#losingmybestfriend

[piecesofmaxine]

I wish I could have called you multiple times this past week @prdove31 😢😢. I have thought of you daily and wondered your reaction to the things I would have told you. I imagined your words, and could hear you in my head as if it was an actual conversation. I wondered if you'd be upset, sad, proud l or would you feel ashamed and disappointed. It's so damn hard to not have you here. The gut punch I felt when I lost you 10 months ago I still feel every time I think of you. I miss you so freaking much 😭😭💔💔👼🏽👼🏽 #imissyou #losingmybestfriend #ripmyfriend #iloveyouforeverandalways #ashighasthesky https://www.instagram.com/missmimi_78/p/BuY93QXhSE6MykrThYN6hyKWPBVVYfVRAyKWQg0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1fxwv6gpa64sz

[judo-lover]

May we meet again. In another life. In a better world, where you don't have to die that young

[rikkithemermaid]

One day I hope that you realise your the reason I left

[mindofmack-blog]

losing

The loss of a best friend because of a specific event is hurtful, but the worst kind of loss is the gradual distancing. The worst kind of loss is the one you don't realize has been happening for months. The one where you sit and look back at the cancelled dates, the rainchecks, the excuses, and the realization that you no longer miss them in your every day life. It’s the sad realization that you've been doing perfectly fine without even speaking a word to them in weeks, maybe months. And maybe thats depressing, maybe thats hurtful, or maybe you simply feel content. You win some, you lose some. 

[emotionalranting]

Never thought I'd be OK losing you as friend but I guess the more I think about it I realized I was more of a I end towards u an you were towards me. I was a place holder in your life for a long time. Don't get me wrong you were there for me through some very dark times, saved my life, but I've always wondered had you not been involved in the happens if you ever would have stayed or cared. If I hadn't pressured you so much or desperately tried to keep contact if it would have lasted as it did. You were a lot of good for me, but you were also a great amount of bad. I wish I knew exactly where it changed.

[sarahjean-]

More disappointed than anticipated.

[beautifulbrokenheart]

it isn't supposed to hurt so bad that I'm crying to my boyfriend about it.

[partiallydestroyed]

The repition of my mind..

Losing the one person you wish would never leave hurts. It’s like a never ending ache in the pit of your stomach and your heart is shrinking because there’s nothing left to say. I wish I could turn back time and make everything right. I try so hard, but that just makes things worse, and I know I get too close to every fucking human being I become interested in, but that’s just who I am. I find love in every person I meet that I like. Just knowing things will never be the same, knowing I am everything but good enough to be a friend. It hurts. I can’t seem to find the right words because my mind is so fucked up with emotions, I don’t know how to handle myself. All I want to do is relapse or just talk to someone. And the only person I care to talk to is you because no one else understands what I’m going through, and yet you don’t even understand, but you listen, and try your hardest to find answers to help me get to a conclusion of my feelings. I just feel broken. It’s been a while since I’ve felt this way. And it’s not because of you, it’s because I’m too nice, I’m too loving, caring, and understanding. I am just a selfish friend who can’t have what she wants.