#look at that it's my main now muahahah

[manic-sapphic]

i'm sorry but i just gotta rant a bit about relating to catra - but tbh, not just her..

i know i've been sleepy on the rants lately - i realized tumblr let's you freely make and post gifs (only 10 at a time tho, how's my obsessive ass supposed to live w that? i'm tryin) out of short vids and omfg, believe me, i ain't done w that. never. but i'm sorry if i duped you into thinking i was done posting any rants muahahahs cause i ain't done w them either.. ever. likewise. gifs are great cause a pics worth a 1000 words right, and they're 3 seconds of frames of pics. but sometimes, it feels like silent film. and i just can't always stfu

sooooo ~~

oooook, tbh, i haven't personally gotten much of any bs from people on this platform tryna hate on catra, but it's still happened to me elsewhere, and i know it still happens to some here, and i have thoughts about it. so, while i recognize that most the people i interact w on here prob feel mostly the same way - i'ma post about it just so it's on my blog. just so it's out there for those who can't and/or won't try to understand.

as many do, i relate to catra for personal reasons that run pretty deep - from my first watch, it's what made me empathize w her character at her worst and still hold onto the hope that she'd somehow claw her way out of the fucking pit she straight up dug for herself.

found herself down there and figured shit - that's it. this was my doing, this is my life now, till it becomes my death; this is where i've trapped myself; i dug my own grave and there's just no getting out of it ("you made your choice, now live with it" ~ reminds me of the fairly common proverb of "you made your bed, now lie in it")

but her chance to do this bold, brave, selfless - yet, ironically, still quite fittingly (for the catra we all know and love) self-destructive act (but this time, embracing self-destruction as a means of self-sacrifice - in an attempt to keep the promise for what she thought would be her last chance to ever do so) - of helping get glimmer to darla without adora ever having to actually dock at horde prime's flagship -

...break my heart, why don't you? into a number of pieces i can't fathom; like, if i gathered them all into a pile, i could start counting the shattered lil shards and wouldn't be able to count out the last one in my lifetime. break my heart like that. that's not a joke. this show makes me feel something, lots of things, in ways that, tbh, i have a hard time finding much of irl anymore. no fault of life's, ofc. much like catra, i know this shit is all on me.

but hey hey hey tho - that's ok. i'm ok. i don't mind that, because it's ok not to feel ok. tbh, sometimes i think people need to let themselves feel that more when they need to; just look at catra in s1-4. it's not an uncommon motif in fiction; every villain has an origin story. and emotions almost always play into it; and a villain's typical determination to repress the very emotions that plunged them into a previously unknown depth of darkness - only ever adds to their unpredictable, chaotic, and vengeful nature. who woulda thought~

that being said - my main point is, for anyone who just can't help but hate catra (and luckily, that doesn't seem to be anyone who typically sees my posts/interacts w me, so this is really just something i kinda feel the need to say, even if i'm preaching to the choir and know, deep down, if it actually met a catra-anti's eyes - it would prob only spark more irritation on their part, or at the very least, make no difference) -

but just know (i mean this sincerely) if you just can't see any reason to - not even empathize, i can see how that could def be something not everyone can manage - but if a person can't even see catra's character as someone they can try to sympathize with… and i mean, it doesn't have to happen in the first 4 seasons, but if the show ended and one happens to still find themselves unable to understand at all or even find her worth trying to understand in the slightest ~~

this is not sarcastic. i am happy for you.

truly and sincerely, i mean that; if you're someone who can't find any way in themselves to relate or even sympathize w this character, i'd guess it's at least due in part to the fact that you're quite literally incapable of seeing where she's coming from - at all. and idk. in some ways, i envy you. in others, i don't. it's confusing.

i've had remarkably good luck, it seems (idk how often other people get troubled by catradora antis) on this platform for getting to share shit about not just catra & adora, but every other character - cause although i may not relate to any of them in quite the same way, they all represent (in my mind) different facets of personalities, interests, and insecurities as well. and most people feel they share those things w more than one character.

but even the brightest characters have at least a small streak of darkness - even if it's as innocent as feeling like they don't fit in (glimmer, frosta, and scorpia have all shared this feeling- one to the other- at some point) or a difficulty vibing w their environment / circumstances that presents so heavily, they're unable to use their powers, like perfuma in the crimson waste or adora on beast island.

i think there are a lot of just jaw-dropping wonderful characters in spop - and def not for their powers, abilities, or accomplishments - but for the flaws they possess that viewers can relate to while they watch these characters simultaneously display their strengths and own those flaws - refusing to let them be what defines them. such a dope fucking msg if you ask me; everyone is flawed, everyone fucks up; but at the end of the day, everyone has their strengths, too; and if you're trying your best to use them for good - even if you falter at times.. what more could anyone ask of you?

i relate to catra all throughout the show (and i realize many do, and while i feel for whatever in anyone's past/present has caused them to see a kindred spirit in catra, i'm sure we all can agree: it is so lovely to know there is this fictional cartoon character [of all things] that was rebooted in a way that [imo] was very much intended to offer some solace, hope, & understanding to those who do find her relatable)

cause guess what. you're worth more than what you can give to other people.

we all deserve love. ok?

you too. <3

[vorskra]

VORSKRA - A WRITEBLR (RE) INTRODUCTION

Hello, my name is Vall! I used to have another blog (that I will quickly delete as soon as I can) but I had a 2020 existential crisis so big I couldn’t even write or draw or even open tumblr for the life of me. Because of this I felt my blog was stale and that I had to renew it and change a few things so here we are, friends. 

A few things about me I guess: I’m an archeologist doing my masters, I’m 22 and I’m tired perpetually. I have 4 cats and 1 dog and tbh I live for them. I’m also an artist (not going to say I’m a good one though I’m not that confident) and I dabble on graphic design. 

MY WIPS

a curse most foul - dark fantasy in which everyone gets an existential crisis because so do i all the time. it follows five characters through several thousands of years and a lot of emotional dread.

ama and the painted world - aka the most whimsical, self indulgent fantasy with more mental health undertones that follows a girl who wants very badly to be a sucessful painter but her obsession gets her stuck in her own painted world and now she has to figure out how to leave before it swallows her up.

OTHER BLOGS

butchrofblaviken - a multifandom blog that is mostly video games and I’ll hopefully post my own edits and gifsets on this one. like i’ll actually use this one this time beyond just reblogging shitposts i promise.

vorskra-art - this one is just for art. i’ll reblog art and hopefully also post art at some point as well.  PLEASE IF YOU HAVE AN ART BLOG TELL ME BTW.

MISC

wattpad .   pinterest .   ko-fi.

I will be making a mobile navigation friendly post + proper wip intros as soon as I can which is basically as soon as uni lets me. Hell, just making all these blogs took me a WHILE. 

Beneath the read more I will tag people who very kindly asked to be tagged in this intro, thank you guys for following my dumbass all the way here:

@kowlazovdi  @skyfireflight-writes  @ryan-shepard-writes  @tsainami  @siarven  @soul-write  @rkmoriyama  @rhikasa  @samplewriting  @lasbrumas  @papersky-pencilstars  @writings-of-a-narwhal  @harehearts  @aureliobooks  @sybil-writes  @aflaat

[therealmnemo]

oh man so @legoprime, @nikki-66, @draco-illius-noctis, @storybookhawke​, and @thejourneymaninn​ all  called me out tagged me for this 10 things I’m working on meme. 

List 10 things you’re currently working on in as much or as little detail as you’d like, then tag some friends to see what they’re working on. This can be writing, arts, gifsets, whatever.

and instead of working on any of them right now, i’ll tell you about them

1. MERKANDERS - Uh, yeah, so I’ve got one of the five chapters up for that. This small story is my way of procrastinating from the main fenhanders merfic, and now it’s suffering too. I’m really glad I decided to do it, because I’ve actually tweaked my outline of the main fic based on what I’ve worked out in the outline for this one. Basically, you’re getting four more points in Karl’s life in the Circle tanks that are centered around major points in the relationship he has with Anders and with his own mission of trying to break down the Circle from within. It’s not going to have a happy ending, but there will be sap and smut. Oh, and Varric’s nickname for Karl is ‘Riptide’. (oh look a playlist)

2. The Layover - Ha. HA.. HAHAHAHAH. Shit. Well, that was another fic where I had the outline set, one chapter up, completely thought I’d have the fic done in less than a month.. and it is still fucking sitting there. Still have to get them from the terminal, to dinner, and then to the hotel room.. fill out some flashbacks and then round it out with Fen’s pov of the whole scenario. but it’s a got a playlist if you wanna listen to it in the meantime.

3. Anders and Fenris weeks for TBAA - BANNER IS DONE AND YOU WILL ALL SEE THE POST SOON AND THE LOVELY ONE WHO MADE IT SHALL BE REVEALED. This is the only point in 10 that will actually be completed within the week lol. 

4. Anders x Statues of Andraste and Shartan. - LISTEN. I’M NOT DONE WITH STATUE KINK. I GOT SOME WEIRD SHIT COMING WITH A COUPLE OF STATUES COMING TO LIFE AND *PLOT TWIST* HAVING THEIR WAY WITH ANDERS. MUAHAHAH. *cough*

5. Next Dirty Thirty for FenHanders... prompt is cuddling that gets out of hand. It’s going to be Anders and Fen catching up to Hawke at Weisshaupt, and she’s super preggo, and there’s gonna be cuddles and bump worship and smuts. 

6. Ugh so, I had a big idea in my head to go along with this playlist, in which it’s going to go Kanders -> Handers -> FenKanders. ok, stay with me. but then @foxnonny​ told me all about the sentinel guides are known trope and then i wanted to smush that in.. but i think i’m going to separate them out again. SO. in this case, it’s in three parts. The first is Kanders (starting with a fic where Karl is telling a story to the apprentices, interspersed with Anders’ first escape attempt.) where Anders makes his first attempt to Karl and is successful. He actually walks into the Gallows to be with him there. Karl is working with the underground and Hawke is working to get her sister out, and Karl has Hawke get Anders out thinking he’s been scheduled for tranquility and instead it was actually him.. so Anders is now free and Karl is still inside and Tranquil. Anders is not a Warden, or joined with Justice, and actually starts a friendship with Fenris until Hawke starts seeing Anders as a kindred spirit and also an ally in tearing down the Circle. In the end, the boom happens, planned by Hawke and Anders, and they go on the run together (of course there’s a kid too, because I am weak.) I’m not sure on the plot yet, but Hawke is going to stay in the Fade and Anders is going to show up with his kid. Isabela is going to show up with Fenris and Merrill, bringing along elves/mages/tranquil to Skyhold, Karl among them. Fenris knew how important Karl was to Anders and kept special watch on him. The Inquisition is going to stumble upon Justice in their travels, and he is going to be the spirit that comes to help reverse the Tranquility that he sees as unjust. They bring Karl back, and somewhere along the line they all get together, three dads and a baby, idek i’m tired and this got weird when i tried to explain it. 

7. OK SO sentinel au of #6. I’m going to have to go back and find all the convos I had because I worked mages and Keepers and Wardens and allll this into it. But basically Anders would be a Sentinel, and Karl was his Guide. This kind of gave me a freeform a/o thing without it really being a/o, but Karl gets Anders knocked up and they have to escape and Anders does... fast forward to single dad Anders in the sewers of Kirkwall. Storyline is a bit similar to the above, but Fenris becomes Anders’ guide because Karl can’t be the grounding force he was before the Tranquility. And of course Anders’ spirit guide is Justice, who he bonds with as a child in the Circle. Like... I want to smoosh these two ideas together.. but then there’s enough that’s different that I don’t. GAH. 

8. MY. CAT. OC. @calligraphypenn I DID NOT FORGET THIS. IT IS SITTING IN A DOC. Fen is literally outside of Anders’ clinic asking what tf to do with a cat that has shown up in his mansion, and it will be finished at some point. 

9.  A V HAPPY FENDERS FOR @earlgreyer1 FOR THE TBAA GIVEAWAY. IT’S BEEN SITTING IN A DOC BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN HAVING THE HARDEST TIME TRYING TO WRITE FLUFF BECAUSE LIFE HASN’T BEEN VERY FLUFFY LATELY AND I’M SO SORRY. THIS MAY BE #9 ON THIS LIST BUT IT IS LITERALLY THE NEXT FIC I’M GOING TO FINISH I SWEAR. 

10. I.. there’s so much more than 10. I have a few prompts in my inbox. I have a podfic for @ezialamperogue in progress. I have the Pern AU, Anders as the Black Divine AU, Twilight AU, the Glowdads prompts, my comment fest, glow bang FAQ list, working on getting an apartment, and other RL things. Just.. well, these are the things I’m working on and feel free to pester me about any or all of them because I NEED TO GET THEM MOVING. 

I’m not tagging anyone because I’ve seen most people that I would tag already get tagged, but feel free to use me as your tagger because I would love to see what y’all are working on too.

[camillemontespan]

Apparently it's @sirbeepsalot birthday?! Date unknown

You kept this quiet but muahahah I found out anyway! So in honour of your birthday, here is a special list:

Lily Olivia Walker was born on Friday 5th September

Olivia is Lily's godmother

Lily is obsessed with Olivia

I mean OBSESSED

While others see an intimating woman who doesn't smile and who wears six inch stilettos and leather trousers, Lily sees her idol

What Olivia likes, Lily likes

Favorite colour? Red. Favourite TV show? Sex and the City.

Peppa Pig used to be Lily's favourite show until Olivia introduced her to SATC..

Not appropriate no

But it was fun corrupting such an innocent mind

Plus it's funny watching Lily pretend to be Carrie Bradshaw

And it's even funnier watching Drake's face turn purple as he watches his daughter run around in heels that don't fit her, screaming that she needs to have a cosmopolitan LIKE NOW PLEASE and OMG AIDAN ASKED ME OUT FOR DINNER

Olivia isn't a child person but she adores Lily

She won't admit it though

Instead she shows it through calling Lily 'babe', asking her about her playgroup boyfriend Milo and letting Lily hug her for longer than five seconds

Olivia actually likes Lily hugs

Lily's so soft

Olivia bought her a little girly handbag for Christmas so Lily could pretend to be a girl about town with her handbag and toy mobile phone (Leo bought her the toy mobile phone)

Leo and Olivia are long term

They get married when Lily is five after six years together

Leo wore Liv down about marriage

I know right

Wtf Leo

Leo is an ex-manwhore and only Olivia was able to tame him

He adores Olivia

But they don't want kids

Being the cool godmother and unofficial uncle is enough for them

Leo helps Lily find leaves to give to Milo

Means Olivia doesn't have to get her hands dirty

Olivia helped Lily get over her fear of the dark

Drake and Camille tried so hard to help banish that fear but no, it was Olivia who managed it

Lily wanted to bring in Olivia's favourite dagger as part of a class Show and Tell

Olivia was up for it

Drake was NOT

Instead, Lily brought in Olivia for Show and Tell

'This is my aunt Olivia and she is really really cool'

Drake wondered if it was right to use a person as a show and tell subject

Olivia simply shrugged and enjoyed basking in the limelight

When Lily is older, she goes to Olivia for chats about boys

Olivia tells her that no boy is worth having a broken heart over

Leo and Olivia had a bet on to see when Milo would finally ask out Lily when the two kids became teens

Olivia genuinely believed Milo never would because he was a terrified little mouse

Leo thought Milo just needed a little push

Olivia secretly enjoys baby sitting Lily

She found it odd at first to have a little shadow

But when Lily went home, Olivia missed her

Lily would have juice in a wine glass because Olivia always had wine in a wine glass

Lily loves to be girly and decadent, Olivia simply teaches her how to be refined about it

Drake doesn't understand his daughter's obsession with Olivia

Olivia 'jokes' that Lily was lucky to inherit Camille's looks, not Drake's

'Are you sure she's really yours, Walker?'

Drake and Liv have a weird friendship

Lots of trolling

Lily insists on sitting beside Olivia at dinner parties

She wants Olivia to take part in a tea party but Olivia will make up an excuse

Not because she doesn't want to

Because Olivia never played tea parties growing up

So Olivia doesn't know what to do

But Lily is slowly wearing her down

'You can wear the red glittery tiara!'

Olivia will do actually do anything for that little girl (tea parties pending)

Lily wants to be Olivia when she grows up

@jovialyouthmusic @moonlightgem7 @fromthedeskofpaisleybleakmore @pug-bitch @ibldw-main @burnsoslow @emceesynonymroll @rainbowsinthestorm @of-course-i-went-to-hartfeld @emichelle @dcbbw @notoriouscs