#making a series of webweaves for my affections

[blubellsys]

cloudy skies in a patch of forget-me-nots. hey, you! i love you

we don't believe what's on tv, twenty one pilots / friedrich nietzsche / ominious-ellipses / moderndaymystic / virginia woolf / reddit / andrea gibson / heroes wikia, musa / critter-casey / arunima / mitskicoded / @inknighted // for @spectresummons

[bittersweetresilience]

renjing masterpost ⚔️🎀

writing

大鱼 / Jing Yuan lets go of these seven hundred years of dreams. 起风了 / Jing Yuan would like to stay for longer, he thinks, if reality were always like this. 浮生若梦 / Blade leaves the Luofu early. When he returns, Jing Yuan is no longer on it. this dream i walked through yesterday / A contrapuntal about love and grief.

age has never made me wise / Jing Yuan is turned back into his child self. Blade fucks up, but he fixes it. mad wandering man / Jing Yuan is sent to help Blade with his mara before the fight with Phantylia. and i get the feeling that i'm living / Jing Yuan is sick. Blade takes him on a road trip. windswept wanderlust / Drabble collection. Mostly Renjing.

On the Road / A nontraditional road trip. A translation of Sweetie_tianyang's 在路上.

i'll get it right this time / Yingxing is an idiot, but he will romance Jing Yuan if it kills him. how i met your jiangjun / Blade forgets he’s the one who’s married to Jing Yuan. no extra toppings / Seven years after leaving Jing Yuan, Yingxing finds him and asks him out to bubble tea. mine, mine, mine / Everyone competes for Jing Yuan’s affections.

dog leash dog / After the ritual is over, Blade stays on the Luofu. all the things they might have said to you / Jing Yuan meets Qingzu's previous incarnation.

bite-size / Jing Yuan is turned little by a curio. Blade plays with him. tell me we'll never get used to it / Jing Yuan doesn’t have nightmares often, but when he does, he doesn’t talk about them. fake empire / Kafka and Blade interrogate Jing Yuan. hangman's gambit / Jing Yuan wants Blade’s hands around his neck again.

the way it makes you / Jing Yuan hadn’t picked up the phone this morning. caught his tears in a cup / Jing Yuan has chosen to forget many things. moonlight spilled down the hall / The house is empty when Jing Yuan returns to it, because of course it is. now and forever / Jing Yuan is marastruck, but it isn’t such a bad thing. so lightly, so lightly / Tentatively, he traces his fingers over that fair skin, and Blade lets him. my wings and my eyes / Jing Yuan is tired, but he has been tired for a long time now. like real people do / Jing Yuan has trouble eating sometimes.

white night / Blade and Jing Yuan are members of the Ten Stonehearts. This works out for them, somehow. verizon™ of existence / A series of conversations found on IPC Blade’s phone over the years.

analysis

shipping chart / why i ship renjing / the renjing square

top blade and bottom jing yuan agenda / renjing hornyposting renjing pregnancy agenda 24/7 dom/sub renjing agenda renjing and religious themes

modern domestic renjing headcanons / jing yuan and the stellaron hunters who falls first, who falls harder renjing attachment styles / stonewalling winter renjing headcanons resting heart rates

top five renjing symbolism top five renjing sex positions top five things renjing like and dislike about each other top five favorite desserts

xianzhou luofu navigation map

webweaves

vita infinita / It turns out that sometimes the future actually belongs to someone else. mt. washington / We could wash the dirt off our hands now.

amvs

sunflower / I think your love would be too much.

other

renjing playlist renjing leitmotif mix

renjing textposts / go for it, yingxing

renjing relay

[sehtoast]

What inspired your oc?

what inspired Ben?

that’s a hell of a rabbit hole, but lemme give it a crack. hope you're ready to read a whole book lol :

so, for starters, i’ve always been a spider-man kid for as long as I can remember.  I’m not sure what my first introduction to spidey would’ve been, but i’d bet it was either the 90s animated series or tobey maguire’s spider-man movies.  The first maguire movie came out when i was 2, but i’m positive i saw it super young because i don’t remember a time where i didn’t absolutely fucking adore spidey. Some of my strongest memories are actually of ‘wall crawling’ up my grandma’s brick sidewalk and running around her yard like i was swinging from a web.  I had the toys, the pajama suit, the string-can webshooters, plastic masks, played all the games growing up, etc etc. Spider-man stuff is just like, idk INGRAINED in me. He’s what i wanted to be- and, honestly, i still dream of swinging from a web.

Now, that said: Ben.

Ben started as a x reader concept. I’d never written fics before stumbling onto homelander, but i ended up finally snapping one day and giving it a shot for two reasons.  a) blindmagdalena inspired me to write and b) i wanted to finally see some form of trans rep for fanfics, particularly for transmasculine people.  I have my brain trained so strictly to swap pronouns, gendered terms, and even body part names that it actually affects my reading outside of fics, too. Which isn’t necessarily good, but it just goes to show how little is out there for us (fic is usually always skewed toward fem readers- which isn’t a bad thing! It just makes it hard for transmasc folks to indulge sometimes).  But yeah, i really fucking wanted to finally put something out there for us.

But, this fella had to have powers right?  Tender Threads was the start of my writing adventures and i was adamant that it would follow a supe!reader.  And what powers would i want if i were a supe? Spider powers, of course!  Initially i was really insecure about doing this because webweaver already exists in the boys comics and i felt like a copycat.  I couldn’t even figure out a better spidery hero name than spider-man, so i said fuck it and went with it.  Of course, months later across the spider-verse came out and validated me putting a spider-man in another universe, but that’s besides the point lol.

The more i wrote this x transmasc!reader concept, the more and more i could see Ben in my head.  He started off as a concept and just… grew?  I picked his name because i really like ben reilly as spidey and i figure there’s gotta be another spider-man out there named benjamin, right? They can’t all be variants of peter and the more major characters. Funny enough, he was almost a Bennett.  Anyway, i imagined him quite similar to peter parker in the ultimate spider-man comic line, but he’s steadily grown to have his own appearance, especially once i went out looking for a face claim for him and found froy gutierrez.  Now, he looks like a ~2018 era froy!  Funny how ocs grow and change.

I decided that i wanted him to have powers more along the lines of Miles Morales in the insomniac games (bc i fucking ADORE miles and i think his bioelectricity is SO FUCKING COOL). So, i picked that. Kept the organic webbing bc that made sense to me. 

Also, it  wasn’t even a thought in my head of whether or not to carry over the aspect of being trans for ben.

His suit design was heavily inspired by the unbreakable spider-man suit by @ vaughanilla_cosplays on instagram, but i’m still working on building a design that is truly ben’s.

From there, i thought of him in terms of what my ideal spider-man would be like. This part i actually struggled with until i stumbled across this video of Peter Cullen about the day he auditioned for optimus prime (hopefully the time start works, otherwise it's at 1:38-2:10).  Those words hit me first, like, as a person, and i find them influencing me in my day to day life, surprisingly.  But then i realized, that’s what i want for ben.  If ben was going to be a hero, he was going to be a real hero.  Benjamin would be strong enough to be gentle.  Even being a character destined to love a man who is anything but, Ben would be strong enough to be gentle.

Above everything else, Benjamin is gentle.

And from there, he grew.  He grew and grew and grew, and now he’s actually very precious to me.  Ben is my spider-man, more than any iteration ever. When i think of spidey, i think of Ben.

But yeah. I guess ben was ultimately inspired by my love for spider-man meeting my love for the boys. Just, one day an egg appeared, you know?

Anyway, thank you so much for this ask. I fucking LOVE talking about my lil benny-boo