#marimo pls write something for your senior thesis

[marimopeace]

d. gray-man still fucks me up...

in the best of ways, even after all these years plus breaks on my end as a fan and hoshino's circumstances.

loved all things gothic and fantasy in middle school to escape my life via power-wielding teens (i.e. 07-ghost, pandora hearts, soul eater, karneval, hakkenden, etc.) and d.gray-man was huge for me since i was still in a phase where i was binging all the long anime series i could since it gave my attn span something to latch onto and be immersed in for a good amount of time. tbh i can't tell if my attn span has gotten even shorter considering i usually substitute streaming social media videos over tv nowadays or better since i'm able to better sustain interests in specific niche things?

i switched to consuming content on a more seasonal basis in high school but i became more of a manga reader so at the time i was still on the nose for the rare new d.gray-man chapter. i was so excited for when hallow was announced! i think the hallow promo visuals + posters were some of the last things i shared on my old tumblr blog actually lmao. didn't love hallow as a show but i loved it for what it brought back to me in terms of bringing hoshino's drawings to life via sound + color and seeing ppl turn into fans via gifs in comment sections. that's part of the reason why the furuba reboot meant a lot to me too tbh! always so nice when you can see new and old fans come together to show artists the love they deserve <3

took a break from d.gray-man specifically since the searching for a.w. arc was just a lot for me to take in chapter by chapter since it was hard to keep track of intricate plot details without needing to re-read some chapters for every release and that's not how i enjoy content personally. and i guess from there life just kind of ? came and went? college + growing up in general with new life obligations have changed the way i pursue entertainment aha.

i don't know what switched it on but i ended up spending this past weekend going through everything from scratch! i haven't sat down to marathon 100+ chapters/episodes of anything in a long time since i either keep up with shorter serials now or keep up with things on a monthly basis and wowwww the immersion hit different this time fr XD i swear i felt like a kid again!

but wow going through the entire manga + anime bit by bit from my new position in life really made me appreciate hoshino's storytelling a lot more; it's not so much that the plot of d.gray-man aged well, but that the whole series works together to tell one of the most cohesive stories i've seen for a fantasy shonen (esp with such a young protagonist--allen is the age of a high school sophomore!!!!!! a literal child!!!! someone be on his side kthxJohnny).

when i say i went through bit by bit i MEAN IT i fully had a list of episodes via wikipedia out and i was going through chapter arcs as they were recreated in the old anime series i went in completely XD god i'm crazy.

but it felt so sweet and so wonderful to dive into the adventure head-on.

i'm trying to do the same with the hallow sequel but reading/watching d.gray-man like this is really making me see how rushed it was ^^; it's taking more chapters to get to where each episode of hallow ends and i get why hoshino was so peeved with both shows now to be honest for the out of order details or skipping of content.

i'm also really resonating with hoshino's anger towards TMS for the hallow promo materials and i get why she went as far as to shoot their bank accounts in the foot bc the way i started tearing up during hallow episode 6 with talk of the lotus, flashbacks, and the hand reaching up to the sky....ㅠㅠ #bigoop

kanda shouldn't have been shoved into a yaoi narrative for the sake of money (nor allen esp considering his age) since it completely goes against his character arc and everything he is with alma. i'm getting so fucked up by their past lives' love story and their current again like when i say the tears i'm shedding come from something so old and deep inside of me ㅠㅠ (oh lorde it's so sad!!)

i had to pause my marathon since i spent my monday without wifi bc of a storm in my area and it'll prob be a while until i can finish re-reading/watching until the end of hallow. i'm excited to read new saying goodbye to a.w chapters though! i know it'll definitely be worth waiting these past few years <3 seeing allen's character growth as he matured as a "destroyer who saves" and how he grapples w mana's influence is fascinating and exploring the nitty-gritty of the morality that pervades the Black Order is just! ugh love this kind of worldbuilding with strong characters sm

planning this next content binge will be tricky though since i meant to catch up on the furuba reboot before it ends next week...welp i'll see how this goes ^^;

// time to get to writing this thesis marimo! //

[marimopeace]

i downloaded genshin impact (mobile) and ah someone save me from what i think i will become...

i haven't played an open world game since i was like 15 and i think i'm about to become such a fixated unproductivity monster oh my

these visuals! are! unimaginable!!!! esp considering that i'm playing this on my small phone screen and my v nearsighted (and astigmatic) eyes can make out everything from the sparkling trail left by butterflies to item drops while my ears are graced by such a whimsical and peaceful soundtrack.

it's been maybe 2 hours (i think bc it's been a few rick and morty episodes in the background now lol) since i downloaded this and it's already past the start of my "sleep window" to reset my sleep cycle bc #insomniathings i'm cackling

it's actually really nice to just do something mindless and still get such fulfillment versus me trying to figure out what to do to fill my time and becoming a jaded hipster since i'm not actively interested in my usual go-tos rn lol.

i've fiddled w amber and i think this girl is adorable (red is my irl trademark + i love strong confident women) but this aim fn isn't it so i'll stick w my mossball-named traveler with her sword for now <3

tl;dr marimo is super happy rn bc this is a lot of fun but also big u.u bc i really need to be prepping this senior thesis aHA

[marimopeace]

update: more episodes of rick and morty have started and finished anddddddd it is now about to be 3am when i definitely said i would put the game down (aka when i went to ramble this post out) around midnight so ^^;

i guess that's what i get for doing a side quest i was too underleveled to do and then going through my inventory and needing to gather raw materials/cook in order to stock back up u.u

i downloaded genshin impact (mobile) and ah someone save me from what i think i will become...

i haven't played an open world game since i was like 15 and i think i'm about to become such a fixated unproductivity monster oh my

these visuals! are! unimaginable!!!! esp considering that i'm playing this on my small phone screen and my v nearsighted (and astigmatic) eyes can make out everything from the sparkling trail left by butterflies to item drops while my ears are graced by such a whimsical and peaceful soundtrack.

it's been maybe 2 hours (i think bc it's been a few rick and morty episodes in the background now lol) since i downloaded this and it's already past the start of my "sleep window" to reset my sleep cycle bc #insomniathings i'm cackling

it's actually really nice to just do something mindless and still get such fulfillment versus me trying to figure out what to do to fill my time and becoming a jaded hipster since i'm not actively interested in my usual go-tos rn lol.

i've fiddled w amber and i think this girl is adorable (red is my irl trademark + i love strong confident women) but this aim fn isn't it so i'll stick w my mossball-named traveler with her sword for now <3

tl;dr marimo is super happy rn bc this is a lot of fun but also big u.u bc i really need to be prepping this senior thesis aHA