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more hs headcanons?
hihi I have more lame hcs and Iβm going to make it everyone elseβs problem ^__^
>out of the alpha kids jake is the shortest
>>out of the beta kids rose is the shortest (with june coming in at a VERY close second)
>>height lineup from shortest to tallest is jake>rose>june>roxy>jade>dave>jane>dirk
>janes favorite thing to bake is red velvet cakes
>deemed too violent, flarping isnβt really allowed to be played on earth c so everyone joins a dnd campaign (game night is every other thursday)
>after a sunburn dirk tans while dave freckles
>roxyβs gender fuckery made things click for june
>in terms of lameness edrian is a redditor, sollux is a discord mod, and karkat is a twitter main
>roxy and rose go out to dinner together monthly and talk ab how much they love their alien partners
>towards the end of the meteor dave lowkey moved into karkats room (dude just kept showing up and ended up sleeping in there a good chunk of the time)- no one brings it up besides rose to fuck with him
>karkat needs glasses but refuses to get his eyes checked
>terezi has a preference in women but didnβt realize that until after her thing with dave
>dirk has a shitton of plant allergies due to not being in contact with them until he was like 16-17
>if roxy lived in our time period sheβd be a twitch streamer (develops games on for itch while streaming)
>jade has never been to a store in her life. it agonizes every other beta kid
>I personally believe in juneskarezi supremacy
>karkat used to make a big deal ab his bday (mainly to cover up the massive relief he experienced knowing he survived another sweep) but stopped doing it on the meteor.
>aradia and dave love talking ab their dead thing collections
>jade is the only one of the kids that can actually sleep in a recuperacoon for some god forsaken reason (june is the only other kid who has attempted)
>kanaya is so excited ab june feeling comfortable in dresses and regularly tries to reramp their closet (although june mainly wears tshirts)
>speaking of shirts: dave just has a shitton of random ass shirts following the vibe of βwomen want me fish fear meβ + this shirt

>kind of like how u can do body mods like giving urself sharp teeth I think some trolls will carve patterns into their horns (itβs not common but itβs cool)
>dave malfunctions every time he sees dirks/jakes sbahj tattoos like he cannot rap his head around it being a massive franchise (he plays it off in a cool way tho)
>calliope and nepeta are best friends
>terezi is banned from bath and body works
>dirk really likes the aquarium
>I think it was only hinted at in the credits so unsure if itβs canon or not but rose is jewish
>dirk isnβt religious but will do activities with u if asked to join in
>speaking of the wedding: june played the piano at rosemaryβs wedding
>earth c gang did a massive group cosplay as the adventure time cast for halloween once
>alpha/beta kids favorite holidays are as followed: june- april fools, jade/dave- xmas, rose/jake- halloween, jane- new years, roxy- valentines day
>>dirk doesnβt have one
>true love is modding doom and playing it on ur robot girlfriend (arasol on the meteor)
>the strilondes are all hella fucking awkward ab their relations so theyβre just like an awkward sibling group (except roxy and dirk ofc)
>sollux was a DARE kid + is against all drug consumption but he vapes
>>alternatively aradia likes weed sometimes
>beta troll height line up goes as follows: feferi>karkat>nepeta>terezi>aradia>tavros>edrian>equius>vriska>sollux>kanaya>gamzee
once again this post is rlly long so lmk if yβall want more ^__^
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do you ever think about how selfless c!karl is? like, to a fault? he gives and gives and gives but he so rarely takes for himself.
karl cares so deeply for his friends and his fiancΓ©s (well, when he could remember them both). and i think thatβs a big part of why he switched sides mid-war. even after Schlatt had annexed his own country (rutabagville), he switched sides to support them. and then he says himself when mexican lβmanburg was created that it was his favorite place because thatβs where his friends were, nevermind his home and party island in lβmanburg. karl dies for mexican lβmanburg. he literally sacrifices a life for his country and his friends, which is probably the ultimate act of selflessness.
and then he starts time traveling and he does have something for himself but he still protects others. he tries to save the people in the times he travels to and protect his friends from the weight of his secret all at once. he builds a new country so he can keep going back and helping people and doesnβt let anyone know about how his memory is deteriorating because itβs nobodyβs burden but his.
i think thatβs something that makes this decision between the inbetween and the other side so difficult. heβs drawn to the other side because itβs the selfless option, in his eyes. he gets to save so many people throughout the history and future of the server. literal lives lay in his hands. the inbetween is the more βselfishβ option. itβs the option that preserves him and the one thatβs heβs not compelled to take until he thinks about his friends. he knows that his memory loss could hurt them and that theyβd be upset if he was just gone all the time. the inbetween would let him keep them in his life. as much as karl wants to choose the more selfless option, he finds the βselfishβ one compelling for selfless reasons.
karl is selfless and thatβs what makes this decision so difficult.
#mcyt#dsmp#dsmp analysis#dream smp#karl jacobs#tftsmp#tales from the smp#karl#tales#my meta#long.post
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hereβs a side by side just for fun also, because i actually put THOUGHT into a drawing for once and i wanna talk about it because i donβt think very often so iβm proud of myself when i do
random note that isnβt very important is that the background is exactly the same in both drawings !! i even made sure the sun and the moon are exactly the same size (big)
the chromatic aberration around the edges of the second drawing isnβt as intense mainly just to add to the lighter airier feeling, while in the first drawing itβs more intense because Emotions and shit. it makes sense in my head
speaking of airiness !! every part of scott that can be floating a lil is. itβs rlly just his hair, the weird gossamer thing ? (idk what it actually is lol) and the. i donβt wanna call it a loin cloth idk what you would call that. i think it was originally a skirt thing i mightβve forgotten some parts of it oh well. i only did like 4 days of a fashion design course and no part of it covered this okay okay. anyways this is also part of why his wings are up in the air like they are! just adds to the floaty vibe i think
ANOTHER reason his wings are in the air is because i wanted him to take up much more of the canvas this time. in the first one heβs small and all close to the ground, a much more defeated version of practically the same pose as in the second drawing (kneeling with his eyes closed and hands by his sides) while in the second heβs much more in control of whatβs happening to him and confident of his powers and so like. big = confidence
there isnβt actually any significance in the difference between the halos besides the second one looks more like a sun while the first is just spikes lol. tho if u wanna be pretentious u could interpret it as his head being clearer and him not being stuck inside his own mind so much. idk
[also donβt reblog this please thank you]
#.txt#donβt rb#long.post#not rlly but just in case idk what counts as long sometimes#anyways that was my cringe ramble#and we are going to ignore the fact that scottβs face looks different in both drawings i did forget how i draw his eyebrows#itβs a very specific shape and i fucked it up lol
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for the dvd commentary thing, this bit from lent!
(Quackity has never killed before. He has now. This, he thinks, looking at hands permanently etched with invisible blood, is something that doesnβt ever go away.
He wonders a few things about that invisible blood. If he can wash it off, is one; if there is some holy fount strong enough to erase the stains. If hands folded in prayer and washed in water counter the sins committed with them.
The other thing is to wonder if he is, maybe, righteous in all of this. In the moment with a bowstring touching his cheek and an arrow about to be loosed, he had felt something like holy himself.)
fun fact lent by autoheart came on my spotify just as i went to answer this ask. talk about perfect timing.
THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS REN!! so lent (or, βfor lent this year, give up your lofty ideals and embrace the carnage of holiness!β) is my least read dsmp fic but one of my favorites anyway. i spent a lot of time cleaning up the lines and editing word choice, and iβm VERY happy with a lot of quotes out of it. including this one: βIn the moment with a bowstring touching his cheek and an arrow about to be loosed, he had felt something like holy himself.β the themes in that oneshot very much are about the corrupting force of anger and violence, and the disguise of those things as something righteous and good. the whole fic is one big unreliable narrator too - do we trust quackityβs point of view here? was it righteousness when he killed schlatt? what about any other moment throughout the fic that he displays that βholyβ rage? itβs a question, and an exploration of a theme, not an answer. i had a lot of fun setting it up that way on purpose!
another fun metaphor thing is the idea that quackity has blood stained on his hands throughout the entire fic. that βinvisible bloodβ is his own anger and guilt, and it grows throughout his history until the point later on when he says itβs not just on his hands anymore - βItβs in his mouth and down his throat, in his stomach and in his guts and in every part of him. A baptism is not enough to wash it away.β - his whole self is corrupted, in some way, by those stains of blood. he compares the blood to wine as well, and thereβs another bit at the end - βThere is no water holy enough to wash him, so he doesnβt bother with water at all.β - and thatβs a fun little bible reference there. something about water being something cleansing, but water is not enough for him now; with the references of βblood like wine,β we can look at that good olβ miracle of water turned to wine and find our answer of what it is that heβs referring to instead - qβs baptism is in blood. giving up lofty ideals and embracing the carnage of holiness, indeed.
[ send me a snippet of my writing and iβll give you commentary on it! ]
#ask box#zrenia#dvd fic commentary#long.post#thank you very much for letting me ramble about this ive been wanting to talk about it for aaaages#the wine-water-blood metaphor especially. i havenβt been able to share that at all yet and i quite like it#this fic was just so fun i love it very much
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heehoo magolor doodles
so i did a few magolor doodles in class for the past few days so like
heres the egg [ft some drawn to life characters cause I made magolor in the game for no reason]
also bonus: the magolor in dtl
#magolor#do i tag this as dtl?? idk#long.post#kinda lol#this egg is rotating around my head#also i for some reason draw the gijinka i made of him without his hood idk why [sobs]#heehoo eg#[i explode]
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Would you give any advice to novice dsmp authors or fic writers? Like what could be helpful for those that are new to writing for this kind of Fandom? As well as for a few characters like example c!Sam or c!dream. Thank you for your time.
Hmm I'll do my best, but I'll admit writing advice is not my forte!
To start, here is a handy guide to writing dialogue for a ton of dsmp characters, although for me personally, I tend to just watch their lore and just, copy their style of speaking pretty much? But idk if that works for everyone. As for getting started, my first dsmp fic I basically wrote one scene I would've liked to see in canon, at the time Tommy and Techno talking while Tommy was first exiled, and that evolved into seven chapters! You don't have to start with any big over-arching plot, starting small is okay! It can just be a single scene, or something you wish they explored more in canon, anything! And I tend to write pretty in-universe stuff, I haven't attempted any au fics so far, I prefer writing stuff based on canon, that way you can let canon sort of guide your narrative!
As for specificsβ Writing c!Sam, knowing his moral compass is key, I've found. As well as understanding that his strength is largely a facade and deep down he's terrified. Here's a great meta post about the way his stupid little brain works.
And for c!Dream, you know the go-to metaphors, everything is a game to him. He thinks he's a god, and he weighs every choice like a chess move or like poking an animal with a stick just to see what happens. Dream isn't childlike, but he is childish in my book. He wants to win and he treats other people as things to entertain him. Now, if you're looking at in-prison Dreamβ He's terrified. Quackity leaves him powerless and scared, and he doesn't know how to deal with that, but that doesn't make him any less calculating. The Dead Don't Dream is my interpretation of pre-prison Dream at his peak evil, but as for how I view prison!Dream, if you want some idea of how I see him in that state, I have this oneshot, Is your blood as red as this? and there's a lot of prison!Dream content in my Awesamdude-centric fic Rocks That Bleed which is also where you can see more of how I interpret Awesamdude. These are just how I've decided to play around with these characters, not necessarily the right way! I'm pretty sure there are clips out there of cc!Dream and cc!Sam talking about their characters, although I don't have any handy, I'm afraid. And checking out the tags for their characters on @/dsmpanalysis can give you some more ideas for how other folks view them!
#hope this was somewhat helpful!#I'm not the best at writing advice lol#and I tend to be a little nervous when it comes to helping other folks with their writing like beta reading and editing and stuff#because I worry I can be too harsh#but i'm happy to share what I know!#Best of luck in all your writing endeavors!#asks#meta#long.post
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2. Their mother? How do they think of her? What do they hate? Love? What influence - literal or imagined - did the mother have?
26. What does your characterβs home look like? Personal taste? Clothing? Hair? Appearance?
32. How does your character react to stress situations? Defensively? Aggressively? Evasively?
33. Do they drink? Take drugs?Β What about their health?οΏ½οΏ½
49. What about voice? Pitch? Strength? Tempo and rhythm of speech? Pronunciation? Accent?
γ CHARACTER SOLIDIFYING γ
2 // γ Their Mother? How do they think of her? What do they hate? Love? What influence- literal or imagined- did the mother have? γ
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γοΌPARAGRAPH REDACTED οΌ γ [ i donβt wanna spoil too much for their story. :3 but i will say that they didnβt actually have a maternal figure at all in their life. they did, however, have two noblewomen who played big parts in their early childhood ]
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26 // γ What does your characterβs home look like? Personal taste? Clothing? Hair? Appearance? γ
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Gwenβs home is actually pretty monochrome. The colours of furniture, countertops, and appliances being a combination of cool grey and black tonesβ But they do have plants placed throughout the space, so it brings in a bit of colour! Given that itβs an apartment, though, they canβt change too much. The space itself is large, as far as apartments go, so Gwen has space to move around in. Bookshelves are lined with different books, journals, and whatever other knick knacks they could find. They donβt really do much here; aside from working, sleeping, and sketching if they have timeβ they mostly try to keep themselves out of the house, if at all possible. But its still good to have their own space.
As for clothing, they store each piece separately. Their room is one of the bigger spaces in the apartment, so they took advantage and filled it up. Their closet is filled with all kinds of pretty shirts~ From lace, to ones with frilly sleeves, to a combination of the two. They have a dresser for socks, underwear, and any other miscellaneous items (including corsets :3). Then a completely seperate one just for pants. They have a bad habit of buying clothing when they donβt really need it, but if itβs pretty then theyβre buying it.
They actually cut theyβre hair! On their 19th birthday, they decided to give themselves a haircutβ call it a fresh start of sorts (fitting, given they were born on New Yearβs). Itβs a shorter hairstyle, one that doesnβt go past their neck. Theyβll either just wear it as is, or have a βhalf up-half downβ vibe going for them. Theyβve decided now they donβt have as many appearances to hold up, they can let their hair rest in its natural state, and take care of it way better than they had been.
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32 // γ How does your character react to stress situations? Defensively? Aggressively? Evasively? γ
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Theyβre generally dismissive when it comes to stressful situations. So they never really actually deal with them, but just tell themselves that βItβs not stressful,β βYou arenβt actually stressed,β or βThis is normal.β But if itβs an emotion thatβs causing them stress, theyβre evasive. Running and hiding until the feeling goes away. If stressed enough, though, they might breakdown. They push and compact everything into such a tight box, that if somethingβs just a little too much, or their general βtacticsβ donβt work, they fall over the edge.
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33 // γ Do they drink? Take drugs?Β What about their health?Β γ
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Gwen doesnβt like alcohol, they hate the substance actually. Given their position, they kept having drinks shoved in their face, with no choice but to drink, from a very young age. Alcoholβs known to affect a childβs brain development. (there are drinking ages in place for a reason.)This, along with the negative feelings they have associated with it, make them physically ill whenever itβs mentioned or offered to them. But there are cases where they have to keep up appearances, or just have no other escape, where they may drink enough to numb their senses. They donβt take any drugs.
As for health, thoughβ they have a few conditions, so they take medications. They have anaemia and asthma, those are the biggest ones; so they have iron supplements and asthma medications, as well a nebuliser and inhalers if the need calls for them. HRT is also a treatment theyβve committed to, though they prefer gel treatments rather than injections or pills. After their incident with Richter, they were on several different medications for heart complications, and so it could beat correct, but they no longer take them. (as for previous proceduresβ theyβve had top surgery >:3, but the scarring was minimal, and healed up nicely.)
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49 // γ What about voice? Pitch? Strength? Tempo and rhythm of speech? Pronunciation? Accent? γ
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Their voice drifts between feminine and masculine a lot, and itβs actually hard to put into words how Iβve been imagining their voice sounding?? So I have voice claims! The voices for both female and male Altmer in Skyrim both fit Gwen quite well. (because of the fluctuation, punctuation, and accentβ and because one of Gwenβs parents was an Elf T~T)
Julianne Buescher β Female Altmer
Neil Dickson β Male Altmer
Iβd say for their normal, run of the mill speaking voice, itβs a mixture/in between of the two. But depending on the situation at hand, it drifts more towards feminine and masculine.
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#character solidifying#long.post#ask.stuff#ask game reply#elizabeth-virnien#gwen exicor#((this took so long to answer iβm so sorry T~T
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π¦ time for crab π¦
today i summoned 251 crabs! i caught 251 π° of them. 250 fell in love with me π
group picture!!!
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#time for crab#so you know the 250 crabs i beloved well um. :)#long.post#i am so sorry to all who see this shit
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Hello.
What is Karl's lore outside of tftsmp.
I have watched tftsmp but outside of that I only seen a few clips and 1 library building stream (that bbh mostly did)
hi! so most of the lore karl does now is tftsmp and what you watched w the building stream was part of a series that was mostly just building that i think he was callingΒ βafter the talesβ which is probably what youβd look up to find them? there isnβt any good playlists of his dsmp streams/lore that iβve see unfortunately. you can probably cherry pick his vods from the massive feral boys vods playlist, try this karl vods playlist, or find early stuff byΒ looking on archive.org and sorting by 2020
but itβs also worth noting that he did lore before tftsmp started, it was just more along the line of improv lore. vod links and specific info are below the cut but here are some general things that are essential to his character beyond tftsmp:
his involvement in manberg and switching to help pogtopia in the war (+his country, rutabagville)
his relationship with first sapnap that became a polyam relationshup between him, sapnap, and quackity
sacrificing a canon life to establish the independence of el rapids
establishing kinoko kingdom with george and sapnap
iβll be honest with you and say that i havenβt seen all of his early dsmp vods but he was involved in the manberg era and famously switched sides mid-war (he has a bit where he says that he was always on pogtopiaβs side). he actually moderated part of the debate between POG2020 and SWAG2020 if youβve seen that (hereβs quackityβs vod).Β hereβs a few random vods i can think of from pre nov 16:
karl and sap build eiffel tower for honeymoon
building haunted mansion
karl establishing a country called rutabagville
election day
i canβt find his nov 16 vod :( but he was on other pplβs streams
he also was involved in rebuilding lβmanburg and generally was part of new lβmanburg, doing a bunch of building during that era.
my favorite of his early lore, though, comes from the mexican lβmanburg/el rapids arc which you want watch in its entirety HERE (you can skip the first vod). heβs not in the early parts of this arc and joins the country a bit late.Β the stream that is most essential to his lore though is actually a quackity stream, where he loses a canon life. i recommend all of it though because itβs awesome improv lore and super interesting imo.
he also appeared on a bbh egg stream and was defending quackity once but i canβt for the life of me remember when that was
karlβs lore is super interesting but sometimes hard to find because a lot of it happens on other peopleβs streams (especially quackity and sapnapβs) and so many off his vods were lost to time. you can read about a lot of it on his wiki page though too!Β
#if anyone has anything to add feel free!#i've only been here since late nov 2020 so obv i have a content bias toward after that#karl jacobs#karl#answered#anonymous#long.post
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so like
this is my just typing out what i think, also forgive the mess cause im not organized its not supposed to beΒ
so if ur reading this im sorry (and this isnt a callout, i dont have your username or any of your social media info in here and everything is blocked out, im trying to heckin defend myself cause i hate being called a liar, why would i lie about something like this, also of course im upset. my mother tries to gaslight me and call me a liar and make me feel bad and mess with my brain so i hate being called a liar when im telling the truth and try to explain as best i can in my eyes)
it was not my intention to hurt you or anything
when i sent that about blizzworld and dva they wernt in the game blizzworld was gone for like 2 days and idk what was goin on so i did a bit of digging and sent u stuff about it??? i never said she was gone forever in my messages, that was what was happening then, and this isnt the first time blizzard did stuff like this, reinhart was removed with the torb changes like a while agoΒ
if i was vauge or something couldent you have asked me to clear it up i would have? how was i supposed to know i did something wrong if you dont communicate with me and say i upset you in any way, it was not my intentionΒ
or take a break and come back later instead of calling me a liar and names when i try to reach out to you
i was upset and crying and worried that something happened to youΒ
you said i lied and said she was gone permanentlyΒ
i did not ever say that on discord, i didnt say she was removed forever
here is the start of the confo when i messaged you about that
that was me talking about what other people said about the apparent dva bug they removed her for? i linked the video to blizzworld that someone sent me , but i guess the video is deleted now when you tried to view it in ur timeframe so its gone it was a joke when i said |blizz broke their own gameβ cause that was the first time something in the game was so broken they had to remove a map and character at the same time (rein was the first i believe cause of glitch)
when i saidΒ βoverwatch hates us they fucking deleted dvaΒ β it was also a joke cause i heard rumors and people were talking about dva getting removed so i was just typing to express my confusion about wtf was going on with the game cause when i got on into a custom the blizzmap was gone for 2 days ???
those were my last messages to you on discord , and that link i shared on tumblr that i reblogged was someone elses post about the dva breaking news, when i said they removed her on everything it was me talking about theΒ βregionsβ in that screenshot. i didnt know what was going on then.
the ??? wtf is going on thing i was typing i also also hella confused about whats going on and i dont say stuff right.
also i did not sayΒ βpermanentlyΒ β my friend did when they tried to message you about it and express their feelings about it also. they sent me the screenshots and they didnt call you anything.
and i asked them to message you cause you blocked me on everything and i was worried so i asked someone to message you to see if you were ok and why you blocked me cause i had no clue what happened and why i was blocked??? i thought something else happened. i did not send someone to harrass you. they didnt harrass you. they were trying to defend me ???Β
(also yeah im censoring all usernames to protect peoples privacy , except my own cause my friend is talking about me try to to defend me in the screenshot) cause this really seems unfair.Β
so after the discord thing i asked my friend to message you then i also messaged you on instagram to try to ask what was going on. and thats where you called me a liar and started calling me and my friend names. im not sending the instagram screenshots.( though i think you blocked me on there already now)
iv tried to communicate and see what was going on and why??? and try to explain myself and apologize i was vauge. cause you just cut me off just like that. how am i also supposed to feel. i didnt mean to make you this upset. how much more proof do you need im trying to defend myself that im not a liar.Β
how am i supposed to feel when i wake up one day to find out that a rly good close friend of mine just dropped me like trash??? i didnt even see that i did anything wrong. there wasent any argument or fight and i didnt understand??? like, no communication at all that you were upset with me in any way??? i really didnt understand what i did to make you that mad at me? like ,this just feels super unfair to me and why would i try to reach out to you if i wasent worried or didnt care about you. i apologized many times and you ignored my statments about blizzardworld, and the past mercy and genji skins also getting deleted that one time. i even sent you video proof. this isnt the first time blizzard did something like this??? so if you want to block me over this, i hope you stay safe and have a nice day. it was not my intention to hurt you in anyway and i honestly didnt even know what i did wrong when you first blocked me everywhere. i just think this is really unfair. those are my feelings. so im sorry if i was vauge or i misunderstood something. it just really hurts that you would drop me like this with no explanation and then call me names when i try to contact you to see if you are ok and try to explain. and now if you really wanna keep me blocked there is my explanation as best as possible that i had no intention of hurting you. why would i have intention to hurt you over something i didnt mean to.i thought you knew me well enough to know i mean well and that im sorry for upsetting you.Β
thats all i guess.Β
ill respect your wishes and not contact you again. i just wanted to give proof that i wasent lying.Β
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βTime is a circle.β It bubbles out of him, a laugh, a sob, desperate and hysterical.
Wilbur stares. βWhat?β
Three years ago, his father murdered his mother in those woods, and they never found her. Wilbur shot him dead, and they both lied and said heβd done it to himself, and they never told anyone. Theyβre both cursed.
And now Karl tried to kill him.
The thought of it - blunt and real and settling into his head - startles another laugh, another sob, out of his mouth. Karl tried to kill him. Karl tried to kill him in the woods and no one would have found him.
Time is a circle.
βYou were right,β Quackity says. βYou were right. Time is a fucking circle. Itβs always going to catch up with us.β
(dt!quackity lives in my head rent free!!!!!!)
HEHEHHE okay so if ur a fic writer you are probably well acquainted with the phenomenon of having A Sceneβ’οΈ in your head that happens way late in your story, so everything you write is like βjust a few more chapters until The Sceneβ’οΈβ the entire time you write? this is The Sceneβ’οΈ in devil town. like, down to the exact snippet you picked out. quackity showing up on the sbi porch, soaked in rain and blood, a little hysterical in both tears and laughter, and the exact dialogue βtime is a circle. itβs always going to catch up with us in the end.β
i had this shit planned from DAY ONE, babey. thatβs early early outline stuff, and BOY was i excited to finally get to write it when i did - this whole chapter took me one day to write. start to end. it was SO FUN.
a fun thing to pick out here is the use of the phrasing βno one found her / no one wouldβve found him.β thatβs a phrase that comes up a bunch in dt, because i wrote it in there on purpose! the people who say it are always people connected to the disappearances in the woods. the first use comes from q back in chapter two - βTommy is dead, Tommy is gone, they will never, ever find him.β other characters who say it are notably wilbur - βThey never find anyone in those woods.β - techno at least once, but interestingly his line is about himself, not someone else - βMaybe theyβll find him. Maybe heβll be the first one they do find in these woods, suffocated to death by something growing in his chest right here over his brotherβs bloodied jacket.β - and tubbo references it some point as well if iβm not mistaken.
they never find anyone in those woods. itβs a very hopeless phrase, and the ones who use it know exactly how hopeless it is. makes sense that quackity uses it the most!
[ send me a snippet of my writing and iβll give you a commentary about it! ]
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prev post is about the end of my middle school suffering but looking back on it i just. as someone with adhd, the fact that i didn't know what the hell that actually meant until after grade 8 (14 and a half yrs old) is just. i could've had so much of an easier time if someone explained to me what having adhd meant
almost Every day i broke down from sensory overload, and didn't understand how to cope or that there was a NAME for it.
i would get worked up because people didn't shut the hell up, and i tried to tell the teacher "i just want everything silent, i don't want noises" and they just responded with "well i can't make everything silent, there's going to be noises." and that was the end of it. i only started going to the guidance counselor's office regularly near the end of gr8. because before then i didn't understand that it was an option.
i went into highschool KNOWING what sensory overload was, and halfway through the year found an insta that explains things related to adhd. but only at the end of gr9 did i finally realize how much i should NOT have had to suffer before then. i had the knowledge of what i needed and. seeing how much of it i never had before then? you can TELL i'm fucking pissed about it.
schools NEED to educate people on, not just adhd, but neurodivergency as a whole because of experiences and unnecessary pain people like me have had to deal with
it's gonna take a long time to get it, but i seriously hope i live to see the day when it becomes a normal thing
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π¦ time for crab π¦
today i summoned 251 crabs! i caught one π° of them. 250 fell in love with me π
group picture!!!
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#time for crab#take two!!!!!!#THESE CRABS WONT STOP FOLLOWING ME!!!!!!!!!#also the 1 captured one was on accident :'(#HELP!!!!!!#long.post
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is this anything
#dc#.png#long.post#i donβt have a caption for this lol#man i wish iβd typed all this my handwriting is a mess#oh well lol#itβs legible enough#this is based on the actual sequel to the knuckles comic which i donβt think as many people have seen
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for the dvd commentary, this bit of devil town? (i love devil town tubbo more than anything in this world btw)
Tubboβs shaking, from the cold, from the ache in his chest, from the truth heβs letting Ranboo see, from all of it, he doesnβt know. βBecause thatβs just what happens. People arenβt allowed to care about me, Ranboo. And Iβm not allowed to care about them, because if I do, they leave. They either get up and go, or something takes them away, because Iβm not allowed to keep hold ofΒ anyone.β
There are tears on his face again, but this time he doesnβt try to wipe them away. Ranbooβs eyes are sad.
βIβm really sorry,β he says quietly. βThatβsβthatβs really awful, Iβm sorry, Tubbo.β
βI donβt even know why Iβm telling you this,β Tubbo tells him. βMaybe to warn you. Yβknow, let you know what youβre getting yourself into. Maybe you just wanna stop before you have to leave too.β
βIβm not going to leave,β Ranboo says. βTubbo, I know weβve just met like, four days ago, but I care about you. Youβre a good friend. Iβm not going to just leave.β
βYou might not get a choice,β Tubbo says with a bitter laugh. βTommy didnβt.β
The laugh turns into another sob. Heβs really not allowed to keep anyone he loves, is he?
AHHH yes this one. this chapter was simultaneously a bitch and a half to write, and also a breeze. i took like, four days to write the first 2k and then the remaining 8k in one afternoon, which admittedly doesnβt sound like that long when i put it that way BUT i was writing daily back then, so only getting out 500 words a day was misery. getting into tubboβs headspace in particular was so difficult for me in the early half of dt, but this chapter is where i think i kind of hit my stride with him and really figured out what was going on.
thereβs a lot of big confessions happening from him, in this chapter in general and in this snippet in particular. these lines illustrate the biggest of them:
βPeople arenβt allowed to care about me, Ranboo. And Iβm not allowed to care about them, because if I do, they leave. They either get up and go, or something takes them away, because Iβm not allowed to keep hold of anyone.β
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βYou might not get a choice,β Tubbo says with a bitter laugh. βTommy didnβt.β
tubbo blames himself for tommyβs disappearance. we already know techno harbors guilt for it, and we generally know that tubbo is carrying some guilt of his own but what weβve seen so far is the more βmanageableβ guilt that tubbo staves off regarding their last argument. the deeper, harsher guilt that tubbo has is this: he believes that by value of caring for him, by exposure to his own βcurseβ that causes him to be left behind again and again, he caused tommyβs disappearance. tommy loved tubbo, and that is what did this. as he says, you donβt get a choice to leave tubbo behind; it will happen no matter what.
this snippet is sad, anon! you picked a sad one.
[ send me a snippet of my writing, and iβll give you a commentary about it! ]
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