#look I do hope I'm wrong about the beach scene

[meidiary]

( ♡ ) WHEN THEY'RE JEALOUS .. !!

synopsis : ur wbk favs get a little too annoyed because of the bold guy next to you

starring : sakura haruka, suo hayato, nirei akihiko, kiryu mitsuki & kaji ren

mei's note : eeehhh!! first time writing for wb.. i absolutely adore all the wb content on here && I wanted to contribute a bit- so that's what brings us here.. hope you enjoy! this layout was inspired by the lovely @stunie & @kaiser1ns ♡

SAKURA HARUKA

nicknames / f!reader

"baby~ need me to put some sunscreen on your back?" you grab the sunscreen spray and get up on your knees. you giggle as you see a faint blush on your boyfriend's face. "don't need any sunscreen," sakura mumbles, avoiding any eye contact with you.

you wrap your arms around his neck from the back, leaning down before brushing his ear with your lips. "nuh-uh, you do need it.."

"close your eyes, okay?"

he grumbles a bit before obliging and allowing himself to melt in your embrace.

the first spray was cold, albeit the warm weather, it still gave sakura the chills. but he forgets about the cold sensation once he feels your soft hands, massaging the sunscreen onto his skin. your fingers slowly gliding from his shoulders to his upper back.

sakura almost missed the cold feeling of the second spray because he was too focused on how warm your hands felt om him. your hands gently making their way to his lower back.

then the third spray- your fingers suddenly stop moving. his eyes jump open, his eyebrows are up in confusion, where did the warn sensation of your touch go? he looks to the back to see you waving to a group of people on the other side of the beach.

"haru', i'm gonna go say hello to some old friends! give me a minute or two, and I'll be back, yeah?" you tell him all giddy before heading to your old friend group.

a huff leaves sakura's lips, just a tad bit annoyed some randoms stole your attention. he meticulously follows you with his eyes as you make your way to the group. sakura internally scolds himself for not telling you to wear something on top of your little two piece bikini. don't get him wrong! he thinks you look gorgeous, stunning even! but now he has to restrain himself from going over there and punching the guy who's been undressing you with his eyes the second you greeted the group.

his teeth are clenched, the veins in his neck are popped while he struggles to stay put and not make a scene. sakura knows you don't like it when he starts a fight, that's why he's using up all the patience he has to prevent himself from beating the guy. if it were up to him, he would've started a fight the moment that weirdo started smiling at you like that! who does he think he is? does he really think he stands a chance with someone like you? funny.

sakura doesn't even know what you see in him, but there's absolutely no way he's going to stand by while some sicko is flirting with his girlfriend!

as if on cue, you bump into sakura the moment he started agigatedly stomping your direction. "eh? you miss me already?" a giggle leaves your mouth as you wrap your arms around your boyfriend's neck. "I didn't know you needed me around so badly!" another silly joke of yours flew right past sakura, his attention still being at your former friend group.

"hey..! what're you looking at?" your head spins to the same direction sakura's looking at before you notice he's glaring at your old friend. after a while the realization hit; your tsundere boyfriend was jealous! ah, lovely, another thing to tease him about!

"baby~ are you jealous I was talking to him?" you laugh, turning his head to face you.

"w-what?! of course not! w-what are you on, you weirdo!" he stumbles backward a bit before gaining his balance again, your arms now detached from his neck. sakura continues to mumble, "he- he should just stop lookin' at you like that.." your raise your eyebrows as you see a blush creeps up on his face.

you bite the inside of your lip, trying your hardest to keep yourself from smiling. "like what haru'? hm?"

"you know what I mean."

you reconnect your hands with his neck, tilting your head to the side. "no~ I don't!"

"[ ♡ ]!" your first name rolls off of his tongue so smoothly, reminding him not everyone can call you that. not everyone could stand as close to you as he is standing right now. not everyone could feel your hot breath on their skin as your fingertips slowly caress their neck. and even if they could, he wouldn't let them. you're his and his only.

"like you're his girlfriend, cause you're not! he should know his damn place.." sakura sighs before hiding his face in the crook of your neck, hesitantly wrapping his arms around your waist. "y-you're mine. just- just don't forget that.."

you gulp as you stand in the middle of the beach, completely enveloped by your boyfriend, not able to move an inch because of the way he's holding you. you receive glances from passers-by but you don't care enough right now. he called you his, it felt as though you could've squealed when he uttered those 3 words.

but truth be told, you are most definitely his, and his only.

SUO HAYATO

if you squint your eyes -> a bitttt of yandere!suo at the end / nicknames / reader wears dresses !

"but- it looked so cute!" you protest, your eyebrows furrowed as you look at your boyfriend rolling his eyes playfully.

"hey now, I thought i already told you that it definitely carries like atleast 10 diseases," suo glances at you, noticing your lips were still pouted, "look, if you had touched it, you'd probably have ended up in a hospital, we don't want that now, do we pretty?" suo lets out a chuckle.

you slightly shake your head before intertwining your fingers with his.

he lets out a quiet sigh before admitting, "it did look cute, though.." you giggle at your boyfriend's statement, your giggles mixing with his chuckle.

suddenly, you hear a small thud, which makes you swiftly turn your head to the side at the sound of something falling.

"ah! su', gimme a minute, stay here with the bags please!" you let go of his hand as you make your way to the guy who had dropped some boxes. you get down and start helping him put the items back in the boxes. "h-hey, thanks for helping out!" the guy spills out before he continues grabbing his stuff, his hand accidentally touching yours as you both go to grab the water bottle. awkwardly laughing it off, you two finish up refilling the box.

little do you know on the other side of the street suo drops the shopping bags he was holding for you, he doesn't care less what could happen to those pretty pink bags filled with cute dresses you tried on earlier in the shops, which you decided were essential additions to your already filled to the brim closet. if the bags would end up stolen, suo would buy you new ones anyway. so they weren't that important right now.

not when some guy was gushing at his girlfriend. not when that same stranger had touched your hand, which only he was allowed to do. and oh, definitely not when he had the courage to shove his phone in your pretty hands, waiting for you to put your number in.

"[ ♡ ]," suo calls out your name as he reaches you. "we should go, sweetheart, we told the others we'd be at kotoha's in 10," he forces a smile before taking the guy's phone out of your hand and pointing it towards him. "yours?" cold, that was the only way to describe your boyfriend, whose smile had disappeared into thin air, tone.

the guy who you were so innocently helping earlier, started awkwardly thanking the both of you before hastily making his way to his car.

"ah, su'! my bags!" you sprint to the shopping bags on the other side of the street, worriedly checking if all the items were still inside. "everything's still inside?" your boyfriend's smile was showing again.

you nod as he grabs the bags in one hand and locks his other hand with yours. this time with a tighter grip, the last thing he'll allow is for you to stray from him again.

"stay close to me now, alright pretty? don't let go of my hand."

and you could've sworn you saw him clench his jaw before relaxing it and sending you his signature smile again. "love you."

NIREI AKIHIKO

no warnings, just nirei being adorable

how did nirei even get himself into this situation? no, but really, how? it was a perfect day; sunny weather with clouds nowhere in sight, nirei was hanging out with the people he loved being around, his friends, and of course, you! yet somehow, he finds himself in the bookstore, ignoring his friends' stories.

he isn't purposely ignoring them! it's just hard to listen to them when his, his girlfriend is being hit on by the employee.

you were talking him about how badly you wanted to read this book. it was of a psychological genre, and when you explained the story premise to your boyfriend, he got totally spooked by it! but when you two and your friends got to the store, you couldn't find it at all..

you were searching for an employee to help you find it as your earlier attempt with nirei and the others weren't really successful.

but, oh, the regret nirei's feeling right now about letting you go off on your own to find someone to help is absolutely tearing him apart! he doesn't want to seem like the possessive type by waltzing over there and snaking an arm around you, but he can't stand witnessing one more second of that guy flirting with you!

"hmm, what're you gonna do now, huh nirei?" suo teases the blond, elbowing kiryu to witness nirei's predicament.

"hah? you gonna let 'em take your girl, eh nirei?" kiryu chuckles, playfully pushing his shoulder.

nirei shakes his head before sending yet another glare at the employee. he was an older man, way too old to even think about flirting with you. what's worse is that you were completely oblivious to the situation, you probably just thought he was being friendly!

that's it. with that thought flowing in nirei's brain he makes his way to you.

"h-hey! you find the book yet, sweetheart?"

nirei usually sticks to calling you by your name or nickname, occasionally even calling you baby. but never had he called you sweetheart before. so that was what caught your attention.

"yes, darling, I have!" you giggle as you decide to play along this game of his, oblivious to the way your boyfriend's staring at the older man, waiting for him to get the hint and back off.

"well.. I'll be going then.." the employee abruptly leaves, after rolling his eyes at you two.

nirei's knot in his stomach finally seems to loosen as he intertwines his fingers with yours. "glad you found it," your blond boyfriend sends you a cheeky smile.

"thank you, sweetheart!"

"SWEETHEART?!" tsugeura yells out, fake-fainting into kiryu's arms. the pink-haired individual struggling with keeping tsugeura on his feet. "y-yo, you're 'bout to make me trip!"

suo smiles widely, one of his hands on nirei's shoulder. "my, my, you've progressed a lot in the past 5 minutes, haven't you? you even got sakura blushing like crazy.."

"hey shut up!" sakura hides his face behind the book he was holding, pretending he was checking it out. mind you, it was upside down..

oh my, nirei is going to be teased about this for the rest of the year. but honestly, he'd do it all again to see your pretty smile again. your laughing mixing in with all the ruckus the guys are making brings another genuine smile to nirei's face.

this was his happy place, right here with you.

(just look at him omg... i-)

KIRYU MITSUKI

nicknames

"ah! mitsuki, look at this top, isn't it adorable?!" completely in love with the clothing piece, you show it to your boyfriend, waiting for his opinion on it.

"mhm, it'd look so pretty on you. and it'd fit with your new shoes!" kiryu adds, slightly wiggling his eyebrows up and down to convince you the top is a must-have! "come on~, tried it on for me."

kiryu locks his hands with yours before pulling you along with him to the dressing rooms.

you hand your boyfriend your handbag and jacket before picking out where you'll try the top on. "I'll be quick, kay?" you tell him, earning a smiley nod from him.

after some time, kiryu sees your hand coming out of the dressing room, signing to him to come in. chuckling, he goes into the small space.

"baby, look how small it is! 's like a baby size.." you mumble, still trying to adjust the top.

the back of your top gets adjusted by kiryu before he shakes his head, "baby-, I'll just go grab another size for you. this size could actually be a baby's size.." you giggle as you nod, planting a quick kiss on his cheek before letting him go look for a different size.

kiryu searches at the original spot, but he doesn't seem to find the other sizes. after a long while of searching and asking the employees, going through 3 floors searching for the top, and then suddenly remembering there's a fourth floor, kiryu finally finds the infamous top.

this piece of fabric better be the best clothing piece ever.

with the top in his, your boyfriend makes his way back to you, eager to see you wearing the right size this time.

he turns the corner to get to the dressing rooms when he hears your voice. you're sitting on the couch, talking to some guy. that isn't a bad thing, it really isn't! what is, though, is the fact that the guy was giving you heavy heart eyes as he grabbed your phone to add his number. like yes, you're pretty, gorgeous, stunning, but you're taken, so no, thank you!

"h-hey.. maybe we should y'know go there togeth-"

"hey, princess, I found your top," kiryu walts over to the sofa, standing in front of the two of you. his smile disappears almost immediately once he shifts his gaze to the man next to you. "and you are?"

you widen your eyes a bit at your boyfriend's sharp tone. "baby-," you mumble

kiryu's fixed stare started to make him feel fiddly as he starts awkwardly laughing. "h-hey man, didn't know she was taken.. was just hitting up a pretty girl, right?" he chuckles before standing up.

"mhm, next time, don't hit on my pretty girl, yeah?"

another awkward laugh flows out of the man's mouth as he leaves the dressing rooms.

"mitsuki-"

"don't even get me started," kiryu hands you the top. he motions for you to try I on before plopping on the couch again, still annoyed at the individual trying to get with his pretty girlfriend.

but all that pent-up annoyance and frustration suddenly goes right out the window when he sees you walking out of the fitting room. wow, you look incredible.

the way the top hugs your figure so elegantly yet somehow still remains a casual vibe, surprises him.

"baby? what do you think?"

"you look so pretty, princess.." kiryu wraps his arms around your waist before pulling you closer to him. "you always do."

kiryu's bank account might be experiencing an existential crisis because of all the items he bought you, but he couldn't care less when he sees you smile like that.

KAJI REN

teenie tiny bit of swearing / reader's wearing a skirt

where is that damn soda of yours?! kaji's been roaming the grocery store, searching for another soda for you because you were all "baby, they're buy 1 get 1 free!". and how could he tell you he wasn't in the mood to go to the back of the store to get it for you when you were puppy-eyeing him.

damn you. (he loves you)

if kusumi were there with him, kaji just knows he'd be poking fun at him, calling him a simp again.

finally, he found the bottled soda! he angrily grabbed it, making his way back to you, who stayed in line, waiting for your turn at the cash register.

kaji moves past families with full carts, jumps over children playing on the ground, and almost knocks over a fabric softener stand.

reaching the line at the register, he hears your laugh and follows it past the others in line to get to you. wait, who were you laughing at? as he stands behind you, you turn around to greet him.

"baby! this is kai, he was telling me all about some trivia about fruits!" you giggle, waiting for ren to greet the man in front of you, who had reached out his hand to him.

your boyfriend only stares at him before the man retrieves his hand, uncomfortably running it through his hair before letting out a forced chuckle.

you smile awkwardly, turning your head a little to kaji's side. "ren. be nice," you warn with a smile still on your face.

"anyway, did you know figs aren't fruits! they're inverted flowers, isn't that crazy?" you start rambling, hoping to dissipate the awkward situation. you were completely amazed at what the stranger told you. unbeknownst to you though, kaji was fuming, he was humming at your rambles whilst scowling at the man in front of you.

you should've seen how the stranger was looking at you before kaji stood next to you! his toothy smile, flirtatious glances, the man even playfully touched your shoulder. but you, of course, being the clueless person you are, thought he was just being friendly!

as you ended your newly learned trivia about fruits, you saw the man grabbing his stuff and hastily walking off.

"y-yeah well, was nice to meet you too.. bye.." the guy turns around, not even sparing you another glance.

kaji rolls his eyes as you too load up your groceries in a bag and start heading out.

"baby, you were so rude!" you state while taking a sip from your soda, and then offering it to him. "the guy was just being nice.."

grabbing the sods, kaji lets out a scoff. unamused with your cluelessness. "the guy was trying to get in your pants," kaji's eyes shot down, only to see you were wearing a skirt. "..uh skirt, whatever, you know what I'm getting at..!"

"ren, you're exaggerating so much it's starting to give me a headache!" you joke, locking your arm with his.

another sigh leaves kaji's mouth. "baby, why else would a guy randomly tell a pretty girl some shitty trivia in a grocery store if not to get close to you?!"

a moment of silence lingers between the two of you before you look back at your boyfriend. "... you think I'm pretty?" you deadpan, holding in your laugh as you see kaji literally breaking.

"I should've let him have you-" as your boyfriend hears your giggles a tiny smile creeps up his face.

"love you too, rennie."

his arm slings around your waist and holds you even tighter to him than usual.

kusumi's right, he definitely is a simp.

[reshinless]

Hiii, it's me again, I'm here to ask abt kinich- anyways, Reader is kind of insecure and self conscious and she's dating kinich, and she sees how good mualani is to kinich and starts to ask herself if she should actually be with him (+I would appreciate it you somehow turn this into smut because I'm a dog for him🤭)

NSFW CONTENT AHEAD UTC.

you knew kinich was close with her too, but you couldn't help but feel like you weren't as good as she was.

you saw the way she looked at him, what were you supposed to do? you knew she'd never pursue someone in a relationship but she always asked about your relationship with kinich.. was she hoping you'd break up?

well i'll be glad to answer that no she does not! but ill explain more later.

you continued to feel like you weren't a good partner, therefore distancing yourself from the man you fell in love with.

maybe he was better off with her. or at least so you thought. you see, mualanj was giving him advice on how to treat you, she always smiled whenever her and kinich spoke about it.. because.. well.. it was funny to her how he doesn't know how to talk to you.

you have barely had your first kiss with him, and he's never had anyone else like you before.. so he had to ask a professional (mualani plus her 0 relationship experience advice)

"just remember to make them feel at home! you notice if they've been sad or anything recently?" mualani puts up her surfboard up on a tree, sitting on the soft grains of sand on the beach.

"i.. feel like they've been running away from me.. did i do anything wrong?"

mualani realized immediately why you'd distance yourself; you were jealous. kinich has a dense sense for romance, so he wouldn't notice immediately unless.. well professional couplw therapist mualani ensures it doesn't happen again!

once kinich realizes what he's done, he goes to find you as soon as possible. not even hearing out more of mualani's words. she was sure you both would figure it out anyway.

but trust me kinich is quick on his feet to tell you how you're everything to him.

when you tell him you didn't believe him.. well i guess he just had to show you.

kinich who learned a few things from the books mualani threw at him, she didn't realize one of them was basically sex in a book, as he read on, he wanted to try out a specific scene.

laid out in front of him, taking his gloves off carefully tossing them to the side. prepping your hole for him to treat you good. your wetness already all over his fingers as he added another digit progressively.

he who hums into your ear, hearing how well you whimpered, and whined out his name. he could only praise you for how good you took him.

your cunt sucked him inside so well, the sounds of pleasure echoed throughout the hallway in the gap of the unlocked door.

your walls started to tighten around his cock, but that wouldn't stop him from penetrating you. he'd make sure by tonight that no one other than you could make him cum.

kinich who likes to put you into a mating press, your legs held high above your head, he slaps the soft skin of your ass, before laying a kiss onto your wet cunt, mixed with cum of your own and his.

kinich will make sure you know that he loves you more than anyone else. and he wants you to do the same (not that you weren't already doing that.)

but when its all over, his words are sweet, learning a thing or two from whatever mualani discussed with him. clearing the air on why he had been talking to mualani more recently.

he just meant to ask her about advice on what to get you for your next anniversary 🩵

[homelanderbutbig]

I Love You Too (G/T Homelander x Reader)

2248 words. Pure fluff. Homelander is 8 feet tall. Reader is non-descriptive. Beginnings of a relationship.

When you and Homelander officially became a couple.

Homelander has had this event burned into his brain, how exactly he wanted it to go. It would be like a scene straight out of the movies. You would be whisked away to a secluded beach by a horse-drawn carriage, where a private band would be playing your favourite song. You would walk along the rose petal covered sand to his waiting arms, where he would confess his love for you. You would return his feelings, and ask him to be your boyfriend. Of course he would graciously say yes, as if this wasn't all a part of his master plan. Lastly, you would kiss him as doves fly above your heads, and the starry sky is filled with fireworks.

He's been plotting like a madman all week, doing his damndest to set this up. A fairytale beginning to a relationship with you, as is befitting of a man of his impeccable standards.

And yet, just like everything else in his life, nothing ever goes as he plans. The people he's placed his faith in to get this together for him are not living up to his expectations. He's spending more and more time trying to fix their mistakes, to the point where it's consuming his every waking thought. Every failure keeps eating away at his resolution, to the point where he doesn't know if he should even go through with it anymore. If it isn't perfect, would you even accept his passionate admissions?

He's been avoiding you all day. It's a reality that's pretty hard to miss, considering he's the tallest man you've ever known. As the face of Vought's superhero team, the absence of his presence is odd. Or at least, it's odd that he seems to solely be eluding you. You happened to ask some of your co-workers who confirmed that Homelander was in fact in the Tower today, only furthering your suspicions. At least something serious didn't happen to him, but it doesn't make you worry any less that something's wrong.

When your shift ends in the evening, you do as you normally would and take the elevator up to his penthouse. You weren't certain that he would be there, but you're relieved to see him sitting on his couch in the living room. Regardless, he isn't his normal cheery self. He is a bundle of nerves taken the form of a man; his body language is so tense it's almost as if he hopes you'll leave by ignoring you. But you aren't that easy to deter.

"Hey Homelander, I didn't see you today. I was worried," you remark while you hop up onto the couch, taking your seat on the cushion next to him. He still won't acknowledge you, instead looking down at his fidgeting thumbs. His eyes are red and puffy; evidently he's been crying alone, only furthering your concern that there's something significant bothering him.

"You look like you have something on your mind," you say, tilting your head up at him. You place a hand on his thigh, as is customary when you need to coax the worries out of him. "It must be pretty important if you didn't want to talk to me about it. You know you can tell me anything, I won't judge you."

"I-I…" he starts, but quickly cuts himself off. His breathing stutters as he attempts to steady his composure. This was not how he wanted this moment to happen, with him grovelling at your feet and you holding the power over him. He is the world's strongest supe; he is the one who should be in control, not you, a measly human.

"I'm here for you, take your time," you reassure him, grasping his index and middle finger with your hand. Those two big fingers are all that will fit in your palm, but you still squeeze with all your might, making sure that he feels your encouragement.

Glancing down at you, Homelander feels a small spark setting his heart aflame. Your eyes, shining so brightly, remind him of why he's even in this current position. Why he's been fretting in secret all week. That boost of confidence has returned, as it initially did when he first wanted to even plan all this.

This is his only chance.

"I… I-I… I l-love you…" he finally blurts out, immediately shutting his eyes tight as the weight of his words hits him like a ton of bricks. The regret is instantaneous, his self-consciousness wasting no time at eating away his bravado. He can't believe he actually said it. He's just exposed the only weakness an invincible supe like him has, his desire for your acceptance.

The silence in the penthouse is deafening. And to make matters worse, you haven't said 'I love you' back. You aren't saying anything. Why aren't you saying anything? All he wants right now is to get up and fly away, far far away, but he can't. He can't do anything but sit and let his anxiety overtake his body, freezing him solid.

This was not the problem you were expecting was plaguing Homelander's mind. He got himself this worked up… over you? But then you start to really think about it. How close you've gotten to him over these last few weeks, and how your friendship has blossomed into something much more. He makes you happy by just grinning down at you when you visit him. It brightens up your day talking to him, seeing his canines poke out when he smiles, and hearing his heartfelt laughs as he listens to your every word. You can't help but think about him even when he's gone. The way that, despite your immense height difference, you've never felt more in sync with anyone like you do with him. It's as if he completes you, and makes you whole. He fills a part of you that's always felt empty.

You know you feel the same way he does. You know what you have to do.

Carefully, you maneuver yourself to kneel on top of his lap so your face is directly in front of his, completely catching him off-guard. He wasn't expecting this sudden seizure of control from you, but he raises his large hands to your back to keep you from falling off. At least now he's mentally back down to earth, focusing on your every move.

You are so close that you can see the worry etched into every nook and cranny of his face. His blue eyes are wide and twitching subtly, his eyebrows are pinched together stiffly, and his lips are quivering from what he's hoping will happen next.

"I… I love you too", you state matter-of-factly, unable to hide your smile at how his childlike innocence is peering straight back at you. At how nonchalantly you've shaken him straight to his core with four simple words.

And with your final devious chess move, you lean forward to kiss him.

You expected this to be a short and sweet smooch to affirm the beginning of your relationship. However, the second Homelander feels your lips he cannot help but push for more, so desperate for your affection. He's nearly moaning from the flood of intense emotions churning inside him, the bubble irrevocably bursting from the moment that he's been waiting for all night. You love him too, how can he not react so strongly? His kiss is forceful, almost like he's trying to smother you with his love, just so there's nothing else you'll ever think about but him.

You struggle to articulate even a basic sentence against his mouth, desperately swatting at his chest to get his attention. You lack the strength to hurt him, but luckily he still notices your light thumps against his suit and reluctantly pulls back.

Your face is flushed and breathing haggard, having been left flustered from how you were unable to fight against him proving his devotion. Not only are his lips twice the size of yours, but you also couldn't back away with his immovable hands keeping you in place. Just another little reminder of the disparity between Homelander and the rest of humanity; you truly are utterly powerless compared to the eight foot tall indestructible superhero you're currently seated on.

His jaw becomes rigid as he stares at your expression, until he looks away when he can no longer take in the fear he perceives. Tears are once again welling up in his eyes, his ears are ringing loudly, and his heart is freefalling down into the pit of his stomach. He's fucked up. He's ruined the moment. He's shown you the monster that lurks within himself, the one that can never be satiated.

But despite it all, despite his inner turmoil, despite the voices in his head telling him your relationship is over before it even got started… he feels you place a hand on his cheek.

Your demeanour is the opposite of Homelander's. What you see in front of you is a man fighting to keep the tears from falling, so broken from a deficiency of love. A man who could never stop those he cherished from abandoning him when he gave them his heart on a silver platter. What he sees in front of him is the only person in the world who cares enough to stay.

"It's okay, I'm not going anywhere. That kiss was… was just a bit too much for me," you explain sympathetically, using your fingers to wipe away the tears that dare stain his beautiful face. You can sense the tension ease ever so slightly with each touch to his cheeks as he revels in the feeling of your soft skin. He can't say he's felt someone touch him so sweetly like that in a long time.

"Do you wanna kiss me again?" you ask, repositioning both of your hands to stroke along his jawline. Always chasing after your affections, he leans closer towards you and gives a very hesitant nod, apprehensively swallowing hard from the thought of what he should be anticipating.

"Let's do it more like this," you whisper as you move forward to kiss him. This time you take the lead, purposefully going slow and delicate. He follows your pace instantly, eyes fluttering closed while he sinks into your lips like you hold all the power in the universe.

Homelander's never been kissed like this before, without a proverbial carrot being dangled in his front of his face. Whenever there's a scrap of romance on the line he always must face a thousand trials, go through a series of tests that he must pass without any errors lest it be withheld from him. But not now. Your kiss provides him with the love and care he's fought his whole life for, the tenderness he's always dreamed of experiencing. And you are reciprocating his wants, his needs right back.

Lifting your hands up to his hair you start combing through his undercut, giving him the little scratches that you know make him feel good. A whimper builds from deep in his throat as you run your nails along his scalp, and it doesn't take long for his whines to evolve into flat-out purring.

Eventually, he breaks the kiss to bury his head into the crook of your neck, savouring the way you scratch his hair. His deep voice rumbles through your body as he nuzzles himself further into you, emitting content hums while he melts into your warmth. If there's a heaven, Homelander thinks he's found it.

He wraps his arms around your back, spreading his fingers along your shoulders as he pulls you closer. He embraces you firmly, but not enough that you feel immobile. He's learned his lesson not to make you feel like you can't escape from his grasp, he wants you to be comfortable with him.

"You know, you don't need to do some grand display to show me that you love me," you comment softly. "You do it every day, just by being yourself. And that's enough. You will always be enough."

Your words are like honey to his ears, almost enough to make him start crying again. When he's with you, he feels a level of trust that he can't put into words. You understand him better than anyone else ever could. He's safe with you, as you are with him.

"I-I… love… you," he mumbles quietly, still having a bit of trouble getting that sentence out. It's been such a long time since he's said that, and truly meant it.

"I love you too," you chuckle, kissing the top of his head.

"I… love you," he replies, feeling confidence build up within himself once more. This phrase is starting to not be so hard to say, each time you say it back.

"I love you too," you respond, beaming when you sense a shy grin forming on your shoulder.

The two of you repeat this back and forth for a while, until your words blend together into one, and you fall asleep in each other's arms. This might not have been the way Homelander wanted this evening to go, but somehow… it feels right. In its own special way, it turned out better than he could have ever imagined. Because despite the tears and anxiety, from this moment on, he no longer has to cast his love out to an neverending abyss of hate. Now, he has someone to answer his call.

He has you.

[coff33andb00ks]

After You - CL

Hopeless, The Epilogue {1 - Hopeless} {2 - Luxury} {3 - Poison} {4 - Burning} [[masterlist]]

summary: i could have loved you but you would not let me song: jealous by labyrinth pairing: charles leclerc x ex!reader (with lando norris x reader) warnings: mentions of cheating a.n.: so many people (like, 4?) begged for this scene and I promised it then immediately forgot, my apologies. I would say I hope you enjoy but it's angst, so…

When Lando came to him months ago, Charles had been confused. He looked so serious, so unlike his normal lighthearted self, that Charles had worried something horrible had happened.

"Hey, I um…" Lando had fiddled with the zipper of his jacket, looking nervous and sweaty. And Charles knows something's wrong. "Can we talk?"

Charles hadn't wanted to talk to anyone then. But he'd shrugged and said yes.

"I'm going to therapy." Lando huffed, rubbing the back of his neck. "And there are apparently things I have to do. Something I have to say."

"Okay?"

Lando took a deep breath. "It's about y/n."

Charles froze. It had been three months but still hearing the name made everything come back as though it had been that morning. "What about her?" he asked carefully, waiting for the usual. What happened? You were so good together. How did you let her get away?

But the words that came out of Lando's mouth were shocking.

"I, um… We… We had an affair."

Charles blinked. "Excuse me?"

"I'm sor…" Lando paused, making it obvious he wasn't really sorry. "We slept together…" He looked down, his voice small.

"You? Slept with y/n?" Charles asked.

Lando nodded. "It went on for months, and—"

"Impossible. She has standards." And he began to laugh. Y/n with Lando? Practically anyone else would be more believable. But Lando? He laughed harder, watching the wariness turn to surprise turn to hurt on Lando's face.

It's been over a year now and Charles is…

Almost happy.

Sort of.

It's Miami weekend and all he can think about is how much you loved Miami. The sunshine and the beaches and the pure Americanness of it all. You should be there, on his arm as he enters the paddock, and he pretends to be okay in front of the cameras.

He tried calling you, but you've still got him blocked. He wanted to let you know that he's getting help, he's taking steps to becoming a better man, but you obviously still don't care.

Standing with Lewis a few moments later, he's chatting about dogs, trying not to think about how depressed Leo had been in those first few months. Trying not to remember his own determination that you'd get over your little outburst and come crawling back to him.

He still thinks it'll happen, but just a little less and less each day.

Lewis's head turns, and Charles pauses when he sees his friend reach to pull down his shades. "Whoa."

Charles turns, wanting to see what caught the man's attention. "Ah, Lando," he says with a shrug, drawing in a breath to continue the conversation.

The crowd of fans and photographers shifts and he sees…

"Is that y/n?" Lewis asks softly.

He can't answer. His breath is lodged in his chest, his heart frozen, and he can only stare. Because it is you. More beautiful than ever. Radiant. You're smiling, and he can't remember ever seeing you this happy.

Next to him, Lewis whistles softly.

Charles's world twists upside down, seeing your hand clasped in Lando's. His eyes are the only thing that can move, darting up and down, drinking in every detail as you and Lando walk towards the McLaren motorhome. Lando leans down, speaking in your ear, and even though he's too far Charles can hear your laughter.

The breeze ruffles your hair and a split second later Lando's fingers are smoothing it back and Charles feels as though he's going to throw up.

"We had an affair. It went on for months."

He finally breathes, a rasping wheeze, and next to him Lewis doesn't say a word.

"Why are you laughing? We did. I'm not sorry for what happened, I'm sorry it happened the way it did—"

He wants to walk over, to confront you, to demand to know if Lando had been lying about the affair.

"I gave up someone that truly loved me, that made me happier than I deserved. Because I wanted us to make it."

"Who?"

"It doesn't matter. H-he won't have anything to do with me now, because I chose you."

But there he is, looking at you as though you're the sun.

"I wanted us to make it too."

"You alright?" Lewis asks quietly, once Lando and you have gone inside. The air around is still buzzing with the news – Charles can hear every word yet none of them. Apparently no one knew about it, judging by the ripples of shock that are still traveling through the paddock.

It hurts to breathe, a void where his heart should be. And he can't answer, because all he can think about is.

I wanted us to make it too.

@driverlando | @trisharee | @leodette | @littlegrapejuice | @manicpixiemom | @mistreader | @mochimommy2002

[kdinjenzen]

Now I'm curious WRT how 'Barbie' didn't hit for you.

I’ll say this first. If you liked the movie, I’m happy for you and I’m not here to tell you to hate the movie. I’m glad you enjoyed it and hope you continue to enjoy it.

That said… this movie was NOT for me and I did not enjoy its story at all. I loved the set design, costume design, the performances, the music, the dedication to creating the world, all that stuff was great.

The plot itself. It felt circular without actually purposefully dealing with the issues it tried to talk about.

The fact that Doctor Barbie, who is trans, is the one who is told to “go seduce Ken by telling him you feel don’t feel pretty” - as if this isn’t something that leads to violence toward trans women in the real world and also why her to be the one who doesn’t feel pretty? Wtf?

The Kens of Barbieland are basically all losers, are grossly incompetent compared to Barbie, treated poorly, and our main Ken (aka Beach Ken) has severe self worth issues… so naturally all the Kens become the villains and are able to overthrow all of Barbieland later on in the movie by doing …. they never explain how. Somehow a world full of, and built by, the most capable women ever are overthrown by like 20 dudes who they treated poorly and who aren’t very smart. Beach Ken’s root problems are only barely resolved and none of it feels meaningful.

Gloria and Sasha, the human characters who work with Barbie to fix Barbieland, are just as much caricatures and tropes as Barbie herself. Sasha, the daughter, is a mean Gen Z who just openly lashes out at Barbie (a stranger), and everyone else who is actually nice to her, for no reason. Gloria is “a sad mom who pretends to be happy” but they never explain why at all, it’s assumed that it’s because “she lives in a patriarchy”, but the only person who’s directly mean to her in the film is… her daughter.

Gloria gives a speech to each Barbie, individually, to snap them out of the Ken’s brainwashing (which like AGAIN how did that happen? It makes no sense at all and just confuses me) - the speeches are not empowering at all, they’re just about how women in the real world suffer a double standard on how to exist and SOMEHOW with all those depressing revelations thrown at them it… restores their self-confidence/self-worth and undoes the brainwashing?

Weird Barbie, whom everyone says is ugly and gross and they have violent “EW!!!” reactions to her face, is played by Kate FUCKING McKinnon. Meanwhile Stereotypical Barbie, while having an ugly cry breakdown about (again) not being pretty anymore, is played by Margot FUCKING Robbie. A fact that the movie points out as “the wrong casting choice to have this scene and cast Margot Robbie as Barbie saying she’s ugly.”

I heard so much about how it was a “queer positive movie” but there’s nothing queer about nor really in the movie. So it got to cling to the rainbow and scream “allyship” and everyone praised it for essentially doing nothing.

Everyone is like… mean? Everything feels so mean and mean spirited. It’s supposed to be very tongue in cheek, very snappy and quick, and everyone has a comeback for every situation but… it just really feels like everyone is just being mean for the sake of being mean and it makes moments where you’re supposed to feel sympathy for any character just drop immediately when they say the rudest shit ever for literally no reason.

They talk about Midge, aka the pregnant woman in the Barbie line, and then say “no don’t look at her anymore, she’s weird and creepy” … which AGAIN feels like that statement undercuts the point of women empowerment that the movie wants you to take away from watching the film?

It tries to balance jokes and seriousness in a way that undercuts the message of “society is kind fucked up and broken” that they’re trying to talk about. The “good guys” are also constantly mistreating other people, the “Barbieland bad guys” became bad by going to the real world and leaning “patriarchy”, the “Real world bad guys” literally do nothing except take up movie time for random gags and really don’t service the plot at all, and as much as it’s like “TAKE THAT MAJOR CORPORATION” at every turn… the movie was fully approved by Warner Bros Discovery AND Mattel… so it’s never actually going to say anything worthwhile about corporate greed and corruption without putting on kiddie gloves to do so.

The only person who I felt true sympathy for, understood their reasoning, and felt they deserved a happy ending was ALLAN, aka Ken’s Best Friend, who is treated equally like shit by basically everyone in the film. Allan points out that Barbieland and the Real World both kinda suck, how life is only just slightly more miserable there after the Ken’s took over, and how he just “wants to run away” and when given the chance does so, only to defend Sasha and Gloria from a bunch of Ken’s single handedly and telling them to “get out while they can”… and then is subsequently brought back to Barbieland by Sasha and Gloria to fix everything and… AGAIN none of this pays off because Allan’s purpose is dropped immediately when they get back to Barbieland. And Allan is played by MICHEAL CERA. I feel like I’m losing my mind at this point.

It feels like the movie wants to talk about the issues women face in all walks of life, but is never able to punch hard enough to make that message matter nor stick. It talks around gender issues, self worth issues, and problems in society without actually saying something real about them. The meanness of all the dialogue makes me really not care about pretty much anyone in the movie because… man I’m just so fucking tired of everything and everyone having to be “mean” in movies to prove a point.

The movie ends with a gynecologist appointment.

I dunno what to tell you. The plot is “not for me” and I didn’t really connect with anything.

The movie just made me sad and disconnected because of how much everyone praised it, saying it “made me proud to be a woman” or “it’s inventive, immaculately crafted and surprising mainstream films in recent memory - a testament to what can be achieved within even the deepest bowels of capitalism.”

And it didn’t feel like that for me at all.

Maybe it’s because of all the “that’s womanhood” talk throughout the movie. Because I’ve had so many women in power give me that speech after I came out as trans only to be abused directly by them in the same way that they said men abused them all while I was still ALSO being abused by the same men who abused them too. So like YIPPEE this fucking SUCKS and it was kinda trauma triggering!!

Maybe it’s because I’ve worked in the entertainment industry for 17+ years and know how stuff like this gets made and how many corporate approvals you need for it to make the “take THAT major corporations and CEOs!” jokes land like a dead fish on the floor. The people they are directly calling out said “yes, this level of joke at the expense of our richness and power is okay” and that’s the ONLY reason any of those moments are in the movie. So it doesn’t even really fucking matter, it’s all manufactured, it’s all there to make you feel like it’s doing something when the people with all the power just allowed it to happen. It’s not a “win” or a “heavy blow to their ego”, they literally don’t care.

So I DUNNO, this movie kinda just made me feel depressed and made me remember how badly I had been treated by people after coming out regardless of that person’s gender. The movie felt mean in a way that was too “on the nose” and real for me but then praised most of the characters for their mean actions or words.

[ruukina]

today marks ffxvi's first anniversary and i'm always so emotional about this game and even moreso now.

i talked about it on my rp blog but this game means a lot to me. it's helped me through grief, through anger, through so many emotions - and it's reminded me to look towards a better, brighter future and that i'm allowed to lean on others for support.

i also platinumed the game finally and finished my second playthrough as a celebration!! the ending destroyed me as always and it always makes me sad after i just finish it but then i remind myself that the signs for a happier future are all in there, and i think thats what the devs intended.

it's ambiguous, but you should hope for the brighter option, because of all clive, the hideaway and us as the player fought for. the world is ours to do as we please and we do have the freedom to choose of course, so no ending is wrong, but it's clear that in order to have a better tomorrow, you should hope and work for a better tomorrow - no matter the agony and suffering we experience.

clive as a character is so important to me, and i can't go into detail how much and what he means to me. one of ff's greatest protagonists for sure. his story and journey hits so close to me, and seeing him save himself makes the journey all the more memorable - and it's why i fully believe he lives at the end. his human will is so strong, that i don't think it would let him die. fate may have intended for him to die on that beach, but clive has fought fate so many times, that i genuinely believe he defies it one last time - a farewell to fate, forever.

the game comes into a full circle - though he lost joshua once again, this time he's not alone to suffer with it. and he finds jill again, just as he did in the beginning of the game. he comes back to her, just like she's wished for, just like he did once before.

clive won't be alone, and he won't ever be. cid was able to save clive from the fate that took benedikta, and in turn clive was able to save himself.

it's why instead of honoring his brother with revenge this time around, he honors him with remembrance. he writes the book in his name, so joshua won't be forgotten.

and that post-credits scene comes full circle with two brothers who love each other living the life that clive and joshua should have lived,

but it's ok now, because both of them sacrificed so much to make it so that people like them can live that peaceful life.

the years will be kinder on this game, we're already seeing the turn around for it a year later, and i fully think it'll be looked at as one of the greater modern ff games.

here's to many more years of celebration for this game!! genuinely one of my favorite games of all time, with a beautiful message. hopefully the pc release gets more eyes on this game and it impacts others the way it impacted me.

[greenqueenhightower]

Hi I think criston and Alicent were at it up to when Viserys was alive. When Aemond lost his eye everyone is like where was criston and theres this whole byplay between criston, Viserys and Alicent prior when Viserys calls her aemma and going to bed. Criston is right next to Alicent. Tbh I think they've been together a a long time romantically and it was consummated at some point. It's all hidden and veiled references on season 1 that probably become clear season 2. Alicent had a crush on criston and you see the look on her face when he tells her about Rhaenyra it's like extra betrayal. I think Alicent is living out her romantic fantasies with criston. Through a historical lens Alicent and Viserys marriage was the norm and often these women took comfort elsewhere. We know it's wrong but that's what happened then. Even age appropriate marriages like between Catherine the great and Peter were unsuccessful. She had affairs and illegitimate kids. So Alicent having an affair with criston is no big deal. I'm wondering though if I'm wrong and they finally consummate it when b and c happens and this is what causes Alicent's guilt. It's not sex based but just the fact she and criston were sneaking off. He was supposed to be on duty and he isnt. It just seems there is a history of them sneaking off together already.

On Whether Alicent and Criston Have Started Sleeping Together Before/During Driftmark:

I also read about the theory that Alicent and Criston had started sleeping together as early as Driftmark, which explains their absence during the fight scene between the children. What's worse, the thought had crossed my mind too the second time I rewatched the show. The whole exchange between Viserys, Alicent, Lord Commander Westerling, and Criston as Viserys goes to bed seems too purposeful to be ignored.

HOWEVER, it still seems implausible to me that they chose this night to sleep together in a different place where they were visitors and guests, staying over to provide consolation for Laena's funeral. What I am saying is that even if they might have already started sleeping together by the time Driftmark happens, it is unlikely that they did so on the night of Aemond's maiming. Even Rhaenyra went away, outside of the palace to seek Daemon so that she could evade the eyes and ears of potential onlookers. If Alicent and Criston had been secretive about their relationship which had become sexual by the time they were visiting Driftmark, I very much doubt that they would risk so much to spend one night together in a foreign place. And especially if they had become lovers at that point (which I hope is not true because it would be too early) it's not as if they could not wait any moment longer and they had to sleep together ASAP.

On the contrary, this is the exact tension we see at Driftmark from Rhaenyra who is constantly looking around for Daemon, watching him from afar, trying to get near him. So, yes, there is more sexual tension and yearning in the air between Rhaenyra and Daemon who have not been together in such a long time and can't bear to be apart for a second longer. And this is why they seek each other out at the beach, forgetting all about conventions, being guests of the Velaryons, and honoring Laena's memory. This kind of yearning I can understand, and it is given such build-up and progression in the episode that it makes sense why they would eventually sleep together.

Now, why would Criston and Alicent do so? In a foreign place? Not knowing who might be watching and listening from whichever corner? Endangering their trysts? Unless Alicent and Criston sneaked away to some remote location to just be by themselves it makes no sense why they would sleep together amidst the Velaryon household. And still, it makes no sense why they would sneak out anyway, since the danger of being seen is real. So, I do not think that on the night of Aemond's maiming Alicent and Criston are sleeping together.

Now, I don't know how the writers will approach the topic of their relationship and if they will reveal by what moment it started becoming physical, but again I find it improbable that Alicent and Criston had a sexual relationship while she was married to Viserys because it was just too risky for her and for him. Unlike Rhaenyra, Alicent and Criston would not evade Viserys' wrath and judgment by Westerosi standards if caught or if there was ever a slight suspicion that their relationship was anything more than that of a Queen of the Realm and her sworn protector.

[softxsuki]

can I have a urgent request please

I'm having a really hard time with my mental health and I really been question living at times but being able to come on your tumblr page when I'm just tired of everything make my whole day better I really love you and your stuff u can always put a smile on my face! (I'm sorry if I'm ranting at this point so I'll just ask now)

can you make gojo with fem reader and their just play fighting like their just saying stupid insults at each other?

like gojo says smt like

gojo "okay u big fly"

and the reader say smt like

reader "Okay u greasy pig"

(I just really want something silly and happy rn to keep my mind off things and I'm so sorry for having you do this since there are so many other people going though a harder time and i understand 100% if you dont wanna write but ill be so grateful if you do anyways have a great day)

please and thank you

Play Fighting With Gojo

Pairing: Gojo x Fem!Reader

Warnings: none?

Genre: Fluff

Post-Type: Headcanons

Word Count: 280

Summary: In which Gojo teases you when you play fight

[A/N: Hi hun, hope this helps you out <3]

Gojo:

When it comes to play fighting, Gojo is a natural at verbally teasing you or annoying you

You know that one scene in season 2 where he says “You crying?” in that teasing tone and that annoying look on his face? That’s literally how he acts with you during your playful banter moments

I can’t picture him actually throwing insults at you even if it was in a joking matter, but he doesn’t mind if you call him an idiot or any other playful insults like that to him–it kinda gets him all excited LOL

Sometimes he even takes things a little more physical with his teasing and play fighting

Days when you’re at the beach or pool together, he’d lift you up and throw you in the water, pouty that you wouldn’t join him in the water so he takes matters into his own hands

When baking together, he’d be annoying and shove some flour in your face, making a huge mess because it just leads into one big food fight–he’s fair though and keeps his infinity off so he’s also getting dirty

“What’s wrong, my little gremlin?” That’s about as close to an insult from him as you’d get, he tries to make you crack a smile when you’re not feeling so great

Gojo thrives on sarcasm and teasing, it’s kinda his way of showing love outside of his clinginess and the times when he drowns you in kisses

So there will be times when you can’t help but just roll your eyes at his actions and comments, but he makes life exciting and he’s always there to cheer you up when you’re having a bad day

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Posted: 11/12/2023

[ipatrichor]

dead boy detectives episode eight thoughts

oh my god we're here... the finale... god i have so many thoughts with this. im gonna try to keep things slightly organized and do a little wrap-up at the end but. we'll see!

moved spoilery stuff under the cut haha. but also technically everything is a spoiler? so it's just all under the read more 👍

first of all... niko my love my heart. i've moved past the shock i'm just sad now... my girl!!! i hate being right sometimes like... god she was so kind and she tried so hard and and. huauaauaghh i don't have the words for this just know im absolutely gutted 😭😭

and crystal... god i love the way they did her memories and i love that she was an asshole, but also she was a neglected kid with parents who didn't even notice when she went missing!! god. it sure does explain some things huh... idk i love the way she reacted, how scared she was of the person she used to be. but ultimately, of course, the only way she can go is forward. the only thing she can do is live with who she used to be and choose who she wants to be going forward, and she won't be doing those things alone

JENNY IM SO GLAD JENNY CAME TO ENGLAND WITH THEM. it sucks that her shop got exploded but also i think it'll be good for her, to get a fresh start somewhere else after the shit she's been through. i'm glad she's staying with the group i care her ^^

monty helping save them... alright man. you're on thin ice but you're at least back on the ice instead of falling right through so. you have earned a little bit of my respect back and im sorry that you were bound to such a shitty witch 👍

ALSO HEY SPEAKING OF EDWIN'S LOVE INTERESTS. can we talk about the gorgeous animation for the cat king's story????? HELLO that was beautiful and so impressive!!! it really transported me into the story being told and it looked so classic disney which made a wonderful juxtaposition with what was happening. i love that so much!!!!!

esther... god what do i say about esther. her acting is phenomenal, she's so well written to be funny and absolutely terrifying, i love her story and i love the way it was resolved. i absolutely LOVE that she wasn't beaten by the gang overpowering her, it was karmic. it was the retribution for the lives she's taken, all the little girls she's killed for her own selfishness, and their retribution comes to claim her. who gets justice for them, indeed

OKAY can i just say. i am absolutely thrilled with how the lilith thing went down i didn't even think they would use the image of her in esther's memories to contact her!!! i hoped she would be involved somehow, would right the wrongs that had been done to those little girls, but i did not expect it to be this amazing!!!! god i love that they put those pieces into the show so early, so we were able to guess that they'd come together and then they DO in such an amazing way!!!

and once again niko saves the day by being genuine and talking to people... god i love her so much. she learned the exact information they needed for this fight episodes ago, by talking to the woman near the beach because she likes talking to people and learning things!!!! niko sasaki the woman that you were.... god the fact that it's were instead of are. im gonna fucking cry

and the ending!!! they aren't on the run anymore it's been recognized that they're doing good so they're allowed to keep doing it and helping people!!!!! GODDD that makes me so happy i love that so much!!!!!!

ALSO I WILL SAY. when the superior didn't give them her name and then said the thing that tragic mick (finally learned his name!) told niko before she died... im not gonna lie my first thought was that she Was niko like somehow after dying she ended up in the afterlife outside of time or whatever. i don't think that's true i think it's just the theme of the show and that's why they said it twice but. for a minute i was like HELLO???

but the very ending scene!!! niko and the sprites? i think? idk im really bad with faces and recognize people through their hair so. did not help that they were dressed sensibly for the weather and their hair wasn't showing haha. BUT STILL. was that her afterlife? why are the sprites there?? what does that scene Mean is there still a chance for her to meet the group again??? please i need answers you can't just leave me hanging about my girl!!!!!! 😭😭

god this whole show has been amazing i'm so glad i watched it... thank you noble for introducing me to dead boy detectives!! i have had such a good time, it's been an emotional rollercoaster and i'm so sad it's over. i'm off to the tumblr search to reblog whatever i find and then it's to ao3 for me, with noble's profile as a starting point and then i'll scour the tags haha. thank you guys for coming along with me on this lovely experience! i'm doing a little wrap-up summary below to end things off

FAVORITE MAIN CHARACTER: god this is so difficult.... it's gotta be niko or charles, but know that i say this with the other two very close behind. they're all fantastic, it's rare that even when i imprint on a character (in this case charles) the others are all so good that it's still hard to pick a clear favorite, with niko even rivalling that imprint

FAVORITE RECURRING SIDE CHARACTER: jenny it's gotta be jenny!! i love her scenes i love her personality she's so fun i love how no-nonsense she is only to consistently be dragged into the Most Nonsense. she's a delight i love her and her proficiency with knives

FAVORITE ONE-OFF CHARACTER: kashi!!! fish guy!! he is such a goddamn delight he is the first character whose name i learned On Purpose instead of through the natural course of the show. i love him he showed up for one episode, performed his role magnificently, and swanned off to implied further fascinating adventures. love that guy

FAVORITE EPISODE: okay surprising no one ever, probably episode seven? i love what it does with the characters, i love the scene of edwin and charles meeting (well worth the wait!), i love all of it

SECOND FAVORITE EPISODE: okay this one has gotta be episode four or the jock one. five maybe? idk im torn between those two bc of the excellent charles characterization and development we get, and i've mentioned before what a soft spot i have both for the scene where he first breaks down and the scene where he and edwin hug. i love them both i cannot choose!!!

FAVORITE LOCATION: this has gotta be the dead boy detective office or maybe the inside of the fish. idk they're very different locations but they both serve their purpose very well and have a lot to offer!! oh wait shit actually i take it back the inside of crystal's mind with the tree. that's absolutely gorgeous and i love it so much

LEAST FAVORITE CHARACTER: daniel. the demon ex sorry i choose not to remember his name <3 he is daniel To Me. anyway they just did a really good job of making him a shitty asshole who also happens to be a powerful demon

FINAL OPINION ON THE CAT KING: uh. i mean i still don't respect him but he's a very fun character and i do enjoy his vibe. i actually liked him a lot better when he wasn't essentially holding edwin prisoner (imagine that!) so i think the coercive nature of that original dynamic is what really threw me off. i found myself enjoying his character a lot more with the bracelet off and them interacting on even footing!

and finally, i couldn't possibly choose so here

LIST OF FAVORITE SCENES

- charles dying and meeting edwin

- charles having a breakdown at the night nurse

- every kashi scene

- crystal speaking to lilith and when she appeared to claim esther

- simon seeing the blue light and possibly leaving hell

- pretty much all of niko and edwin's one on one talks

- the conversation between niko and crystal when they first opened up to each other

- edwin telling the cat king the binding bracelet is all he is and leaving to save his friends

- charles hugging edwin after edwin comforts him

- esther killing the cat king

- charles getting stuck in the loop of the devlin murders

- niko going out into the storm to save her friends

- niko's reading comprehension skills <3

AND MANY MORE that i am forgetting but here you go ^^ goddamn this show is good. hit me like a trainwreck though i need a fucking nap

[yourlocalmoon]

could u do caregiver blitzo (from helluva boss) headcannons? ^^

Caregiver Blitzo Hcs

Warnings: Mentions of swearing and implied swearing, by that I mean I censor the two swears in here.

Notes: .... :3 HOPE YOU ENJOY❗❗I'm still sick rip, but tried to make these as good as possible <3

- Blitzo is a dad caregiver, so he ofcourse makes loona your big sister <3 So yes, family nights do happen. and he will burst into happy tears if you call him or loona any abbreviation of family- (Call him dada, papa, or just dad and he'll actually explode.)

- Blitzo is an overprotective caregiver, he takes his role as your caregiver very seriously and practically starts barking at people who look at you the wrong way. He's not afraid to get in a fist fight if anyone says anything against your regression.

- When he hugs you, his tail wraps around you to make you two feel closer <3 His tail will either wrap around your waist/tummy or it'll wrap around your wrist, on that note when you two are going out he usually has his tail wrapped around your wrist to keep track of you (Basically his own version of a child leash-)

- Probably gives you a nickname where he just takes your name and adds a y to the end, also calls you his baby 24/7 !!

- Does hold onto everything incase you regress suddenly, Blitzo isn't embarrassed by carrying around your stuff animal or your paci if you want it !! You regress and he's pulling items out of his jacket like a magician. "okay take your paci and your stuffie and your bottle- wait no, fu*k, I need the bottle to feed you, take your other stuffie-"

- Gets jealous easily, will never leave you to be babysat and will actually explode if someone takes care of you for more then two seconds. They picked you up? Blitzo is tweaking out, he's the only one allowed to pick you up! "PUT MY BABY DOWN YOU MOTHERFUC-"

- Constantly praising you for being the cutest and littlest baby ever, practically is a grandma with how much he squeezes and pinches your cheeks. If anyone wants to know where he is, he's probably cooing at you.

- Blitzo will watch kid movies with you, like Disney movies, however will criticize them. Has a thing against Cinderella for some reason??- but he loves it, especially when you sit on his lap as you two are on the couch together. Totally lets you play with his tail absentmindedly

- I don't think Blitzo is absolutely amazing at cooking as he never really bothered to learn, but he can make simple things. Usually just buys you dino nuggets and some other stuff and calls it a day, but he does make cute little scenes with the food- Like a dino on the beach using mashed potatoes. Probably somehow gets really mushy with it, I mean like makes ketchup hearts.

- When you're younger however, he's the absolute gentlest. Has a gentle grip on your bottle and your head as he tilts it back to feed you, probably even spoils you with strawberry milk sometimes. Also when he buys you baby food, he does infact try some- he swears it was to encourage you! (Also he was curious but- hey don't giggle at him!)

- If you can't tell, Blitzo takes every chance to tell you he loves you and he always, always means it. He loves taking care of you, and has no shame in your regression like mentioned before. He will brag about you being the cutest baby though, gives children dirty looks still. "..Not as cute as my baby."

- This also means you have him wrapped around your finger, You want that thing?? He's bought two and they are in your favorite colors. You can get away with breaking rules- although Blitzo isn't a strict caregiver so there's not alot of rules to break, minus bedtime.. But he won't punish you, he'll probably just make you sleepy by cuddling or warm milk- or sleepy time music as he calls it.

- Blitzo doesn't stop swearing around you, however he doesn't make any lewd jokes and he will fight anyone who does around you. Gets all dramatic and everything, covers your ears and looks at them with an absolute shocked look. A hypocrite when he comes to you.. "How dare you say that around my baby! They are too young for this-"

- Will not let you ignore your regression. Oh you are too busy? With what? Oh with your work- he's finished it. Oh you are stressing- all the more reason to regress! And yes he will gently trick you into regressing if absolutely necessary. Although he isn't the best at doing it secretly, especially when he tries to half-baby you but.. Ohmygoodnessyouaresoadorable so he ends up just babying you-

- Totally the type of caregiver to sit on the edge of your bed and read you a story, probably even gets you those lights that spin around the room and show cool shapes to help you sleep. However if you can't sleep, he'll totally stay up and cuddle with you <3 Snuggles right into your bed, pulls the blankets over you two and gently rubs your back as he waits for you to fall asleep.

But he ends up falling asleep with you, he feels so much more better knowing his baby is in his arms and safe.

[web-spinning]

hey are u comfortable writing some comfort/praise fic involving Zevlor x transmasc reader? sfw or less so is up to yr discretion i just love that old man and wish we could make each other feel better

"Under The Oak"- Zevlor x Transmasc! Reader

Tw.: dysphoria mentioned, blood mentioned.

Cheers were heard as soon as you informed the tieflings the area is safe and there are no goblins left standing. They fell into each other's arms, patted themselves on the backs, happy to finally be free.

From the danger, from the druids, from Hell...

And yet, seeing them happy didn't make you excited. You couldn't feel their happiness. With a wave of a hand, you excused yourself from the spotlight and retreated deeper into the grove.

Once you found a nice oak tree, planted near the beach most likely by the druids, you sat down under it. You noticed some goblin blood still on your clothes.

A hero, huh? You bit your lips.

It was amazing to see the tieflings happy. But your mind still traveled to a scene from the goblin camp.

The battle was going smoothly, especially with Halsin on your side; those foul creatures were never exactly the brightest, no matter how sharp their axes were.

You were just about to hit one (with an arrow or perhaps a spell) when you tripped. As you fell to the ground, a small yelp escaped your mouth. You don't exactly know who, all you know the next thing that followed was a chuckle from one of your companions. "Come on, don't be such a girl!"

Those words meant nothing to them, merely a small tease, but they hit you like an arrow made of steel. You thought you were passed this; that you could finally live as yourself, that nobody would question you.

Yet, here you were. Close to breaking down because someone called you a girl.

Before you could indulge deeper into your thoughts, you heard footsteps right behind the tree. Assuming it was just a druid passing by you paid it no mind until the owner of the noise sat down right next to you.

"Something on your mind?" the man's sharp voice turned your attention to him. "I was hoping to thank the saviour of my people personally. But they told me he'd ran off"

You smiled at him sadly. His rough features were alluring, his shiny eyes piercing through you.

"It's nothing" you lied. He should be out there, celebrating with his people, not trying to comfort you.

"I've seen enough pain in my life to recognize it. The druid Halsin is a great healer, or at least the druids say so. He owes you this much for saving him" Zevlor said, looking concerned.

"It's not something even an archdruid can heal" you explained, looking away from him. The tiefling fell silent, but you could feel him shifting closer towards you.

"Would you like to talk about it?"

Your heart dropped for a moment. Of course you did! But you didn't want to risk to see remorse in his eyes.

"We don't have to" he continued, seeing as you kept silent.

"Zevlor...have you ever met a man who was once a woman?" You began, trying to sugarcoat it as much as possible.

"The real question is who I haven't met during my time in Hell" he chuckled "But yes, I suppose I could say I did".

You looked back at him. He was very close now.

"What...how did they make you feel?"

"Is there a way I'm supposed to feel about them? They were just another soldier like me, nothing special if I do say so myself. Some of their techniques lacked, they were too careless. But you. You're not careless. Don't get it wrong, but I would even call you stubborn...but please, do get to the point. Why would you ask me about something like this?"

"...because I am one. And today, someone I know made a snarky remark about me acting girlish in combat. And it hurts so damn much to feel like no matter how hard you try to avoid it, your past self will always bite back at you" you tried explaining.

He moved his hand closer to yours, looking at you for permission. You let him take your hand, and he began to caress it slowly.

"I won't lie it's a surprise to hear that. You must one of the bravest and manliest people I've met since my years as a Hell rider" he said, smiling at you. "You're quite the...impressive person"

"You really think so?"

"Yes. Excuse me if this is inappropriate for someone...my age, but you must know you're also quite handsome" he said, and looked away for a moment as he said the last part. Even on his red skin you could see a small blush on his cheeks. You smiled at him. Who knew the old and brave Hellrider could get embarrassed complementing someone?

"Did you just call yourself old?" You chuckled at him. "And are you...blushing?"

"Who wouldn't blush around a man like that" he played it off, winking at you. "Please know I am honest. You're a very handsome and capable man, but also a great fighter. Me and my people owe you a debt"

"It was just a few goblins..."

"And they could slaughter us on our way to Baldur's Gate" he said, squeezing your hand. "I'm afraid we can't pay it off to you, we don't exactly have the means. But I promise I will remember to recompense it to you in the future. I think the druids owe you something too, especially after you freed their leader"

You looked at the tiefling, seeing how his gaze pierced you made your heart skip a few beats. An idea appeared in your head.

"I've got an idea how you can pay off your debt to me" you said, taking his other hand into yours. They were raw, clearly owned by a man who worked his whole life.

"Yes?" He asked, a small spark in his bright eyes.

You leaned in further, now almost in his lap. His mouth opened, but he didn't protest.

"Kiss your savior" you smirked at him. The tiefling smiled as his tail wrapped around your torso.

He laid down and pushed you down on him. Without thinking much, you leaned in and pressed your lips to his. They were thin and felt hot; something natural for tieflings you figured.

He didn't let go of your hands as he let you taste him. His tail tightened around your torso, the ending picking at your skin.

The two of you entangled in a passionate kiss for a few seconds, before you let go to take a few breaths.

"Payment accepted?" Zevlor smirked at you. He let go of your hands and took your chin between his fingers."I feel like we could go a few more rounds"

Without replying, you let him guide your head towards his, your lips entangling once more.

There was a long evening ahead the two of you.

[jack-of-all-trades-21]

My brain came up with a very specific thing for Chishiya (which, beware, is my interpretation of his character), that kind of reminds me of something I've written before but this takes a very different route and also has a different format:

So my thought initiates from the idea that Chishiya definitely can be or become emotional, even if we might have not seen him much like it (or at all).

Since we share the same mbti I am kind off basing my things off of that, but it is also extremely humane to show bursts of emotions.

In short, he can for sure become frustrated when the moment calls for it.

When this happens, Chishiya might think that the universe is pulling his decisions and not him, like it is some sort of role he has to play because it fits the scene.

I think as an intj we are often watchers; Chishiya enjoys watching (much like we see him do during games in the show) and hopes not having to interfere with everyone's true nature. This is simply the most interesting and entertaining thing for him. So when he loses his temper or feels tears well up in his eyes he still feels like he is watching, whilst his body is driven by thing he "can't" control.

So I'm imagining a situation like the following: Chishiya is put into a spades game, and a difficult one at that. Normally he goes into games open-minded, though for this one he did not mentally prepare. Maybe it is due to his energy levels of that day or just his particular wish to do a diamonds or hearts game, but he really was not looking forward to an extreme physical challenge.

Additionally, and this is more for fun in my head, he is wearing his favorite white vest. This because he had a feeling beforehand it was not going to be an exhausting night, yet here he was proven wrong. He does not even acknowledge that this was a feeling; maybe too stubborn to admit that he was using his heart and not his head for once.

Then, it rips. His crisp hoodie is sure to not make it out this game alive. Normally he would stay pretty composed under things like these; his clothes are replaceable and it's not anything he could help anyway. Though today Chishiya feels a lot, mostly frustration and disappointment.

The sudden surprise and adrenaline that came with this game make him lose his composure. As much as he should be happy/satisfied to make it out alive, he is overwhelmed with negative feelings.

This only really happens when he is aware he can feel this way. For example when no other people from the beach joined the game. His surroundings allow his behavior; there were no other members of the beach in the game with for who he had to uphold himself.

And so the rip in his favorite jacket starts to resemble the crack in his normally perfect composure.

If we want to push it even further, we could introduce interaction with someone in the game with him.

With no clue on how they made it even out alive like him (their physique was not promising for spades games), there is someone by his side that is all too eager to aid him.

Their kindness and sociability almost trigger him more. Though he decides to play along. First, because they claim that they can fix his jacket. And second, because Chishiya just loves to see things play out.

He finds himself inside a makeshift atelier (it's just a room inside a rundown building but filled with all kinds of paintings and sculptures). The artist themself scurries across the room to a desk with coils of thread and such.

Now about Chishiya's scene partner: they didn't seem like the type that wanted to be defined or put inside a box. Though in the psychoanalyzing thoughts of Chishiya, he took a guess that they're numbing the pain and shock of the borderlands with their arts. After all, some attempt to deal with things you cant control by pretending to have control.

This way of living can actually anger Chishiya more than you'd initially think. I think this is due to a weird form of jealousy. He thinks he is not able to be as empathizing with anyone like them, let alone a stranger. However, he also believes it is in his nature to be this way (not realizing he can choose his behavior). He also knows that the kind stranger is dealing with things wrongly. Escapism in the borderlands is the dumbest coping mechanism he has seen anyone portray (probably from his realism standpoint). He could think you're wasting your time on materialistic and meaningless junk, whilst there are so many better things worthwhile (training, gathering food, finding a way out of the borderlands, resting,..). And the fact that you are a kind person makes it even harder for him. I am kind of reminded of Arisu here, also too kind for his own good if you get what I mean. Chishiya is at that moment so fed up with the idea that people like him easily can manipulate people like them.

Now how I see him out all of the things he is feeling can be through two ways. He either bottles up everything, can't sleep for a while due to all kinds of thoughts in his head he can't place, and remains like that until he can find logical reasons as to why certain things happened. Or, he snaps at the person he met, desperate to make them realize that the world they're in is real (or that it at least should be treated that way).

Chishiya assumes he's helping you out that way (like it's the thing he should be doing). Though how he then returns this favor is really up to how dirty-minded you view Chishiya.

(What better way to give someone a wakeup call of how real the world is by sharing physical intimacy?)

[ella-norah]

Ella watching Love Sea episode 2

Okay, so yesterday, the second episode of Love Sea aired, and I am watching it today, and rambling about it. If you want to read my rambles, feel free to continue reading the post below ♥

Also, this time i'll try to be shorter than last time, so there will be only one post for the episode and less images, but hope it's good enough.

Starting the episode with direct continuation of the last one and the moment Mut and Rak are off the boat and on the beach. Rak is still pouting and grumpy, which is very understandable considering how scared he looked (and there's probably a story about that reaction that's likely deeper than just fear of not being able to get off the boat since he's in the middle of the ocean) when Mut jumped in the water and Rak didn't know where Mut was.

Right now, both Mut and Rak are being stubborn - Rak to push Mut away and Mut to get Rak to forgive him. Something tells me that it'll take more than the fresh clamps, though they do look quite fresh and delicious.

Peat's expressions here, his portrayal of Rak is so damn good. The way he wants to accept, but also fights it and looks at Mut annoyed is chef's kiss.

Here are some pictures of the beach scene that happened as Rak accepted the piece of clamp meat in his mouth. Gosh the expressions are making me go feral! *screams internally*

The almost kiss had me squeal out loud. Honestly! Like I didn't expect it to happen so soon (not that it did, but it's clear they both wanted to)

And yet, Rak still seems convinced it won't happen again. (what am i willing to bet it will happen...)

The scene with girls is so good. Mook is still a nervous mess because of Vi, and that is honestly such a mood. And Vi is still so manipulative. (and they're both so prettyyyyyyyyyyyyyy)

it suddenly feels very hot in the room (or is it just them??)

"I won't take you to bed" "This isn't bed" (bites her lip to not scream some more)

It will never happen again, huh?

Such amazing kissing scene - so much chemistry, heat and desire - i love this.

There's no screenshots because the scene simply needed to be watched - not screenshots time XD

I can't wait for Mut to find out that Rak gets sex and romantic scene inspiration from actually experiencing them -> this confusion would make so much more sense in that case.

I love that they used Peat's photos for google search about Rak. It just fits.

Tha amazing amazing manipulations from Vi, and the sweet innocence from Mook -> those make quite a dangerous and delicious combination. And I have no doubt Vi just loves the attention she gets from Mook. And who could blame her? Mook is so cute.

Another moment when the room feels so damn hot. Gosh, they are so hot! Rak watching Mut in shower, and then making first move! MAKING FIRST MOVE!!! Ahhhh

That lip bite is so aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

THE MARKS! GOSH, THE MARKS!! Mut is quite a biter, isn't he

I have a feeling Vi will make anything she can to keep Mook there in her room. Just a feeling.

Mook ranting how Vi is keeping her from going home and Vi is just nodding along and looking at Mook like Mook's the most adorable. (she so is, Vi's not wrong)

The conversation between Palm and Mut is very interesting, especially the bets part. And of course Mut is certain Rak won't be interested.

Rak is quite possessive, truly quite possessive. I love that so much!!! so so much!! The way he just walks up to Mut and the girls and leans in to kiss Mut on the cheek (i haven't gotten the angle for that particular screenshot, so bear with these two)

"He's mine" - why don't you just kill me now??

The look Rak gives to girls on the table is so aaaaaaaaaaaaa

And Mut is so not complaining about this

Ohhhh, I love a bike ride scene!!

I agree with Mut, Rak is really adorable!!

Of course Palm caught them! Why am I not surprised?

I love the little not-date Mut and Rak are on.

Poor Mut, kicked out of house at 15. I'm curious about what happened to cause that... Though, I really admire the way he's so hard-working and the way he managed to get as far as he has.

Ohhh, they're going diving! Sounds fun (for them exclusively, i could never go diving myself)

Rak's backstory is absolutely making me cry.

I am so thankful Mut got there in time. So thankful

Poor poor poor Rak - i want to give him big big hug.

And that concludes me watching this episode and rambling about it. I have to admit that this episode pulled all the feels out of me - first my brain was brrr-ing for NC scenes, and then I got all soft for ViMook, and then I cried. Such amazing episode, pulling my heartstrings like that.

[moonspirit]

Hello-hello, Moon 💚🌿

Sending you a lot of snowy landscapes and Northern lights to cheer you up ❄️🌌🏔️

And in this relation, I wanted to ask you for some AruAni and JeanPiku scenarios seeing the Northern lights for the first time! Imagine them having a trip, having nice rooms in the hotel up in the mountains, and then, they go on a double date and see this beauty, near the lake. The vision lives rent free in my head T^T

I'm curious about your thoughts on this potential scenario, and please, take care and answer *only* when you feel like that! I really hope you would *feel* the chilly breeze and the purple light from the Northern lights on your skin while answering, so I hope thinking about this scene would cheer you up. Take care, Moon (⁠っ⁠˘⁠з⁠(🌖 ⁠)

Hi Hi helloooooo anna T_T I'm so sorry this has taken me SO LONG to get around to, but also... because this was so warm and lovely, I had to think about it!

Finally I concluded that Jean, who takes great pride in being a romantic, soulful boyfriend (who, in his opinion, frankly wastes a great deal of his energy on Pieck, hmph), would plan out the Most, the Best, the Greatest Northern Lights holiday trip ever.

Like, he'll go the extra mile in double checking everything! The perfect season, the perfect hotel, the perfect room with a view, the perfect private bath on a balcony, the perfect everything! The man did his homework and did it WELL. Pieck's no doubt, excited as fuck because! it's been her lifelong wish to open a set of fancy doors and run out into the snow stark naked!

(A very Pieck thing to do imo)

So they travel. It's wonderful, it's GREAT, they see the most beautiful scenery from their windows, Pieck gets really HYPED because oh my fucking god - ICELAND! ICELAND! Volanoes, waterfalls, black-sand beaches, AURORA!!!!

But then they arrive. There are no Icelandic signs. No Icelandic people.

There's no Iceland, because they're in Greenland.

Hmm... it's almost as if... this mistake happened once before... a thousand years ago...

Jean looks like he ate a toad.

So now... FUCK the beautiful hotel (back in Iceland), FUCK the room with a view (back in Iceland), fuck the private bath on a balcony (back in... Iceland), because the romantic, soulful boyfriend, in his pursuit toward excellence, booked all the right facilities and all the wrong travel tickets and alas--his eccentric girlfriend vibrating in excitement on the 10th dimension simply didn't care 🥲🥲

So now... do they watch the Aurora in Greenland?

Yes of course! Pieck makes it her business to walk the big ice-sheets with Jean strapped to her middle because he's too much of a scaredy cat. In thIS hOUsE we make the most of it, you hear me?

:3 All's well that ends well.

Thank you so much for this ask, Anna and I apologise if it wasn't as fluffy as you may have expected it to be, but in Jeanpiku's case I honestly cannot picture them being 100% serious about anything thanks to the idiots they are T^T Still, I enjoyed answering this so much and I wish you a very very peaceful New Year's Eve, all things considered ofc, and take care and be safe T////////////T

[niasfootprint]

"I hope you're happy, but not like how you were with me."

Happier —Olivia Rodrigo

Felix X fem! reader X Bangchan

Warnings: cheating (?) (debatable), angst, emotional rollercoaster, relationship problems

Genre: sad, fluff towards the end

"We can't do this." You said, feeling Felix's grip tighten on your waist. His eyes were glossy, fixated on your lips while he itched to inch closer, just enough to drown your lips in his. You were on the verge of tears, not because it felt wrong, but because it felt too right.

It looked magnificent, the scene. Standing on a beach, a setting sun, and the boy you love in front of you. It felt like home. But it shouldn't, it shouldn't feel like home. Your home was supposed to be your own boyfriend, not Felix. You were supposed to love the one you're committed to, not him.

You had never once cheated on your boyfriend, but falling for Felix was just something that— just happened. You didn't meant for it to be that way. You weren't aware that the playful and friendly touches or talks that you shared would turn into something serious. But it had. And even just the thought of breaking this to Chan scared you to the core, not because he would get mad— he would never get mad at you. But you were rather worried that you would break his heart into a million pieces.

"This is so wrong." Felix said, resting his forehead against yours and closing his eyes, a crease formed on his exquisite features— a sign of guilt for betraying his best friend and falling in love with his girl. He had wanted you for so long now, probably even before than Chan did. The only problem was that Chan showed courage and confessed to you while he had been loving you from the shadows like a coward.

Every moment you spent with Chan burnt a path straight into Felix's heart. He hated it. He hated seeing you touch someone who wasn't him. He hated seeing you laugh at his jokes. He hated seeing you cuddled up to his best friend while he felt nothing but cold. But that was all he could do, see. He could only see.

"I don't wanna break him, Felix." You let out, your voice breaking at the end of the sentence.

"I know. Me too." He whispered back.

In that moment, you had seemed to make up your mind. You decided that you weren't going to break him. You'll forget about Felix, if that's what made Chan happy. It was fine. You had loved him once, you can learn to love him again. And even if you failed to do so, you'll just have to fake it like a coward. Only because you didn't want to break his heart. Atleast then you wouldn't have to face him and tell him that you had fallen out of love.

"I can't do this to Chan. I'm sorry." You suddenly pushed him away, taking him by surprise. The beautiful beach scenery didn't seem too romantic anymore. Sure, it looked really pretty, but in a very sad way. You could feel your heart breaking, and it was becoming difficult to find anything romantic. It all just seemed sad. The once soothingly cooing birds had gotten louder, almost as if they were crying with you.

A grab of your wrist stopped you in your tracks when you started to leave, eyes heavy and ready to melt any moment now. This is what you were scared of, him stopping you when you're trying to be brave. You didn't want to leave him, not at all. But you had to do it.

"I love you." His words made your tears finally fall and you closed your eyes, still trying to be strong and not fall on your knees right there and then. "Is there really no way we could be together?"

"No, there isn't." You spoke, your words not coming out because of the small whimpers leaving you. "We have to stop this." was the last thing you said before he let go of your wrist and you left the scene.

The next few hours were difficult for you as you tried to cope with a broken heart that still somehow beat harshly against your chest. It felt as if though the broken pieces stabbed your chest with every beat, killing you from the inside. And if that wasn't enough, the guilt started to eat at you. The thought that you almost cheated on your pure boyfriend made your stomach churn and made you feel... dirty. So dirty that you decided to take a shower to wash the imaginary stains off of you, to wash the guilt off of you.

Head thrown against the shower wall, tears barely hanging in, and hands clutching at your heart to stop hurting already— this was what you had become. Even in the midst of such pain, you could hear your bedroom door being open and someone walking in. You mentally cursed as you realised who it must be. It was Chan.

Turning the shower knob to close it, you dried yourself off with a towel, putting some clothes on— a white tank top and some sweats— before walking out of the bathroom.

"Hi." He smiled at you brightly from his spot on the edge of your bed, almost making you feel better about your decision of remaining a coward. But even though his smile could light up cities, you couldn't bring yourself to smile back at him, the guilt sitting right at your throat. Noticing your lack of emotions, his smile fell slowly, watching as you slowly walked towards him and settled to stand in between his legs.

"What happened, love?" He asked you, holding your waist while you hovered over him. You couldn't reply, the guilt was too strong to even open your mouth. You just rested your hands on his shoulders, slowly inching up your fingers to cup his face in your hands. The tears were starting to come back the long you stared at your boyfriend's angelic face. God, he was so pure, it made you wonder how mentally unstable you were to fall out of love with him.

"Why are you so good to me, Chris?" You let out through heavy breaths, watching his face getting alerted at the use of his other name. You never called him Chris unless it was something really serious, so he wasn't used to you calling him by that name. One of his hands left your waist to place his hand over yours.

"You're scaring me, baby." His brows scrunched at your face getting red with emotions. You didn't reply, instead you slid down on your knees in front of him, hugging his torso while the tears threatened to escape. You wanted to tell him what was bothering you, but you couldn't bare to see him heartbroken. But how could you keep him in the dark about this? How could you let him be with someone who didn't even love him? That was cruel.

"I'm sorry, Chan." A sob finally broke through when you felt him patting your head to comfort you, tears running down your face and soaking into the cotton material of his black t-shirt. He didn't enlighten you with a response, instead he waited, waited for you get yourself together so you could tell him. Also, his emotions were getting heightened too. It was becoming painful for him to not cry at this point.

"It's okay." A tear ran down his face and to his neck, while he watched you break apart at your mistakes.

"No, it's not okay. You won't forgive me if you knew what I did." You spoke into his abdomen, voice breaking down and words getting heavier by each passing second. "I'm a bad person, Chan."

"No, you're not." His voice also came out broken, making you scared that he already knew what was coming. The sudden cracks in his tone made you break apart from the hug, looking up at him only to see his face absolutely red and wet with tears. He wiped his hands over his face, clearing off the tears. "Come here." He whispered, pulling you up from the ground so you could settle on his lap, straddling him.

"Please don't be mad at me, Chan, I—"

"You did nothing wrong, sweetheart." He cut you off mid-sentence. You looked into his eyes with every collected audacity left in you, and he stared back with sad eyes, almost as if he knew what happened. "I don't blame you for falling in love with someone else." He spoke, making your eyes widen as you struggled to find words to say.

"Chan— you— you know?" You stumbled out. He cupped your face, a sad smile on his face as he nodded slightly. Yes, he had known. He had seen you at the beach with Felix, and even though the close proximity of your bodies made him irritated, he couldn't help but accept the fact that you loved his best friend now. But seeing you both together at the beach only confirmed his already cooking up assumptions, because he had known from a long time now. He could see how the small touches of Felix's affected you, he had noticed the way you laughed at his unfunny jokes. He saw everything, but he kept quiet because he was scared of losing you.

But the one thing that made him proud of you was how you left Felix for him. He felt guilty that you thought you could just leave the love of your life only to make him happy. He didn't want that for you, he wanted you to be happy. And if your happiness lied with Felix, then he was ready to let you go. And he would let you go respectfully, only because you had also respected your relationship when you left the scene without kissing Felix. You didn't cheat on him, not in his eyes.

"I just want to know something." Chan sniffled, trying to hold back the painful lump in his throat from holding back tears. You let out a choked sob, nodding your head and asking him to continue. "Do you still love me?" His question stilled you.

You had promised not to break him, but look what you did. How were you going to answer that question without breaking him?

When you realised that you physically couldn't say it out loud, you laid your head on his chest, hugging him tightly and letting out small sobs. He sighed when even more tears fell from his eyes, he had expected it. He closed his eyes, hugging you back with the same force as you used. If this was the last time he could hug you while you were still his girl, he wanted to make it last forever.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." You kept repeating the mantra like a broken record. He nodded his head into your shoulder and you could feel droplets of tears wetting your revealed skin. "I wish it was different, I really do. I didn't meant for this to happen, Chan. I really did love you—"

"But now you don't." He completed with a scratchy voice. You sniffled, pulling away from the hug and resting your forehead against his. "It doesn't matter now. What's important is that you stay happy."

"And what about you?" You sobbed.

"Sweetheart, I'll be happy if you're happy." He said, a small smile evident on his features, but it didn't quite reach his eyes. His eyes lingered over your lips for a while before he finally leaned in, letting his lips touch yours. He wanted to kiss you, just for the last time.

You kissed him back, closing your eyes and letting him hold you. He moulded his warm lips against yours, but for him, your kiss just felt cold. Maybe this was bound to happen, because you had these differences. He was the sun— warm and shiny while you could only resemble yourself to the moon— cold and scarred. Both of you had been in an eclipse for so long that it started to affect you, to burn you. You were burning in his warmth, for you didn't deserve it. You didn't deserve him.

"I can't believe we're breaking up." He chuckled, a sniffle breaking out in the midst of it.

"I wish it didn't have to be this way." You teared up.

"You should go to him right now." He said against your lips, smiling while he pulled away just enough to see your face. "He must be waiting."

"Are you... sure?" You stared back at him with glossy eyes and he nodded, a small but fake smile resting on his face. You smiled back sadly, leaning in to kiss his cheek before getting up from your comfortable position on Chan's lap. "Thank you so much, Chan." I said as I ran to wear my shoes.

"You're welcome, now go!" He chuckled again.

You turned to look at him one last time before you left to look for Felix. "And just so you know..." I started. He looked up at you, clearly trying not to cry. "I still care about you the same."

He gave you a warm smile, nodding his head. "Now go, get him."

You nodded enthusiastically, basically sprinting out of the door and down the stairs. You thought to yourself what you were going to say to him once you get there, you couldn't just go to him and be like "oh yeah, Chan found out about us and we broke up". You had to prepare something to break it to him.

"Felix, I— like you?" You practiced while running outside the building, cringing at your own choice of words. "Idiot. You don't just like him, you love him, dammit." You rolled your eyes at yourself. "Okay, here we go again. Felix, I really... really love you. Will you be my girlfri— oh God, boyfriend! Not girlfriend." You cursed under your breath. You were sure you were going to mess this up.

A few minutes later, you were back at the same beach you were at when you realised that you loved Felix. It had gotten dark now, stars shining bright in the dark night sky, waves crashing against each other in a satisfactory manner. But now, he was nowhere to be seen. He mentioned that he would be here till night, so where did he go now? You could only hope that he didn't leave because of you.

"Felix!" You cupped your mouth as you shouted out his name, eager to bring him out of somewhere. "Dammit, Felix, where are you?!" You yelled again, starting to get frustrated now.

"Stop shouting, will you?" You stilled in your position when you heard the familiar Australian accent from behind you. After recovering from the sudden shock, you turned around to see him. And there he was, looking so ethereal as the moonlight dripped over his face like honey, making him the most beautiful man in the world for you.

Lee Felix had officially ruined you for any other man.

You had practiced a perfect speech on your way here, but having him in front of you like this left you completely speechless. You couldn't find words to express to him what you wanted to say, what you came here for. You could only do one thing— run towards him and hug him.

So that's what you did. You ran towards him with a stupid smile etched on your face. He got alarmed at your fast pace and his eyes widened, but before he could move away, you basically jumped him. He couldn't handle the sudden weight and fell down on the soft sand beneath you guys, with you on top of him, your arms around his neck while you straddled his slim waist.

"Jesus Christ, love, couldn't you have been a little nicer—" You cut him off with a pent up kiss. Felix felt like he could die right there and then, and if he was true to himself, he wouldn't mind dying while his lips were being laced with your poison. But fortunately, he didn't die, instead he lifted his head up a bit and kissed you back. He didn't know why you had suddenly decided to kiss him after leaving to be with Chan, but he definitely wasn't going to complain.

"I love you, Felix." You whispered against his lips, taking him by surprise. "I love you so fucking much."

"I love you too, princess." He replied after a few confusing moments, finally realising what must have happened for you to be like this. And he was too happy for his own good.

"You do?" You grinned, your mouth barely touching his.

"I do." He nodded, mirroring your expression and grinning back. He brough a hand between your faces, cupping your cheek while he looked down at your lips. "Kiss me, will you?" He merely whispered, and you huffed happily, leaning down and joining your lips again.

You both were finally happy again, albeit the cost being a broken heart of a close one.

[bengiyo]

I Told Sunset About You Rewatch Ep 1 Stray Thoughts

We're doing a retrospective for @the-conversation-pod soon, so I want to get a rewatch in (I think this is my sixth) before we record. Figured it might be fun to jot ideas down.

Let me just say that the quality of the opening song still hits like a ton of bricks right as this starts. I had not experienced something like that before.

Telling us from the first scene that it's always been about Oh-aew.

RIP LINE TV. Pour one out.

Thinking about Teh's relationship with his mom this time, she was praising Teh for making it into this school with high marks.

Oh we finally know what MoRaoYuLok means! (We look so funny)

Skyline is just such an affecting song.

I often forget that the first float we saw was with the young actors.

Really like the camera zooming in on Teh after Oh agrees to play Yongjian. We've seen them in frame together for about four minutes of the friendship montage, and now Teh suddenly feels alone.

The tragedy of their breakup hits every time. You can see it coming immediately as soon as Oh is selected and Teh tries his best to support him through the play.

I often think about how Teh wasn't even selected to play a tree in the play.

Oh, Teh, he was always in the wrong when it came to Oh. Oh hoped they could share a passion together and Teh only saw someone stepping on his dream.

Hello again, Tuty the Homophobic Dog.

Oh, Teh, why do you have to get salty about your mom praising your brother for being able to help you afford school?

Tarn, you will regret telling Teh to go after someone else because you don't want him to waste his time waiting for you.

I love the bass beats at the mention of Oh-aew.

Sometimes you briefly forget how beautiful PP Krit is, and then you see him again and you're like, "Right, I didn't imagine that."

Gosh, Teh was always petty.

Very sad foreshadowing about Teh later waking up early to study with Oh.

This whole scene of The deciding to mess with his hair is almost Japanese in styling. It's rare in Thai shows where they hold a shot and let the actors enter and exit the frame, trusting the audience to remember where things are.

Lol, Teh is so embarrassing sometimes. Even the teacher had to call him out about the hair.

I'm still fond of Khunpol's acting as Bas after all this time. He was new to Nadao at the time and was very nervous to work so closely with PP.

He's always good at saying things to hurt Oh, but then instantly regrets it.

Oh, Bas. If it could have been you it would have been you so easily.

I sometimes wish we'd dug more into Oh's family relationship, because it feels like Teh often said things that reminded Oh of his dad.

Truly this is a beautiful shot of all of MoRaoYuLok together. Teh positioned between Bas and Oh is exquisite.

The score for this show really is just so fantastic. Underlines every moment beautifully.

Billkin is really beautiful when he has to show sympathy for PP's character crying.

PP's legs? Undefeated. Closest challenger was Todd Techit.

Goddamn these two make each other ugly cry so easily. Even on this gorgeous beach!

Poor Bas. He noticed so early.

Oh always cuts to the emotional core of their problems.

Billkin's eyebrows are doing so much work.

Ending on what Teh might say to Oh from the interview and having him not exactly say those things to Oh? Crushing.

Ke Yi Ma? Ke Yi.

Billkin singing Skyline just blasts you at the end. My goodness.

Something that still surprises me each time I come back to this is how much these boys cry at each other about each other. Normally you'd expect some kind of machismo or gender dynamic where one of them is maybe stoic, but no, these two know each other too well for that. Their relationship just feels so huge. Really the only other two characters that have close to this feeling are Pat and Pran, and Our Song explicitly asks if it's okay if they're not as huge as something like this.