#maybe i talked too much intense queer stuff and the cishet ppl in there were wigged out about it. maybe i was just Too Autistic | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lucifer-kane · 19 days ago

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i'm in my head about things that happened in fuckin. 2020. again. and i think that if you say 'we've had problems with this person before' but you never talk to that person about said 'problems' then i really don't know how to feel. i admit i can get a bit Much and i knoooow i'm the autistic that is crossing the line of unfavorable in certain aspects. but the fact i was never talked to about things baffled me. it would have been nice to have one of the people in charge actually contact me and say something.

#my anxiety about posting things then deleting them soon after is mainly bc of All That #so many things stemmed from that stuff and a lot of it sucks. im so much more anxious about talking to people and in groups it's. yeah #but the people in that group who were always. rude or something similar were just ppl who my friends and i were uncomfortable with #but you couldn't say anything about them for risk of 'no negativity!! only positivity <3!!' it's. idk man #if that goes on to a point where someone literally leaves while saying 'hey i feel really outcast in here and judged so im leaving' like.#that says something #maybe i talked too much intense queer stuff and the cishet ppl in there were wigged out about it. maybe i was just Too Autistic #not using that as an excuse but never being talked to. not even once. really made it all so much more frustrating #and i loved it in there most of the time!! when my friends were around!#but you could FEEEEEEL the scorn when the more clique-y people did NOT like you #personal #sorry sorry sorry i know it's been almost 5 years but this affected me. so much #and i hate it and im working on it but god

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