#mairimashitairumakunkin

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I miss my soulmates, man.

Have you ever genuinely mourned someone that you've never actually truly lost?

Like yeah they didn't die, that's not why I'm mourning them, I'm mourning them because they're not here with me now, and finding sourcemates (let alone canonmates) is nearly impossible.

I literally don't know what to do. I just want sourcemates so I can feel whole again. It's like big parts of me are missing and I can't get them back. Hell, I'd even be okay seeing Kiriwo again as long as he promises not to traumatize me again 💔💔💔

I just really miss Azz-kun and Clara, and Ameri-san, and Ojiichan, and Opera-san, and the Misfit Class, and everyone. I especially miss Azz-kun and Clara. I have vague memories of being in a romantic poly relationship with them. Us and the rest of the Misfit Class were all in a platonic/queerplatonic polycule too. I miss kissing Azz-kun and Clara's eyes when they're tired, or playing games with them, or inviting them over for a sleepover. I miss telling them how much I love them and how happy I am to be with them. I miss the way they'd smile at me, and light up with joy when I complimented them. I miss the way when I had cried and told them that I'm sorry I couldn't tell them my secret yet, that they'd held my hands and said, with tears in their eyes too, that they can wait.

I wonder, can we still be soulmates in this life? Would you two.. Be okay with that?

All my memories from the manga are still fuzzy because I haven't fully read it yet, but I remember that I love you both. I remember that the memory of you is keeping me going. If you're out there, please take care of yourselves, and be gentle with yourselves. I love you. I love you so much.

- Suzuki Iruma (Welcome to Demon School, Iruma-kun!/Mairimashita, Iruma-kun!) [#starboy]

I'm being extra sappy because I just woke up and am still tired,, I am actively crying while I write this,,,

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Chat I just regained a super silly Iruma memory

So like

Before I knew transformation magic and stuff, I just wore a binder, and one time I was complaining a little bit about how wearing my binder makes certain activities harder, and Ali-san was like "Why not just use transformation magic on yourself to give yourself a flat chest?" (Idek if that's possible in the canon series but it was definitely possible in my timeline) And I looked at him like he had 3 heads

And then I was like "Nonononono I couldn't possibly do that!!" And started listing off excuses about how I couldn't, or how it seemed like that would be cheating, etc etc. Eventually we kinda dropped it but it was in the back of my mind a lot like "omg I could do that........." and then when I went through the faux Evil Cycle, Wicked Me just woke up and was getting ready for school and was like "Fuck this shit, I don't want these??" And got rid of them with a Cherusil. But I was also like "Damn, top surgery scars look so badass and cool from what I've seen,,,,, I want em." And did another Cherusil to get top surgery scars

And they looked really cool too!!

So I was just a 14-year-old walking around with top surgery scars and NOBODY knew for a while

Thanks for the idea, Ali-san!!!!!!!!!! Made my life a whole lot easier lmao

-Iruma Suzuki (Welcome To Demon School, Iruma-kun!/Mairimashita, Iruma-kun!) [#starboy]

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Ah!- I just realized that it's Az's birthday today (June 6th), sorry for submitting late! (Not asking for this to be posted a specific day btw, I know I'm way too late for that MPC sgdidbx-)

Either way, happy late birthday Asmodeus! I don't really remember speaking to you often right now, but, you were good to Iruma. I hope you're still doing good now.

- Alikred "Ali" Suzuki (Please tag as #Alikredkin) of Welcome to Demon School Iruma-Kun // Mairimashita! Iruma Kun. 🥀🌌✨