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xaospoiesis · 3 months ago

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08.05 / within

I can't seem to find beauty within myself so I look for it everywhere. And I have been crying over beautiful things, when I see them and I hear them and when I cannot render that feeling to share it with someone.

The sky has made me cry before, and the laugh of a child, and the love of a couple. And the sun itself. I've cried over the expansion of the universe and many other things, insignificant and not.

I am not sure what it is I'm trying to say here. There lies my issue I guess, I can't find beauty within myself and when I do catch a glimpse of it somewhere I have no words, no proof, nothing to explain or show for it. That makes me immensely sad.

#thoughts on thoughts 💭#writing #a bit dramatic with this one innit #putting words together #i'm just forcing myself to write atm #maybe i'll win against the blank page syndrome idfk #hope nobody's reading this far into the tags bc tbfh i am sad as hell atm #every time i write it feels excruciating and i hate every word and i'm hoping if i keep at it i won't be as sad but it's nooooot doing that #tw: sadness #sadness #if i stop writing then the fuck else am i good for? i don't know how to do anything

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