#love art and writing and crafts - hate creating when I'm not in the mood

[gnomecrime]

it sucks when ppl look down on me and think im disappointing or lazy or whatever bc im not working toward a "career"

"but you're so talented you're so smart you're so etc etc" bitch i love learning and i love my hobbies -- i just don't want to commodify them. it kills all joy for me to have to rely on my passions for income. i just wanna do my little job, make enough to be comfortable, and then have time to indulge in what i like doing when i want to -- literally the simplest concept on earth

i envy those people who "love what (they) do", and make a career out of what they love, truly, but that ain't me. i can't do it. and i don't want to pay for school to get a job i don't even like. work is work, and then the love and joy springs from what i do outside of work.

[wisteriaiswriting]

Hello! May I request a Platonic and Romantic Spider-Verse matchup? Have a great day ahead! 💞

𝗦𝗲𝘅𝘂𝗮𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗣𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘀: Transmasc (AFAB-Assigned Female at Birth) Genderfluid, Biromantic and Pansexual; He/They

𝗔𝗴𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗔𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲: 23 years old, around 5'3", Southeast Asian (Filipino) with Spanish ancestry. Chubby with Medium brunette hair with fringe bangs and grayish tips [mistakenly thought to be dyed], Chocolate brown eyes, and a Small beauty mark on my forehead.

𝗦𝘁𝘆𝗹𝗲: Feminine Tomboy, Soft Punk/Rocker Chic, Casual Chic, Modernist Chic, and Rustic fashion style (like Malia Tate)

𝗠𝗕𝗧𝗜, 𝗘𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗮𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗺 & 𝗠𝗼𝗿𝗮𝗹 𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗴𝗻𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁: ENTP-T, 4w5, Neutral Good

𝗣𝗼𝘀𝗶𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗧𝗿𝗮𝗶𝘁𝘀: Gentle, Warm, Polite, Supportive, Religious, Unassuming, Creative, Multifaceted, Diplomatic, Nurturing, Booksmart, Fair-minded, Enthusiastic, Insightful, Adventurous, Well-rounded,and Childlike

𝗡𝗲𝘂𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗹 𝗧𝗿𝗮𝗶𝘁𝘀: Complex, Sarcastic, Driven, Wary, Reluctant, Loud, Outspoken, Keen, Sensitive, Chatty, Traditionalist, Feisty, Clumsy, Humorous, Stubborn, Hopeless romantic, and Dogmatic

𝗡𝗲𝗴𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗧𝗿𝗮𝗶𝘁𝘀: Volatile, Flighty, Inconsistent, Aloof or Dependent (depending on the mood), Potty-mouthed, Gullible, [a bit] Manipulative, Exasperating, [can be] Possessive [but needs your own space], Restless, Tenacious, Indecisive, Overly dramatic, Moody, Blunt, and Condemning

𝗟𝗶𝗸𝗲𝘀: Arts, Literature, Creative writing, History, Old cathedrals, Catholic theology, Catechism, Saints, Choir, Amateur-fact reading, Social commentary, Beauty pageants, Makeup, Cute minimalistic items, Eating, Night sky, Astronomical events, Galaxy color palette, Karaoke, ASMR, Rock bands, 2000s-2010s music, Kpop, Cartoons, Memes, and Chilling both Indoors and Outdoors

𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲𝘀: Stereotyping (I hate it when I labeled as sunshiny girly girl), Forced obligation, Being left out, Interrupted plans, Emotional invalidation, Apathy, Judgemental people, Hypocrites, Pressuring, No privacy, Forcing to do I'm against with, Gaslighting, Telenovelas, Dirty bathrooms, blackout, Lightning, Firecrackers, Toads, Snakes, Cockroaches, Bees, Toxic Masculinity, Misogyny, Fake woke, Nitpicking, Trash talkers, Extremists, Crab Mentality, and Overly girly things

𝗛𝗼𝗯𝗯𝗶𝗲𝘀: Drawing, Conceptualizing original characters, Writing, Reading random subjects (except math), Singing, Dancing [when nobody's around (I'm very bad at it)], Walking like a so-so called model (if I ever feel so confident), Sharing nerdy or opinionated thoughts, Sleeping, Listening to music, Chatting in social media, Watching videos on YouTube (mostly ASMR and color coded lyrics or audio), Watching cartoons, Creating clay charms, Making terrible jokes/puns, and Cooking

𝗧𝗮𝗹𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘀: Drawing, Sketching, Painting, Modeling clay crafting, Hand lettering, Scrapbooking, Creative writing, Essay writing, Singing, Playing flute recorder, Doing makeup, Acting, and Public speaking

𝗙𝗮𝗰𝘁𝘀:

• I was diagnosed with mild ADHD when I was a child

• Once a Computer Science major shifted to Secondary Education major in English

• Used to be a member of Campus Ministry, and served as a lector, a psalmist, and a choir member of my school at the same time for three years from 9th grade to 12th grade.

• I’m part of the Education and Hotel Restaurant Management college department choral group who won our school’s chorale competition last December

• One of the overall top students in college department of my school in first semester last year (ranked 23 out of 100+ college students)

@aeriscallanga

I match you with...

Hobie Brown (Romantic)

I feel like with your fashion sense your trope is literally ‘scary guard dog and innocent/cute s/o’ though you’re both a but fucked up. And Hobie really plays into this, with your height not helping one bit.

He loves the fact that you’re creative, letting you two spend some well spent time together doing your activities, while he messes around with whatever he has, he’ll watch and listen to you do yours. (This man makes and dedicates songs to you.)

Since you’re adventurous, he would adore you if you agreed to let him take you throughout the city. (And other dimensions.) Just you two sightseeing, meeting his friends and making memories.

Where you two truely connect is your dislikes. Sharing plenty of the same views which let you two have civil and deep conversations.

As you're a hopeless romantic, he would melt if you ever stepped up and did something showing your love for him. (Although not publicly, as much as he loves you he much prefers your safety.)

Plenty of your traits match up with him, which makes you two a couple that can and will last for years on end.

Gwen Stacy (Platonic)

You two have that kinda connection letting you spend hours together in silence, able to do your own things but know that you’re right there. Whether it’s you’re doing school work or other activities, and it’s never just in either of your rooms.

If you let her, she loves reading anything you write, no matter the topic she is reading every word. (Unless she finds it absolutely boring, but she makes up for those few times.) And if they’re about cases / police and you let her, she’ll take them to her dad, wanting him to see what her best friend writes and how good they are at it.

Brags about your cooking, especially if you made something just for her. ”Look what my bestie made, he made them just for me! Wha– HOBIE!” Unless you make and put aside extra for her when telling her to share them, they won’t be given to anyone but her close friends.

It was close choice with the points but Hobie came out on top!

Hobie - 35

Lyla - 32

Miles 42 - 28

Gwen stacy - 28

Olivia - 26

Miles 1610 - 26

Pravitar - 25

The spot - 20

Jessica - 18

Miguel - 18

[chongoblog]

Valentine's Day OC Ship Gushing: Dancefloor

So my poll has been up for about 20 minutes, and (despite where I placed my vote, it was mostly there as a placeholder), I'm incredibly happy to see that both of the top spots are from The Red Kraken, which is the story I've been excited to write about for the last, like, five years.

Now maybe it's because you all loved the names or maybe you guys just love pirates (which mood to both), so I'm just gonna get it going because I want to talk about Dancefloor. The cute ship between the two furries, because I've been thinking about them a lot. Continuing under the readmore

So first things first, this is for a series that I've been meaning to write, and unlike the other Red Kraken ship, this is a relationship that develops over the course of the story, so for both of the RK ships I'll have to be brief with some of the details, seeing how I'd hate to spoil too much of the story. Also, everything is still technically a work in progress, so even though I'm speaking pretty broadly, some things may change somewhat. That said, let's talk about Them.

(art being post is by @stoatunquote who has created some Good RK Content and they are very awesome and swag)

So first we have Disco

Disco is a new recruit to the crew of the Red Kraken, a pirate crew that, in the story, is exploring a newly revealed world full of mystery and adventure. Specifically, she convinced a newly made friend to help her stow away at the last second before they set off. Having lived most of her life on the streets, she's always hungry for adventure, jumping into new experiences without a second thought. She's incredibly confident, believing herself to have a silver tongue, able to convince anyone of anything with her charisma (despite the fact that she usually cannot), and she is also something of a kleptomaniac, enjoying theft as if it were a craft in and of itself, sometimes preferring stealing something than having it be given to her.

And then the other half, Tap

Tap is a woman of few words. She prides herself on her skills with the bow and arrow and her abilities in stealth and scouting. She had joined the crew a few years ago, and even now, there are a few members who have yet to fully earn her trust. Granted, earning her trust is incredibly difficult to do. Without going too deep into it, her backstory, which includes losing an enormous portion of her large family after being betrayed by someone she had trusted, lends herself to being not trusting in the slightest. Her reason for joining at first centered around getting revenge, and while she still thinks about getting that revenge, she's come to adjust to life on the crew, willing to wait for the moment she can get that revenge. She also attempts to keep a cold and serious demeanor, although she is not very good at hiding when she is legitimately excited about something, usually outwardly denying said excitement.

Tap is the first member of the crew that Disco meets, being held at bowpoint by the bunny with an icy glare. Disco falls in love almost instantly, at first mostly as just attraction. Because there's something about being held at bowpoint. As Disco and Mac (the other guy) are brought on as new recruits with Tap assigned to watch over them. Over time, that attraction turns into a more genuine and more heartfelt caring. Tap finds herself constantly annoyed by Disco at first, slowly also growing to care for the other.

So why do I love this ship so much? First of all, the dynamic in the way they act with one another is very playful one, with Disco constantly trying to sweet-talk Tap, only for her to be completely immune to her "silver tongue" or attempting to steal little trinkets from her only to be stopped by Tap's incredibly acute senses. On the other hand, Disco also enjoys the challenge of trying to get her to show excitement past the cold demeanor, and she can tell that deep down Tap enjoys these little challenges, sometimes giving equally playful retorts (each one driving Disco absolutely crazy)

But on a bit of a deeper level, they have a lot of similarities and differences that really serve to help each other as they grow closer. In terms of similarities, both of them have experienced a level of betrayal in their past. Also they're both Beastials (which is the in-universe way of saying they're furries), and while I'm not sure how much I plan to dive into the Societal Implications of that (because that sort of thing can get allegorically complicated very fast, oh hi Zootopia), being a Beastial definitely has an effect on their backstory. They also both hold a lot of passion and excitement for the little things in life (no matter how much Tap tries to hide it).

But the most important part about them is that they act as a foil for one another in a very important way. The best way I can describe this is they differ in the idea of the journey vs the destination. Due to Disco's past, she believes herself to be powerless against the sheer scale and power of the rest of the world. So her approach to that is to live out the rest of her life simply enjoying the journey with no thoughts to where it will lead her. After all, her actions won't have an effect on much, so why have any sense purpose behind her actions outside of "here for a good time, not a long time"?

Tap, on the other hand, believes that the ends justify the means, completely unfocused on how things get done, moreso focusing on what the result will be. After all, she joined the crew first and foremost to get revenge. And for the first few months on the crew, she likely had that solely occupying her mind. There's no time to smell flowers when there's work to be done.

And I'm hoping that as I write the story of these two growing closer that they can learn to grow from one another. I've known for a long time that Disco's arc is going to mostly include her learning to have a purpose behind what she does and slowly learning what that purpose is. Tap's arc I'm still trying to get a firm grasp of, but I imagine in large part it will be learning to let herself enjoy the little things through life and learning to not deny herself that pleasure.

Anyway, I think out of all of my ships, this one is actually my favorite. I really hope that I can make it a reality, and writing about it has only fueled my passion to write about the Red Kraken a little bit more. I really really REALLY hope that I can use this energy to do this. MY New Years Resolution this year was to make them real to some extent, so here's hoping I can focus on doing exactly that.

And as a final touch, even though I cannot draw, here They are