#look at meeee im soooooo tired i cant do coherant thoughts

[squarebracketsmileyface]

hi! i don’t know if you still take asks about “sorry it’s locked”—utterly gut-wrenching story by the way, excellent work—but the song that’s perfect for the jaylex in that story is “new years eve” by mal blum. especially that ending!

Definitely still taking asks about that fic (it's the reason i'm taking ages to get to my asks rn, because i've been desperately writing it trying to hit the schedule i gave myself for it lol)

this is an absolute mess of a yell about this song so just, you have been warned. do not expect coherency or anything like

this fucking song tho. it's so the entirety of Jaylex's relationship. it's like jay talking about it each year, kinda recapping how its going and how it's failed until FINALLY he gets over Alex right at the end and doesn't like him anymore. like, the lines about the singer (i guess? the main character of the song???) not liking the outfit they're wearing, and then them not really caring about it is very jay about alex to me. he just cared too much what alex thought idk

"I got out alive" too? Jay got out of uni alive (whereas some of his friends possibly didn't -sarah-seth- etc) he got out of chapter 1 of sorry it's locked alive (cos alex had an operator moment and almost strangled him to death) and oooooooo look jay's gonna get out of marble hornets as a whole aliv- oh wait, never mind

just rarararararrararararara this is so jaylex you're so right i love it. also these lines. yes yes yes. jay is in fact in his car. except he's not writing he's filming himself talking to the camera

Writing in my car And this time I can't pretend that we are friends We're not friends Friends don't do the things we did

(i'm convinced that in the sorry its locked universe he has so much footage of himself talking about alex and ranting and getting upset about it and all that, and he can never every post it. he'd die if it got posted because its all SO personal)

AND THE "are you lying in her bed" is jay feeling shit after being 'dumped' for Amy. (god i cant wait to write more about this)

raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this song