#lol Evan just getting all the bicurious experience in XD

[umbral-stigmata-unbound]

"Shut Up" Kiss Meme | Open

@escortingsecrets asked: "Stop overthinking it and just…" 💋 for Evan

"Shivan, wha--"

Was he overthinking it? No matter the times he wondered about this, it just seemed to not...suit him? At least, that's what he told himself. Was it society and upbringing? Or was it his actual truth? But Shivan was the only person he felt could understand, hear him out, and help him work this out. For whatever reason, Shivan was...the only one he trusted.

And even now, as he stuttered and looked confused as the other leaned in, intentions only half clear to Evan, but actions more than clear, he couldn't very well stop him. Instead, he just sat stock still, a soft noise escaping him at the press of the others lips. His brows furrowed as he just...settled into the moment, wanting to part and question this, not exactly upset or judging Shivan but wondering if going this far was really this necessary...and yet...

Had this entire talk been leading to this and Evan didn't realize it? Or had he? Perhaps there were more reasons he entrusted the discovery and confusion of this side to him, to this man alone...

His hands settled at Shivan's upper arm and elbow, not wanting to touch anywhere that wasn't okay, but feeling like he needed to hold on as lips began to move. It was slow, and neither of them were exploring very far. But fuck if he wasn't feeling warm and tingly all over.

When Shivan finally broke the kiss, Evan had to stop himself from following after. And he just stared at the brunette, speechless and blinking over and over.

Until finally he spoke, "Mmnh--"

Well, tried to speak.

He cleared his throat when all that came out was that embarrassing noise and the already faint blush settled deeper into his skin. "I...I mean, I guess...that...answers part of things... It didn't feel...weird at all, it actually felt...n-nice. Like really nice--"

Nope, stop, before you make yourself seem more stupid than you already do.

He ducked his head, letting the curtain of blond hair hide him as he wondered, now what?