#mavs meds

[narutomaki]

third day on meds: everything has been the same! I'm managing to get things done because they need to be done and it makes me feel good to have gotten them done

it's so bizarre! if this is my new normal whole medicated I could certainly get used to it :^)

non medication related but I was in a lot of pain today in my knees and was in kind of a bad mood because of it, but I didn't lay in bed all day and got up and moved (good in this case for my pain (at least my Dr says so)). I also got an oil burn in the webbing between two of my fingers on my left hand. jules was my fucking saving grace with coping with it

all in all a solid 6/10 day! mostly bcus of the pain influencing my mood.... but I got the stuff I told myself to do today done and it feels good to have done it. going from 2/10 days to 7 or even 8 out of 10? fucking astronomical.

I've also become more chatty and less anxious about saying kind things. which is FUCKING GREAT bcus the main problem with these meds could have been an increase in my anxiety.

[narutomaki]

day 2 of adhd medication;

took before work shift again kicked in around the time I got home again to I swept and cleaned the kitchen and animal areas, then swept my room and cleaned up my desk like I told myself I would, then made and did lunch dishes, coded a couple dozen lines for my website and spent most of the day giving myself a headache (foreshadowing) bcus of the push update lag, read a bit more of a book then decided it wasn't really for me, biked for 10 minutes, did my stretches in the morning b4 the meds kicked in, got really down around 5pm before making dinner and after eating but it turns out staring at my phone and laptop all day squinting and leaning in to double check code strings gave me an actual headache and hurt my lower back a bit, took some pain meds and my mood improved a little, helped my roommate fill out some really important documentation, ice cream time

over all my mood was good I'm still happy about being able to do stuff it's so novel I'll do something without thinking that would usually drive me near tears bcus I wasn't able to just do it and I'll stop and be like "wow! I just did that! go me!"

almost no anxiety today despite almost getting hit at work bcus drivers have 0 fucking consideration or actual knowledge or the rules of crosswalks and they want me dead for holding them up for an extra minute sooooo badly ♡♡♡♡

[narutomaki]

day 1 of adhd meds: cleaned and reorganized my kitchen counters, cleaned up after the animals, reorganized some electric waste, folded and washed morr laundry to hang to dry, showered, made my bed, shaved, cozy in bed , mositurized, edited the css and html on my SDVCCB website, emailed important email (1), went to the new coffee shop (yum), made dinner (involved), did dishes right away after eating, mmm what else.... did yoga!

and it all felt GOOD I feel ACCOMPLISHED is this what my mum was always telling me about.... damn. should had me tested and medicated for adhd than ya bitch.

mood was a solid 5 to 7 all day, no extreme highs or lows, anxiety levels about the same or lower

wasn't able to sit down and read anything too involved (normal) but I was able to separate and glean the information I needed for desired task (basic coding)