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EMERAUDE TOUBIA + MATT DADDARIO

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Coming Out...Again

I’ve been going thru a lot lately. And by lately I mean the last few years. I’ll skip over the mental health stuff, and the sexual assault stuff bc while it is quite relevant it’s not the point of this. (And if you’re really curious stalk my blog or my twitter I’m quite open about everything) 

I’ve been, not quite terrified, and maybe not ashamed, but something. I have never given myself permission to feel how I really feel. To allow myself to even think of the possibility. 

I know I’m being super vague. Apologies. I’m not sure even how to say what I need to. 

About a month ago I took a 2 week hiatus from my main account on twitter. I knew I was on the verge of a breakdown and I didn’t know how to deal with it with the constant streams of tweets. 20+ years of repressed emotions and realities and thoughts and dreams came crashing down on me all at once and I knew I couldn’t run away anymore. The debilitating anxiety was a wake up call that I shouldn’t run away anymore. 

So I started to verbally express what I was thinking to a friend who has been in kinda the same situation. And he had some suggestions. But mostly he just let me talk bc I’d never said these things out loud. Never let myself believe I could. So I talked. And talked. And imagined what it would be like to finally be myself. 

I came out when I was 17-I’m 35 now. And I never in a million years thought I’d ever be back in the closet. But in reality I never left, not really. 

But as I watched the show Shadowhunters, and became more and more attached to Harry Shum Jr’s Magnus, and more and more invested in Matthew Daddario’s Alec, I realized that I was in a fandom of acceptance. And I had 4 men who embraced the truest self. And I had never felt more at peace with being okay with who I am. I know that’s a lot to put on 2 strangers, but it’s very existential to watch characters, queer characters, who have broken out of their shell, and love themselves. Two actors who have embraced and been embraced by the queer community so whole heartedly. And if they can do that just by playing a part, then I can stop playing a part and be real. 

My therapist doesn’t know. I never know how to say it. My best friends don’t know bc they know this 1 version of me, and not my whole self and how do I tell them I’m not exactly who I even thought I was? 

After extensive research and Tumblr stalking and googling and soul searching I know now. 

I’m genderfluid. It’s so exhilarating to say it out loud. To know I can. To know who I am. I’ve always felt like part of me was male. I’ve always said my voice sounds male. I’ve always felt like I should have a penis. But I never let myself ever really imagine a world where that would be allowed. But I’m also female. I take pride in my femininity. I think my boobs are great. I’m far less thrilled with my vagina but not because I hate being a girl just bc it’s not all the useful. (Yeh kids but by the time I have the opportunity I’ll probably be too old anyway). 

I bought a packer, a suggestion by Steph, the guy I talked to about this, and when I pressed the checkout button it just felt right. This is who I am. And I won’t be ashamed or afraid anymore. It’ll take some time to get used to other personal pronouns, but I’ll go by any. Which ever makes the person using them feel more comfortable. 

It’s funny really. When I was in my early 20s i have a gender identity crisis.  I started doing drag to help me figure things out.  At the time I knew I appreciated my female body very much.  I remember enjoying the feeling of packing, I was even complimented on it.  I couldn’t identity why that thrilled me.  I didn’t know of anything more than Male/Female/Trans then.  Perhaps if I knew about all the different gender labels i would have been able to find myself earlier. 

I ran away from drag when I stopped doing it.  I was beyond ashamed of my behavior during that time  ( I didn’t know it was the undiagnosed bipolar).  But i decided I had learned enough to know that I was a woman and that was that.  I hid that part of my life the best I could.  I wouldnt let myself be reminded of a time when my body and my brain made sense, becuase i couldnt make sense of it, so ignoring it and repressing it was the only option.

Lately though, as I’m going through photos, I see the ones from my drag days, and I smile, bc I’m no longer ashamed, no longer scared to see myself like that.

I’ve chosen a male name for myself for the times when it’s a male day. Yoni. My middle name is Yonit, so it isn’t such a stretch. It’s not something I’ll likely use publicly, but it’s something so I don’t feel so trapped. 

Please feel free to keep calling me Elisheva, or Elle as I’m mostly known on Twitter. But if I make a public announcement about what I am that day please respect my pronouns as best you can. 

I know this is new & will take getting used to but I couldn’t let this be buried or bury me anymore. 

To Harry & Matt: you have inspired me to be my best self. To be my true self. I don’t think I would have even had the courage to admit this to myself if not for you. You have changed, saved my life. I’m out & proud, and unabashedly me. 

Thanks for reading. I’ll try to be a mostly open book about things. Send me asks or what not if you want/need.

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