#luster-dusted-fledgling

[tulipscomeinallsortsofcolors]

Hi!! I've recently become obsessed with laoft and I have a question about the one shot Sleepover. When Virgil and Logan both react to tapping on the table with nail polish, is that just because it's good tap tap stim sound and they have good hearing, or is it some other fae thing? Either way, a mood. Pls pls keep on writing for laoft, it is so well written and I don't think I've ever been so attached to a fan created universe before!! Big love!

it is in fact a good good stim and they have good hearing, got it in one!

Also i’m glad you’re having fun!!! because i am also having fun!!!!!

[lavendarjevil]

just found out I'm one of god's specialest angels @luster-dusted-fledgling @mmrainey22

[tulipscomeinallsortsofcolors]

I'm loving getting into the minutia of the beautiful world you've created but lemme know if these kinda questions are annoying lmao. So in chapter one of laoft, when Dot picks up her baby, what exactly does she notice that tips her off that it's not Thomas (or at least that something's afoot)?

i didnt give it too much specific thought - could have been the ears (though they were not quite so prominent at first - easy to overlook) he could have weighed slightly different, his eyes are a different color, he smells a bit more plant-y than babe-y

what i was mostly trying to get across with that scene is that Dot is a very perceptive person and an especially intuitive mother - some people it might have taken hours or days or even weeks to realize their child had been swapped (especially one so young, with little personality) but Dot knew right away

so the exact thing she noticed was less important to me than making it clear that Dot is just Like ThatTM

[znikitrash]

Thank you @luster-dusted-fledgling ❤ this does help

Dysphoria and the problems of being a non-native english speaker

Let me just rant for a second

Being a bilangual is hardddd

Im sure you all know that feeling of having something at the egde of your tongue but not being able to say it because you cant find the right words for it

Its even harder when you know the word/phrase in a different language but can't use it because you're talking to somebody who doesn't speak both languages

And i feel like that all the time. expressing feelings and ideas is really difficult, i'm really awkward with words and people often misinterpret what i'm trying to say

I learn most of my english vocabulary thanks to the internet. and a lot of the time i guess the word's meaning from context, and im usually right without actually having to look it up in the dictionary

I learned the word disphoria while watching lgbt+ videos on youtube and I misinterpreted it as a word that only refers to gender disphoria. Looking it up in the dictionary didn't really help, as it's translated as a general feeling of dissatisfaction. So i thought "oh yeah being dissatisfied with your gender is called dysphoria makes sense"

Im fortunate enough to be ok with my gender so i was like "i dont have dysphoria then yay"

And so i didnt use that word when talking about my i feel like shit i dont know this feeling but its really negative and uncomfortable i dont want this™ days

And then i learned dysphoria doesnt have to refer to gender dysphoria, it can be just an overall feeling of unease and dissatisfaction

And i dont know if the feeling i feel is dysphoria or not, it does seem to check out all the boxes like being dissatisfied with yourself or feeling unwell. But i really don't know, nobody has ever told me "yes this feeling youre feeling is called dysphoria" cause that's difficult to do.

I don't want to label my feelings a certain word if i dont understand the meaning of that word

So I'm here not knowing and not being able to communicate my emotions to others. this feeling may or may not be called dysphoria or it may not even have a name at all

i dont label this feeling and i cant talk about it with others and i cant relate to others and it leads me to feeling lonely and invalid

And it really sucks...

I hope somebody will read this and understand. I dont see many people talking about this. Feel free to share your thoughts and stories

[tulipscomeinallsortsofcolors]

I think tumblr ate my first ask abt. this but Neon Lights by Dancing Years has BIG night Roman vibes, like kinda weirdly perfect. And uhhhh it makes me cry lmao so here ya go

im HURT but y e a h thats right in gut right there my friend, many thanks

[lavendarjevil]

not a super artsy thigh pic, but i also got these done by @luster-dusted-fledgling who absolutely owns and should be given money in general

[lavendarjevil]

@luster-dusted-fledgling witness

i had a dream about fucking… vampire discourse on tumblr like;

“reminder that blood sucker is a slur”

“vamp-born-vamps are valid if u got bitten later in life you’re not part of the vamp community” 

“support vamps who drink human blood, support vamps who drink animal blood, support vamps who drink animal and human blood”

[lavendarjevil]

WAIT IM SO FUCKIN STUPID @luster-dusted-fledgling​ did this and it looks dope and they do stick and pokes for money and i love them dearly so yea

i got my first tattoo