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fadingoutintothehands · 1 year ago

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Caught the Xikers fever. I'm so impressed by them 🥰

#xikers #kpop #kq entertainment #i can name like 6 members with confidence #maybe 2 without confidence #hopefully they don't change their hair anytime soon because that'll ruin me #sumin 🥰🥰🥰#when Yechan gets possessed by Hongjoong during Do Or Die

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puppyeared · 2 months ago

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AND I MET THE CHANGE GOD TOO. OKAY. COOL OKAY

#I WASNT EVEN MEANING TO SO I ACCIDENTALLY SKIPPED THE DIALOGUE BEFORE I KNEW WHAT WAS HAPPENING FUCK #ill go and find it later if only to give myself peace of mind. BUT WOW. WHAT THE FUCK #my original plan was to 1) work my way to the king and talk to him 2) doom myself and take everyone down with me 3) loop back to floor 3 #so i can visit the observatory and scrounge for any lore. although since i got killed that run siffrin asked the king to kill him first #which was intereresting. but i decided to have all doors unlocked that time around so i can just get the starcrest and go #but for some reason it wasnt working so i went to get the keyknife since i was already there and completely forgot i already had it #from the previous loop and THATS what triggered it. IT WAS FUNNY BUT ALSO SCARY BUT ALSO I THINK I GET WHAT THEY MEAN #about siffrin going back without actually changing. going along with a script even if his feelings on things change #the same way he has his own small rituals like the carving thing and does it for constancy. reassurance or safety even #and the times when he breaks script and ends horribly like the sadness attacking thing and bonnie yelling at him cause him to loop #to avoid it. although i cant really say anything bc id probably do the same thing. maybe not for the same reasons since im cruel #and make him do the worst to see what will happen since i put curiosity over rejection sensitivity as an observer and player but well.#i feel wrongfooted bringing it up since i dont have it myself but i have to wonder if this kind of leans into ocd tendencies.. i remember #reading something about how ocd is fuelled by fear. and things like counting and rituals are kind of used to cope with that?#if anyone knows anything more or talked abt it already id be really interested in hearing it bc im almost sure im not #the first to come to this conclusion. but i simply dont know enough nor have the confidence to broach the topic rn esp with how often #misconceptions around ocd get casually passed around so its hard for me to know what is and isnt a baseless assumption #puppy plays isat #in stars and time #isat #playthru #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat act 3 spoilers #change god #WHAT WAS THAT WITH WEARING LOOPS FACE THOUGH WHAT THE FUCKKK

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fisheito · 10 months ago

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my princess nonsense is being encouraged watch ouyt imabout to be eneaabled

OK WHATF ATHAT'S SO CUTE I HAD TO MAKE IT i know realistically there's little to no chance that rei DOESN'T know how to work heels 🤣 BUT IMAGINE.....ING.... YAKUMO GENTLY GUIDING REI IN HEELS, WEEKS BEFORE THE BIG GALA AND HAVING NONE OF HIS NORMAL FEAR OF PHYSICAL TOUCH BC HIS [TEACHER MODE] IS OVERRIDING HIS INSECURITY

#rei looking directly at the camera like why are you subjecting me to this. i do not need any of this. i know how to do it #rei wearing stilettos the size of your head so he becomes ur very tall bird goth gf #you know how yakumo gets when he instructs someone on how to cook something #he becomes confident and just tells ppl how to do stuff without his usual amount of stutter and secondguessing #i'm gonna pretend that after his stiletto training in misty vale he gains a TINY MOLECULE of confidence due to experience #like [i can help you if you've never done it before?]#honestly i can't imagine this scenario happening because i am so SURE that rei can walk in heels HAHAHA even tho nothing has proven that #SOMETHING COME PROVE ME WRONG SO MY DELUSIONS CAN SLIDE CLOSER TO POSSIBILITY #anyway even if rei didn't know how to wear heels #would he ever mention it? would yakumo ever learn of it?#rei would probably be all . i don't need to wear heels. they can't even see them under the dress. i'll wear my practical shoes #but if he can't get away with that and will be forced to wear heels at the party...#maybe he'll go [meh. i'll figure it out] and just not wear them until the day of the dance #at which point his feet will hurt after 20 minutes and for the whole night he takes any chance to sit down #rei can be frequently spotted on SOME surface SOMEWHERE in the palace. sitting all splayed out and uncaring of propriety #because he is in PAIN and these shoes are STUPID and why do people wear them for ANYTHING . Royals are so IMPRACTICAL #yakumo keeps trying to avoid heels for the dance because he doesn't want to be any taller than he already is #i bet there's a full convo about it between him and eiden #eiden trying to reassure him that if he wants to wear heels then he shouldn't let others' perception stop him from doing so #but if he genuinely doesn't want to wear them then that's ok too #eiden craning his neck up at yakumo in heels like you're my pretty princess 1-2 heads taller than me your height doesn't matter 🥰#i'm now torn. yakumo and rei both wearing heels now? in order to stay at similar heights?#or. rei starting out with heels. getting tired of them. going barefoot for the rest of the night lol #yakumo and rei still dancing in their ballgowns together but a much shorter rei leads a yakumo in heels #yes. yes this is the vision #yakurei #replies #nu carnival yakumo #nu carnival rei

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first-blight · 1 year ago

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destroyed by the fact that the confession scene in ep 6 is basically the same confession from both of them but they keep talking past each other because both of their ideas of what they want together is so different (partially because they never have a fucking conversation, just as nina and maggie say)

crowley is admitting that he wants to spend eternity with aziraphale but he wants them to run away together (because heaven and hell are flawed - running away is sensible). aziraphale wants to be with crowley but he wants to do so in heaven (because heaven and hell are flawed - trying to change it is sensible).

they both want to be together but in such fundamentally different ways at this point in their character arcs, it's so heartbreaking to watch

#good omens 2 spoilers #good omens season 2 spoilers #i say heartbreaking but i actually LOVE this i gobble this shit up #i love this conflict because it's been a long time coming from both of them #because both these points of view have been the same for them throughout both seasons #and even though they worked together #have been close friends and confidants for such a long time. they have never actually moved past their initial ideas #i have so much to say about this #maybe i'll get over my post anxiety and make a longer post putting my thoughts into words. ive not stopped talking abt them anyway #ik everyone and their mom already made a post but i'll be damned #good omens #good omens 2 #also may i just say. the moment of realization in aziraphale's face after the kiss #not the realization of what the feelings entail necessarily bc they've been Quite clear even without the kiss #but the fact that this Was It Then. that this fight was them throwing that away essentially. because they couldn't see eye to eye #on such a fundamental level here. ARGH

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ronanlynchbf · 4 months ago

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and then an overwhelming sense of dread apear.

#finished my last exam for this year YAY YIPPEE YAHOO ETC. but also now we wait for if i pass or not DREAD FEAR WARINESS ETC.#which i rlly don't think i will like. did not feel good abt the 1st exam period felt worse abt the 2nd and this one is like.....idk idk...#pretty confident abt the books part of the exam bc i KNOW i got everything on that correct but the thing is it was an oral exam and i was #stumbling over my words so bad + my voice was quivering i could hear it. hoping they don't count that as minus points but for the speech #thing i also had to do 2day they DO include how your voice sounds when you speak and like stammering and such in the final point count so #like. what if it's the same there.....ALSO they include use of gesturing to emphasize what you're saying and CORRECT EYE CONTACT in the #final point count. which. i don't have a problem with gesturing & i had a piece of paper in my hands so at least i wasn't too bad on that #front but when it comes to eye contact it's only flitting eyes or unnerving stare with me and nothing in between so i'm completely fucked i #that regard.#r.txt #WHATEVER it's done now. stupid ass weird rules WHO CARES if i don't have correct usage of eye contact what even is correct usage of eye #contact?????? like HOW am i supposed to know what the quote correct amount unquote is man. ALSO WHO GIVE A SHIT.#anyway going 2 luxembourg with my family for two weeks on august 5th probably. maybe sooner maybe later. we're going hiking + camping ⛺🌲👣#but the hiking is mostly done without backpacks and the camping is gonna be in campings. camping places. however english calls it.#which is a little less fun but also easier. but also less fun. but ANYWAY we're going on vacation and my final exam is done so no more #stress 💪🥳🙏🗣💥‼ (<- guy who's SO gonna be still having stress until the results come in. and then some afterwards. yay 4 me 🙂👍)

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foggieststars · 1 month ago

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tho u feel stuck and not good abt ur writing right now, i just wanted to remind u that u write beautifully. ur fics have moved me. AND many other people. maybe this a signal for u to take a break and try to detach urself from writing. it will come back eventually. maybe that will be tmrw. or maybe it will be in 2 weeks. try to be patient and focus on other things that bring u joy. or bitch abt it here. take care darling <3

thank you lovely!! maybe you're right it's just difficult bcs writing has been such a fun escape for me during the last year so the fact that i'm hitting a wall with it is. very frustrating </3 but i have spent the evening cross stitching and watching brooklyn 99 so i'm trying to put less pressure on myself <33

#ask #i think it also. really doesn't help that at work recently i've had a piece of writing i spent literal Months editing and refining #torn to pieces and really brutally commented upon in the past week by higher ups who genuinely have no business being involved in my report #for Political Reasons Outside Of My Control it's happened specifically only to me and nobody else #and a project that was specifically designed for people of my level to build their confidence leading projects #has basically just led to me having my sense of pride in my work and faith in my own ability unilaterally destroyed. lol #even though academic writing is something i've always been good at. now i can't even write basic sentences without seeking reassurance #so i think it's maybe spilling over into like. my creative writing #which really really sucks. i've been having a really bad time at work which is so sad because i genuinely loved my job until 2 months ago #so i guess all my feelings Make Sense. it just feels really unfair that something that's been making me so miserable #is now like. taking away something i really enjoy and get a lot of fulfilment from </3 #anyway thank you so much sweetheart <333 #personal

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rollercoasterwords · 2 years ago

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sorry but. i truly do not understand the "ai is stealing" stance when it comes to fanfiction like. am i missing something is ai like....copying and pasting or is it just. reading a bunch of fanfiction and then writing something that is based off/inspired by/drawn from it. feel like i keep seeing people getting very upset abt like. chatgpt fics bc ai is "stealing" but i don't understand how it's functionally different from like. a human reading a bunch of fanfic and then. writing something inspired or influenced by what they've read. creation doesn't happen in a void and all fanfiction is derivative art anyway but i thought we were all on board w that....like i thought using the Derivative Art Website means u think derivative art can be worthwhile and valuable so....confused abt how this logic plays out.

#maybe bc every post ive seen thus far has just been confidently saying #'ai is stealing!!' without actually explaining what that means so. lmk if there is something i am missing #abt like. how ai functions when it comes 2 ai being used 2 write fics #anyway. is anyone awake does anyone wanna discuss...w me....#bc like. the other thing that confuses me abt this is like. nobody is making money from fanfiction....#what exactly is being stolen from u....it's not like somebody posting their chatgpt fic on ao3 is hurting u right??#maybe u personally don't like it or think chatgpt fics r bad for whatever reason but. that could be said for many things people post on ao3 #and it seems like the best course of action in that case is just 2 not read them right??#unless we are advocating for censorship on ao3 which. boy howdy how many times have we had THAT conversation yknow..#txt

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neuroticboyfriend · 1 year ago

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harm reduction my beloved

#huge difference between now and the last time i drank and drugged #thought i was going to die the last time #right now i have pretty good confidence that i'll survive tonight #hell yeah #around 8 shots in on 3 other GABAergics (including 3.4g of gabapentin today)#and i feel like im on 3 shots. maybe 2. without tolerance #oh my GABAergic tolerance is absolutely fucked #and this time it's not entirely my fault. psych ward gave me 2 more GABAergics #very potent ones too #julian rants #vent #drunk posting #posting under the influence #drugs tw #alcohol tw #harm reduction #addiction #alcoholism

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limielle · 1 year ago

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idk i feel like so much discourse could be easily minimized if people learned to say "i think" instead of "it is"

#like “i think this is a bad game” is way less abrasive/aggressive than “this is a bad game”#do u know where im going w this like #it's literally 2 extra words and it could avoid like 99% of confrontation #ofc there would still be people who are like “omg how can u hate smth i like ur trash” but idk i feel like so much of this discourse u see #on twt especially #is like ? just people being deliberately aggressive abt stuff they dont like to antagonise others and then going “its just my opinion”#and it's hard to read tone online so it's often hard for me (and im sure for others ?? idk actually) to read whether or not sm1 is being #like. just sharing what they think vs them trying to bait out people who will defend smth they like #idk ive been trying to find ffxiv people to follow bc getting back into the game and finally being confident in my art to draw for it also #has me looking for ppl to follow but i wanna avoid the big livetweet first time experiencers and unfortunately that leaves #a lot of people who are afraid of dawntrail/unhappy with the current patch quests #of which i am neither and i also dont want to log on to the internet every day just to see ppl shitting on things u know ?#and i have seen a LOT of like #'x sucked' and 'fandom lacks critical reading skills' and whatnot #but then u see what theyre talking abt and all theyre doing is shitting on the game itself or going 'x expansion was mid'#like . if u stopped phrasing ur opinions as objective fact i feel like maybe ud avoid half those arguments id k???#just words #SORRY im talkative today the truth is i worked on a drawing veyr hard and i do not have the strength to colour it but it will not look good #without colour and i feel like i cant move on without it so i went and replayed shadowbringers instead and cried a lot #and now i have lots of icarus feelings again #WOW loiok at me writing an essay out here i overshare so much im sorry

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thedreadvampy · 1 year ago

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oh boy the depression hole is deep and it is muddy

hahaha I fell into the classic trap! overidentify with your job and considering leaving it will trigger an existential crisis!!!!

#red said #i think it's really fucking happening #i got lunch with my work bff yesterday. she's seriously looking for her next thing.#2 other people in our 9 man team have told me in confidence they're looking elsewhere as well #the work bff is a team manager and she's like yeah I'm helping everyone buff up their CVs and think about what they want #and i. do not think my boss is coming back.#she's extended her mat leave by 2 months already. i think she stepped away and realised. rightly. there's more to life than this shit.#it's not that the organisation is downsizing or any of us are in danger of redundancy #but the vibe has changed big time. it's so much more corporate and less interested in lived experience.#i think the proportion of people in senior management who have even second hand experience with homelessness is shrinking #like the last time our CEO did frontline work was like 1990. and they're expanding the management team constantly #but they're all outside hires and not people who've done frontline or community work. they're the career charity worker types.#the only things keeping me are. i want to at least get to that initial union open meeting and get the ball rolling enough #that it might have a cat's chance in hell of happening without me #and i want to get gears turning in the EDI group to get a commitment a) to acknowledge that we have a whiteness problem #and b) i want to use the funding for LGBTQ inclusion work to kickstart a project where we convene a cross-sector working group #maybe quarterly. where people working in homelessness and social support can discuss best practise for trans inclusivity #in one of the sectors where trans people are most disadvantaged in seeking support #but like if i can get movement on those things I'm fucking gone. cause the bits of my job that are my actual job?#i am getting nothing out of it now

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thiriumhound · 7 months ago

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heya!! for the fandom asks: 7 + 16!

dang you were quick! (yeah i saw u send this in like RIGHT after i rbd the post but uhhh yeah i took a min ^^;; sry 4 the wait!) aaaanyway ok!

7 (your favorite tropes to read/write/draw) - ohhhh boy it's gotta be like. angst. angst galore. whump. hurt/comfort. if there's no pain there's no spice. i don't typically like interpersonal drama too much tho (as much as i praise it out loud sfkld) bc it gets to me xD i like when a character is hurt, hides it, then gets support in the end (or it's too late...) anyway yeah no pain no gain 🤘 i swear i have other tastes i just forgot rn ngl SDLKFJS

16 (a tiny detail in canon that you want more people to appreciate) - uhhh off the top of my head the fact that connor loses his tie for no reason after cyberlife tower! to me that implies he doesn't actually like it/it's connected to his life in cyberlife for him. it also could've just come off in whatever conflict got blue blood on his jacket tho (yeah it's there if u look w freecam). also not a tiny detail but if everyone could notice connor's usage of words like "gonna" it would be epic- WAIT NO I HAVE A BETTER ONE. EVERYONE ACKNOWLEDGE CONNOR'S EYEBROWS RIGHT NOW THEY'RE SO IMPORTANT HE EXPRESSES SO MUCH W THEM IM CRAZY IM INSANE im so sorry every other character in the game i have a connor addiction. uhhh also markus actually basically never smiles after leaving carl iirc why don't we pay attention to that too <3 i don't have any kara fun facts except salty ones so oop... ah is it okay i gave u 50 fun facts instead of one l o l man i feel like i didn't choose good ones either 😭 might come back and scream some more if i remember smth good. tho tbh uhhh actually i can think of 50 more but theyre all just "look at this microexpression connor made in scene 235" and that's. a bit pathetic LOL

anyway the ask game if anyone else wants to send me more <333333333 https://thiriumhound.tumblr.com/post/747618958223540224

#thiriumhowls #actually just thought of another one has anyone else noticed how connor's explanations as to what deviants are make no fucking sense #either it's the game's shit writing as usual or cyberlife fed him elusive bullshit to make him feel knowledgeable without risking giving hi #info that could lead him to deviancy #and imo that's beautiful #connor rk800 #markus rk200 #im not confident abt that markus fact it's just iirc. connor is my guy so i don't memorize markus stuff as much #and yeah kara. my fun fact for her is that she only mentions her dreams and aspirations outside of alice once in one optional dialogue #so yeah that's. salty. lol #maybe there's another time i missed but that is. ur player character's central dreams is not smth ur supposed to be able 2 miss 😭#this was all written with no prep as im sure is obvious as helll i just didn't want this collecting any more dust 😢😢#detroit: become human #asks

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knifegremliin · 9 months ago

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on my hands and knees begging for my body to let me sleep. please. please. just let me fucking sleep what do you WANT FROM ME.

#🔪.text #i woke up. at 2 a-fucking-m #and i am not confident that i ever fell back asleep.#i have been waking up at 4-5 am almost every day for the past week.#why.#and for reference i am going to sleep at around 10-10:30.#which is. yes. very early. believe me i'd be staying up later if i could #if i had the energy #AND IF I COULD DO SO WITHOUT SACRIFICING FUCKING SLEEP #but clearly i can't fucking do that!!!!#even 10 isn't fucking early enough with how my body's been!!!#literally the only thing i can think of is around the same time this started is the same time i started going off one of my meds #so MAYBE it's related??? i don't know.#or it could be i'm just getting too hot. because i have woken up really sweaty every time.#but this time i tried using a lighter blanket (aka a sheet) and it was fucking worse!!!#and i was even hotter!#so i don't know what the fuck i'm supposed to do!!#because there's nothing i can do about the temp of the house because my mom will not allow it to go below 73 #and she's still turning the heat on at night #i guess i've never actually asked if we can drop the temp at night #but i just figure the answer will be no so.#maybe i'll just try to cover my vent at night #because it's just been way too warm for the heat to be on #ugh.#anyway lol.#i am. so tired.

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beeapocalypse · 9 months ago

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very rough idea for the pantheon of nonsense dungeon is that the existence dragons final wish+thought was to LINGER in a way that would never go away. as many lies thule may tell and as much as they may try to mold reality in their own image they are still working with its own clay. itd lead to a thule that is a lot more haunted + high strung bc every single second they are painfully aware of their parents being imbued in every single bit of reality and of its corpse just Hanging there u know

#nonsense dungeon info #the idea of lingering for the existence dragon is almost entirely to justify far more present+put together ghosts in--#--the setting lol they dont really have that definition of 'self' just as the existence dragons works change over time but theyre still--#--very much There if that makes sense #taking the honey sweet idea of them putting horse blinders on their helmet to stop seeing the corpse everywhere they looked and stretching-#--it to the extreme where theyve completely entombed themself in their armor maybe. no sight no smell no hearing no taste no touch just--#--a massive metal juggernaut lurking blind in their own respite. completely cut off from reality theyll just make decrees and shit without-#--any Context beyond keeping up appearanceswithout even being able to enjoy any of the worship of being the supposed wellspring #also like the idea that this sort of set up (pre encasing) would lead to them treating fluisau as WAY more of a personal confidant like--#--straigh tup telling them about the existence dragon+their deceit and then eventually freaking out over the realization of just how much--#--power over them fluisaus got now so they banish them 2 the moon or smth. no stomach for killing but they CANNOT allow the truth to come--#--out because of how just getting to that point has hurt them. it wouldnt mean anything if they were exposed

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bitchfitch · 1 year ago

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i just got done with my third chiro appointment, and like. I've noticed a significant improvement in terms of how much pain I'm in but I'm also noticing i can't like. stay sitting up. I can sit, which isn't always the case, but the muscles in my back are so loosey goosey/ not responding/ spasming that I keep curling forward until my head is almost pressed to the bed in front of me while I'm sitting cross legged. Don't know what that's about but it's affecting productivity something awful.

#like #i have shockingly good muscle tone considering how little i can move so this isnt a strength issue.#Ish. Like. the thing with eds is that if you have it severe enough your muscles have to pick up the slack for your ligaments #which results in you building way more muscle than you would expect #I cant lift more than 25lbs in like a bag or something without dislocating my elbows/shoulders #but i can bench 180~ and barbell squat my own weight #its just a matter of not pulling on anything #Tbh i think this is just the level of Nonsense that happens when my muscles arnt constantly tense.#my ligament structure isnt sturdy enough to work without that extra reinforcement #Anyways ive needed a back brace since i was 12 but insurance wont pay for it and like fuck am i able to shell out the 20k myself.#Ive looked into corsets but my proportions are so weird that id need a custom pattern #which is Pricey to get from a reputable company. like 2-3k which is better than 20. but still out of reach.#Im not confident enough in my drafting ability to make one myself.#seeing ms.banner. a real and skilled seamstress who knows what shes doing. lay herself out with a bad corset pattern is kinda #a good sign that maybe i an idiot whos sewing experience is stuffed animals and quilts. should not fuck around with my spinal health #I think id be more comfortable doing it myself if there were more mens corset patterns and more examples of how non #lingerie mens corsets are like. meant to work #i dont exactly need bust support. and most women's corsets dont have the shoulder support mens do. and thats like.#the area im most scared about fucking up bc its already a nightmare #tbh when i get the sg shop open im putting all the profits into a savings account and just working hard to get the budget to pay #for a proper corset.

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devotioncrater · 1 year ago

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#i. hope i get accepted to this one residential program #maybe if i'm under observation 24/7 for 30+ days someone can figure out what is wrong with me #'why dont you take your meds? why don't you start working out?' how do i explain that i WANT to??#that i would do those things if it weren't for the void block?? how do i say that without making it sound like an excuse???#my sister's been consistently working out every day for 2 months and she's dropped weight and clothes fit her #and i'm jealous because in two months i became a size bigger #like she went down a size & i went up a size. i'm DOUBLE her size now #but she's SO happy about her progress + her body + her confidence while always high is at an all time high #and i am proud of her!!!! i'm so happy for her!!!! genuinely!!!#but privately i'm. extremely jealous of everything she's got going on #not just her confidence or related to working out either. it's deadass EVERYTHING #she's got a 4.5 GPA; she's well-liked socially; she has friends; she's in club activities; her humor is unmatched; she's positive #idk how to explain that whenever i see her i feel like that she is the ghost of who i should've been when i was her age

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kkujo · 1 year ago

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also idk i feel so fucking good abt myself idk genuinely being consistent with my gym routine has done everything for my mental health and confidence like i still feel bad abt myself sometimes but for the first time since i was probably 9 i'm having days where i look in the mirror and thinking DAMN i look good and those days are getting more frequent it's really the best feeling

#and it's not just the weight loss like. being overweight was such a struggle for me esp bc i've had issues w eds and stuff and.#idk it made me miserable. and i wasn't the healthiest bc i'd gained a lot due to pcos and my periods were irregular etc like it wasn't good #and now i'm medicated and fuck man my period is regular now and my weight is more normal and i just feel like. good abt that #bc i spent so long being unable to lose bc of my hormones and it was so disheartening bc i was doing everything 'right'#i feel a little bad talking abt it bc ik it's a sensitive topic and i have had issues w eds i obv don't think weighing less makes u healthy #etc etc. for me it was the healthy thing to lose what i've lost so i'm proud of that and i did all of that mostly without relapsing #over 2 years and i've had like. maybe a month of relapse total over that time and each time i've come out of it after a week or two #so i'm definitely stronger mentally etc BUT. my point is. the confidence hasn't come from trying to be smaller #and now i'm actively trying to build muscle and for the first time ever my confidence comes from looking BIGGER bc i want muscle growth etc #the confidence truly comes from within and when i was overweight i started to give myself that confidence #by starting to wear cute clothes and stop hiding my body #it is so true that losing weight won't make you like yourself or your body.#like. you can lose weight if you want but you HAVE to respect yourself first. i lost a lot of weight unhealthily in 2019 and regained it #& bc i did it out of self hatred i NEVER felt better abt myself when i got smaller. you rlly have to be able to love yourself as you are rn #it's cliche but very very true #anyway i don't rlly talk abt this stuff on here bc ik it's a sensitive topic but!!!#i really would recommend weightlifting and strength training if you wanna feel more confident #ik it won't work for everyone but for me it's genuinely transformed the way i see myself.#i no longer try to force myself to be as small as possible. and for me that's everything yk #ALSO LIKE. THE MENTAL HEALTH ASPECTS. just having the routine and getting exercise and getting out every day rlly helps too #i really would recommend it i've never felt better or more confident abt myself #the only thing is unfortunately and it's a very real problem but gym/gym bro culture often leans v close to e/d culture #it really sucks bc a lot of gym folks genuinely do love it and are very healthy with it #but the chicken and rice gym bro types are pretty rampant too and there's a LOT of dysmorphia and such in the community #so i kind of avoid gym bro circles for that reason bc i do think a lot of people take it too far and are very mentally unhealthy with it #but weightlifting/going gym in itself isn't the problem and if you're eating properly & taking care of yourself it's not gonna be like that #it's just knowing the types of ppl to avoid bc a lot of the mindset is pretty toxic 😭😭 but there are def a lot of ppl who do it healthily #like. i understand why people do it but i'm kind of against bulking/cutting at least for myself #bc for me it's not abt looking as strong as possible it's abt being fit and healthy physically & mentally if i look buff asf that's a bonus #but a lot of ppl take bulks/cuts too far & a lot of it is just regurgitated e/d shit unfortunately. just b careful who you interact with

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