ellie is little and he probably wants to make holidays super special for her 😭❤️

who’s more clumsy? I think this is leela just bc she’s SO NERVOUS ALL THE TIME. like would trip on herself just bc she’d be trying SO HARD not to be awkward. 

who checks their daily horoscope? I don’t think either of them are into horoscopes or astrology at all!

who sings louder in the car? this would totally be luke once he opens up and then eventually when he gets leela to open up, she’ll sing along too 🥺

who leaves the cap off the toothpaste? leela bc she’s probably running out the door trying to get to work and forgets stuff like that. though luke probably does too and they both look at their dried up toothpaste and are like “??? weird how this keeps happening”. 

who is more up to date in pop culture? I feel like luke but only because ellie is growing up so she’d keep him more up to date LOL.

who insists on going to see the newest movies? LEELA bc she finally has someone who legally has to go see every new rom com with her LMAO.

who cries when the abused animal commercials come on? omg leela for sure bc she’s such a softie.

who’s the lighter sleeper? luke definitely. I wouldn’t say so when he was a fuckboy but now with ellie he probably has that parenting instinct where he can wake up at the drop of a hat if he senses something is wrong!

who believes in ghosts? leela bc she gets scared of things easily!

who does the grocery shopping? I think they go together but I can also see luke going by himself while leela works late, OR luke carrying all their bags out to the car 🥺

who updates their facebook status more often? hmm this is a toughie. I don’t feel like either are super into social media but maybe luke when ellie does something cute!! 

[trickkombowerskru]

Right Here-Julian Spitzer Imagine

Request: No here is the 2nd day of the 25 days of trickkombowerskru! which goes to @poruchik-logy​ and they wanted a Julian imagine where reader is his best friend, who always supported him(or at least tried to), but due to the events of the show (or general depression) julian became negligent towards reader, who had a crush on him for years. but in the end of a day, he understands that reader is the real deal

A/N:I'm writing this before ep 7 where it is pretty clear that they'll at least hook up, but as of ep 6 nothing has really happened so we're gonna pretend things ended between them here. Also damn look at ya girl back at it making gifs again bc there are practically no Julian gifs

Warnings: None

You were laughing as you and your best friend talked. Usually on Fridays before his class he would come over to hang and just talk about stuff he hadn't earlier in the week. He checks the time and stands, picking up his skateboard.

"Aw shit I have to go,"

"You just got here like 30 minutes ago."

"I know and I'm sorry I gotta leave early to get to class I was late last time."

"Ah. Well I don't want you to be late. It's okay Jul go."

He needs practically rushing the door not even hugging you like he usually does, making you frown after he leaves. You had known Julian pretty much since diapers, you were always there when he needed you -especially after what happened during highs school- and vice versa.

Aside from the few times he tried to protect you with a lie you always knew when something else was going on with that boy. You shake your head wondering why he would have to lie to you. And the next morning you get your answer when you show up to a very very hungover Julian’s house. He gets so red in the face as he recalls to you the events of last night.

"Wait you puked after you told her that her boobs were amazing?"

"Yes." he replies hiding hid face in his pillow.

"I mean just apologize for over doing it and I think you'll be just fine."

"Thanks Y/N."

"What are best friends for?”

It was after that Julian unintentionally started neglecting you whether it was leaving earlier than usual again or only talking about her when you hung out, it was killing you to him so hung up on Eve, especially because of the crush you've had on him since like the 7th grade.

While you knew it was better to stay quiet since you knew he wouldn't feel the same, tonight he was also blowing off movie night to hang out with her. Of course you told him it was fine, while the age gap was weird to you, all you wanted was for him to be happy. So it was a surprise to you when a sad Julian showed up at your front door.

"Hey Jul what's wrong?"

"She put a stop things before anything could happen."

"Aw shit I'm sorry. Come on let's watch shitty Christmas movies to get your mind off of things."

He gave you a sad smile and came in putting his skateboard near side of the stairs and sat down.

"You wanna talk about it?"

He shakes his head so you go into the kitchen to make snacks. When you return and set the bowl of popcorn and your own version of trail mix down, a silence falls over your living room. It wasn't really a comfortable one either.  

"I'm sorry too by the way."

"For what?"

"For being a shitty best friend."

"Jul it's fine."

"No it's not lying at first and then blowing you off...it was really stupid and I'm sorry."

"Thanks."

Another silence fills the room this one slightly less awkward after he broke the ice.

"Who knows. Maybe.....maybe it was for the best nothing happened. I mean I want you to be happy and all, but are you sure it was a good idea to get involved with Brendan Fletcher's mom in the first place? The guy who made your life a living hell and who actually managed to break my heart after cheating on me only two weeks into our relationship?"

Julian shoots up with a laugh now sitting up straight.

"Yeah why did you date him anyways?"

"I've told you a thousand times. He asked me out and I thought it would get him to leave you alone, and I mean for a week it did. Then the stupid, charming, smug bastard actually made me fall for him. Even though I was expecting things to not work out I didn't think it would fall apart that fast."

"Still."

You roll your eyes at him, hitting him with a pillow.

"Like I was saying. Not that you can't do what you want, but the age gap was kinda weird. I mean how do you know she wasn't gonna dump you after fulfilling some weird sex thing?" you joke.

"Weird sex thing?" he humors you asking in a funny tone.

"People are MILFs Julian. Besides I'm not kink shaming, but you really don't need another mommy." you snicker earning an adorable scoff and a light slap to the shoulder.

You slap his shoulder back and all the tension disappears...well almost all of it.

"Seriously though why Brendan? It always confused me why you let him break your heart like that."

"I told you why."

He gives you a look that says he knows you're not telling the truth.

"Fine I was also trying to get over someone. There are you happy?"

"Wait you always tell me when you like a guy, I didn't even know you had a crush on someone that year."

"Yeah well I did. So can we change the subject?"

"Who was it?"

"I really don't wanna talk about it."

"Was it Ryan?"

"No."

"Was it Chris?"

"Julian can you please just drop it?"

You see him thinking before hitting the realization and staring deep into what feels like your soul with those gorgeous bluish green eyes of his.

"Was it.....was it me?"

The look on your face mixed with your sigh before looking away told him all he needed to know.

"Y/N why didn't you tell me?"

"What was there to say? Hey dude I've been head over heels for you since we were 13? I mean I just didn't wanna wreck everything. So I thought even if it lead to heartbreak that Brendan would be a good distraction. Plus like I said I thought it would get him to leave you alone."

He just nods processing the truth bomb you had just unleashed onto him. Julian turns to face you again, moving some stray hair out of hair face, and cupping your cheek with his hand.

"Jul I know you aren't that kind of guy, but if you're even thinking of trying to use me as rebound please don't."

"I'm not. You know I'd never do that to you."

He leans in and after 6 years of crushing you finally get to kiss him and fuck was it bliss.

"Y/N I really like you. I was just too scared to admit it to myself I thought it would keep things less complicated."

You kiss him again and then start the movie marathon of shitty Hallmark movies curled up in his side.

[july-19th-club]

about to just start inventing picard episodes

star trek picard episode whatever “Electric Sheep”: Cris, Raffi, and the gang beam down to pick up supplies for malfunctioning holograms. Soji and Geordi conduct an experiment on lucid dreaming. (geordi’s here because i love him and the experiment they’re doing is ‘if soji puts enough parts of her brain in sleep mode can she or geordi talk to a remnant of her dad in there’ and the result is ‘yes and there are seventeen individual lines of dialogue that will have you bawling like a baby’. then they have to pilot la sirena out of a contested patch of space together because they accidentally let her drift while they were doing weird science and everybody else is planetside having wacky market haggling shenanigans and emmett & enoch are still not online. do they sit in The Correct Spots On The Bridge? brother, it’s the only reason the scene exists)

star trek picard episode whatever 2 electric boogaloo “Dinner and a Holonovel”: Raffi and Seven go on their first official date. Meanwhile, La Sirena receives a coded message from one of Raffi’s mysterious contacts. (in this one Raf and Sev get dressed up but they’re both sort of uncomfortable doing so and they try to have a date but neither of them are enjoying themselves trying to be normal, because Raf’s an old reprobate who’s definitely forgotten how to Have Fun With Others and Sev never learned because it wasn’t relevant to her interests. but then they wind up in some trouble(maybe they deliberately seek it out sort of unconsciously bc they’re bored) and it becomes a fun bar fight date that they really enjoy. everybody else is playing twenty questions trying to figure out this weirdly-encoded message for her bc she’s busy. they come back all bruised and grinning and the whole gang looks up at them with this half-decoded message and is like what kind of life do you lead).

star trek picard episode whatever 2 the sequel “Dr. and Mr. Smith”: Raffi’s contact has asked the crew for their help in a...discreet political matter. (it’s a reverse heist episode starring everyone’s two favorite sort-of-semi-retired-?-spies (if we are spies no we are not. yes we are. no <3). julian and raffi have a very good rapport and sev and garak don’t understand each other AT ALL. yes they are together in this one. no i dont think we need much backstory on when or how it happened i will leave that to the experts and their fucking youtube plays. keep up the good work. what are they reverse-stealing? idk yet it’s just a vehicle for character dynamics anyway).

star trek picard episode we cry a lot “The Daughters”: Soji confronts her legacy when an old friend of her fathers hails La Sirena, eager to repay a debt. (although to be honest, when is our sweet girl NOT confronting her legacy? that bitch is all legacy; she’s got legacy frankly oozing out of her positronic pores. this is partly a story about soji, but it takes a while to get there. first it’s the story of Sarge, who had an imaginary friend when she was six...

she can’t pinpoint exactly when she came up with him, and she doesn’t even remember what she named him - but she knows it happened sometime around the evacuations, and when they all moved back home and the world started growing again - lush and fast from the rich volcanic soil - she used to spend hours playing around with her birthday-gift radio set, ‘talking’ to her imaginary friend. of course, she never got actual replies, but as she aged out of the phase she retained an interest in radio and communications, and her parents indulged it and bought her more and better equipment, enrolled her in science programs, fed her curiosity. until one day as a young adult doing a school project on theoretical outer space transmissions, she arrived at a theory which (she later describes it as a CLICK, like something is settling into place in her brain) could account for the existence of extraterrestrial life, just out of reach. and perhaps, she posits in her presentation, the reason no aliens had yet contacted her world had little to do with them not being there and much to do with them choosing not to respond. the goal, she concluded, was to continue reaching out - to close the gap. she wrapped up the presentation with a nod to nostalgia. “And maybe someday, those friends will be imaginary no more.”

she wins an award for the project, and begins work in her chosen field that’s extremely rewarding, but it is still years before she reaches her second conclusion: the logical leap that if future alien contact was not only possible but likely, her imaginary friend might have been a real person after all. she brings this idea up with her mother one night over dinner, and her mother is somewhat alarmed - what do you mean you think you were talking to aliens, you couldn’t do that on a child’s transmitter kit, adults??? adult aliens? what are you saying they said to you? - but she can’t answer. she doesn’t have clear memories of that time, only an unshakeable conviction that the life she may have contacted is closer than anyone could possibly imagine. and so she starts a new project. she digs out the old childhood kit, fiddles with the dials, finds the frequency she used to tune it to. in her mind’s eye there’s the impression of a clear, frank voice, but no words. she tunes her own, more modern and complex instruments, to the same frequency, and keeps listening.

one day, she hears something. this time, she doesn’t talk first. the next few months are a whirlwind of information-gathering. there are people out there. whole societies. she pieces together the basics of what she’ll eventually learn is the prime directive; enough ships pass by the atmosphere of her world that she’s able to form a working conclusion as to why the come close but never hail. they know we’re down here, she thinks, they just think we’re not ready.

and maybe they don’t have the kind of boats that could get you that far into the sky. but she’s always been resourceful. she picks up a new frequency, and starts listening to starfleet. and after a few months of listening and planning, she starts packing. she takes the kiddie transmitter kit, she takes clothing designed for all-weather wilderness exposure, she takes the kind of emergency preserved food that people used to keep by the pallet in case of earthquake, and she takes a few other trinkets she can’t live without. and when the time is right, she hails. it might be a combination of luck or goodwill, but she manages to convince a passing freighter that she is the stranded comms officer of a downed private ship, the only survivor of the wreck hiding out on a pre-warp world. they beam her up and the first few weeks are very touch-and-go, but she manages to convince them she belongs up here, that the people who look like her are very far away and not just under their feet, darting around her green little world like a hill of bugs under the eyes of giant birds. she gets off at the nearest starbase, and she starts exploring.

she takes numerous vessels to numerous worlds, gathering information all the time. she starts calling herself Sarge, instead of Sarjenka, and it makes people think she’s a military type and nobody bothers her. she stops at a library planet for a month and researches everything she can about the major governing systems in the galaxy. without much to go on - no name, only a vague physical description (tall? pale? humanoid?) - it’s hard to determine exactly what kind of vessel the Friend would have been on, if indeed he existed. the yellow clothes, one of her few clear recollections, lead her to guess starfleet, but starfleet is a massive organization and so many of its vessels have come near her homeworld that it seems unlikely she’ll be able to narrow it down like that. so she tries a different tack, searching for the other two vague faces that she can bring to mind. one is a middle-aged woman, humanoid, but the search turns up nothing; the woman is a doctor who has retired from the organization and now works at a teaching hospital near vulcan. the other is a bald man with a deep voice, humanoid, and his record turns up an absolute deluge of information. she skips past most of it; she’s inpatient now, if anyone knows about the Friend he will, and so she checks his last known location. on board the private supply-class ship La Sirena, captained by ex-starfleet officer Cristobal Rios. Rios is tall, dark-haired, and humanoid, but absolutely nothing about him rings that little mental bell. she checks his last docking location. the ship visited a reclamation site briefly, and then disappears from the record.

but Sarge is nothing if not a searcher, so she adjusts her frequencies and tries again. it’s months before they’re in proximity to one another, months in which she’s taken the opportunity to secure her own vessel, a little rented, dented passenger bucket that’s probably worth more in repairs than the price she got it for. but she trades radio repairs for ship repairs at the port where she buys it, looks up its name (Avis) and finds it acceptable, and then she’s in the sky. she tools around exploring new bases and stations, and keeps the hail open. and one day, it’s answered. a human voice answers. “Avis, we read you. What can we do for you?” they go on-screen with each other, and she sees first the captain - the bearded guy - and then...him. the old man. he is an old man, the bald guy, and his eyebrows raise when he sees her come on the viewer.

“Permission to come on board?” she asks. “I have something which might belong to one of you.”

the old man looks wary for a moment, but then he turns to someone behind him, they exchange some quiet words, and he nods. “Permission granted.”

there’s a young woman waiting for her at the transport platform. shorter than her by a good half meter, humanoid. pale. “Dr. Soji Asha,” she says, “You look...”

and Sarge could swear she’s about to say ‘familiar.’

“Sarge,” she says, and the woman’s small hand grasps her long one in a firm shake, and then waits patiently while Sarge performs greeting, letting her fingers just-not-rest on the woman’s shoulders and arms. “I’m actually looking for an old friend of mine, and I thought you might have his whereabouts. Tall, pale, starfleet officer? Ops gold. I know that’s not much to go on, but if it helps, he would have once contacted and established a rapport with pre-warp Drema IV? Humanoid, but not human. He...” It’s weird. standing here, explaining herself to this quietly-held young woman, Sarge is able to articulate better than ever before her half-formed memories. “He told me once he was a machine.” and then, like another CLICK is settling, she has a name. At last. “Data.” I knew he’d had a name.

the woman’s face lights up and falls in such swift motion it is hard to tell which comes first - the recognition or the sorrow. but they’re both there, clear and present. “Dad died almost twenty years ago,” she says. “But if it helps, I have a positronic clone of his brain.”

Sarge starts laughing; she doesn’t mean to, but the way the woman - Soji - says it, so matter-of-fact, so frank...she stops herself before it’s rude, but Soji’s laughing too. “Sorry, I -”

“No, don’t - how do you - how did you know Dad? Come on, come with me -”

“What happened? I didn’t know him for long, I barely remembered him, but I knew he existed -”

“That’s a long story. Do you want to meet the crew?”

Soji reaches for her hand, and with a feeling of mechanisms interlocking as they properly should, she takes it. they start walking. “Oh.” She’s almost forgotten. “If...if he’s not around to take it back, then this might belong to you.” She reaches in her pocket and holds it out: a small, ceramic singing bird.)

[asrasotherbottom]

First, I hope you get all the support and love you deserve dear. ^^ You are FANTASTIC! Second, I am clinically depressed with high anxiety. How would the six handle someone with those qualities? The fretting and low, days where you want to disappear, worrying that no one really cares it just an act?

Thank you!

I’m writing this based on my experiences and the experiences of those close to me, and i 100% understand those aren’t universal. and my interpretations of the characters are not Law or universal. I just wanna say blanketly, that I hope youre doing alright and that you also get the support and love you deserve and that you are safe. Content warning for suicidal ideation (that feeling where youd rather just not exist without like A Desire to act), anxiety, depression. Under a readmore so please take care of yourself and don’t click if you might be negatively effected by reading about this also its long as hell.  

Suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386.

Asra:

- His heart literally aches with you

-Brings you tea in bed for days that you cant leave bed either because depression or because anxiety

-Will sit with you for hours just so you’re not alone, even if youre feeling awful. 

-Cares 50000% less about the shop than he does about you, and if youre having a bad brain day he will just lock up and sit with you and hold your hand. 

-Will encourage you to get out a little if you can, maybe for a nice walk in the woods to collect mushrooms with him because sometimes getting out and doing something helps. 

-Is good at finding secluded secret ways to get around bc fuck people. 

-He’s bffs with Muriel so hes pretty good with dealing with self loathing and anxiety already. 

-Asra i think has a really good response to the “nobody cares and its just an act” because his magic mark will just glow when he puts his hand over your heart and its really hard to argue with “made a deal with the devil to resurrect you” if the argument is “nobody actually cares” and that was 100% his choice and hes not afraid to tell you that. 

-Can, will, wants to, just ramble at you at length about how much he loves you and exactly why and will spend hours refuting your arguments which is tiring but maybe helps you feel a little better by the end. 

-If things are just So Bad? If you want to disappear? he’ll nap with you just to be close to you and keep you safe.

-Will bring you to his oasis to walk around and help keep you safe if you really just want to disappear and he’ll try to cheer you up there which is admittedly mostly just pointing at tiny weird magic bugs and stars (but at least your body is safe). 

-Deep deep down he’s still the person who brought his mom a button when she was sick so he’ll try anything to cheer you up. Faust too. 

-He’ll even talk to Julian to see if he knows anything or anything to ease your pain a little. 

-Will sit and just Listen to all your pain and be just Present for you. 

-He loves you more than life itself and will definitely be receptive to anything you say about things that might help.

Julian-

-Extremely similar hat. 

-But goddamnit if you made HIM feel better about being alive and worthy and deserving of love, he is absolutely going to return the favor. 

-Anxiety? he knows all the back alleys to avoid people

-Doesn’t mind staying home from the rowdy raven to sit with you if youre too anxious to go. 

-If you need a small dark quiet place to be alone and calm down? Hes got just the place (the hole at maz’s and he’ll even come in with you if you want because it makes you smile to see you both try to cram in there)

-Depression or anxiety making food hard? Some of maz’s soup will fix you right up.

-You find him in the middle of the night pouring over medical texts about depression and anxiety, looking for anything to help you at all. 

-He’ll sit up with you on nights that you cant sleep because of anxiety or because youre just too sad. 

-He’ll definitely lay in bed with you while you cry. 

-He found someone who truly and entirely loves him and he will cling to you for dear life, and tell you all the things he loves about you whenever you need or want to hear them. 

-He probably is gonna try a leech at least once. 

-Brings you to the docks at night because its calm and peaceful and away from everything. 

-After his upright end he definitely learned the importance of a support system and isnt afraid to enlist it to help keep you happy and safe. 

Nadia-

- Shes extremely concerned that someone who lights up her entire life can be so sad. 

-But shes not about to sit back and do Nothing. 

-She can and will cancel any event or meeting if it means she can sit in bed with you and hold you while you cry or if her presence with you soothes some of your anxiety. 

-She’ll bring you to her contemplation tower if you need a place to just get away from everything thats making you anxious. 

-Will also bring you to the magical realms to help keep you safe and help cheer you up. 

-Enlists the finest doctors that she can find if you’d like. 

-She’ll take long baths with you where you two can just sit in the hot water and you can cry while she strokes your hair. 

-If you feel like shes just faking her affections towards you then expect a bit of a surprised scoff followed by a 4 hour powerpoint presentation about every single thing she loves about you and how you make her feel 

-You feel like youre not good enough? “I’m the fucking countess and i could have had literally anyone in vesuvia or beyond but i want you” 

-Will pick you up and spin you if she sees you smile because shes just so happy to see you happy. 

-Horseback riding as a way to help clear your head and escape anxiety is a given. 

-Shes really attentive to making sure you stay fed, in fresh clothes, and bathed, even during bad depressive times so that it doesnt pile on to your bad feelings.

Muriel-

-If not same hat then EXTREMELY similar hat

-Lives in the forest so hes all about that avoiding social anxiety life. 

-If you ever feel unsafe Inanna can and will lay entirely on top of you. 

-Feeding chickens and petting inanna as anxiety relief for both of you. 

-He’ll definitely hold you against his chest or with your head in his lap while you cry if you need it. 

-Muriel hates seeing you sad, and doesnt always know exactly what to do or say but he’ll make you eggs all the time to make sure youre still eating when youre sad. 

-Will remind you that youre like the only person hes ever truly let in to his heart and he doesnt want to lose you.

-Will also remind you that he gave you the myrrh voluntarily because he….wants you to remember him. hes never wanted to be remembered before. he never asked for it back. 

- He really empathizes with wanting to disappear but he doesnt want that when hes with you and he wants to work hard to help you feel the same way with him. 

-Long quiet walks in the forest together. 

-He’ll take you stargazing and tell you all the things he loves about the beauty of the forest and the stars…and you. 

-Big Hugs for Big Sads

-Enlists asra and nadia’s help if he feels he needs it, but he cares about you enough that he’d willingly seek out help for you. 

Portia-

-Yeets pepi at you Like A Football. 

-”Peep?? Peep Peep”

-Youre gonna feel better if it kills her. 

-Gardening to help with sadness, touching dirt always helps. She’ll spend hours with you in the garden, helping you create like beauty with your hands. 

-Chase the goddamn cockatoo with a broom to make you smile. 

-Enlist’s Maz and Maz’s soup as well. 

-Helps you find secret passageways to hide in when your anxiety is too much. 

-Too sad to leave bed? Portia will carry you and your blanket. 

-Is having none of that “oh what if you dont actually love me” business. She’s super used to Julian’s self loathing and depression that shes moved on to slightly tougher love. 

-She loves you and shes going to keep telling you that and shes not going anywhere. 

-She gets soft when you cry though and will cling to you for dear life and not move for hours. 

-”How dare you talk about the person i love like that” - Portia, to you, when you talk about reasons you hate yourself. 

-Cries with you though. 

-Doesn’t like when she has to go to work when you’re in a bad mental space so shes asks nadia for you to have just a nice room in the palace reserved for you that you can lay in so she can come check on you during the day. 

-Shes great for bad anxiety days because she has no problem doing social interactions for you. The thought of going to buy some herbs brings you to tears? No problem, she has no idea what herbs shes buying but shes Gonna Do It. 

-The strength of Portias hugs is liable to just squeeze the depression right out of you along with also your internal organs probably. 

Lucio-

-”How can you be depressed?? You’re dating ME, the COUNT! ……….Can I help?”

-He definitely tries to use his sex appeal to lighten your mood, it probably works sometimes (or at least gets a laugh out). 

-Gets extremely startled when you cry but holds you tight against him. 

-Cancels meetings, cancels plants, cancels the entirety of the Vesuvia if he has to in order to stay in bed with you when youre having a bad depression day. 

-You can cry into M&M’s fur as long as you’re not wearing any makeup :P

-Gets worried and hides the pointy tips for his gauntlet. 

-Absolutely having none of the “nobody really cares and its just an act” hes the COUNT! He could have anyone anytime he wanted! You were the first warmth and compassion he felt in years! The first person to really actually love him for /him/! he gets way more emotional than he plans to but he feels very strongly about this

- 4 hour powerpoint presentation on all the reasons hes into you

-Tries really hard to find material things that will help your mood. Gold? Silk? Furs? Sweets? Watching fistfights? Anything?

- He knows what its like to really disappear and hes not about to let that happen to you. 

-He’ll never admit it to anyone but you but hes clinging to you with everything he has and he will work tirelessly to help support you. 

-”Will petting my hair help you relax”

-Ropes Julian, Nadia,and Asra into things to help you, but they dont mind because its You theyre helping really. 

-Anxiety? “Oh don’t worry, I’ll make /sure/ all eyes are on me” it maybe doesnt help exactly as intended but watching him be ridiculous eases the tension a little. 

-Deep deep down he knows in his soul Deep Sadness and it makes him surprisingly good at supporting you. 

i hope this was what you wanted!!!! 

[fireheartblackthorn]

SPOILER REVIEW OF LORD OF SHADOWS

* This is my second time reading Lord of Shadows

STARTED: 12/01/19 FINISHED: 21/01/19

I have so many feelings, probably too many feelings on this book and I gotta get them off of my chest, holyyyyyy. All I’m saying is that I would sacrifice myself to save the Blackthorn family, they deserve the entire freaking world, I adore this series so much. Honestly one of my favourite series I’ve ever read, it still doesn’t beat TID (Cassie Clare went above and beyond on that trilogy) but its deFINITELY UP THERE. These characters, this plot, everythinggggg about this damn book got me. I have bookmarked and sticky-noted specific parts of the book that hit me right in the feels ( Both gOOD AND BAD EMOTIONS) and here they areeeeee!!

THINGS I LIKED (in particular):

* Christina, Mark and Kieran’s relationship. I was a sucker for Mark and Kieran in lady midnight + was super conflicted about mark falling for christina but woahhhh is it weird to ship them all together?? Lol idc, i still do. They all just fit together, so nicely. Ngl I’m low-key worried about whats going to happen to Kieran, I feel awful for him. Now that he know’s the truth, and he didn’t even testify but he’ still being hunted by the unseelie court, he can’t return to faerie nor can he stay in Idris and he wants things done with Mark. That gets me!!! I love how Christina is able to calm both of these angsty faerie boys ;)

* The low-key (but kinda not even low-key) throwbacks to TID and Will’s generation (JUST ALL OF THE WILL + Jem bits). I love how Clare kept referring to Jessamine in the London Institute, and the small will bits. No character as ever affected me the same way will herondale has, and how Kit was talking about “some idiot called will” who wrote in all the first editions and how Emma was looking at a picture of jem and will together. I feel like i’m dying whenever their relationship is mentioned. When tessa was advising Emma on getting someone to stop loving you, I just realised she was referring to what Will tried to do in TID. :( Alsooo, um how tf is Bridget still alive!!!!!!! She’s actually ancient and I’m confusedddd. When Bridget giggles at the plate of scones + she’s thinking of Sophie and Gideon aw

* Gwyn Ap Nudd! (+ Diana’s relationship) Those two have single-handedly made me believe in love. I love how Gwyn Ap Nudd may be the ancient leader of the wild hunt and yet he’s still a good “man” who shows kindness to Mark, and has honour. I wish everyone was like Gwyn. My favourite part of this freaking book was Gwyn being all cute and shy to Diana when he asks her on a date. Adorable!

* Diana’s back story. She deserves the entire freaking world, I hope she’s able to sort it out with the clave, I don’t want it to be used against her in the future. And I’m so glad she found someone like Gwyn who likes her and doesn’t care that she was born in a man’s body.

* The gayness in this book + the LGBTQ+ representation. We loving raging bisexuals, lesbians, gays, pansexuals + transgender peeps. AND I STAN A WOKE AUTHOR

* Lol all I could think of when kit, ty and livvy went to blackthorn manor was how it was originally the lightwood’s house and thus the worm house. All that was going through my head was HAH ITS THE WORM HOUSE

* Freaking mark + kieran’s language, + post-faerie talk + actions (if that makes sense). Like when Mark was staring distrustfully at the garden gnome, equally parts hilarious and cute

* Emma’s talk, easy-going nature: she reminds me of will lowkey and wow I’M CRYING AGAIN. Her ability to difuse tension in situations and her wit made me enjoy this book so much more. Maybe she even reminds Jem of his parabatai aw.

* TIBERIUS BLACKTHORN AND CHRISTOPHER HERONDALE AND THEIR RELATIONSHIP. THE END

* The poetry that was Julian’s feelings and words towards Emma. It was beautiful, and he’s such a soft boi. Especially when he talked about how they were made from the same stardust, how freaking adorable!!

THINGS I DISLIKED:

* How believable it was that the cohort was plausible and full of facists and bigots, I bloody hated Zara Dearborn (to the point of swearing at my book). Its too realistic that a group like that can exist within the nephilim, and how it can exist in the real world. I read fantasy books to escape reality, and suddenly I feel so attacked by these characters. If I wanted this bullcrap I’d just read the news omg. (how do you make me feel this way cassandra)

* People (namely bridget) being rude to my girl Dru about her weight, she cute and curvy

* Dru lying to Jamie about her age, well not exactly lying but hiding it from him. I kind of just wish she had let him know who she was. I mean I get that she wants to be treated like an older person and not as a baby but ughhhh.

* FREAKING LIVVY DYING OFC AND PUTTING HER LIFE ON THE LINE LIKE THAT. I knew this part was coming and yet I still sobbed and dampened the pages with my freaking tears. I know that it was in Livvy’s nature to stand up and go to help her brother like that, but it doesn’t make it any better. Ty’s reaction as well, after he just agreed to be her parabatai. It was just after their family got reunited also :(. It kills me that to Julian its like he’s lost his own daughter, his baby sister and when he was cradling her and calling out for her to wake up :((((((( But then I think of how Livvy said that legend has it, when the clock chimes the hour the gates of heaven open for a moment. Livvy died when the clock chimed the hour + now I know that she’s up there at peace

* The fact that at the ending, Kit still doesn’t know what’s happened to Livvy, he just thinks something bad has happened in the chamber

* NOW THAT I’M REREADIng I know that Julian thinking about future life watching everyone growing up with Emma by his side is not gonna happen bc livvy is dead and it cuts my heart out at the hope he has that his family will be happy and reunited and safe

* I thought at first that Christina was a pretty boring character, kind of there to be able to patch up the loose ends and hold the team together but in hindsight, she’s pretty freaking incredible and I think this book more so shows that off and her qualities, than Lady Midnight does. It's a freaking talent to be that understanding and empathetic, her ability to do that beyondddd impressed and shook, kind of like how Keiran is feeling about her

* I don’t like hOW MUCH I FEEL sorry for Malcolm, He was so warped and caught up in his love, his need for vengeance, his hate and grief to be able to mourn Annabel, let go of the past and move on. I mean I’d have a pretty tough time doing that too but how his love for her eventually killed him was so awful. I couldn’t believe it the first time I read that part.

* How Annabel killed Robert, his death was like meh at first, okay. But at the same time, Alec’s reaction broke my heart + he was going to help Emma and Julian!! I don’t know if he had the time to start preparing for her exile but probably not and now the next inquisitor probably won’t react the same way

STILL 5/5 OVERALL, I LOVE THIS BOOK SO MUCH.

[andromedeas]

7 through 10! (@nadiaseyebrows)

[ apprentice asks ]edit: i went back and added the rest bc… i wanted to

1. What is their full name? What does it mean? Do they go by any nicknames/aliases?

Valena. apparently it either means valiant, or strong/healthy. No idea if that’s bullshit or not, I really just kinda made it up when I was trying to think of names that started with Val, but I didn’t quite want to name her after velanna from dragon age. i still cant really decide if ‘Ceres’ is her mother’s last name, or just something she made up. 

also apparently i forgot that valena is an actual name in dao used for an npc

valena usually goes by val. only one person (lucio?) has ever really called her lena. she likely has a few aliases she doesn’t remember.

2. Do they have a familiar? What is it?

valena has a massive cat (prob kinda like this sweet baby at least size wise) who still needs to be named and i haven’t decided if (he?)’s just a regular cat or a familiar. she loves faust tho and she may or may not have plans to steal mercedes and melchior. (who may or may not have also her dog(s) when she dated lucio but unfortunately he got the dogs in the divorce bc he had the space)

3. What type/s of magic do they specialize in?

illusion. she doesn’t specialize per se, but she has a natural affinity for anything involving heat or fire. valena is technically a bit of a medium? but it’s something she’s actively tried to suppress or ignore for as long as she can remember - she’d rather not deal with wayward ghosts or shadows, thanks.

4. Which of the major arcana best represents them?

the chariot, or strength.

THE CHARIOT | self-control & willpower leading to victory® | loss of control, lack of direction

STRENGTH | bravery, inner understanding that radiates power® | self-doubt, insecurity, weakness

5. What animal best represents them?

some kind of cat, probably.

6. Describe their grimoire profile.

the impulsive apprentice who [something something]

7. What is their Myers-Briggs type?

valena’s an entp !  she originally started out as an estp (a few months ago) but entp definitely suits her better. (96% match for entp, 74% estp, and 73% for entj apparently)

8. What is their natural alignment (lawful/neutral/chaotic good/neutral/evil)?

chaotic neutral, apparently. listen i love her to death but she’s an impulsive little shit and she doesn’t particularly care about things unless it involves or affects her or one of the few people she cares about. there’s not a lot she wouldn’t be willing to do to help them. she’s absolutely willing to sabotage someone she doesn’t like valerius if it helps someone she cares about julian or clears their name.

9. Which Hogwarts house would they be in?

slytherin. she definitely could be a good ravenclaw, but when it comes down to it once she’s set on something she doesn’t give up. she’s resourceful and will do whatever it takes, and she’ll do anything for those she cares about.

also valena being in the same house (ravenclaw) as asra and julian is very good, but valena being in the same house as nadia is BETTER. 

10. Of the nine intelligences (logical-mathematical, existential, interpersonal, intrapersonal, kinesthetic, spatial, naturalist, musical, linguistic), which is their greatest strength? Their greatest weakness?

her greatest strength is definitely kinesthetic. she loves books and all, but she prefers to learn by doing and figuring out how things work, and she also loves dancing. greatest weakness is maybe intrapersonal? she tends to actively avoid self-reflecting and thinking about how she Feels about things she’s very much an in-the-moment kinda gal

3 strongest are probably kinesthetic, interpersonal/social, and linguist.

11. What did they think of Asra leaving? Of his gift?

she’s more annoyed by the fact that he’s always leaving without her  than she is by the fact he’s leaving, but she misses him a lot. she thinks his deck is creepy but she also finds the little traces of his magic comforting.

12. What do they think of Nadia’s request that they go to the palace?

she’s definitely skeptical, but intrigued? very interested in the mystery and also potential reward. she doesn’t immediately agree to help nadia, saying she hadn’t decided yet (and gets the emperor reversed reading) - she only agrees when it seems that she has no other choice. she also wants to help julian if she can (and she will).

13. What do they think of the various animals they encounter at the palace?

loves mercedes and melchior and they love her (as much as two beautiful probably definitely haunted dogs can love a person). thought the vampire eels were pretty, in a creepy way, until they tried to murder her.

14. What is their day-to-day outfit? What do they wear when the dress up (such as for the masquerade)?

First masquerade: cobalt blue dress. 

Second/current masquerade: dark red, long slit in the skirt to show off some leg, deep v cut for cleavage superiority. Its also definitely lowkey enchanted for support.

15. What is their favorite type of weather/environment?

valena loves rain, as well as foggy mornings, just before dawn.

16. Do they have any prized possessions?

valena has a locket - i’m still not sure what’s inside it, but hidden in there is a small, simple engraving of the letter L. she can’t remember how long she’s had it, but recently she’s taken to wearing the mirror of the magician (the emerald necklace) instead.

17. Do they collect anything?

valena doesn’t really collect anything so much as she has a bunch of weird cool little things asra brings back for her from his travels.

18. What sort of first impression do they make?

honestly it depends on the situation, but she generally makes an effort to be charming

19. How do they deal with conflict?

valena is a rowdy fight girl but she also loves conning people she doesn’t like when she can, so.

nadia’s lovers route was very good with the immediate “this isnt fucking over” followed by reading his fortune and then lying/manipulating him to get answers

20. What are their principal goals?

figuring out how she’s connected to everything, filling the void of her past.