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spnwatch · 4 years ago

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Season 1: The Rankings

WOW it’s been ages since I’ve posted here. But before moving on to s2, I wanted to talk about my TOP TEN FAVE EPISODES.

Something that surprised me about spn now i’ve finally watched some of it is how variable the episodes are in terms of quality. They’re not afraid to experiment either, and that flexibility is probably one reason this show lasted so long. Some things worked for me, some things didn’t. ANYWAY these are my opinions etc. just from a first time watcher!! 1.) Episode 6: SKIN. This episode, man. Where to even begin: I could be here all night. Suffice to say that the sequence where the shapeshifter sheds his Dean skin to “Hey Man Nice Shot” is just. Chef’s kiss. For the first time, the true depth of Dean’s self loathing truly came to the fore. How socially outcast he knows himself to be, all that hidden shame, that resentment he harbours towards Sam for having (potentially) a way out of the hunter life, coupled with his desperation not to lose him to the “normal world”: somewhere that Dean knows he can’t follow him. After so much posturing and bravado, that inner parodox was SO interesting to witness - he SHOOTS HIMSELF at the end -- and, for me, really steered the character into more *~ thematically complex territory ~* All the songs were good tbh. In-a-Gadda-da-Vida? Yes. 11/10

2.) Episode 11: SCARECROW. There was just so much going on in this episode, but the thing I liked most was the setting. It looked so good!! Autumnal and pastoral. After a couple of (in my opinion) not very good-looking episodes, it was a real breath of fresh air. I also loved Sam in this episode: he looked so small standing by the side of that road. I fully understood the argument, but I also loved how dean just... called him intermittently to update him on the case?This episode really drove home to me how alone they are, how they really have no-one but each other. It also really highlighted how far Sam has drifted from episode 1: he’s on the fringes now, too. All too quickly backsliding into the role of rootless grifter, an identiy he’d tried so hard to claw his way out of. Also, there’s a tome. 10/10

3.) Episode 12: FAITH. This. Episode. Slaps. To be honest, this is probably technically the masterpiece of the season in terms of plot, visuals, antagonist, music etc. but w/e it’s my list. Right off the bat Dean is dying and he’s like it’s fine Sammy, I’m not even mad about it, which is fucked up but then what is more fucked up is that his dad doesn’t even come when Sam leaves him a message? Dean seems to view dying as like. A thing grownups just have to do sometimes. Like jury duty. It’s extremely,extremely sad. Anyway I love the drama of Sam smashing apart the altar, I love the big tent, I love the “don’t fear the reaper” montage. It’s all, quite simply, a *~cut above~* 10/10

4.) Episode 7: HOOK MAN. I don’t know if I was meant to love this episode so much?? I just really, really liked it. I loved the central mystery, and I thought Sam in particular really shone when it came to dealing with the townsfolk and the afflicted girl. It was one of the most thematically coherent episodes when it came to tying the monster to sublimated fear, in this instance, sex and sexuality! Damn do Americans have a weird relationship with sex. And not just with women; this episode really shone a spotlight on Sam’s sexuality wrt his guilt over Jess, his desire for normality, his coltish nervousness in Lori’s presence. There was SO. MUCH. Bonus points for ugly mid-2000s fashions. 10/10

5.) Episode 3: DEAD IN THE WATER. This was the first episode which really made me sit up and go, oh, okay. I can see why people lose their minds over this show. When it’s good, Supernatural just. Shoots a volt of pure catharsis straight into your chest. This was also the first time I really sat up and took note of Jensen Ackles’ acting chops. There’s just so much going on with him every time he’s onscreen, and each little paradoxical turn he gives to Dean’s character is a joy to witness. It was a visually beautiful episode, with a strong supporting cast. The moment I saw her in her silky lavender nightgown, twisting up her unrealistically perfect chingoin, I wished to marry Amy Acker’s character. I know she doesn’t come back to spn but she should’ve!! She should’ve!! 10/10

6.) Episode 5: BLOODY MARY. I’ve heard tell of this episode being a bit of a fandom classic, and I support it. The last few minutes at the end? When Sam sees Jess at the side of the road in that slow panning shot, to the Rolling Stones song Laugh I Nearly Died? It was just... I think it changed me as a person, honestly. This show. It’s lower down on the list for me because how how freaking dark the lighting was at the end, but that might have just been the poor quality stream I found. But yeah, I really liked the plucky teen girl who helped them; I was pleasantly surprised to see a glamourous queen bee-type portrayed as smart and competent, and remain alive by the end. Gold star for you, spn. I know it’s all downhill from here. 9/10

7.) Episode 15. THE BENDERS. First off, I have to give it points for the production design on that house. My brother was of the opinon it would’ve made a good video game enviroment (according to him a lot of spn is akin to a video game which... yeah). This episode also made me really acutely feel for Dean. Could it be because I’m an older sister and this was a literal nightmare scenario? Perhaps. But again what really came to the fore was the single-mindedness with which Dean acted. Sam being dead was literally not an option for him. On a lesser show that might have been left as a given, but the time was really taken to give an almost sinister intensity to Dean’s thoughts and behavior. Some really pretty car shots too. 9/10

8.) Episode 17: HELL HOUSE. What can I say about this? It’s just fun. I love the two conspiracy guys, I love the sibling prank war, I love the concept of a monster created by shared belief. The set design was cool, as was the montage at the beginning where they’re interviewing all the witnesses. It’s a briskly paced and lighthearted episode, which was a breath of fresh air and welcome break after last episode left the Winchester boys abandoned by their father. Yet. Again. Ugh. Throw the whole dad away. 9/10

9.) Episode 19: PROVENANCE. Haunted painting! Haunted! Painting!! This is a simple lil episode but it receives points for Sam and Dean’s best and least convincing disguises thus far -- art dealers -- and a fun, sweet love interest for Sam. He’s so bashful! I thought she was smartly written and I especially liked that she took a more active role and actually helped them solve the case than other side characters we’ve seen so far. I also liked when they were standing over the grave and she was like wow, your lives are really fucked up... it’s true wtf these poor guys?? Anyway 8/10

10.) Episode 14: NIGHTMARE. This spot was a real toss-up between this and SOMETHING WICKED, but NIGHTMARE just edged it out because of the strong supporting character Max, as well as the sheer conceptual power of psychic Sam. Something about the way Dean treats his brothers latent psychic powers as... kind of a concern, but ultimately about on a par with him developing, like, a shellfish allergy, is hilarious to me. They have so many problems, it’s just low priority! Sorry Sammy. But what really clinched this episode for me was the three second-ish sequence where Sam shoves the dresser free with his mind, Dean gets shot in his vision, and Sam bursts into the room. Brilliance. Someone call the x-men. My heart was in my mouth. BIG minus points however for the extensive heart-to-hearts. It was just too much for me. It went on for so long. 7/10

This certainly is a show. I see that now. Anyway. Onto season 2!

#supernatural #long post #supernatural s1 #some dishonorable mentions: ep 4's frankly insulting attempt to convince me a flight attendant would allow the winchesters to drag a man off #and perform an exorcism on him #ep 8 for its Many Crimes #ep 22 when dean said that can't be dad #he told me he was proud of me!#JAIL #JAIL FOR SUPERNATUAL

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steve0discusses · 5 years ago

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Yugioh S3 Ep 31: Joey’s Dead (Again)

Ah, it is 5 billion degrees and working has been pretty much impossible, so, lets turn on Netflix and...

Thanks, Netflix.

Anyways, time to go see Joey get destroyed by a bird. On screen. This traumatic as hell kid’s show.

Now, usually this kid’s show is very...kid’s show in quality. The animation has exactly what it needs for most children and teens to feel satisfied--and that’s absolutely fine. You don’t have to make everything look like My Hero Academia, youknow? They were not looking for an award.

But this episode, the one where Joey freakin dies, they decided to bring out their A team. This is the best looking episode of Yugioh that I’ve seen so far, and it was freakin shocking how much better the quality was. Like, I dunno what weird blood sacrifice they did to make this episode looks so freakin good, but kudos to them, everything is more fluid, the shots are composed in a really interesting way, and for once, they actually spend the time to let these characters...react to stuff.

The big twist in Yugioh, at least for me, is when it randomly decides to be quality. It doesn’t happen all (most of) the time, but occasionally, Yugioh will just take a quality swing at me and it’s like “the hell was THAT?” Not that this episode is the best animated episode of anything ever made, it still doesn’t hold a candle to shows that are made in order to be beautiful--but for Yugioh, who’s purpose was never to be pretty (point of fact, Bakura’s hair) and who’s main purpose is to sell freakin playing cards...this is a damn pretty episode.

They just loved Joey that much I guess.

Anyway, onward for what is also the most melodramatic episode of Yugioh I’ve seen. This episode is kind of a gem. I cannot believe I just watched an episode on this show about cards where 3/4 of it was just so many boys full on ugly sobbing into their friend’s comatose body.

(read more under the cut)

Serenity, this small dot in the next cap here, has only made it to.....this part of the island. She has to now run up like 2 miles of tower. Just remember this fact for later.

Yo so...this is a stupid adult question but like who is paying for the healthcare on all these kids in this tourney? Is it just Kaiba? Is Kaiba footing the bill? I mean, it’s a kid’s show so we’ll pretend that hospitals are free (and in Japan it’s like Universal but kinda inbetween, so I’ve heard, so this would be less of a deal) but as an adult American every time they’re in a hospital scene I’m just imagining how crazy that GoFundMe campaign page would look like.

But, as Serenity starts climbing up this monalith, on the roof of said tower, Joey is at max anime. For the first time ever, his hair is drawn as like separate hairs and not as just some weird backwards anteater tail he wears on his head. And youknow what? Joey has a hellton of hair. Your hair has to be realllly long and full to do an anteater and I don’t give him enough credit.

And so after all that, Joey’s like...still up.

(I mean this is as far as I know, I don’t have Jump Force)

Remember how Yugi stood in front of one single fireball so that Joey wouldn’t take one for Mai? Now that we’ve seen how Joey was still standing after bird fire tornado--he...probably would’ve been fine with the fireball. Just conjecture, but I feel like Joey, despite not having any connection to a millennium item, is some sort of escaped X-men.

And then, like everyone on this show is wont to do, he just randomly hallucinates Yugi. What’s great about this episode is that Joey will hallucinate Yugi not once, but twice. (which will come later)

Also, this “Oh yeaaaaaahhhhh” was a super fluid animation that I might just lift because it was so freakin wild. Like it was kind of terrifying how fluid it was. In anime they tend to freelance out different clips to different animators, so they aren’t really all working in the same studio (which is why often anime will have reallllly nice animation in some parts, and then less in others, while in US studios where everyone works on everything, there’s less of that) But whoever got the Joey saying “Oh yeaaaaaaahhhh” scene must’ve been like “this is it, this is my big break” and spent like half a day making it as fluid as they could compared to everything else going on.

They also had enough time for Yugi to partially disrobe for some reason. I guess it looked cool.

Please contrast the twinkly lights and the shimmer sound effect with what follows it:

It’s at this point that Seto Kaiba actually starts to doubt this whole tourney, but not for the reason a normal person would doubt a tourney that has had several apocalypses and mass-murderers involved in it.

Kaiba was Extremely Upset about this revelation.

Anyway, Since Joey is still standing, he pulls a card, realizes it can kill Marik, slaps it on the duel disk, the monster shows up on the field, and--Kaiba either has the fastest elevator in the world, or Serenity runs a 3 minute mile because, guess who made it to the top of this tower of Babel?

That’s right, supportive Sister, here to walk Joey through the hard arduous task of basically pressing “enter” on your keyboard.

RIP again, Joey, RIP again. I mean it’s hard to get too wrapped up in it because I know he already died...this morning...like two hours ago. Like basically he got turned into stone for a bit, and then after coming back to life, took a nap on the blimpjet and then arrived at this island to die yet again. Joey Wheeler has just had such a very intense couple of days and desperately needs a nap.

But, game wise, Joey played a monster, it was on the field--what else would he have done with it???

But because he didn’t say a word loud enough for other people to hear, this didn’t count???

This game is so weird about what rules it decides are binding and which are loosey goosey. There’s absolutely no time limit, you can strap the other person to a weird wall device and throw fireballs at their face, you can sap their life energy with weird fiber optic cables, but if you don’t say the word “Attack” although the monster card is in Attack position--it doesn’t count? There’s nothing else on the field to hit but Marik himself. There’s literally nothing else Joey would have done with that card. He totally won this match but whatever, it’s Yugioh.

And lets give it up for the one and only adult in the room, everybody. Good Job, Roland. Good freakin job.

I get that he’s a butler/pilot/card referee/bodyguard, but who else is freakin there to parent any of these teens? Ishizu? Is that all we have left?

Sorry, I’ve thought more about Roland and his mysterious dodgy character than the people who made this show.

Anyway, it’s at this point that Mokuba decided to climb stuff.

Again, this episode has so many weird animation details that say a lot about the characters--and I’m just not used to this much love and care.

So another wild thing about this episode--I didn’t realize that Joey was even Shadow Realmed when I watched it through. This episode is super vague when it comes to Joey. Everyone is mourning as if he had died, and so for me, the first time watcher (as well as my Bro who saw it once when he was 13), I just assumed this is because they finally got a completely different but very good animation team on this episode. I just figured this was someone high up saying “maybe you should have the characters realistically react to at least a single death on this show where 183 people have died”

But, turns out this is actually a translation error. Because, in the Japanese version, Joey just freakin stopped breathing or something? In the English version that we’re watching, Joey is just in a coma, and it’s a rather pleasant coma (yet still my definition of a death). But, the reason everyone is reacting like...how they should have reacted the previous 182 times, is because Joey was actually legally dead.

Something they censored out to keep the show mystifyingly Y-7 although...I think I’ve said this a million times, but don’t give this show to your 7 year old. Going off of what my Nephews and Nieces like, Yugioh is a pretty far cry from PJ Masks and Monster High.

Anyway, the show goes totally all out, and everyone does a 150% more than what is ever necessary grief cry, and I think the best cry goes to Tristan although Yugi attempted really hard to steal the gold. Thing about Yugi’s grieving is that he was going more for quantity over quality, but they did a really brutal close zoom on Tristan going through the stages of Grief (mostly anger) and it was like...unexpected for a Yugioh episode y’all. I’ve never seen Tristan go that hard...ever. Tristan is usually kind of tertiary but he just came out of nowhere to scream directly at my face and I was not expecting it.

And this episode does something that I like, although it was kind of unusual for Pharaoh and Yugi--and it shows us how they react in a completely opposite way to the same traumatic event. They’ll both get around to crying but Pharaoh will take his time.

Also, we’ve seen indication of Pharaoh’s inward grief before - and it’s something they usually say but don’t show - but this is the first time they’ve actually showed that Pharaoh tends to bottle everything deep, deep down. He’s got maybe a lot of feelings about being a ghost who doesn’t have a body or a history or...anything, and him bottling up Yugi (since Yugi isn’t going to come out for the rest of this episode) is sort of a proof that he’s used to bottling everything.

Cuz outwardly, he’s just like this (and kudos to the art team for leaving a spot where Yugi’s spirit is currently crying over the corpse/coma victim)

And then meanwhile, Kaiba just has no idea what planet he’s even on. Remember that in the Japanese version, Joey freakin died in Seto’s own tournament. This would be a PR disaster, but does Kaiba...know?

(Yes, I keep a draft file that is just every single death so I can keep track of them, and this is the 4th time that Joey has died)

Then this doctor shows up, which is surprising, because I figured Marik knocked this guy out and stuffed him in a broom closet last season. But nah, it’s the same doctor, he’s back. This poor doctor who keeps having to tend Shadow Realm patients while every single person on this blimp is in the same little hospital room with him, just breathing down his neck.

Speaking of, if this doctor has been here this entire time, then why did Serenity just stay directly by Mai’s side?

They have a doctor.

Anyway, originally I thought I’d make this two parts but like...nah, we’ll just have a really long post.

Lets see how Joey’s Shadow Realm is (which, again, it is super unclear if he is or isn’t, and from when I polled you guys it looked like it was sort of like a “don’t think about it” situation of whether this is a dream of Joey’s, or the Shadow Verse)

I’ve made the joke before that you can tell it’s a dream when they’re at school but...we’re back at school. It’s the only time we see Joey in his school uniform.

Thirsty preteens rejoice, they finally removed Joey from his baggy pajama shirt that he’s been stuck in for 2 seasons. Like, do you think when Kaiba was looking at public schools, he saw that this school had not only crazy card people, but also freakin nuts shoulder pads and he just slammed that “enroll” button?

So...does Yugi KNOW that everyone else dreams about him on a regular basis? Like, does he KNOW? I figure Yugi just has sort of a weird tick related to the puzzle that makes it so people are seeing him, but Yugi has no idea that he’s got an inception method ability, right?

And especially since this is kind of a magic-onset dream, and Yugi really wants to save Joey, it sort of almost looks like Yugi is doing this maybe latently through the puzzle? But...probably not. I don’t really know what’s happening here, other than Joey’s just gonna go peace out and play this confusing card game for eternity.

That would be my Shadow Realm.

Back at our homeslice, Blimpjet, Seto has sent his little brother to deliver all of the bad news for him, knowing that Mokuba is too cute for anyone to do anything about it.

And so Mokuba decides to radio a helicopter to save him because he’s a Kaiba and doesn’t realize that planes/boats exist. Good to see that Mokuba has finally decided to embrace his job as Battle City Commissioner and figure out a solution to transporting/hiding all these bodies.

Honestly, I’m just shook that this blimpjet is not a blimpjetboat.

Bro told me that in the Japanese version, Tristan just straight up punches Joey right near this scene, and like...that’s probably true. Bro has a lot of spicy headcanons but I can see this show doing that. (bro note: that might have been an earlier Joey coma).

Knowing that, it makes this kind of more funny because Yugi is so absorbed in The Crying that I guess he didn’t notice that whole thing go down with Tristan.

I guess they wanted a throwback to S1, but this episode is so extra that Yugi very nearly stops playing cards. Nearly. He’s still gonna play cards, but I guess as a symbol to show that he’s starting to give into just not playing this game anymore, Pharaoh actually takes this weird contraption off his arm.

To do so he has to like remove the battery or something. I didn't even realize what he was doing because it was so un-intuitive, but you have to pull out this 4 inch battery from the back in order to remove the disk.

Can you imagine!???? Can you imagine wearing this thing in real life and shoving a 4 inch 2 lb battery in and out of this hulking thing every time you had to use the toilet?

Which...I guess they haven’t been, right? Like I shouldn’t go down that avenue but like...they haven’t been, right? There are just so many germs on this disk.

And so Pharaoh decides it’s finally time to lose it, maybe because Yugi wants to give up cards, or maybe because there’s no one else around so it’s finally fine for him to shed a masculine tear or two, but it took him I want to say like 20 more minutes than Yugi to finally react to all this.

And then this happens?

Anyway, remember Ishizu’s Millennium Necklace (not to be confused with the Millennium Puzzle with is also a Necklace, which Yugi also has, but he only wears one, because he just doesn’t feel like wearing 2 chokers at once, I guess)

Apparently the reason that Yugi was given the necklace was to get this one vision of the future. Get ready for it, the entire fate of the world rested on Pharaoh getting this one vision.

Yes, the answer was indeed, cards.

On the other end of the blimpjet, Mokuba I guess got tired of Roland’s poor radio skills and has decided to use the radio himself while Roland kind of just stands there and waves his arms around.

Straight up, does Mokuba have a Ham license? Are the Kaiba’s Hams? So like, Bro and I made Ham radio parts as a part time out of college and while I don’t have a license, it just really intrigues me that these boys do and I really wonder if they ever check into the emergency net and do Ham contesting when they aren’t throwing cards around. Ham people are like...really into their rigs so if you had Kaiba money, your rig would reach the curvature of the Earth.

Also, I kinda just assumed that they’re still in Japan, since Japan has a lot of islands connected to it, and the Kaiba Island does look man-made, but...is it not? Why place this factory in the middle of nowhere if you aren’t actually building a merc-for-hire program like Metal Gear? Like I know we just talked about how Gozobura Kaiba was basically Big Boss, but like...was this island made by Master Miller? Why is it in the middle of the ocean???

Big Boss had a reason to build in the sea, because he didn’t actually align with a country, so he had to be in international waters, but Gozobura Kaiba’s company is Japanese, so why go through all the trouble of--whatever I shouldn’t think about it.

So yeah, they’re too far away to radio to Japan although...that doesn’t make sense to me since why would you build a manufacturing plant so far away from your biggest buyer? But plot. Plot reasons, it had to happen this way.

And then this scene happened and it was...SO MUCH.

THIS WAS SO MUCH.

THIS SCENE WAS JUST SO FREAKIN AWKWARD.

Like it may not come through with the caps but this scene was made up to be extremely serious. The music was swelling, Pharaoh was pausing by Joey’s bedside as if to give a speech. The writers were expecting tears to come out of my face when Pharaoh did..........this

Wʜᴏ ᴡʀᴏᴛᴇ ᴛʜɪs.

Y’all I was DYING.

I had to stop the episode and just like...recover. We had to rewind so I could watch this scene twice. I could not stop laughing at the idea that the writers were like “lets take this very serious and heavy content and then make it super emotional and meaningful by SLAPPING A DUEL DISK ON IT.”

And what makes this scene even better is that like--barely anyone said ANYTHING after Pharaoh did this. He waltzed in there, did this insane thing, and then just waltzed out as if this was completely normal.

What the hell!?!?

And so while I am kind of reeling from Pharaoh just slapping a duel disk onto Joey like it’s a badge of honor and Joey was shot in the line of duty, suddenly--out of nowhere--Tea felt like reminding us that many episodes ago it was super hinted that these two might actually be approaching a relationship.

And so Tea decides to beg Yugi to stop and stay behind as if she’s a wife watching her husband like march off to the front lines or something. It was so melodramatic and just came out of NO WHERE.

Thankfully, as is this show’s custom, every time it looks like this ship might happen, every other available boy on the show must appear out of nowhere to cockblock the situation.

This episode is a lot of watching Pharaoh try his best to navigate a bunch of very delicate and intense social situations and he does so with the elegance and sensitivity of a bologna sandwich.

This shot of Kaiba on top of the tower ps was so freakin rediculous. This show just knows what it is and goes for it. Completely unashamed. I think that’s what I like most about anime--it has absolutely no shame to just be...waaaay too much.

...why THIS episode? Who was it that worked overtime for months and months just to make this one Yugioh episode look so shiny and nice?

And so the episode ends there, and probably all the character development we’ll have for the rest of the season. I cannot believe they gave me that much content in one episode. Damn.

I’m assuming next episode will be entirely cards and I’ll have like 5 caps of content.

Anyway if you just got here, this is a handy link to read these from the beginning.

#Yugioh #yu gi oh #S3 ep 31 #joey wheeler #yugi muto #tea gardner #duke devlin #seto kaiba #mokuba #marik ishtar #Joey gets killed by a God Bird #And then everybody cries

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exoscenarios3 · 6 years ago

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Love Is Complicated. (SuhoxReader) Pt.5

Pt. 1, Pt. 2, Pt. 3, Pt. 4, Pt.6

It’s been a year, and Suho and I have kept our relationship a secret for this long without literally anyone finding out, which I was very proud of, honestly. I can’t believe we kept it a secret for this long. The only problem is, Avia was officially home now, she had been back fo a while. She was done with her trip, and always at home. Today, however, she was gone for work, and Suho came home early because I wasn’t feeling well. I insisted he stay at work, and that I probably just had a small cold, but he got off anyways and came to my apartment to take care of me.

“You sure you don’t want to go to the doctor?” He asked, feeling my forehead.

“No, I’m fine really. My stomach is just trying to murder me is all.” I say, curling into a ball on the couch.

Suho sat next to me, and tried to get me to eat soup, but anything I ate, I threw back up. His face was filled with worry, and I could tell he didn’t know what to do in this situation.

“Tell me what I can do. There has to be something.” He said. I shook my head.

“Don’t worry about me, really. I’ve been sick before, I can handle it.” I say. Suho started to say something, but his phone rang. He let out a sigh and answered it.

“What is it?” He asked in his business voice. “No. I left early for a reason, can’t it wait?” He asked. “I swear to god if this is just one of your dumb ‘I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing’ things, I will fire you.” Suho yelled into the phone, hanging up angrily. “I have to go back to the bank, apparently, one of our clients backed out of something, so I have to go speak to them.” He said, taking my hand. “Will you be okay without me?” He asked, going back to his soft voice.

“I’ll be fine. Just go.” I say, laughing a little at him. He kissed my forehead and left my studio apartment.

Today was Saturday, so I knew Lay would be off, so I called him to ask if he would take me to the pharmacy to get medicine. He agreed and came to pick me up.

“Man, so much cool stuff here, it’s a shame that none of it will be bought by anyone.” Lay said, looking around.

“You can have two candies.” I say, rolling my eyes. Sometimes, he acted like an actual child.

“Two!?” He yelled, running off to the candy isle. I went to the pharmacy desk.

“Hey, I have the flu, and I need to get rid of it fast, because I really don’t have the time.” I said. “Don’t give me the soft stuff, I need the hard stuff. The Mariah Carey has to sing tonight stuff.” I say, whispering the last part.

“Of course miss Kim.” The lady said. “What’s your symptoms?” She asked.

“Well, I’m nauseous, I can’t keep anything down, I have a major headache, my boobs kinda hurt.” I said, holding my boobs for a second in discomfort. She looks at me strangely.

“That doesn’t sound like the flu.” She said, raising an eyebrow.

“Of course it’s the flu, what else could it be? I mean-“ I started to say more, but I turned my head and saw the pregnancy tests and everything basically just clicked into place.

“This counts as one.” Lay said, holding up a giant gummy bear made out of more gummy bears.

(Ten points to anyone who can figure out where that’s from)

~~~

The test turned out positive, and I honestly didn’t know what to do with myself. I threw away the stick, and walked out of the bathroom shocked.

“Man you were in the bathroom forever.” Lay said, putting down whatever random thing he was playing with. “I mean jeez, what took you so long?” He asked.

“N-nothing. I’m not. It’s nothing.”’I ramble. “We have to go to Suho’s Office.” I say.

“What? Why? I didn’t think-“ He started, but I cut him off.

“It’s an emergency!” I say, leaving the pharmacy, and going to his car.

He drove me to Suho’s Office, and everyone looked at me like they had seen a ghost as I walked through the building. I could see Suho yelling at an employee from his desk, Avia was sitting in the chair across from him. The employee left with his head hung low, and I walked in before the door could even close.

“Whoa, What’re you doing here?” Avia asked, obviously annoyed and ready to try and fight.

“I don’t have time for you, I need to speak to Suho. Alone.” I said, cutting her off quickly.

“About what?” She asked, crossing her arms, and raising her eyebrows.

“Lord Voldemort is back, and I murdered him.” I say, giving her a look.

“Suho’s over you, it’s been a year, get over it.” She says, rolling her eyes.

“Okay, she beast, it’s important, it’s about Kai and I need to speak to him alone.” I say, waving a dismissive hand at her.

“You don’t-“ She started.

“Avia.” Suho said, gesturing his head towards the door. She looked at him and then at me, and huffed before getting up and leaving.

“Okay, act annoyed at me, because your whole office is pure glass and everyone can see everything we’re doing.” I say, starting to pace.

“...Okay? But why are you here? You should be at home resting and not pacing around like a mad man.” He said, watching as I paced.

“You know how this morning I thought I had the flu?” I asked.

“Yeah, it was just a few hours ago.” He said.

“Yeah, well I went to the pharmacy to get medicine for it, and the lady told me my symptoms didn’t sound like the flu, so I was like well what else could it fucking be, ya know? Like obviously it’s the flu right?” I said, rambling again.

“Just spit it out, what do you have?” He asked, scrunching his eyebrows at me.

“It’s not what I have... but what WE have.” I say, nervously. “Suho... I’m pregnant.” I say, stopping my pacing to look him in the eye. He froze completely, staring off into space. “Suho? Hello?” I waved my hand in front of his face, but nothing. “Suho please say something.” I pleaded. I turned around and see Avia, Lay, And Baekhyun staring at us from Baekhyun’s desk. I give a quick smile, but turn back to Suho.

“Pregnant.” He said, finally. “What do we do? I mean, we’re going to have to tell everyone now, right? I have to study up on parenting. Oh god. I’m busy, like, all the time, what if we’re the parents that never pays attention to our kid because we’re busy and we only let the nanny take care of it?” He said. Now he was the one rambling.

“It’ll be fine. We’ll tell everyone, separately, we’ll be perfect parents and everything is going to be just fine.” I say, trying to calm him down. He stood up and started pacing too.

“I mean. A baby? How can we- what if we- I’m.” He said, putting his glasses on the desk.

“Let’s just wait to tell everyone until we go get a sonogram in a few weeks, and see what’s going on in there, and then we’ll tell everyone.” I say. Suho nods and take a deep breath.

“I’m gonna.” He starts. “I’m gonna pass out.” He said, passing out, and landing on the floor.

“Oh my god.” I said, bending down next to him.

Avia, Lay, and Baekhyun rushed into Suho's office, slamming the door open.

"What exactly did you do!?" Avia asked, outraged. She crouched down to Suho. He had woken up, but was still out of it. He tried to sit up, but she made him lay back down quickly.

"What happened?" He groaned.

"You just passed out for some reason." Avia explains.

"Do we take him to the hospital or?" Baekhyun asked, not knowing what to do in this situation. He isn’t the only one.

"No, he didn't hit his head, and he probably just got too hot or tired." Avia explains, moving a strand of hair out of his face, which kinda made me wanna punch her in the face. “I’m late for work, so I have to leave. Just get him some ice.” She said, laying Suho down gently, and leaving the room.

“What the hell happened? Why are you here? Why did Suho pass out?” Baekhyun asked, freaking out.

“Baek, please. Calm down, give him space.” I said, making sure Baekhyun wasn’t hovering over Suho. “I’ll explain everything later, I swear, just... get me some cold water.” I said. Lay got up, and went to get a cup of water. I poured it on Suho’s face, and he shot up. “Are you okay?” I asked, putting my hand on his shoulder.

“I’ll be fine.” He said, holding his head.

“Here.” I say, giving him a towel to dry off, and also gave him the ice. “Can you give us a second please?” I asked, looking at Lay and Baekhyun. They gave me a weird look, and lingered for a second, but got up and left the room, standing close by the windows. “Are you sure you’re okay?” I asked, worried about Suho.

“Yeah, I think so. I’m just trying to process everything.” He said, looking at the ground. “You’re pregnant.” He said, looking up at me.

How Suho processes life changing things is always weird. First he freaks out about it, then he’s happy about it, then he freaks out again and so on and so forth.

“Yeah, I am.” I say, smiling.

“You’re pregnant! With my kid! I’m gonna be a dad!” He said, excited.

“So you’re happy about it?” I asked.

“Of course. Do you know how much I love you?” He said, holding my hands. I smiled at him even bigger than I was before, but remembered that Lay and Baekhyun could see us. I pretended like I was just helping him up, and let go of his hands quickly, backing away from him.

“We have watchers.” I said, gesturing my head towards the boys. Suho looked over, and waved for them to get back to work.

“We’ll have to talk about this more when I get home. I really want to hug you and kiss you right now, but since everyone can see us...” He said trailing off. “We should get married right? I don’t want to be those parents who had a kid and never got married, and then have to explain to our kid why we never did, and they get jealous of everyone else’s parents.” Suho started rambling again. Like I said, he has a weird way of processing things.

“Suho, calm down. We’ll figure everything out later. We have plenty of time.” I say, holding him by his shoulders. “I’m gonna go. I just couldn’t wait for you to get home to tell you, and I love you, and I’ll see you later.” I said, leaving his office so he could get back to work. I really wanted to kiss him goodbye but because we can’t let people know, I couldn’t. Lay and Baekhyun followed me down the hall and out the building.

“Tell us. Tell us. (Y/N), tell us.” They basically chanted all the way out.

“Oh my god, I can’t. It’s just personal stuff that I have to deal with, and I’m just stressed out about it.” I said, running my fingers through my hair.

“You know, (Y/N), sometimes life throws us crazy curves. And, yes, this moment may be the biggest curve,” Baekhyun started, motioning a curve at his belly. “You’ve ever had to deal with, but just because your family is getting bigger does not mean that you can’t handle it. You and Suho can handle anything.” He said, smiling.

“Wow. Baekhyun, thank you. That’s exactly what I needed to hear right now. God, it’s so weird that you found out that I was pregnant before anyone else did-“

“PREGNANT!?” Lay and Baekhyun yelled at the same time, catching me off guard. “Wow. (Y/N)!”

“Yeah, What did you think?” I asked, confused.

“I thought you were getting a dog.” Baekhyun said.

“Well why did you go like this?” I asked, doing the same curve move at my belly like he did.

“That’s the sign for petting a dog that’s sitting on your lap. But pregnant!? Wow! Oh, that’s amazing!” Baekhyun said.

“Wait whose is it?” Lay asked. I closed my eyes and shook my head. They can be such idiots.

“Suho’s.” I said, rolling my eyes.

“You two have been sleeping with each other? And now your pregnant? Talk about awkward.” Lay said, looking at Baekhyun

“No, we haven’t been sleeping with each other. I mean we have been, but we actually got back together a while ago. A year ago to be exact.” I admit.

“And you didn’t tell us til now!? What!? I thought we were your best friends and to think, we helped you out in your darkest times.” Baekhyun over exaggerated.

“I had to keep it a secret. I’m sorry. But now you guys have to keep this a secret, until Suho and I figure everything out. I swear to god if either of you mentions anything about babies to anyone, I will drop kick you I swear.” I say, pointing at the two of them.

~~ Third person~~

It had been a few hours since the big news. Avia had come back from her work, and met up with Baekhyun and Lay at their desks.

"So how is he doing now?" She asks.

"He seems to be doing fine. Well better than fine, he keeps smiling at his computer. I wonder what he's looking at?" Baekhyun says, peering into their boss’ office.

"Yeah it’s a bit-" Avia watched Suho. It was honestly puzzling. "Strange," She says, walking into his office. "You seem to be feeling better." She says, smiling.

"Yeah I a-" Suho looks at her, and his face turned white. "Oh shit. Well you know I'd love to talk but I'm busy, and you're busy, and we gotta be busy in different places, and, so, yeah, you should leave. Not because I don't want you here, or like I'm scared of you or anything, why would you think something like that?"

She moved to say something, but he started rambling again.

"I'm not paranoid what are you talking about? No way, no one is paranoid here. You go on... and you do drugs, or gamble, or something else wholesome." He said, leading her out.

"Uh okay?" She turned back to Baekhyun and Lay. "What the hell?"

"You know it’s probably just the b-" Baekhyun began, but Lay kicked him.

"Buttload of uuuuuuuhh of uuh drugs... That he is doing." Lay winced at the end of that sentence.

"Right... I’m leaving." She says, shaking her head and leaving the office, quickly.

~~Your P.O.V~~

A few weeks passed, and Suho and I went to go get a sonogram, to make sure the baby was okay.

“Oh, there it is. It’s completely healthy, it’s still too soon to tell what the gender it is, but it looks like it’s developing pretty well.” The doctor said, pointing at the screen. Suho and I smiled at each other, happy to hear the news. “Oh wait... There’s another one. Looks like you’re having twins.” He said, looking closer at the screen.

“Twins!? As in two babies? That look alike?” Suho asked, shocked.

“Not exactly. Twins don’t have to look alike... But there are two.” The doctor said with a smile. “Now. You two comeback in eight to ten weeks, and I’ll be able to tell you the gender of the two lucky babies.” He said, turning the machine off, and taking off his gloves.

“Twins. We’re having twins.” Suho said, looking down at me. I’m sure my face mirrored his. We were both beyond shocked, and didn’t know what to do. “We can handle this right?” He asked.

“Honey, we can handle anything. The twins are going to be beautiful, healthy, talented, and smart, and they’re going to have the best parents in the entire world.” I say, squeezing his hand.

We left the doctors office and headed home. Once we got there, we had to discuss future matters.

“Okay, so I guess today’s the day when we tell everyone the news.” Suho said, putting his keys on the table, as we walked in his apartment.

“I guess so... What about are living situations? We should move back in together, right?” I asked.

“Well, I’m not having my pregnant girlfriend live by herself. What if something happens? Plus, since we’re telling everyone today, there’s no need to sneak around anymore.” He said, sitting on the couch with me following.

“Okay, that’s settled then.” I say, letting out a sigh.

“I think we should get married. Maybe not go all out like the first time, but just have close family and friends there, somewhere small, no interruptions.” He said, grabbing my hand.

“I would like that.” I smile, giving him a kiss. He took the ring off my finger, and stood up, bringing me up as well. “Suho, what are you doing?” I asked, amused. He got down on one knee, and held out the ring.

“(Y/N), I love you so much, and now you’re carrying not one, but two of the most precious things with you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and start this family right. Will you marry me?” He asked. I laugh and nod.

“Of course I will.” I say, he stood up, and wrapped his arms around me, and then put the ring back on my finger, giving me a passionate kiss, before letting me go.

“I say you move back in right now.” He said.

“My lease isn’t up until next month though.” I say, pouting.

“I have money, babe. Don’t worry about it.” He said, taking a hold of my hand, and leading me out of the apartment again.

We drove to my studio apartment, and Suho basically bribed me out of my lease, and we started packing up my stuff. Even though I really liked this small studio apartment, I was happy to go back to Suho’s. I hated being away from him, and not being able to wake up next to him every other morning.

Suho texted Avia, Lay and Baekhyun to meet him at his place in a few hours. By the time we got done packing everything up, loading it into the car, and bringing it back to Suho’s place, the time for the others to get here was very near. We brought in the last box, and the three of them walked in.

“What the hell is all this?” Avia asked, looking around at all the boxes laying around.

“Oh, you’re here. Good.” Suho said, nervously. “Okay, I need everyone to sit down.” He said, leading everyone to the couch. “We have an announcement to make.”

“Uh oh.” Avia says, not liking where this is heading.

“(Y/N) and I have gotten back together. We’ve been back together for a year now.” He started.

“Excuse me!?” She practically yells.

“Let him finish.” I say, giving her a look.

“I know, you don’t approve of this, but it happened and I’m very happy, and I love her very much.” Suho said, putting his arm around my waist.

“Oh my god.” She rolls her eyes.

“We also plan on going through with getting married, and she’s moving back in with me, hints to why all the boxes are here.” He continued. Baekhyun and Lay has a huge smile planted on their faces.

“This is ridiculous.” Avia says, obviously mad. Suho let out a sigh, and continued.

“There’s more. A few weeks ago, (Y/N) came to me with some exciting/stressful/happy/painful/amazing news... The reason I’ve been acting so strange and seeming like I’ve been avoiding you lately is because, well, she’s pregnant.” Suho announced.

“What!?” Avia straight up screams.

“Pregnant!!! A baby!!! I’m so happy I could die!!!!” Baekhyun yelled in her ear.

“Suho, you can’t be serious?” She says, standing up now. “

Well, He is. And it’s not just a baby, it’s twins, I’m having twins!” I say, more to Lay and Baekhyun than her. The two boys jumped for joy, and came to hug me.

“Twins!? TWO whole babies!? Oh my god that’s gonna be so fucking cute. If you need anyone to babysit, I’m free anytime. Except for weekends and nights, but anytime during work hours, I can totally watch over them.” Lay said, earning a look from Suho.

“Are you hearing yourselves!? Twins?? And you hid all of this from me for a year!! Do you not remember what she did to you?” Avia says to Suho, furious.

“It’s hard to forget when all you do is bring it up.” Suho said. I could tell this wasn’t about to go well.

“Okay, See, it’s my cousins, brother’s, dog’s birthday, and I can’t miss it so, I’m gonna go.” Baekhyun said, noticing how much the tension was building.

“Yeah, me too. My Grandma is at the same party, and she just turned twelve so.” Lay said, leaving quickly with Baekhyun.

“Suho, I refuse to let you get back together with her.” Avia says, ignoring the two boys.

“Well, it’s already happened and you’re not his guardian so,” I start, but Suho put his hand out in front of me to stop me.

“You don’t need to be stressed out too much, let me handle this.” He said in a sweet voice to me.

“Well, it’s already happened and you’re not my guardian, so.” He repeated, with almost the same level of sass I had, but not quite.

“Suho, she slept with another guy, while you were engaged to her!” She argued.

“Oh please, you have no room to talk.” He said, rolling his eyes.

“What are you talking about?” She asked, crossing her arms.

“Oh don’t play dumb. You slept with the entirety of Kai’s bank just to get to the top, AND you even thought about cheating on Chanyeol with Kyungsoo multiple times, don’t think I’ve forgotten those conversations we had from last month. You’re even more of a slut, so don’t start.” Suho yelled.

“Suho...” I said, shocked. I was a little mad that she had done all that but still continued to call me out for my one (1) mistake, but I did think Suho went a little too far with that one.

"But I didn't cheat on him. I thought we were supposed to be friends. You lied to me for a whole year. If you told me, then yeah, at first I would've been frustrated but can't you see I just wanted you to be happy?"

"Avia I'm-"

"Save it, I have places to be." She says, before grabbing her bag to leave.

"Wait, there's a lot of explaining that all of us need to do please just stay so we can talk." I plead.

"Right now, the two of you are the last people I'd listen to." She turned her back and left the apartment.

I was trying to calm Suho down, when Kyungsoo came in.

“This was at your door.” He said, bringing in a box.

“I’ll open it later.” Suho said, rubbing his forehead.

“I ran into Avia in the hall. She told me what happened.” Kyungsoo said, sitting on the couch.

“You guys hid this for a whole year? That’s impressive.” He said, nodding. It was always hard to read him.

“We’re sorry for keeping it secret, but this is what I was trying to avoid.” Suho said, standing up to look inside the box that he said he’d open up later. “Yup. It’s everything I’ve bought her.” He said, looking through the box of clothes, jewelry and pictures.

“You should’ve told her earlier.” Soo said, watching Suho look through the box.

“Either way, if I told her now or earlier, it would’ve gone down the same way.” He sighed.

“It’s exactly like when you broke up with me.” I scoffed. “What a copycat.” I said to myself, quiet enough to make sure no one could hear me.

“She just needs time alone, she’ll come to her senses.” Suho said, putting all the stuff back in the box.

“She seemed pretty upset, maybe you should see her later.” Kyungsoo said.

“It’s kinda disappointing that she told you the news though...” I said, pouting a little.

“Well, I’m an actor so, I can act like she didn’t tell me.” He shrugged.

“I’m pregnant!” I say, basically screaming it.

“You’re pregnant!?” He said, screaming too.

“With Twins!!!” I yelled.

“With TWINS!?” He repeated, acting really excited like he never heard about this. “I’m so happy for you two, you’ll be great parents.” He said, giving us a thumbs up.

~~ Avia’s P.O.V~~

It had been a few days, Suho hadn't come to talk to me since that night. I regretted getting rid of all of mine and Suho's memories, bc now my apartment was completely bare, and overall extremely sad.

I got a phone call, and answered it quickly, without checking who the number was, "Hello," I said.

"Hello, dear. We just called to make sure you're coming to our dinner tonight. It is a tradition, but you have been so busy lately, we just wanted to make sure we didn't need to move it. It wouldn't be the same without you," Suho's father was calling about the annual dinner we had at his mansion to celebrate the end of the tax season.

I winced thinking about having to confront Suho again, but I didn't want to drag his parents into the drama surrounding the two of us.

"Of course I'm coming, I wouldn't miss it for the world." I say as happily as I could muster.

"Great, see you tonight."

I hung up quickly, and groaned at the thought of having to confront the two of them tonight. I wasn't even sure that Suho's parents knew (Y/N) and him were back together or pregnant.

It just hit me that I would have to go to this dinner completely alone, and since I gave back everything Suho had gotten me, I didn't have a dress fancy enough for the event. I groaned, and fell onto my bed in frustration.

A knock echoed through my apartment, and I secretly hoped it was Suho, but when I answered, I saw that it was D.O. My brain lit up with an idea quickly.

"Hey, I just came to check on you to see if you were feeling any better." He said.

"Not really, but you know what would be really helpful? If you could be my date to Suho's family dinner tonight." I say, brightly.

"Really?" His face lit up. It was cute how excited he got, and I blushed slightly. "I mean, uh, yeah, I can totally do that, what's the dress code?"

"Formal, very formal. Dress to impress." I say, simply. "Great, so just meet me here tonight." I say.

Great. So one thing done, now all I needed to do was go out to get a dress. I kept saying it was a family dinner, which was somewhat true, it was hosted by Suho's family, but a lot of executives and CEO's would be there including Kai, Xuimin, and Chanyeol so leaving a good impression was extremely important.

~~Your P.O.V~~

I knew about the dinner, I went every year with Suho, but this year I was even more nervous than any year before. Suho’s dad already didn’t like me, and he didn’t know that Suho and I were back together, and if he finds out I’m pregnant, lord knows how he’ll react.

I put on my dress, and let out a nervous sigh. Suho came behind me and zipped the back for me.

“Don’t be nervous, it’ll be fine, I promise.” He said, kissing my cheek.

“Your dad hates me, and after the wedding he probably hates me even more, and now I’m carrying your children. and he’s going to disapprove even more.” I ramble.

“We don’t need his approval. I love you, and I want to be with you, and that’s all that matters.” He said, turning me to face him. He gave me a kiss.

“Suho, He said that the next mistake you make, he’ll replace you with your brother.” I say, worried.

“He won’t. You’re not a mistake. Just take a deep breath and calm down, okay?” He said.

The doorbell rang, and he went to go get it. I pulled my hair up in a bun, and pulled out a few pieces. I looked at myself in the mirror. After putting on my jewelry, I went to the living room where Suho was and we left the apartment. We went to the dinner by a limo, and as soon as we arrived, I got even more anxious as before. Suho noticed and squeezed my hand. I took another deep breath, and we got out of the limo.

Suho put his arm around my waist, and we went to the room where everyone was. Suho’s dad came to greet us, but as soon as he realized I was there, his expression changed quickly.

“Suho, always nice to see you, son.” His father said, shaking Suho’s hand, completely ignoring me. “Can’t really say the same for you. What is she doing here?” He asked.

“Nice to see you too, Mr. Kim.” I said, giving a fake smile.

“Dad, (Y/N) and I have gotten back together, and I would really appreciate it if you would treat her nicely.” Suho said, pulling me a little closer. Suho’s dad nodded, and walked away without saying anything. “See, all good.” Suho said, smiling at me.

“I wouldn’t say it’s all good.” I say, spotting Avia coming in.

“Father must have called her.” Suho said, looking over at her.

“Let’s sit down.” He said, gesturing to the table. We sat down and Avia sat across from us, with Kyungsoo. Suho’s dad did his normal speech, and looked down at Suho.

“And now a few words from my delightful son, Suho.” He said, sitting down. Suho stood up, and looked at everyone in the room.

“Thank you, everyone, for coming. This dinner happens every year for the end of tax season, it’s the one time where all banks can get together and get along.” Suho said, earning a small laugh from everyone. “Everyone, please enjoy your food, and make sure you don’t drink too much, we don’t want a repeat of last year. I’m looking at you Carol.” Suho joked. Everyone laughed again. “Anyways, here’s to a good year for all of us.” He said, raising his champeign glass, before sitting back down.

Suho’s phone lit up, and he quickly looked at the text message as his father stood up again to make another speech.

"You don't have to be childish about this." He said, looking over at Avia.

"Oh, so, hiding the truth from me, so you don't have to deal with the consequences isn't childish?" She whispers.

"That was different, I didn't want to upset you."

"So instead of upsetting me, you planned to hide the truth from me forever, and then when that plan failed, you decided to attack me? Remind me why you are in charge of a multi-billion dollar company again." She retorts.

“You know you and Lauren would have fought again, and I didn’t want either of you to get hurt.” Suho whispered.

“Both of you stop. This is not the time or place to be doing this.” I say, leaning forward, so everyone at the dinner table wouldn’t hear me.

“Lauren’s right. You’re both acting childish, so just stop. This is a pretty important dinner, with important people, and the son of the actual largest man in Korea can’t break out into a fight in front of all these people. Think about your reputation.” Kyungsoo said, looking at Suho during the last bit.

“Just call a truce for tonight, it’s all we’re asking.” I say.

Avia huffed frustrated, she opened her mouth to say something, but Suho’s father walked over to us in his round around the table.

"The turn out is great this year, and already gotten a jump start on the next season." Suho's father raved.

"Wow that's great sir," Avia said, in a way where she was kissing up to him. Suho glared at her for a moment, before angrily stuffing a fork full of salmon and spinach into his mouth. "Oh I almost forgot, I know you're such a busy person I hope you, your wife, and Suho can all find time to come see my movie when it premieres." I explain. I honestly didn’t know she was in a movie. Maybe Suho told me, but I didn’t listen.

"Of course, sweetheart, we wouldn't miss it for the world." Suho's mother spoke up.

"I'm sure I have something that day," Suho tried.

"No it’s your day off, I checked." Avia smirked. Suho covered his eyes and groaned, annoyed.

"What is that matter with you?" His father asked.

“I’m just a little tired is all, I’m fine.” Suho said, taking a sip of wine.

“So, (Y/N). What have you been up to?” Mr. Kim asked me. I paused eating my food, and looked up at him, surprised he was asking. I knew it was pretty much a sarcastic question, and I didn’t know if I should answer or not.

“Well... Right now, I’m just kind of working here and there... I’m not really doing much...” I said, trailing off my sentence at the end, when I realized the only one who cared what I was saying was Suho and maybe Kyungsoo.

“And what made you want to get back together with Suho after what you did? Did you not have enough money working odd jobs, so you came back to him so he could support you?” His dad asked, I squeezed my fork and bit the inside of mouth to not say some smart ass answer that would cause a scene.

“Father.” Suho warned.

“I’m just asking. You never know with these girls.” Mr. Kim said.

“These girls?” I asked, the attitude starting to come out of me. Suho put his hand on my thigh, to calm me down.

“There’s no angle, she’s not trying to get anything out of me, we genuinely love each other. Besides, I work hard, so she doesn’t have to. She could completely stop working for all I care.” Suho said, holding my hand now.

“Not to mention, she’s pregnant.” Avia says, nonchalantly. It’s like the whole place went completely silent to look down at us.

“Excuse me!?” Mr. Kim yelled.

“With twins!” She said, pretending to be excited.

“That was not your news to tell.” Suho said, glaring at her.

"Were you just going to lie about it until they were born, and then decide to tell him? You two have a habit of hiding the truth from everyone." She retorts.

Kyungsoo put his hand on her lower back, and pleaded with his eyes for her to stop.

"How long exactly have the two of you been together since you've reunited?" Suho's father asked, bracing himself against the table.

"About a year." Avia says, before either of us could answer. "I was surprised too when they told us, but hey, if you're lucky, Suho will insult every aspect of your personality." She says.

I saw Chanyeol, Kai, and Xuimin had caught on to what was happening, but the people sitting further away were still oblivious.

“A year!? You told no one!?” Mr. Kim yelled. “Wait until your mother hears about this.” He said.

“I am a grown ass man, I can be with whoever I want, it shouldn’t matter to any of you. It’s my life, not yours.” Suho said.

“Getting back together with the girl who cheated on you, and announced it at your wedding, and now this. Of course it matters to us, it matters to your whole reputation.” Mr. Kim said.

“Suho wasn’t the one who started to cause a scene in the middle of this dinner.” I say, looking at Avia.

"Don't even start. She has every right to be angry." Kyungsoo finally spoke up.

"Yeah, I don't see why I'm being punished for trying to be a good friend." She says.

"You both just need to stop, there are a lot of important people here who will use this against Suho, and I know even though you’re mad at him, you still care about him." Kyungsoo whispers. Avia sighs, and bite her lip nervously.

“... And that, ladies and gentlemen, was the saga of the businessman and his mistress. Being written by... Kyungsoo, who is an actor but a writer on the side.” I said, making something up, trying to make it believable.

“Ah, yes. That was a rehearsed argument, and I’m glad everyone enjoyed it. Nothing was real, proceed with your dinner.” Kyungsoo said, going along with it. “Now, you two, zip it for the rest of the night. I don’t want to hear a peep out of you.” He said, sitting back down after the dinner went back to it’s normal chatter. “And Mr. Kim, with all do respect, please try not to cause a scene anymore. This could jeopardize everything you two have worked for.” He said, his tone serious.

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The dinner had gone back to normal for everyone else, but at our end of the table, there was definitely tension. Suho and I decided to get up and talk to the others here, just to get away from his dad. Suho did all the talking, I was pretty quiet, smiling when I had to. After about an hour or so passed, everyone was pretty much done with eating. There was an after party, but Suho suggested that we didn’t go.

“Are you sure? It’s a party, so it’s not like we’ll have to talk to your father or anything.” I said.

“I really don’t think we should go. It’ll probably be better if we just went home and rest.” He said.

“Suho wants to rest? Wow.” I say, jokingly. “Alright, we can go.” I say.

We got in our limo and headed home instead of the after party.

#exo #exo angst #exo au #exo scenarios #exo smut #exo fic #exo fanfiction #exo fluff #Suho #baekhyun #chanyeol #do kyungsoo #kai #lay #Kim Jongin #Kim Junmyeon #exo k #exo m

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snkpolls · 6 years ago

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SnK S3E04 Poll Results (Manga Reader Version)

The poll closed with 407 responses. Thank you to everyone who participated!

Please note that this is the results of the manga reader poll. Anime only watchers are suggested not to read if you do not wish to be spoiled about certain events! Anime only viewers, click here to view your poll results!

Rate the episode

Overall, respondents gave the episode high ratings, with 90% total feeling that it was at least very good. The pollsters are very happy to see these ratings improve!

The episode felt short. I wanted more after watching it :)

The pacing of this episode was much better than the first two

We're only on episode 4 and about to enter the climax of the arc, not sure how I feel about this.

Very good. I hope that the skipped scenes appear in a later episode.

It was pretty neat. Sometimes stuff is a touch slow, but I know it’s all a lead up to what’s to come, and like, it’s important to have stuff that is slow sometimes so the big stuff feels even bigger.

This recent episode found a little boring to me. I feel like there's wasn't much action less Levi

Bruh I need the next episode like rn

Did you notice the subtle changes made to the animation in the OP this week?

Less than a quarter of respondents initially noticed that there was something different about the OP this week. However, just over half noticed them upon a second watch or seeing it pointed out by others.

I didn't notice the changes in the opening because I always skip it.

Which of the following scenes were your favorites?

Hange and Moblit taking out the MP’s won by a good margin. The runner up is Spider-Hange. Levi and Mikasa reacting to Kenny’s last name, Levi interrogating the Central MP and Jean testing Marlowe and Hitch were also very loved moments!

The moments between Jean and Marlowe is one of my favorites. That was really fantastic and Marlowe is going to be a wonderful SC member. Too bad he will die later. I was really upset about it while reading the manga. He was such promising and brave guy.

I enjoyed the moment when Erwin asked Nile about Marie. It felt like he still had some feelings to her. I wonder if they're going to go back to this topic later (in flashbacks). Probably not.

This episode was so fucking amazing after the exposition heavy episode 3! I have literally waited years to see Hange taking down that MP animated, shit, the way she just casually like ducks away from the bullet... I used to keep staring at the badassery in that manga panel and now I am watching it on repeat, Wit got that scene so perfectly right!!

My whole life has lead up to this moment with Hitch and Marlo!!! Bless WIT for doing so good by my precious MP!

It was hilarious when 3MPs ran on the ground to chase Flegel while they are equipping ODMG. It was even funnier when one of them cried for joy catching Flegel without using ODMG.

Faithful to the manga with a healthy combination of action and world-building. LOVED Flegel's "I'm the boss" scene.

Erwin’s VA was superb! I was close to tears during the scene when he and Nile were talking.

Who made the best face when ambushing the MP base?

Connie won by a landside! There was no contest here, folks.

How bangable was Levi this episode on a scale of 1-5?

As expected, over half of respondents would love it if Levi totally wrecked them. Although there are still quite a few of you who would rather he not.

LEVI DADDY PLEASE STEP ON ME!

Levi in the moonlight was everything I never knew I needed.

Levi cutie crazy ass bitch

Levi. Le-vi. LEVI.

On a scale of 1-5, how distressed were you to see Erwin beat up and chained?

More than half of respondents are anxious to see Commander Handsome out of chains and cleaned up!

How Erwin can kneel before them on his own? When he knows how horrible they are that they made decisions that killed his father? How can he be like that? Oh just take my heart away already! It's not that I need it…

Also, seeing my husband all beat is tragic and seeing him hanging was far too distressing and I know what’s going to happen in this season, but I want to pretend it isn’t happening and that he might be happy when he reunites with Levi

Erwin also manages to look hot not matter how beat up he is, which isn't even fair.

I love Erwin and he deserves the world. That is all.

Are you feeling better or worse about the season so far?

Most voters either felt great about the season from the beginning or have started to warm up to it a lot more! There is still a small percentage of those who are still unsure or unhappy, however.

Feeling alright overall about it but disappointed about some parts being rushed/skipped

I did not like the first two episodes, but now that the pacing has slowed I’m starting to like the episodes better. Still salty about the first two though.

I knew I was going to love it just because it's AOT, but I won't know how much I love it until I've seen how they handle the RtS arc

I havent feel good, still dont feel good but its better than before, so a combo of the 2nd and 4th option

I'm loving the episodes, but I'm still unure about some of the removed scenes, specially the ones involving Historia and Levi COS i swear to dead Marco if they do not animate Levi's smile im gonna riot

I'll wait until this arc is over to cast any judgement. However, I do wish they would've expanded the Reeves' storyline. It kinda fell flat for me in the anime.

Was unsure at first with all the changes from the manga, but have come to accept that some things are gonna be different so I'm just gonna enjoy it as it is. At the end of the day, it's still Attack on Titan so I'll always enjoy it.

I’m just happy we’re getting this season at all

I never thought they could make the uprising arc funny and interesting

Instead of attacking the Centrap MP HQ, Squad Levi ambushed a small outpost on the outskirts of Trost instead. Did you like this change?

Nearly half of respondents were okay or even preferred this change. 36% are let down that there was no slicing and shooting though. Chin up guys, the cave is coming soon!

I always thought it was a little confusing that squad Levi would go all the way out to the central base, so I think this made more sense because of how they're still on the run. The anime version feels a lot more like they could be caught at any second, which is great!

I was looking forward to the 104th's subtle distressed reactions after having done what they had to do. But I guess the anime is not for subtle.

I'm not sure if replacing the newfound edge from the SC by a lulzy moment was a right choice. I feel like we're losing the grim aspect of the SC not being good guys anymore.

I didn't even remember how the manga handled that, so I didn't notice the change.

I honestly like both situations

While i did want to see the gang cut up peoples legs, the anime version made more sense and I'm down for any Springlestein.

While the cart charge was hilarious, I'm not sure why a small outpost would know anything about Eren and Historia's location.

I quite honestly didn't notice the difference, the real attraction was Levi fucking the old boy's shit up

While I hopedd they'd make it bigger, after watching the episode I grew to like it, it makes sense both geographically and in terms of the scale of the event.

Oh lol I totally expect them to go ahead and get the Central MP HQ next. I mean, didn't they also do that so that the MP's couldn't mobilise and come to Kenny/Rod's defense later on?

Were you expecting there to be more focus on the press?

Most respondents were expecting to get Hange’s talk with the press prior to exposing the Military Police. A few are certain it’s lost not, while a good 30% are hopeful that we’ll still get it in another way.

By making the newspaper Trost local, their presence didn't need to be explained, and some aspects from their talk from 60 can be merged with the little moment from the Rookie from 61 after Erwin's trial so as to not be redundant.

The talk with Hange and the press will no doubt happen next episode.

Having a flashback would be good, but I don't have much faith in them doing it

Indifferent to it, doesn't make much difference to the overall plot.

we will get them though not in a flashback half the arc has been rearranged remember.

I NEED Hange brooding on a desk in the press office, it's an important part of my spiritual development

I hope we get more Peaure :(

Which scene from the PV are you most looking forward to next week?

At 41%, the largest group is most anticipating getting a flash of Frieda in the mirror. It’s about time we get to see her in anime form after all these years, right? The remaining three scenes are at an even split.

Since we’re getting Frieda in the mirror, do you think there will be a flashback to the conversation about Eren’s experiments?

To build off of the previous question, over half of respondents are anticipating the potential for the bedside flashback to happen after all. 35% are optimistic that it will definitely happen, while 11% believe we’re getting Frieda flash in another way.

I'm hoping the Frieda content doesn't come across as too rushed in the next few episodes. In the manga, almost a year passed between the first Frieda flashbacks and Rod's full story in the chapel underground, but it seems Frieda's anime debut will be only an episode or two before the story. Still looking forward to how it all plays out!

Where do you primarily discuss the series?

Additional thoughts on the episode?

*chanting* STICK! STICK! STICK! STICK!

the changes are fine, doesn't stray too far from the manga. Maybe also makes the anime less of a drag.

Connie had goofy hat. All my stanards has been pleased.

Finally the pacing slowed down to a human level. I'm happy to see so much of Erwin, but it still pains me how he is characterized.

HITCH WITH THE STICK HOLY HELL. Honestly that whole fight scene between Hitch, Marlowe and Jean exceeded my expectations (hopefully not sounding too much like a worshiper). I just love it (probably too much).

Hanji can punch me and I’ll thank her

I MISS EREN AND HISTORIA

I can't believe Flegel sat on the dude's face lol.

Why did Not!-Marco not look like Marco at all?

I don't have a great memory of manga events but I'm feeling shocked - as though the anime is really rushing through events, so I feel worried now!

I love it. The animation when Hanji and Moblit attacked the MP was spectacular. The animators have continuously outdone themselves this season so far.

I'm not sure about my feelings and impressions about this season so far. I got disappointed before with other mangas adaptations, and now, I don't feel like trusting WIT for the moment, until I see some logical modifications.

When it was announced that there would be changes made I was skeptical and thought that the manga was perfect the way it was. Oh boy was I wrong. While I am still angry about some scenes, others just make more sense. I think wit is doing a great job.

Only thing that makes me sad is that Armin's glorious gesumin expressions weren't animated till now.

Honestly so excited to 24 episodes this time not 12. But still proper sick episode.

I've mentioned it on Tumblr before, but while I like how things have been centralized around Trost in this version of Uprising, it does cause an issue. How did Erwin, his captors, and Nile all get from Trost to Mitras in the space of a single morning? They military police either has teleporting tech or an underground bullet train. Or Isayama really wants to replicate S7 of Game of Thrones with characters teleporting all over.

NEXT EPISODE WE’L GET OUR ACKERTALK!!!!!! Eeeeek!!!

No Kenny?! So what kind of episode was that?!

I enjoyed this chapter a lot. Can´t wait to see Eren again.

Well fuck. Manga readers, we know what happens at the reiss chapel

Thank you to everyone who participated! We’ll see you again on Monday!

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cheylouwho · 7 years ago

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South Park: The affect of Abuse and ACEs on Behavior

One thing that’s been a hot topic in the SP fandom as of late is the discussion of how the behavior (both past and present) of the child characters are affected by the experiences we’ve seen/heard about in canon. Today we’re going to talk a little about three of the most damning cases; Cartman, Tweek and Butters.

Disclaimer 1: This analysis will contain several mentions of childhood trauma such as abuse, neglect and sexual relations. Please be mindful that you have been warned.

Disclaimer 2: This is for the sake of analysis and application of knowledge that I (and those in the SP analysis discord) have. We are in no way professionals. I am only a preschool teacher so my knowledge in the field of abuse and neglect is limited to what I’ve been taught and what I have witnessed/experienced. Please take the speculation with a grain of salt… maybe even the whole shaker. Just dump it in your mouth and enjoy almost 4,000 words of fully sourced “its not that deep, fam”.

Preface: What We Know about Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs)

Before we can really dive into this whole thing, we need to discuss ACEs. These are, to put it simply, traumatic events that occur during childhood that can have lasting effects on a person’s social/emotional, cognitive and even physical development well into adulthood. They’re mostly used for identifying children/people at risk and for research. It’s pretty interesting how that’s done, so I implore you to research more if you’re curious. These experiences can include:

Physical abuse

Sexual abuse

Emotional abuse

Physical neglect

Emotional neglect

Intimate partner violence

Mother treated violently

Substance misuse within household

Household mental illness

Parental separation or divorce

Incarcerated household member

(Source)

Given we’re talking about Cartman, Butters and Tweek, I think you can see why I bring this up. Taking a look at this list and the canon evidence we have in show, it’s easy to say that they’ve all experienced some of these traumas. Two more important things from the source article should also be noted for the sake of this analysis:

ACEs cluster. Almost 40% of the Kaiser sample reported two or more ACEs and 12.5% experienced four or more. Because ACEs cluster, many subsequent studies now look at the cumulative effects of ACEs rather than the individual effects of each.

ACEs have a dose-response relationship with many health problems. As researchers followed participants over time, they discovered that a person’s cumulative ACEs score has a strong, graded relationship to numerous health, social, and behavioral problems throughout their lifespan, including substance use disorders.

“Chey, what the fuck are you on about? This doesn’t make sense!” you might be saying. To truly understand how these ACEs apply to these three kids and how they affect their behavior, let’s take a look at them on a case by case basis.

Cartman’s Case

Eric Cartman is probably the most interesting child in terms of applying the ACEs checklist, as well as other knowledge about abuse and neglect affects on children. We know, from canon, that Cartman lives with his single mother. He’s a low-income family. His mother has been/may still be a sex worker. He’s is very inclined to violence and seems obsessed with sexual topics. It’s very interesting to note that towards the beginning of the series, while evidences were present, Cartman was a lot more innocent. As the show went on and some of these ACE experiences actually happened in building canon, it’s worn on him and shaped him in real time into the character we know today.

ACE 1: Sexual Abuse. It’s been strongly implied that Cartman has been sexually abused.Here is a not-so-short list of examples from the fanon wiki (source). It’s long winded and detailed, so here are a few notable points (as well as some that I’ve added myself).

Engaged in inappropriate/sexual behavior for his age, such as “touching wieners” with one of his cousins (le petit tourette), giving handjobs (Fat Butt and Pancake Head), insisting on measuring penises of his classmates (TMI), putting Butters’ penis in his mouth (Cartman Sucks)

Has been sexually abused by his mother/because of his mother (An Elephant Makes Love to a Pig)

Has been abused by several adult men ON SCREEN (The Simpsons Already Did It, Cripple Fight, Cartman Joins NAMBLA, AWESOM-O, The Return of Chef, It’s A Jersey Thing)

There’s also the strong point that Cartman has come to associate sex/love as something undesired, humiliating or painful. Again, the wiki wonderfully spells these out, but I’ll summarize. Cartman constantly treats any form of sexual or romantic relations as rape and assault. One example is in the Coon and Friends trilogy, he believes a woman having a consensual relationship with a man in the park is being “raped” and needs to be saved. Another example is his expressed sadness at the New Kid’s “dad fucked your mom” backstory in FBW. Another one that is not often touched upon in his reaction to Tweek and Craig’s fight in Tweek X Craig, in which he exclaims wholeheartedly that the two of them getting into an alteration is “sex” and seems intrigued to watch what’s going to happen. He also uses sex as a form of humiliation. I’m sure this is common knowledge at this point but his infatuation with making Kyle suck his balls in Imaginationland but also in his culmination of Butters’ photographical humiliation (AKA, sticking his penis in his mouth).

It’s not talked about on the ACEs website, but children who are sexually abused are likely to exhibit disdain (but interest) in sexual relations and acting sexually mature for their age.

ACE 2 and 3: Emotional abuse and neglect. Now, before I start this, you’re probably going to say, “BUT CHEY! Liane loves and dotes on Cartman! That’s why he’s spoiled!” Boy, do I hear you, but I’m going to explain myself. While Liane does spoil Cartman to hell and back, I’d like to argue that it’s empty. Liane may often tell Cartman she loves him, she also uses tactics such as bribery (food and other things Cartman likes), neglect (Cartman has said in canon, and she’s admitted herself, to being too busy to deal with him due to being a single parent), and also exposes him to things he should not be exposed to (sex, drugs). She treats him like a friend or a companion rather than her son (Tsst) which allows Cartman to have free reign. But free reign is not always out of love and care. I’d like to argue a lot of Cartman’s power is from lack of parenting and involvement in his life.I’m sorry if this part isn’t phrased too well; I had a hard time articulating it.

This may also be why Cartman has such a mixed relationship with his mother. He’s fed the idea that things are okay and great, that nothing is wrong, and he literally eats it up. He’s not outwardly talkative about what goes on at home, and when he is, he seems to regret it immediately. His disdain for his mom may not be purely “selfish greedy child”, but completely justified “abused child”. As phrased wonderfully by one of our server members, “that’s why he calls her a bitch and all those kinds of things yet still protecting her whenever they try to rip on Liane. Because that’s the kind of love he’s used to.”

Furthermore, consider the situation around Cartman’s birth. Liane was young, drunk and the town “slut” (their words, not mine). Cartman’s father’s identity had to be hidden and there’s no doubt that took a tole on her. I’d imagine being a young, single mother is not the path she wanted for herself. I tend to think of it as a cycle- Liane doesn’t want to deal with her child due to his behavior so she checks out of the situation, actually making Cartman’s behavior worse and so on and so on. Another possibly related scene could be in “Cartman’s Mom Is A Dirty Slut”, when she still outwardly seeks an abortion for her 8 year old son.

On a slightly unrelated note, this may also be one of the reasons for Cartman’s infatuation with Kyle. He seems to mistake the traits of abuse/neglect (anger, fighting, etc) as love due to how his mother treats him. This is why he thinks Kyle enjoys his company/likes him as a friend despite how much Kyle pushes back.

Other likely ACES: Witnessing intimate partner violence (his mother is a sex worker and he’s claimed to have been in the room during these acts), mother treated violently (FBW’s little Liane arc gives me bad vibes), substance abuse within household (I forget which episodes specifically but Liane’s done drugs), parent separation or divorce (absent father figure).

Cartman’s Conclusion:

Cartman has a grand total of SEVEN potential ACEs. The reason why I started those two additional facts at the start of this is because they are culminating (several often pop up and are related to each other) and affect behavior and relationships. Cartman’s behavior, while obnoxious and impulsive at best and downright despicable at worst, can be somewhat explained by the experiences he’s faced. Abuse, neglect and sexual assault have led him to search for forms of power and control in his life, whether that be over himself, his mother or his friends. His views of the world are shaped by what he’s seen and felt. Unlike Tweek, however, he doesn’t have much of a support system, and with the “sugarcoating” under the guise of love and care, he’s less likely to get the help he needs. His risks for childhood and subsequently adulthood are very high.

Butters’ Case

Butter’s is your stereotypical abused child in terms of his behavior and coping mechanisms. I believe that even casual show-watchers would agree that he’s in some deep shit. Unlike Cartman who is a lot more nuanced about displaying what he’s experienced, Butters is naive and innocent and resilient. He easily follows what others (CARTMAN) ask of him. He assumes a more submissive role in his life, working hard to make others happy and put them first to avoid trouble. He’s an easy target for bullying and being humiliated or used. He says things out loud without noticing their implications to what has happened to him.

Unlike Liane who covers her (probably unintentional) neglect with the guise of love, he has no such outward statements from either parent. The closest we get is “this is for your own good”, but there is no loving undertone, it’s purely corporeal. Their abuse is right in his face; it’s physical, it’s mental, it’s terrible. Steven Stotch is the primary abuser, and while Linda has done her fair share of harm, she’s generally more passive. She even states in Grounded Vindaloop that she “lets [Steven] handle the grounding”. Steven Stotch, as of FBW, is also a victim of abuse, showing that he’s perpetrating it in a cycle (you’ll notice this theme a few times in this little essay).

It’s clear as of season 20 that the effects of constant abuse have finally worn on Butters, due to his angry outbursts and sudden shift in attitude (if you want to look at it from a character standpoint and not as lazy writing cough cough). He’s hit a breaking point in what he can take, and the more he’s been exposed to his ACEs (like Cartman’s case) the more behaviorally challenged he’s become.

Another aspect to consider is his relationship with Cartman. Both share similar ACEs, but cope with them in different ways. Cartman chooses to be a controller to earn back what he’s lost, while Butters is more suited to take a backseat and follow. This is why they, despite having a very dysfunctional friendship, stick together. It may appear that Cartman is the only one benefiting, but I believe it’s more mutualistic based on their respective coping mechanisms.

ACE 1: Physical Abuse. Butters has been shown to be physically abused time and time again by Steven. He’s been hit, talked about being hit, and the biggest piece of evidence that scares the shit out of me personally is that Steven pulled off his belt and prepared to hit Butters in front of his classmates in Grounded Vindaloop. Corporal punishment has been shown time and time again to be detrimental to children’s psyc, which aligns given how Butters acts.

ACE 2: Sexual Abuse. Butters has mentioned in The Return Of Chef that he has been sexually abused by his uncle, which does not surprise me in the slightest. Butters, unlike Cartman, goes the total opposite direction of how to cope with this sort of experience; he’s blissfully unaware of what has happened and rather than let it consume him (ex. cartman) he brushes it off as no big deal. Whether this means he is truly unaware of the connotations of what was done to him or if he’s purposely repressing it is unclear, but the evidence is there that it did happen.

ACE 3 and 4: Emotional Abuse and Neglect. This one is abundant in examples. Steven appears to play a lot of mind games with Butters, whether it’s demanding he stop having nightmares (The Death of Eric Cartman), getting in trouble for looking a certain way (How To Eat With Your Butt and The List), or simply for being bullied. They constantly ground him for things that he has no control over, simple mistakes or things that he was not even involved in. I believe that Steven, similar to Cartman, takes the helplessness from childhood abuse and hurts Butters in order to feel in control of himself.

Other Possible ACEs: Household mental illness could be argued as one of the ACEs Butters experiences, although not officially confirmed in canon. I do believe that Linda has some form of mental illness due to her behavior in Butters Own Episode. Although not listed in the article, Steven’s infidelity and the tension that causes on his and Linda’s marriage is also a potential ACE, especially given that Butters was directly exposed to that whole fiasco.

Butters’ Conclusion:

Butters’ innocence is likely a form of coping mechanism for what he’s encountered during his life. Constant physical and mental abuse have worn on him over the years, turning him more bitter and forcing him to act out. I believe this also can be accredited to his mental break in season 19’s “Safe Space”, as this is the big start of his downward spiral. Unlike Cartman, there is no cover-up for his abuse being simply that- abuse- so being able to divorce himself and his emotions will be easier for him if he were to receive support or help in some form.

Tweek’s Case

Tweek is an interesting case because while he does have emotional abuse, neglect and and forced substance abuse (coffee and/or meth addiction), he also has canon mental illness that exists outside of how he’s treated. The abuse and neglect of his parents only amplify the effects of said illness. I’ve had a selection of anons over time talk about his potential (though not confirmed) mental state, most agreeing it’s some form of panic disorder (the Tweaks claim it’s ADD, but this is really just a load of bullshit and we all know it). He is often exploited by his parents (ex. “Having a homosexual son is good for the business” in FBW) or outright lied to for the sake of business. They often brush off his worries or ignore him completely.

ACEs 1 and 2: Emotional Abuse and Neglect (EXPLOITATION). The Tweak family are no strangers to emotional abuse and neglect. Right from Tweek’s character introduction, we know something isn’t quite right. His parents feed him excessive coffee, which is later revealed to be laced with meth (did you know that meth increases body temperature, as well as caffeine overdose raising heart rate and induces anxiety? (X) Would you look at that evidence). They also frequently blackmail him into work through the threat of “selling him into slavery”.

His defining traits are usually watered down to “spaz”, and more recently, “homosexual”, hinting that his parents really don’t pay much attention to him to know much more than that. They either ignore or hardly acknowledge his fears and worries, leaving him to cope with anxiety and personal issues completely alone. He’s clearly unhappy and potentially aware of his shitty situation- in Tweek vs Craig, he slams his head against the table repeating that he “want[s] out” and that “you never help me”. In Tweek x Craig, his parents only seem to take interest in his developing relationship due to the rest of the town and their desire to look good. If you use this as anything to go off, most of their “parenting” is feeble attempts to keep up appearances.

In SOT, it’s strongly implied that Tweek is the one to usually pick up meth deliveries from Kenny’s house. This is another form of abuse, though I’m not sure if it’s exactly emotional, that he’s forced to endure. A ten year old child should not be exposed to those sort of environments, let alone be involved in the trade of drugs.

ACE 3: Substance Abuse in the Household. Whether it’s coffee, meth or other form of drugs, there’s something going on in the Tweek home that I am certain counts for this ACE. As stated in the preface, higher numbers of ACEs contribute to higher likelihoods of substance abuse- what if the child is already unintentionally abusing substances? He’s got coffee with METH INSIDE IT. I don’t think I need to go much further. There is also the possibility that with his misdiagnosis of ADD, Tweek may be provided access to other drugs for substance abuse. Meth is actually used as a way of treating ADD (X) and could be in reach for him. There’s also Amphetamine (X) which has noted side effects of "excessive grinding of the teeth,... profuse sweating,... and tics..." which could be related to his behavior. This is all purely speculation, however.

Tweek’s Conclusion:

Tweek’s struggle with mental illness is not helped by his parents frequence abuse and neglect. He’s often blackmailed into situations he doesn’t want to be in. Similar to Cartman, his forms of abuse are often sugarcoated as love, making it a little less obvious for him to pick up on. In contrast to Butters, however, he’s much less of a follower and can throw a punch when he needs to protect himself. He’s incredibly resilient and has managed to, despite early substance addiction and neglect, hold strong and even overcome massive obstacles. Of course, these are partly due to his newfound support from...

The Effect of Solid Support: Craig, Heidi, and Liane

Creek shipper or not, there is no denying that Craig has played a massive role in Tweek’s recovery. While Tweek appears to be very naturally resilient despite the odds stacked against him, the presence of someone who will actually listen to his problems and not brush them off is a huge step in the right direction. With Craig, there is a sense of trust and understanding as well as respect. He’s treated as more than a few buzzwords or free labor or any slew of hurtful remarks. His fears are able to be acknowledged and sorted though, whether it be Craig’s logical talk-throughs or someone to pat his back and say “that sucks and it’s okay” (Put It Down). Ever since the introduction of Craig as his boyfriend, we’ve seen some interesting steps in the right direction.

S21’s main theme of relationships drew a lot of interesting parallels between Creek and Heiman, namely the difference between a healthy relationship and an unhealthy relationship. Similar to Steven Stotch, as mentioned in Butters’ case, Cartman went from abused to abuser in his relationship with Heidi. However, this was not always the case.

In early S20, Heidi was in search of her own form of support after being abused by society, simply put. She was able to find this in Cartman, who was dealing with a similar situation at the time after being “murdered” by his friends. Her presence did arguably turn him around for awhile- he seemed much happier before his self-destructive tendencies and self-doubt came in full swing. The cycle was perpetrated- Heidi wasn’t what he needed, so he went from abused to abuser. Heidi could be argued to have turned into another Cartman because she faced a watered-down version of his interpretation of “love”, aka abuse.

Let’s consider another pivotal moment for Cartman: TSST. This one is such a telling episode. While Liane is the source of most of his issues, when she was able to step into her role as a parent and provide the structure and support Cartman needed, his entire personality turned around. It wasn’t until she began treating him like a friend or companion again that he slipped back into his old ways.

Between these two scenarios, I believe it shows that if the patience and care is taken when dealing with Cartman, there is the possibility of healing. Heidi failed because she too was equally vulnerable and not in the right headspace, ultimately harming both of them (this does not excuse how cartman treated and manipulated her, BTW). Liane failed because she fell back into her cycle instead of sticking with what she had built up.

Conclusion

In conclusion, despite sharing similar ACEs, all three children we’ve discussed have different forms of coping and managing their trauma. The abuse that Butters has faced is easier to “remove” from his life due to no emotional (love) being involved in corporal punishment; however, Tweek and Cartman’s abuse have longer lasting repercussions because they’ve accepted and adapted as “that’s just the way it is”. That’s not to say they’re beyond help; all three, if done soon like in Tweek’s case, can be used to heal.

I leave this post with a sort of “call to action”. While we are talking about purely fictional characters and situations that “aren’t that deep, fam”, there are actual children suffering from these kinds of experiences. If you are aware of them, or see the red flags, please don’t hesitate to get help or find someone who can. Nobody should be like Eric Cartman and display serious red flags but slip under the radar. Thank you very much for reading my long, LONG analysis.

Special thanks/credit to the south park analysis discord ( and @dumbthotticusplayer2) for helping brainstorm/discuss :)

#south park #analysis #eric cartman #tweek tweak #butters stotch #abuse mention #csa mention

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lalka-laski · 4 years ago

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What’s the last vegetable you ate, and when did you eat it? Ermm... some peppers in my cheesy chili burrito yesterday. The healthiest way to go about eating veggies, I know

What was your last Facebook notification for? A like on a photo

What bands have you seen live? Too many to list. I live for shows!

Tell me an interesting fact about your mother: She was born in Belfast & moved to the States when she was 3(?), but spent most of her summers back "home" as a child and teen. This was at the heart of The Troubles in N. Ireland so she has some colorful stories for sure.

What do you think is the most important thing to happen to you before the age of 13? I couldn't narrow it down to a single event. Unless we count the trauma I experienced that gifted me my PTSD, anxiety, & various other mental illnesses. But I don't want to deem that as "important."

What were you super against as a young child but aren’t anymore? Hm... I definitely had a lot of internalized misogyny growing up, so really any side effect of that. Now I love women, support women, and root for women, instead of shaming them or letting my jealousy overtake me!

What are your plans later today? Blue Barn Cidery! It's a beautiful day to get day drunk :)

Are you doing anything exciting this weekend? See above! Then tomorrow I'm getting brunch with the in-laws & then possibly day drinking round two? Do I have a problem??

Who do you talk to the most? Glenn, with Kathleen as a close second.

What are some things you do regularly that make you feel old? Welp, I just went to the mall yesterday and was absolutely baffled by all the shit I saw on the racks. That made me feel ancient!

Who is your best guy friend(s)? Sean. And Glenn too, but ya know he's technically more than a friend :P

Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? I don't mind my complexion but seeing as everyone feels the need to poke fun at it or make snarky comments about it, I guess I'd like to be a touch darker.

If you had a tiny scar on your face, would you get it removed or just keep it? I'd like to say I'd keep it. Scars add character.

Have you had an x-ray in the past year? Nope

Do you think your first love still loves you? He still has feelings for me. Most of which are regrets and "what ifs" so I wouldn't say it's LOVE necessarily but, yeah.

What is something that is “going right” in your life? My beautiful, fulfilling relationship with Glenn. And my equally beautiful & fulfilling relationships with my other loved ones.

When did you feel ready to start dating? Honestly I never felt "ready." Relationships were always scary territory for me.

When was the last time your pet bit you? If you don’t have a pet, have you ever been bitten by someone else’s? I don't have a pet.

Where were you the last time you made out? Our bed

When was the last time you cried tears of joy? I came close to it yesterday! It's a frequent occurrence for me (and for that I'm grateful)

How do you type your sad smileys? :(

Do you have “decorative hand-towels” that cannot be used in your house? Nah

What was the last soda you drank? Root beer yesterday

What was the last thing someone made fun of you for? I got a scuffmark on my brand new sneakers yesterday and Glenn said "Are we surprised? You ruin all your shoes" (To be clear I wasn't offended. He's right! I'm reckless with my shoes because I prefer just being barefoot).

Have you ever had any type of surgery? Yeah, a few minor ones.

Should kids be allowed to get tattoos/piercings without parental consent? Umm, not sure

Who was the last person to hit on you? Can we count Glenn?

What was the last thing you decided not to do, that you were supposed to? Answer the phone

What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever had to tell someone? Oh boy. Any kind of rejection is hard for me so anything in that realm.

What do you put on hot dogs? Mustard, and maybe some relish or sauerkraut

Ever fallen in the shower? I don't think so? Which is surprising.

Do you think that things will get better? They're fantastic right now but yes, I do see them getting even better than this!

Have you ever legitimately saved a person’s life? I mean, not to my knowledge. But who knows.

What’s your favourite book genre? Realistic fiction/domestic fiction/family sagas

Have you ever walked out of a movie at the theatre? Yep

Do dogs like you? Weirdly, yes. But the feeling isn't mutual. Sorry, pups!

Would you say that you project an air of authority? Not even a little bit

Have you ever jumped off a high dive into a pool? Nah

Do you use one towel when you shower or two? (one for hair, one for body) One

Have you ever been to one of the great lakes? I live right on one of 'em

Who do you know that had a baby recently? My friend Tori just had a beautiful baby girl!

Do you like Usher’s songs? Yeah, he was pretty iconic in my middle school years. His music takes me back to cucumber melon body spray & glittery eye shadow.

When was the last time you went to a waterpark? It's been too long!

Have you ever ridden a train? Yep, and I love it.

What do you eat your French fries with? Ketchup or mayo

Do you have family problems? Who the hell doesn't?

What’s the last food you ate that was stale? Hmm... chips?

How do you like your grilled cheese? I recently discovered the delicious of adding a little Caesar dressing to a grilled cheese and OH MAN OH MAN.

What is the most challenging meal you have ever cooked? This is baking, not cooking, but I made some focaccia bread the other week & really struggled. What was your favorite thing to do as a little kid? Reading and writing, of course. I was also a big fan of drawing & any other type of craft.

Have you ever been close to drowning? I don't think so.

Have you ever had a panic attack? Mhm

Do you like doing housework? No thank ya

Would you ever get implants? Yeah

Do you own a robe? Several!

Do you have a little sister? What’s her name? Kathleen

Do you like crust on pizza or do you cut it off? Yeah, I leave no crumb of my pizza untouched.

What was the last song you listened to? Kangaroo by David Gray

Have any of your family members been to jail? Some members of my extended family

Is there anyone that you feel you still need some closure with? Nah not really.

Can you remember when you first learned how to read? I don't remember but it was younger than average.

What event in your life has transformed your personality the most? Didn't I already answer this?

Have you ever had any teeth pulled? Fucking seven. At once!!

Do you still want to be what you wanted to be in elementary school? Yeah! I always wanted to be an author (and illustratorr, but I scrapped that one).

What’re some TV shows that you would like to get into? I'm not much of a TV watcher so I can't really think of anything.

How would you feel if you were drafted for the military? I'd die?

What is your favorite Queen song? Under Pressure ft David Bowie. Of course <3

Do you know how to use any foreign currency? I go to Canada several times a year so yeah. Though that hardly counts, ha.

Been kissed by someone who you knew was “bad” for you? Yep. But never again.

Ever taken an at-home pregnancy test? Yep

When was the last time you were at a loss of what to do? Daily?

What did you do on your favorite date with a guy/girl? My favorite date days with Glenn are when we stroll Park Ave hitting up all our favorite little shops and bars. We always make a stop at this delicious chocolate shop and stock up on sponge candy, and then we end the night at our favorite Japanese restaurant for ramen & sake!

What’s a movie you have seen in the theater more than once? None I don't think?

What is the reason you’re still alive? My family & friends

Have you ever had sex in someone else’s bed/bedroom? Yeah

Do you ever brush your hair before you go to bed? Sometimes

Have you ever had a dream about sleeping with a celebrity? (You don’t have to give details.) DANIEL FUCKING RADCLIFFE LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

Has anyone ever told you that they needed you? Do you think they meant it? Absolutely

How did you feel when you woke up today? What was the first thing you thought about? Felt pretty damn great actually! I was excited for the day ahead. I didn't even mind the fact that I have to work this morning :)

Do you still tell your parents that you love them? We're not that type of family. We express our love in different ways though, and I'm perfectly content with it.

Have you ever said “I love you” to someone you weren’t going out with? Yeah

Think of the last person you had sex with. Do you think they’ve slept with anyone else since they last slept with you? BOY HE BETTER NOT HAVE lmao

The last time you dyed your hair, what color did you dye it? Same as it ever was

Think of the last time you went out to eat. Who paid? Glenn & I went to the food court at the mall and got separate things that we paid for on our own

Do you save at least 15 percent of your income? HAAAAAAAAA no

Do you ever go on Reddit? If so, what are some of your favorite subreddits? It's my go-to bedtime reading! I love askreddit, antimlm, amitheasshole, glitch_in_the_matrix... tons more.

Were you ever a flower girl or ring bearer in anyone’s wedding when you were little? I was the flower girl for my aunt's wedding! I made it all the way down the aisle, then turned around & noticed everyone staring at me and burst into tears. Classic Elizabeth.

Are your parents in good health? Thank God, yes!

Have you ever been a caregiver to a sick/disabled relative? No

Is there any type of medicine you can’t take? For what reason? Not that I'm aware of

Do you have a favorite pair of pajamas? What do they look like? I have several cute pairs! But my go-tos are just nightgowns or big tee shirts most of the time.

Do you have any interesting pillow cases? Uh I wouldn't call any of them interesting.

If something on your body hurts, which part is it most likely to be? None!

Are you more afraid of spiders or bees? Neither really

Have you ever worn fake nails? If so, what did the last pair you wore look like? WOW I am literally wearing press-on nails as we speak. Yes, I'm trash. And yes, I love it.

Is Russian or Native American history more interesting to you? Both?

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imagine-wannaone · 7 years ago

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Bae Jinyoung Royalty Au

(Excuse the messy header (As always rip)) So or 1k this is a slightly longer fic I guess?? I fill like it’s in a different style but it’s probs not. Anyway, thank you~

> • You didn't want to steal, and you certainly didn't think theft was a clever or good thing to do, but in dire circumstances humans do whatever they can to survive, > • You tried not to steal anything of much worth to anyone, nothing that'd change their life, > • An apple here, a slice of bread, a ring or a necklace, maybe some clothes if you were feeling r i s k y, > • You'd grown up in the poorer part of the city with your parents, struggling to make it until they couldn't and you had to on your own, > • So you just floated, I guess, taking whatever odd jobs you could get your hands on, > • Which wasn't really enough, so as much as you hated it, you became kinda really good at thieving and pickpocketing, > • Some of the poorer kids relied on you for food, so you were really kinda trapped in this way of living, > • So you try to think of different ways you can get some food, because you really shouldn't stay to the same tactics or people, for they had a job to do and families to provide for aswell, > • So your mind turned to one target, one that you knew wouldn't notice if a few pieces of food and maybe a cloth went missing, > • The palace, the royal family, > • A hugely risky target, yes, but at this point you were desperate enough with not a whole lot to lose, > • So you plot, plan and scheme because, although you couldn't graduate from your secondary school from being caught up with trying to survive, you're crafty; wise, > • So you manage to find some blue prints of the palace after trading your shoes and a block of cheese, > • You then spend the rest of your spare time on the roof of the highest building in the city, watching the patrol patterns of the guards and memorising it, > • As well as the blind spots for cameras and where the shadows lay at what time, > • By the end of the month, you were pretty prepared: the map of the palace printed to memory, the kitchen was the main place you needed to navigate to, > • You set out, clothes black to blend in and without shoes for silence. You were confident in your plan. > • And it works, > • You sneak from shadow to shadow and manage to slide in, > • And never have you seen anything so grand, red carpets laid lazily for hallways and hallways, it seemed to relax the setting with high ceilings and painting and vases, > • It made you angry, how people could live so luxuriously while people like you had no choice but to steal, > • You pushed down your unprofessional anger and slipped into the kitchen, > • You nearly froze when you saw the absolutely extraordinary range of food the royals had, some of which you'd never seen before, > • You took a little bit of everything so they wouldn't notice anything had gone, before you left silently the way you came, unknown and unimportant, > • And that night you, or any of the street kids, weren't hungry for the first time in a long long time, > • The food you'd taken lasted around a week before you were forced to take an apple from a stall again, and the guilt you felt overwhelmed you, turning the apple sour in your mouth, > • You felt no guilt stealing from the royals, so you decided maybe you could go again, > • And again, > • And eventually you went roughly once a week, pushing your luck further and further everytime, waiting for the guards to finally find you or pick up on your movements, > • Waiting to be caught, > • But it's about 2 months before something does happen, > • You're creeping your way out of the kitchen, now armed with a black bag attached to you, a new black shirt and leather black trousers, having traded something fishy smelling from the palace to a merchant for your outfit, > • When you hear the guards marching in sync towards the area you were slipping from, > • You panic, and although your heart starts beating a mile a minute, you're a street kid, you can always find a way out, > • So as the marching sounds approach at an all too fast pace, your eyes scan the perimeter for an alleyway to run or a box to hide, > • But just as you're about to take your luck with the shadows, you feel a hand wrap around your wrist and pull quickly, and you stumble, > • You're pulled into what you can only describe as a broom cupboard, a wooden door quickly, quitely closing behind you as you're tugged against a body, a hand over your mouth in the darkness, > • Who does he think you are, you're not so amateur to scream when there are guards nearby, > • So you rip the hand from your mouth, only to hear a soft 'ssshhh' before behind you, the breath tickling your ear, > • You do as commanded, not stupid, standing still and quiet, > • You hold your breath as you hear the guards march through the kitchen and out again, completely on edge, but the warmth from the body behind you is strangely calming, their hand still on your wrist rubbing anxious circles in the back of your hand and an arm around your waist to keep you still, > • The silence settles and you wait for 5 minutes before you spin away suddenly to stare at whoever saved you for some reason unbeknownst to you, > • His face is small and handsome, his hair neatly cut and his features perfect, skin clear nails cut perfectly, > • His good looks would be daunting but he's so cute it ruins the effect, > • As well as the fact that he's wearing a huge pink shirt that makes him look smaller than he actually is and wow, > • A whole ass cutie right there, > • He looks so young as well; you're about to ask him why he isn't in bed - he needs his beauty sleep, > • Although you predict he'd probably still be beautiful without sleep, > • From his appearance and the situation you're in you come to realise he's one of the princes, > • You only ever recognise around 3 of the princes, the older ones, because the younger ones aren't ever seen outside of the castle, > • So although you know the boy infront if you is infact a prince, the posture and look in his eye is a giveaway just by themselves, you have no idea which one, > • "Who are you?" > • The question comes out quick in a low whisper, > • "I think I should really be asking the questions here," > • He says it with a gentle time but you know he's right, you nodded your head only because you know he can't see you properly since youd walked back into a shadow, > • " You know, I watch you around once a week slip into this kitchen to take whatever, but I'm still clueless to anything about you," > • You hum lowly; you knew it was too lucky to not have been seen before, so the fact that this prince has in fact noticed you doesn't come as much of a surprise, despite being a little unsettling, > • I mean being watched is creepy as hell even if the watcher is cute, > • Beauty does not excuse him of his crimes, > • But then you're a thief soooo . . . > • You're just plotting how and when to escape when his hand wraps around your wrist again, almost as if he can read your mind, > • You're slightly upset you're so easy to read, > • "Hey, I have a deal I think you'd find very interesting," > • He whispers and his eyes sparkle in excitement and as if a decision was made within those few seconds in his mind, > • "Oh?" > • You raise your eyebrows, slightly intrigued but guard still up, you do not trust the royals, > • "First, what's your name?" > • You contemplate the question, whether to answer the question truthfully, and you figured there's not a lot they could learn about you with your name, > • And, annoyingly, something about the prince infront of you made you want to be truthful and honest, > • You hate it, > • But you answer truthfully anyway, > • "Not many people know but the younger princes aren't allowed out of the palace, at all, but I think thats stupid. I want you to help me out every now and again, show me the city, the world," > • The tone of his voice breaks your heart a little, and although you don't live a great life, you love the city for the people and the variety and the secrets it holds, you can't imagine not being allowed out, > • But you know the request isn't as simple as it seems, > • "Why should I?" > • you whisper it quietly is a tone that's soft, half way through to giving in already, the situation the prince is in unfair even by your eyes, > • "Because I asked, and because I watched you stealing from my house for a solid 2 months and said nothing," > • The fact the prince doesn't threaten to call the guards, the fact that he doesn't resort to forcing you to do it makes you decide instantly that you're going to help the boy stood infront of you, > • "Meet me here, next week at 2 am, come in black, a face mask and cap maybe. A tiny amount of money." > • You slide towards the door, ready to return to your hut for the night, > • "It's Jinyoung, by the way," > • You smile a little before slipping, > • (Almost literally at the smile he sends you) > • Into the night, > • You spend a good amount of time plotting what to do before you return to the castle the following week, slipping into the cupboard silently, praying this isn't a trap, > • When the door cracks slowly open a few minutes later you're ready to pounce, but relax slightly when Jinyoung wonders in, a smile tugging at this mouth the minute he spots you, > • He does in fact follow your orders, wearing matching black shirt and leather trousers, > • The look would be mysterious or threatening, daunting or scary, but with Jinyoungs soft face his aura doesn't change, > • It really blows you away, how he can make anything stylish and cute, > • What warms your heart is the small, tightly packed bag Jinyoung holds out to you when you greet him, packed to the brim with food that could last you a few weeks on end, > • You want to hug him but then remember you're supposed to be a mysterious hardcore thief, > • But he thought about you and gave you a life line, so you wrap your arms around him anyway, and he seems to invite the hug, even from someone so low down on the social status as you, > • You sneak out at the beginning of the next round of guest patrols, and you help Jinyoung climb over the fence, > • When you land safely on the other side his eyes light and his shoulders relax, a carefree happiness settle in his eyes and you decide the risk is definitely worth it, > • So you lead Jinyoung to the west side of the city, where the night market brings the place alive, > • Because jinyoung can't go out, not many people would recognise him, and the cap to cover his clean cut hair, the mask to hide his face, he's just another citizen, > • His eyes sparkle with the bright lights, the variety of people, the smells from all the fried food stalls and loud haggling, > • The place to you was somewhere you used to love, easily blending in and stealing small items without the blink of an eye, some people would even give you something small for free, > • But only now, with Jinyoung by your side, do you take in the bustle of the place for the first time, > • It's alive and that makes it special, > • By the time Jinyoung arrives at the palace safely again, he's high on life, stuffed with street food and eyes holding the neon lights, a small keep-sake tucked into his pocket, > • And this continues, around once a week or two, you take Jinyoung to see a different part of the city, > • It takes a whole month to plan, but you manage to sneak him out one day as well, taking him to all the shops that do the best things for the lowest prices, the cafes with the best pastries, the best people to chat to, > • You take him to the rooftop to see the stars and even push the boat to watch the sun rise, > • And he surprises you every time, how he brings down your thoughts of the royals, being kind and gentle and thoughtful, > • He really captures you attention, you find yourself simply staring at his profile, taking in the details of his face completely as you know that one day you'll have to stop this, you want to remember his every detail, > • He knows you're staring a lot of the time, perceptive to his surroundings, but doesn't mind at all, although occasionally a light blush dusts his cheeks at the intensity, > • Sometimes he turns to stare back, and you sit just looking at each other, > • "Y/N, why do you never take me to your place?" > • The pure innocence in his voice makes your heart crack a little and you breath in quickly, > • "I'm not sure it's a place you'd like to see, my prince," > • He leans against your shoulder and hums, the sound rattling through your own bones to rest in your heart, lodging itself there, > • Jinyoung knew you probably didn't live in the nicer parts of the city you'd shown him, since he knew you where a thief, but pressed Anyway, > • "Y/N, if I have any say in this country in the future, you cannot just show me the good parts, as I will not be able to help the worse parts. Please," > • The look he sends you makes your heart melt and the thoughts in your head to loose their direction, and you nod you head slowly, understanding his viewpoint, > • So you lead him to the worst part of the city, pointing out certain people and what they do and you show him the kids, who are still awake telling stories only kids can find humour in, and he passes them some food out of the bag he always packs for you so they instantly love him, > • Showing him your part of the city is like opening a part of your heart to him, and that there may be hope for the future, when Jinyoung gets a say in what happend to the city, that he could help, > • The way he doesn't look down on anything there, the kids too skinny, the broken clothes and tired laughs, the tiny room you call your home, makes hope flame in your heart, and that's the most powerful thing you've ever felt, > • So you decide, the next time is the right time to show him the most breathtaking part of the city, the most underrated part, > • The city sits next to the sea, used as a port for trade, > • But there's the small beach, your favourite place, somewhere many people think isn't big enough, grand enough to be worth anything, > • But you watch jinyoung's eyes as you show him the cove, sand covering the ground, the sea a dark navy from the night sky, a few stars fighting against the darkness with a few large, odd rocks bopping out from under the sand, the moon hazy ahead, > • And you can see he understands the small beauty of such a place, he just gets it, > • So you settle down on one of the rocks, dropping your feet a little into the water, leaning back to relax, Jinyoung making you the most relaxed you may have ever been, > • You feel him drop down next to you and copy your actions, your heart warms tenfolds, incredibly fond of this royal, > • Which honestly shocks you to pieces because weren't the royals awful and selfish? > • Is Jinyoung even a royal? > • At this point you didn't care, he was Jinyoung, he didn't care for the label added to his name so neither did you, > • "You are, perhaps, one of the most interesting people I have ever met, Y/N," > • You don't call out the fact that he probably hasn't met that many people, trapped in the castle, > • You move to look that him, the outlines of his face visible and the moon in the background, > • Jinyoung was a picture you never wanted to stop looking at, > • "Oh?" > • You smile softly as his gaze shifts to you, his handsome face coming into your view, another picture you're going to save in time as one of the parts of your life, a strong friend, > • "You put your life on the line for me every week, and what do I give in return? You really make me feel like there's no one else in the planet who matters," > • You can't say you felt butterflies, or bees, or any sort of animal in your heart or your stomach, but just a complete sense of safety, > • "You give more than you imagine Jinyoung, you bring a warmth to my heart I haven't felt for a long time, a happiness in my stomach, a dizziness in my head, a reason to wake in the morning," > • In that moment, you acknowledged this was a conversation perfect for your surroundings, > • for what else should you talk about in the dead of night, the sea beneath your feet and moon above your head? > • "Well you've helped me discover more than I thought possible, as well as my own heart," > • The shy smile encourages you to pull forwards into his warmth, > • And under the dark sky, the world falls apart as your lips touch with the promise of discovering a lot more.

#bae jinyoung #jinyoung #wanna onemww1 #imagines #headcanon #oneshot #fluff #royalty au #wanna one imagines #wanna one oneshot

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goldenscript · 7 years ago

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31. congratulations (m)

↳ prompt: the night we shared in the car → soccer player!jooheon

pairing: lee jooheon | reader genre: college au / fluff, smut word count: 4,527 author’s note: wishing the happiest of birthdays to my dearest @yongceo! <3 even though this was painfully late (at least painful to me), i hope you enjoy this min bean!

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When soccer season rolls in, there’s only one thing on everyone’s mind—championships. It’s silly to say that something like this is nothing more than just a sport, that whatever happens that year won’t define the players (or even the audience), but that’s the thing: it does. It matters. It matters to you (an avid watcher). It matters to the coach (for obvious reasons). It matters to the players (duh!). And most of all, it matters to Jooheon, the team’s captain, who lives, breathes, and exhales this damn game.

Not only is the fate of the team’s position as a ranking school on his shoulders, but the maintenance of his members, because he demands they be in tip-top shape to even step foot on the practice field, because ironically enough, this is more than a game to him. It’s literally everything. What his entire academic career has been built around is kicking around a black and white checkered ball, practices (mornings and evenings), and the very success that he promises to bring and almost always does!

Despite only being a third year, he’s ranked as one of the top center forwards in the entire collegiate league, and he’d be damned to let that moniker go to waste. Tonight, of all nights, is the defining moment in his career, in the university’s name for their sports team. And although the first two years has been a build up of getting this very moment, everyone is still praying and hoping that he can finally be proud enough to walk off the field with an invitation to championships at the start of spring.

Even though you aren’t on the field, you can feel the nerves from the surrounding observers; hell, you can even feel them from everyone else traipsing around.

The players are trying to tip the balance on the scale, while the audience do their best to send their best wishes to their respective sides of the bleachers. Only a minute ticks down on the fluorescent red clock, each second clicking with enough speed to readjust the beating your heart as your eyes darted the opposite ends of the field in an attempt to follow the scene before you.

Pandemonium breaks out on all ends as the ball volleys between players, one of which you recognize as your boyfriend and the other as the man who had initially been antagonizing him in the beginning, the two are going head to head, trying to gain control over the one key to their success. All this game needs is one more goal and then their school were in with a new challenge to push the team, putting them onto paths for greater and bigger things and that’s all your boyfriend needs to keep him from succumbing to the exhaustion threatening to overtake his lungs (and the fact that—you know this damn well—he’s at a very high refusal to put your good luck kiss and hair tying to waste).

He quickly jukes past the antagonizer and between two of the opposing team’s defenders, flashing the trio an almost apologetic grin because out of everyone, of course he knows just how much they wanted this win—who wouldn’t?

Without a second thought, he quickly passes the ball over to Jungkook and sends a stern nod at the taller boy. Jeon’s only a first year, but his stats are no joke, with a rising record like his, it’s no wonder Jooheon trusts him to make the final shot. The brunet gives a mighty kick, sending a flurry of black and white flying past everyone and into the net before anyone else can even blink, let alone breathe.

As if anticipating any other outcome, everyone else seems to wait until the scoreboard officially changes, gleaming brighter than the stadium lights and the final buzzer echoing into the cool night—

5 to 4.

And boy, did everyone holler.

The roar of cheers travels down to the players like a monotonous hum, creating a veil of discordance to shroud you even as you create some distance from it. All of the noise intermingles with the heavy breathing from the players and the very faint sounds of droplets hitting the mesh of their jerseys in a not-so-pretty fashion. Well, red-cheeked, heavy breathing, and sweaty Jooheon will always be one of your favorite sights anyway...

But, between the cold sweat running down their backs and victory hanging over their heads, neither of those things could’ve stopped Jooheon from breaking away from the group’s celebratory dogpile. With his back turned away from them, his eyes scan the bleachers before they settle on you already on the field, and it’s all that he can seem to focus on.

Punctuated with a grin so bright and so blinding like the bleacher’s overhead lights, you’re quite awestruck, stopping on the track as you watch his legs carry him to you. His slick arms envelop you in a tight embrace before you can even get a word out, “Jooheon, oof—”

You literally find yourself a devoid of words, only a sensation of going airborne on this chilly post-autumnal evening. At least, the flying lasts for about a full revolution until he sets you down, still grinning and elated more than ever. “Congrats—”

Yet again he cuts you off, his lips pressed firmly against your lips before he pulls back. “Can you believe it? We really did it!”

You laugh, tightening your hold around the front of his jersey and pulling him into your arms. He falls into your touch, tightening his sudden hold on your waist. His warmth is seeping into your cold limbs and it makes you want to hold on tighter. Just to keep this moment commemorated to memory, because it feels monumental even to you. You’re about to say something when a sharp whistle breaks into the still bubble of your little world, coaxing the two of you to look up and remain planted right beside one another.

Minhyuk flashes a wolfish grin at the two of you, “Y/N, please thank Jooheonie for us, ‘kay? Party at our place if you guys are interested, too!”

The rest of the team jogs over to thank their captain, patting his shoulder, and even greeting you with kind smiles and tired eyes. It’s a sweet moment until Jooheon puts the blond in a chokehold for the crude comment.

You can’t help but laugh as you send a wink toward Minhyuk, setting your sights on Jooheon as he leads you toward the locker rooms so he can catch a quick shower before you two go out and celebrate for the night. If only he had a clue...

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It’s a tradition to have a celebratory make out session in Jooheon’s car.

Often times, you’ll come by to see him after his evening practice because the library is a few blocks away from the stadium, and when you do, he’ll offer you a ride back to the residence halls. Because of this, the sight of his flushed cheeks and slick visage (because sometimes he just can’t be bothered to shower at the school when he can just do it at his apartment), you can’t help but initiate these heated moments.

They’re always involuntary, of course. Sometimes you don’t even realize you’re trying to kiss him until you look at him from the corner of his eyes trying to wipe away a droplet and it’s just… game over for you. All forms of impulse control fly out the window, and you’re meeting his eyes with the look that says it all. One moment you two are flying down the freeway toward your dormitory and another minute, you two are pulling off at the back roads near the rest stops and all you can feel is his hot, heady breath against yours and your wandering hands only a millimeter away from the one sweet spot that you’re aching to touch and he’s aching to be touched.

It’s rare for the two of you to consummate these desires in this kind of venue, where the risk of being seen and caught are at its highest, and whether the perpetrators are the roadside patrols or some passersby wandering around, but the very prospect is enticing. You quiver at the thought of stripping yourself bare just for him in the small cabin of his vehicle, straddling his lap and placing open-mouthed kisses across those glorious collarbones in a flurry of violets and faint fuschias, and the sound of your name rolling off his tongue in whimpers.

He loves it all.

He loves the thrill of whatever may come if either of you get caught,and the very act of getting lost in the heat of the moment — it’s unlike any adrenaline rush he’s ever felt during a game. He’s told you this before in a drunken stupor, lips pulled into a pout as he literally voiced his desires to be put in such a risqué position again. And truthfully, you love the pleasure and the control you’re given, because he’s never once been the one to initiate this fantasy.

Like the previous time, your hand rests on his thigh and gives a squeeze closest to his anticipating member. He stiffens the small circles he’s been tracing at your hip and pulls away from your lips to ask with caution, “What are you doing?”

You’ve long since shimmied out of your coat and the sweater, only a thin camisole covering your upper half, and the delicious heat of his skin, now slick more than ever from the close proximity of your body against his, and the heat blasting from the vents, send flames coursing up and down your body.

The flash of recognition, if only for the briefest of seconds beneath the dim lighting of the street light, doesn’t slip your notice as you run your tongue over your bottom lip. You look at him from the tops of your lashes that tell him exactly what you want. It’s exhilarating turning on this switch of seduction just for him, just to see his eyes go wide in that split second before he mirrors your ministration and his reddened bottom lip goes slick and glossy.

“Don’t you like your gift?” you answer with another squeeze to his thigh. This time it’s much closer to the sweet spot, and you feel excitement bubbling in your core. “Can I, honey?”

“W-wait,” he stammers, trying to sit up from the reclined chair. The pout forming on your lips has his stop short and the hardening length beneath you has more apparent. “I—I thought you said that last spring was going to be the last time?”

“I know,” your tone is only a little bitter because it isn’t like you wanted that to bite you in the ass right now, of all times. Because, okay, the only reason why you didn’t want to make any guarantees of this in the future was simple—the fear of losing the taste for it and the fear of getting caught because fucking Changkyun just has to point out that getting caught having car sex by the police would label you and Jooheon as sexual offenders (weird rules, but you double checked and never had the justice system more). But, also for the simple fact that you wanted to be able to surprise him with this offer as reward for things like going to championships because that was huge. So, you tell answer simply, “but consider this a token of congratulations for going to champs, baby.”

He sighs, “This should be my reward if I win champs...”

From the doubt in his tone, you know more than anyone that Jooheon is the type of person that won’t give himself enough credit even if he deserves it. Even though championships were ages away, he was still thinking about that instead of the success in your current time. He’s prone to this thinking, disregarding his successes because he believes that if he’s stuck in just that one moment then he won’t escape and he won’t do any better than he did then, and perhaps this is yet another reason for you to show him that he deserves to celebrate moments like these. Not just for your sake or his teammates’ (Minhyuk has voiced plenty of his concerns before), but for his own and that makes you even more resolved on showing him just how precious and how well-deserved the praise he receives isn’t bullshit or obligatory nonesuch everyone’s prone to spewing when in the right moment.

You tug on his collar so he’ll look at you, the light flush on his cheeks seem to be fading but the forlorn look in his eyes makes you a little sad. Your tone is soft and careful, a twinge of whining etched between the words, “But that’s too long from now…”

“Baby…” He matches your tone, but the corners of his lips are upturned. It’s a blatant attempt to throw you off the baseless put-downs echoing through his head.

Your eyes narrow ever-so-slightly, because he should know better than anyone that there is no throwing you off this trail when you’re set on making him feel better. You trace the marks you created on his skin as you try once again, “What do you say, honey? Be adventurous for once.”

He laughs — the sound far from his usual jovial sound. In response, your features don’t relent in the slightest because as much as he’s trying to brush you off right now, there’s no way in hell you’re letting yourself getting thrown off. Not when it’s him; in your eyes, he truly deserves the world, and you refuse to let him think otherwise.

Another decision gets made that has his eyes go wide as the black cotton gets thrown off into the growing pile of clothes where your seat was. You’re about to reach for the hook of your bra until you hear him groan, “God, you’re so fucking hot right now.”

As his head hits the headrest completely and his eyes shut, you swear you hear him say under his breath, “I want you,” and knowing him, there’s no way you could’ve misheard him. In a way this gives you one more shot at getting him to concede officially because you know for a damn fact that he wants this even if he doesn’t think he deserves it.

You roll your hips against his and press your lips to his, “I know.”

Of course, you know.

If there’s one thing Jooheon has done for you (among the plenty of other things that has come with being in a relationship with him), it’s that he’s made you feel loved and appreciated in ways you never thought you could feel.

There’s a softness with him that has been so rare to find in previous significant others, it’s hard to imagine you ever let yourself date anyone else, because he makes you feel beautiful and loved. He’s patient even when you’re taking ages to find the right blouse and encouraging when everything else has sapped your strength. Sometimes just looking at him gives you motivation to keep going, to keep growing as a person, and that’s what being with someone should be like — even if you’re made for yourself, others can help you grow into yourself. They can love you and help you along the way of your journey, and with him, it’s always been a steady growth, with the natural ups and downs, and you know that in all that time he’s only ever tried to make you feel like how he sees you.

Even though you haven’t done the same as often as you wish you did, you absolutely refuse to let this opportunity to do exactly what he’s done for you to slip past your fingers, because goddammit, you love Lee Jooheon and knowing that he loves you too will always have you wanting the best for him and his golden heart.

He relinquishes a moan, his warm breath brushing against your skin. He’s fallen into your clutches from the rutting of your hips are met with some reciprocation and the caress of his fingertips assisting you in the removal of your brassiere. A rush of tranquil focus settles between the two of you as you calculate your next move and do exactly what feels good for the both of you.

As soon as that article of clothing joins the rest of the pile, his hand rests back on your hips and guides you against him for a best taste of the unrelenting friction between your leggings and his jeans. You can feel his length straining now that it’s begging to be free, but you keep him in place to grab the bottom of his shirt and lift it up and over him to join the ever-growing tower beside you two. It’s an intimate moment as you slide your hands up and down his torso and let your bare skin touch his before capturing his lips once more.

The pillowy softness is an addictive feeling as you kiss him over and over again, resting your hands on the sides of his face because you want him to know you’re here and you’re not going anywhere. You hope that each time he tastes you, he’ll taste the love and affection you always wish to show him even if you can’t with the stresses of school weighing on your shoulders. You hope that whatever fears plaguing his mind are silenced, if only for this moment, just to give the two of you this moment together.

What you relish in the most isn’t just the thrill of possibly getting caught, it’s the stillness of the road where no one pays a damn mind to either of you two and lets you both be as you are. Everyone has their own destination, sometimes they’re not even there to congregate on the road, and the camouflage of the back roads have always tickled your fancy for the privacy. The very intimacy of having him all to yourself while everyone else is off doing their own thing, whether it’s his roommates throwing a party or your fellow RAs covering your shift because neither of you really ever have the time to breathe with the loom of responsibility and the obligation of education resting on your shoulders.

You know damn well that when you make the most of your time with Jooheon, you want to feel good and you want him to feel good, so the moment he releases another whimper, a lot more pained than before, you ease off him and search his visage for an answer.

“What? What’s wrong, baby?” your voice is no louder than a hushed murmur, awaiting a response now that he seems a little less in pain but still discomfort riddled over his fair-skinned features.

His response is soft in tone, but far from innocent, relinquishing flames all across your core: “I really, really want you, Y/N….”

There’s just something about these small admissions that get you albeit they come every-so-often from him, hearing it is all the more motivation for your confidence to spike and a sense of control to wash over you.

Your fingertips draw soothing circles across his forearm, “Well, all you had to do was ask.”

“You little shit,” he scoffs with a smile on his lips.

You wink at him, “Only for you.”

Sitting on the pile of clothing, you use that opportunity to shimmy out of your leggings and underwear as he kicks off his jeans and shoves his boxers down to his ankles. He grabs a spare T-shirt from his open duffle bag in backseat and places it beneath him and his hand reaches past you for the box of condoms he keeps in the glove compartment. He’s about to beckon you over now that he’s fully equipped to the onslaught of pleasure that’s to come with you, but before he can slip on the condom, you take matters into your hands.

Slipping the rubber onto him, you make sure to involve an additional pressure just to hear a sharp exhale part his lips. Sometimes akin to your name floats across the air, enough to act on your own desires by coming back to him. He always manages to soften your resolve even as you attempt to tease him and draw out these moments you share together. It’s been far too long since you’ve had this much free time with him, and having it makes it a little too hard not to just jump him right on the spot.

You’re careful not to bump your head, musing now that you’ve settled yourself back onto his lap, “Better?”

“Fuck yes,” he groans, bucking his hips against your exposed core. Your excitement is bubbling over though it’s not as obvious as your beloved boyfriend’s. The feeling of his hardened member elicits a shudder, however.

A part of you already wanting to relinquish your own moan just out of the sheer possibilities that’ll come within the hour, but instead you shakily ask as you rise from your spot and position him to your entrance, “Ready?”

“Y-yes,” he says, nodding slower now that you’re beginning to ease him into you. He throws his head back, a rather loud thump! considering just how close your proximity is, though he gives you no time to react as he shuts his eyes and places on hand on your hip and the other on the side of your face.

With his fingertips poised against your skin, there’s nothing else you want in this world—of course, aside from your degree and a well-paying job. Being with Jooheon is nothing less than a fairytale mixed with the reality that not everything is as easy as getting the prince, but the butterflies and the wondrous adoration you feel for him hasn’t lessened even a little bit over the years. From the old days in high school when you two had to sneak around your dad’s back to the days when he worked at that café pining from afar; who knew this is what would come from your friends’ meddling? (They say they didn’t but you know damn well that Changkyun and his rival wanted nothing more than the formation of this relationship and its flourishing.)

To you, it’s amazing how much time and how much chance has come to play in both your lives—that these precious moments you two could share would be so gentle despite how raucous the venues would be. Although you weren’t always this kind of person to do these sorts of things, you’ve found that sharing them with him makes them better. It’s not cheap or quick with this man; in fact, it’s beautiful and memorable.

The sounds he makes are nothing short of your name and the thing he would do—the oh-so-glorious things—that only seem to make your hips respond with fluid sharpness until you’re absolutely certain that the spot getting hit is in fact the spot. Because although you two have had time and experience to learn one another’s bodies, there is still lots of learning to do—the sort you don’t mind in the slightest knowing that your growth is in sync with him.

Your evolution together has led to these moments—special ones—that you’ll carry for as long as you live. This car as beat-down and well-worn as it is carries more memories than any journal can, it’ll commemorate the night he won qualifiers, and hell, it’ll probably do the same for when he actually does win championships. Or maybe it’ll be the place you comfort him. Either way, it’s a place that as unconventional as it is stands to be your favorite one where you share laughs, memories, and conversations that can’t seem to parallel any other.

“Oh fuck,” you murmur against his lips, rolling your hips once more in the same manner as the previous, you find yourself hit the perfect spot.

He perks up, kissing your cheek and making his way down your neck. “There, baby?”

“Y-yes,” you whimper, continuing the same ministrations. “N-no marks, honey!”

He pouts, nodding against your neck and tickling your visage with his wonderfully soft dark locks. “Love you~”

You smile, placing your hands on both sides of his face just so he can face you. “And I love you, too.”

He’s looking at you, even in the half-assed lighting you can see that he’s looking at you like you’re the best damn thing in the world again. It doesn’t happen as often as many think, but when you catch it on off-chances like this one, you’re left awestruck. The very need to show him just how much he means to you overtaking your body, though it seems he wants to do the same exact thing.

He gives you yet another kiss, this time with a fervent hunger as he puts his all into this one gesture that has you reeling. Your heart goes haywire in your chest, pressing closely against his as you match his pace down below even with your thighs filling with lactic acid and crying for mercy, you can’t help but continue on to finish off that high that’s overtaken you both.

With his name on the tip of your tongue already entering the heady air of the car, you feel the euphoria of warmth and bliss so hot, you’re practically writhing at his touch. It’s like this every single time. Each shared moment seemingly newer than the last like everything has changed each time you both come together. The sight is dim and seedy, but you can make out his half-lidded eyes and his parted lips. It’s truly a sight to behold.

As soon as your own name departs his lips not too long afterwards, leaving you even hotter as you bring his lips back to yours once more for that final kiss.

You grin up at him, stroking back the stray locks of dark hair. “Seriously. Congratulations, honey.”

“Thank you, baby,” he replies, nuzzling your cheek with his nose. “Thank you so much.”

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Twenty minutes later, the two of you are clean and headed toward your dormitory. His hand is held in yours, giving a squeeze every-so-often just to hear your soft giggle and receive a squeeze right back. The warmth in your heart wholesome and encompassing, even at the stoplight where a soft silence lapses beyond the music playing at the lowest volume in the background.

“I love you,” you decide to say, looking over at him with what you’re sure is the same adoration he always musters around you. You don’t do this because you know he loves it, rather you do it because you want to—you feel it in your heart.

He presses his lips to your forehead, “I love you too.”

And he does. You know that, and hearing it makes you feel like you’ve won some sort of qualifier for championships.

If only you knew just how much he thought this was better than winning any kind of game.

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tending-the-hearth · 7 years ago

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VOLTRON CRASH-COURSE FOR MY FOLLOWERS WHO DON’T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I’VE BEEN POSTING ABOUT FOR THE MANY PAST DAYS

Voltron: Legendary Defender is a cartoon Netflix show based off of a 1984 television cartoon. They have revamped it, and it’s just had it’s third season added. It is an incredible show, and I really recommend that you watch it if you have not yet. Now, I’m going to crash through the characters:

This is Shiro/Space Dad. His full name is Takashi Shirogane. He is the Black Paladin and head of Voltron (literally). He pilots the Black Lion, who chooses her paladins based off of the fact that they are a natural leader, and be calm and collected in the face of battle. Shiro is the Paladin that needs the most sleep and care, because he has honestly been through some shit. While on a mission with Sam and Matt Holt, they were captured by the Galra, a group that I’ll get into later. He’s their prisoner for about a year, and gets a Galran arm during that time. He suffers from PTSD, and, (STOP READING HERE IF YOU HAVEN’T SEEN SEASON 3 OR KEEP READING IF YOU DON’T CARE ABOUT SPOILERS) at the end of Season 3, is most likely still somewhere in space because there is what is most likely a clone with the actual Voltron team, who cannot pilot the Black Lion.

This is Keith Kogane. He is a dropout of the Galaxy Garrison, a school for fighter and cargo pilots and engineers, basically. He is the pilot of the Red Lion, who is very temperamental and volatile, and chooses it’s Paladin based off of instinct. He discovered the Blue Lion, and is very concerned with finding Shiro, who is basically like a brother to him. SPOILERS IF YOU CARE He is half-Galran, his father is human and from Texas, but his mother is unknown. She is possible one of Lotor’s half-Galran generals, which would technically make him a quarter Galra, but no one really focuses on the technicalities. He is a hotheaded leader, but his impulse control is Lance, the Blue Paladin (who he def loves). He tends to shoot (or slice) first, and ask questions later. He faced Zarkon on his own, then went on to attempt to face Lotor as well.

THIS IS LANCE MCCLAIN MY SON AND A VERY GOOD AND BEAUTIFUL BOY. Lance is the Blue Paladin. The Blue Lion’s criteria are not as clear, as we do not find out why the Lion chose Lance, but we can guess that the Blue Lion is fun-loving, the most trusting out of all five Lions, and is hyper and motherly. Lance is the youngest out of all his siblings, is Cuban, and loves his family very much. He just wants to go home, okay? He misses his mama. Lance is a ninja sharpshooter, and flirts with alien girls, guys, and Blue, his lion. He is a really incredible pilot, and shot a knife aimed for Keith out of the air. SPOILERS IF YOU CARE He is the first to accept Keith as the new Black Paladin, and puts his own cares and personal choices aside in favor of the cares of Voltron and the universe. def loves keith. He has self-esteem issues, anxiety, and care very deeply about his team. He doesn’t think he’s good enough to be a paladin. HUG ON SIGHT IF SEEING HIM.

This is Hunk. Hunk pilots the Yellow Lion, who values strength and loyalty (I think? I didn’t find it on the Voltron Wiki). Hunk is Lance’s best friend and engineer, and vomits often in unstable flights. He is an incredible cook, and is just really excited to be a leg, okay? He loves his friends, and isn’t afraid to defend them to the death if he has too. He also loves Shay, a beautiful rock alien girl, and they’re just so cute together. Hunk is normally the peacemaker of the entire group, and he wants what is best for everyone. He sometimes is scared, but will step up if needed, and doesn’t really want to be here, but people need him, so he stays.

This is Pidge Gunderson, or Katie Holt. She is the Paladin of the Green Lion, who has an inquisitive nature and values intelligence. Pidge’s father and brother were on the same mission as Shiro, and were captured by the Galra as well. She disguised herself as a boy to find her family, but is later revealed in Season 1 as a girl. We find out that Matt is alive, but we know nothing of Sam, her father. Pidge is the smartest of the group, and is also the tech-savviest of the group. She’s also close with Shiro, having heard many stories of him from her father and brother. She appears very small and insignificant, but is actually quite strong, and can hold her own in a battle. She is curious about anything and everything, and wants to know how everything in the universe works.

This is Allura. She is the Princess of Altea, and daughter of King Alfor, the creator of Voltron. She is one of the last surviving Alteans, after Zarkon, a Galran emperor, destroyed her planet and kills her people. She survives, and wakes up ten thousand years later in the arms of Lance. She assigns the lions to each of the paladins, and wants to see Zarkon and his forces defeated. While she is still very attached to her planet, Allura is able to put her personal feelings aside throughout the show for the good of others. SPOILERS IF YOU CARE During Season 3, we see that the Blue Lion accepts Allura as her new paladin, and we also find out that Allura’s father was the original Paladin of the Red Lion.

This is CORAN CORAN THE GORGEOUS MAN. He was King Alfor’s advisor and loyal friend, and is the only other surviving Altean other than Allura. He was there when Voltron was first created, so you have to question how old this guy is. He’s nearly as smart as Pidge, and knows everything about the castleship and how it works. While we haven’t seen Coran in combat, he is very protective of Allura, and now all the Paladins. He has grown to see the Paladins as family, and, as we see in Season 3, Episode 4(?), he is terrified when they disappear.

This is Haggar. She is Zarkon’s right hand, and a very powerful Druid. SPOILERS IF YOU CARE She is Altean, and also Zarkon’s wife. She was also there when Voltron was created, and became obsessed with quintessence, which is a being’s life force. Her obsession with the life force slowly drove her to madness and sickness, until she went crazy and white-haired. Her memories, as it’s believed at the end of Season 3, disappeared when she was taken from the quintessence provided by the comet that landed on the Galra homeworld. She does everything for the good of Zarkon and the Galra Empire.

This is Zarkon, the Emperor of the Galra. He is obsessed with taking Voltron for himself, mainly because he was the original Black Paladin. He had the Black Paladin’s bayard, or weapon, in his possession for a while, until Shiro took it back. He also had control over the Black Lion until Shiro formed a stronger bond with the Black Lion. SPOILERS IF YOU CARE Zarkon was also very close with Alfor, and fell in love with Haggar when he first met her after the comet that was used to create Voltron landed on his homeworld. He’s also the father of Lotor, who is brought by Haggar (his mom?) after Voltron manages to seriously injure the Emperor at the end of Season 2. Haggar accesses his memories in Episode 7 of Season 3, which then returns her memories, and possible his, of their relationship as husband and wife.

ALL SEASON 3 SPOILERS IF YOU CARE This is Prince Lotor, son of Zarkon and Haggar (??). He’s manipulative as fuck, has a group of bomb-ass, half-Galra generals who are all girls, and he really respects them. He’s an incredible fighter, and I’m not sure if I love or hate him. He’s an incredibly strategist, and I really just want to see him and Lance interact, because I think it would be really interesting to watch how their personalities clash, because Lotor, in his leadership capabilities and who he is, is very similar to Keith. While we don’t get much more of his character besides that during Season 3, we can already tell that he will be a very formidable enemy to the Paladins.

AND THAT’S IT. I hope you all enjoyed this, and this clears some stuff up for you non-Voltron watchers. It really just gave me an excuse to write about the loves of my life, so you’re welcome. Anyway here’s a gif of Lance bye:

#Voltron legendary defender #takashi shirogane #keith kogane #lance mcclain #hunk garrett #pidge gunderson #katie holt #Allura #coran coran the gorgeous man #Zarkon #haggar #prince lotor

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elizabethschoices · 7 years ago

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Endless Summer, Book 2, Chapter One: My Thoughts

Yeah, yeah, I’m three weeks late. Oops.

(lmao don’t take that out of context)

Yaaay, Book 2 of another diamond-gouger! I wonder how much I’ll be left out on this time around because I can’t pay for every single diamond option! No joke, guys, I don’t even really know what went on last book because I kept seeing all this stuff on the site about Rourke and all this, but I didn’t pay out the ass for diamonds so I had no fucking idea what you guys were experiencing. IMO, that’s a shit way to play your game. Anyway, onto the review. The music sounds like something I heard in a Zelda game. Twilight Princess, specifically. We are ‘bathed in light’ and a voice is speaking to us. It asks if we want to import our Book 1 choices, so we will! I’m romancing Sean in this one. :) He was the first LI I went after in this series, so I see no need to change that because most of you guys like Jake instead. Sorry Michelle.

#NotSorry

The echoes of the past ‘wash over us’ and we’re given a brief reminder of last book’s events. Then we get to choose our MC’s look. I love how mine looks, but I’ll go through the new stuff and see if I like anything!

Eh, I didn’t really wanna change anything about my face and hair.

I shall be known as Elizabeth!

We’re back where we left off and Michelle is amazed that the bright light is gone. Sean declares that we’ve made it through the portal and have gotten away from the Watchers. Craig then asks us where Diego is, but before we can answer, Iris appears! I like her character sprite. She tells us it’s been a while since we last saw her and it’s been a total of 204 days since we interacted with her. Which means Grace, Diego, and Raj have been with the Watchers for that long. Hope they aren’t dead. That would be pretty sucky.

MC says Diego’s name sadly and then the screen fades to black for our title screen!

Literally who is comforted by the unknown???

We’re sitting in the atrium, everyone trying to process what the hell we’ve been through. I can’t even begin to imagine how I’d react during all this crap. Probably dead, since I’m overweight and can’t run for days.

MC is focusing on Diego and just barely realizes that Sean is talking to us. He’s telling us that we all should get some rest, but MC says that basically everyone is too restless to sleep, since three of their friends are gone. MC is asking Sean questions he can’t answer, but he did hypothesize that since we were MIA for six months, the Watchers probably gave up on finding us.

Sean promises us we’ll save them. <3

He’s inspired MC to get out of her misery and look towards the positives, at least.

We’ll go talk to Aleister first, and I’m sure he’ll start blubbering on about Grace and generally giving no fucks about the other two actual human beings that are also missing with Grace.

He is totally out of it right now, like how MC was just a moment ago before talking to Sean. MC apologizes for not being able to save Grace, and he actually doesn’t get shitty about it. What a wonderful development. He understands we had to protect the majority, simply because that’s what a leader does. MC starts to say she isn’t the leader, but that’s bullshit. Aleister says the same, and also tells us that a leader needs to understand their followers.

Ah yes, here we go with the not caring about anyone but Grace part of the conversation. Throwing literally all of us to the wolves for a girl, nice.

I literally snorted.

We’ll talk to Zahra and Craig next.

There’s giggling by the fountain of the atrium apparently. Oh boy. Is a penis exposed??

Oh, the statue is just supposed to be Rourke in a toga. Talk about stroking your ego. (Which you can also do with a penis. :P)

I’ll join in and make a bad joke. There’s been so much drama and bad news that a laugh couldn’t hurt anyone. We got a point with them both, who are currently neutral towards us.

Our foot slips on the tile and we notice a green puddle on the floor.

ew.

We’ll talk to Michelle, Quinn, and Iris now. Michelle is getting her doctor on and gently dabbing Quinn’s face. Quinn seems very used to the fact that she had a ‘little’ bloody nose. I’ve only ever had one and it was awful. It just kinda came out of nowhere. I was playing Frisbee with my friends at school and suddenly blood was coming out of my nose.

First grade memories. <3

Michelle tells us how it was not a little problem, and that in fact it was bleeding for a while, but she thinks it’s all good now. Quinn asks us how we are feeling, but MC notices how Michelle appears concerned and asks if Quinn is actually okay. Iris interrupts and says that Quinn has lower-than-normal blood pressure, lost weight, and before she can tell us about the white blood cell count, Quinn (who is still all happy and smiley) says she’s fine.

Michelle thinks that the portal had a larger effect on Quinn than anyone else, and attempts to look at something, but Quinn brushes her hand away.

I don’t think I’ve ever seen her with an angry face.

Great, I already suck at the relationships.

I think that Quinn should listen to her, because Michelle is literally A.) Training for this and B.) is only trying to help her.

We got three points with Quinn! Also, she is so cute.

Michelle doesn’t take too kindly that Quinn will only let her examine her because of us, but regardless she looks her over. For now, she says she looks alright, but still needs to be checked on every now and again. She asks Quinn if she’ll let her do that, and Quinn looks to us before granting Michelle permission to take care of her.

Michelle finally asks us what we’re even doing over here. We inform them on the ‘plan’ to save Grace, Raj, and Diego.

Michelle says she thinks they can handle it, and then we move on. I think Iris spoke to us one time.

We head over to Lila, Sean, and Jake now. They’re all huddled together and speaking quietly. Whatcha hiding?

Jake says they’re trying to figure out who it was that could have possibly been there the whole time. Um, maybe the guy that owns the place?

Lila doesn’t think anyone was there, and Jake says that Iris reported that she hadn’t detected anyone. But Sean is right when he says that just because she didn’t see them, doesn’t mean they weren’t there. He tells us that a lot of stuff has been moved around. That doesn’t just happen.

He can tell because he has a photographic memory. That’s cool! His point is that someone has been living here and probably looking for something. Jake brings up how we found the instructions about the Hadean Zodiac, which we have no idea what they mean.

Now Sean is talking about how maybe people came to rescue us in the last six months and that we may have missed our window. I wonder if the outside world knows we’re gone though? Like, has it only been a day or so to them, or has it really been six months?

Jake says that if anyone were to come to the island for us, it’d be to kill us, not to rescue us. I’d have to agree on that note. I think it’s an okay silver lining, myself. Apparently Sean and Jake were asking Lila about anything she knew about long-term arrivals to the island.

Lila is starting to freak out, and keeps switching between POVs on how she refers to herself. Lila suggests that Diego, Raj, and Grace would have come to the hotel if they escaped the Watchers, as that’s what she would have done. I’m not so sure they would, but then again, what choice would they have? The Watchers know that jungle inside and out. They’d be safer in the hotel than not.

Everyone gathers around in a circle and Sean lets us take the lead. MC basically says everything she’s already said. Zahra asks how we’re supposed to do that, and Craig responds with his go-to tough guy stuff.

Sean recommends an expedition so we can get a read on how our situation has changed and how we can go from here. Jake says that out trail is six months old and that we’ll find nothing. So MC asks Jake what he thinks, and he thinks that they’re dead.

We have such a lovely group, don’t we?

The never-ending pissing contest is about to start until Sean looks at MC and stops himself from taking the bait. Estela finally makes an appearance and says that we will be as good as dead if we just leave the hotel without any kind of plan or destination in mind.

So the group decides we’ll look for clues that may lead to our missing members, and then Sean gets up and starts the equivalent of a football speech. We break and head up to our room, where we feel a cool sea breeze. The window is still broken from when the Watcher swung through, and a seagull is sitting on the windowsill. MC shoos it away and goes into the bathroom to freshen up.

We see Diego, but then we don’t. Okie.

MC decides to change her outfit. Not a single one is free, as is to be expected. I have 25 diamonds and I don’t really want to waste them on clothing. They smell like crap, but I literally do not care. I work manual labor six days a week. At some point during the week when you run out of shorts because the humidity just got kicked up like a thousand notches, you start not to care what you wear to work because you’re just gonna smell like sweat again in the first hour.

We meet at the atrium again and think about who we should look for clues with.

i want dis one

also thank you PB for not making me pay diamonds for this ily

We meet Sean on the roof, and he’s looking at the rooftop garden. The volcano is smoking in the distance. Has it erupted lately? MC jokes about him having nice eyesight, and it turns out he actually doesn’t. He’s got contacts! How cute. <3

He tells us not to tell any scouts about it, but cuts himself off and looks down, ashamed. Aww, baby, don’t be ashamed! It’s okay to think about yourself sometimes. And you will have a life back home to return to, Sean. I know it. <3

Sean falls into his typical self-deprecation, angry with himself for how Grace, Raj, and Diego were left behind. He can’t help it. MC tells him that he can’t change the past, because it’s not okay for him to think like that. All it does is damage him mentally.

He does make a pretty good point that it could possibly happen on La Huerta. But he gets our point and we earn a relationship point with him. MC gives him a small pep talk and he clearly adores us. He asks us what he should do.

Kiss me, that’s what you should do lmao.

She says either accept the mistakes or don’t make any, to which he says he might be making one at this very moment. Is it not kissing me? Please say it’s not kissing me. I want to be smooched.

OH GOD CAN I GET MY SMOOCH NOW?!

THAT MISTAKE IS NOT KISSING ME RIGHT NOW YES I WOULD LIKE TO START DATING SEAN

We start kissing and it’s really good and I’m swooning so hard right now and then Zahra ruins it.

She says there’s something we’re going to want to see, so we take a break from making out and enjoying life to go see what’s going on. She asks if the doors she’s staring at have always been there, and none of us have seen them thus far. Quinn notices how the wall is chipped where it meets the doors, along with some plaster stuck to the carvings. These doors were recently built? I dunno how plaster and stuff works.

Jake says they were hidden, since the plaster was stuck to it. What was hiding it? How did we not notice it?

Sean asks who found them or how they even knew they were there. Aleister says the Roman numerals for 79 A.D. is engraved on the doors. Zahra says the carvings on the doors are pretty screwed up. Iris says it’s a depiction of humans turning to ash due to a volcanic eruption.

Okie.

MC says it must be a carving of... Well I don’t know. I know La Huerta has a volcano, but has there been an accident involving the volcano? Pompeii strikes me as a possible answer, since that incident is like, the most popular volcano incident I know of. Though it could also be La Huerta? I’m gonna stick with my original answer.

Two points for Aleister! He says he’s got no doubt in his mind that we’re right. Zahra opens up the doors, revealing some sort of library. It looks pretty cool.

We’re all looking around the library until MC notices Furball is scared of something. She follows his gaze to a red velvet frame on the wall that has a stranger scepter in it.

So, it’s a Hydra in the shape of a caduceus, which is the worldwide symbol of medicine, according to Iris. It’s the only item in the library that she can’t identify. Michelle points out the scepter’s inscription.

Craig found a book of Homer’s poems, and comments on how he likes The Simpsons. Jake says that this Homer is a poet, and Craig gets offended because he knows that, he just likes the show.

Jake has no idea how to say caduceus, and I have no idea how to spell it, so thankfully I’m writing this review and already had it written down. ;P Caduceus. Hey, Iris likes us now! Sweet!

We also got a point with Jake, but all in all he’s still pretty neutral about us.

It says something happens when the scepter is held over glimmering water. Where have we seen someone standing over glimmering water?

The atrium.

Two points with Michelle! She’s still neutral towards us though. And plus one with our new boyfriend. ;)

Zahra says the fountain is a sundial!

Oh hell, we’re supposed to know what time to use it based on what we know? Hell if I know!! Hmm... Marking the height of day... Noon? That’s also the time closest to us.

Yay! It was either two or three points with Lila, I’m not sure.

We rush to the atrium with the caduceus and Sean goes all b-ball star to get the staff into the statue’s hand. My babe is so sporty. <3

We all head down into Rourke’s “sex dungeon” as Jake put it. Sean takes our hand. <3 <3 <3

Lights turn on and we see some sort of trophy room. Something is broken.

Michelle is charmed by an idol made of amber and makes us touch it. Suddenly we’re in a sorority room and playing as Michelle.

Oh god, it’s the breakup scene. Sean dumps Michelle all angry and leaves, and then her sorority sisters offer some comfort, which Michelle politely declines. They go away and within mere minutes, Michelle can hear them talking outside of the house about her. They lied to Sean about Michelle cheating (I would like a motive pls) and then suggest that at some point, she did cheat on him because she’s a ‘total skank’ and everyone in the sorority hates her.

Michelle just gets angry and then we’re suddenly yanked forward and on a stormy beach. Michelle is climbing up into a rusted sailboat, and then Quinn shouts for her to stop, worried. Zahra says she’ll get herself killed, and then Michelle starts talking about how nobody wants her there anyway, and that she’s being blamed for the death of Craig and Aleister.

Wut? Pls refresh memory ‘cause I don’t remember anything about them dying.

Jake implores Michelle to get out of the boat, telling her that we are all her friends. She’s crying and insisting that we aren’t her friends, though at this point in the game we all should be because we’ve been through so much shit together. She pushes out to sea before Jake can stop the boat.

The sea monster is still in the water as Michelle makes her way out further into the ocean. Before we can see what happens next, we’re back in Rourke’s museum as ourselves, not Michelle, who is standing next to us.

MC asks how long she’s been standing there, to which Michelle decides to be a rude little bitch and talk about how she gave us the idol a second ago.

The screen fades to black and suddenly we get this like, trophy case type thing, where the idol Michelle held appears.

aka here’s a trick to make you emotional people pay us diamonds

Craig tells us to check out a crimson glove he found in one of the domes, and apparently it feels familiar to us. We try to get it out of the dome, but the button to open it doesn’t work. Craig suggests smashing the glass, and for 12 diamonds we can.

Na, I’m good. Leave it alone.

Jake picks up some kind of electronic device and calls Craig ‘Craigslist.’

Love it.

He pushes the buttons on the remote a couple of times and then suddenly the wall behind him splits open. Behind the wall reveals a gigantic wall-to-ceiling screen, and on the screen is satellite imagery of La Huerta.

It pinpoints a location named the “Hostiles’ Stronghold”, which MC believes means the Watchers, and Jake theorizes that it’s where Raj, Diego, and Grace currently are.

MC tries to tell the group that some can stay back if they want, but Zahra cuts her off because frankly I’m sick of that crap too. Everyone clearly is ready to go find our missing friends.

Good god that chapter was long as hell. I did most of it last night (I started it at 9:30!) and when the clock struck midnight I was done, ‘cause a bitch gotta get up at 7 for work. So I finished the rest of it tonight. :)

Until next time!

#endless summer #endless summer book 2 #choices #playchoices #choices stories you play #choices stories we play #choices game #pixelberry #my thoughts #my review #my opinion #elizabethschoices

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sambashua · 7 years ago

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11 questions~ (again)

I did this a while back but i think it’s really fun so thank you @yooncheoly !! Also I’m answering my sister’s questions @aegyovendingmachine too bc I like talking abt myself ok (bye this is so so long rip when will i shut up)

Kelby’s Questions!

1~When did you first get into Kpop?And what was the first MV / Song that got you hooked? Wellllllll I first started listening to BTS in October 2015 probs but I didn’t branch out to more groups until March 2016 ish. But the first MV that got me hooked was Dope on the Fine Bros react channel lol

2~Who are your Bias Wreckers for the groups that you love? AHAHAHHAHA (this is gonna be so long dear lord) okay soooo my bias groups are svt and nct and honestly?? I love them all a ridiculous amount! so in svt I am stupidly loyal to wonwoo bc I am a messssss and i go through phases of loving each of them more~ I never rlly feel threatened that wonu will be debunked as my ult but probably the one who rlly gets me goin the most is hosh:) for nct I used to bias mark then yuta lol but i think the dreamies are my true bias group who even is jung jaehyun tbh so yeah donghyuck is everything to me. for other groups ! ummm in bts I love them all a lottttt a lot too but I think lately jin and jungkook have mostly been wrecking me? I’m p loyal to monnie tho! okay for astro it’s 10/10 jinjin at the moment but sanha and mj snatch me often enough too for sure~ in twice mina has been ruining my life but what’s new tbh. jae for day6 destroys me way too often someone collect him. in shinee it’s probably key! just bc I really like his sense of humor and I relate to him haaa. honestlyyyy in all girl groups i am high key disloyal and swerving all over the place oops. anddd sehun is legit my ult bias wrecker like at this point he might as well be my bias baekhyunnie is dead to me

3~If you had the chance to go to ONLY 1 concert and go backstage and hang out and meet everyone who would you choose and why? BOIIIIIIIII um probably seventeen let’s be real just bc they are my bias group and although I love a lot of groups I feel like they would make me feel very welcome!!

4~Have you ever met one of your idols?How was it if you have?And if you haven’t, who would you want to meet and why? omg no I wishhhhhhh but I am going to see monsta x in July!! I am very very excited!!!!

5~What’s the coolest thing that you have bought(Merchandise wise)From the groups that you love? Ummmmmm I don’t have a whole lot of merch but I have the Love & Letter album and the Boys Wish DVD and it’s my fave

6~Can you recommend some of your favorite MV’s to watch? UM IDEK HELP ME WOW okay so I’ve kinda gathered through emma (correct me if i’m wrong ah) that you haven’t branched out to a whole lot of groups yet? Is that incorrect ? idk BUT WOW DO I GOT A LIST I’ll just list some of my faves tho! (side note: i’m not a huge mv watcher i’m more of a dance practice gal)

youtube

Day6 - I’m Serious : I’m not sure if this is my favorite of their’s bc it’s hard to compare them all but it’s a really cute and summery video:)

youtube

ASTRO - Baby : OKAY IT’S REALLY NEW BUT I THINK IT’S MY FAVORITE ONE THEY’VE RELEASED it’s so high budget and pretty wahhh

youtube

NCT U - 7th Sense : This one really brings me back to when I didn’t know any of them and cass showed me it in senior year english wow what ride it’s been (a long ass ride)

youtube

Nu’est - Love Paint : THIS MV IS SO PRETTY OKAY STAN NU’EST PLZ

youtube

SF9 - Easy Love : This is my favorite SF9 mv bc I like the song and they all look so handsome!!

Victon - I’m Fine : my cute cute sons w their cute cute debut

SHINee - Can I Get Your Number & Tell Me What to Do : cigyn was a fave of mine from when I first listened to them and then tmwtd just makes me laugh bc of taemin at this part like why tae omg

Monsta X - Beautiful & Stuck : honestly love all their mvs tho

my sister’s gonna kill me Zico - I Am You, You Are Me : it’s rlly cute okay i like it AND SO DOES WONWOO BYE

Up10tion - White Night��: THIS MV STILL BLOWS MY MIND OKAY

Twice - Cheer Up (ofc)

Red Velvet - Dumb Dumb : the aesthetics on all their mvs are so good

Wonder Girls - Why So Lonely : dude this mv is so good I miss them so much

Luna - Free Somebody : THIS SONG/MV/DANCE IS MY LIFE OKAY LIVE FOR THIS STAN LUNA

(okay i’m gonna stop hmu anytime for mv or music recs damn i need to chill)

7~Favorite Video games(If you play them)? no juego los videojuegos ahhhhhhhh sorry idk i never got into them… i used to play the sims… but Just Dance is my shit also Mario Cart

8~Favorite picture of your ultimate bias? DON’T DO THIS TO ME (okay i narrowed it down to 4 that was a trial in itself jesus this post is getting so long free me)

9~What’s your favorite choreo? KELBY YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND I LEGIT WROTE AN ARTICLE ABT THIS AND IT WAS JUST FOR 2017 (jan-march) AND I WAS ALREADY STRUGGLING okay jk i just realized NCT Dream’s My First and Last was a thing that is 100% my favorite choreo for so many reasons !!!! first the choreo is ridiculous like come on all the cool tricks and floor work is amazing. second it never repeats except for one part at the very end of the chorus repeats once, but other than that every single move is different literally how tf. third the formations are so diverse! especially since they’re an even number (jaemin i miss you) formations are always tricky so i was so impressed. lasttttt they are literal children? how? stan talent stan nct dream (oh also shout out to ten’s dream in a dream that was some lit stuff)

10~Favorite era? probablyyyyyy the renaissance hahaaa just kidding ahhhh wow i’m funny. but fr i am not sure???? i literally stan sooo many groups it’s really hard to narrow it down… but my bias group is svt and i think my favorite era is Love & Letter! (i would say nice but ah wonu) bc they all had cute hair and it was their first win and it was the first comeback i was part of the fandom!

11~How do the people in your life react when you tell them that you listen to kpop?Are they supportive or just against it? lol soooo idk I don’t necessarily bring it up these days ? just bc I’m in college now so idk I only bring it up casually I guess… BUTTTTTT when I first told my friends I was so nervous and they judged me so hard and a lot of them still judge me but they now know it’s part of who I am and they kinda accept that! I actually was the first person I knew to get into kpop so I dragged a lot of my friends irl into it too! (shoutout to @aegyovendingmachine @everyonesabiaswrecker @taeismyking @honestlay ) and i’ve made so many friends through it online and in real life! (shoutout to @atshinee i know it wasn’t why we became friends but it definitely helped make us close!)

Sister’s Questions!

1. Who is your favorite person on Produce 101? (if you’re not watching the show or don’t know anything about it then which is your favorite predebut project? i.e Fantagio I-Teen, SM Rookies, K.A.R.D, Pledis Girlz, etc.) YOOOOO DON’T DO THIS TO ME but my top 11 boys are probably Park Woojin (my most precious baby ilh), Samuel Kim, Kim Sanggyun, Kim Jonghyun, Im Youngmin, Noh Taehyun, Jung Sewoon, Kim Donghan, Kim Yongguk, Takada Kenta, Daniel Kang, and Lee Daewhi (ah there’s so many more too rip i’m crying) idk there’s so many in the top that... not saying they don’t deserve it... it’s just that they’re given more screen time by chance and not bc of talent.... also i’m crying for my eliminated babies Hong Eunki (it is such bs he got eliminated fight me he was my fave), Byun Hyunmin (HE WAS SO PURE AND ADORABLE I MISS HIM SM), Woo Jinyoung (he was such a good rapper he didn’t deserve this), Kim Dongbin (listen he wasn’t the best but he really did improve so so much), ALSO CONSIDER THEY HAVE ELIMINATED MOST OF THEIR VOCALISTS THERE’S GONNA BE NONE LEFT AND ALL THEIR SONGS ARE GONNA BE TRASH I HOPE YOU’LL ALL BE HAPPY

2. What’s your favorite idol group friendship? (Mine is probs SVT x Monsta X or Astro x KNK) YO KNKSTRO IS MY SHIT I LOVE MY BOYS well okay also monsta x svt is a fave also ncteen but I mean I’m a ho for svt interacting with any idols so~~

3. What concert would you most like to see? honestly I feel like SHINee puts on the best concerts and SHAWOLS are the cutest and nicest ever!!

4. Which disbanded group would you bring back if you could? (Or, alternatively: which members that have left a group would you bring back?) UM WOW GUESS WHO’S CRYING sistar’s disbandment was so recent this hurts me... but probably Wonder Girls bc they were one of my first favorite girl groups:(((

5. What was the last thing you texted someone? wtf these were all kpop i wasn’t readyyyyy “STOP HE IS LITERALLY THE SOFTEST BOY IN THE WHOLE WORLD I LOVE HIM” I’m so extra

6. When/how did you get into kpop? bye how many times do i have to answer this YOUTUBERS>BTS>HELL

7. Who is your youngest bias? ohh this is interesting... most of my female biases are younger... yehana, yeri, chaeyoung, suhyun are all 99 line! (suhyun being the youngest of them) but I mean the dreamies are ~basically~ my bias group so all of them are younger than them (also does samuel count as a bias? bc he’s 02 line) my youngest “official” boy group bias is moonbin tho!

8. What’s the most extra thing you remember saying in the tags on a post? bitch you know every tag i do is extra how tf am i supposed to find this???? well recently I tagged this post [#svt #boy wyd layin upside down like that ya gonna crack ya damn head open #he makes me so nervous #joshua #al1] is that good enough~ also my entire jaewindo thread bc i’ve reblogged the same post so many times bc it’s my fave! (i just realized i’m most extra when tagging my shua posts gdi)

9. What is your favorite reality show? (not like Real Housewives lmao but like NCT Life or One Fine Day or smth like that!) oh damn idk probablyyyyy NCT Life and then OFD... jsut bc I’ve only seen three seasons of OFD so idk if i’d like it if I wasn’t into the group but every season of NCT Life is golden soooo (plz put markhyuck on the next season i’m begging you sm)

10. What’s your favorite drama? (if you don’t watch dramas you can just use your favorite TV show it’s fine) Probablyyyyyyyyyy Doctors Crush or Legend of the Blue Sea!!

11. Post your favorite selfie of your bias’! you know my man is anti selfie what is this

this was so expected sorry if you thought I would choose any other selfie then unfollow me now this was the selfie that reassured that my man was on the mend!!

here i’ll post ones for namjoon and jaehyun just bc I want to give them more love

bye this was so difficult he has soooo many selfies what the heck~~~ I’m not confident but this one is for sure adorable!!

THIS WAS ALSO DIFFICULT AH bc he honestly looks good all the time so this was unfair

this was the longest post of my life jeezzzzzz well probably no one read this but i’m not gonna tag anyone bc i am so bad at coming up w questions sorry.....

#tagged #thank you for tagging me kelby! you're so sweet~#this is so long don't even read it tbh #you can look at the pics tho i got some good ones mhmm #quality wonu content as usual #this took me 5830480 years

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almaasi · 7 years ago

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reaction post typed while watching SPN 12x21 “There’s Something About Mary”

in which i lose my shit for a full hour, reach peak despair, trigger temporary depression, and then proceed to watch in lowkey sarcasm mode with emotions switched off!!!! what fun

08:46pm

...........buckleming episode

instead of watching this, did i put it off for three hours? did i pet our new dog at length (a rescue staffordshire bull terrier cross, who we have named seven!!! after seven of nine from star trek: voyager. yes, like the number 7.), watch half an episode of columbo with my family, have a shower, and then watch 35 minutes of dan and phil playing that horse prince game ?

quite possibly

(read: yes)

sidenote: i just googled “staffordshire bull terrier” and found a picture. seven looks almost exactly like this, including the lil white socks ~ SHE’S SO SWEET and she passed her Good Dog Test so she gets to stay with us now!~ (my sister found her abandoned on our road, vet said she’d been kept with pigs, her leg was broken and didn’t heal right. and she’s an adult but hadn’t been registered to anyone. FINDERS KEEPERS)

new doggo > a brad buckner + eugenie ross-leming episode EVERY TIME

post-episode addition: oh look how much life i had in me before this

08:58pm

why does wikipedia say the next two episodes are both airing on may 18th

i guess it’s a double-bill finale

08:59

URGH okay fiiiiine i’mma watch this now

the preview made the script seem okay but i’m guessing that the better writer wrote that bit

also! @cassammydean and i were talking about the last episode, and we realised that i’d misinterpreted that final scene.

it looked (to me) like, while mary was tied up, her phone rang, and ketch went over to it. then the camera panned up and ketch had turned into toni. and i legit thought ketch and toni were the SAME PERSON (shapeshifter maybe) and i got to expressing how cool that was, and how that brought back the ~gay subtext~ from 11x23 with the rainbow light on toni’s face, because if ketch=toni, and ketch bangs mary, then that’s kinda non-heterosexual since gender isn’t a defined thing for ketch=toni

EXCEPT

i realised i’d seen it all wrong. ketch starts to move over to mary’s phone, but then camera pans up, and toni comes in from the oTHER SIDE and answers it. she’s wearing the same grey suit as ketch was. I WAS TRICKED BY THE COSTUME CHOICES. they were both in the room, ketch in front of mary, toni behind her, wearing the same suit.

and i’m still kinda bummed because if ketch=toni that would’ve been really cool imo

09:09

oh no eileen is in this episode

I DON’T WANT HER TO DIE

WHO LET THE DEADLY DUO WRITE THIS

PLEASE DON’T DIE HORRIBLY EILEEN I LOVE YOU YOU’RE SO IMPORTANT

SHE AND SAM NEED TO BE TOGETHER

IF SHE DIES IN THIS EPISODE I WILL TEAR THROUGH MY LAPTOP SCREEN, SWIM ACROSS THE OCEAN INSIDE A CABLE, POP UP THROUGH THE DEADLY DUO’S COMPUTER SCREENS AND PULL OUT ALL THEIR HAIRS ONE BY ONE

INCLUDING THEIR EYELASHES

post-episode edit: is there a wikihow article for this i’d like to give it a go

09:13

NO NO NO NO NO

PLEASE GOD NO

please let her still be alive dear god no

i’m fucking shaking i can’t watch this

;A;

09:15

NO BAD PUPPY

MY DOG IS BETTER THAN YOUR DOG, KETCH

fuck you, up the nose with a cactus

09:16

are you ever just nauseous because the deadly duo not only exist in this world, but write for a show that deserves so much better

09:18

IT FUCKING HURTS MY FEELINGS THAT DEAN CHECKS BEHIND THE SHOWER CURTAIN FOR A BLOODY CORPSE OF THE PEOPLE HE LOVES

FROM ANY OTHER WRITER I’D BE LIKE “OH HE’S SCARRED BY HIS MEMORIES THIS IS AN INTERESTING AND HEARTBREAKING CHARACTER THING”

BUT FROM THESE TWO I’M LIKE “OH THANKS FOR RUBBING IT IN OUR FACES YOU MISOGYNISTIC ASSPRICKS”

///BREATHES INTENSELY

09:21

look

have i ever made it clear that these writers make me very angry

BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME SO FUCKING ANGRY

09:23

sam gets worried when he hears from jody

my heart just dropped

fuck

if any other favourite charatcters are dead

i swear to god i’m

i don’t even know i’m

please

i think i need to ragequit before this fucks me up because i can feel it coming

09:25

eileen

welp that’s it i’mma cry

if there is a fucking petition to get these writers fired and/or assassinated i want to know about it

...i’m not crying

i’m

a n g r y

//sits and stares at my screen

i hate them.

why

what the fuck do they think they’re doing

ugh i’m exhausted already

i’m so tired of these writers, and specifically these ones. the rest of the season is fine. it’s the fact these fuckheads have 5 episodes a season and they clearly take extreme pleasure in sucking the joy out of a show that fuels a community of people. they kill the characters we love IN THE MOST DISTRESSING WAY POSSIBLE with no sensitivity whatsoever

it fucking disgusts me, okay

they’re not just bad writers, they’re clearly horrible people

there’s no kindness or redemption on their stories, they’re literally just trying to torture us (NOT A COMPLIMENT), and i’m sure they feel gleeful when they see people crying (if they even look up fan responses, which i doubt, given the years of complaints and constructive criticism they’ve clearly ignored)

listen, i’m no stranger to feeling good when my work affects someone, all right. neither am i a stranger to killing beloved characters for emotional effect, but sweet jesus theRE’S ALWAYS A BETTER WAY TO DO IT THAN A COLD OPEN WHERE A BELOVED CHARACTER WHO REPRESENTS SO MUCH TO SO MANY PEOPLE HAS NO LINES AND IMMEDIATELY GETS TORN TO FUCKING SHREDS

the list of things they’ve ruined on this show is so long i need that gif of crowley unrolling his scroll across the floor

idk what to do now. do i want to watch this? no. fuck no.

am i gonna watch anyway just to get it out of the way so i can never watch this shit again? yeah fine why the fuck not my evening is already ruined

(ha, and my mother always asks why i don’t rewatch the show with the family. because of these writers.)

09:43

this has taken me an hour and i’m 4 minutes in

what a waste of my life

09:44

i dont have words

how dare they do this to sam

09:45

i feel sick

i’m so tired

..........i kinda wanna die

man i really wish i had a friend here who i could hug and talk shit about these writers with

09:47

sam: “i wannA PUNCH SOMETHING IN THE FACE”

you and me both dude

can we write “buckleming” on a dartboart and blow a round of bullets through it

09:53

jesus christ this is a clusterfuck of triggers

i wanna go home

09:54pm

well i’m 9 minutes in, this is so hard to watch and i’m goddamn tired

i wanna stop honestly

the only good thing i can say about this is that the director (p. j. pesce) is good, the shots are visually interesting, and the pacing of the editing is not something i’ve noticed on this show before

i dunno whether just to take a break or what

i don’t want to come back and have to watch this next week

i wish this didn’t exist

the problem is i’m invested in the overall story. over the years i keep compelling myself to quit this show because of these writers, but ultimately i keep coming back because i love the characters so much

i can’t just stop

but every time i pause this video file, my brain blanks out and the world is peaceful again

i wonder if it’s possible for just this episode to trigger depression? because i’m so empty right now

10:00pm

yup i’mma take a break and come back to this in a bit

10:04

just thinking, while looking over the list of spn episodes and their writers

if i wasn’t part of the spn fandom, and didn’t check which writer wrote what, i’d dislike this show just because of these writers, and i wouldn’t even realise it was the same writers over and over.

the kind of shit they write is exactly what puts me off a show. shows like ‘castle’ or ‘the x files’ or ‘psych’ are good overall, but occasionally they’ll have a problematic thing that i can ignore for one episode, recognising that it’s a one-off writer, and i’ll stick with the show. but spn has those kind of issues four or five times a season, when these two are writing - and not in a small way, either. if i was a casual watcher, i’d have ragequit already, thinking it was just how the show is.

and i’d probably vote this show 3/10 and never watch it again

just because of these two writers

10:19pm

i’m back

i shall eat some things with sugar in them

and tell myself It’s Okay!! They’re Just Fictional Characters!!

YEAH!!!

..........NOPE

they’re fictional charatcters and they mean a lot to me and other people and the writers are basically killing our friends so

YEAH LET’S DO THIS

c: C: C:

/sarcastic smile

me: haha fuck you

10:24

do we praise them for canonising john’s abuse

10:25

“repealed and replaced”

well that’s another way to set my blood boiling

10:27

current emotion: middle finger up

10:29

oh look a black guy

let’s see... bad guy, dead guy or doormat?

my money’s on all three

10:33

that line would’ve been cooler if crowley said “dagon dead and gone”

10:34

“the winchesters’ love slave, castiel”

*steeples fingers and peers over the rims of my glasses*

10:38

i see dean and i just wanna go up to him and rest my forehead on his chest

and just be for a while

we’ve all been through too much