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14th anniversary of 1D 💕✨
#mine#not liking it too much#but well#it is what it is#sometimes you have to do some shit things#1d#one direction#1d anniversary#ot5#maybe i'll make something better later
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I'm gonna be honest with you guys, the urge to do the same thing I did with the oitd silhouettes, aka slap text posts onto the art with no knowledge of their canon personality other than what they did in the trailer and pulling from the fandom's perceived personality for them, for the new oxventure characters revealed in that trailer is so real
#and there was only reactions in the trailer#willowfine seems sweet and nice#robin kinda gives off pathetic boyfail to me (in a similar way to dob's pathetic boyfail energy) while also hiding something#lug's character art makes me think he's kinda cautious fsr#but Mike just smiling in the trailer makes me think he's pretty happy-go-lucky like Egbert#tho that could just be him talking with the team about a silly thing he's doing or during his character introduction in the actual episode#I have a similar situation with cressida#cressida's character art seems kinda annoyed and thinks she's above people like Prudence did#however Ellen seems scared or at least shocked or worried so cressida might actually be caring and kind like Ellen's other characters#then we have our new resident goth: happen#I kinda get the vibe that he's a more silent character that gets the job done quickly#like ice bear#but also maybe struggles with emotional connections#even if I'm wrong in my vibe guessing I'm sure I'll like them#I'm already slapping aroace headcanons on some of them#them being happen lug and willowfine#maybe cressida too#actually if I think too much about it I'm just gonna slap aroace headcanons on all of them#so they're all aroace unless I'm proven otherwise aka if I think another headcanon fits better#not a text post#this was gonna be a delete later but a lot of my thoughts are in the tags now#oxventure
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why did he say this if not to imply that there's a way ghost COULD be lost?
like...these are the faces of two gays who recognize that the big man is starting to acknowledge his feelings for the little scot who just ran into the plane
this is the advice of someone who (must be) hearkening back to a previous conversation about not getting lost when love and the work are at stake - i.e. not losing sight of what's actually important
this is so fucking strange to say unless the previous two points are correct
and for ghost to answer "of course" and alejandro to laugh? because he knows it's not going to be that easy? or because he thinks ghost's going to take away the risk of it being complicated by being blunt with his feelings as he advised?
also for ghost to answer "of course" implies he knows what alejandro is referring to because ghost is the type of autistic to bluntly cut through bullshit if he doesn't get it, so he does get it, so what was that conversation about and when did it happen??
#cod mw2#cod mw2 ghost#cod mw2 headcanons#cod mw2 alejandro#simon ghost riley#rodolfo parra#alejandro vargas#ghostsoap#soapghost#i'll make something better about this later.#maybe a fic or something i dunno but like??#fucking excuse me??#'don't get lost brother' uHM.#HOW WOULD HE GET LOST ALE???
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“You ever notice that no matter what happens, the stars keep shining? The sun keeps rising, the flowers keep blooming. Either they don’t know the world is ending, or they don’t care, or… or maybe they know everything will be OK.”
#dialogue#my writing#writers on tumblr#writers#writeblr#hopecore#maybe i'll post dialogue snippets like how i post prose snippets#i wrote this just an hour ago#so it might not be that good 😅#but whenever i write something i get excited about it and want to share it right away but then get nervous about it#because what if it's not as good as i think it is? what if i find a way to make it better later?#and waiting sounds like the smart thing to do#but this time i went “forget it i'm going to do what makes me nervous till anxiety learns to shut up”
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g*lmar rly has to be the best skajrim character on the real like even if you don't like him he just is . literally The best one i think......... on dat note i also imagine that he and ulfr*c despite being fairydust BFFs for lyfe genuinely have the worst communication skills ever seen
#text#but i already talked about how g*lmar is weird about ulfr*c anyways#literally jubilant and feeling special cus he's the only person ulfr*c actually trusts and speaks to outside of formal conversations#he's a very manly man too (like N*loth) for wanting to just control everything... well actually having ulfr*c under 'control' is enough 4 -#- him. unlike n*loth who wants to be above everything that moves. literally not about him tho#i hope that other st*rmcloaks develop a habit of going to hide downstairs in the palace whenever they can tell the vibe between -#- g*lmar and ulfr*c is off because they're gonna be yelling at each other and throwing shit around for 40 minutes in a few seconds#i don't believe they'd fight insanely often but being at an active war probably gets them heated more. Often than usual; and their -#- conflicts are never resolved. i feel like they just don't talk to each other for a good 2 days and act like nothing happened#they're way too manly and prideful to actually let the other one 'win' so they just don't say anything ever post-arguing#Tbhs g*lmar actually really likes that ulfr*c is so unstable and harrowed because it makes himself feel very good and reliable -#- but he has his limits 😂LMFAOO i bet sometimes he gets really tired of him being so traumatized. very rarely but he does think about it#i'll have to desribe that a bit better later tho... don't know how to word it atm#but maybe he wants to punch him or something BYE. no...... 💔savage as hell#he likes it in a very general sense of ulfr*c's personality especially between them but doesn't like it when it causes them to clash#this might just be mostly ulfr*c's doing cus i doubt he's actually talkative about his past issues and Troubles (torture mayhem) and -#- can't communicate anything about it or set boundaries when needed. he just gets mad or very avoidant. No fixing that tho#well it's just shameful to him so he'd rather do nothing than even admit anything to anyone Everrrrr#why does his life suck so bad LMFAOOOOOOOOO#their nasty musty mutualism .. leeching off your traumatized Bff so that he can make you feel good by saying he needs you in particular#while U pay him back with some support.......SOME#Oh well#that zero communication between some sk*rim characters looks yammy as fuck to me. A;lways. ALWAYS#nelvas is power dynamic induced...... g*lmar&&ulfr*c trauma-caused... elituli Um😂 t*llius doesn't even know any hobbies she has#bye this is why they're serving so hard
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#not sure if its because it gets dark sooner#but I'm in a bad mood#i cannot meet with people i'd like to meet#i cannot do my hobbies#I'm not going out#and I don't see it getting better#i feel quite isolated somehow#tbh#i think its that lately i haven't fone anything tjat was mentally challenging#like a nice group table game#or a complex tv show that makes you think#or a movie#and i can feel my brain shrinking or something#don't like the feeling#i need to fo things that make my brain work#or I get bored#and i need to meet people outside my core group of family#.... don't know#I'll delete this later i guess#maybe its just a bad day somehow#but i feel i wanna scream to the void out of frustration a bit#i feel I'm not doing what i want#but what i think others want#and its affecting me#dont know#I'll stop now#had to get it out or something
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Wanted to start working on projects for my part-time school this weekend but instead all I have the energy to do is lay in bed and play mario kart or lay in bed and listen to music
#i started taking meds two days ago and over those two days i've felt even more dead energy-wise than before. if that's even possible#i hope this passes sooner than later because the semester's almost over#and i want to prepare something better to pass this course with than those projects that everyone did in class#and then it will finally (or rather already. time feels fake) be summer and no more obligations of such type. for now#altough i'll admit these last few months were rather easygoing#in terms of stuff i had to do for a set deadline and such#it would have been a much harder time for me otherwise#at least i'm getting this stuff sorted at last. slowly but surely#and enjoying my time gaming and listening to 4-5 albums a day on average as of the last two days#maybe 2024 is the year when my mental health problems finally caught up with me#but then with some dedication and direction i can also start getting out of it for once and for all#like i actually want to be proud of what i've done this year. because it's a lot#and it's things i wouldn't have found myself capable of just a few months ago#like. making this blog and actually sharing my feelings and thoughts somewhere#years of being your own only confidant really messes with your brain and ability to function as an adult it turns out#but yeah i hope i can get this sorted now and the meds help and make it easier to go about my previous plans for making myself feel better#i'll try not to post about this too much but i really needed to get this out today#i know many people vent on tumblr anyway but my brain will always make me feel bad about anything and everything i do lol#vent tag
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#delete later#i had an idea for a rinezha au yesterday but for some reason i didn't write it down and now i cannot remember it#kill me now#i know it was a good idea because i was tempted to write it#me#no.1 nezha/rinezha hater#(i find them very compelling but i'm also a massive nezha hater)#ANYWAY#it was an au that's all i remember#my brain is trying to convince me it was a fall of the house of usher au but i highly doubt it#i was probably just listening to the alan parsons project album when i thought of it#what other media have i consumed recently#maybe i should just write the cike shawshanking arlong or something. to Cope#ANYWAY. maybe a miracle will happen and i'll remember it and then i promise i'll write it and it'll be better than the previous rinezha au#and by better i mean it'll make more sense
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after watching muppet tv series episodes basically at random for a bit, i finally finished all of the jim henson hour!!
some thoughts below, but overall i really enjoyed it, even though the shifts between tones in some episodes was kinda jarring at first lol. i feel like more people should know about this show, especially after seeing all the technology they used in the secrets of the muppets episode.
digit is still a character created specifically to my interests and i am still so so sad he isn't in anything else :( literally just a socially awkward semi-robotic latex puppet who loves synth music. he is perfect and they threw him in the closet never to be seen again.
all the other new characters were very nice, but i especially enjoyed the "bean bunny is there to be cute so no one else has to" bit. while i also appreciate him as "guy to throw around" it's a fun added layer to his character!
i think sci-fi -> ocean transition was the most jarring to me, after the sci-fi episode ended with turning louie anderson into a non-marketable plushie i was expecting ocean to be more silliness, and it was up until clifford tells the story of how ted danson ruined the ocean and kermit solemnly says goodnight. and then i still had to watch lighthouse island after this!
i did have to get used to the jim henson hour -> storyteller/other segments transitions but i am very glad i did not skip them or the non muppetelevision specials. my favorites were probably the true bride, the soldier and death, dog city (MUPPET DOGS ARE PERFECT!!!!) and the song of the cloud forest (as a dedicated member of dave goelz nation). i also got unexpectedly invested in living with dinosaurs even though i'm not sure much was explained or resolved that well, the human cast was really good and dog is such a good muppet (why is there no official plush of him!!)
i knew gorilla television wasn't in it much but i didn't expect them to only be in 2 episodes, one of them being in the batch that didn't in the original run. they could've done so much more......i liked their concept as being "above" muppets despite their segments not being that much more cool or complex lol
favorite episode was probably videotape? i might have to rewatch to define it but also like. the music just keeps on rolling along. all night party. the true bride. banger after banger
also jim himself is funny too. the concept of the thought lion for him to bounce off of is so good because in the true bride he's a mystical giftgiver and to jim he is just his really weird cat. awesome dynamic
i really wish more people had watched this show cause it has a lot of fun bits!!! it's so weird to me that so much muppet stuff is lost media or could have been lost media if it wasn't recorded, and this is one of them!! my ideal blu-ray now is a blu-ray of all the episodes of this restored/hd plus a selection of other movies/works by jim (i gotta watch some of his pre muppet show work, including his weird experimental films) but it will probably never happen cause of copyright stuff </3.
#muppets#the muppets#the jim henson hour#jim henson hour#i need to make clips or gifs or something just to make more people watch this show.....even in the very weird quality lol#maybe i'll focus on finishing muppets tonight next since i found some more higher quality videos of that#i. should really watch more of the muppet show i'm still stuck on season one but#(stares at the 108 episodes i still have to watch) it's a lot#page of rambles.txt#that will be my text post tag for now. maybe i'll think of something better later
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First impression of TOTTMNT: a little better than I was expecting, but not quite as good as I was hoping
#im enjoying the animation more than i thought i would#but something about the timing is off and its making a lot of the jokes not quite land :(#i just hope its first episode jitters and that it'll get better with time#or who knows maybe rise just spoiled me#but also the fact that they just jumped straight into a multi-episode thing is? weird?#its literally the first episode and it feels like its leading up to a season finale#idk I'll have my thoughts more in order later#tottmnt
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Me, frowned and concentrated: ...grbzghagdg...
My husband, sits next to me: Hey, bun. Drawing?
Me: Mm-hm.
Husband, watches for a while: So cool.
Me, relaxing a bit: Thanks, sunshine.
Husband: Why don't you make it like this, though?
Husband, takes my tablet and does some of his graphic designer's magic: See?
Me, like a primeval man that saw a fire for the first time: Eh??? Wh— H O W O____O
Husband, smiles: I'll show you again. That's simple.
Me, with a nervous laughter after a short lesson: ...do you even realize that by teaching me those tricks you've just opened the Pandora's box? :D
#yeah so... maybe now I'll finish my arts a lil bit faster :'D#making them faster doesn't mean making them better but still the quantity sooner or later will affect the quality... right? xD#i won't tell you what he has shown me or I'll feel myself even dumber than I am feeling now#just believe me that this was something ridiculously simple and I could have googled it but I didn't (shame on me) :'D#me and my husband#heldig life stories
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I got my results today, so Im back to uni starting tomorrow (yay!), but at the same time it has not assuaged my stress levels whatsoever sooo yeah, that's fun 🙈
Damn you, anxiety!
#personal#Raksh posts#vent#*shaking my fist angrily at my ridiculous anxiety and overthinking brain*#classes start tomorrow but also I gotta like Officialy sign with my paperwork and all first#plus the internet sign ins start at the same time classes do and I have no idea when I'll get access to the platform so#fun#it's all stressing me out so much grrrr#Ive prepped some food already tho and Im gonna finish up the paperwork now#get an outfit ready and get my old backpack out of my closer oooof#I'll have some hours before I'll have to leave for the train tho so thars for making some sandwiches and buying tickets#tho that one might be better to get now hmmmm#at this point Im just venting anythinf and everything hoping it'll help with the stress 🙈#sorry to anyone that's still reading this rambling mess 😅#its gonna be a long and stressful day tomorrow and even a longer one on thursday#(god the fact I'll prob have to wake up for a train that leaves at 5.50 Im gonna hate it so much 😭)#my commute depending on the day might add up to a total of 3h so big OOF#but still cheaper than trying to find a room in the city prob 😬#and I get wednesdays and fridays off so that's nice#maybe I'll try looking for something part time for those days later on too who knows#for now gotta survive this week and see where it goes 😅
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#will probably delete this later but I needed to get it out somewhere#like I am so goddamn lonely. and it is making me feel LITERALLY as if I'm about to descend into genuine madness#but the PROBLEM is that. in order to not be lonely. you need to find other people. and you need to have reason to believe that those#people will keep wanting and making an effort to communicate with you#and the thing is THE THING. IS. that you cannot control what people do or feel. I have no say in what people think of me.#I have to rely on other people to build new relationships. and that is just not. something that I can do.#it's not something that makes SENSE for me to do anymore. so I try to figure out how to just not want human connection at all#you know maybe if I intentionally isolate myself or grow my cynicism on a regular basis I'll get desensitized to the point#where that's just genuinely not something I want anymore. so then I'm not lonely but I also didn't have to rely on anyone else being#trustworthy and accepting and willing to care about me to get to that point#but. I mean maybe some people can do the denial thing but I can't. I've been trying for years. and that carved-out-hole in my chest#hasn't gotten any better. it hasn't filled up or healed over or gone away. it's just gotten bigger.#but if you're genuinely convinced that you're just built in a way where no one is ever going to really love you...what the fuck do you do?#if connecting with other people is something I want but it's (in my probably-biased estimation) completely inaccessible because I am#an inherently shameful and unpleasant person just by virtue of existing...then I'm just stuck at an impasse. and I'll always be crying#over something I can't logically ever have. why bother pursuing it if I am just going to be rejected or hurt or disparaged or tossed out or#neglected or sidelined or any number of bad outcomes? if that's how pursuing any kind of new interpersonal relationships is going to end#then why bother? the only thing to do would be to learn how to be completely unreliant on other people in any way forever right?#but THAT'S not logistically feasible EITHER and I've already proven that I can't fucking do that so what's left? just always be miserable?#I DON'T WANT TO RESIGN MYSELF TO THAT!!!!#sorry. it's. getting to be late december & around the new year is when it always gets Bad™ so we're just. gonna be like this for a few week#In the Vents#ugh all of this would be better if I still lived near Best Friend™#anyone who gets to live near/with their Person™ PLEASE know how lucky you are and don't take that for granted
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my disaster son with my sleeping disaster daughter. i am way more pleased with how his body looks but his back legs are still an absolute MESS.
you cant see it from this angle but they're the same size as the front legs which makes those bigass thighs look goofy as hell
#he's getting there!!!#ive gone through so much sculpey on him tho good fucking GOD#i'll likely tweak the back legs some more later but god i really am just so happy w him rn#if i can make those better and MAYBE figure out a way to give the feet a rotating joint i will be all set.#...if you see hot glue on his ass no you dont. ( i got impatient and wanted to see how he looked. shh. )#that may also be changed to something more.. permanent. if i can remove the glue later without breakign the pieces#this shit is so fucking fragile if you're not careful#makes me want to cast him in resin but that is perhaps far more out of my skills than even this#i dont know how to make molds and i would be so scared of breaking him ;-;
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grian: "i'm not gifting you the heart, i'm giving it to someone SPECIAL."
(silence)
scar: (hangs his head) "wow..."
grian: "aw ok i'm sorry- no no i'm not even gonna fall for this, i got guilted into helping you out last time, and you got a ton of stuff! i'm not being fooled"
#jaw kind of dropped when grian said that bro. UNCALLED FOR#anyways theres something so interesting to me about. grian being mean to scar and then as soon as scar acts hurt#grian's instinct IS to apologize. but then he changes his mind and is like no no im not gonna be guilted im not gonna be fooled#<- WHICH TO BE FAIR. this is scar we're talking about here. but also#its very interesting to me. with my little ''grian does care about scar he just has Emotional Issues from 3rd life that never really#went away'' mindset. this feels like progress. from just being mean to scar and not caring about it#its a little thing but the fact that he goes to apologize at first. makes me think things are looking up#i feel like they're already on much better terms this season which um. considering how last season ended is a little surprising#but not really considering. scar never seems to blame grian or get mad at him for anything he does#and idk if grian feels bad about his ''betrayal'' at all so to both of them its like not an issue and therefore doesnt affect#their current interactions#NOW. this could age very poorly. im still not over the bait-and-switch that was last season w barely any interactions and then That#they could act all niceys to each other this season and then later down the line when everythings crazy something terrible could happen#and i'll go insane over it. but for right now im uncharacteristically an optimist when it comes to these two. maybe they can finally just#be niceys to each other the whole time. i doubt it but maybe!#serena.txt#infizero.live#slsmp spoilers
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looking back at old doodles is so weird bc every single time it's like "ahh i remember that one, that doodle i made only for me and ark and that one mutual to enjoy... wait what do you mean it has 200 notes-"
#i always forget that i actually have a decent chunk of followers jfhdgk#does suck when you look back at one and it makes you wanna delete your entire internet presence bc it sucks so much KFJDHG#it made someone happy it's okay it made someone happy it's okay (<- said through gritted teeth)#i dont like deleting old posts even when i hate them bc i liked it at the time. why would i be so mean to my past self :(#aaaaaugh i wanna draw but i have absolutely ZERO motivation. the resistance drawing was made in a sudden burst of ''I Have To Do This''#i just wanna make silly doodles aaaaaa... maybe i'll think of something later#chat#was looking back through my simon tag if you were curious. i wanna draw him again it's been a bit#i suck at drawing him as a human tho. idk why he's just REALLY hard to draw#i like the sloth better >:(
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