#lots of me staring at my doc going 😐

[tortoisebore]

I saw somewhere you said you were editing the end of chapter 7 to have a different ending before you post chapter 8. Is that still your plan, or will 8 now reflect their conversation eluded to at the end of 7?

i’ve been thinking about this so much hddhdhd

like i dont reallyyyy want to go back and change chapter 7 because it’s been out for so long now, and i’ve gotten a fair few new readers since i published it that don’t follow me here and i’m not sure will understand the why behind the changes i would make to it. like y’all are here listening to me ramble all the time so u get it but i’d hate to go back and change such a pivotal chapter in the story & it impact the way that other people read it. also, more importantly, i just really liked how it ended fhfhfhf i wrote the whole chapter around that being the last line and i’d kind of hate to add any more to it 😭

so like…..,as i’ve been writing chapter 8 i’ve been trying to find little places that i can add in the context of their histories that feel more natural to the progression of their relationship. i think it’s probably better for it to be less of a big all-in-one reveal like i had originally planned and more just adding in little pieces of their backstories here and there where it makes sense to reveal them.

i just think that would be more realistic to the way that it would actually happen if that makes sense? like it feels more true to sirius’ character that he would reveal his past slowly as he starts to feel safer in their relationship, it wouldn’t just be one big dump of his entire life story in one go. it feels better to me for both of them, but especially for sirius, to take this part of their relationship slow and treat it with the same gentleness and care that they would have for one another

so that would mean that chapter 7 would not be edited and that we would learn about them both as they learn about each other. there would be a baseline understanding that comes with being together for a month, and i’m trying to find the best way to establish that baseline within everything that needs to happen in chapter 8 and without the beginning feeling like a “here’s what you missed on glee” sort of recap, but the rest of it would happen in pieces as they learn each other and develop trust and build their relationship 🫶

that was so long and rambly fhfhfhffh basically i’m trying to write this next chapter in a way that doesn’t require us to revisit chapter 7 because i rly like that chapter & want to leave it as it is if i can 💕💕💕