#maybe i'm reading too far into what I want to be true about fyodor

[maerrine]

Thinking about Fyodor BSD again... so much of his character is shrouded in mystery, and it's impossible to tell where his arc will go, but I really do hope we get a redemption for him.

BSD strikes me as a very pro-redemption series in a lot of ways, and I feel like Fyodor's character could be really good for exploring how like, people can change and be better, and often how people who do bad (though it doesn't excuse their actions) are hurting too... Dazai also explores that theme, but he's already started his redemption by the start of the series. Of course, no-one should be obligated to reach out a hand to Fyodor for that reason alone, since they have the right to be angry & to protect themselves too, but it'd still be really nice to see the series show him some level of empathy, I think.

Or maybe it's like... because Fyodor is so focused on the idea of sin, and everyone is "bad by nature", I think it'd be a neat parallel if like... the series shows empathy to him despite him being someone who does bad, and also shows how he needs to learn empathy for people, despite them being capable of bad, at the same time. I'm not sure if I'm explaining it right, but I just feel like it'd be neat.

I don't blame people who think Fyodor won't be getting redemption mind you, it's just the contrast between his awful actions and his - seemingly - genuine desire for a better world that makes him interesting to me, and that makes me feel that there's more to him than it seems. I get the impression that he's suffering a lot, too, and while again, that doesn't make what he's done any less awful, and I think those who can't sympathize with him are totally valid, it makes him compelling to me personally.

[viiinz]

omg okay, idk how much info you want on these characters, but let's go

Dmitri: "i'm sure he hates his father almost as much as he's just like him" HOLY SHIT I think you just hit on the guy's biggest fear and the source of all his anger and self loathing. (personally I think he's a better person than his father, if only for the fact that Dmitri truly wants to be a better and honourable person and beats himself up over his constantly failing to do so, whereas his father takes pleasure in acting upon his worst qualities). what you said about eldest siblings is very interesting! tho it should be noted that fydor (the dad) didn't raise any of his children, so he has always been an absent parent. Dmitri also didn't grow up with his siblings, so I don't think he has that same sense of responsibility that you might find in a lot of eldest siblings. he does have massive abandonment issues tho.

"his problem is that he cannot kill him in any way that matters." OOOH TRUE

btw he's also the most babygirl character I've ever read about, he has the most insane moodswings (like he's partying one second and contemplating suicide the next), scares the shit out of everyone by acting super unhinged, he tells the entire town that he wants to kill his dad and then his dad actually dies and he's like 😮 when the police arrest him as the main suspect

Ivan: I'm nodding along at everything you said about Ivan! I'm afraid I don't know you well enough to say whether you have anything in common with Ivan or not, maybe his more argumentative side? he really goes all in when it comes to explain his views. other than that he's very rational, too rational actually. he tries very hard to find a rational meaning for suffering and rejects the entire order of the universe when he doesn't find one. he's also very individualistic, growing up he always had a feeling that he had to do everything on his own. which is probably a result of his childhood and that carries on into his adulthood. his very religious mother was said to have gone insane from the abuse of their dad and she died when he was 6. that must have been very traumatic (especially fucked up is the fact that Fyodor didn't even remember that Ivan was the child of his second wife, like he just forgot). this might have resulted in both his extreem independence and his aversion towards religion. tho religion forms the core of his entire way of thinking, he rejects god but in doing so cannot stop thinking about it. he's cold and detached, but it's clear from his worldview that he cares a lot about right and wrong and justice, in a broad sense. he loves humanity, but doesn't show it. "he needs a little of absurdism in his life to balance that sad nihilism" you're so right, that sad nihilism is exactly what is slowly eating away at him. also your tags ahzhsh, yeah. also Katya (Dmitri's ex-fiancée) is very proud and has the most insane saviour-complex and Ivan has *gestures vaguely at him* all that going on. I think they'd make a fascinating couple to study under a microscope tbh

Alexei (usually referred to as Alyosha): you're spot on with Alyosha!! to me he really is a character I relate to deeply, but I cannot pinpoint why. here are some fun facts about him: pretty much everyone in the book loves him, tho he's often described as odd. like his mom he's prone to "fits of hysteria", he laughs at inappropriate times, he blushes A LOT, he sometimes has a very off-putting smile at times when he really shouldn't be smiling, he's reserved but everyone immediately trusts him, he's kind, compassionate and nonjudgmental, but he's also far from perfect. a lot of people kinda brush him off as an all-round good perfect boy, and while yes!! he is a very sweet guy!! I feel like limiting him to just that, is kind of doing his character a disservice. to me he really just reads as a guy trying to do his best despite everything. he wants to help everyone, but because of the sheer impossibility of that task, he often fails at this as well. he takes on the suffering of so many of the characters in this novel, but one person can only carry so much. and while he's definitely the most mentally stable brother (the bar is very low), he always kinda feels like a dam about to burst. he did have a moment in which he (understandably) kinda snapped, in which he suddenly became rude, uncaring and apathetic and holy shit, like this wouldn't feel like that big of a deal from any other character, but because it's in such direct opposite to how he usually is, it was honestly chilling to read. there are also some throw away lines and things he says sometimes that suggest that there is more to him than meets the eye and that he has a lot of darker thoughts he doesn't talk about. he's just like the embodiment of "aw a little guy" "oh he's a little fucked up actually"

Smerdyakov: one of my favourite character to rotate in my head! he's so interesting!!! "i'm sure he hates them all and he has all good reasons." EXACTLY!! he's so full of hatred and honestly very understandably so! the only one he cares about is Ivan, but Ivan doesn't care about him 😭 he is the most isolated character from all of these, even the narrator dislikes him. "Bro needs to leave that place." yes!! he actually wanted to move to France, he was even learning French in his spare time. poor little meow meow indeed, the author makes it very difficult to sympathise with him, but I can't help it

avzhdzje now I'm curious what are your thoughts on the brothers karamazov based on your quick googling about the characters? I can definitely see a bit of Ivan in you, tho perhaps only some parts, he's definitely an interesting guy and has some of the best parts in the book

hello V! This post will be full of innacuracies and probably hot takes so beware akjsdkasjd <3 Dimitri: The eldest and as such i'm sure he hates his father almost as much as he's just like him. This is my personal view but i think the eldest sibling is never allowed to kill the parent, by the way. Eldest children most of the time are very aware of the consecuences of the absence of the parents because once the parent is gone, they are the ones to bear the burden. Anyway, I think he wants to be free of his dad, but his problem is not that he hates the man, his problem is that he cannot kill him in any way that matters. Ivan: Ivan sounds like a brand of men i find particularly funny (maybe because i am a little like that to my shame). The "i have to show everyone that i am the smartest person in the room at all times" type of guy but that despite their obvious struggle with self worth, they are still graciously based. I think the fact that he wants to marry his brother's fiancee has him particularly bitter, he needs a little of absurdism in his life to balance that sad nihilism. It's sad he was a XIX century russian, he would have been a God of fried based memes in XXI. Alexei: Of course he's a good boy. He's the second son who doesn't carries the horrors of being the eldest, he's also the youngest, which makes him more emotional and compassionate, willing to find happiness on his own and to oppose that he views as wrong.

Bonus: Smerdyakov: i'm sure he hates them all and he has all good reasons. Bro needs to leave that place. Come to America bro, make your own gang in the rising cities. My poor little meow meow. Now, Vince it's your turn to give me your based opinion on them and explain what our test result mean.

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BSD CHAPTER 88 AND 101 THEORY

So, I'm here again with a new theory that came to my mind suddenly when I was re-reading the manga and wanted to share with others to talk about it. I'm not entirely sure if it had been done before or not but still, so anyways let's start!

🔺️manga spoilers! 🔺️

Obviously everyone remembers chapter 88, one of the most painful one by far. And when I was reading it again, I just noticed something for the first time and couldn't believe I hadn't paid attention to it at all. And now you must be thinking "well what was it then?" well it was this:

🔺️translations go to bsd manga website 🔺️

Right in this panel as you see, Bram asks how many years it has been and Fukuchi answers with that it only has been two (2) weeks since Bram was awakened. But is that really so?

Well, before this chapter we didn't even know there was a character named Bram Stoker, did we? And I had to check if it was true since I couldn't really recall it back then and searched his wiki page. And guess what.

Yes, exactly it's his first appearance. But Fukuchi says he was awakened before that two weeks ago and that's the place where my theory comes from.

So we know that Chuuya is also a vampire but we actually don't know when he became one. What if he got turned into a vampire two weeks ago? Maybe that can explain why he was looking less vampire-ish in the chapter 101. Cuz like, there can be a time limit maybe? But I highly doubt that. Also I'm not really sure about how much time passed when Chuuya saved ADA and to this event. But this explains why he wasn't there all those chapters. If Fyodor actually planned this back then and knew Nikolai would plan his game, all really took was one flight for Chuuya to come to Mersault as a vampire.

However I think he was talking about other people that got to turn into a vampire but within that time Chuuya might be turned too you know.

But again, this might be incorrect and I might be missing some little parts that prove this theory might be impossible after all. What are your thoughts?