#luckily it slithered away on its own I don't know how good my snake chucking skills are)

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today I watched a rattlesnake get flung a good 20 feet in the air

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i'm at the airport and there's nothing here to watch except CNN which is showing either the conservatives being hypocrites/lying or *golf tips* which makes me want to just chuck my boots at the screen so so that I don't commit much money in property damage may I please have some angsty wangxian or like literally anything plz im begging you

I’m sorry this took so long aksjakjskjdsakd but here’s an angsty fic outline about WangXian and their son!!!

Content Warning: Near-drowning, mental breakdown due to heavy guilt+phobia resulted from trauma

Wei WuXian and Lan WangJi were accompanying the Lan juniors on a night hunt, which was supposedly a mid-level threat but they aren’t sure what the actual threat is

They go into the forest surrounding the village being threatened, and split into two groups, one led by Wei WuXian and the other led by Lan WangJi

SiZhui and JingYi are both with Wei WuXian

They go to an area near a slow but deep river, and for a while they couldn’t find anything, but then they heard something in the water

Wei WuXian freaks out, hiding behind JingYi who was the closest, shaking like a leaf, as SiZhui, on his sword, approach the tiny puppy hanging onto a rock in the water

No one questions how a tiny puppy got into the middle of the river on its own like that (Wei WuXian has the excuse of fear)

SiZhui manages to grab the puppy, but is unable to pull it out of the water

The puppy suddenly growls, turning into a massive growling dog (VERY much like the vicious stray dogs of Wei WuXian’s childhood), yanking SiZhui off his sword and into the waters

JingYi panics, rushing forward to try and help SiZhui, leaving Wei WuXian there alone, unable to move due to the knowledge of the demon dog in the water, despite screaming at himself to move

There is a lot of screaming as SiZhui struggles to fight off the unknown creature in the water while keeping both himself afloat

JingYi is unable to grab SiZhui, who’s close to drowning at this point as the demon dog continues to pull him into the waters

Wei WuXian manages to take out ChenQing, but he’s shaking too much to play properly and unable to focus on channeling the resentful energy 

At this point, BiChen appears overhead and plunges into the water, stabbing the demon dog which bursts out of the water with a bloodcurdling howl, releasing SiZhui

Lan WangJi and the other juniors come to help, and they manage to pull SiZhui from the waters, his arm bleeding badly, having been seized by the dog

Unfortunately, the demon dog escapes as they do this, rushing to shore and turning into a brown snake and slithering into the forest

Lan WangJi instructs them all to head back to the village to treat SiZhui, who has his arm wrapped up in one of the junior’s spare robe, saying they will continue the hunt the following day 

Wei WuXian collapses, feeling utterly ashamed and pathetic, and furious upon knowing that thing wasn’t even a dog

They return to the inn, the innkeeper calling the local doctor for them at once as Lan WangJi tells the others to rest while he and Wei WuXian stayed with SiZhui. JingYi stays as well

Once they were alone, Wei WuXian apologises to SiZhui, who tries to play it off as “it’s fine I know you have your fear and I’m not judging, Senior Wei”

Wei WuXian however snaps at him, acting almost exactly like Jiang Cheng

“It’s not fine! You almost died and I just stood there like a coward!”

Everyone is shocked at him, and Wei WuXian recoils upon seeing their shock. He feels even more guilty and excuses himself

JingYi quickly tells Lan WangJi to go after him, but even though Lan WangJi desperately wants to, he has to be responsible and wait with SiZhui until the doctor comes

JingYi offers to stay instead with promises to care for SiZhui, and SiZhui promising he was fine, and both juniors soon convince Lan WangJi to go after Wei WuXian

Lan WangJi finds Wei WuXian pacing about a short walk away from the inn and cussing at himself under his breath, acting uncharacteristically upset

He asks Lan WangJi to leave him alone for a bit, telling him to go back  but Lan WangJi refuses, knowing Wei WuXian was prone to spiralling into intense depreciation otherwise 

Wei WuXian, being in a bad mental state at the moment, snaps again, yelling at him to leave him alone, but Lan WangJi doesn’t

Instead he goes up to Wei WuXian, who has turned away from him, and gently takes his hand

Wei WuXian doesn’t turn around, but Lan WangJi can feel him trembling and wouldn’t be surprised if Wei WuXian was crying

He was right

Wei WuXian begins to speak, his voice coming out in broken sobs, saying he was pathetic, he was a coward, clearly broken up about almost “letting A-Yuan die right in front of him” and how “he almost lost their son a second time”

He was definitely crying, and out came more sobs about how he hated how his fear crippled him so badly sometimes, and how he was more concerned for his own safety away from the dog, THAT WASN’T EVEN A DOG, over the safety of his son

Lan WangJi lets him cry, saying nothing as he listens to Wei WuXian vent his frustrations, before finally descending into full on sobbing

At this point, Lan WangJi pulls him closer, hugging him from behind, softly telling him it wasn’t his fault

Lan WangJi: “SiZhui understands, Wei Ying. He knows you would never leave him behind again if you can help it.”

Wei WuXian: “But A-Yuan was right there…right in front of me…I’m a strong swimmer…if it was anything else I…”

Lan WangJi: “But it was something that’s a serious fear of yours. You cannot help your fears, Wei Ying.”

Wei WuXian just cries more, and Lan WangJi just holds him close as he lets out all his frustrations

After a long time, Wei WuXian calms down, and Lan WangJi asks him if he was ready to go back and see SiZhui

Wei WuXian agrees and they head back

The doctor looks at them disapprovingly when they return, but Lan WangJi, SiZhui and JingYi all give the doctor sharp glares, so he says nothing

Wei WuXian noticed though

Luckily, the wound was not infected and it was SiZhui’s non-dominant arm, but he was not to fight just in case

Wei WuXian feels more bad

Once the doctor leaves, he once again apologises to SiZhui, but this time SiZhui reaches out with his good arm and in a rare show of blatant affection, he wraps his good arm around Wei WuXian

“I understand, I promise. Please, don’t blame yourself Dad.”

Wei WuXian comes close to crying again, as he hugs SiZhui back, whispering more apologises

Later that night, Wei WuXian is lying beside Lan WangJi, still shaken by the night’s events

“I don’t deserve you and A-Yuan” he says

Lan WangJi sits up, gives him a soft glare, before reaching up and tenderly brushing a hair away from Wei WuXian’s face

“You don’t have to deserve us, but even so, you will have us by your side” he replies

Wei WuXian smiles weakly, snuggling closer

“You’re too good to me…both of you”

Welp it’s like 6am right now I need to sleep Camie so have this for now LMAO