#lot of bisexuality going on in that crown mansion

[mdrxq]

elbert greetia

[yanderepuck]

The mansion in the 21st century

For the sake of our sanity we are going assume they are all still alive in the 21st century since we don't know when everyone was turned (just that Will was first)

We're also gonna pretend that Sebas is still around(I don't think he'd accept being a vampire???? But for the sake of this he's gonna be here)

Arthur is his full whore self and is with guys and gals. He put the bi in bitch

Leonardo is also bi(historically there's no record of him ever being with a woman)

Imagine the shit posts on social media

Arthur has an Instagram and he posts about everyone's life, even using their names, but no one takes it series

A few times a week Arthur does something called "where is Leonardo sleeping today?"

Vincent uses tiktok for art

Theo has been able to get in contact with more artists all over and be able to sell their art. It's made it a lot easier for him and even though it's a lot more work he enjoys it

Dazai is also a shit poster, only he asks weird things that keep you up at night

But Dazai also publishes short stories. Probs has a blog.

I could also see Dazai basically running an animal shelter in the back yard. He gives off Disney princess vibes. Only it's like ducks, a bunch of birds. A horse or two and some sheep.

Will has probably moved back into the mansion since everything he has done has been forgotten by society.

He finds it odd how kids in schools study is plays and have to analyze it. He's just like "everyone's gay and every other line is a dick joke???" But he still doesn't speak normal.

LEONARDO GOT BACK INTO PAINTING.

Leonardo and Vinc would both have a tik tok and Instagram to show off their work and their hella popular

Isaac wanted to keep a low profile, but since the internet isn't face to face with people, he's able to publish his findings without having to actually deal with society. He's just social awkward okay

Sebastian also has a blog. He calls everyone his roommates and he's like "you'll never guess what my roommate did today"

Arthur collects mugs.

During that Italian hand meme, everyone paid more attention to Leonardo to see how often he does it

He does it too often and he doesn’t realize it

At some point Dazai HAS yelled “DO IT FOR THE VINE”

He was probably yelling at Theo

Want to know whats really dangerous?

Shakespeare learning modern slang

No one in the mansion knows what he’s talking about in the first place.  Then suddenly he goes “For never was a story of more woe.  O bard Alexa, play us  Despacito”(I will not take credit for that.  I remember reading that phrase LONG ago)

Isaac says “Me” “Same” and “Mood” a lot

He sees garbage on the ground and goes “It’s me”

Dazai is into anime don’t @ me

Also. Napoleon is also bi as all hell

Drunk or not him and Sebas have made lip contact at least once

Imagine what Mozart could do with music now.

He still loves his piano.  Nothing is better than physically playing an instrument

He probs went viral for a hot minute when Arthur posted a video of him playing piano

Comte is even more of a tired mom.

HE’D SO BE A PINTEREST PERSON

You know how people make board for their friends?

He does that with everyone in the mansion

I honestly know nothing about Jean and Napoleon.  I’m sorry for their lack of content. Plz add things for them.

Imagine everyone playing Mario Kart

Not every week because they all have lives outside the mansion.  But at least once a month they have a game night

None of them are really TV people.  They’ll watch movies but that’s about it

They’d all watch documentaries on themselves, and point out everything that is wrong, and even be like “where the fuck did they get that from?”

Because I have watched documentaries on him.  Often a Da Vinci documentary will mention was arrest with sleeping with another guy.  The rest of the guys are waiting for him to call that  bullshit and he’s just sitting there eating popcorn.

Meanwhile Will is in the back like “Eyy! Me too!”

“Did that really happen?”

“What?  Me getting arrested?  Yeah”

“No, well yes, but did you sleep with another guy?”

“Yeah”

“Was he worth it?”

“I don’t know which one their talking about”

Chaotic bisexuals everywhere

Arthur however has watched the BBC Sherlock series. 

Arthur and Dazai would probs watch the most tv out of all of them.

I say this cause Dazai would be into anime and Arthur got hooked on NCIS

Arthur write quite a bit of short stories that he’s gotten published

Will would love that goddamn Leonardo DiCaprio version of Romeo and Juliet.  I hate that movie with a passion

Also, I can’t imagine how many jokes they’ve managed to come up with about Leonardo DiCaprio to Leonardo.

If Arthur and Mozart can stay up for days with coffee, imagine what an energy drink would do to them

All of them in modern fashion???? HOT DAMN

Will likes the Titanic 

I see Theo being the one that’s into MARVEL and DC movies

Imagine showing Vinc Bob Ross

Leonardo and Isaac are Tony Stark(Ironman) and Bruce Banner(Hulk)

Everyone in the mansion is into conspiracy theories .

Comte himself is a conspiracy theory 

One night Napoleon is like “Guys.  Look.  Aliens” and they all watch conspiracy theory videos.

It’s the one thing they can all agree on that they have in common

Vinc and Leonardo also enjoy pinterest  because of all the art/crafting/diy things they find.

Arthur 100% listens to ebooks

THE MANSION IS A POKEMON GO GYM.  But they aren’t all on the same team so battling can get serious some days

They all still have pets

Honestly.  At any point in time, not just modern.  They made fun of each others accents.

Lets be real.  Will would end up liking anime too

SNapchat filters on the guys??  The dog filter on Theo??? Flower crown on Vinc???  Face swapping everyone with everyone???

One of them is bound to have a candle obsession and I want to say its Comte.  Only he buys them and doesn’t burn them.  Sebas ends up slowly taking candles from the stash and burning them in a few rooms.

The music room smells like chocolate but Mozart can’t find the candle.

Leonardo's room is even more cluttered.  He has too many hobbies.

Vinc making his own paint???  I’d love.

Theo and Arthur cried a little when their favorite bar shut down.

Masterlist

[elenamcwrites]

folklore - a reading

If you’re a swiftie (officially not capitalized now), like me, you’ve probably been experiencing the mystical reverb and spiritual reckoning that is folklore. You’ve also probably been reading plenty of reviews and analysis articles--there are some stellar articles out there already.

Listening to the album is like lying in a meadow over the course of a summer day, afternoon thunderstorm, and the harsh sunset that comes afterwards, spiraling through memories and contemplation. It’s the best of the worst feelings you’ll ever have, and you can’t stop.

So, compulsively, I had to share my own interpretations and thoughts as I listen to the album again for the 7th time.

the 1 - Starting out with just piano, and then turning into what feels like a casual bop, the attitude of this song starts out very ‘I Forgot That You Existed’. And we hold onto that cavalier, ‘oh well’ attitude until... UNTIL. “If my wishes came true, it would’ve been you.” That line starts the slow ache that builds through the end of the track and makes this song much more more layered and complex than the first song of Lover. Perhaps this is a more honest version of the same feeling. Swift digs deep into that nostalgic feeling, letting us vibe to the wistful wishing at the same time. And of course, there is foreshadowing in the lyrics--film, graves, rose, chosen-family, painting. All of these reappear later on in various songs on the album, and some have been themes from earlier albums, too (especially graves).

Highlight lyric: “In my defense I have none // for digging up the grave another time.”

cardigan - We start with a beat that sounds reminiscent of “high heels on cobblestones,” and it emphasizes this early imagery. Being young is one of the major themes of this song, even though it’s also part of the triptych of songs about a love triangle. The nostalgia feels more specific to young love generally than to the specific lover, asking us to wonder why we judge the young perspective so harshly. The song is an anthem to how much she knew about love, including the pain of it, despite what people say. Swift has shown a special appreciation for the wisdom and raw experience of youth, and this song is another classic defense of the teenage experience. The metaphors in this song are classic Swift, and the structure of this song is reminiscent of ‘All Too Well’--the chorus lyrics change just a bit each time, and we get a powerful, gut-punch verse at the end.

Highlight lyric: “I knew you’d haunt all of my what-ifs // the smoke would hang around this long // cause I knew everything when I was young.”

the last great american dynasty - ‘The Man’ was probably Swift’s first real feminist anthem, directly stating how sexism affects her career and the perception people have of her. But this song gets at feminism from another perspective. First of all, she’s telling the story of Rebekah Harkness, who was the heiress that lived in her Rhode Island mansion before her. She was a trouble-maker in her town, blamed for her husband’s death and for ruining the calm status quo of the old money neighborhood. It’s completely apparent that Swift relates to this experience, and she likely knew some of this story before she purchased her home. In telling the story of a powerful, interesting woman, Taylor is rebelling against the patriarchy in a slightly subtler way than her previous songs--though she still makes her point pretty clear. Swift cares about the herstory of her home, and she’s made this story iconic by including it on her album. It’s like she took the idea of ‘Starlight,’ but instead of retelling a happy love story, she used her powers for an even more important tale. Now, there are also two potential connections to note: Rebekah also went by Betty, and her maiden name was West. Just remember that. And of course, the theme of the mad woman returns later as well.

Highlight lyric: “who knows if I never showed up what would have been // there goes the most shameless woman this town has ever seen // she had a marvelous time ruining everything.”

exile - I like to imagine this song as the follow up to ‘The Last Time,’ from Red. Both are duets, and they both have relatively simple, but strong chords as the primary musical backdrop. Where ‘The Last Time’ depicts a relationship at the cusp, moments before their final conversation, ‘exile’ is post break-up. She’s out with someone new, and we understand this is an unspoken conversation across a room. And the vibe of the songs fit with this progression perfectly. ‘The Last Time’ feels like anxious desperation, but exile feels heavy and depressingly final. We revisit the film motif, and there’s some potential connection to the archived ‘If This Was A Movie’. Now, is that intentional, or does Swift just really like movie imagery? Does it matter? The build in this song is arguably the best on the album, which I think is partly due to the style of the musicality, and partly because it’s helpful to have a lower voice to mix it up. This song sounds the least ‘Swift-esque’ to me--reminds me of Damien Rice most of all--but it still fits beautifully into the album. Also, lots of callbacks in here--town and crown are used a LOT in her prior albums. A few examples: “You traded your baseball cap for a crown” in ‘Long Live’, “They took the crown but it's alright” in ‘Call it What You Want,’ “Staring out the window like I’m not your favorite town” in ‘False God.’ Now, again, these could just be words that she loves to use (they also rhyme with a lot), or there could be some deeper connections. I’m guessing it’s somewhere in the middle.

highlight lyric: “second, third, and hundredth chances // balancin' on breaking branches // those eyes add insult to injury”

my tears ricochet - I’ll admit this song had to grow on me a little bit. Why? Well, I don’t love revenge-ballads. But, this is much more complex than LWYMMD, and like the rest of the album, it centers the more vulnerable side of her anger. This song is 100% about Big Machine Records and Scooter Braun. The funeral is for her--or the version of herself that died just before Reputation--and she is back as a ghost (or another version of herself) to haunt those who caused her death. It’s slow, moody, haunted... Everything you want from a bitter funeral march. The best part of this song is that she doesn’t solely pass blame. She shows off her self-awareness, which has become more common in all her music since 1989, but still very clearly places responsibility on Scooter for her ‘stolen lullabies’ (i.e. her masters). Swift claims this song is about young love gone wrong--but, death is a pretty intense metaphor, and given that she blatantly used it (for the first, and maybe only time?) to talk about her career, I don’t think anyone is buying it.

highlight lyric: “I didn’t have it in myself to go with grace // and you’re the hero flying around saving face”

mirrorball - Maybe I’m just a biased toward romantic and nostalgic songs, because I don’t love this one either. (I’m sorry!) But, here’s what I’ll say: this song is still exquisite. It reminds me of the reverb-radio-vibe of the late 80s songs, but with the astral, saccharine flavor of the rest of the album. If you condensed the Miss Americana documentary into a song, this would be it. A reflection (get it?) of fame and her desire to be everything to everyone--to be well liked, to be the center of attention. The coolest thing about ‘mirrorball,’ to me, is that she hasn’t written a song quite like this before. It’s sort of a manic-pixie-dream-girl version of herself. Swift is telling us that she knows who she is, and that comes with seeing the less ‘pretty’ side.

highlight lyric: “I’m still a believer, but I don’t know why // I’ve never been a natural, all I do is try, try try.”

seven - Can you say haunting innocence? This is a great song for half-attentive listening in the sun, and it could almost be a lullaby. In Swift-lore, the theme of childhood shows up every so often, like in ���Mary’s Song,’ ‘The Best Day,’ ‘It’s Nice to Have a Friend,’ and ‘Christmas Tree Farm.’ This one is definitely the most dreamy, and it is also tinged with that darkness that consistently underlies all the tracks on this album--“Are there still beautiful things?” Imagine a sepia filter, and that’s kind of what this song embodies. Some fans have wondered about this song as a possible hint to bisexuality and/or relationships with women in general. (See Kaylor fan theories if you want to dive deep.) I can see this--the childhood friend has braids, which could imply she’s a little girl, and they ‘hide in the closet’. However, it seems more likely to me that this is coincidence. Lots of kids play in their closets, and if the song is about the friend’s father being angry all the time (and maybe abusive?) hiding in the closet also makes literal sense. I think the imagery in this song is some of my favorite on this album. 

Another interesting point that I haven’t seen discussed so far is that Swift names this song ‘seven’ spelled out, yet uses the number ‘1′ in the first track title. The only other track she uses numbers in the name is ‘22′, which is about being 22. So, she could be trying to push past the idea that ‘seven’ is just about being 7 years old--though I do think it’s about that, too. She could also be intentionally connecting ‘the 1′ to ‘22′ in some way. They are both a similar vibe, and perhaps they even refer to the same time period in her life. If we go with that theory, who was T dating at 22? The most likely candidate for that timeframe is Conor Kennedy, which was sort of short-lived, and didn’t seem to end with as much fire as many of her break-ups. So, it’s possible that it’s about him. Or, maybe she just wanted to make sure we knew that ‘the 1′ was a concept she doesn’t really believe in anyway, and didn’t want to grant it the full word ‘one’. Will we ever know?

highlight lyric: “Before I learned civility // I used to scream // Ferociously // Any time I wanted”

august - It seems clear to me that this is the second song in the love-triangle narrative. I’ve heard people claim this is ‘illicit affairs’, but those people obviously haven’t looked at the lyrics. The narrator says ‘James, get in the car,’ which is directly connected to the lyrics in ‘betty.’ But, even without that obvious link, the style of august fits in with the stylistic choices of ‘cardigan’ and ‘betty’. All three have strong instrumental tracks complementing the vocals, soft harmonies, and lots of wistful lyrics. ‘illicit affairs’ cuts much sharper and deeper, but more on that later. Combining the dreamy vibes of ‘seven’ with the slight bop of ‘the 1′, this track is sticky--easy to get stuck in your head. The only thing I wonder about this song is how old this narrator is meant to be. They’re drinking wine, and she references going ‘back to school,’ which sort of feels like a reference to the college experience. But, the betty and james characters make numerous references that feel like high school. So, maybe this affair took place in another city with a college girl? I have to wonder if this is Swift referencing some of the age-gap relationships she’s been in. Again, with Conor Kennedy, she was 22, and he was 18. She also supposedly crashed his sister’s wedding in August, and that was the start of the end of their short romance. I’m just saying...

highlight lyric: “Wanting was enough, for me it was enough // to live for the hope of it all.”

this is me trying - If ‘The Archer’ was Swift confessing to her bad habits after a couple early relationship fights, ‘this is me trying’ is a desperate reminder a few months into the relationship. The two songs are sonically very similar, and I didn’t love the vibe (sorry, again!) the first time. But, I do love the artistic continuation. ‘this is me trying’ slows us down even more than ‘The Archer’ did, with a drum line that is almost like a heart beat, and it feels much less hopeful as a result. The lyrics are also some of the darkest I’ve heard from Swift--”I got wasted like all my potential” and “could’ve followed my fears all the way down.” My heart almost can’t handle this song, to be honest. She also references films again, but my favorite imagery connection is her standing over the lookout, which calls back to Rebekah looking out over the sea in LGAD.

highlight lyric: “and maybe I don't quite know what to say // but I'm here in your doorway”

illicit affairs - This song has that ‘All Too Well’ ache with a hint of ‘Death by A Thousand Cuts’ energy, and personally, I love it. You’ve got the busy instrumental strings underneath a simple, yet haunting melody line, and it’s that light, anxious tension that fits beautifully with the theme of the song. The lyrics depict the simple, small heartbreaking things that remind you of the pain you’re putting yourself through, which is reflected in the slightly surprising, soaring note at the end of the line in the verses. Whether you’ve actually been involved in an affair, these feelings show up in plenty of toxic relationships, and that universality is part of what makes the song powerful. The lyrics aren’t about pretty images, but that’s sort of the point. It’s prime Swift conversational lyricism, and you could pick out any number of lines that make a painful short poem all by themselves. 

highlight lyric: “and you wanna scream // don’t call me “kid,” don’t call me “baby” // look at this godforsaken mess that you made me // you showed me colors you know I can’t see with anyone else”

invisible string - The primary love song on the album, this feels like a follow up to ‘Lover,’ maybe something she’d sing after being married a year or two. It’s sort of like ‘Mine,’ but much more mature, partly indicated by the pace of the song, which is steady and sure of itself. It’s also lovely to me that she’s returned to a bit of her country vibes--I ask you, would it feel like true end-game love for Swift if she couldn’t write a country love song about it? Back when she wrote country, all her happy ending songs were merely aspirational, and now they feel true. This is also 100% about Joe Alwyn, and to me, this is proof they have not broken up like some early reviews speculated. We also need to acknowledge that she’s past the Joe Jonas break up (um, good, that was ages ago) and is sending him and Sophie presents for their baby. I read a review that basically said this song seems a little too ‘all tied up’ for Swift, and that it doesn’t feel as genuine as a result. I sort of agree, but if we can take a sad song and accept that it isn’t how she feels 100% of the time, can’t we also do that with happy songs? Plus, she technically does say that it would be ‘pretty to think,’ which sort of implies it’s more a thought experiment than an actual belief. So, there’s that little twinge of sadness we needed to appease the folklore goddess. Oh, and of course, there’s a reference to Lover’s color scheme, saying time “gave me the blues and then purple-pink skies.” Which, many Kaylor hopefuls read as a reference to the Bi pride flag. To that, I just say... Maybe?

highlight lyric: “time, mystical time // cutting me open, then healing me fine”

Mad woman - My favorite thing about this song is the piano melody that happens in the background the whole song, working in concert with the main melody, but also completely independent (and haunting). It reminds me of one concept of madness--having multiple voices or thoughts going on simultaneously. But of course, it’s artfully and perfectly put together, which is the whole point. What could be perceived as madness is, in this case, what makes her able to create a masterful work of art. Now, this is also certainly a song about her masters, Scooter Braun, and Scott Borchetta. But it is also another feminist anthem. Women are taught not to be angry, not to yell, not to react with any emotionality otherwise we are discredited entirely. Swift directly calls this to attention by explaining that we’re angry for a reason--often antagonized intentionally until ‘you find something to wrap your noose around.’ She also makes the important point that women can also ‘hunt witches,’ and can be complicit in treating one another poorly. This is a reference to Scooter Braun’s wife defending him publicly against Taylor. Probably the most savage line is about the ‘master of spin’ having affairs, which she implies his wife knows about and seems to passively accept. But Swift doesn’t go too hard on her, reminding us that ‘no one likes a mad woman’, and that pressure is real. Could this ‘master of spin’ also be Scooter? I think probably. But I did read that some people are connecting this song to Hillary Clinton (she’s a scorpio, and the song references a scorpion sting), and that maybe Trump is the adulterer here... I feel like that’s a stretch, but I appreciate the interpretation.

highlight lyric: “What a shame she went mad // You made her like that”

epiphany - I suspect this song is directly related to how Swift is processing the current state of the pandemic. The atmospheric vibe with slow, clock-ticking beat in the background really feels momentous and poignant. Yes, she starts with images conjured from her grandfather’s stories of World War II, but she quickly seems to compare this awful battle to the doctors fighting COVID-19 on the frontlines in hospitals. The lyrics are simple, repetitive, and powerful. With so many ill literally struggling to breathe, the lines about breathing out really do hit especially hard these days. I can’t believe that wasn’t a thoughtful choice. The chorus is just barely hopeful, reminiscent of the numbness we all have to use as a coping mechanism to get through traumatic experiences. But it’s that little sliver of hope that makes the song even sadder--is that possible?

highlight lyric: “only twenty minutes to sleep // but you dream of some epiphany // just one single glimpse of relief // to make some sense of what you've seen”

betty - Give me all that Tim McGraw, Love Story, early Taylor pop-country. This song is definitely enhanced in part because of its connections to ‘cardigan’ and ‘august,’ but it stands strong on its own. It’s old news at this point, but James and Inez are based on the names of Blake Lively and Ryan Reynolds’s daughters, so it’s all-but-confirmed that their third daughter was named Betty. Written from the perspective of James, there is massive speculation out there about whether the narrator is meant to be a boy or a girl. There are reasonable clues on both sides, so I’ll just say this: I love Taylor, but she’s always been a little late to the party when it comes to socialized ideas of male/female. Because of that, I don’t think she’d have a female narrator riding a skateboard. I also feel from the style of narration--“I don’t know anything;” “just a summer thing;” “would you tell me to go fuck myself”--it does sound more like stereotypical teenage boy language than what we know as swiftie teenage girl language. What I do like about this song, though, is that because it’s written from James’s perspective, it does sort of leave a wider opening for personal interpretation than some of her other love-story-like songs. The reason I personally love this song is that it’s mostly about redemption and forgiveness. Everyone has wished someone who broke their heart would write this song about them, and so it offers catharsis. Plus, it’s the only song on the album that truly feels happy at the end--thanks, key change! It’s refreshing and heartening, and it’s good timing, too. After the heaviest song on the album, we needed it. (Oh, and there’s a callback to the broken cobblestones from ‘cardigan’. And then he literally mentions her cardigan. So.)

highlight lyric: “if you kiss me // will it be just like I dreamed it? // will it patch your broken wings?”

peace - The vibe of this song is like laying on your couch in the summer with light coming in through the blinds and the ceiling fan is going around just fast enough to keep the warm air circulating, but not really cool you off. This song has a hint of ‘False God’ style, a little jazzy, but otherwise, it’s a pretty fresh feel for Swift. The message fits this thoughtful, lightly antsy feeling. She’s basically saying she wants to start a family with Joe (no, I don’t think she is literally pregnant yet) and settle down, but there is no real ‘settling down’ with her level of fame. I also think that Swift truly enjoys making music, performing, and engaging with her fans, and she doesn’t want to leave that life behind any time soon. So, she’s asking him if he can make that work. It’s, again, a mature vision of what a long-term relationship can actually look and feel like. Not all of us can truly relate to the burdens of fame, but there are other ways we can be unable to ‘give you peace’. No relationship is idyllic forever in the way romantic love often makes it out to be, and this song gives us a more realistic, consistent example. And just in case we thought this was just a nice song, the whole ‘clowns to the West’ is another potential Easter egg. In the lyric video, east is not capitalized, but West is. Most likely, this is a dig at Kanye. If we want to believe Taylor wasn’t being vengeful, it could potentially be a reference to Rebekah (West was her maiden name). I lean toward theory one, although it’s kind of amazing that it works out such that it connects to both.

highlight lyric: “but I'm a fire and I'll keep your brittle heart warm // if your cascade ocean wave blues come”

hoax - (Phew last one--I don’t have access to ‘the lakes’ yet) Swift can’t end the album without bringing us all back to the raw emotional space she opened up within us. This song brings back similar piano lines from ‘mad woman’ and the image of screaming on the cliffside. Chronologically, ‘hoax’ feels like it takes place after or during the death of her reputation, i.e. the feud with Kim and Kanye, when she was still very vulnerable. Based on timeline, this seems likely to be either Calvin Harris or Tom Hiddleston. It could really be some combination of the two, since many songs aren’t really about just one person. My gut tells me it’s primarily about Calvin, since she’s referenced that they didn’t have a very faithful relationship--”your faithless love’s the only hoax I believe in.” Both relationships travelled a lot--“I left a part of me in new york.” I’m guessing she’s referencing the feud with Harris over her writing credit on ‘This is What You Came For.’ She takes attacks on her career as seriously as hurtful relationships, and since she’s referencing being torn apart by the media when she says that “what you did was just as dark,” I think it’s likely that this also has something to do with hurting her reputation. It’s another hauntingly beautiful song, and you can totally imagine yourself out on that cliff looking at the midnight sea as the piano line ends.

highlight lyric: “you knew the password, so I let you in the door // you knew you won, so what's the point of keeping score?”

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Overall, the album is my favorite of Taylor’s so far for two reasons: 1) the continuity in both theme and sound is stellar, and 2) there aren’t any songs that I don’t like. Usually, there are 1-3 songs on Taylor’s albums that are either forgettable or too on-the-nose for my taste. I’m sure that is a product, in part, of having to craft songs for radio-play and for her amazing, cinematic live shows. Having given herself the freedom to make whatever music she wanted without thinking (so much) about whether they’d top the charts or be good for a stadium concert, she made an album without a single ‘pop just because’ track.

Now the real question is... What will she do with the remaining 6 months of quarantine???

[drjohnsvn]

hi everyone and this is my new / not so new oc , jillian , who has been adapted for the group considering i love greys & private practice.

╰ ❛   💉 — › jennifer  aniston.  cis female.  she/her.  .  ╯ have  you  met  jillian  johnson  yet  ?  this  forty  eight  year  old  capricorn  has  been  living  in the seattle  area  for  three  months. she  makes  a  living  as  an  oncologist,  which  is  best  suited  for  their  insightful,  determined,  erratic,  and  sensitive  personality.   unstoppable  by  sia  is  one of  their  favorite  songs,  and  they're  written  by  elle, 22, bst, she/her, n/a.

mentions of kidnap, murder, divorce,

jillian’s the second child and formally part of the dynamic duo that was jack and jill (a horrible combo, i know). she doesn’t remember much from her younger years when jack was actually around. her parents were conservative folk, valuing discipline and religion.

when she was two, jack was kidnapped and later turned up dead. deep down she knows that she has no memories of him but this caused her parents to force memories onto her throughout her childhood, no matter whether they were truth or a lie, just so his memory lived on. as a child, she had no understanding of the concept of death but she would grow up with it as a part of her life.

nothing felt unusual about her childhood until someone would whisper at school about her brother or call her out for apparently lying about memories she had of her brother. jill was conditioned to talk about him, to recite what her parents had told her and take it as gospel truth. she was respectful and was never going to question them, not in her youth anyway.

a few years after jack’s death, her parents had another child, named jacqueline - a replacement child. jill found herself in an unknown position, she had to act like a sister, the older one and her parents ut a lot of pressure on her to keep jackie safe. she does remember her mother screaming at her out in the yard because she stopped to talk to some friends passing by instead of playing with her sister. things like that stuck and slowly but surely, she started to resent both her parents and her sister.

it wasn’t until she started visiting the houses of friends that her eyes were opened to how abnormal her family’s living situation was. it became even more apparent when her friends used to push her buttons and they would sneak into jack’s old room to tell ghost stories. she would panic every time knowing full well her mother would lose it if she ever saw them. the room would stay as it was - it was like having a crypt next door. that’s what it felt like to her.

jill wasn’t easily influenced but she was the first one to be encouraged to act a certain way if she saw others doing it. there was always so many rules and she wanted to break free. however, responsibility always came knocking and it was always the time to watch her sister. ever since the ordeal with jack, they were paranoid and had no problem projecting that onto jill and jackie if it would save their life.

jack and jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water jack fell down and broke his crown and jill came tumbling after …

that was a trigger point of hers and still is. whenever she heard it, her reaction would be different every time. why on earth did her parents have to be unimaginative about naming and pick a gruesome rhyme? first came jack’s fall and if it were true, she wouldn’t be close behind.

jill was confident in high school, others would have said arrogant but she always felt the need to protect herself. she was passionate, knew she wanted to do something with her life, to get out of the house that was supposed to be her home. it was not going to feel like it. she had to get jobs (behind her parents’ back as they were way too protective) in order to make sure she could attend medical school.

she was slightly rude (still is) but went after what she wanted so that evened out her chances when her superiors were evaluating her. jillian was made for medicine and it kept her concentrated, her sister would have said distracted so she didn’t have to deal with anything back home. yes, she was living out of her car as her earlier years went on but she did what she had to do - she wasn’t a legacy and couldn’t get the money from anywhere.

twenty years on, she was living in what could be considered a mansion in los angeles, as an oncologist - something she’d never seen coming... at first it was a good choice for her as she wanted to make a big impact, to help families, but that enthusiasm drifted away as she got over. 

twenty years later she also found herself as a mother in the midst of an amicable divorce, if there was such a thing. jill loves her daughter but doesn’t nearly show it enough. she panics but tries to come across as calm and collected and this is seen as disinterest. jill had too many skeletons in the closet to fully commit to the relationship and admit to herself that she still hadn’t dealt with all the abnormal happenings in her childhood as well as being on bad terms with her sister. she did blame herself and that was part of the problem.

she was shocked when she got the call that her mother had passed and she was expected to go and clean everything up so that others could move in after. she really didn’t want to go, she made a point of it but her ex suggested that it may be good for her to work things over with her sister and deal with whatever was going on in her head hoping that it would make her more emotionally available as a mother. that and he’d give her a large sum of money to help her rent or buy a house up there. she didn’t need the money but was sick of arguing with him about it so just took it.

jill was good at what she did, her success rate is excellent. however, it’s when she’s not successful that she’s hit particularly hard. she doesn’t simply move on, she spends time looking over her notes to try to work out if there was another way she could have saved them so she has that outlook for next time. she’s always worked in private - never made the active choice to do that because of the money but it certainly acted as a bonus

she managed to get a job at seattle grace health & wellness centre and plans to grow her own sector (but hasn’t told addison this). despite being there for two months, she hasn’t really opened up to her colleagues and has been keeping it strictly business. she’s not contacted her sister at all and has only visited her childhood home once so is no further to sorting it and selling it (why her parents left it in her name is beyond her understanding)...

people describe her to be very work centric, some would go as far to say intense. she hasn’t resolved much and is walking around as a ticking time bomb, in my opinion. she’s lying to her ex saying she’shashing out things with her sister, she’s back in the city she wanted to forget and hating her job more than ever (secretly)...

despite being a logical person at work, she’s become more and more erratic now she’s in seattle as old fake memories resurface and she’s keeping it all to herself. she’s bound to break at some point...

she’s bisexual

[saskiagl]

𝖍𝖎  𝖆𝖓𝖌𝖊𝖑𝖘  ,  i’m  super  late  &  i’m  apologizing  for  my  𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐬𝐡  behavior . my  name  is  hailey  ,  from  the east  coast  &  prefer  to  go  by  𝐬𝐡𝐞  /  𝐡𝐞𝐫 pronouns  .  𝖋𝖚𝖓  𝖋𝖆𝖈𝖙  ,    i'm  obsessed   with  game  of  thrones .  however  , i’m  super  excited  to  be  here  & i  can’t  wait  to  plot  with  you  all  !  i'm   in  awe  with  everyone’s  intros  -  i  hope  you  guys  enjoy  my  #𝟏  pain  in  the  ass  ,   𝖘𝖆𝖘𝖐𝖎𝖆  𝖒𝖎𝖏𝖆𝖗𝖊𝖘  !   🖤

*  it  would  seem  one  can’t  hear  cash  shit  by  megan  thee  stallion  without  raising  murmurs  of  a  frequent  patron  of  public  adoration  &  obsession  ,  the  ever -rising  starlet   saskia  mijares   —  the   fiery cisfemale   with  a  strikingly  uncanny  resemblance  to  alexa  demie  .  increasingly  so  ,  it  seems  she is  being  caught  up  in  hushed  talks  of  that  glitterati  nonsense    .  oh  , haven’t  you  heard  ?  should  rumors  be  trusted  , it’s  been  said  that  they  made  it  into  the  glitterati  because of  retiring  from  porn  after  getting  death  threats  —  but  surely  you’ve  brushed  off  such  accusations  as  mindless  chatter  by  now . widely  recognized  as  a  bisexual  virgo   ,  they  say  papa  legba  honed  in  on  your  undeviating   vexed   &  wanton  tendencies  , surely  to  be  exploited  if  he  can  strip  you  of  your  otherwise  redemptive  trailblazing   &    candid   conventions  , much  to  his  supposed  chagrin  . people  muse  that  since  that  fateful  encounter  , you’ve  ascended  to  rank d    thanks  to  his  less  than  savory  interventions  ,  despite  your  interaction  being  out  of   desperation  .  truly  …   how  else  would  an   twenty  three    year  old   singer — songwriter  &  fashion  designer   reach  a  net  worth  of  $35M   with  such  unprecedented  ease  ? what  truth  is  there  to  these  rumors  ,  kia  ?  what  are  you  willing  to  sacrifice  to  keep  what  you’ve  become ?

𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐒.

𝐟𝐮𝐥𝐥    𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞    :  saskia    letizia    mijares   .

𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬    : kia   ,    kai cash   .

𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐞  𝐨𝐟  𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡    : august   23rd   , 1996    .

𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜    :   virgo    sun    ,    scorpio    moon    ,  pisces    rising  .

 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬   :    sirenic   ,   captivating  ,  idealist   ,  amorous  ,    candid   ,   poised  , emotional  ,   irascible   ,   careless  ,   jealous  ,  avaricious   &   insecure  .         

 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫    𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐩𝐨    :    maddy perez  ,  mia   khalifa  ,  buffy  summers   ,  brooke  davis  ,  moira  o'hara  ,  rachel  green  ,  samantha jones  &  ilana  wexler  .

𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞    :  soho    ,    manhattan    ,    new  york    .

𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲    :    mexican  .

pronouns    &    gender    :    goes   by   she    /   her    ,   identifies    with    cisfemale    gender   .

𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥  𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧    :    bisexual .

𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐜    𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧    :    biromantic   .

𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧    :     retired  pornstar  ,  musician   &   fashion  desginer    .

𝐧𝐞𝐭    𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐡    : $35  million    ,    most  of   saskia  money  is   from  her  music  career   (  kali uchis discography )  &  her  successful  fashion  line (   which includes  puma x fenty  &  savage x fenty  )

aesthetics :  naturally  thick  babydoll  lashes  ,  crying  over  movies  &  say you didn’t  ,  tight  leather  dresses  mixed  with  six  inch  heels  ,  silk  lingerie  ,  nude  selfies  in  the  mirror  ,  horror  novels  ,  unfinished  songs  ,  thigh high boots  ,  cozying  up  with  a  stranger  in  a  dimmed  club  ,  favorite  chanel  perfume  sprayed  on  her  body  ,  lounging  around  in  long  silk  nightgown  with  a  glass of  wine  in  hand  ,  perfectly  shaped  brows  ,  journals  ,  soft  moans  in  the  back  of  her  car  ,    stamped  passports  ,   leaves  men  at  the  bar  once  she  gets  her  free  drinks  ,  the taste  of  a  passionate  kiss  ,  googling  why  my  relationships  keep  failing ?  ,  searching  through  a  bag  for  a  lighter  ,  practicing  her  good  angles  ,  a  dazzling smile  that’s  hard  to  ignore   ,  sex  &  the  city  playing  in  the  background  ,  blood  shot  eyes  ,  supporting  her  friends  at  events  ,  extreme  baby  fever ,  acrylic nails  ,    her  name  scribbled  on  a  lipstick  stained  napkin  ,  yacht  rides  ,  losing one shoe after a night of partying  ,  singing  in  karaoke  bars ,  attending  self  defense  classes  every  week  ,  pouring  vodka  into  a water  bottle  &  watching  basketball  on  the  flat  screen  .

𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍  .

her  mother  ,  letizia  almazan  ,  was   an   upcoming   supermodel   &  makeup   artist   in  new  york  city   who   seemed   to   never  stay  out  of  trouble  after   she   met   the   love   of  her   life   -  diesel  mijares  .   he   still   holds   the   crown  across   the   six  boroughs  of  new  york  as  one  of  the  most  dangerous  &   scariest  mobster  to   interact   with  ,  so  think  twice  before  crossing  him  because  you’ll  be  swimming  with  the  fishes .  the  pair  tied  the  knot  in  a  secret  ceremony   &   had  four  children  together  before  moving  into  an elegant  mansion  in  upstate  ,  new york  .   saskia  &  her  siblings  didn't  make  many  friends  so  they  always  stayed  among  themselves  due  to  their father’s  dangerous  lifestyle . but , still  managed  to  have  a  career  outside  of  their  family  name  . her older  siblings  took  the  role  of  their  father &  learning  the  business while  saskia  chose  a different  path .

her  reputation  made  people  wanted  to  sleep  her  or  hate  her  .  she was  asked  to  do porn  when  she  was  nineteen  years  old  which  skyrocket  her  career  because  she  was known  as  the  most  viewed  person  on  the  website . her  family  found  out  just  like  the rest  of  the  world  did  &  received  a  lot  of  backlash . her  parents  was  ashamed of  her & cut all ties with her .  saskia  knew  she  wasn’t  protected  anymore ,  she  feared  for  her  life  after  she  was getting  death  threats  & decided  to  go  into  hiding  .  papa  legba  approached  her  and  offer  her  a  deal  that  she  couldn't  refuse . of course ,  she  was  desperate  &  wanted  the  hate  to  stop ,  but  didn't  realize  what  she  was  getting  herself  into . it  seems  like  all  her problems  went  away  because  no  one  blinked  an  eye  nor  asked  questions  about  her past career anymore . she  took  the  time  to  reinvent  herself  by  becoming  a  successful musician  and  fashion  designer . but  , she  knows  that  everything  comes  with  a  price  and  she's  worried  that  it's  going  to  be  someone  that  she  cares  about .

[murderslugs]

Match up please •• I’m female, bisexual, 19, and I have long dark brown hair, hazel eyes, freckles, glasses, and am real short. I went to an art school for theatre and I have a lot of friends. I typically like to put my friends before me and I’m really scared and anxious of people not liking me. I like to make bread and homemade meals and go on walks and pick flowers. I love floral patterns and I love flowy dresses. Also I LOVE animals and I read a LOT of fairytales!

((Jesus Christ you’re just an older version of Sally Williams XD XD XD))

I Choose Jane The Killer!

- You guys met in a field, actually. She was there listening to the  wind and taking time to herself, just trying to contemplate her life and be all spiritual. Mourning her losses. You were there because you were on an “adventure”, trying to find new wildflowers to pick. Plus, this was kind of your go-to spot recently, as you had recently found a bunch of exotic and beautiful flowers there. That’s when you saw her in the meadow, sitting high upon the hill in the wildflowers. You were curious, and just had to ask why she was there. And that’s where everything started. 🖤

- Your guys’ dates consist of going back to the meadow where everything started, or going on little nature walks, or exploring nature itself. You’ve seen some wonderful and beautiful things together. For example, one time you guys were able to see and Doe (a deer, a female deer,) and her baby sipping from a lake in a forest.

- She really enjoys your homemade meals, as she CAN’T COOK FOR SHIT. So, she kind of needs YOU to cook for her. ((I’m serious about all this, one time you walked in on her with a bowl of cereal that was ON FIRE. She just kind of looked up at your and said. “I accidentally burnt it.”))

- For some reason, you two have a thing of braiding each other’s hair. Usually, she braids yours first, and then you *attempt* at hers. ( I say this, because I don’t know if you actually know how to braid.)

- Oddly enough, she really likes to steal your glasses and either hide them somewhere around the mansion or your house, or she wears them as long as she can until you notice.

- She really adores your love for flowers and flowery outfits. It really contrasts with her all-black style.

- She really likes to help you make flower crowns out of the flowers you pick, and enjoys wearing them too, even if they ARE colorful. I mean, black wildflowers ARE pretty scarce these days…

- As for nicknames? You like to call her Charlotte and she likes to call you Wilber. (You know, like from the book Charlotte’s Web?) She also calls you Short-Stack from time to time.