#lol okie but he’s telling her lies ALL DAY lol maybe this would be deserved 😰

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Lies 🌹💔💫 // Twiyor Month @twiyorbase

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Show Me (Breaking...Alternate Ending #4) Continuation of #2 & #3)

Show Me  #3

A/N: I lied, there’s gonna be more. Maybe this’ll fix my motivation…? I’m watching Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt and it is so good!!!

Wordcount: 1273

Warnings: Vomit, language. confrontation? 

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It all must continue, the end is near for this line…

A few weeks passed by and you didn’t talk to anyone. You made a deal with Rachel to have her get everyone ready in the morning and you would do all of the tedious tasks. She tried to ask you why but you avoided it. It was the beginning of October and you weren’t doing well. Mentally or Physically. You were constantly tired and in pain. The nausea didn’t help either.  It was practically 24/7, you had to start carrying a bucket around with you to make sure you wouldn’t make a mess. Eliza had received a letter regarding her father. Apparently he had a bad spell and it required for them to leave earlier than expected. Everyone was preparing to leave that day so you stayed in your room, not wanting to risk running into anyone for too long. You stared down at the blank page and then to the quill in your head, you wanted to write but didn’t know what. That’s when your heard a knock at your door.

“Did you need something, Rachel?” You asked, keeping your eyes trained on the paper. You heard your door open.

“I cannot speak for Rachel, but yes, I do need something…” You shot up from your seat and turned around.

“Mr. Hamilton! W-What are you doing here…?” He sighed and closed the door behind him, taking a step towards you.

“I need to talk to you, Titania. And please, do not call me ‘Mr. Hamilton’. It isn’t like you!”

“Then what is ‘like me’?”

“Liveliness, incredible wit, impeccable wordplay, those things are like you! Please Y/N, tell me what’s taking those things away.” He sounded genuine.

“What did you expect to happen? I realized how stupid I was! You could never care for me the way you do for Eliza and I would never ask that of you! Why even try? I’ve already made enough mistakes, I shouldn’t drag you into making more!”

“But you aren’t dragging me Y/N, I made those choices of my own acc-”

“But that’s not how everyone else would see it! I’m the woman in this situation, ultimately it would be my fault! I would be the one to ‘seduce’ you, to ‘lure’ you away from your devoted family.” You felt your chest ache. “I ruined the one thing I wanted most…” Alex shook his head.

“You haven’t ruined anything!”

“Don’t try and fool me, Mr. Hamilton! I know what I’ve done…I know…” You clutched onto your desk as Alex came closer to you.

“Alex, not Mr. Hamilton. It’s Alex.” He insisted. You looked down at the ground.

“Hamilton-”

“Alex!” He placed his hand under your chin and raised your head to meet his eyes.

“Hamil-”

“It’s Alex!”

“Why do you even care? I don’t understand!” You hugged your chest.

“What do you mean ‘why’? You’ve been there for me through all of this! Of course I’m going to care once you start ignoring me!”

“You’re married, Alex! And we… Eliza doesn’t deserve this after everything that’s happened…” He looked at you sadly, pushing a strand of hair out of your face.

“Titania, listen to me okay? I love Eliza, with every ounce of my soul! But that doesn’t mean I don’t love you as well. Perhaps it is not in the same way, but I have always believed that you can love more than one person.”

“Did you love Maria too?” You asked, he frowned slightly.

“In a way, yes. I was quite fond of her.”

“And…Laurens?” He closed his eyes and thought for a moment.

“I would believe so, yes. He was definitely… different.”

“What…happens now?”

“That would be up to you. I respect your decisions and will follow your example. I want you to be happy.” He smiled at you. The clang of wheels against the ground could be heard from outside your window.

“That would be you, I suppose.”

“Come, everyone would love to say goodbye to you.” He encouraged. You were hesitant but reluctantly followed him out into the main room. Philip immediately was by your side.

“Y/N! Are you alright? You’ve been acting strange lately and I wasn’t sure what to do-”

“Shh, calm down Sunny! I’m… I’m sorry for worrying you. I’ve actually missed you a lot, I’m just really dumb sometimes.” You let out a nervous chuckle.

“You aren’t stupid! We’re going to be away for awhile so you better write back to me or else I’ll miss you too much!” I’ve missed this…

“I will, I promise.” Eliza approached you, holding Willy in one arm and giving you a hug with the other. “Hey, Eliza…”

“Don’t sound so forlorned, Dear!  This is going to be a happy trip for us once my father gets better. You’ll finally have some alone time!” She laughed.

“I’ll try…” She took another look at you, as if she was trying to figure something out.

“You look different, Dear…Are you sure you’re alright?”

“Um, yes? I think I;m fine now?” You raised your eyebrow incredulously.

“Huh…must just be my imagination!” You said goodbye to all of the other children. Well, except Angie. You looked over at her and she just nodded, you decided to be optimistic and hoped it was a good nod. You watched from the window as the carriages pulled out and moved away from the estate. You sighed, a voice rang out from behind you and made you jump.

“So, when were you planning on telling me about you and Alexander?” The voice said. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck! Not another person!

“Rachel… I have no idea what you’re talking about.” She crossed her arms and raised an eyebrow.

“Really? Did you really think a fourteen year old can keep a secret like this?”

“Angie… God, I’m so sorry Rachel!”

“Child, I’m not angry with you! I’m just confused, why would you do this?” She asked, you could tell she was slightly disappointed.

“I…I don’t really know.”

“Do you love him?”

“What is love even supposed to feel like?” You shot back in frustration, her emerald eyes flashed for a moment. It wasn’t in anger, more just realization. She heaved a heavy sigh.

“Love…isn’t really ‘supposed’ to feel any particular way. I always take my father into question with that one.”

“Your father?” You’d never heard her talk about him before, actually…

“Haven’t you ever wondered why I never talk about family? Or why I work here?” It’s not like you hadn’t thought about it before. “My actual name is Rachel Marie Sky, I’m a bastard child. My father had an affair with a French prostitute, which I’m sure you can imagine, was my mother. He was married so, no one could know about me except for his family and a few close friends. How does a married man cheat if he truly loves his partner? That’s something I asked myself a lot when I was younger. Now that I’m a grown woman, I think I understand a bit more. Love is very complex, we has humans try to figure it out but, we can’t. Maybe you do love him, maybe you don’t. But either way, I hope you’re prepared for the consequences. God only knows how many there are.” She turned around and left you without another word.  You felt sick.

Sicker than sick.

You darted off to your room, you forgot to grab your bucket from there. You busted through the door and fell in front of the wooden bin. Your stomach wrenched. 

What the hell is wrong with me?!