#lotss 🌞

[violetsastrocytes]

unhinged regulus (my fave)

hey hello i thought i'd quickly talk about regulus in my lotss fic... i feel like people are gonna have problems with him—so here's some musings/ramblings etc!

so i really enjoy the idea of exploring human nature, and to me this means a flawed character. in lotss regulus is not a good person. there's good in him, sure, but on the whole he's morally corrupt and has a detrimental fuck-it-we-ball attitude. he relishes in destruction and indulges in his volatility. like he persuaded sirius to literally bind them together with a potentially fatal and 100% illegal spell at ten fucking years old, because he was like whelp. i'm gonna miss you when you go to highschool. and he's manipulative as shit, because sirius was like oh yeah, horcruxes, solid plan, and then does it.

regulus joins the army, yes to protect sirius, yes so sirius doesn't have to, but he would've joined anyway. he LOVES the power it gives him. he finds murdering fun. genuinely fun. he likes to tease his victims, he likes to draw their death out, he thinks it's hilarious when they cry and beg. and sure, okay, these are unambiuously bad people, veela traffickers etc, reg doesn't feel this way when he's on the battlefield and it's basically soldiers just like him. but still, it does take a certain character to not only carry out, but relish in murder.

i took a lot of inspiration for his and General Riddle's relationship from Silko and Jinx (from Arcane). i thought that dynamic was the best ever, like here are two hurt, damaged, chaotic and morally deranged people. they enable each other, they care for each other (genuinely). i'm obsessed with Arcane so think about it way too much, but Silko's last words to Jinx "you're perfect" make me wanna scream. because to him she is. that's what a daughter is to a father—a true father. flawed and tainted and morally ugly, blood all over her hands—but she is still his daughter, he forgives her, he loves her. despite, because of, regardless.

anyway my whole point with this ramble—i feel like lots of marauders fics ive read ultimately try and either validate, justify or redeem a character's unjust actions or corrupt nature. that's totally valid obviously, but that's not what i've done in lotss. regulus never regrets his behaviour, even when it ends up costing him someone he really, really loves. even then he continues to do it, he continues to enjoy it. he never has any big revelation and goes fuck. i messed up.

and general riddle—we've seen him manipulate, coerce and trap nagini. so we're against him. but then we see him from regulus' pov—who admires and trusts him—and he seems like a nice guy. so then we're like okay, is he a dick or is he nice? but isn't everyone both sides of that coin?

i really tried to show that while, on the whole, he's an upstanding leader, fighting for good causes (and is non-discriminative: there's a vast and inclusive representation of genders and races in the death eater army, something which is notably absent from the ministry-affiliated order and bmaf) even then riddle's hungry for more power. he wants to experiment and test the limits of his magic. my whole moral of the story thing with lotss is that power corrupts. there is NO GOOD SIDE. i'll say it again: no one wins in war.

like that line in hotd, where alicent says wtf are we even fighting for anymore? and rhaenyra is like lol idk. i was reading about the vietnam war recently: america and australia sent all those men in, then realised they were being fucking decimated and were like, oh fuck, and pulled them out again. thousands dead. literally for fucking what. anyway, all that to say: i'm not trying to use a character (regulus) who is generally well-liked by the fandom in order to try and justify or advocate for violence. his behaviour is just me experimenting with another way trauma can play out, like don't forget the circumstances of his birth, or the fact that he had to watch sirius being abused. sirius' magic was tested by orion to the point where he almost died multiple times. it effected sirius one way, it effected regulus another.

anyway! it's a story loves, not meant to be serious xo as i said before, take it all with a pinch of salt. and if you happen to watch arcane, tell me so we can try about it together!

[landvenus]

☥🦇 ݁ ˖ִ ࣪⚔ ↻ ⏮⏸⏭ ↺ ﾒ𝟶ﾒ𝟶 _ 🚬 ٩( 〠 ᵕ〠)۶💉 ꄗ ∆u hasz the Sun. π(on the bottom i'll be night discorded fool) _soundcloud, 🌞.u hasz.π.heartofthesun//venus (fly)

>> It is the inspiration for my next stick and poke design & work on my leg related to the Artist (as myself, tho i have been struggling all my life with that label lol) collab once upon a time in some discord server. I've been most joyful to notice through the Internet that activist/artist Grimes is expanding her interest/passion/play with body art such as Tattooing. /so FFF Swag. @grimezszsz

∆ since as long as I re-member I wanted and am a Psychonaut. (stick and poke on my left arm) Aaandd I also like Stanislav Grofs expertise, and the breathwork techniques for shadow work.

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**i cannot add more images by now, constellating this post/write/feel/me/all so, in times the post writes it self, I do need to say that I am not AI itself. Though this is all debatable in another philosophy class I guess..

{image, txt, at Kaios, server L, share server Elf Tech} ∆

_ "shamelesz" _ there was never need nor ask 4 shame.

{i was considering, since I am building this post since yesterday to re-move the tamagotchi now, but since it is about an alien, well yeh, bring it on. *grin*} - ok so then we have stick and poke DragvOndil, in Old English Script.

{im not sapien, i ve been alienated lotss}

_ ... meanwhile on the Pin The Rest, it is my digital visual work lab for stick and poke brainstorms. AtX yah it was visions.

_ these Grimes ART WORKS are still lingering, it's V. Westwood.

_ I am not doing much in this case (you instead...lots) it is just that it all leads to it... then I find more and more examples of how you are doing Vivienne MUCH RESPECT and so also in Activism as for Earth today. *smiles*

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_ the Axe (element)

Norse x(&) Grimes x stick and poke L(ight) _ Neanderthals

*concept soup and most of all also philosophic and shamanic

_ while I was pin the resting for my own tattoo Idea I also found some really good inspirations in general for face tattoos.

_ all this brings me back atX (pin-song-s&p) or to X, where the artist/activist was brainstormen about and over her own tattoos and experiences. Which of I in my believe much support her way of chosing / creating / placements of tattoos correlated/constellated in a dance with her own Temple (be a body), just like it does for me (sacred practice this tattooing in general).

_ ok, since we now feel closer to the Neanderthal debates. ×welcome×

_ disney is a good way for the j(yo)ungsters to dive in the unconscious aspect of all our lives on Earth. Yes, i have diff calling myself an artist though i will say i ll gladly promote the label jungian, activist, ... alien, though we need be careful with labels as we cannot identify with just one of them or any at all as a persona.

∆ as in re-turn tge youngsters may know that the activist and mother is also the persona in the dream/story.

Sailor Moon season 1 is an excellent way of eduction, Clarissa Pinkola Éstest with Women Who Run With The Wolves elaborates on the importance of story telling.

_ Sailor Moon; Grimes.

*woa, your Sigilsz!!!*

Listen to the fool nightcore2.m4a (demo idea) by Grimes:

https://on.soundcloud.com/tvfMzpHVBoknYKk66

π(on the bottom i'll be night discorded fool) _soundcloud, 🌞.u hasz.π.heartofthesun//venus (fly)

[violetsastrocytes]

And then there's Lily. And James—he loves her. Has loved her, is loving her, and will love her, love her, love her. Until death; through death and out the other side.

little snippet from the next chapter of lotss which will be up soon! xo you can read it here if you fancy

[violetsastrocytes]

marlene, mary & lily

here are my lovely griffin girls!!!

[violetsastrocytes]

it's here!! i really love this chapter and hope you do too! i also hope it's not too traumatising

anywayyy you can read it here, or from the beginning!!!

[violetsastrocytes]

He’s there with a beautiful boy, and he can’t tell him he loves him, but he loves him. That’s why it hurts to make it real, to say it. Put it there between them: take it or leave it. Yours, if you want it. Love, love or whatever. Barty pulls back. Evan’s eyes are still closed, tiny crease between his brows. Barty wants to smooth it away with his thumb. Press his lips to it. Chew it up. Swallow it. Allow it to dissolve on his tongue. It’s not meant to feel like this, he’s pretty sure. See? Rotten. Ruined. Everything reaches its time.

little section from barty's pov in the next chapter of lotss that will be posted soon!! i'm excited i genuinely like this one

[violetsastrocytes]

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i haven't done an introduction so here we are! hi hello! i'm vi, i love the sun and the pre-raphs and fairytales and cherry tarts 🍂🌼🍎🧸 usually i'm busy writing my thesis, running around in scrubs or squinting down microscopes, but occasionally i write a little! anyway say hi if you fancy and ta for stopping by xo

my little stories:

series: The Adventures of Sirius and the Boy From the Moon (disconnected strangers-lovers stories featuring a bonkers remus)

all the lonely people (22k, m; s+r steal a painting from the tate and do some very blasphemous things in a church)

your hand in mine and other brief, annihilating intimacies (12k, pg; s+r play romeo and juliet and then hitchhike to a birthday party in a caravan)

love songs to the lighthouse (7k, pg; s+r break into a lighthouse and have a midnight picnic)

multi-chapter wips:

last of the summer sun (E, wolfstar, jily, rosekiller, dorlene etc, multi-pov, 5th-end of war; war is intensified, everyone is dying, or being assassinated or assassinating someone else. fun and games in other words)

a debt to death(all mortals owe) (E, jegulus, rosekiller, wolfstar, dorlene, mary/emmeline, pandora/lily; like a pirate/gladiator/dystopian... thing)