#maerossa

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Birthday 30 days countdown challenge - 1-5

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Birthday 30 days countdown challenge - 6-10

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Here's something work in progress...

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Maerossa Appreciation

*This is the one I posted on Twitter before. I believe I did want to post this here at some point but then completely forgot about it haha. So let's do it*

Preface

It has been a while ago since I set up my “Maestarossa appreciation” page on my tumblr blog but I really don’t have a chance to finish it… One of the main reason is that I feel sometimes people argued with me a lot in the past regard to the interpretation and understanding of the character arc etc. so I just stop writing such things at some point. But maybe I should speak up more about my own opinion…

I know that it’s hard to persuade people, so this will more serve as a reminder for me to always read the manga again and appreciate the ship

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As I always rant on my twitter, I have a feeling that people absolutely love to emphasize how different Mael and Estarossa are, and this is what I hate the most haha. People have the right to say they are different because they do in some way, but really I feel like in the fandom there is a lack of the voice to appreciate how they share the same personalities and feelings in the end. This similarity is a bless and a curse that both cannot escape.

But how? I will explain in detail below.

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1. A hypocritical love

Since back then, Ludociel has taught Mael that to kill a demon is to save the soul from the foul. To him, killing is a way to show the mercy and love, even a hypocritical one. 

The Commandment of Love sounds definitely sarcastic in my opinion. In the original Japanese, the commandment is specifically referring to the love that has a merciful side. Even though Estarossa seems to kill people to fulfill the order from Demon King or even just for fun, he does show his hypocritical love side and kill people as a mercy.

2. A lonely heart

From Bonus: Awake from a Black Dream

Mael has said that he hates wars and killing people; nevertheless he follows his brother and becomes the Angle of the Death and the strongest Four Archangel. Why he would do so?

In my mind, he is a child who always eager for the recognition from his beloved. Mael values his brother and choose to kill demons even though he is not willing to do so. He also hopes his beloved Elizabeth could toss him a glance as a nod; however, this is almost impossible due to the conflict nature of Elizabeth and Ludociel’s stands:

He constantly devalues himself as he tries to fulfill the expectation from others. In the end, he becomes a lonely child who never truly grows up and always sit on the lawn of the sky islands.

This self-devaluation and loneliness also plays an important role in Estarossa’s personality.

Imitation is a form of self-devaluation.

And always be alone.

3. Reconcile

The tragedy is never solely a coincidence. Besides Gowther’s plan, the fall of the great archangel is majorly caused by Mael’s ignorance and the lack of true self-recognition.

Mael (or Estarossa) looking at the opposite side to Elizabeth, implying the loss of the true self.

Thus the true remedy for the trauma is to reconcile with the lost self. It seems like “Estarossa” is dead for everyone else, as people around Mael will naturally use the real name to call him and celebrate his return.

However, Mael specifically refer his “fake” name when he looks back into the past. Estarossa never dies nor disappears, but lives with him forever. There is no way for him to escape from himself.

And Estarossa will simply accept the truth then smiles back.

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I completely forget about posting this... Happily married 🥹🩷

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So I'm working on the English version of my fanfic In a Dimly Glass and hopefully I can finish the translation by the end of this year. I don't know how many people are around would enjoy reading Mael/Estarossa (I mean, in a ship way) fanfic, or, the ship itself in general, but I still give this a chance.

Summary (extended version compared to the one on AO3): After a stranger died in the Kirk, vampires started to cause the misfortune in the village, where Mael the Elder of the Kirk resided. While protecting his people from the evil creatures, the Elder had dark, sinful secret. Infatuated by Estarossa, a vampire who had the similar resemblance, Mael gradually reached the truth of the conflict, the churches and his own identity.

"For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known." 1 Corinthians 13:12 KJV

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Some mild 18+(?) content...? Warning: Spanking

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Punishing the mischievous puppy~~~

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I really love the idea when they have child together in some AU... So here lemme introduce their cute daughter (as OC) 🥺 Her name is Naberael, a Nephilim who was born through her dads' magic. High-rank goddesses and demons can create child with their own magic instead of pregnancy, but it is extremely difficult even for them as the trait of magic from parents can be contradicting each other. Thanks to Mael and Estarossa's similarity (or maybe identicalness? haha) so they can do this without much difficulty.

And the dog at the back. Yep doggie is also one of the family member.

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The cover design for Blasphemy yes I'll fulfill my doujinshi dream!!

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After a while I'm finally able to finish this manga... It comes with English version so hopefully people will enjoy this better.

Warnings are in the description itself ↓ ↓

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Hello all! Welcome to my new Mael x Estarossa ship blog!

I will simply start with the event art I made several weeks ago... Don't have anything new recently because I'm starting working I my manga that takes forever to finish (already been about two years? haha)! The manga will be posted to the Pixiv once it's done but now I only have these for people to enjoy...

Well hopefully I will have something else soon? 🥺