#maybe i’ll write a self indulgent fic about it as a reward for studying

[amiharana]

good evening revalinkers i have returned from the hellscape of exambrain and require revalink sustenance

[thebeautyoffanfics]

kou minamoto x gn!reader

a/n: sorry guys, i know i’m… way behind on requests. i’m just. Hm. going through the motions? Gotta write some self-indulgent comfort fics yk yk <3

Also like UGH i’ve been taking better care of my teeth- but had to get a real bad cavity filled today. And that numbing stuff??? Wasn’t working. So, of course, now- about 45 minutes later- it’s finally kicking in lol,,,,,,, can’t feel half of my face;; i already have a slight lisp;;;;;; and i’m hungry;;;;;;; i’m just;;; not having it this week, guys, i’m simply not-

warnings: mentions of shots/needles, anxiety?

word count: 965

You sighed, finally regulating your breathing, feeling the throbbing of your head from having to calm yourself down so often lately. You couldn’t help but recall the pinch from the dentists, one that you felt despite the attempt to numb your gums in the place they would inject you. Which was worse, the pain in your mouth, or how you pinched your arm? The way the room seemed to get uncomfortably warm so quickly- and the way you wanted to cry when the doctor announced that he’d have to do it once more. And once again after that.

Carefully, you took a bite of a snack you had packed, quickly placing it back at the mix of a pain and a lack of a flavor. While you expected to taste nothing on the numb side, the pain was… unwelcome, to say the least. Strange, you thought, that the bottom of your ear was numb, and yet… the area in which the shots had been injected were sore. At this point, you weren’t even sure you wanted to eat. Thinking too much about the… excitements of tomorrow was enough to kill your appetite. Recalling the events of today, imaging having to wait so long in a doctor’s office, the feeling of the nurse rubbing the alcohol pad against your arm… tears filled your eyes, as you shook your head, forcing the thoughts from your mind. You wished that you could have gone home. You wanted to cry- but there was no use in crying at school, unless you wanted too many different eyes on you.

“(Y/N)! You’re back?? For… study hall?” Kou questioned, sitting next to you. You shrugged- “Yeah. My parents wanted me to come back for clubs and whatnot.”

“I see… then, how did it go?”

“Seeing as you heard me try to pronounce ‘parents’ you may have a good idea, haha…”

“Right, right…” Kou muttered, fiddling with his hands slightly. You knew he could tell you were in a poor mood, and that you were like that before the dentist appointment. You were beyond thankful for his kindness, knowing that he was sitting there, trying to figure out how to approach your mood.

“So, (Y/N), are you feeling… better?” He asked, glancing back over at you, and offering a slight smile.

“Mmh… well, my mouth hurts, and I’m starving… and I can’t talk properly. Still, I think I’d have a numb mouth any day over tomorrow- I’ve got to get my shots, and I’m… hm, terrified.”

“Ah? Of shots?”

“Needles.”

“Ah… well, it’s alright!” He cheered, and you stopped yourself from getting defensive, knowing he was about to give you the same lesson everyone else did. “It’s a little pinch, and then it’s over! Super quick, I promise!”

“I-” You stopped yourself, taking in a deep breath as your voice already began to shake, “I know, Kou.”

Kou paused, tensing up a bit, scared that he had possibly hit a nerve. “Thank you, for trying, just… it’s kinda more than that, you know? Like… I know getting the shot is much better than getting any sort of illness. I know it’s just a tiny pinch, and that it’s over quickly… but, for some reason, it’s just… scary, haha.”

Kou nodded, pondering for a moment as the bell rang. The remaining students in the room got up and left, leaving you sitting alone with Kou. “Do you have any numbing cream you could put on your arm? I’ll buy some, if you want!”

“Kou, you’re too kind to me-”

“You’re kind to me, (Y/N)! I’m serious. I’ve got some money, it can’t be that pricey! You can put that on, and hmm… ask the doctor if you can put in your earbuds? Play some music, or watch a video? And, uh! Focus on something else!! Call me, if you want?? If you can-?”

You nodded, smiling slightly at the effort Kou was putting into this. “Thanks so much, Kou… I’ll do that- but I can buy the stuff, so don’t worry. I’ve got that, and I’ve been working on keeping my breathing normal… I can’t promise I won’t cry, but I think I’m doing all I can to not have the pain.”

“Yesyes!! You’ve got this, (Y/N)! You’ve definitely got this! I’ll pack your lunch, alright? For the rest of the week!”

“Kou, you’re treating me like I’m a toddler-”

“Trust me, I’ve dealt with Tiara- there’s a huuuuge difference. Mainly… comforting Teru- but that’s not important! Honestly, the whole reward method works just fine for any age- plus, I’m allowed to spoil my partner, even if you don’t face a fear.”

Nodding, you stood up, attempting to appear more confident than you felt. “Thank you, sweetheart. I’m still… terrified, but I’m glad to have someone cheering me on, haha…”

“Of course! If there’s anything I can do, please let me know! I’ll even hold your hand!”

“You don’t need to do that,” You laughed, ruffling his hair, then lanking his arm slightly- silently letting him know that he should stand up. “But I do appreciate it… maybe hold my hand afterwards? While you’re at it, kiss the bandaid- joking, joking, I know you would-”

“Oi, don’t treat my love for you like it’s silly!”

“Right, right. It’s not silly, sweetie~.”

“Neither is your fear!” “Mmmmmh, neither is my fear-” “Hanako is though.”

“Ha- hm… you’re completely right on that one. Still, we should go clean his bathroom.”

(Bonus- bc I know Hanako would make fun of me even more than my sister has /lh /hj:

“BAHAHAHAHAHAHA-”

“SHUT UP, HANAKO, YOU JERK!!”

“SORRY?? REPEAT THAT???”

“IF YOU WEREN’T A GHOST, I S- PROMISE- UGH-”

“PFFF- DID YOU TRY TO AVOID AN ‘S’??? DID IT NUMB YOUR BRAIN AS WELL?????”

“HANAKO-”)