#maybe he can angst Cas back from the grave twice :P

[elizabethrobertajones]

Remember how Dean used to hate Jack because he blamed him for Cas’s death? And Jack struggled with if it was all his fault. (I still think that the pain of “oh no! Cas’s death was my fault just like Kelly’s” realization when Jack overheard Dean shouting at Sam was part of what powered bringing Cas back from the Empty) Now, when Cas dies because of his deal with Shadow, Jack will likely blame himself. Jack knows but he promised Cas not to tell, but what keeping this secret must be doing to him1/?

2/3 It probably seems to Jack like the same thing is going to happen all over again. Like, when Cas will die and Dean will be destroyed by it and it would be all his fault, like before, aaaah (and what if he worries that Dean will think so too and hate him again when he finds out)

3/3 I hope that Jack is too well-adjusted for this type of angst, but with having to keep the secret he can’t really talk to anybody about all this and work through possible issues. And TFW are not the best role models in that regard even though they’re trying and getting better)

Listen, our blissfully sweet cherub boy has died and come back at the price of a weeeeee sliver of his soul. Just a pinch. A tiny weeny nip off the side. Hardly feel it. But yes, I wonder if his metaphorical death and return, which only added deep horrifying emotion to the plot of the season in the sense of it being the Michael arc, with this as an emotional subplot, and of course they could have come up with any way to get us to Michael but a Naomi tip off after all this is as good as anyway…. I wonder, just wonder, if Sweet Nougat Son might now have disappeared not in whole but in part. Just enough to get rid of the pure joyful childlike bliss he died with, all enthusiastic and don’t cry for me I’m going to have an adventure!! Just a sliver off the top to take him down a notch to still sweet, but, you know, just a little bitterness for flavour. 

Asking him to keep a huge secret of a deal made on his behalf which basically guarantees Cas’s emotional torture and a perhaps untimely death if Cas can’t keep being Sulk Of The Year every year for millennia under the stress of being surrounded by loving family and friends… That’s going to start to give lil nougat boy something heavy to carry on his shoulders which isn’t as simple as good and evil and revenge and justice, all these big weighty concepts he’s been dealing with. Now he has to suffer silence and secrets and he KNOWS lying is wrong and you don’t do it, and it makes him extremely forthright and quick to call out people sitting on feelings they don’t want to share… 

I don’t think they’ll drastically change him, because Lily remained emotional to the end on a last sliver of her soul and of course was plenty emotional in 12x10. But she knew she HAD changed, and Jack’s used a magic that necessarily involves harming a core part of himself - the part we always say is the nougat centre of such a sweet boy - and for her it was the motive of spite and keeping alive to revenge her daughter and so on. Jack wants to live just to live and have a happy life, but… Well, the angst is starting to sink its claws into him… D: