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cerealmonster15 · 1 year ago

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My working doc names for things are so impossible lol. Like this was an adeuce fic but I clicked thinking it was jamiazu

I thought these two were the same thing and they’re NOT!!! I’ve just been haunted by cater and Leona on more than one occasion and then tried to forget (I did not truly forget. But also kind of. There’s actually way more in here than I thought LOL I didn’t actually write fics off the second two but there’s a LOT of planning)

#my brain doesn’t wanna function like it did a year or two ago #I became more scared lol #like a weird graph of #shy and only showing my friend. having the freedom of only doing what we found fun #then started posting #a few other twst fans found and encouraged me #then engtwst happened and twst got more popular w/English speakers #so more people to get encouragement from #but. more people 2 feel like I have to like. idk perform well for lol #before it was just me doing fuckin whatveer bc it was just for my friend and me #lots of laid back inside jokes lol you’ll see a bunch in my older twst fics thet #probably stick out oddly #but it was fun. and it still is fun! but. I’m stunting myself bc I’m scared I think #like am I being cringe. am I doing this right. am I portraying them well. is this too silly. am I trying too hard to be deep.#like am I dumb for trying anything LOL bestie you are writing fanfic and doodling plz relax #sorry!!!!!!!! I have issues 💪#same with doodles tho like I drew soooo many AUs my friend and I had #I guess we don’t do as many twst ideas together now #we still watch it together tho #we just do more non twst oc talk #and me as a person I can only do so much of like. talking about thing without. worrying #sure I can talk about something if I have thoughts and am enabled #but I will also Worry. like am I being too much am I dragging it out are people around me just Humoring Me #that’s how it goes when I post like. ppl are so nice. but unfortunately I live In clouds of self doubt #nothing personal aimed at anyone tho it’s entirely a me problem I just hfbgnfhrhrhbtbt #pull myself to the edges. afraid 2 engage people. but then cry if I am endgaged LOL #like a weird craving of heres this media im passionate about and I wanna share that energy with people #but also. I will die. so I have to talk In circles 2 myself #and if people hear me that is both a bonus and also ILL CRY it depends on the day KDNFNFNFNTNTBEIRHT #it’s fine tho. I talk to people sometimes. I can’t act like I’m a 100% shadow or whatever

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