#lots of swearing under the cut :*

[casterblogs]

i’m salty about something so i’m putting it under the cut. i’ll get back to reblogging stuff eventually i swear >>

this is months old bullshit but i’m still angry it happened and i only ever got to tell one person how mad it made me and psychologically speaking that’s entirely not enough to have dealt with it, so here:

fuck you if you think you as a creator, or you a haver of ocs, or you a writer OWN a trope. and fuck you if you bust into people’s spaces accusing them of stealing your trope. and fuck you if you shit on other people for having similar theming for their ocs. and fuck you if you decide to vocally hate someone else’s character based on key words in their description. and the biggest of fuck yous if you lure people into conversations specifically to make snide comments about how little they know about their own ocs. what the FUCK. 

i LOVE my characters. i love telling their stories. i love giving them lives and relationships and likes and dislikes. i love making them miserable and i love giving them support networks to lean on afterwards. they all have little bits of myself in them. and i struggle to love myself, but at the end of the day i can at least love my characters which is SOMETHING. 

so FUCK you for making me feel ashamed of them. fuck you for making me scared to share them. fuck you for taking away the one thing i’ve been consistently excited about since i wandered onto deviantart in middle school. fuck you for thinking you’re so special that nobody else is allowed to explore the same topics as you. 

at the end of the day i still love my characters. they make me SO happy. its important that they do because my life is super rough and i need every little scrap of joy i can get. but now i am never NOT going to feel that underlaying shame and embarrassment in relation to them. as much as i love them and as much as i want to share them with people who appreciate it that is NEVER going to go away. and well and truly fuck you for doing that to me. 

[enqueteur-blog]

I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I’m a fucking asshole. I fucked up again. I hate procrastination so much. I hate how I never learned how to learn and how to get things done. I truly fucking hate it. Makes my life miserable and my night sleepless. Literally. 

Here’s the deal. I was supposed to write a paper. Nothing serious, like 5-6 pages. Of course, I leave everything to the last minute as usual. And then I fucking wonder why I can’t make it in time. I was supposed to turn in the electronic version on 15th and the printed version today (18th). Guess fucking what. It’s 18th and I have barely half done. You may ask, what did you do on 15th? 

Here’s what. There’s a trick, when you open a random word document in notepad and delete a random chunk of text, then save it. After this, the document looks as usual, only when you try to open it, it won’t let you and says there is a problem with content. Should give you extra two days to finish the actual assignment until your teacher asks to resend it. (This is the first time I’ve used it but I sincerely hoped I would never need to). Normal person would get their shit together and finish it, right? Take a wild fucking guess. I did nothing until yesterday night. I pull allnighters all the time to catch up on things and I’m sick of it. I’m sick of myself. I hate myself. I had to email an apology to my teacher and hopefully, HOPEFULLY she won’t let me fail the course. She bloody well could. 

tl;dr: I’m a fucking asshole who can’t get their shit done in time and I hate it

[guusana]

FUCK YOU MORPHOLOGY

FUCK YOU

IM IN FUCKING TEARS BECAUSE OF YOU, STUPID USELESS POINTLESS FUCKING SUBJECT I WASTED AN ETIRE YEAR WORTH OF MENTAL AND PHYSICAL ENERGY AND A FUCKLOAD OF MONEY ON PRINTS AND SHIT

ALL FOR FUCKING NOTHING

BECAUSE YOU'RE A FUCKING USELESS SUBJECT AND I HATE YOU

[queenslimon]

I tell my friend I'm in a bad mood.

she tries to cheer me up

I tell her it's because I got rejected after telling someone I fancy her

she says maybe I "come on too strong/too soon"

what the fuck does that even mean, I'm just trying to be honest with people and for fuck's sakes maybe it's just because they don't fucking like because I'm not fucking likeable like what the fuck do you think rejecction means it means THEY AREN'T FUCKING INTERESTED, PERIOD

[nonsonoleiarchive]

There's nothing worse than a stupid fucking person whose stupid fucking friends like their post despite how fucking stupid their words are.

Dear Tumblr: It would be nice if y'all did some research before shooting your mouths off.

And do not try to school me on things I know more about. You will lose every single time.