#maann i feel so bad lol

[lostxmelody]

Hi! I'm sending you hugs! ^-^

oh my god i genuinely forgot this was in my inbox and i was going to reply way earlier but i got so caught up in things adfhuiasdfi THANK YOUUUU

[arsalamsyah]

I stopped by my coworker’s desk and he laughing-smiled at me while shoving his forehead.

R: oh no

AV: what why? haha I haven’t said anything

R: you know what, each time you come to me I feel like ‘oh God, there must be something wrong’

AV: LOL is that really how you see me? that’s so bad.. I’m not gonna haunt you

R: you sure huh? haha isn’t that what always happen

AV: maann I don’t want people think of me that way lol anyway I really need your expertise on composite yadayadayada

That impression literally reminded me of Machiavelli’s principle on his book, The Prince, about a ruler/leader — “It is better to be feared than to be loved, if one cannot be both”. and for so long as I remember I just want the later. I never want to live up the earlier for whatever reason.