#mannn I miss this art style

[fishpea]

some 2019/2020 fluttercord & uhhhh what’s their ship name—

[corvidcleric]

[start i.d.: a drawing of lark and sparrow oak done in yellows and blues. in the foreground, in their soccer uniforms, they lean back to back with their arms crossed. they’re smiling, colored in yellow and framed by a gold explosion shape. behind them, faded in the color of the background, are their adult selves looking out vacantly. end i.d.]

you’re just a boy you are no man and nobody you know will understand

[vampslxsher]

Looking up old early 2000s shoujo romance art for artstyle researcchh. I miss that style mannn sobs.

[faithbayless4d23]

Reading and Response #2

Gifs: "Is it pronounced Gifs or Jifs"

Back in 2011, I was in Highschool and in my free time I was on Tumblr constantly. I was there for the trending fashion and makeup trends, free porn, memes, and the GIFs. The biggest debate between my best friend and me was how to pronounce GIF, it was never settled. 

I’ve since retired from Tumblr, with the exception of this class.  

I never thought twice or respected GIFS as an art form. In this week's readings, I now understand that GIFS are so much more than funny clips to be shared with friends but allow us to express ourselves regardless of whether an individual considers them to be a work of art or not, as described by neodigitalarts web article.

In the reading, one example that caught my eye of how GIFS are gaining a respected reputation as a fine art form was the work featured in Tapered Throne’s documentary, carried out by Brandon Tauszik. The documentary focuses on simply filming an interview, Tauszik has chosen to provide aesthetically pleasing GIFs alongside the spotlight and audio interviews. The GIFs are produced to extremely high quality, making the reader forget that these are GIFs and not short videos.

Net.Art is complicated to me, but when looking at the reading we can kind of understand the complexity of this new format by observing its history and relating it to how we value meme culture and social media within our generation. We can better understand emotion by expressing ourselves by sharing memes, reblogging GIFS, or forwarding a Tik Tok more than we can by simply replying with words. Understanding this puts value on the art process that goes into creating popular GIFS, because they evoke emotion and nostalgia by capturing seconds of a specific moment.

This GIF of Van Gogh's work transitioning into one portrait into another is beautiful to see his style co-exist.

uuuhh... Bob Ross, is obviously a 'fabulous' example of a GIF. But also because Bob Ross evokes happy emotions and nostalgia in his little positive catch phrases.

Miss Kitty asking for a light: I feel like this GIF is great because it references smoke culture but also the popular TV show, That 70s Show.

I love this GIF because it is trippy mannn... but seriously the repeated cycle of movement creates an optical illusion an creates a falling motion.

This GIF captures an intimate moment that communicates relatable and nostalgic feelings of sexuality.

If I was in need of affection I'd hope my best friend would send this GIF to me.

This GIF represents me taking 'just a couple of pictures' of my baby who just wants to escape.

Beautiful combination of traditional art and GIFs.

So satisfying...

[mgs3dickeater]

mannn i like my current style i think its fine but i really do miss the brushes from my old art program. like it sucked ass im glad i switched but it had like 300 completely unique brushes just given to you for free built in . god i miss you

[doctorclown]

this isn’t me trying to be annoying but mannn I miss 90’s anime.. I miss the unique art style it had and the angular designs and faces with super detailed features, I feel like a lot of (not all, obviously) anime looks the same now and all the women are drawn to look SUPER fucking young which really creeps me out

[nyrator]

My art from 2010-2019, a favorite piece from every year. Just realized, it’s every year of my adult life so far, ages 18-28, huh. Was going to wait until New Years to post it, but hey, might as well post it now~

Looking back at my old art is both nice and painful. Lots of pieces I still really like, and a bunch that just leave me with blehs. Also lots of vanity drawings, like a looooot, think it was basically what lead to RN being made so I can distance myself a liiittle bit vanity-wise. Also, a lot of attempts at trying to vent about some complex I have in different ways, all of it is terrible art that I never like to think about but make way too much of and worry too much about.

Now for lots of more ramblings

Got my art tablet for my 19th birthday in 2010, now that I think about it- drew that freaking blanket with a mouse, huh. Haven’t really done much in analog drawing since leaving school, actually.

My favorite picture will continue to be that you&me one from 2013, after that felt like some kind of turning point where I lost interest in art compared to how I used to feel about it. I feel like Shadow of Doubt from 2018 is close to replacing it as favorite, but the Childare one just... nostalgic or something at this point. 2014 feels so close in time- it’s when I started doing console-tan art, when I met Kresna, a game boy dev interested in console-tans at the time. Funny how life works like that. The past few years are just a blur, but he’s made them good.

I miss passionately and obsessively focusing over minor details like in that Epicene picture from 2011. I think about my old projects like Epicene. I like the concept still, but mann was it heavy-handed and dumb. “Oh hey focus on making the world epicene and androgynous! Make a soapbox for all my feeling-based ideals and add some edginess to it as well!” and then basically the internet happened and left a bad taste in my mouth (too many fractions and building walls rather than tearing them down, but I’m just rambling now)

all the old projects I had over the years: you&me (still cling to the hope of finishing it someday), Anecdotes of a Happy Place, those spiral brothers, Epicene, Sleepover!, Kirkos, Skatered, Ploom, Gekitan (or whatever I call console-tans anymore), Rotten Nyan...

I should talk about the cancelled ones in detailed sometime, maybe, if I still remember.

that 2012 art reminds me of how I really just liked experimenting back then and absorbing other people’s techniques, that’s something I’ve stopped doing lately too.

I feel that with Rotten Nyan, this past year or two, I’ve finally settled on something resembling a consistent style, so that’s neat I think. Backgrounds and body language have hit an all time low, though, as have shading and stuff. Should be more outgoing again, perhaps. It really feels like my art’s stagnated to me, like, have I really improved at all over the years, y’know? The only thing it feels like is that I’ve gotten more comfortable being lazier and sloppier, I guess.

The second half of 2019 has not been good to me. I still haven’t recovered art-wise. I want some passion to make things again, but my brainstorming and ideas feel all dried up at this point. Anxiety also brewed this year, to the point where I can’t enjoy movies anymore without feeling like my blood is frozen and out of sync, and it’s very hard to think of ideas without feeling chest discomfort and pain, so I’ve been shying away from being creative lately. We shall see how 2020 treats me.

Mannn.

2010- Graduated high school, worked as a camp counselor, went to college, father died, started You May/you&me

2011- Broken down, dropped out of college, a best friend dies, absorb a lot of college debt and house dept from my late father, beginning of NEET life, got a tumblr

2012- NEET life continues, friendships vanish, decide to suicide if still NEET by 21, get job interview on 21st birthday, Walmart suffering begins

2013- First cat Oreo dies, quit Walmart in response, depressed NEET life continues, become “nyrator”

2014- built new computer with last of savings, depressed NEET life continues to continue, got Blacky the floof, start drawing console-tans, find a community online that also enjoys them, met future boyfriend

2015- get job at flower shop, fall out of console community (still made some good friends), future boyfriend disappears thanks to also falling out from said community previously, mother breaks her neck and basically forces me into relying only on myself

2016- things start to blur but build strong friendships with future boyfriend after mutual friend reunites us, also bought a car

2017- yeah no still a blur but joined YN DDJ discord which is pretty sweet, also still have super cool best friend/future boyfriend

2018- DDD is still pretty sweet, also met future boyfriend in person for first time and started dating, now he’s potentially future husband, started Rotten Nyan

2019- more RN but more hardcore depression again, two cats died, lost house, got apartment and driver’s license, went to Canada, and travelled around with Kresna a nice amount, bunch of crazy bad stuff the past few months like car accidents and stuff but hey

missed huge chunks of stuff but hey sue me

probably a bunch of sister drama in-between there but she’s still in jail at the moment so best not to think about her

on a completely random note, mannn, it’s been years since I’ve last fenced. I miss fencing. Casual French dry foil for life, baby.