#maybe have my own lil slow burn situation unfolding and I am not mad about it

[bearsbeetsbeskar]

THE HORRORS PERSIST BUT SO DO I

i am alive but barely yall, school is taking up all of my fucking time and I couldn't tell you the last time I sat down to just write or read fic without having a deadline looming over my head

i am counting down the days till my winter break because the burnout is real and i hate everything rn

on a positive note,

I have been talking to this guy in one of my classes, he's cute and really nice, and it might be the start of something??? idk but we sit beside each other in class, he asked me if I wanted to write a quiz together with him last week, and afterwards we smoked and went to go get dumplings afterwards 😇

I think he likes me but honestly my obtuse ass is not assuming anything until it's made explicit cause in this day and age MEN CANNOT BE TRUSTED.

It's so weird getting to know someone platonically as friends and then letting it build up from there. he paid for our food and took the subway with me to the train station so I would know where i was going afterwards, and he even offered me a ride. Even when we got food and we were both super high, we talked about a bunch of stuff not school related, everything from favorite movies to career goals to family dynamics and trauma. I'm like??? he's not overtly flirty but he's so sweet and genuinely interested in what I have to say, and we are both passionate about social justice and social work.

is this what it's like when a man is respectful and genuinely interested in you? cause my radar is so fucking low that I would not be able to tell if it hit me like a bus

we're supposed to write the next quiz together on Monday, so I'll update y'all if anything comes of it, but for now I'm not trying to make it out to be anything other than what it is, and just enjoying the ride with no expectations 🌚