#long live the three legged gay cat named spotty

[sunfyresrider]

Vent post because I’m losing it yall:

I’ll be Frank, I’m very aware I’m not as good as others. I reread my fics and I notice consistent issues. I always am lacking in something I deem important in a story and I also have people constantly telling me when it’s fucked up. (Idk why they have to be rude instead of just giving constructive criticism but I guess that’s the type of people I attract) And it just feels very pointless.

I think I’ve stated before (I think on A03 I put a warning and ik I posted abt it on my other acc) that I’m new to writing and not by any means well educated. Literally everything I know I had to learn/teach myself on my own terms SO of course I’m not going to be as good as an English major!!! this is just fun practice until I can afford a proper education but I’m getting harassed for being shit which is uncalled for in my opinion. I think I deserve kindness even if my stuff doesn’t meet your standards. I’m not a combative person so if you just tell me what I’m doing wrong I’ll fix it without push back. I’m also a super tiny acc with barely any followers so why tf youre being mean to me I DONT KNOW.

I’m a sensitive person so negativity is too much for my small brain to handle. I literally can’t fight back, I can’t handle conflict, I’m completely averse to meanness which Ik is really immature but I can’t just fix that like a light switch so I’m not messing w it anymore. Long ass explanation and vent post to say I’m taking a break bc ppl are mean and I’m a pussy and my writing is starting to embarrass me.

Lastly, here’s my indoor cat with his feral outdoor boyfriend😸 Fun fact: my cat spotty (left) only has three working legs! The fourth has paralysis but he moves just fine<3

[frauddity]

ENTRY   :    A VERY DESCRIPTIVE PROFILE OF YOUR MUSE.     repost   with   the   information   of   your   muse   ,   including   headcanons   ,   etc.   if   you   fail   to   achieve   some   of   the   facts   ,   add   some   other   of   your   own   !

NAME.        jay. AGE.       41. SPECIES.      human? GENDER.     trans man. ORIENTATION.      after a certain age, the label stopped mattering to him so much. he came out as gay to maaaybe three people and then stopped mentioning it, and then stopped restricting himself to it because he never really cared, it just felt like a more central part of his identity for a while. “bisexual” is most accurate, but if you ask him he’ll shrug. INTERESTS.      film - most notably horror, but he appreciates all genres (musical and romance least of all). money and how to make it, though his determination to scheme his way to wealth has dwindled significantly over the years. PROFESSION.       vcr repairman. BODY TYPE.       he’s gone through a few—including a handful of years in his 30s when he was very slender, with lean muscle in his arms and legs—but his default is pretty doughy and he usually finds his way back to it. he’s still got the muscle, just with a layer of softness on top. generally compact and thick-ish with a beer belly he’s crabby about. EYES.     the kind of gray that should only exist in colored contacts. there’s a little bit of green in there, too, when he’s in natural light. they’re hooded and squinty and kind of shiny all the time. HAIR.     dirty, dirty blonde; appears brown until he’s among people with dark hair. it’s more obvious in his beard. a touch of red, too, though all of it has been muted by the gray he pretends isn’t coming in. SKIN.     he was consistently tan for about two years in his mid 30s, and now is the palest of anyone he knows. freckly/spotty overall and permanently wrinkled around the eyes from laughing. FACE.      heart-shaped and (appreciatively:) vaguely rodent-like? the lower half of his face is obscured by his beard, but you can make out the squarish shape of his chin and that his jaw is a little weak, the area affected first by his weight. he has full, pink lips and dislikes his upper one (it sticks out because of his overbite), so his mustache stays as long as is possible without edging into unkempt territory. round cheeks even when he’s on the slimmer side. a very straight, pointy nose that he twitches like samantha from bewitched when he’s wrapped up in something. HEIGHT.        5'6″. COMPANIONS.    his coworker, mike. his cats. ANTAGONISTS.     mr. harry plinkett. COLORS.     beige and blue, the lightning fast colors. loves halloween-y ones, though: orange and green and purple. he’d live under garish spooky gel lighting if he could. FRUITS.      cherries feel right for some reason. special love for the amarena variety in particular. DRINKS.    coffee. sometimes has a bottle of water nearby, but lots and lots of coffee. ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGES   ?    too often. beer most frequently, and usually out of the bottle, but sometimes he’ll find an unfamiliar brew in a fancy little can and buy them because they’re cute. his favorite brewery is new glarus, out of wisconsin. on rare occasions, he’ll have vodka (mixed) or whiskey (straight), and rarer still, a glass of red wine, usually when he’s trying to make himself seem like an adult. he LOVES pumpkin ale. SMOKES   ?     nope, but mike used to do it pretty often around him. DRUGS   ?      he has control issues, so no, not really. he knows what alcohol does to him, at least, so he doesn’t have to think too hard about that being a drug too. he’s tried a few things and disliked them. DRIVERS LICENSE   ?    yep! drives a hoopty that is impeccably clean on the inside.

TAGGED BY   :      grabbed it from @perceives!      TAGGING   :     @miscreating​ / @videokill​ / @borneoink, for anyone and everyone. same goes for you, @timetear! also you and you and you. everyone take this.