#mann nhi lgta

[siya-sayani]

He asked me yesterday, " how did uk u love me?" I told him, " when I used to think of dying, I just thought of how I would miss your smile and how much I would crave for your touch in heaven or hell. And that just stopped me from killing myself."

[hinsaa-paramo-dharma]

Duniya saari idhar se udhar chali jayegi

But delhi ka science museum renovate nahi hoga.

[tranquilsoulsworld]

Tere aane ki khushi bhi hai aur gam bhi hai,

Kuki jaanti hu tune fir chale jaana hai.

Chahti toh hu ki rok lu apne aap ko teri baaton me aane se lekin fir bhaagi chali jaati huj.

Jaane ku aisa lagta hai tu sab janta hai, fir bhi andekha kr deta hai, mai nhi maanti koi kisi se pyaar kare aur tuje smj tak na aae.

Aur agr sab jaane ke baad bhi nhi hona hai ek, toh ku he fir wps aajata hai. Shyd nhi hai tuje pyaar lekin iss dil me bhi toh thoda reham kr, himmat nhi hai iss dil me, kitni baar ek he insaan se tudwau ye dil.

Tuje kya pta tera muje nazar-andaaj krna tak meri neend uda deta tha hafto tak ki, tere iss andaaz ne muje kitna rulaya hai tu kha hai abhi isse rubaru.

Maza aata hai tadpaane me ya sahi me koi bhanak nhi?... Agr bhanak nhi toh ku vo sab eye contact ku vo tera ek baar jaate jaate mud kr dekh he lena, kuuuuuu?

Mumkin nhi ki mai pyaar kru aur tuje bhanak bhi na padi ho, sab jaan kr tod rha hai na muje, tuje khushi mil rhi hai isse? Chal teri khushi ke liye tut bhi jaaenge aur marr bhi jaaenge, lekin yaad rkhiyo tadpi hu mai tere pyaar ke liye.

Pyaar wyaar me kabhi dhyaan nhi diya tha maine isse pehle, na smj aata tha, bs lekin ek din uhee ptani kaise tere aane jaane ki khabar rkhne ka dil krne lga, ptani kaise tera mere harr sapne me aana muje teri or kheech-ta rha.

Tera sapno me aana muje khushi bhi deta tha aur rona bhi, khush hoti thi tera sapne ke baare me soch kr aur roti thi ki ye sab jhoot hai.

Koi mazakiya pyaar nhi hai mera, asaan hai kya tuje bina btae, bina baat kiye, tuje bina bhanak pade, tuje 5 saal tak chahna?

Nhi lgta muje ab kabhi hoga muje pyaar ab agr Tu nhi toh bs samjhauta hoga, mann toh hai ek baar iss samjhaute se pehle tuje bta du, lekin kya pta tu kis mazak me lele mera itna serious pyaar, kuki agr mazaak me le liya toh kya pta zindagi se he na tut jaau.

Logo ke rehte honge pyaar unke dil me, Tu mere dil, dimag, aankh, hoth, pair harr jgha hai... Kaunsi jgha hai jo muje dard nhi deta ye soch kr ki tu shyd mera hai he nhi.

Mann krta hai sab bol du, lekin sala smj he nhi aata aise kaise bol du, kabhi toh tu bhi koi proper hint de ki mai ek kadam aage badd saku, ku rok rkha hai muje aise janjeero me,

Bta du agr tuje toh mazak toh nhi banaega?

Agr teri naa hui toh kisi ko toh nhi btaega?

Kya tu mere dil ki baat smj bhi paaega?

-Ritz. G

[all-yours-prince-blog]

❤PERFECT US❤ Its been a year now since we met each other……Nd these are the memories which will last forever with me…..I know Post kafi lamba h😂 but isse b jada tha bolne k liye…….. 5 th October was the day jaha s actual m hmari frndshp shuru hui Jab maine tujhse tera no.manga tha u know i was quite happy jaise pta ni kya he mil gya ho.. 6 th Oct- When i got placed bt trust me apni job ki khushi s jada teri job na lagne ka dukh tha mko..I thought we both will go together kafi kuch imagine kr liya tha.. But jo bhi hua us din ka wo night stay m kbi ni bhulungi or subh uthke jo paglpanti ki thi dono n that was totally crazy but i just love it..17th October - Diwali break or tu ghr ja rha tha and dt was the frst time humne pure din batt ki thi mjhe kbi lga he ni ki yeh ladka itni batte krega mjhse i thought bhav khyga bt aisa kuch tha he ni ..Uske badd s toh jo batte hui start bhyi ldke ka exam tha phir bhi batt kiye bine mann ni lga iska😝..Ghnta kuch ni kiya dono n diwali p but phir bhi wo diwali happening thi kyunki tu tha mere pass tujhse batt kar k wo diwali b best hgyi thi meri .jaha log enjoy kr rhe the waha hum batte kr rhe the or yhi sbse amazing chezz thi …. Phir toh Dhere dhere kb hmara bond itna strong hogya pta he ni chla …It was like ek din bhi agr msg ya call ni krte the toh din he nhi pura hota tha although abi tk nhi bharta mann Jab tk batt na kr le ek dusre s..Diwali k badd jb colg aaya toh bichara pura din us group m bethta tha jha uska mann b nhi krta tha bethne ka but phir bhi betha mere liye …Batt nhi ho pati thi unke aage bt ek dusre ko sirf dekh le is chakkar m pura time mere sath hota tha …Kitni bar aisa hua jaha control ni kr pate the apne emotions bt still ek dusre k liye wo bhi kiya gussa aata tha ki yar sath hokr bhi sath nhi h but phir b khushi thi atleast dekh paa rhe h ek dusre ko…Remember our first hug shock he hogya tha tu toh ki yeh kya hgya. uske badd s toh jaise ek dusre ko hug kiye bina mann he ni lga dono ka kbi..In sab k hote hue bhi hmara chupke s milna taki do minute akele m spend kr sake bs thodi der k liye sahi but ek dusre ko jee bhar k dekh toh sake..3rd floor nhi bhulungi kbi hmari first date toh wahi thi wo do ghnte mere best do ghnte the colg m jb phli bar hum 3 rd floor p mile the or phli bar he ek dusre ko tightly hug kiya tha..Aise bht sare moments humne share kiye h ek dusre k sath jo i guess m kbi ni bhulne wali.. 31 dec saal ka end tere sath khtm hua mera isse jada best kya he milega mjhe…Or sbse best cheez ki mere colg k last year m mjhe tu mil gya Trust me m abi bhi wahi khungi “You are the best thing happened to me”…Nd i never thought tu itna jada special bn jayga mere liye… Tu bolta h na fight nhi hoti hmari gadhe kabi hogyi na toh bilkul mann ni lgega batt kiye bina ek toh tera puppy face jo dekh k koi bhi pighal jaye m toh definitely pighal jati hu phir toh bs bht sara pyar aata h tujhpe😘..or jo tu bolta h na mko ghnta fark ni pdta sab fark pdta h tko mera mood thoda sa khrab hjata h toh acha ni lgta tko…Tujhse thoda sa gussa hojau toh muh fula leta h …Bas ek he kami h sojata h batt krte krte bt still mko gussa ni aata…

Tujhe hmesha lagta tha ki tune mere liye kuch ni kiya but lemme tell u one thing jitna tune kiya h na mere liye mjhe usse jada chahye bhi ni ..tujhe jb time mila tune nikala mere liye i know maine bhi nikala bt tere y efforts kam ni the mere liye.Jis group m bthta ni tha uske sath bthna shuru kr diya taki mere sath time mil sake tujhe ..Apna phn tak tujhe hide krna pdha dusro s mere chakkar m…Jo ldka hostel m aram s ghumta tha wo specially mere liye bhr aata tha taki mjhse cl p batt kr ske…Mere final project ki tension mjhse jada tujhe thi or ache s naraj bhi hua tha tb toh or wo frst time tha jb do din humne dhng s batt tk ni ki but phir bhi cl krta tha mko kyuki mnn ni lgta tha tera….Mjhse bhr milne k liye kitni bar juth bolna pda tujhe in sbse …Tu aisa tha nhi bt tune y sab kiya just for me..Phir bhi tu khta ki tune kiya he kya mere liye ..Itna underestimate ku krta h apne apko tune bht kuch kiya mere liye😘…

Or sbse jaruri batt jo tko lgta h na tu mko deserve ni krta toh beta dubara aisa socha na i’ll smash your face kyunki agr tu deserve ni krta na toh mjhe ni lgta koi or bhi krta h or y m dialogue ni marr rhi aisa sach m feel hota h mko..Itne thode time m kafi sweet memories bna li h maine tere sath …But all i want to say is that m falling for you every single day whenever i looked into your eyes …I just want to hold you in my arms and give you a thousand of kisses daily… Ab tu chla jyga dur mjhse bt m nhi chahti y bond weak pde ..U matter alot to me and i don’t want ki yeh bond kbi bhi kam ho ….. ‌M gonna miss u badly pta nhi kaise mann lgega tere bina chahe life m kuch bhi bura ho rha ho tujhse batt kr k sb acha hojata h ..Tu smjhta h mujhe bhot ache s😘…I know life aise he hoti h but itni attachment hgyi h ki difficult hoga bht jada..Tujhe daily dekh ni paungi hug ni kr paungi jb mann hoga ….ab koi 3 rd floor ni hoga …But I’ll miss you AND ‌Dont forget you are mine, Only mine…😘😘😘😘

[bhashkars-blog]

Please, Ab no messages

Puri raat jaagne ke baad bhi uss din subah jaldi hogyi.

Ek ajeeb si zaldibaaji thi uss subah

" Wo jo subah utth ke phele apne baalo ko haatho se sawarta tha , apne chere ko mehsus karta tha" ......... Aaj aisa kuch nhi hua .

Nange paw , bikhre baalo ke Saath haath me brush liye basin ke saamne apne khyalo me khoya jabb khud ko sise me dekha toh kuch saaf nhi dikhai Diya ...*shyad aakhe bhar aayi thi*

Wo jo mai har waqt khane ki baate karta uss din raat me bhi kuch nhi khaya tha aur subah me bhi bhuk nhi lgi ...

Chup chap se aapne room me aya aur ...

Uss chadar ke niche apne khyalo ke Saath bistar me khud ko daffn kar liya.

Pure kamre ( room ) me ek sannata tha .... Par uss sannate me awaj bht jor ki thi.

Aakhe nammm thi , gala bhara hua tha , ghutan ho rhi thi , dharkane tej , har ek saas ki raaftar mehsus kiye jaa rha tha...

Phir suru hua yaado ka silsila.

*UNSE PHELI MULAKAT KI WO BAAT , WO AJIB SI BECHANNI , EK MANN ME GHABHARAT*

Unki mashumiyat bhari najaktt.... Wo cute cute sa sarart... Unka sharmana.... Mere khandho ke piche aapne aap ko chupana...

Unhone jo dhree se meri haatho me haath daala... Unki pheli chuvan ( touch ) ki ehsaas....

Unki haatho ko na chorne ka wo zid aur un tamaam logo pe gussa jinke wahaj se chorna pda ......

Unki mashum si chere pe wo katl karne wala muskan.... Wo English me bolte hai n killer smile ha exactly whi wala...

Unki haatho se wo chicken ki wo pheli bite...

Par chicken pe kisko dhyan tha.... Unki aakhe itni gheri ki mai nikl hi nhi paya...

In saari baato ke saath....

Aasuwo ki bhi raftaar badh gyi...

Phir wo din jis din ham mile aur wo meri kissi baato se naraj ho gyi .... Unki narajgi...

Andr se ek chikh aayi aur dono haath khud se bandh gye... Nam aake aur bhare mann se wo sabbhi devi - devta...... Wo pir baba ... Wo bholenath ki Mandir.... Wo gaw ka masjid..... Wo sadhu baba.... Wo peepal ka ped jiske saamne sabhi log sar jhukate aur mannate mangte....

Sab ek Saath yaad aya aur bss ek hi vinnati......

*Please come to me*

*I need you*

*I need you*

*I need you*

*I love you so much*

Please forgive me..... For all my rudeness and all my mistakes .

Mann me ek chera ubhara aur uskhe Shamne bss maffi mange jaa rha tha....

Wo saari galtiyo ke liye Jo maine.... Anjane me kiya .

Wo... Wo.... Saare baato ke liye jisse maine unhe hurt kiya tha....

Wo... Wo...... Saari narajgi ...

Wo sab gussa ....

Unnn sab ke kiye bas maafi.

Aakho se aashu tham nhi rahe ....

Dhree dhreee awaj bhi tut gyi aur uss bisthar me uss blanket ke andr meri baate bhi dhafn ho gyi....

Mnn me ek khawaish thi ki bss unhe bta shaku ki .... Ha wo narajgi ... Wo gussa wo sab iss liye quki mai aapko khone se darta hu..... Aur ha mai aapse bht bht bht pyar karta hu.

Present Day

Yaar hamlog kitte reasonable hai n... Jab hamse koi dur jaane lgta hai... Jab hamse koi Ruth jata hai... Tab hame unko paane ki ... Unke pass jaane ki lalak hoti hai.

Ha whi hua mere saath bhi....

Uss subah ki pheli saam ko hamare pyar ki aahat unke ghar pe dastak de di...

Aur wo boli....

*AB NO MESSAGE*

............... to be continued .

[manglaapoorva]

Fear

April 24, 2020

Fear...darr...bhay...

Darr...yeh voh darr nhi jo hume bhoot-pishacho se lgta h,yeh voh darr nhi jo hume buri shaktiyo se lgta h,yeh voh darr nhi jo hume adharmiyo se lgta h. Yeh darr humare mann ka darr,humare bheetar panapane wala darr. Yeh wala darr bahut se type ka hota h jse khud se haar jaane ka darr,sucess na milne ka darr,kisi ko khone ka darr,failures ka darr,exams me fail hone ka darr etc. Darr kuch bhi nhi sirf humare mann ka bhram hota h jisne hume havi kr rkha hota h iske vash me hona ya isko vash me krna totally humare upar depend krta h. Vishwas se andhviahwas tk jaane wali dagar me jo mahin sa yani ki patla sa jo rasta h na voh h darr humare mann ka. My mom always said that"darr se daro mat usko darao itne balwan bno ki voh khud hi haar jaaye". This all is possible agr hum apne mann ko shaant rkhe aur sirf acha hone k baare me soche,darr ko puri tarah tyag de aur vishwas rkhe ki hum jo bhi kaam kr rhe h voh acha h aur jaroor safal hoga aur maan lo agar safal na bhi ho toh nirash nhi hona chahiye ya agli baar hum try hi na kre agr kuch asafal hua h mtlb kahi na kahi kuch toh kami reh gyi thi jo agli baar zada mehnat kr k sudhar krni h☺️."Fears are nothing more than the state of mind"

Be fearless....Be happy...Be you...Be patient...

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