#maybe i gotta reframe the narrative: I'm not Starting Projects (which implies i will finish)

[nihilisticlinguistics]

#it feels pointless to try to work on things on good days because i KNOW i'm too sick to do them consistently#but it still feels good to do them on the days i can#i like playing guitar when i have the energy even though i'm too sick to really practice and improve#i like drawing and i should try to do it more even though i know many days i'll be too tired to hold a pencil#it relates to something that i'm pretty sure tumblr user plantpretender talked about a while ago:#lots of the strategies that help overcome executive dysfunction#are the opposite of the strategies you need to manage energy when you're chronically ill#you can't try to harness momentum and push through blocks bc that will make you sicker#and part of the solution i think is approaching it like this post#just do what you can when you can and enjoy it for what it is (tags via @scribefindegil)

IDK who needs to hear this but if there's something in your life that makes you feel better, but you never stick to it,

it's still actually perfectly fine to do it

and you shouldn't stop yourself from starting just because it won't be a permanent change.

Like if starting a new daily planner gives you an amazing afternoon of planning and four days where you feel in charge of your life,

why not do it?

It doesn't matter that it won't be a permanent change - 4 good days is still worth it.

If you ever catch yourself thinking, "I wish I could pray/stretch/prep/plan/do the thing, but I always get started on that and it never lasts more than a couple of days,"

what this really means is, "hey, I can feel better for a couple of days."

if this post is making you think of things in your own life that you wish you could stick to because of how good they make you feel,

just be aware:

you're not thinking of a list of ways you've failed to commit

you're thinking of a list of things that make you happy, and you should give yourself permission to start doing them as often as you want to