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Sokka baulked. "I'm not getting on that." "That," said Zuko, "is my baby." Zuko's baby, a fifty foot dragon, huffed. Great white plumes of smoke issued out of his nostrils and buffeted around Sokka. "Play nice, Druk," said Zuko, laughing
for The Mercy of Magpies chapter 2!
as always written by thee wonderful showstopping incredible @ranilla-bean ✨
chapter post || cover || map and characters
#id in alt text#fuuun fact this was the very first illustration i did for spacedilves!!#makes me sooo emotional to finally release her into the wild look at my baby gooo#LOOK AT THAT FULL BACKGROUND LITERALLY NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE DKFJGK#fr if theres One thing this project pused me to do is test the boundaries of my style and that involves backgrounds lmao#anywayy one of my fav chapters ever rana rlly outdid themselves with thiiisss#like zukka first date oN A ROMANTIC DRAGON RIDEE!! or is it... teheee#another thing that makes me emotional as fuck is that rana got this printed 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹#it exists!!!#on a wall!#a3 format!!!!#sokka#zuko#zukka#spacedilves#my art
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its been a while since i did lestappen text posts so here you go
all other parts here
#my pinterest got fucked up making these lmao#who am i kidding it was already fucked up#anyways checo being steve is very funny i will miss him being the designated lestappen 3rd wheel#shameless tagging from here on so look away now#look away#i said look away#omg you just dont litsen do you#im gonna count to 3#and then you look away#1#2#2.5#3#okay keep looking but don't say i didn't warn you its literally just tags its not that serious#lestappen#f1 text posts#im in your walls#max verstappen#charles leclerc#jk jk im in your floors#f1 memes#formula 1#okay fine im under your bed#f1 incorrect quotes#formula one#jk jk but dont look at your ceiling#f1 incorrect posts#f1#nah youre good im nowhere near you lol don't worry..your neighbours keep their windows very clean tell them that next time you meet them:P
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actually can we talk about how truly doomed by the narrative Jayce and Viktor are?
Jayce would’ve died in that snowstorm as a child had the mage (who we later learn IS Viktor through some time and space foolery) not intervened. He later would’ve killed himself had main timeline Viktor not intervened. Viktor ALSO would’ve later killed himself had Jayce not intervened.
Viktor was in fact supposed to die in the explosion, he said it himself. We see a split second frame where his spine is snapped in half, he was DEAD dead and Jayce resurrected him, only to later kill him, which is THEE big trigger event for Viktor fully becoming Herald.
in every universe where Herald Viktor exists, he turns the entire world into those robot things, Jayce included. Even when Herald Viktor survives indefinitely/reaches immortality after this, he’s alone. We’re TOLD this is not a nice solitude thing, he eventually ends up miserable about it.
hell, even in the alternate reality Ekko goes to we don’t see Jayce because the events of the main timeline don’t play out the same; he very likely did go through with killing himself. Vi died in the explosion, so Jayce would’ve stood even LESS of a chance in his trial, and honestly? Viktor prob wouldn’t have intervened here, it’s makes the arcane look even riskier and that’s a dead child from Zaun. We don’t even SEE Viktor here because hextech doesn’t exist, he never would’ve created the hexcore/a method of healing himself to the same degree and likely died to his illness by this point
the main timeline/ending we got? They die together. That’s it. All of that back and forth of the two of them dodging death, often at the hands of one saving the other, and the only ending they could’ve gotten that doesn’t doom everyone else is one where they’re both gone. No matter how the events of Arcane played out, Jayce and Viktor were always going to die, one way or another.
this makes the ending we got the ‘happiest’ ending for them btw. they chose to be together for it, while in any other option they would’ve been alone.
#if you listen closely you can distantly hear me slamming my head into the fucking wall THEY MAKE ME SICK THEY MAKE ME ILL#to be clear I’m delulu and I’m on team ‘they teleported to a new reality/their own dimension’ but looking at the canon text? doomed as hell#arcane#jayvik#jayce talis#viktor arcane#arcane viktor#arcane season 2#arcane s2#arcane spoilers#tw suicide#tw suicide ment#ask to tag
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ultimately!
#ELIIIIIIII YOU CANT SAY THAT ELIIIIIIIIIIII#audiof from not even emily latest video go watch literally its so fuckingfunny#dont even ask me how eli fits in hance' 5'2 dad's clothes pls ok#my art#digital art#oc art#anthro art#not even gonna lie i thfought i wasnt gonan finish this but we pulled thru#if quality gets murdered i will cry#swhy are all my favorite drawings baby sugar and eliyah interacting#i like themb#i was gonna add fucking comical cartoon slipping noises when her antler popped off but imovie literalsly. it didnt work it wpuldnt let me#vid too biggy#also noahs ark esque announcement for ppl thta read my evil ramble tags i miiight nuke sanguinary univers bc i love my ocs too much to like#like i dont wanna marry my first idea and i love them too much to box them into a project I PERSONALLY FEEL LIKE I FUMBLED LIKE#OK LITERALLY NO INSULT WHATSOEVER TO ANYONE WHO MIGHT LIKE IT BUT IT WAS my firsy ever comic and i feeeeel like i can do betteeerrr a#meowweooww#like if it was small things i wanted to change i could juts panel edit but its like. major things like when i started chapter 1 i had#LITERALLY NO PLAN JUST MY nerdy vampire obsession. which is still present. giggle h#breaking news boygirl learns that they arent rlly proudof the writing in comic thye started when they were a teenager#ALSO I LITERALLY HAVE LORE THAT IVE. BEEN MAKING THAT CONTRADICTS THINGS (? PROBABLY) SO ok trust me ok just trust m#also yes this is what i’ve been working on except that animatsuon i mentioned with eli crying because priorities or someth#not except wtf i mean insyead or some other shit#also i just looked at this wall of text on mobile and like ew shut up little gay
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if you're an egotistical artist, you should use alt text.
hear me out. you want to show people your art, right? you want them to see the important details, the shit they should be blown away with... right? so they know how to compliment you and what they should be focusing on, no? and you want everyone to see it?
put a description in the alt text.
not just "my oc standing in front of a background" no get descriptive. focus on that shit. "a woman with beautiful eyes and an ornate hammer" better. what'd you spend three hours detailing? "wearing a shirt with an ornate lace pattern" better! what are you aiming for? "it looks like a classical portrait" THERE.
and having the alt text button means people who can see might click on it too. and then be like "wow i didn't notice half of these details". its true. happens to me pretty often. half the time they're like "this owns, omg, you guys should look at the alt text" because i did a good job describing it and there's details even they didn't catch until they read it and looked back over it.
if you like when people stroke the hell out of your ego and catch all the cool things in your art. and you want everyone to see your art. put some alt text on that thing. for serious.
#red rambles#plus then there are also people who go out of their way to try to mainly reblog art that has alt text and not undescribed images#great news about what they'll do with your art too if they see and like it.#idc about appeals to Human Kindness or whatever. im an egotistical fuckin person and this has inflated my ego because it works#if you also have an ego and you want that shit stroked then try putting stuff in the alt text#well. not stupid shit. put a joke in your alt text and people will (and should) get mad at you unless it's part of the way you describe the#image and it belongs there#save your JOKE jokes for the tags.#but like i draw comedy and a lot of my art is situational comedy so if you look closely there's stupid shit happening#and most people don't look closely. so they read the alt text. and they're like. huh. in the background someone's fucking up#a skateboard trick and the other character is taking a picture? huh? the painting on the wall is of one of those old roman dicks with wings#yes i will put any random detail i think is funny into an image. but no one scrutinizes that shit#UNTIL I PUT THE ALT TEXT IN. AND THEY READ IT. AND GO 'HOLY SHIT THATS HYSTERICAL'
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tagged by @bloodanddiscoballs Rules: without naming them, post a gif from ten of your favorite films and then tag ten people to do the same. This looks fun!
I'm a really big fan of very old black and white movies but I didn't want to dominate the list with them lmao. Not tagging anyone in particular but whoever sees this and thinks this would be fun I'd love to see! :]
#thanks for tagging me! this was super fun#The Lighthouse#Logan (2017)#Yellow Submarine#The Shape Of Water#Interstellar#Fight Club#The Invisible Man (1933)#Frankenstein (1931)#The Truman Show#The Stepford Wives (1975)#obviously there are more#I almost added The Prestige in here#was scared to add Magical Mystery Tour bc idk if that even qualifies as a movie.#also pink floyd's the wall but i couldn't find any gifs of that scene that i really like#hard to add any horse movies bc a lot of them are fucked up and i just watch them to look at the horses#Nope is a good “horse” movie though#i have a letterboxd but i'm not about to advertise that#but if you see this you can add me on there if you want#talking#text#gifs
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Look at my s/i boy. (They/she) They're putting weird nonbinary bitches in your Three Houses LOOK OUT!
#sealed#Practice in giving less of a fuck about art looking precise and perfectly polished. As long as the idea gets across I'm happy.#I may or may not repost the stupid massive wall of text I just wrote on main later. If I decide I'm not too shy < ITZY refrance..?#Amelia
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oh yeah no i'm aware of the point of this au being that their personalities are more or less the same, just the roles they place in the story. i just forgot the word 'redeemed' and was unsure how to word it without it being to clutter-y. i usually try not to swarm inboxes with my ramblings😅
this point is actually what fascinates me in your au so much! like, it gives so much room to play around with, yet still stays true to the show :) IT'S SUCH A GOOD AU!!
(also nooo😭😭😭 touch grass was not aimed at you, i was just repeating what i saw in your post-reply to me. like, hater saying this to sylvia. im sorry for being unclear)
and yay! thanks so much! i'm swamped w work/projects atm so i'm like. UNSURE. when the promised art will happen. but it will.
/stares at the unedited 5k beast abt deprogramming swap!dominator/ i'm talking abt YOU SPECIFICALLY.
the thing abt fears is what makes this wander so fascinating to me. cults lowkey freak me out + the forced "must never move bc ITS BETTER FOR EVERYONE THAT WAY" oof. a lot of potential.
anyway, hope you're having a day! sometimes just a day is enough. though good is preferred obv
ohhh i apologize i got a little confused!!! you can ramble as much as you need to it's no big deal to me. i'll read it! i am notoriously The Rambler, and i like to hear what people think about the things i make!!!
if i'm understanding right now, you are/were asking how wander gets redeemed, or how it would go down when he does (sorry if that's still not really your question)? because i have plans i cannot share with you lest my enemies (the creatures in my brain that keep me from actively doing anything) try to strike me down... but the event would be ermmm Power of friendship, to be as vague as possible, and it would have to do with the strength of the bond between meteor and peepers and esp the bond between sylvia and wander..... i want to say more but i cant without spoiling what im cooking......
and thank you very much!!! believe me i get being ultra busy (i am also ultra busy, i'm just an expert procrastinator and i hate getting off my ass to do things) and i do not Slash will never expect anything of anybody!!! pls do it on your own time and have fun with it if you do end up doing it. no worries whatsoever if you don't. i'm forever psyched to see what you come up with, and also, do not let that be the pressure that breaks it for you!! theres no pressure at all :)
(also deprogramming dominator fic thats so FUN !!!! thats so fun)
i hope you also have a good day!! i've been having a decent weekend myself
#ask#swap au#txt#wall of text#au thesis is friendship is magic. much like the show#im trying to keep the tone like. at least a little consistent with the show itself?? bc i dont want it to fall into the creepypasta pit#but also the themes ive chosen are inherently very sad slash fucked up. which is fun to write about and totally possible to keep lightheart#but it's still difficult because fanfiction brain says put them in situations that will scar them forever and ever#and adult brain says nay. do not do this. remember that wander over yonder is a show about happiness and kindness and love#and then horror movie fan brain says what if the walls looked like MEAT and i have to beat that part of myself back with a sharp stick#no fry the show about friendly aliens having fun and hugging each other does not need a body horror element#like ig dominator's control room has that big brain thing going on which is objectively tight as fuck but it's subtle and also rainbows#which means it's tasteful and makes sense in context. a lot of the one off ideas i come up with are overcomplicated and way too scary#anyWAYYYYYy
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I decide to change my pic to this fuck ass ryoma frame and I would say I have a new related ramble to accompany this but instead my brain has continuously wander back to the smallest detail of “how many fucking years was arma ryoma actually in jail” and I wish it didn’t because it’s so insignificant to the plot but my brain REFUSES to let it go.
#meg text#getter robo#I can’t make it a coherent post so text wall in tags awaaaaay#but seriously I’m in this weird spot where I’m at peace stuff in armas early eps were dropped and the show still good despite the flaws#we will never know what the FUCK was up with hayato and it’s best to not think too deeply about it#but then my brain goes back to “okay but HOW many years was ryoma in jail?” and I start going crazy#I assumed it was 3 years because they said the getter team project disband and Saotome was dead but- it could’ve been shorter#I mainly wonder this because Genki looks the same between that flashback and current#and obviously while everyone handles trauma differently it’s crazy how this child still barely talks in 3 years#ryoma and hayato also don’t look that different#I may need to rewatch arma even though I already did my yearly rewatch of it and I got other shit to do
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I'm still thinking about this fucked up BBQ Chicken bacon pizza we got from Papa John's like two years ago. So egregious I've held a grudge against Papa John ever since.
So first, there's so much fucking barbecue sauce on the thing that in some places, its completely drowning out all the other flavors. You can see it pooling out from underneath the cheese in some areas. By the end i had resorted to lifting up the cheese layer and scraping off the excess sauce, but it was still too much.
Which brings us to the second point, the elephant on the pizza. I do not think this is standard for Papa John's. I have never seen them do this before, nor since (since i've never been back) but i would like to direct your attention to the big spiral of bbq sauce on top. Was there not enough sauce for you already??? Did you need to add more sauce?
#i hope the highest fucking teenager in the world made this thing thats the only way i can justify its existence#i highly recommend bbq chicken bacon pizza just maybe dont get it from daddy johnathan's#its bbq sauce instead of pizza sauce. if you love onions throw some onions on there too if not please do not do that#but i love onions i think this pizza had onions which makes the betrayal so much worse#i find myself thinking about this abomination so often i had to look it up on my bfs twitter so i could see it again#im not actually bothered btw me and my bf just love to bring up 'that fucked up pizza we had' and it always makes me laugh#also this used to be the dramatic walls of text website. remember the lisa frank shampoo? i never evolved from that post style#theres so much sauce you can see it half way up the crust
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Helo.. Sorry if it's been said in the story already and i just forgor, but what is Wooyoung's job in Whichever Way? :3
haiiiii ♡ omg Isak i can’t with how incredible your timing is alskdjkasdj the next chapter opens with the reader visiting Wooyoung and his coworker Seonghwa at work (ᵔ◡ᵔ)
it hasn’t really come up before, there was only a tiny lil ‘blink and you miss it’ mention in chapter 7; Wooyoung works at a flower shop (◕‿◕✿)
#igby’s inbox#wooyoungisbaby#whiway#he is a particular favourite of spry old grannies who come in for bulbs & seeds for their lil garden or flowers to brighten up their home#bc he knows exactly when to be polite and when to be a cheeky flirt at them hehe#but he loves it best whenever he gets to help kids pick out flowers for an arrangement ♡ esp when they’re shy at first ♡ ♡ ♡#(yes Wooyoung and Seonghwa absolutely get into arguments over whose turn it is to help the next kid that comes in lol)#and when an upset-looking guy buys a VERY OBVIOUS ‘honey i fucked up please take me back’ bouquet?#the moment he steps back outside the girls are GOSSIPPPINNGGGGGGGGGGGGG#it’s not Woo’s Big Passion the way San’s job is for him but he really enjoys the work and that he can pour some creativity into it uwu#(ohgod i did not mean for the tags to become a wall of text but here we are lol oop)
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life is all about trying as hard as you can to be your truest most genuine self, again and again and again, every day forever
#i forget this on a regular basis and then i remember it again#and it's so overwhelmingly hard to do#maybe that's why i keep forgetting it#it's so much easier to be the reflection of hundreds of other people#like a glittering mosaic of broken mirror shards#but if someone loves you all they want to see is the wall behind all those flecks of mirror#no matter how boring or ugly it might be#i was just thinking about how many people there are in my life#whose deepest truest selves i don't think i actually know#and very few of them know mine either#and i was also thinking about that scene in rocketman#where bernie looks at elton's ridiculous over-the-top stage costume and says#'do you really need all that? the songs are good enough to stand on their own#just go out there and be yourself'#and elton replies 'why the FUCK would i want to do that?!'#so many of us are so deeply convinced that other people don't actually want us as we are#our deepest truest flawed unremarkable unoriginal selves#but when i think about everyone i care about#that's exactly the part of them i want the most#you don't have to be special#cosmo gyres#text
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when your bf is a human radiator and the night is cold but he has the audacity to tell you to move because he has to sleep
#kaeluc#luckae#my art#normally id put the stupid texts in tags but this was a 45min doodle and i dont take it seriously#as kaeya says :#😩😩😩#if ur interested in my deranged insanity. thinking about the pipeline of just like old times mutual wordless agreed cuddling turning into#whatever the fuck happens#and then back to stupid vulnurable openness without having to say much in thr middle of the night#sigh.#ok imagine. they are so soft and cringe but by day remember all the walls between them and the awkward push and pull at a safe distance..#no communication kings idiots idiots idiots but they know the other loves them!! but also!!#so so afraid that its only one sided and they are just delusional and hopeful!!#ok fuck it just look at my art and leave idk man....i need help
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This is a little out of the blue, but I genuinely really enjoy hearing your tsaritsa lore and character breakdowns. She's hasn't been someone I'm terribly invested in getting to know as a character, but reading your thoughts on her has really piqued my interest. I've never considered what being the goddess of love could mean I guess
Anyway, all this to say I've been really enjoying your tsaritsa/fatui hype :) it's contagious
THIS IS SO GOOD TO HEAR i love going into deep dive breakdowns of characters especially ones who don't really have a lot of content, because it provides wiggle room for a lot of interpretations. not that i can blame you for not being too invested in her, considering we've never actually seen her, and only hear about from a few sources (venti, who doens't really say much, and childe + arle who also technically dont say much in the grand scheme of things but understanding their characters to see how it changes their view of the tsaritsa and where it overlaps is a good chunk of it)
so its my job to do what hoyo doesn't and hype the hell out of her /j. ive been writing her since i joined sagau around when it first started snowballing into popularity i dont think i could leave if i tried
#asks#Anonymous#not a fic#the tsaritsa is one of my faves and frankly the fatui as a whole. top 3 faves is something like tsaritsa arle&furi and bina#its the harsh contrast of “goddess of love” and tsaritsa that just. chefs kiss. i keep saying it but its true.#a lot of harbingers core themes are about love too like okayyyyy im listening. im seated.#the goddess of love also being the cryo archon. being in snezhnaya. the coldest nation yet and will prob have the dragonspine mechanic..#i think its shown especially with arlecchino and her entire story. i wont say much bc. yknow. spoilers. its been like 2 days since release#bc while arlecchino is better then the old knave she is not a good “father”. i mean shes still raising child soldiers. knowingly.#and i do not think she “loves” them. i think she CARES about them. but she does not love them.#she is the cold unfeeling “father”. that is her role. it is her purpose. she refuses to be like the old knave in that manner#she will not pretend to love them to make them loyal. she will not put up a facade of kindness to make them listen#but i also find it interesting that after arle took over at some point “mother” was attributed to the tsaritsa#i cant recall where the line is from atm but its such an interesting bit that says so much#all children of the house of the hearth are children of the tsaritsa and thus. “mother”.#looks at the wall of text in tags ah fuck i did it again. SHUT IT DOWN#someday i wont get distracted and write an essay in tags. today is not that day!!!#glad u enjoy my ramblings though its fun 2 write and nice 2 know ppl like them :]
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I feel so strange thinking about how I considered myself "new" in FFXIV for the longest time, as when I started playing there were so many legacy players around. I saw their mounts and their titles, I talked to them, played with them, and to me they were the experienced ones teaching me how to play my first MMO. For years I considered myself a newbie.
And then, just the other day, I see in the chat of an FC I was invited to on an alt, people talking about having played for a long time, and their longest playing member having been around for 5 years. It hit me just how long of a time that is, and how much longer passed before I'd even realized it.
I ask others if they remember various things from the past, and I can count on one hand the amount of people I meet in recent years who do. So many things I still consider new and flashy, like Gpose and job gauges for instance, have now been in the game far longer than they have not. It's a strange situation caused by me losing about a decade's worth of memories and life (due to mental health issues that practically broke me) as well as the normal feeling ot time passing without me really thinking about it. Less and less did I see the legacy titles and mounts, but I didn't pay much heed. Until one day I suddenly stop and look around, realizing that I haven't seen any legacy players at all for a while. I'm certain they're out there, but most likely not in the same sheer abundance as before.
It's a bit similar to real life, where my home was once just an old, secluded village that have now become geographically closer to the city without ever moving. Where the others I used to surround myself with have all moved on in slow trickles over the years, and where I cannot expect everyone to remember the same things that I do. So many new people everywhere, some that cause lines in the grocery store that can afford to keep running after all these years, and some that fail to load in on my weak little laptop's screen.
It's like I have two homes mirroring each other, and obviously that means I age in both of them. I bought this game as a gift for myself on my 18th birthday... and here I am 10 years later, turning 28 today, and realizing that I'm still here in both places despite everything. Waiting for another expansion all over again, just like when I was staying alive just because I wanted to play Heavensward so bad.
I can't even begin to count just how many people I've known and interacted with throughout the years in this game. There are memories that my years of paranoia and psychosis stole from me (something which I only shook off the last remnants of half a year ago), of people who I know were important to me but who I'm also unable recall much about beyond their names, which is something which fills me with both deep shame and sorrow. Some I remain in touch with to this day, and some I am mutuals with on various sites, even if we don't chat regularly anymore.
There's a lot that I don't remember, or that I even memorized in the first place. Things have changed time and again for both better and worse. But FFXIV has remained a constant throughout it all, even when I've been unsubbed due to lack of a PC and just on a general break.
I don't know what my point is with all of this really, but I guess I just really wanted to get it off my chest. It's not all sunshine and rainbows these days either, but my mental health is better than it's ever been, I have a partner and friends and family who all mean the world to me, and even though some things will forever be less than ideal, I am so so so happy that I didn't give up. Staying alive really was the best decision I ever made ❤️
#pardon my emotional wall of text#that probably looks weird with phrasing etc#im all over the place and sleepy and unmedicated#its just been a Lot lately while playing#some bad (realizing how much has been taken from me due to mental illness)#but also a lot of good (realizing how much better things are now)#anyway i should rest my eyes now oops#good thing im not celebrating with family until tomorrow cause my sleep got fucked LOL#anyway ANOTHER EXPAC TO BE ALIVE FOR YEAAAAAH#idk theyre just like life milestones for me yknow#hw was the main one but the others have functioned similarly
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Weird having an actual favorite band and knowing it. I don't really have many favorites it is hard to understand my feelings and even harder to pinpoint a 'better and more' feeling about one specific thing. But I know all of their songs, I listen to them all in a big playlist and never get bored, I am always happy to hear any song by them, I have every song's lyrics memorized, like ... they are my unequivocal favorite. There is nothing like it. Yes, I can get really into other songs, there are probably singular songs I can say I like more than any one song by this band. But I guess having a favorite is like what people say about getting married. I'm not explaining myself on that one actually I do have a point there that's an actual metaphor but I've decided explaining it is a bad use of my time. It's one of those artists that are popular enough and artsy enough that they can crop up as fic titles occasionally and no matter the lyric or song it comes from I can always tell immediately. I don't remember what the point of this post was I'm deep in my panic phase and it's 4 am and I was just sitting there singing I Have Made Mistakes to myself bc I can just do that, the whole song, and because it is very funny to go I have made mistakes I have made mistakes and I will continue to make them while in the middle of freaking the fuck out about existing or something. Bc you know yeah im one spoon away from setting the ends of my hair in fire because if I'm kindling for a little while at least I'll feel of use ????????? Yeah this post for sure had a point and it's devolved.
#tide of consciousness#Sorry that's a lot of text wow#Can we talk about the existential panic. I've been dying to talk about the existential panic#<- doesn't talk about it#Does anyone else get this. The feeling that is like the world is ending and its drowning and burning and it burns and nothing will ever beo#My best guess is I just have anxiety but it is very hard to believe that bc it feels so all consuming and terrifying and so so so much so m#The worst part is I'm not actually even feeling it I'm just sitting here using words that I know describe it bc it's like it just#Is happening. Behind a wall. And I'm here feeling the heat on the doorknob#Translating between the space where the feeling exists and the space where I reside#At some point I just go oh. I've been experiencing the world-ending terror for hours now#Like reading a letter!!!!!!!!! I just get a letter from my brain that goes 'emotions report. It all burned down years ago'#It's like and I know if I was in it I'd be crying and shaking and despairing so deeply and throwing myself around the room#And I feel like this EVERY OTHER DAY. Which is obviously why I apparently partitioned myself away from the feeling#Because you literally just you can't function with that#But surprise it's still there actually and I'm still having 2 breakdowns minimum a week#But now it looks like I'm normal and functioning to everyone else#So I seem like a horrible lazy fucking asshole who doesn't do anything but sit around accomplishing maybe 3? 4? Total minor tasks per day#Because I can't HANDLE ANYTHING ELSE !!!#HOW THE FUCK DO YOU FIX THIS#This is for sure something I shouldn't post but you know that's a rational thought for rational people
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