#lots of badass women under a lot of pressure and duty with a gentle side overwhelmed by anger and resentment

[rapha-reads]

Characters I See Myself In

I was tagged by @havocinthebluebox - thanks !

This one required a few hours of thinking... What's the difference between characters you like, characters you consider role models, that influence your life, and characters you identify with on a personal level ? For example, Hermione Granger has been my biggest role model in life, but I never thought I was her ; Artemis Fowl is one of my all time favourite, but hell no he's not a role model and we're too different for me to identify myself with him... See? So, enough chatting, here's a list of characters I truly see myself in.

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SUSAN PEVENSIE

Susan's always been me. I've always been Susan. The oldest sister, the responsible one with too much pressure on her shoulders, divided between her duty and her want for freedom. Her whole narrative arc is about her being Queen Susan the Gentle, and her being Susan Pevensie, young, liberated woman who loves herself and lives her life for herself. Which is why Lewis' bullshit at the end of the story always made me mad. I have a lot of things to say about The Problem of Susan.

EOWYN OF ROHAN

"What do you fear?" "A cage. To stay behind bars, until use and old age accept them, and all chance of doing great deeds is gone beyond recall or desire." Eowyn has always been an echo of my own self. Her fierceness, that she has to temper for duty's sake, her melancholy and her desire of freedom, her stubborness, her fear of being left behind, of being locked up inside herself and never set free... She's the bravoury I wish I had.

MORGANA

The High Priestess, the Enchantress. Her kindness and generosity burned by life until all that remained is anger and fierceness. Because that's the secret, isn't it ? Underneath it all, I'm always angry. I understand Morgana. I may not agree with all her choices, but I understand her on a fundamental level and I see myself in her. Also I'd like to be as coldly beautiful as her please thanks.

LYRA SILVERTONGUE

Be it Lyra at 14 in His Dark Materials, or Lyra at 20 in The Book Of Dust, she's very much me. Child me used to be a real tomboy, full of fire and laughter. Adult me drapes herself in her sadness and melancholy and trudges through life trying to hide her scars and her fears. As a child I'd read HDM a couple of times a year, impressed and in awe of Lyra's storytelling talents, her determination and her loyalty. As an adult, I read The Book of Dust and got punched in the guts when I saw Lyra so depressed and tired, unable to reconcile who she was with who she is now. She's very much extremely relatable at all ages.

BONUS: characters my sister (@iwilldieonthishill) sees me in and I kinda agree

TIM DRAKE

Yep. Robin the Third, genius depressed coffee addict. Replace coffee by tea and genius by "eeeeh I have my moments", and yeah, it works.

ROSA DIAZ

As my sister said : "you, but if you were a sitcom character, so exaggerated". I'll take it, I love Rosa Diaz. And I LOVE knives.

SALEM SABERHAGEN

The cat in the original Sabrina show, my sister precised. He's a cat, he's sassy and funny, so yes, I'm very okay with that.

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