#loove therapy love working on bettering myself because its exactly what i need right now as an almost 18 year old

[miesozernacma]

Sometimes it comes up in conversation between me and my sister how we were in our childhood (5-11 yrs old) and i go through the memories of being in primary and middle school and how my mother told me i wasnt ever talking about things going on inside my head – until like one day in 7th grade when i broke through and started opening up about everything; yet at the same time through all of this previous radio silence at home i was playing Guardian Of The Classroom Silence™ -> screaming at everyone else to stfu during class because i could Not let that stand as a child at all. (highly sensitive to noise to a point of aggression? perchance autism? i still am not sure to this day)

at one point when the teacher left and it immediately got so loud and rowdy i even broke down after yelling at the other kids "SHUT UP - IVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU" and the teacher came back into the classroom and yelled at Me for that scream. as teachers do

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so in retrospect ive always been a little bit of a freak