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her antler queen (lottie matthews x natalie scatorccio)

☆.。.: 🩷 °☆.。.: 🩷 °☆.。.: 🩷 °☆.。.: 🩷 °☆

𝙩𝙞𝙩𝙡𝙚: 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙡𝙚𝙧 𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙚𝙣

𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜: 𝙡𝙤𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙚 𝙢𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙬𝙨 𝙭 𝙣𝙖𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙚 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙘𝙘𝙞𝙤

𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨: 𝙣𝙤𝙣-𝙜𝙧𝙖𝙥𝙝𝙞𝙘 𝙨𝙢𝙪𝙩

𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙩: 1.5𝙠

𝙨𝙪𝙢𝙢𝙖𝙧𝙮: 𝙡𝙤𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙡𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙤 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙗𝙡𝙚𝙢𝙨, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙥𝙪𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙙𝙞𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙡𝙮 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙤 𝙣𝙖𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙚'𝙨 𝙖𝙧𝙢𝙨.

☆.。.: 🩷 °☆.。.: 🩷 °☆.。.: 🩷 °☆.。.: 🩷 °☆

contrary to popular opinion, lottie matthews was not insane. sure, she had weird unexplainable visions. sure, she was technically the leader of what some would assume to be a cannibalism cult. but really, lottie was just a girl. a girl who was very good at playing pretend.

from an early age, lottie was stuck with these visions, these dreams when she’s not sleeping. while at first she had a hard time getting used to it, she would eventually come to let herself indulge in these scenarios. they were almost likes signs, from a higher spirit. laura lee had said it was god sending lottie a message, that she was supposed to be some sort of prophet. and that’s actually what lottie planned on being. a prophet. a savior. it was her destiny, to save herself and all her other teammates. after all, why would she be burdened with these visions if not to do something good? isn’t it just a blessing disguised as a curse? lottie was convinced it had to be. she convinced there was a purpose behind her hallucinations, that she wasn’t just crazy. she would herself this over and over again. it helped with the coping process.

she couldn’t control what she saw but whatever it was, it typically was an answer or a reason as to whatever the hell was going on in her life. lottie lacked a lot of those. answers. which isn’t the easiest thing when you’re a girl with a lot of questions. like why did you get stuck here? how can you escape? why is the really gorgeous blonde girl you’ve been flirting with just treating you like shit?

that’s another thing. while most of her visions involve some sort of ritual or guidance from the wilderness, others involved one of her teammates. the pretty emo italian, natalie.

now at first, lottie was convinced it was because natalie had a higher purpose. at first she believed it was because natalie was supposed to be the sacrifice, supposed to be the one that got the group through the next season, but then it became clear that natalie was the next in line. the next antler queen. and despite natalie’s objections and skepticism towards the wilderness, she took on the role. it was meant to be, lottie thought. the non believer finally finding her way to the light. the wilderness had shown the most cynical of people the way, so that means it had to be real. lottie wasn’t just playing pretend, not this time.

lottie had told natalie that she had always been its favorite, which wasn’t entirely untrue. she just left out the part where natalie was her favorite as well.

maybe, just maybe, lottie thought more highly of natalie than just the new antler queen. maybe lottie thought her connection to natalie was more than just her helping the other girl see the wilderness for what is truly is. maybe the wilderness brought them together for another reason. maybe. just maybe the wilderness saw something. lottie couldn’t quite place it, it was something between lust and love and jealousy and curiosity and adoration. natalie was everything lottie wasn’t. she was unapologetically herself, she was beautiful in a way lottie had never seen before, and she was so insanely alluring without even trying. she found herself idolizing natalie, wanting to know everything about the magnetic girl in her dreams.

all lottie matthews wanted was to understand the anamaly that was natalie scatorccio.

so, she gravitated towards nat. they started talking more, they got closer. it was a natural thing, even more proof that the wilderness is real and it believes these two have a purpose together. and when natalie started having issues with travis, lottie knew it was her place to step up and be that safety net for natalie, even if natalie didn’t want it. even if the latter was convinced she was better off alone.

the lonely life never works out well, lottie had said to nat, but the blonde just dismissed her. lottie understood her skepticism. it was the same way she had reacted to the wilderness. but eventually natalie had come to answer its calling. so why couldn’t she answer lottie’s?

natalie had confided in lottie about her fears as antler queen. she had fears of letting everyone down, of fucking up. lottie knew nat was still having doubts about the wilderness, but she also knew natalie cared. even if she wouldn’t show it, natalie cared. and that was enough to get her to try with what she once considered wicca bullshit. natalie would do that if it meant to try and save everyone. and lottie? well, if lottie admired natalie back then, she was full on ready to worship natalie knew.

one night, about a week afterwards, nat had an argument with travis. she came back to the cabin, hurt and crying. and lottie knew. lottie knew travis was no longer important to the story. the visions had told her of this moment. they had told her of natalie slamming the door of the cabin. they had told her of natalie’s teared stained face, her eyeliner smudged and running down her cheek as if it was water falling down a cliff. they had told her of just how gorgeous a broken heart could look, and they now told her that it was lottie’s job to fix that heart. she wasn’t playing pretend. not anymore. this was real.

so she asks natalie if she’s okay. natalie, who is closed off. natalie, who is mean to people as a defense mechanism. natalie, who is the brightest star in the sky, but is hidden by a stormy cloud. if it was anyone else at any other time, lottie knew natalie would’ve snapped and said i’m fine. lottie knew that it had to be her and it had to be know. the voices, the visions they were all leading up to this moment.

and when natalie crawled into lottie’s arms crying, she knew this was the wilderness’ way of saying take care of her.

that night, lottie held natalie. she listened to the other girl cry, and she cried with her. she wouldn’t pretend to understand what nat was going through, but she tried. she decided right then and there; she would always try for natalie. she had wiped the tears away from natalie’s face, and when that wasn’t enough, she had kissed all over natalie’s body in hopes that she would forget all the pain. she had given her a night of pleasure and happiness, something she assumed natalie hadn’t gotten from travis in a while. and as she sucked and licked natalie’s gorgeous pink pussy, lottie was in absolute heaven. she couldn’t imagine wanting to do anything else in this moment. instead of the sex that lottie was used to, full of horny teenagers and sloppy kissing, this was different. it was slow, passionate, almost romantic. it was perfect. lottie knew natalie was hurting, and she knew that she could help fix it. lottie was glad to be a distraction, if that’s what was necessary. whatever the end goal is, she would reach it, with natalie right next to her. her beautiful, broken, extraordinary girl. her antler queen.

lottie wasn’t exactly sure where she stood with natalie after that night, but she figured it was somewhere good. she figured natalie understood that they really were meant to have something special, that the wilderness brought them together for a reason. there were too many signs for it to be a coincidence. there was too much at stake for it just to be a one night stand. lottie didn’t know what her and nat were, and she didn’t know what she wanted them to be, but she knew she wanted to be something to natalie. and she really thought she was.

until one day, lottie walked in on natalie and travis having sex. and that’s when she broke.

years and years of suffering. unexplainable vision after unexplainable vision. it was supposed to lead up to this. to the plane crash. to the wilderness. to natalie. the wilderness was supposed to guide lottie, to protect her, to help her fufill her destiny as the prophet. lottie was supposed to help save everyone, and she would save nat along the way.

but as much as lottie wanted to save natalie, she never stopped and thought if natalie wanted to save lottie back.

it was then in that moment that lottie thought fuck the wilderness. what has it ever done for her? all it ever did for her was hurt her and give her grief and false hope. god, natalie had warned her about that and lottie didn’t listen. because she was convinced. no, because she wanted to convince herself. she wanted to believe that there was a reason she’s been getting these dumb vision since she was ten. she wanted to believe there was a reason they were stuck here. she wanted to believe there was a chance at escaping. she wanted to believe she wasn’t weird, she wasn’t insane, and that someone, fucking someone, could see that. someone could see she’s real. maybe her and natalie could’ve been real. maybe in another life they were.

but - just like everything else in lottie matthews’ life - it was simply a game of pretend.

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