#lol idk what it is about the winter that makes me want to rewatch shows I’ve seen a million times

[winnie-the-monster]

Missing them ❤️🥺

[love-hope-faith-feels-like-a-lie]

Hi! I'm starting my annual tradition of rewatching random Gilmore Girls episodes and would love to hear your favorite and least favorite GG couples! In order if you want to make it more of a challenge :) I love your backdrop pic and am guessing you're an LL fan?!

Hey! Thank you for the ask! Love that you’re doing a random ep rewatch! I’ve been itching to rewatch Gilmore and now that it’s December, going to watch all the winter episodes before hitting the Christmas ones closer to the holidays!

I’ve actually just posted an ask where I ranked all the relationships in the show, so I’ll tell you my favourites and least favs for both Lorelai and Rory, and tell you why.

Starting off with Lorelai because you very much guessed right. Luke and Lorelai have a choke hold over my heart like nothing else has. On my first watch of the show it was (and frankly still is) the otp I cared about the most. They have their issues (and I wished ASP would have actually helped them grow from their mistakes but let me not get into it), but I think ultimately they just work so well for each other!

Going onto least fav, there is no surprise that it’s Lorelai and Chris. He just.. idk as much as he says he knows her, he doesn’t fit in her life anymore. Even when they got married he felt like such an odd element in her life. He doesn’t work for what she’s built for herself. Nor does he ever care about his daughter in the way that he should. And don’t get me started on the fact this man just throws money (once he finally has it lol) at things like being rich is what makes a good man/partner/father.

Okay.. moving on to our favourite bookworm, Rory! And.. this on is a little tricky because I’m kind of in between. I do have a favourite tho, that being Rory and Jess. There is just too much chemistry not to be them. The way they have so much in common but are different enough that they learn from each other and make one another better. That shit is just beautiful! I wished that we could have seen more of them and we were definitely robbed of seeing more of their relationship even when they were in a relationship. Which makes the ship a little sad because a lot of it tends to be my mind thinking about what could have been if the show had let us see these two be together once Jess and Rory had grown. They have so much potential, so much that could have been and in mind he is ultimately her endgame. He’s able to ground her into reality and remind her what she can’t see or believe in, and she reminds him that he’s someone worthy to love, someone who is more than he and others think of himself. Ugh they’re just so good.

But then come my close first, Rory and Logan.. I can’t deny that they have chemistry and they have such great moments. I don’t think he’s the best boyfriend.. frankly none of them are they all need to be better, but again, that can probably be said about every character. They’re all very humanly flawed, and that’s not a bad thing at all. What we get with Logan that we don’t with Jess is time. We have time to see Logan develop, to change, to be someone that Rory could be with in their relationship. We see them live together, to fight for each other. He helps bring her out of her shell, showed her that there was more to the world then sitting back and watching it. But there are times where I do think that as much as he tried he doesn’t really know her. He tends to give Rory the choice to do what she wants but then also pulls her in the direction he wants more often than not.

Anyway, both Jess and Logan have their issues. So does Rory for that matter. But ultimately I think Jess grows up and becomes someone consistently better, whereas as much as he tries, Logan ends up repeating the same mistakes more often than not.

For the least fav you can easily guess that it’s Dean. Season one Rory and Dean had some cute moments. And I can forgive him for the ‘I love you’ break up because they were young teenagers, and as Lorelai says when it comes to matters of the heart it all comes out in moron. But once Jess is in the picture the writers really threw Dean under the bus and made him an ew character 😅😅 and it very much make me not like him.

So that’s probably more detail than you were looking for but I had fun diving into it, so thank you again for the ask!

I’d love to hear your thoughts too!

[p4rty-p01son]

What song makes you feel better?

What is your go to comfort show?

Whats your favorite feeling?

Who do you feel most like yourself around?

Best childhood moment?

When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried? (or just felt really good afterwards)

Do you have a comfort item? Tell us about it!

What calms you down?

Bath or shower to relax?

Whats something upcoming that you’re excited for?

Comfort food?

What’s something you want to create soon?

How do you feel best loved?

What age in life do you think you’ll feel most yourself at?

Tell us about a memory you hold close to your heart.

Tea, Coffee, or hot cocoa?

Have you ever received flowers?

Who is your bestfriend?

If your soul was a color, what would it be?

If you could live anywhere with anyone you want, where would it be and who would you bring?

What do your hobbies look like?

Golly that's a lotta questions (idm tho:33), I'm gonna add a cut tho cause I yap a lot

1. I'd say either this too shall pass by danny schmidt or friday I'm in love

2. Honestly I'm not sure, I tend to nitpick shows after watching them which kinda ruins it for me💀 but probably scrubs, it's one of the few shows I can rewatch without getting bored

3. Idk if it means favourite physical feeling or emotional feeling lol, but physically anything soft and fluffy. Emotionally the feeling I get when I'm talking to someone I love and it feels like, for a brief moment, that everythings going to be okay

4. Sometimes I'm not sure if I ever really feel like myself, but honestly with my ex that was one of the few times I felt like myself.

5. Honestly most of my childhood was pretty shit, my parents aren't great ngl💀. But it'd probably be the first time my cat decided to sit on my lap, I just love her so much and she means the world to me

6. It was when I was at summer camp, I was telling my friends about bigfin squid and went of on a tangent about a guy I had a crush on. And I said "I need to stop talking about him, I need to tell you about squids." And then "that's so autismcore of me" (squids are a special interest lol) I did manage to tell them about the squids eventually

7. My ikea shark, his name's lilith and he's big enough that I can properly hug him and it makes me feel so much better, or this green hoodie I have it heavy enough that it helps when I'm overwhelmed:3 and really soft and warm

8. I'm not great at calming down honestly I'm getting better at it though. I usually listen to stuff like cavetown to calm myself down tho

9. Neither really helps me relax, I don't like looking at my body. I'd rather just have a nap

10. In the short term? My photoraphy class I have a great group of friends and my teachers great too, I really love them all. In the long term? Finally moving out and starting my medical transition, it's a long way off but I'll get there eventually

11. Probably paella or chicken korma, my dad used to cook it a lot when I still spoke to him. Also not a food but a nice cup of tea is always comforting

12. I have so many ideas honestly, I want to make a film, I have multiple photoshoot ideas, and I have a lot of other projects that'll probably never come to fruition

13. Probably just when someone's there for me and is willing to learn all the little things about me like how I drink tea, or my favourite colour or the fact that I never wear gold jewelery because I hate how it looks

14. Probably mid 20s and up that's around the age I'm hoping I can start T and I want to get top surgery before 30

15. My sister doing my nails for prom, she's always been there for me and we had such a great conversation I honestly really appreciate her

16. Tea 100% although hot chocolate is great for winter I couldn't drink it every day (living up to the bri'ish allegations)

17. No I've never gotten flowers, one day I'd love to though (wether it's platonic or romantic I don't mind)

18. Honestly I'm not sure if I really have a bestfriend, sometimes I feel like I'm always everyone's second choice in life y'know

19. I wanna say green because I like green but probably red and/or blue

20. A decent sized cottage with a massive garden in a forest, somewhere that's warm and sunny but not boiling y'know. I'm not sure who I'd bring honestly I'm not sure who'd even want to go with me

21. All my hobbies are in some way creative, I just find any others boring. Like photography, drawing, embroidery. I also can't stand any athletic hobbies, I've tried but they all either bore me or are too competitive.

[mieczyhale]

fumbled and stumbled my way through watching the third season of heartstopper. i did a lot of pausing and muting (i had captions on, as of halfway through the first episode anyway, so i didn't miss anything conversation-wise, it's just hard sometimes to listen to certain things and reading it can be easier) (note this only applies to short things like voicemails or tv show / movie captions) i don't think i really skipped over any bits, if i did they were so minimal and rare i don't remember lol i wanted to see it all, i just can't handle a lot of the things that i knew were going to be in the season so i had to try and get through it in whatever ways would make it easier

part of me feels like that means i didn't really watch it, or like.. idk.. my brain is just trying to make me feel like i need to rewatch it "properly" but i don't think i can handle it without the pausing and muting and moment or two of skipping. i really don't think that i can. and that should be okay right?? to adapt the way i watch something so i can deal with it??

it was really good, to nobody's surprise, just like the previous two seasons. it was accurate, the acting was phenomenal, the music fit, it was just great all around.

i just.. can't get through it like a normal person. not when so much of it is so personal and so close. even the parts i did listen to were really hard to get through and i cried.

and it's not like using captions and not listening doesn't count as watching. it's okay for people who can't hear so why should it be any different for me to do it?? i say - trying to get my brain to shut the actual fuck up

ugggghghdfskjhlsdeljkhfgs

it's good. great! and i'm glad i watched it. really glad.

but idk how much of it i'm going to be able to watch a second time like.. ever. i'm sure i'll watch some reaction channels, the ones who do like.. the whole reaction but only post some of it y'know?? and then you have to join their patreon to watch the full thing?? those are a bit easier to get through. and i really do wanna see other people's reactions to some of the stuff. gays watching gays reacting to gays is like.. it's always a good time.

watch the new season if you haven't. fuck it - watch the show if you haven't. it's a fuckin masterpiece. but also please read the graphic novels. before or after you watch the show. either way. the show sticks like glue to the source material (part of what made me so anxious to watch this season. knowing what was coming) and the graphic novels are AMAZING. and the art style is cute as fuck.

and then after you do that check out the novellas: this winter and nick & charlie. oh and solitaire-

listen. read the whole universe alice oseman has blessed us with, watch the show, and then come and be emotionally compromised with me about it

it's so worth it

[nyhne]

Tag Game To Better Know You! Send this to people you’d like to know better!

Oops late to doing this but thanks for the tag, @puella-peanut !

What book are you currently reading? I’ve been taking a fiction break and reading The Sprawl, by Jason Diamond, which is about reconsidering the bad cultural rep of suburbs. And it’s pretty good! A good amount of research and depth without being too dense, but it’s also not a book that’s pandering to a shallow shelf grab (I will never forgive The Secret Life of Groceries for how bad it was).

What’s your favorite movie you saw in theaters this year? Oif dude I’m terrible at remembering stuff like that. Did Marry Me come out this year or last year? Because that I will gladly rewatch again and again, so sue me.

What do you usually wear? During the work day it’s old jeans and work-tattered shirts since I’m a landscaper (or in winter’s case, long Johns, wool socks, jeans, undershirt, thin hoodie, thick hoodie). Outside of work, in the summer it’s usually a tucked in t-shirt and high waisted jeans, and in the winter it’s high waisted jeans and a sweater. I live in Seattle so I don’t usually get to wear my “”nicer””” East Coast stuff because god forbid someone wears a pair of slacks casually in this goddang city. (Said with affection for Seattle, but not for its odd fashion limitations).

How tall are you? About 5’2”.

What’s your Star Sign? Do you share a birthday with a celebrity or a historical event? Libra, and Keanu Reeves, maybe? Or maybe he’s just a Libra too. Idk, I truly barely keep track of celebrities unless I have to lol.

Do you go by your name or a nick-name? At my last job I went by a shortened name, partially just to try it out (it’s one of my short forms I go by at cafes or for fleeting intros as well), and partially because my boss barely attempted with my full name on day one. Don’t have a lot of fondness for my full name outside of the fact that it means a lot to my mom but it’s whatever. Most online spaces that are relatively separate from “real life” I still go by Roshon.

Did you grow up to become what you wanted to be when you were a child? Hmm not sure I had any concrete ideas on what I wanted to be when I was a kid…fleeting daydreams of geologist, chef, non-specific scientist, civil servant? Museum work when I was in high school and college. And it’s not that I didn’t become any of those things, but I think they’ve all been incorporated into who I am today and I’m not sure I’d need to be any of those things professionally to feel fulfilled. Also I love what I do now, but I highly suspect I’ll be one of those people who live a lot of different lives…restaurant work, administration, landscaping….

Are you in a relationship? If not, who is your crush if you have one? Engaged! We’ve been together for about five and a half years. (: does that make me sound old or what lol

What’s something you’re good at vs. something you’re bad at? Being patient; it’s pretty easy for me to exercise patience and take a step back on stuff. I’m bad at admitting I don’t know things, especially things related to pop culture. There are some things (like knowing actors, for example) I’m very open to admitting, but other things like familiarity with famous movies or tv shows, I’m just bad at admitting I haven’t seen them?? It’s dum. Idk why I’m so self-conscious about it.

Dogs or cats? Both, and even though I live with a dog I adore, on a shallow level I probably still favor cats more? But our dog is very dum and cute.

If you draw/write, or create in any way, what’s your favorite picture/favorite line/favorite etc. from something you created this year? Got back into my bullet journal this past year and was pretty pleased with my October theme. Maybe not The Favorite thing I’ve done this year but I’m old and poor with technology so this is as good as it gets. https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRguKuX8/

What’s something you would like to create content for? I still have PruAus fics I want to see through one day. Not necessarily holding myself to that promise. But I’d like to. Not sure if that actually answered the question.

What’s something you’re currently obsessed with? Making a mini crevice garden.

What’s something you were excited about that turned out to be disappointing this year? My previous job- really liked it when I started, and the first half year I was there, and then slogged through the winter months and thought it’d be better in summer when they get busier but it just felt worse. Not necessarily a purely them thing, I’m sure, but still.

What’s a hidden talent of yours? My German, maybe? That might be more of a ‘nobody expects the Asian kid to know any German’ kind of thing, moreso than a hidden talent. Also, half talent, since I’m still not fluent. Did decent when I was in Berlin in October, though!

Are you religious? Spiritual, maybe, religious, no. Still vaguely consider myself Unitarian, but even then it’s still more as a community/mindset thing rather than a religious structure thing.

What’s something you wish to have at this moment? A 7,5-10 gallon tank that’s in a more vertical format rather than horizontal…really itching to redo the scaping in the tank and get a few more fish. Still recovering from the holidays, though, haha. So I guess it all comes back to money, predictably.

[castlebyersafterdark]

ok funny story... so im always reluctant to discuss star wars because i absolutely do not consider myself a fan. but i did have a winter where i was so into the sequel (?) movies and probably watched them a freakish amount? but i never engaged in any fandom, just discussed them with my family, who loved the originals when they came out. i mean, star wars is that odd thing where so many people have seen and loved it that its almost like... who didnt enjoy that crazy romp you know? doesnt make you A Fan.

i'd seen the originals when i was a kid and enjoyed them, but not watched them since. and so when the sequels came to cinemas, i was surprised by how emotional i got hearing that familiar music in the trailer. i enjoyed them with friends who were secretly massive star wars nerds (NEVER would have guessed, these people were otherwise super mainstream and 'cool' lol).

it wasnt until i saw the third one... rise of skywalker? see, even the names confuse me haha. it was winter of 2019, and i had just watched... wait for it... stranger things 3! haha!

so basically i had a showing booked and dragged myself there with friends, because i was actually super into st3 at the time and wanted to keep watching that lol. i'd delayed watching ST3 in summer, because i'd turned off the first episode as soon as they butchered mike and eleven lmao. PISSED. so gave up. returned half a year later, stubborn as hell, and loved the scoops storyline. had given up on mileven. will was obviously gay, i was sad, cos i knew it meant heartbreak and pain was coming. little did i know. ANYWAY.

so we get to the movies and i get SO INTO STAR WARS.

i just loved the epicness, the vibe, i was emotional and loved the camp of it all, but mostly the worldbuilding, like - that kintsugi helmet? kylo ren with the glowing red cracked helmet? i eat up that stylistic shit. he was iconic. i rewatched the previous two again and just got so into it and the whole thing.

honestly it was such a fever dream and i havent watched or thought about them since, except to be like 'oh yeah, that was when i was watching st3 for the first time'. so my question to you vinny, is.... do you think that there actually was any romance between kylo ren and rey? were fans reading into it? was their kiss romantic or was it a complex, deep thank you and soulful connection, a goodbye?

i saw so many people angry that he just died after they kissed, and sometimes it reminds me of stranger things and byler. like, how pissed people would be if will or mike just died after they kissed. but i err on the side of understanding that... well, yeah, relationships are complex. and if i met someone who was a soulmate and saved the world with them, and wanted to thank them intimately, i could see how a kiss does not always mean sex or romance. sometimes it means love, desperate emotion, intensity, idk. its odd being outside of it now, looking back at how upset i was at the time. i wonder if i'll feel that way in future about ST, if s5 doesnt go the way i want. how odd it'll be to look back and be like 'oh yeah, remember when i was SO into that. ah well.' I mean, that's what i did when s3 dropped.

This was a really fun anecdote, thank you for sharing!! I love hearing how other people got into things and it's interesting how much of a cultural pillar Star Wars is and yet, there's so many different times and ways that people get into it, or not get into it, people's relationships with the franchise.

Now - you gotta take my opinions as someone who grew up really into them, when I was younger I loved the originals but as a kid thought the prequels were super cool (not so much as I got older but I'm at least fond for nostalgia sake). I... have complicated feelings about the sequels. But, that's ok to have different experiences!! I think it meant something very different to us. I, being someone who had a lifetime of liking Star Wars stuff, having opinions, considering myself a Fan. But, a fan who has an issue with the typical Star Ward fanboy (I think we can recognize the type). I wasn't the fondest of the sequel movies just because I had hiiiiiiiigh expectations and the story wasn't what I thought it was gonna be.

Gotta hand it to them for world building and evocative emotions based on design and set. Defining element that makes Star Wars is what it is. With you there!! Oh, the camp is there, for sure. Which is partially why I much rank Originals -> Prequels -> Sequels (though most Fans and non-fans rank this way). But, we take away different things from the same media.

Rey and Kylo. Oh boy. What a can of worms. May just be Theeee controversial relationship of our era. I... can't say I'm the most fond but I can't say I'm the most fond of many decisions in those movies. But - not as vitriol inducing as many online feel. I'm very eh, but I'm eh on the whole of it. The thing is - I'm not against the idea of this enemies to lovers thing that people seem to put those two into, but it's just kinda weirdly portrayed. I don't know. I really don't know if that was really romance. I only saw Rise of Skywalker once and that was enough for me. I think Kylo always was gonna die with the way they formatted the series. It was weird. It was just a weird relationship. I'm still not sure I bought the romance? I just think t could have been good but to me it wasn't and then he just dies like that? But I was much more concerned with other characters outcomes so he was almost an after thought to me by that point.

I have so many complicated emotions about that sequel series I don't even know how to talk about it so condensed right now because everyone's very focused on that relationship but it's genuinely the least of my problems with the series and I don't know that I want to dig into all of it. MESSY.

But... gosh, thinking of that kind of storyline and fate for Byler really makes me boil. No!! I find no catharsis in the series long build up and One Big Moment and then - tragic, it's over. Ugh. Blah. Gag. I hate it, actually. There's a difference where something truly is a tragedy instead of just having a tragic end for cheap emotion. I'd find it cheap emotion! Like so soooo many decisions in SW. So much in the new movies felt unearned. And for Byler, we've earned a happy ending. To give us the horribly sad ending? That's so cruel. Sometimes tragedy feels good, in that we feel something moving. I have to be honest and I don't think Mike or Will dying right after confession love or sharing a kiss would feel moving (and spoiler spoiler I don't believe we have to worry about this at all, just riffing).

Sorry this was kind of a disaster of an ask. SW is very very very messy and complicated in my brain and cracking open that can of worms is why I let this ask sit for a few weeks before answering and I still don't have much to say. And also an ending point - if anyone really loved the sequel series - I feel no love lost! It's all good!! Like I said, the same media can mean very different things to different people.

[mazojo]

Winter 2021 Anime Opinions

As always its that time of the year I pretend to be an anime connoisseur and leave my review on this seasons anime so take it with a grain of salt asdfgh from the one I enjoyed the least to the most.

Wave!!: Surfing Yappe!! (TV)

You are seeing currently the only probably best thing about Wave asdfghj Tanaka bby I am SO sorry you got stuck here,,,,, Its bad because I had so many expectations for Wave but it just...... isn’t very good? The characters feel 2 dimensional, animation is veeeery average and the plot is all over the place? Dont even get me started on the Shou situation plot device that they just brushed over and went on with and,,,,,big sigh

Urasekai Picnic

To be honest is not very fair to compare this one to the rest as ive only watched the first 2 eps but ill catch up eventually asdfghj its not bad just that the plot didnt capture me as much as I hoped but the two main characters cutiess the plot just confuses me asdfgh but I don't have much to say about it

Yakusoku no Neverland 2nd Season

So uh anyways Chile I don't wanna talk about it the only reason this is not dead last is because RayEmma cute moments but yeah don't watch this clown show go read the manga for self care ✨

Jaku-Chara Tomozaki-kun

The only reason this is here is because she. The main girl I cant remember the name of sucks and main dude is very normal asdfgh the plot is basically “Want people to like you? change everything about yourself and become a normie robot!!!” ASDFGHJ Like its so over the top and cringe at times it becomes very confusing but hey I am not caught up either so I may change opinions (x doubt tho)

2.43: Seiin Koukou Danshi Volley-bu

From this point onwards I basically like everything. 2.43 Started suuuuper strong for me, definitely thought it would be one of my favs this season but as the eps went by I just.... kinda lost interest asdfgh? Like its not bad, but its a sort of mix between Stars Align and Haikyuu where I would have loved a more character based story with dark subplots like Stars Align but got the parts I always criticize about Haikyuu were there was a point I didn't really knew any of the characters? ASDFGH like the enemy team is super cool and Love their designs but if you ask me to tell you anything about them I already forgot rip. Its still cute and the animation is cool but yeah it kind of disappointed me in the end a bit ;w;

Shingeki no Kyojin: The Final Season

AOT Is so sexci because it keeps on hurting me and I come back every-time for it ASDFGHJ Not much to say that hasn't been said, characters are super interesting, plot is a bit confusing at times for me to follow but amazing and I just :))) could go on about certain characters :))))) but I wont :))))

Wonder Egg Priority

Wonder egg priority is very talked about right now so I wont get too much into it other than definitely give it a watch if you like the more philosophical and “makes you reflect on your life choices” sort of anime ASDFGHJ the visuals are stunning and the characters very well build, although I am very confused at times I am still enjoying it tons ^^ Trigger warning however for some heavy topics I recommend checking the warnings before watching it <3

Kemono Jihen

I LOVE THEM OKaY? asdfghjk Kemono Jihen gives me the found family topes and I eat them all right up, I love the characters , their designs, the plot, everything. To be fair tho, I did enjoy the manga more than the anime but maybe its a pacing thing? idk but I definitely recommend 100% taking on the manga and maybe after watch the anime but I am enjoying it tons!!

Kai Byoui Ramune

This one may come as a surprise lol?? Like I haven't seen a single soul talk about Ramune but like??? I am actually enjoying it a lot?? and look forward every week for the ep? asdfghj Like yes I will be the first to admit the animation isn't really the beeeeest out there but the plot is funny while also being serious, the characters are quirky and interesting to keep the flow going and I am liking the undertone heavy messages? the soundtrack also slaps imo and yeah I would definitely say to watch the first ep and if you like that sort of dynamic take it up on the rest!

I★Chu: Halfway Through the Idol

Okay I will be the first one to admit this is just me being trash for the idol shows but like?? its my list so I get to decide which found family I am screaming about next ASDFGHJ. As an avid A3 stan this gave me serious vibes of my boys (plus they were made form the same company so like not very surprised there loll) and like I think the characters are cute with adorable relationships and cute songs and its just a lighthearted show I sit down every Wednesday and smile through the 25 minutes so yes I Chu deserves a high spot and yes I recommend it even if it has like a 6.3 on myanimelist sksksks

Dr. Stone: Stone Wars

Look at Gen!!!! enough reasons to watch dr stone!!!! ASDFGH but in all seriousness I....... love them okAy? The plot is amazing and the characters are super entertaining (hiiii Ukyo Gen Senku and Chrome muak) and although it may seem a bit slower paced than first season the arc is gonna get better and better and the finale is gonna be great if they stick to the manga. Only sad that I dont get to see my pirate fuckboy but we better be getting a third season

Bungou Stray Dogs Wan!

when I say this is the happiness of all my Tuesdays I ain’t even exaggerating ASDFGHJ Does this have an important plot? no. Is it transcending to animation? not really. Is it BSD content I've been starving for? absolutely!!! Tbh I see my favorite anime characters in chibi version and I go feral, go watch BSD pogg!!

Horimiya

Me?? searching for that one gif of the side ship scene am obsessed over?? more likely than you think ASDFGH Horimiya holds a special place in my heart because it was the first manga I ever read and the nostalgia is stroNG,,,,,, The plot isn't anything really transcending but the way the characters are captured the feelings just,,,,,, stan!! Also Yuki x Tooru supremacy !

Skate-Leading☆Stars

Okaaaaay this is also me being a bitch for sports anime but like, again, are we surprised?? ASDFGHJ It may be my love for Hayato speaking but ive absolutely loves Skate Leading Stars, I love the group, the main characters, the ships, the routines and its so pretty and they are in love and like the competition and asdfgh its gOoD OKaY??? Watch it if anything for Hayato 👉🏻 👈🏻 My bastard bitch I love the gremlin.

Beastars 2nd Season

I think we are all sleeping on Beastars brushing it off as a furry show. I don’t speak enough about it and I am not one to go about poetic cinemaness on main but beastars is a very poetic cinema show and yall sleeping on it. Coming from someone who was uncomfortable at first with the whole animal relationships part at first, just know beastars is so much more than that, it has a complicated plot with critics about the society within the show with amazing characters, great soundtrack and animation plus banger plot. Pina, Jack, Juno and Legoshi best characters and every week I look forward for the next eps so I hope yall go give it some love.

SK8 The Infinity

If it wasnt clear from my spam every Saturday that I am absolutely in love with this show I dont know what to tell you ASDFGHJ. Sk8 has an amazing range of characters I find fascinating, specially Reki, very much so everything Reki asdfgh but yeah!! Its super entertaining with an interesting plot and its definetely becoming one of my favorite animes because the amount of times ive rewatched the episodes to cope is kind of embarrassing lmaooo, definetely give it a try although I understand its not for everyone but like,,,,, do it for Reki? 🤧👉🏻👈🏻

[mscalifornication]

Tag 9 people to learn more about their interests!

@longlive-allthememories thank you so much for tagging me <3

MUSIC

fav genre? pop/pop-rock/rock/pop punk/indie/alternative

fav artist? Casper

fav song? gonna go with Diamond On A Landmine by Billy Talent today

most listened song recently? according to my last.fm my top track of the past 7 days is Pretender by The Maine

song currently stuck in your head? Morirò Da Re by Måneskin

5 fav lyrics? (5 fav lyrics i can think of right now/ ones i can find in my current bujo lol)

i’m not looking to be found, just want to feel unlost — (un)lost by the maine

give me a remedy cause my head wasn’t wired for this world — avalanche by bring me the horizon

i’m growing up but i’m still young at heart, how do i make time stop? cause i’m still waiting to start — still waiting to start by nina nesbitt

and if i’ve done you wrong by not enduring this pain / well, where were you and all your eternal holy grace? — nomoreroses by holding absence

i want the fireworks i want the softest words i want what you deserve and to unlearn my hurt — crying over it all by waterparks

radio or your own playlist | solo artists or bands | pop or indie | loud or silent volume I slow or fast songs | music video or lyrics video | speakers or headset | riding a bus in silence or while listening to music | driving in silence or with radio on

BOOKS

fav book genre? rom-com stuff i guess, and thrillers, sometimes also sci-fi/dystopia stuff

fav writer? i don’t really have one, but so far i’ve enjoyed several books by sebastian fitzek and becky albertalli

fav book? currently still Boyfriend Material by Alexis Hall which i’ve read back in January

fav book series? i’ve only read 3 book series in my life, two of them before the age of 16 so i’m not sure if one of them is an actual fav, maybe actually Twilight?! yeah

comfort book? i don’t have one

perfect book to read on a rainy day? boyfriend material??

fav characters? i…don’t have favourite book characters i think? never really thought about it

5 quotes from your fav book that you know by heart? i don’t know any quotes by heart

hardcover or paperback | buy or rent | standalone novels or book series | ebook or physical copy | reading at night or during the day | reading at home or in nature | listening to music while reading or reading in silence | reading in order or reading the ending first | reliable or unreliable narrator (idk? i’ve never paid attention to it) | realism or fantasy | one or multiple POVS | judging by the covers or by the summary | rereading or reading just once

TV AND MOVIES

fav tv/movie genre? (romantic) comedy, drama, thriller, crime

fav movie? idk? i’ve always liked notting hill

comfort movie? spider-man: homecoming and the winter soldier

movie you watch every year? theres no specific movie i watch every year :/

fav tv show? at the moment still 911 and 911 lone star my beloved

comfort tv show? schitt’s creek, full house, 911, 911 lone star, brooklyn nine nine

most rewatched tv show? schitt’s creek

ultimate otp? i don’t have one? Tarlos mayhaps?

5 fav characters? Alexis Rose (Schitt’s Creek), Abby Sciuto (NCIS), Kat Edison (The Bold Type), Travis Montgomery (and Vic Hughes) (Station 19), Bucky Barnes (MCU) this is a very random collection, i literally had to look up previous tag games to make this lol bye

tv shows or movies | short seasons (8-13 episodes) or full seasons (22 episodes or more) | one episode a week or binging |one season or multiple seasons | one part or saga | half hour or one hour long episodes | subtitles on or off | rewatching or watching just once | downloads or watches online

i’m tagging @kaonoppakaos @awayfromsight @briannabaker @quelsentiment @whaleharry @herefortommo @spacerhapsody @holyshit @talkfastcal @counttoinfinityy @plastic--hearts @whatevertearsyou @iamnathanscott @chironmybeloved feel free to ignore this!!

[onewomancitadel]

As a fellow writer, I share that dreaded feeling of anxiety in regards to losing a complete chapter, especially if that chapter is over 6k. I have lost the beginning of a chapter before, around 2.5k. My power went out and I assumed I had a back up. I always make sure there's a back up as I go along. The one time I didn't and I lost 2.5k words. Which isn't much. But it's still time and effort that was thrown out the window. I tried to recreate the lost words from memory and came up at about 1.5k before I decided to scratch my plans and start the chapter from another angle.

Do you think that Cinder is going to use the Relic of Choice and choose her own destiny? I've been rewatching RWBY again/watching it with a friend (their first time) and I've noticed how little of a choice Cinder has or rather she thinks she has. Then there's that line from Pyrrha "do you believe in destiny?" Idk, I'd like to hear your thoughts on this if you wouldn't mind.

Hope you're having a great day/night (whatever time you read this).

I'm so sorry to hear about your chapter! I hope the other angle you worked from ended up working better, sometimes those things are 'meant to happen' I suppose. (o:

And oh, the situation of nearly losing it was my fault. I'm a tab/window hoarder and I had like twenty Word docs open and one of them had like 30,000~ words in it so I was just testing God. I learnt my lesson.

... I use Word docs to backup what I'm typing on Tumblr, and then I don't save them, so when I boot up my laptop they come up as recovered documents, then there are loose odds and ends I think of for future writing, or parts of fic I didn't end up posting (~8,000 words of backstory for that Christmas fic lol), and then the HTML versions of Skimming Eye that I edit in Word with find and replace for fixing the indentations, and then old versions of chapters, and then... well you can see how it builds up...

listen. It works for me. Well clearly it didn't and now I have to be better behaved.

Anyway, hope your story worked out! <3 <3 I agree, trying to recreate the lost work is generally not worth it, because imo it can end up feeling derivative and won't feel the same anyway

Do you think that Cinder is going to use the Relic of Choice and choose her own destiny?

I think there's going to be dramatic irony in the sense that the moment of being released from the Relic (the Maidens are chained to the Relic; Ravens' redemption will follow, finally, being released from her Relic; Winter is a good and free Maiden and her transformation is triumphant) is the moment that she is freed, in a sense. I don't think the Relic itself is the thing that does it.

I mean that's why the R/WBY fairytale The Indecisive King gets talked a lot about (one of my first posts about it here). I wasn't the first person who noticed the Knightfall connection, that was somebody else (@megarashadowdragon, and it was @iressent who sent me the post about it way back when). The lesson of The Indecisive King is that the Relic of Choice is more of a prison than it is something that frees you, or at least, the message it gives you can't be accepted and understood alone. (I have some thoughts about the Relics lol).

If anything, the thing that frees the king is the widow, who shows him compassion, and she herself sees a future where she marries him... and wants it.

Really funny how that lines up with Sappho's brother who frees Rhodopis...

You mentioned Cinder's line with Pyrrha, ("Do you believe in destiny?" / "Yes,") and I have some thoughts about it I'm not sure how to properly expand upon.

I agree that Cinder has been put into situations where she doesn't have very much choice, and is beholden to structures around her (the orphanage, Madame and Atlas, the mercy or lack thereof of a Huntsman) in much the same way Pyrrha's ultimate end was like that too. Even if Pyrrha had privileged beginnings and Cinder had absolutely underprivileged beginnings, both of them 'lost' in some way. But that's also sort of the irony, isn't it: Cinder escaped her situation and found another worse one, but she's not dead (yet, and she shouldn't be, that's the pain for Pyrrha). I'm still not set on that Pyrrha's death was a triumphant sort of sacrifice. Yes her death subsequently led to Ruby harnessing her silver eyes, but it's something that Ruby still struggles with for a long time - because she didn't learn to use them to preserve life, it came from panic.

I don't think Cinder is controlled by destiny (Pyrrha thinks she's controlled by destiny and also seems to think destiny is self-made, which I think is how she reconciles with her own death), that's not the thing that's hurting her, it's the larger systems in question that let her down. So to redeem that you need somebody willing to go against the narrative (against hero kills villain, quite literally; or a good Huntsman, who when he began cheated into it anyway).

Destiny is not a bad thing and destiny especially in a story which plays out other stories, and which at the beginning of it has a true fairytale telling the rest of the story how to go (Salem/Ozma) is like, inevitably going to sort of accept the idea there are 'things meant to happen' and figuring out how you get there is meaningful. Then again, I'm a compatibilist.

So my opinion is informed by that, and maybe R/WBY leans more into 'self-made' destiny. At the very least I do think the repeated pattern of Salem/Ozma is broken, and the last volume is broadly pattern-breaking. Which is a good thing.

Cinder can get agency in her situation a) released from the Relic b) released from Salem and c) not being alone anymore (and accepting it that unconditional offer), and not having to face things alone (see all of the above).

Which is why I really like Knightfall lol

For that matter, I have posted before about how Jaune and Cinder might meet over the Relic of Choice, and that's her official 'turncoat' moment. (o: So, literally freed with the Relic of Choice, just not in the way you think. It would be very clever if they did that.

Lovely to hear from you! I appreciate you asking for my opinion lol. Good luck with your writing and hope you have a good day too. <3

[purplesurveys]

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survey by tickticktmr

Do you have a digital camera? What color is it? No, haven’t held one in years. The last digital camera we had was a bit of a magenta shade; it actually belonged to my sister but I borrowed it occasionally.

Did you like the movie Juno? It was ok, though to be honest I’ve mostly forgotten what it’s about. I remember fairly liking it but it’s not the type of movie or genre I’d rewatch.

Name something you think is way over-rated: Big Macs, which I’ve never found tasty.

Do you remember your first friend? Yes, it was a girl named Kaye that I sat with in preschool. She didn’t stay too long in my school, so I haven’t been able to reconnect.

Would you rather live with your mom, dad, a friend or on your own? On my own.

Name something your pet(s) like: Walks.

Do you listen to country music? No, I don’t.

What does the color white remind you of? Peace, serenity, doves, minimalist homes.

What show/movie/song makes you cry every time? Show: From Brooklyn Nine-Nine - either the episode where Rosa Diaz comes out as bisexual or the episode where Terry gets racially profiled.

Movie: La vita e bella.

Song: There isn’t one song that makes me cry 100% of the time, but I suppose Why We Ever by Hayley Williams had this effect on me for a time.

What was your last fight about? I spilled a drop of our dinner’s soup on the dinner table last Thursday and my mom did a sufficient job making me feel incompetent and a dumbass about it, so I was hurt by it and didn’t speak a word for the rest of the evening. Not really a fight, but y’know.

Do you text a lot? I used to not but anymore. I usually get prepaid for LTE now, not to have credits for texts.

Have you ever been screamed at by a teacher? Many times. A number of them didn’t like me for whatever reason...

Do you smile or scowl more? I definitely try to smile more, but idk for sure if that’s what I do more frequently.

Obama or Bush? Idk, maybe Obama? Considering we were colonized by the US at one point and imperialism remains to linger in my country, I generally don’t take kindly to any US president, though.

Batman or Superman? I don’t like comic books.

Are you excited about Blink 182 getting back together? I don’t follow the band so I’m not sure how recent or relevant this news is, but  generally speaking I don’t remember ever being stoked for a Blink-182 comeback in particular.

Would you rather be a teacher, a stripper or a hairdresser? I’d go with teacher, and preferably of history, so that I at least can have an hour or so to talk about my passion with other people lol.

The last person you spoke to: how many times have they made you cry? Just once.

What's your favorite kind of gum? The classic bubblegum flavor is fine with me.

Have you ever failed a class in school? Just exams, but never altogether an entire class that required me to retake.

Are you even in school? No, not anymore.

Are you taller then your best friend? No haha, I’m slightly tinier than both of them.

Are you scared of spiders? I’d be scared probably of the larger kinds, but all we get here are the super small spiders so this isn’t an issue for me for the most part.

You can't eat anything ever again except for jello or apples: which one? Probably apples. I cannot stand the texture of jelly/Jell-O, and I guess I can move past my dislike of fruits for this situation since apple is kinda decent anyway.

Have you ever cheated on anyone? No, never man.

If you answered yes to the last question, do they know about it?

Do you paint your nails often? I never do and I never have them done either.

Mascara or lipgloss? Er lipgloss I guess, since I literally don’t care how my eyelashes look.

Who’s the last person you called? I think it had been Denise, a co-worker. 

Describe the last person who sent you a text: It was just the delivery guy who brought Ysa’s gift to my place, so I don’t know enough about him to be able to give a sufficient description.

Do you ever watch TV shows or movies on YouTube? No, because for the most part they would be high- or low-pitched, in a tiny screen, sped up, zoomed in, or altogether fake. I also don’t understand why buying movies individually on YouTube is still a thing when Netflix exists for literally cheaper.

Myspace or facebook? Uh Facebook, I guess.

How old were you when you lost your first tooth? I was around 5 or 6, I think.

Have you ever embarassed yourself in front of someone you like? Yeah. But when I started dating them, fucking up in front of them became less embarrassing, of course.

Describe your hair right now: Wet and slightly dripping since I just stepped out of the shower.

Do you like it when it rains? Yes, it’s my favorite weather.

Does anyone miss you right now? I hope my friends do...but I can’t say for sure.

How many funerals have you been to? None. Just wakes.

Where's your favorite place to hang out? Depends on the vibe I’m feeling for the day and the company I’ve got.

Have you ever laughed so hard you peed in your pants? Oh gee, never.

Do you like video games? What's your favorite one? I was raised around video games and so much of my childhood was watching my kuya, dad, and a number of my uncles completing games, so I definitely hold a big appreciation and fondness for them. I never inherited any skills of my own though lmao, so I mostly watch walkthroughs; and the only video games I’ve ever met considerable progress on are Nintendo games marketed for all audiences HAHAHA.

Have you ever worn something your parents wouldn't approve of? Yeah I’ve gotten chided by my mom a handful of times, telling me to cover up with a jacket or something. But her reasoning was always men, so I’m usually able to defend myself and say that that’s not my problem and that’s something fucking men have to deal with themselves. We both know I’m right so she ends up begrudgingly letting me go out with whatever outfit I choose on that given day.

Where are your sibling(s)? They are in their respective bedrooms.

When's the last time a friend got dumped/dumped someone? September. That friend was Gabie and the dumpee was me hahahah, does that count?

Do you celebrate Valentine's day? If I have a significant other, yeah. I like keeping our activities lowkey though because from all my past experiences, malls and restaurants tend to get fully booked on February 14 and it ends up being more of a (very crowded) hassle than a celebration.

Do you celebrate Christmas? Yep.

Does it snow where you live? Never.

Have you ever wanted a pet unicorn? I never did, actually.

Would you like to work to earn money, or simply have money given to you? The latter is obviously the ideal situation, but I recognize the importance of hard work too and constantly working on my skills.

If you could be on any game show, what one would it be? Jeopardy or Family Feud.

Do you know anyone whose famous? Yes, at least locally.

Do you read those gossip magazines? I used to, lol those were my guilty pleasures back then. I still keep up with celebrity updates, but I’ve moved to social media now. I also filter which publications I consume and avoid the tabloid-y ones like Daily Mail.

Summer or winter? I’d go with winter so that I can actually experience it for once.

What do you hear right now? I’m watching an archived Facebook livestream of a senior citizen who had held a virtual piano concert to raise funds to afford his maintenance medicine. The media ate it up like crazy and it’s since gone viral, so I was able to I read about him earlier tonight. He reminds me so much of my late grandpa so I quickly searched for the finished concert on Facebook and now I have it on :)

When's the last time you saw a cousin? Around two weeks ago.

Where were you the last time you left your house? I can’t remember exactly. I think I went to Feliz...OH OK I remember now - I originally went to the nearby SM to handle an LBC delivery for work, and to stay at Starbucks for a few hours also to work. After that I went to their vape stall to buy new pods but they didn’t have any for the vape brand I use, so I went to Feliz as well to try my chances there. They ended up having a few flavors but not what I usually get, so I decided to try a new one - grape lol.

Describe the room you are in: Dark, filled with the lovely sounds of piano music, and the faint smell coming from my scented candle. Overall, light and peaceful.

What shoes did you wear today? I wore my Onitsukas when I walked Cooper this morning.

[dzzystrs]

30 questions !

tagged by @bayheart​ ! just bored n thought it sounded fun ;;

Name: stars!

Gender: genderfluid / nonbinary ! i bounce between which term i feel more comfy using ;;

Star Sign: aries !! and it suits me very well

Height: 5′2″ or 5′3″ somewhere in tht general range sjdfjg its been a while since ive checked but. yknow short ! i like being short

Time: 4:47pm

Birthday: april 16th

Favorite Bands: AJJ !!!! and also glass animals and mother mother and of monsters & men ;w;

Favorite Solo Artists: uhgg . idk !

Song Stuck In My Head: undertale ost bc i’m watching ranboo’s stream :pensive:

Last Movie: blinks. hm.... i think avengers endgame? not all the way thru, mom put it on and i watched a bit of it, i need to rewatch it completely ;;

Last Show: oh lord i dont watch tv shows tht often anymore so... probably mlp:fim?

When Did I Create This Blog: oh god. sometime in 2015? [checks] yeah october of 2015 ! thats at least when i started posting ;w;

What Do I Post: on this blog, just. usually rbs of whatever the Hell I Want, but i make the occasional funny or vent post sometime lol

Last Thing I Googled: carls jr. bc . im thinking abt getting carls jr tonight despite not having had it in YEARS

Other Blogs: my art blog, sigh-fur, a secret vent blog (mostly for rbs), my blog for my tf original cont, transformers-unity, 

Do I Get Asks: nnnnot usually! i am not. popular nor liked. i wouldnt mind getting more tho i like to talk :3

Why I Chose This URL: my name is stars, ive always liked dizzy stars as a concept, seemed like a Fun Username, but dizzystars is taken so. dzzystrs it is :pensive: id kill a man for dizzystars

Following: oh god not tht many, im not good at following ppl and im picky about whats on my dash. tumblr says 126 but maybe only 10 or so actively post

Followers: HUH. 466. REALLY DOESNT FEEL LIKE THT MANY. theyre probably mostly. inactive ive had this blog for a long time now

Average Hours Of Sleep: usually its been like. 10-12. bc im very depressed.

Lucky Number: 4 !!!

Instruments: none :( i wish i was smart enough to learn an instrument lol

What I’m Wearing: gray hoodie tht probably needs to be washed, uhh. fuzzy christmas/winter pajama pants. valentines day socks. im home all day so im not presentable

Dream Job: god. no job ideally. being any kind of content creator would be cool, working on a comic or cartoon especially ;; 

Dream Trip: hgnghg. i have no clue. honestly just wanna go back to eureka springs, i use to go every october but i havent been in a few years i miss tht lil town

Favorite Food: i have an ed <3

Nationality: american </3

Favorite Song: anything by ajj lol

Last Book I Read: do i look like i read. thats a lie i read graystripe’s vow when it came out

Top Three Fictional Universes I’d Like To Live In: gravity falls, transformers animated, or mtmte.

uhh as for tagging folks. ig anyone who sees this and wants to do it !

[txtdiaries]

extra elongated tag game O.o

tagged by the main bitch @gohyuck​ thanku ray ily

tagging: @hi-mishamigos​ @sweetsoobinie​ and @bffsoobin​

O N E

tell me the first song that made you stan your current fave group and why did your faves attract you so much?

ummm I’ll go with three groups: txt, nct, and ateez. for txt the song was crown I think! nct (dream) was boom (even tho I stanned long before it was released, boom locked me in) and for ateez it was HALA HALA.

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TWO

rule: answer the ten questions and write your own!

what’s your unrealistic goal for life?

to be a millionaire by like,,, 30.

if you had known that we would be in a global pandemic, what’s one thing that you would’ve done before things shut down (if they have for you)?

My heart says miss more days of school but my brain says hang out with friends more.

what’s an unconventional thing that you carry around with you when you go out?

I always carry headphones around even if I never use them when I go out, just incase.

favourite type of plushies and why?

the long, super plush kind that mold to your touch.

favourite song right now?

selfish by madison beer (not my FAV but I’ve been listening to it a lot lately).

something that you’ve always wanted to learn?

how to not be so irritated at everyone all the time lmao.

tell a funny story about yourself (or just something that you’ve witnessed)

IM A CLOWN idk if I have any funny stories per say??? my whole life is just kinda tragic. the first story that popped into my head: once in high school my best friend and I snuck out of an assembly and hid in the bathrooms because we hated our school and everyone else in it (+ couldn't leave campus cause we couldn’t drive yet), so we stayed there for the rest of the hour just playing music and hanging out in the handicap stall. not funny but shows the kinda person I was in hs lol.

headphones or speakers? why?

headphones most of the time but speakers when I’m in my room writing at like 2 a.m.

craving any food right now? what are you craving?

at all times I am craving chicken alfredo

which music streaming platform do you prefer? why?

I use Spotify!

ten questions (by raya, answered)

1. favorite item of clothing?

I really like a lot of my long trench coat jackets I have! I think they’re rly classy and pull an outfit together.

2. if you had to smell like one scent for the rest of your life what would it be?

Lavender OR the oatmeal and shea butter body wash I use bc it smells lovely.

3. favorite painter? why?

I don’t really have one.

4. what’s your favorite horror movie (and if you don’t like horror, why not?)?

Silent Hill just bc it was the first ever like, FUCKED horror movie I ever watched without my parents.

5. iphone or android?

Iphone.

6. favorite tiktok trend (and if you don’t like tiktok, you can talk about how much influencers suck)?

I don’t have tik tok nor do I like it but I REALLY like the one trend where people play i’m just a kid by simple plan in the background and recreate their kid pictures (only bc I’m a nostalgia enthusiast lmao).

7. if you could wake up with any new ability what would it be?

I’d want the ability to time travel / teleport.

8. favorite superhero/supervillain/antihero?

Peter Parker / Spiderman has been my favorite since I was a kid (Tom Holland is v cute and amazing, but my personal fav is Andrew Garfield just bc his Peter was so SOFT and patient and dorky).

9. if you could only dress in one color for the rest of your life which color would it be?

black.

10. who’s your ult and give me five reasons why.

my ult is na jaemin (he’s the literal sun, his smile is beautiful, he’s fkn weird, he’s patient, and he’s kind).

ten questions of my own:

what is your favorite movie of all time?

describe your childhood in three words?

favorite holiday?

favorite vacation spot?

what do you think of the education system? are u a fellow slave to the gpa?

what is your hair color?

what talent do you wish you had?

what is your major + why (if you’re in hs, what do you plan on majoring in)?

do you like kids or do you merely tolerate them?

any pets?

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THREE

rule: bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, then tag nine people.

AIR ༉⋆͙̈

i have small hands / i love the night sky / i watch animals and birds when i pass them by / i drink herbal tea / i wake to see the dawn / the smell of dust is comforting / i’m valued for being wise / i prefer books to music / i meditate / i find joy in learning new truths from the world around me

FIRE ༉⋆͙̈

i don’t have straight hair / i like to wear ripped jeans and overalls / i play an organized sport / i love dogs / i am not afraid of adventure / i love to talk to strangers / i always try new foods / i enjoy road trips / summer is my favorite season / my radio is always playing

WATER ༉⋆͙̈

i wear bracelets on my wrists / i love the bustle of the city / i have more than one set of piercings / i read poetry / i love the sound of a thunderstorm / i want to travel the world / i sleep past midday most days / i love simply lit dinners and fluorescent signs / i rewatch kids shows out of nostalgia / i see emotions in colors not words

EARTH ༉⋆͙̈

i wear glasses or contacts / i enjoy doing the laundry / i am a vegetarian or vegan / i have an excellent sense of time / my humor is very cheerful / i am a valued advisor to my friends / i believe in true love / i love this chill of mountain air / i’m always listening to music / i am highly trusted by the people in my life

AETHER ༉⋆͙̈

i go without makeup in my daily life / i make my own artwork / i keep on track of my tasks and time / i always know true north / i see beauty in everything / i can always smell flowers / i smile at everyone i pass by / i always fear history repeating itself / i have recovered from a mental disorder / i can love unconditionally

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FOUR

the ultimate tag: answer whichever ones you want to because there are a lot and then tag a few blogs you’d like to get to know better!

PERSONAL

name: n/a (lol)

nickname: lana

birthday: April 19 2000

zodiac: aries bitches we ride at dawn

nationality: american (gag)

languages: English, Spanish, some Korean, some French

gender: female

sexuality: idk man. straight? I guess?? (im romantically attracted to males + females but not sexually attracted to females) god. who fkn knows.

height: 5'3 ish

BLOG STUFF

inspiration for muse: idk! music I guess. it gives me lots of inspo

meaning behind my url: I wanted to represent my blog with something really intimate and chronologically laid out, and also personal. txt for Tomorrow X Together and diaries bc diaries are where you tell your deepest secrets and for me personally the first time I ever wrote stories of my own was in my diary when I was young.

blog established: may / june ish of 2019

followers: 987

FAVORITES

favourite animals: dogs, elephants

favourite books: I have a LOT idk I love a lot of the classics

favourite colour: sea foam greenish blue / sea blue / dark coral

favourite fictional characters: theodore finch (atbp), olly bright (everything, everything), four (divergent)

favourite flower: lavender 

favourite scent: lavender, shea butter + oatmeal (I have a body wash that smells like that and oof), and uhhh the smell of fresh laundry???

favourite season: autumn, winter

RANDOM

average hours of sleep: 10 on a good day, 6 on a normal day.

cats or dogs: dogs

coffee, tea or hot chocolate: coffee

current time: 9:46

dream trip: London or SK

dream job: I’d love to work with idols / entertainers in the music industry. I’d also love to be a fashion editor / designer. 

hobbies: writing, reading

hogwarts house: slytherin

last movie watched: wicker park (funny story actually, the airport scene from wicker park influenced the final airport scene in six twenty-four, aha)

last song listened to: the scientist by coldplay

no. of blankets you sleep with: one duvet and one fluffy blanket over the top of that

random fact(s): uhhh I make up the 1% of the population that has all of: the INFJ-T personality type, red hair, and green / hazel eyes.

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F I V E

5 things i can’t stop listening to (was 10 but I can’t think or find 10 isjfsfk)

selfish - madison beer

not mine - day6

thanxx - ateez

inception - ateez

21 - gracie abrams

[wearetakingthehobbitstogallifrey]

Tagged by @red-winters Thank you!!!

“Quarantine” Questions and Answers  

are you staying home from work/school?

Yes, the middle school where I work is shut down indefinitely

if you’re staying home, who’s there with you?

My roommate, who moved in a month before the quarantine hit. I got so lucky with her, she is chill just like me and also loves watching kdramas. We have watched three already and are starting on a new one!

Are you a homebody?

Generally yes, but I also like to visit my friends and go where I want, and lately I have been wanting to travel more. Now I REALLY want to travel more

what movies have you watched recently? what shows are you watching?

I recently rewatched King Arthur: Legend of the Sword, and it was just as good as I remembered. I watched two new movies in the past week or two, one of them being Juror 8, which is based upon the real life first trial by jury in South Korea in 2008. It has Park Hyung Sik (and his cute lil elf ear) and feels a bit like the Henry Fonda movie 12 Angry Men. The other movie I saw was Train to Busan. I watched it with @abadpoetwithdreams who told me about it in the first place, and I loved it SO. MUCH. It is a zombie movie, yes, and an extremely good one as far as the genre goes, but even aside from that, I fell in love with the characters and the social commentary is very good. I CRIED

As far as shows go, I just started Nirvana in Fire and am shaking because the women are awesome and the men have this brotp thing going on and I CAN’T I know there are FEELS coming and I am ready to die. I also have seen all four aired episodes of Rugal and OH MY GOSH. OH MY GOSH AAAAA it is freaking AMAZING. A police detective loses his wife and eyes (literally) to a criminal organization with a terrifying villain, then gets artificial eyes, a new life with team of THE BEST and COOLEST people, and there are brotps and I think there will be otps idk but either way I cannot convey how extra this show is, it just keeps amping up every episode and I just sit there yelling

Also just finished Healer which is such a good show, with a Clark Kent/Superman type character who also likes to Batman things up, and the romance is really soft and sweet and the lead actress is Park Min Young who can do no wrong and the otp is the best because whenever they have a problem they don’t make stupid mistakes or fail to communicate. Bless them

Oh yes and I just restarted watching the anime of Akatuski no Yona, because I only got a few episodes in a while ago and I really need to get back to that!

an event that you were looking forward to that got cancelled?

Well, it is technically only post-poned so far, but I am trying not to keep my hopes up. But I had a BTS concert at the end of May, and one of my best friends was literally going to fly across the country to attend it with me, so I am sad about that

what music are you listening to?

BTS always lol. But also I have been listening to a lot of The Rose. Currently am listening to Halsey’s Manic album 

what are you reading?

Smoke and Mirrors, a collection of short stories by Neil Gaiman. The man’s way of writing has my heart and soul I swear. [Edit: okay so I do not like ALL of the stories in here. But the ones I love I love] (Also am reading lots of fanfiction, mostly for the Silmarillion Gold Rush AU my friends and I are writing)

What are you doing for self care?

Lots of yoga, lots of walks down my country roads, and way more baking/cooking then I have ever done in my life. I have watched so many kdramas too. And I chat with my friends through whatever means I can!

If you feel like it/weren’t already tagged, I tag @theamiableanachronism @anneofbluetardis @benyavin @itspileofgoodthings @thelonelybrilliance @abadpoetwithdreams @batmantaking-hobbits2gallifrey @madamescarlette

[kuningannasansa]

A Musketeers rewatch (that nobody asked for) 1x01

(If you like annamis, steer clear)

I had legit forgotten Dartagnan was a farm boy in this! 

His father is played by the guy who played the wolf general is Sharpe

“I was told the musketeers were honourable men,” says Dart’s father. “I see that I was misinformed” – BOY AND HOW!!

After all these years, I still love the credits so much! Capaldi and his cape turn! Milady and Constance with the pistols! 

Also, Athos’s first scene remains my favourite ever character introduction in any show. It’s so perfect!

Oh right, we’re in 1630. So the 30 year war should be ongoing… and is not. Whatever, I don’t demand perfect historical accuracy as long as the spirit of the show is faithful to the period and the writing makes sense.

PORTHOS!!! Am I the only one who believes he probably did cheat?

“Confidence, I like that in a man” – oh Porthos! Is that why you like Aramis? I can think of no other reason...

OH, HE DID CHEAT!! I’d forgotten! xD

Athos re Aramis: “Tell me he’s not that stupid” – HA! Ha HA Ha HA HA!!

ADELE!! Poor Adele! I read somewhere that in an earlier script which didn’t air she was actively working with the musketeers against Richelieu, instead of just sleeping with Aramis? But I can’t remember much about it. Anyone want to enlighten me?

This is also a very good introduction scene for Aramis thou! And so was Porthos’s come to think. All these first scenes are very good.

“You love her, or you love stealing what belongs to the cardinal?” – WRECK HIM ATHOS!

I hate that all black leather outfit on Richelieu, it’s just so massive it completely swallows him.

So, Richelieu killed the missing group of musketeers and struck back against the regiment because they were going behind his back to talk to Spain and weakening his influence with the king. Seems reasonable to me. Remember when this show had a nuanced antagonist with motivations that made sense. 

Oh Adele! Why did you keep the pistol!!

Adele/Richelieu >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Adele/Aramis

“Trust me, he won’t wake up” – Oh Milady! Her sense of humour is my favourite xD

Contance’s introduction is also great! And reminds me oh how D'artagnan met Kitty in the Russian version (and also the novel? i last read it like 10 years ago so idk) 

Constance’s 3 older brothers will never be mentioned again

Dartagnans inigo Montoya moment is just the perfect amount of on the nose and I love it a lot! xD

Athos in chains is my kink!

Dartagnan made a clever deduction, pointing out that the dead “musketeer” had two bullet holes in his coat and only one in his body. Good, clever puppy!

“He was a bad lover and a terrible bore” – Milady de Winter ladies and gentlemen. Also, she makes a great point. Mendoza betrayed Spain, he would have betrayed Richelieu as well. My girl is smart! 

“Did you enjoy killing Mendoza? Did it give you pleasure?” – Armand now is not the time to indulge your kinks. He really does see her as this vampy seductress/murderess lol, only goes to show she’s playing her role well. And she doesn’t correct him or anything. Makes me sad for her thou.

“Spain must not be allowed to dominate Europe, that is France’s destiny” – OH ARMAND!

Lol, Richelieu really needs to be needed. He organized all this so the king would come crawling to him.

The Musketeers are threatening to torture a guy. Not that I’m complaining, I’m enjoying the moral complexity, but just pointing that out for the people who go on about how the sun shines out of their arseholes.

“Good? He’s the best” – Porthos really loves Aramis guys! Idk why, but whatever makes him happy. I can deal with Aramis as long as he stays away from women. Him aiming the pistol at that guy was quite sexy tbh.

“Are you one of those religious nutcases?” – that classic musketeer humour! Bless!

I can’t tell if the guy playing fake!Athos is hot or if he just has a sexy leather villain costume. Probably the costume.

Athos is so ready to die, like mood.

And Milady watches. It amuses me how she accuses him later “you didn’t watch, did you?”. She is not that weak, she will look at the consequences of her actions.

ADELE ☹☹ Not gonna lie, on first viewing I struggled to like Richelieu for a long time because of this. And I have since come to love him but this is still awful. I wish they had written it with her being actively a spy for the musketeers, then it wouldn’t leave that bad taste of domestic violence in my mouth. He even tells her “you are a traitor and a spy” so probably a dropped plot thread there.

“Everything I do I do for the good of France” – and he does, which is the scary thing about him.

Who would take a suspicious cup of wine from Richelieu in a lonely prison cell thou. That red guard is a moron.

Poor Milady, she goes to confession and the priest gets all judgey. Idk, I’m not a catholic, but shouldn’t the priest not judge?

“I’m not looking for absolution, I want revenge!” – same, after season 3  

[help-me-obiwan]

Rules: Answer 10 questions, come up with 10 more and tag 10 people.

Tagged by @danystormbornsnow Thank you for tagging me:)))

The 10 Questions:

1. What was the first tv series you really obsessed over, and what drew you into it?

Probably Supernatural. I was thirteen and was super into that type of stuff and my best friend told me to watch the second episode of the second season when it first aired, that i’d totally be into it. And she was right!

2. What activity/hobby are you most passionate about and why?

Well I’m an avid reader, though over the last two years it’s been almost exclusively fanfiction which in my opinion is basically the perfect storytelling medium, it’s gotten me through some of the worst times in my life.

I also recently took up crochet. And I’m good. Like ridiculously good. And man does it help keep the bad thoughts and anxiety away. 

3. What love story (from a film, show, book, etc) first made you believe true love could actually exist, if any?

The first one that comes to mind is Will and Elizabeth from Pirates of the Caribbean. I was obsessed with them when that movie came out and it was just a beautiful love story. Even just taken in the context of the first movie. Two people who are so alike despite coming from such different backgrounds and being willing to do ANYTHING for the other person. If that’s not true love IDK what it. 

4. What’s your go-to food item when you’ve gotta cook/make something for a pot-luck?

I’m the veggie tray person:)

5. Surprise! The stork left you a set of twins on your doorstep. You don’t have to be their parent, but you do have to name them! What do you name them? (gender is your choice).

Ok, so I have two kids currently. Both girls. And their names are Athena and Aries (my husband and I thought that looked more feminine than Ares and he was worried she’d get made fun of if we went with Aeris like from FF7)

So I’d probably stick with the greek theme and do Apollo and Artemis.

6. You need a roommate. If you could pick any fictional character to be your new roommate, who would it be?

Peeta Mellark or maybe Aragorn. Two characters who NEVER let me down and who would be awesome roommates lol

7. Which cliche fanfic plotline do you wish you could live out in real life?

Probably the OMG there was only one bed plot.

8. You get to date any celebrity. Who do you choose and why? (Don’t worry, they’re into you too!)

Emilia Clarke. She’s beautiful and funny and sweet and I love her.

9. If you’re only remembered for one thing, what would you want that one thing to be?

Being a genuinely good person.

10. You’re in the Olympics! What Winter sport are you in? What Summer sport?

I’m going to go with Figure Skating and Archery!

**Your Questions**

1. What is your go to thing to rewatch, be it movie or TV, and why?

2. If you could only read one book for the rest of your life what would it be?

3. You’re on a couples retreat with a mythic creature. What creature are you going with?

4. What fictional character would you hire to babysit (or petsit) and why?

5. What is your favorite fanfic trope?

6. What is your favorite fanfic you’ve ever read from any fandom you’ve ever been in, and what do you love about it?

7. What is one food that just absolutely grosses you out?

8. You are only able to see one color for the rest of your life, what color would it be?

9. Your favorite fictional person is coming over for dinner. Who are they and what are you making for them?

10. How did you come into fandom to begin with?

Tagging @thelionessinthedark, @galacticidiots, @mystical-flute, @pacificwanderer, @oadara, @princeofdarkness15, @cirieael, @the-darkling, @bennskywalker, @oberynmartell

[phonaesthemes]

a list of asks

@padawanyugi tagged me in this, but Tumblr decided to eat any notification that I got tagged, so I’m glad I saw it on my dash because I like filling these things out. Thanks for tagging me! I may have typed A Lot.

Favorites: What types of books do you enjoy? Tell about what you’ve read recently (Or maybe about a book you hated recently!)I like spec-fic and sci-fi, although less “hard” science fiction, and I also enjoy fantasy. I read a lot of YA even though I’m in my 30s just because it seems easy to find a story I want to read and I’m not usually in the mood for dense prose.

I’ve been rereading the Wheel of Time series since it’s getting an Amazon TV show; it was my first non-LOTR fantasy series and I love it to death, warts and all, although I love joking about the weak points with other people who’ve read it. I think the last other thing I read was A Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue, which was a queer YA historical fiction, and it was a lot of fun. I wish I’d had access to all these queer stories when I was an actual teenager, but better late than never.

What types of music do you like to listen to? Share five songs from your music library. I really do like a bit of everything, although I gravitate towards certain genres more often depending on the season or time of day, so I’m going to cheat and pick 5 per season. Summer for me is lots of peppy pop (pride playlists!), punk and rock and punk-adjacent stuff, just upbeat stuff in general. -Weekender, by The Royal They -Break My Heart, by Dua Lipa -Toutes les femmes savent danser, by Loud -Ruby Soho, by Rancid -Womanarchist, by Bad Cop, Bad Cop

In the fall, my inner goth kid craves darkwave, goth rock, dramatic folk, roots rock, and also anything that reminds me of Halloween. -Iuka, by the Secret Sisters -Bela Lugosi’s Dead, by Bauhaus -How’s It Gonna End, by Tom Waits -Under the Milky Way, by The Church -I Put a Spell on You, by Screamin’ Jay Hawkins I could go on about the Christmas music I like at length (Boney M’s Christmas album slaps, ngl) but I’ll just skip that and say that I listen to more classical and piano pieces in the winter. I’m terrible at remembering names, so artists only: -Ludovico Einaudi -Chopin -Debussy -Saint-Saëns -Dvořák And in spring I’m usually just depressed af and listen to whatever. -FML, by K.Flay -Weird Part of the Night, by Louis Cole -Juodaan Viinaa, by Korpiklaani -P.O.H.U.I., by Carla’s Dreams -Marryuna, by Baker Boy

Do you have a show or movie that you can just put on anytime and it’s your comfort? Definitely Star Trek. I’ve rewatched the various iterations (except TOS) so many times. Also Mean Girls and Bring It On, idk why.

Do you have a favorite dessert? Tiramisu or creme brulée! Or macarons. I don’t eat dessert really unless I’m at a restaurant.

Do you have a favorite cold drink? Sparkling water, hands down.

Do you have a favorite game? The hours I have put into the SIms in my lifetime is probably shameful, although I haven’t played in a while. Don’t Starve is another contender for hours played, but I am also really fond everything by Amanita Design

Do you have a favorite part of your self care/beauty/health routine? I haven’t been doing it much lately since I’ve been dealing with some uncertain health issues with my joints (actually have a rheumatologist appointment later today), but savasana after a long yoga workout is borderline ecstasy.

Do you have a favorite type of take-out food? Indian for sure.

What’s your favorite type of exercise/physical activity? I have a love-hate relationship with running. I don’t actually love it but I love how I feel after. I really enjoy yoga. I love playing in the water at the beach, bodyboarding and swimming.

Pick between: (you choose the context)

Cook or bake? (I love cooking A Lot)

Space or ocean? (Hard to pick, but I grew up by the ocean and it’s 100% my happy place)

Chocolate or vanilla?

City or suburb or rural? (I grew up in an isolated rural village and I miss the quiet and the slower pace of life, but I do not miss the lack of amenities and opportunities, or the smalltown gossip. I also don’t drive bc of epilepsy, so I’m fucked as far as transport in rural settings.)

Past or future?

Shower in the morning or evening?

Mac/Apple or PC/Android? (Linux in general!)

Sing or dance?  (I don’t have an amazing voice but I can carry a tune without it being painful, and I love singing along with songs.)

Get up early or sleep in? (I actually love sleeping in but with two kids, early morning is my only time to myself, so I wake up before 6 most days AGGH.)

Shoes, socks, or bare feet? (Hate socks. I’m barefoot at home all year round.)

Marker, crayon, or pencil? Pen!

Tea, coffee, or hot chocolate? (Coffee in the morning, tea later on.)

Random questions:

Have you ever had any pets? (Had dogs and a cat as a kid, and as an adult I’ve had betta fish and cats, and I have a cat currently.)

What is your academic background/job field? I did my undergrad in linguistics, and I am currently a stay-at-home dad lol. I do freelance editing and transcription on the side. I don’t think I’ll ever work in my field bc I really don’t have the energy to go to grad school.

What’s something random that you’re into (even if you aren’t good at it)? I signed up for a Cape Breton step dancing class in university and I loved it.

Are you good at putting away your clean laundry right away? It depends on the day, but generally yes. Mine and everyone else’s. When I lived alone? Absolutely not.

What’s one of your pet peeves? Someone trying to have a conversation with me when they have the radio or TV on. I can’t follow what you’re saying if someone else is speaking! I hate having that stuff on as background noise in general.

What’s something you’re pretty good at? I’m a great cook.

What’s the most recent nice thing you bought for yourself? A new conditioner ig? lol

Can you sew? I can mend a small tear or sew on a button, but it’s been years since I did more than that.

What’s a chore you hate (or a chore you enjoy)? I hate vacuuming so much. So much. Maybe if I had a better vaccuum cleaner I wouldn’t mind it, but I just feel like I’m fighting with the stupid thing, getting caught up on its own cords, caught on furniture, can’t quiiiite reach a spot... HATE IT. I like shoveling snow sometimes, though.

Tell us a fun fact about yourself. I am 20 years older than my youngest sibling, and five minutes younger than my “oldest” sibling.

Never have I ever... Gone fishing, even though I’m from a fishing community.

What extracurriculars did/do you do in school? In high school, I played trumpet in band until the band got dissolved from lack of funding. I played soccer one year, was in a play another year. We had an art club for like a semester that I was in. In university the first time round, I did step dancing and intramural hide and seek  Second time around, I was in the linguistics club to help with assignments. (We were very much encouraged to work in pairs or groups for a lot of different classes. The only thing was that you did need to list your group members on the assignment so the prof knew who you worked with. My first morphology class in particular, we had a whole homework club where a huge portion of the class got together to work through assignments and help each other understand, and the prof would quite often show up. </tangent>

Deeper questions:

How’s your quarantine/last few months been? The cabin fever was really bad before the weather warmed up. I struggle with seasonal depression every spring, and it’s gotten much worse since we moved to Edmonton because of how long the winters are. (Snow from September to May/June? Fucccck.) It’s frankly horrifying to look at what’s going on in the US, but even though we have far fewer cases here, I’m really anxious that we’ll see another wave soon. Otherwise, I think I’ve adjusted. Home-schooling, hand-sanitizing, social distancing, masks...All feels kind of normal now, which should maybe concern me.

What do you think of human nature/society/etc.? I am like the least philosophical person you will meet so I don’t think I really have many thoughts.

What’s something you are insecure about? Writing my L2 if a native speaker is gonna read it.

What do you think is the meaning of life/reason that humans exist in the universe? I don’t think there is one, and that doesn’t bother me.

Do you think you’re better (whatever that means to you) than you used to be? Definitely. My adolescence and early adulthood was rough. I was dealing with a lot of trauma, untreated bipolar disorder, and I self-harmed for a very long time. I could not imagine making it to 30, let alone being stable and happy. I actively avoided thinking about the future because it made me spiral. But I was lucky enough to get help, consistent help from a doctor I clicked with, and it made a world of difference. I think younger me would be disappointed at how mundane my life is, but I’m thrilled to be boring because boring means no life-upending mood episodes. I have a happy partnership and two delightful kids and I couldn’t ask for more.

What are your thoughts on religion? I’m not religious and my own experience being raised in the Catholic church was frankly traumatic, but I know that it’s a source of comfort and community for many others and I think that’s awesome for them.

Do you think that there are aliens out there? I think so, although I think that we may not even know what other kinds of life to look for and may not recognize it even if we find it.

What’s something that’s been on your mind recently? We’re moving cross-country in less than a month (driving, no less, nearly 5000 km) and I still have so much to do to get ready aosjdoajdoasijdoaijsd