#maybe Leah? Maybe Emily?? MAYBE?? but if maybe them then who is the 3rd maybe older bachelorette?

[tigitaldurtle]

*clicks pen* hm. *scribbles something on paper* yeah I'm gonna need ya to--*scribbles again* *cough* 'scuse me *scribbles*

*clears throat*

yeah i'm gonna need you to draw that older person older looking. why are they mewing

[musingsofvenus]

It’s been a while since I read the books, can you drop the Emily hoe rationalisation? I’m with you 100% I just don’t know how we got there

see below the cut but here's a TLDR:

Imprintees choose what the relationship will be, while the wolf has no choice in this matter. Emily chose to be in a romantic relationship with Sam despite him being in love with AND engaged to Leah prior to magic stripping him of his free will.

Backstory of Emily and Leah as stated in the twilight illustrated guide (I'm paraphrasing):

Emily and Leah are cousins and were besties, like sisters to each other. While Leah was in high school she dated Sam, they were pretty serious, and they were engaged. Emily had a boyfriend for a while, who she eventually broke up with and had been casually dating a few other boys after.

Imprinting logic from Eclipse chapters 5 and 8, and the guide:

Jacob describes imprinting as "finding your mate/ soulmate/ other half" when he talks about Emily and Sam. For Quil and Claire, he says Quil will have to "be patient and wait a few decades" and that the imprint is "not romantic right now" and the wolves "become anything she needs them to be. friend, brother, protector, lover." MIND YOU WE ARE TALKING ABOUT A TWO YEAR OLD BUT I'M NOT GETTING INTO THAT ON THIS ASK UGH The guide also hammers this point again by basically saying the wolf is all in and the imprintee is the one who calls the shots in determining what the relationship will be (romantic, platonic, whatever). The wolf has no say or free will with imprinting.

Why Emily is a hoe

We have to make some assumptions here. Considering how close Leah and Emily were, it's safe to say that Emily had met/seen Sam plenty of times, either for some kind of family thing or simply just by hanging out with Leah. I wouldn't be shocked if Emily was 3rd wheel a few times, too.

Fast forward to Sam seeing Emily for the first time again after he phased. He imprints, and immediately all of his love for Leah flies out of the window. Emily is his whole word now, whether he likes it or not. And he can't not like it, because the imprint doesn't allow him to feel anything but love for Emily. He has no choice in this.

But Emily does. In this situation, Emily's feelings don't magically change at the drop of a hat like Sam's did. There's no invisible force that made her fall in love with Sam. It's literally unrequited! Or was it?

Some more assumptions: if Emily had (presumably) several unsuccessful relationships, would it not be fair to assume that maybe, just maybe, she might have viewed Leah and Sam as a 'couple goal' or even view Sam as the type of boyfriend she would want to have some day? It's a reach, but is it????? I think Emily could have felt some degree of envy, and maybe even had a little crush on Sam. I don't think she would've acted on it, even when Sam (again, against his will) would run back to Emily and beg her to be with him every time she rejected him.

I also want to mention that at no point did Emily ever try to nip it in the bud and say, "let's just be friends." Even if she didn't know saying that would put an end to things, all she did was brush him off or tell him to go back to Leah. After a few times, she has to realize this method won't work. And now I begin to wonder if she ever really wanted him to stop. If she was actually thrilled by that kind of attention, like it was an ego boost.

Because in an ideal world, where Leah wasn't her best friend, would she have rejected him? What if guilt over her best friend's feelings was the only thing really stopping her? What if they weren't as close?

Fast forward again: Emily gets slashed in the face. Sam is in the hospital all the time, feeling guilty as hell and beside himself, and um, that makes Emily smitten even more? Because who can resist the amount of adoration even though that's your best friend's man?

Honestly, I think with the scarring she was like, "fuck it, I gotta lock this one down or I'll be alone forever" and decided that was more important than Leah's feelings (and technically Sam's, although he is a lovesick zombie now. Will the real Sam Uley please stand up?). The game's over now. Emily doesn't have to pretend she doesn't have feelings for Sam anymore. And Leah? She's gonna be Emily's bridesmaid! 🥳

In conclusion

[witchywrter]

“Home” (Part 2/?)

Paul Lahote x reader

Part 1

Summary: y/n returns from college in California to her hometown in Forks to find things are not as she left them. She soon discovers that a lot more things have changed then she initially thought.

Warnings: language I guess?

A/N: hey guy! Part 2!! Its finals week and I just passed my physics final so yay! Im gonna try and update for the 3rd installment of this fic this week. Hope you guys like this!

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Lunch went by quickly, especially considering the boys had attacked the food before you even walked in the room.

The whole gang sat around joking and catching up with each other.

“..and then Jake brought her here!”

“Oh shut it Quill, Bella’s fine!”

“Jake’s pretty whipped on vam-“

Embry stopped short as Sam cleared his throat.

The room quieted for a moment before conversation pick up once more. You looked over to Sam to see he wasn’t engaging in small talk, but instead glaring at Embry. You wanted to know what Embry was about to say. You didn’t know much about Bella Swan. Your family moved to the res when you was young so you didn’t know a lot of the people in town and by the time you did, Bella had moved away with her mother.

But Jake has obviously taken a liking to her, so you’d have to make an effort to get to know her better.

Just as you were about to ask Embry what he was going to say before being interrupted, the door swung open and in walked Leah.

“Hey sorry I’m late, patr-“ Leah then noticed you and paused before continuing “..I had stuff to do at work”

“Leah!” You threw Seth’s legs off of you and jumped off the couch to hug her.

“I forgot you were coming today!”

“Where’s the guys?” Brady asked from behind me.

“They’ll be here any minute...they just had to check on something” Leah said, making eye contact with Sam.

Everyone sat back down and continued on with the conversation as Sam and Leah whispered to one another.

You always thought that it must have bothered Emily that Leah and Sam remained close, but after some time you realized that they were both content with the way things were. Sam with Emily and Leah with Adam.

Leah had come to visit you during your sophomore year and had met one of your friends who just happened to live in northern Oregon. It was almost like love at first sight, although you never really believed in that. Adam eventually moved out to Forks after two years together, but they’re planning on leaving soon to go travel, a few months after the wedding.

The sound of noisy laughter ripped you from your thoughts as Quill walked through the door, followed by the man you loved to hate.

You didn’t even look in his direction, you were having a good time and didn’t really feel like ruining your mood.

Quill came over and gave you a big hug before shoving Seth’s legs away to make room next to you.

You looked up to see Paul had joined in the private conversation taking place between Leah and Sam. They all had the same level of urgency written on their faces.

When you came back to visit the first 2 years, you did your best to avoid running into Paul. You did a pretty good job, so well in fact that you almost forgot what he looked like. Almost. You did remember however that he wasn’t as big as he was now. He seemed tanner, with broader shoulders and shorter hair. He had gotten taller too, probably Sam’s height now, maybe more. He was definitely more muscular, not that you were looking, but he was shirtless so it made it pretty damn hard not to notice. If you didn’t hate him so much you might have even said he was attractive, but you would never admit to that. It would only fuel his ever growing ego.

You hadn’t noticed you were staring at him until he looked up, making eye contact. At first he met your gaze with nothing but annoyance, but something seemed to have happened because not a second later his eyes widened. But as soon as it appeared it was gone and replaced with an look of intense hatred.

Great, I haven’t even said a word to him and he’s already pissed at me

You looked away and did your best to ignore him for the rest of the night, despite the fact that you could feel his eyes on you most of the time. When the time came for people to leave, you hugged and said your goodbyes to everyone. Almost everyone. You began helping Emily clean up and took plates into the kitchen where you found yourself walking into an on going conversation

“-I’ll reject it. I don’t care what I have to do-“

“You know it doesn’t work like that Paul. You’ll only prolong it and cause yourself pain”

A fork dropped off the plates you were holding and Sam and Paul’s heads snapped towards you. Disgust was evident on Paul’s face as he regarded you, waiting for you to say something. When you didn’t his words came out fast and harsh.

“Couldn’t you have just stayed there y/n” your name coming out of his mouth like poison as he pushed past you to leave.

“What the actual fuck did I do to him? I’ve been here all of 4 hours and he comes in here like I’ve wronged him” you yelled.

“He’s just going through something’s. Give him a break, he didn’t really mean it.”

There goes Sam, always being the peace keeper. I rolled my eyes at him but tried to let it go.

“Yeah, well, he could be nicer about it” I said, but he could tell I wasn’t gonna hold it against him. Sam’s usually been the one with better judgement, so if he said to ease up on Paul, then I would try. For now.

As I laid in bed that night in the spare room of Emily’s house I thought about being home. I missed my friends and family dearly. Things had changed when I was away, drastically. Although I’m glad to be home, I felt like everyone seemed to be in on something. Like they were keeping something from me. The odd way Leah, Paul and Sam we’re talking, Embry not being able to talk about Bella, Leah acting weird when she first arrived. I know somethings going on, and I’m going to find out what it is.

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Part 3

A/N: ok so part 3 will be out soon. If you guys have any headcannons or requests or stuff like that just shoot me a message or request or whatever and I’ll try and do it asap! Hope you liked this chapter!!

[20192022diary]

3rd august 2020

I just found Leah browns YouTube channel and shed posted a video on having good relationships. One of her tips was set boundaries and have a good relationship with yourself. I agree.

If I had set boundaries with Emily, it would not have escalated like it did.

There were so many times, I felt disrespected and unfairly treated but pushed it aside for the sake of the friendship. The moment she told me i was asking too much from her I should have ended the friendship.

She was right to say, I should t keep bringing things up from that past. I shouldn’t. I should have moved on.

I kept my anger towards locked up for almost two years and bits of it kept coming out when we were drunk until i eventually took it too far.

Hitting her will always be my biggest regret. No body deserves that. It will always be the biggest life changer for me.

I’ve spend so long questioning about doubting myself, asking if this makes me a bad person. Am I manipulative? Am I abusive? Am I a narcissist? Have I been delusional for all this time in thing that I was decent person?

I’ve flip flop a lot with the answer.

At the end of the day, I did something unforgivable because I was unable to set boundaries. I was unable to say “I don’t like how you treat me as friend” and then end the friendship. Id say I don’t like how you treat me and then go back to normal. I wish I’d ended things sooner.

I still don’t know how I feel about Emily. I really don’t. My opinion of her is unsteady because I’m still not sure if I’m just coming from a place of anger still or whether this is my actual opinion. My opinion of her is that she is narcissistic and self involved. I think she struggles to see her wrong doing or at least doesn’t want to own up to them. She likes to be a the victim. Do I think that because I have anger towards her still? Idk. I don’t think I do. I try and not be narrow sighted in my opinions of people. I try and question why I feel that way. I am slowly beginning to think that it’s just my opinion of her because it doesn’t feel like I have anger towards her anymore. Do I think she’s a bad person. No. I think shes struggling to process emotions and struggling with being a good person to others and to yourself at the same time. I do think that there’s good in her and maybe since not being my friends she’s changed like I have. That’s very possible. But just like her last memory of me is tainted and bad, mine is of her. Which is sad. Because we were so close but it’s was all toxic

I think Leah brown is one of kindest souls I’ve ever met and I think it’s completely my own loss not having her as a friend. I don’t think there’s a bad bone in her body and I’m glad in that video that she said she’s found peace. I feel so sad that I have caused her upset but I’m glad she doing good now. Would i want to be her friend again, no because i think that would be a step back for both of us. We’re better off without each other

I think I am a better person now. I am happy. First birthday in 3 years I haven’t been Sad. Coincidence, not really. I think I am more patience with people now. I think I’m more open about how I want to be treated. I still need work on my delivery. It can be blunt and rude sometimes but the person I am now compared to a year ago. I’m very proud of myself for picking myself up and working on better myself not just for me but for everyone around me. I’ve been told I seem happier and that I’m better to be around several times and that isn’t why I do it but being told that really helps.

I really like who am I. I get down sometimes on myself but rn while typing this, I think I’m good. There so many things I wanna work on and I’m excited to do it.

I talk a lot about that experience with Emily and how I feel better for it. Does that make me a narcissist? Idk? Maybe I am still crappy but self delusion has just crept back in. Idk.