#míquella i love you

[miquella-everywhere]

I’m not thrilled with some elements of the DLC lore either (it shoulda been Godwyn!), but this blog reads like a cry for help, and I’m concerned. You may want to ask yourself if you want to continue tying your mental health and happiness to a fictional character. If engaging with a game or fandom brings you such intense, consistent misery, it may not be good for you to continue doing so. Ultimately, none of us can control the story’s writing or reception, and continuing to agonize over things that you can’t change is a road to madness.

Wishing for positive mental health outcomes for everyone affected by this DLC.

imo i view my blog and anti dlc rants as a sort of diary and me ranting is a way to get all these negative feelings and energy out, and i honestly think that this is way healthier than letting it stew and fester in my brain

i know how my dumb autistic brain works, and it sucks, but when i get really attached to something and then something bad/unexpected happens it like messes with me

like i understand where you're coming from completely, but my brain is wired in such a way that my rejection sensitivity/obsession extends to my goddamn anime favs 😭 and it sucks 😭

and ngl

my reactions to everything involving miq have actually been pretty goddamn tame compared to some of the other things my brain has gotten worked up over throughout my life lol

and i honestly think i have the blog and writing my thoughts and interacting with like-minded people to thank for that

(and for the most part i try to not tag my takes, tho sometimes i think i have good takes that should be shared, but most of the time i treat my takes as like journal entries)

so like i get what you're saying anon but at the same time, this is a part of my healing process

with the way my brain works i literally cannot drop ER and Míquella so easily/cold turkey. despite the bullshit i still love Míquella and thats what makes it so painful and an even harder time to move on from

but itll happen eventually, just takes time, and it helps to write down and process all the bad feelings akdhdh

Bottomline is that if youre following me then you know exactly what ur in for and likely feel the same basically lol

but thank you for your concern anon i promise you i will be fine <3

[miquella-everywhere]

You will never rob from me of the joy and wonder I feel while traversing through the Haligtree fromsoft

[miquella-everywhere]

If you think Miquella wasn't absolutely destroyed by the idea of abandoning St Trina then you're wrong.

"I abandon here my doubts and vacillations."

Miquella was definitely having a mental breakdown before he decided to cast aside his doubts, most likely to make this decision easier and to give him some backbone to see through what needed to be done to bring about a gentle world. He loves her just as much as she loves him, and when he became a God would he have returned to Trina just as he promised to return to Malenia?

I believe he would have.

"I abandon here my fears."

Miquella was absolutely terrified this entire ordeal, and it's fascinating that his fears were the very last thing that he would abandon. Why would he hold onto something that gave him such anxiety and anguish? I honestly think the Hornsent said it best:

"Though undoubtedly painful, Miquella believes that this action will cleanse the Erdtree of its sin."

It wouldn't surprise me if Miquella clung to his fears so fervently because he believed it to be a form of self-punishment that he was deserving of, both to repent for the actions of the Erdtree and his own....

Ultimately he made his choice, even though it literally ripped his heart out :(