#may you find li'l pockets of ~joy~ 🌟 in your season of darkness

[softheartscribes]

Ever since I left Christianity about...oh, three years ago?

Christmas has been...

Strange.

A lingering, can't-quite-put-my-finger-on-it, unsureness.

Not welcome.

SURE:

I love the ~aesthetic~.

I love decorating.

And yeah; I knowww it's commercialized.

Buuut??

I was raised in a Christian home.

Sure: there was fun, family, presents, food!

But the core of it was Jesus.

How He "came into the world" as a humble babe to save us.

(Hark! The Herald Angel Sings™️!)

Nowww...

There's no.Jesus.

(Frankly: I'm sick of Jesus.)

Sure, you can divert your focus. (Love. Joy. Light.) That's fine! (You do you, booboo.)

But me...

I'm just...

Not in the mood??

And?

I don't know if I'll ever be in the "mood" again.