#maddek

[horsetailcurlers2]

i think i’ve realized (as i have waffled back and forth many times on whether i actually like addek as a ship) that what bums me out the most about their divorce isn’t the end of their marriage, it’s the end of their friendship. like, no other character on the show has that extensive of a history with another character really. most of the other core friendships and relationships begin at the start of the show. but then addison comes in and it’s like “oh they’ve been married for over a decade. they met at the beginning of med school and have spent almost all of their adulthood together” not to mention mark who is revealed to have been friends with derek since childhood, practically his brother. like, these three have such an extensive past that is just basically over before the show even really begins. and yeah sure, they’re kind of still friends. derek saves addison’s brother, mark and addie hook up in the early seasons of private practice. but it’s not the same! it just makes me sad, with the things they have revealed about what that trio dynamic was like in the past. they ALL hurt each other horribly but i think that they also know each other in ways that nobody else ever will. and obviously derek loves meredith deeply and they had a beautiful life together, but there’s just this whole chunk of his life that she doesn’t really know. she’s not close with his family, they don’t talk about his dad or his sister. she didn’t know him before he was Dr. McDreamy Shepherd, Certified Neuro God. idk. i’m rambling again but maddek just makes me so unbelievably sad when i think too much about it lmao.

[shrrpteeth]

lily about ted robin and barney: “ur not leaving bc u think the love of ur life isnt in new york. ur leaving bc u think she is. and this time next week, she’ll be married to ur best friend.” AND WHAT IF I MAKE THIS ABOUT MADDEK.

[shrrpteeth]

@emily-prentits (youve prob seen this already but oh well)

polyamory would not always fix the love triangle. sometimes it would make it much, much worse. but they should do it anyway

[darlingwrecks]

Any new fics in the pipeline now that you've finished 'This Hurt Can Teach Us Both'?

Hi there! Thank you for asking. I am planning to continue with Atlas, Revisited (kicking myself for not calling it Atlas - Darlingwrecks’s Version, like one reader joked). An update for that one should be next, as I already have a few scenes written (plus it’s just an easy, fun fic to work on, and that’s kind of what I need right now), and then I am hopefully going to get started on “Again, December” (the Mark/Addison Christmas fic I finished in February, this time told from Addison’s perspective).

And as for other ideas…I’m not really sure. I’m open to requests (preferably Mark/Addison, Derek/Addison, or Maddek…I’m just not really interested in Jaddison at the moment), but I can’t make any promises on a timeframe. I have had some health stuff going on the past few months (nothing life-threatening, but it has impacted my day-to-day routine, wellness, energy level, etc.), so I haven’t been firing on all cylinders for a while now, but I’m hopeful my newest medication will work, and get all the plot bunnies hopping again. And I’d actually like to revisit two of my older multi-chap fics and rewrite them at some point: 1) Addison doesn’t get an abortion, but ends up losing the baby in a tragic way, but she and Mark find a way to make it work as a couple and start again; and 2) after relocating to L.A., Addison does some healing and adopts a baby, and eventually gets together with Pete. This was written between PP seasons 1 and 2, when that ship was still a possibility, before the writers were like lol jk. I really liked that fic because it involved everyone at the practice and really just showed how meaningful their connection to one another was.

[dustjacketmusings]

Now that Henry Cavill is free, he can play Maddek in A Heart of Blood and Ashes

And hey slap some moonstone contacts on Anya and she can come too

[whogirl42]

Okay getting chills how The Moment I Knew (tv from the vault) perfectly fits the Derek/Addison/Mark dynamic pre-affair in New York

And the hours pass by / Now I just wanna be alone / But your close friends always seem to know / When there's something really wrong / So they follow me down the hall / And there in the bathroom I try not to fall apart / And the sinking feeling starts / As I say hopelessly / "He said he'd be here"

[littletayyswriting]

Title: entangled

Author: LittleTayy

Rating: Teen

Characters: Addison Montgomery, Mark Sloan, Derek Shepherd

Summary: en·tan·gled - to become twisted together with or caught in. / A story about Mark, Addison and Derek in New York and how they make a mess of their lives. AU. Maddek.

AN: This is just pure self promotion. Haha. I forgot that I hadn’t posted this here yet. I will be adding each new chapter to this post. Oh! And for the pleasure of readers, there is a playlist that goes along with the story. 

Updated with chapter 11 - 20/07/2023

Read On: AO3 

Playlist: Spotify

Chapter List Below

part one: you belong to somebody else

part two: i’ll do them for you

part three: i’m just not happy in this home

part four: i’m tempted to pay attention

part five: butterflies they come alive when i’m next to you

part six: staring at me all the way from across the room and you deny yourself

part seven: cause you’re on my mind

part eight: look at all the weapons you’re killing me with

part nine: tell me sweet little lies

part ten: what am i supposed to do

part eleven: i wish he didn’t trust me so much

[myselfdisintegrated2]

Hi.

I don’t know how to Tumblr anymore.  I do know it’s 2020.  I don’t recognize a lot of things on my feed(?) and all fandoms seem new.  I am not new.  I still think a lot about Addison and her various sunken ships, even though I have actually only watched Grey’s seasons 1-3, all the crossovers, season 8, and the episode where Shonda ran Derek over with a truck.

I’m M, aka winter machine, the one who lost her LJ password and regularly loses the twitter one too.  I started writing and posting again on sites I’m not sure people still use.  I am a RELIC goddamn it and not in a good way, but if these things interest you, um, let me know you still exist so I can follow you back?

[myselfdisintegrated2]

Mark’s smirk when he thinks he’s not getting yelled at, followed by that indignant face, birthed (and, in fairness, justified) like a thousand Maddek-teasing-each-other-in-the-old-days fic let’s be real ...

Burke: What happened to your hair?

[darlingwrecks]

Chapter 40. From the Bruises, Flowers Grow. snippets.

. . .

I would give up everything to be with her. That is what Mark would want to tell Derek, in addition to a flood of apologies. But of all the things I would give up to be with her…you would be the very last that I’d part with.

. . .

Every piece of cutlery, every saved receipt, every candle, every insurance document, every kitchen appliance, every stitch of clothing, every piece of furniture, every hand towel, every drinking glass from the set his mother got us as a wedding present, every errant battery shoved in a drawer…I have to sort through all of that. And make piles, and honestly, probably get rid of or donate most of the stuff. But it’s not like I would just throw away any of Derek’s belongings. You know, sweaters he left behind, childhood things, his med school diploma, novels, CDs and records, fishing equipment, articles he’s had published, everything in his office, an old laptop of his, trinkets his mom gave him, things I bought him. So it falls on me to have to go through all those things and then ship them to him. And then also, I think I just…you know, my primary grievance throughout the last few years of my marriage was that he was indifferent. That he didn’t love me as much as he used to. I don’t…I don’t really know how to explain it, if that even makes sense, but -

“You think that he’s showing you,” Marie said, “either consciously or subconsciously – just how deeply he’s willing to cut with his indifference.”

Continue reading here.

Chapter 41. Through the Ashes, We Were Brave. snippets.

. . .

Mark recognizes the carefully curated façade for what it is: she is trying to practice restraint, to appear relaxed, as though this day is like any other. As though she is signing off on a medical chart, rather than signing away everything about the last fifteen years of her life.

. . .

But there was still enough time for Johnny – who would go on to play at BU – to make the adjustment, and when he was not able to, it was so shocking that everyone on both teams started laughing; Johnny was nearly impossible to score against. Since when do you pass? Johnny shouted at Mark, but laughing in that easy, pleasant way of his. I didn’t think you were gonna do that. Hey, look at Sloanie over there, actually sharing. And Johnny was not wrong, because Mark was not particularly generous when the goal was in sight; he craved the spotlight and the glory too much. Only with Derek, Mark chirped back. I only share with Derek.

He checked any player who came near Derek when he had control of the puck. He could not stand the thought of his best friend getting hurt.

. . .

She hangs on for a little longer, suspended in persistent defiance for a few more seconds, lips trembling, and then she breaks apart, hard. Harder than Mark has ever experienced with her before. A splintered, high-pitched sob explodes from the back of her throat, maybe even more of a scream than a sob. Tears flood down her face, and she cries so hard into Mark’s shoulder that her body shakes with every heart-wrenching sound. He thinks it is worse than the time she spent the night at his apartment after Derek caught them. So much worse. It is worse than the time back in July when she broke down in the shower and could not stand up without his help. So much worse. Since they are lying down, they are not in a position to exchange much pressure, but Mark is certain he can still feel the moment that Addison’s full weight falls against him. The weight of her grief. Like the way her body feels a little heavier right before she falls asleep. But different. So different. Her face is pressed close to his throat now, and for a long time – for longer than what feels possible to sustain such an intense response – it is just high notes and hot breaths and tears that drench his skin.

. . .

Addison gives him a small nod. Marie said something similar to her at her last session. Some sort of analogy about paths. When you start down a new one – maybe one you never expected to find yourself on – there will be brambles and uneven dirt and waist-high weeds you have to force your way over and through. But eventually, all of those things will soften and wear down. If you wake up and choose the same path over and over and over again, and keep taking those forward steps, eventually it gets easier to walk. And once it does, it will be the most familiar thing in the world to you.

Continue reading here.

[horsetailcurlers2]

the original grey’s anatomy love quadrilateral pairings as taylor swift albums:

merder: speak now (young, exciting, passionate. romantic and jaded at the same time. all about flash in the pan love affairs and on and off relationships. also this was ts’s feral era which i think tracks for meredith. enchanted, sparks fly, haunted, ours, i can see you. bonus: better than revenge, for the meraddek triangle)

addek: red (characterized by nostalgia. half breakup album, half love album. a little all over the place. feels like a retrospective on a relationship. if speak now is young, red is about looking back. and in my head baby addek is very fall. holy ground, all too well, treacherous, i almost do, the last time, sad beautiful tragic, the moment i knew, red.)

maddison: 1989 (New York Album. heartbreaking lyrics disguised as fun light pop songs. makes me think of young maddek friendship, the flirtation before the affair, the two months in new york hiding from their real lives and the gossip, trying to salvage something out of the big mess they made. style, out of the woods, slut!, wildest dreams, wonderland, now that we don’t talk)

meddison: lover. (out of the wreckage type love. or post wreckage type love. passionate but ultimately mature, longing, reflective. after the heartbreak of red, after the drama of 1989, after the reinvention of reputation. cruel summer, the archer, paper rings, lover, miss americana & the heartbreak prince, false god, daylight)

marek: reputation. (guys hear me out. i wasn’t even gonna include this pairing but then i had the insane thought that mark and derek kind of have taylor and karlie energy lmao. derek running across the country to become a flannel wearing wood chopping fisherman and not answering anybody’s calls has the same energy as taylor blacking out her social media. the old derek can’t come to the phone right now. why? cause he’s dead. this is why we can’t have nice things, look what you made me do.

[jaddison]

imagine mark and derek meeting jake. the two of them are suspicious of addison’s new boyfriend, wanting to make sure he was a good guy. right when they’re about to walk up to him, addison blocks their way, refusing to let them pass.

“i’m not letting you threaten my boyfriend.” she says firmly.

“does he treat you well?” mark asks suddenly, hoping to catch her off guard with the question. instead, addison smiles, almost beaming as she replies,

“better than you can imagine.”

and that was good enough for them.

[myselfdisintegrated2]

When did we get so old?

... I was going to say sad.

... what I wouldn’t have done for a gif library back in 2012 when I killed a laptop by filling it with Maddison and Addek gifs.

Also, tumblr looks totally different now, but apparently #2020 is not about butts (sorry, Kimmy and Titus) but about 2007 reanimating itself by reanimating great fic.  I just need a few more titans of OG GA fic to rise from the proverbial ashes and we can really turn this year around.

[gi0shiika]

I love Dammek so much so I drew him at 2 am lmao,, He needs to be proteccted 😩👌

[private-practice-fan]

In the If/Then AU episode Mark didn't end up with Lexi, but Addison instead. And again Addison was pregnant with Mark's baby.

[quoteablebooks]

There are enemies, and there are monsters. Always slay the monsters first, because enemies may one day become allies - but monsters never will.

Maddek A Heart of Blood and Ash by Milla Vane