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phagodyke · 5 months ago

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I'm so fucking tired of ppl assuming I'm a teenage boy I'm not that young and I'm not a guy and it's funny when it happens occasionally and I'm in an amiable mood and idm being a little gnc ik I present somewhat masc even if its not rly intentional and ik my autistic/adhd mannerisms make me come across a little childish sometimes even if im constantly masking at work or in public and I can't control how other ppl perceive me and ik its natural for the human brain to make social assumptions all the time bc there's so much information going in and out it has to process so it automatically categorises shit so I don't mind it happening OCCASIONALLY but I've been getting so fucking many unnecessary comments lately and not just from strangers but ppl I know too and if one more person says some offhand shit to me I'm going to black out and bite until there's blood leave me the fuck ALONE

#got home and im so so so angry its not even that big a deal i dont even get annoyed when it happens every now and then #but these last few weeks ive had a fucking deluge of weird comments abt my age and my gender i dont fucking know why its happening more #and ive had enough im abt to snap. its been on the back of my mind as a vague irritation but it just keeps fucking building #so much stupid shit i cant even list it all here and its not just ppl mistaking me but sometimes going out of their way to be rude #and the fucking misogynistic shit ppl keep saying to me too especially at work please fuck off forever and die #i dont wanna get into it bc ill just get more pissed off im just gonna go cry in the shower and then ill be fine after #probably just feeling it more today bc i didnt take my afternoon meds anyway. altho this isnt the only time its upset me so.#ugh whatever..... its out of my control. and im not gonna go out of my way to try and conform more easily to other ppls ideas of me #bc im comfortable in myself and my body and with how i present so im not going to change that. just tired of dealing with assholes #and im tired of constant misunderstandings its much more than this superficial assumptions abt appearances like ppl who know me keep #making wrong assumptions or miscommunicating or just general poor judgement and that bothers me way more but its much harder to express #so im just getting more angry at the superficial shit as a proxy for it. ugh!!!!#well anyway. hopefully theres enough hot water left for me i want a scalding shower #grinds my teeth so loudly #.diaries #.vent

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