#look at that. and then wyll.

[the-eldritch-it-gay]

@thedragonagelesbian replied to your post “Majexatli’s health”:

ur honor i love them 💕💕💕 and also... if you'd like to, i'd be very interested in hearing more about them bearing althyran's child?? knowing how preoccupied they are with being part of a normal family & how they ruminate on althyran now having kids with someone else... my heart..................

​Oh it's SUCH a thing that's constantly on their mind and has shaped who they are. I was going to just write a short reply but this turned into a whole long thing rip.

(CW: Abuse, loss of pregnancy)

Like, from day one with Althyran, all they wanted was like, the idyllic fairytale life and happily ever after, they very much wanted and constantly imagined that future, of marrying Althyran and having children with him. In their mind, they had gone through so much suffering, and this was the happily ever after, where Althyran is the prince charming who saves them.

Of course, this dream was quickly complicated as it became more and more clear that Althyran was using them and taking advantage of their desire for that happily ever after. But they pushed away doubts because before Althyran and his help, they had nothing and no standing, and now they were on the rise and being respected more in the circle. This was their happy ending, they had nothing before, so they should be grateful.

Before the attack, freshly 19, Althyran did start hinting at the possibility of marriage between them sometime in the future, which was something they clung to. And when they learned they were with child, something that they hadn't been sure was entirely possible, it seemed like. Yes. Everything is finally okay, they had been through so much hardship and had come from nothing, but now they were going to have a child and get married, like Regular People do.

However, a tiny part of them was... hesitant? Because their relationship with Althyran was not always idyllic, and while the two had gotten together somewhat recently, Althyran was quite against being public about their relationship. And part of them has begun to wonder a bit about, what do they want, really? Is it different from what Althyran wants? Is the picturesque life they've imagine and longed for what they want, or do they want it because it's something straight out of a fairytale and it's the only context they have for what a Normal Life is?

So perhaps for that reason, they didn't tell Althyran they were pregnant, and planned to tell him later, especially if he didn't want their relationship to be public.

And then... the owlbear attack. They technically die. And so does their chances of not just having that child, but any child. And then Althyran quite publically shames them and denies that there's anything between them. And Majexatli, stripped of their status and all the love and respect they now realize was conditional, flees from the circle and Althyran.

Yet, even so, they cannot stop their preoccupation with What Could Have Been. What if they had done something different? What if they had escaped the attack relatively unscathed?

Majexatli realizes that it's quite possibly, and in fact likely, that Althyran never cared for them. Not only that, but he might have puposefuly lead them to what he knew could have been their death. They understand its possible he saw them as just something he could manipulate and get to do whatever he wanted, and discarded them once they were no longer useful enough.

BUT deep down, Majexatli wonders if they could have done something to win him over. The fact it's likely he knowingly hurt them just makes them wonder more and more if it was their fault and they could have done something differently and gotten the happily ever after he promised. If they could have done something to change his mind, make him realize he cares about them.

They grapple with that, and then years later, against their better judgement, they keep tabs on their old circle and Althyran. And they learn he's happily married and has children. And Majexatli can't stop themselves from thinking that could have been me.

And it just eats away at them.

Majexatli thinks too often about what if they had done something different, if they did get to give birth to his child. They think about what the child would be like, what their life would be like. A druid, with a husband and children, still loved by Silvanus, with flowers in their hair.

I think I said somewhere that Majexatli's fatal flaw is that they carry around the corpse of the person they used to be and the the life they could have had, and that really is the case. As they see it, they had a single chance at happily ever after, and they lost it. And now they've spent so much of their life mourning for a life they never had. Their benchmark for happiness will always be the life they never got to live.

Not only that, but they have to live knowing the person who hurt them, the person they could have had a life with, is out there happy and unbothered and living the life they will never have.

I also think I shared a snippet from a fic I was working on, and while I ended up scrapping the line, it just sums up how Majexatli feels succinctly.

“If I was a good person, I would be out somewhere with a husband and children instead of alone hundreds of miles away with a parasite in my brain, tearing flesh apart with my teeth to try and fill emptiness that festers in me,"

[sashthesloth]

I’ve got the BG3 gang goes to a gala quest tadpole wriggling around in my head

[ozumii-fucking-wizard]

The blade of frontiers !!

[tadpole-apocalypse]

Posting all these together…I just think they look nice

[dustybones]

shadowheart casts guidance

[lazylittledragon]

more bg3 x taskmaster bc you're all indulging me, thank you so much

[thewizardhole]

i will not be accepting criticism at this time

[kalidels]

it's the regency era. before you are three baldur's gate bachelors. which one would you dance with at the ball? 😳🌹

(i wanted to take a break from comms but went out of my mind. as you can see. also i might do a version w the girls if ppl wanna see it :3)

[noctilin]

prayers unheard

more charms that'll be up for preorder soon ~

[ruushes]

i HAVE been working on this ive just been fighting it for my fucking life but i think ive finally got it to the point i can work on finishing 😭

[artist-rat]

my main party and durge reveal <3<3 i call them the shenanigang

[hylltonart]

I wanted to see Wyll in some (light) armor so i went and painted it. He wears it very well!! Timelapse

[midnigtartist]

Hey. Fuck the Ansur fight?

[lelalyo]

The most unrealistic thing about Baldur's Gate 3 is how you have a group of 25+++++ year olds that are perfectly ok sleeping on the floor every night.

I sit on the floor for five minutes and I just about need to call Withers for a resurrection and even if he brought me back, I still have the *Bad Back* debuff.

[araneapeixes]

Uh Oh....the ladies have entered their 4th pint stage

[mirrorhouse]

i was looking around in the files and found the epilogue camp outfit uuids, and they all have unique names and descriptions so i thought i'd post them all here in case anyone's interested :-)

GALE (human / god)

ASTARION (spawn / ascended)

LAE'ZEL (faerun / githyanki)

WYLL (blade / duke)

SHADOWHEART (selunite / sharran)

KARLACH / DARK URGE

JAHEIRA / MINSC / HALSIN

MINTHARA (drow / city)

edit: UUIDs under the cut if you wanna spawn them yourself

GALE: Human (Embroidered Ensemble) - 1cb24313-5ed1-43b7-ab4a-cdf2118422ea God (Weave-Touched Robe) - 1068659c-f12b-4930-ac4f-c4892af58cd7

ASTARION: Spawn (Dandy's Dream Ensemble) - 13084436-5d19-4cef-ae53-02857497fc28 Ascended (Decadent Ensemble) - 76f26388-daff-440a-a4f3-dba4f78e548c

LAE'ZEL Faerun (Nomad's Garb) - 9747dbb0-0f92-483e-80fc-391390d416f9 Gith (Senja'si Finery) - 8c953ad4-1103-4215-9a09-ff95e51cc8e4

WYLL Blade (The Blade's Padded Armour) - 46c97e62-7d3e-449f-a130-586e8e871947 Duke (Duke's Magnificent Raiments) - 7f89e3b8-61ef-498b-bd1b-77f996c5ec42

SHADOWHEART Selunite (Dusky Ensemble) - 79bb5a64-2019-4818-a898-de179b6bc44c Sharran (Robes of the New Moon) - 8fc09773-7083-466a-8988-e030b6d647e3

KARLACH Avernus/Avernus Wyll/Avernus Tav (Hot Pants) - 24149d5d-c509-48dc-b026-491c11e60a5c

OTHER Dark Urge (Grubby Ochre Clothes) - bdc2247f-32a3-4ded-bffc-8aeb770f23d4 Jaheira (Harper Finery) - bdef460b-374e-45d6-86f7-d272a927b380 Minsc (Very Handsome Shirt) - 54c4b72d-0f2d-40be-bab7-c70c5f3adb97 Halsin (Finely Crafted Ensemble) - d873fb44-94c7-4b74-a272-1d2e5e43a7ef

MINTHARA Drow (Cut-Throat Leather Ensemble) - 9c035563-05ee-47e1-a3e0-e0420a07f534 City (Moonlit Ensemble) - 7d65044d-0d01-44c8-b665-165f0ecc768c