#look i love rhys and his potential if only sjm didnt just push away these vital aspects of his life

[slutsofren]

OH MY GOD I’M SO EXCITED FOR STARFALL NOW!

Could we get a directors cut from your thoughts on that scene?🧐

OH YOU ABSOLUTELY MAY

so i have a "General™️" timeline pre-written, nothing super explored, only major plot points and certain character interactions but here's where i get AAAALLL WORKED UP

only very mild spoiler warnings for scenery and the like- i won't give away everything but you can have this bc i adore y'all so much!!!

under the cut bc oh shit it got a little long---

so we all remember how feyre wears an incredible gown that she describes as "liquid starlight" and yes, i love that for her, for the visual representation bUT i have it in my little mind's eye to change the gown and the symbolism. like, this whole time ive tried to convey reader as being an outsider, moving within these strict set of rules for not wanting to stray too far from what she knows, what shes repeated over and over, night after night, to herself of this story. by this point i want it to be like she's finally accepting herself, feeling more confident in her choices, less like she's living a lie, and most of all, that she can reveal more of herself to these people who have given her their loyalty. in a way, parallel to feyre accepting the night court as her home and the inner circle as her friends.

secondly, rhys opens up here about his SA, something that sjm RARELY ever touches on. tbh i felt, as a person who has dealt with pretty severe abuse in a similar way, i thought a setting like starfall where the scenery is just as beautiful as the emotions, is pointedly a huge shift in trust between reader and him. as we know him now, he's not very open about his experiences Under the Mountain and for good reason, but he finds himself unable to hide those shadows of his mind from reader, unable to hide himself, and i feel like it would be this moment where reader finally snaps and says: oh, ive been in denial for far too long

i have a lot of thoughts and emotions about starfall as a whole, it's a beautiful and melancholic holiday, one that is hopeful yet tingled with some grief. it reminds me of dia de los muertos- a traditional mexican holiday where we remember those we've loved and lost and i feel like there are a lot of parallels to be drawn there between the two in terms of celebration in the face of everything we can endure as people. in a way, i want starfall to give this vibe of renewal, of a new start, and an accumulation of an indescribable love for the other